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Sooo….I’m reblogging this to give an update to anyone who may care and to also ask for advice from anyone who can give it.

First off: I FEEL GREAT! it’s been about a month since I started medication, and I feel like I can actually breath. To be able to sit down and breath without my chest being tight and my heart beating like crazy…I don’t know how to describe it. My mind is finally peaceful. It’s not quite, but it’s not constantly racing with horrible shit either. I haven’t felt this way in 20 years.

So! All that is awesome but on to my problem: My urge to read and write and draw is almost GONE. I think about it during the day sometimes, but the need I felt before just isn’t there. Has anyone else been through this? What is going on? Why am I running around cleaning now?? Why am I not obsessively drooling over Spock and Kirk? I mean yea I love them and I always will, but the NEED is gone. Is this a good thing? Who am I when I’m not obsessed with Goku and Vegeta? All of this has been ME for years.

I can’t go back to the way I felt before. It sucked big time. But this is weird, and I don’t know how to feel about it.

Here we gooooooooo! Wish me luck bc apparently it takes a few weeks to do a damn thing 🙃

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Jim, texting Bones: Spock is stressed and driving all of us crazy please come to the bridge and say something deliberately stupid

Bones: on my way

five minutes later

Bones, striding on to the bridge: wow that nebula sure looks like cotton candy! Yessiree I bet it’d taste delicious

Spock, instantly turning around like he’s controlled by springs: Doctor, as you well know—

Entire bridge: sighs in relief

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Am I playing this game or is it playing me? Let’s goooooo!

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

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ds9 crew in some fun 80s outfits. odo is a single Marlboro red cigarette btw

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I need someone to squirt me w a spray bottle every time I hop on Tumblr instead of writing smut like I'm SUPPOSED TO BE

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Other Words for "Look" + With meanings | List for writers

Many people create lists of synonyms for the word 'said,' but what about the word 'look'? Here are some synonyms that I enjoy using in my writing, along with their meanings for your reference. While all these words relate to 'look,' they each carry distinct meanings and nuances, so I thought it would be helpful to provide meanings for each one.

Gaze - To look steadily and intently, especially in admiration or thought.

Glance - A brief or hurried look.

Peek - A quick and typically secretive look.

Peer - To look with difficulty or concentration.

Scan - To look over quickly but thoroughly.

Observe - To watch carefully and attentively.

Inspect - To look at closely in order to assess condition or quality.

Stare - To look fixedly or vacantly at someone or something.

Glimpse - To see or perceive briefly or partially.

Eye - To look or stare at intently.

Peruse - To read or examine something with great care.

Scrutinize - To examine or inspect closely and thoroughly.

Behold - To see or observe a thing or person, especially a remarkable one.

Witness - To see something happen, typically a significant event.

Spot - To see, notice, or recognize someone or something.

Contemplate - To look thoughtfully for a long time at.

Sight - To suddenly or unexpectedly see something or someone.

Ogle - To stare at in a lecherous manner.

Leer - To look or gaze in an unpleasant, malicious way.

Gawk - To stare openly and stupidly.

Gape - To stare with one's mouth open wide, in amazement.

Squint - To look with eyes partially closed.

Regard - To consider or think of in a specified way.

Admire - To regard with pleasure, wonder, and approval.

Skim - To look through quickly to gain superficial knowledge.

Reconnoiter - To make a military observation of a region.

Flick - To look or move the eyes quickly.

Rake - To look through something rapidly and unsystematically.

Glare - To look angrily or fiercely.

Peep - To look quickly and secretly through an opening.

Focus - To concentrate one's visual effort on.

Discover - To find or realize something not clear before.

Spot-check - To examine something briefly or at random.

Devour - To look over with eager enthusiasm.

Examine - To inspect in detail to determine condition.

Feast one's eyes - To look at something with great enjoyment.

Catch sight of - To suddenly or unexpectedly see.

Clap eyes on - To suddenly see someone or something.

Set eyes on - To look at, especially for the first time.

Take a dekko - Colloquial for taking a look.

Leer at - To look or gaze in a suggestive manner.

Rubberneck - To stare at something in a foolish way.

Make out - To manage to see or read with difficulty.

Lay eyes on - To see or look at.

Pore over - To look at or read something intently.

Ogle at - To look at in a lecherous or predatory way.

Pry - To look or inquire into something in a determined manner.

Dart - To look quickly or furtively.

Drink in - To look at with great enjoyment or fascination.

Bask in - To look at or enjoy something for a period of time.

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Okay so am I crazy for putting two and two together here ….or ???? ITS AN OPEN BOOK TEST

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Reluctant rescuee

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No way that we ALL have something wrong with us. Yea! No….no way? 👀

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Help, I’ve been called out.

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So at my workplace i’m in a team of three. I like to think of us in terms of the original star trek Kirk, Spock, and McCoy (Bones). Our leader is a nice driven guy who gives me Jim vibes, never sits still, very upbeat. The other guy and I take turns being Spock or Bones depending on which one of us is more logical or emotional the week of. But we are usually one or the other, always opposed, never in agreement. He’s very boomer, and i’m very very millennial.

This dynamic usually works really well and we get a lot of stuff done.

But the captain is on leave for a month because of family stuff.

Stardate 3 weeks and counting. The good Doctor and I are on the brink of murdering each other…

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Adopt a Tribble.

You won’t regret this.

Wel… maybe you will

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I was thinking about the difference between how Spock has been treated all his life ( TOS Spock) by others including his mother and then there’s Jim.

In the following scene, Amanda tries to elicit emotions out of Spock.

The thing is, Spock doesn’t need to be reminded that he has a human part. Every single moment of his childhood he struggles with it. By this age, in this scene above, he has displayed incredible personal courage to handle it. He has dived deep to realize who is he is. Neither human nor Vulcan but choosing to be more Vulcan because he is drawn to those values. 

She then goes on to remind him why he was in anguish.  

Yes, the other boys tormented him. The point is he understands that. He is a  grown man now. He is extremely intelligent and is respected throughout the quadrant. She though shows no respect for him. She tries to revert him back to the helpless and struggling five year old he was. Because that for her is when she can connect with him. Even as a five year old he had stopped opening up to her. Because - while the other boys tormented him, they were still strangers. It was still possible to process non-acceptance from others. But own mother?

The she does this.

So, after the “other boys” had tormented him. what does she think she has done just now? Has been doing? 

Contrast that with following scene.

Notice Jim, having known Spock for a long time, still doesn’t assume anything. He asks. He asks if Spock feels insulted. They both know the previous scene was insulting. This is the critical difference. He shows respect for Spock. Gives Spock an opportunity to express his emotions as Spock wants to - not how he is supposed to. Something Amanda never does. Or Sarek. Spock responds in his own unique way. He doesn’t say “No, Jim, I am fine”. He conveys how he does feel insulted but he is also wise enough to realize how emotions work. That simply acknowleding emtoions is child’s play. To be wiser beyond that, one has to understand that emotions come and go. And that it’s in our control. We can choose to let go of an emotion and no longer feel insulted. This is what Spock has been striving for. This is something he tried to tell Amanda when he says “how can you live on Vulcan and not understand Vulcan”. 

So, Jim, who is NOT Vulcan, nor tries to be, and is a very emotional man, how does he respond to this moment?

Good. Why, good? Because Jim is saying, “I am glad you’re in touch with your values. It’s good because I want you to be exactly who you are.”

Jim doesn’t lecture Spock about his human side nor does he insult Spock by mocking his Vulcan ethics, which are in constrast to all the humans onboard the ship. He accepst Spock and supports Spock for what Spock has chosen to be. And he does what Spock’s parents or family never did. 

“We’ll tackle him together.” He says “WE”. The unspoken message is  - You and me, we are equal, I “see” you. I feel seen by you. (You have put up with my kind of insanity). I respect you. I respect your struggles and admire what you have become and continue to become. With you by my side, I feel stronger. You don’t have to rescue me. I don’t have to rescue you. We can tackle this TOGETHER.”

And this is why Jim and Spock are what they are to each other.