#angst AGAIN

[xojhi]

Live through death

[marauders-bs]

evan who is the only person barty is nice to, barty who is the only person evan is mean to

[justaz]

merlin still roams the earth thousands of years later yet arthur hasn’t risen. his hope has been waning for millennia and he’s been scraping the bottom of the barrel for centuries, his hope being a meager thing - barely tangible. it’s more caution than anything, he’s been getting by these last few decades on the thought “what if i give up right before he comes back?? just wait another year” and he’s held on for more than fifty years by that. then…nothing. absolutely nothing. not even a ripple in the lake. he’s still alone.

that’s when his barrel has been scraped clean, he has no hope nor caution to carry on anymore. the dragon got one last manipulation in before the end causing merlin to live for centuries upon centuries in agony and despair, held together by false hope that hurts more than arthur’s death did. though maybe that’s time talking, he’s pretty sure he was comatose for a couple of centuries after arthur died, but the sentiment remains.

he marches down to lake avalon and greets freya though she hasn’t responded since arthur passed. he requests excalibur, and she does not respond. he asks again. still nothing. again. nothing. he demands this time for her to give him the damn blade. she does not. for the first time in millennia, he uses magic to draw the blade out but something tugs the sword back, refusing him his last request.

he yells in frustration sending small waves across the still water. he tries again and again but freya doesn’t budge. he falls to his knees, tears escaping his eyes, and shouts for her to give him the sword so he can finally put an end to his agony. arthur isn’t coming back, he can’t keep wandering. he’s exhausted, he’s run out of hope. he just wants to rest. he gently attempts to coax the sword out with his magic one last time but freya still holds it from him.

[zero06iranosaurusrex]

some angst baffy doodle after been a long time also...could anyone help me please? did someone know where does adobe premiere usually hold the materials cache,my hdd couldn't hold em anymore TTATT

[beehindblueeyes]

Thinking about Vance again. This tough kid who gets trouble from nobody- he is the trouble. He’s the kid to stay on the good side of. He’s tough and he knows it- he revels in that fact. He likes it because he never has to show that soft interior if his shell never cracks. He has no reason to fear anybody or anything. Until he does…

I keep thinking about how Vance never faces finney. Never looks him in the eyes because if he did I honestly think this boy would break down and loose all that anger he had pent up for nearly two years and without his anger what is he? He never had any reason to fear. He was never scared and now he’s telling Finney to be terrified. Not because Finn is weak, not because he’s making fun of him are calling him less than but because if there’s any time to be scared it is now. If he was scared …. It’s the real deal.

It’s the way he admits it. Lays it out on the table that at the end of the day he’s a terrified little boy like the rest of them. How mad he gets that Finn doesn’t seem to understand how bad this all is- and I can’t help to think that… when finney breaks down after the plan fails… it might have been all to similar…

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I keep making posts talking about this or something similar but I just want to cement in that fact? It hurts and it’s great and it’s horrible and it’s oh!

[ikkosu]

it struck me how prowl and lapis are so similar. I didn’t realize it until now (I sure have a type, huh). They’re both so manipulative, cunning even, hides a lot, skirts around things a lot —think they do things for the greater good. though, lapis is more calm, sporting a smile, eyes a moon crease. maybe, they’re a little more compassionate or perhaps that’s how they want themself to be. unlike prowl’s explosive personality that simmers under a controlled mask for so long. lapisphos would defn be similar to prowl, explosive anger, and violent tendencies though prowl isn't as demented mentally as they are. He's insane but not insane insane. On the other hand, lapis had a way with words, they’re able to convince the gems, but they could see through their intentions because they know what she’s like she eggs people on — never acts on it. prowl is lonely but lapis isn’t. like, ughhhhh, it’s given me some ideasssss. I want to write them together so baddd. idk if it’s like a crack ship or crossover I WANT TO WRITE THEM SO BAD

Look at my wife,

[mechanicalbride16]

Day 3: Favorite Single

Sorry if I'm late for a few days on this one HAHAHAHAHAHA school just got in the way again grrrrrrrrr... btw, I just edited this because I confused the "single" with the "music video". So as for my favorite single, it would be Angst.

I'm not a fan of this music video because I don't like how it was edited. But one thing that I loved about Angst that makes it remarkable for me is the imagery and ofc, its storyline.

Watching the music video and reading the translated lyrics made me smile because finally, there's a Rammstein song that I can relate to HAHAHAHAHAHA

if you ever wanna continue reading, here's a reminder that this is a very long post and it mostly contains politics.

3 months before the release of the music video was our presidential election. In case you didn't know, Ferdinand "Bongbong" Marcos Jr. was our current president. He was the son of our former dictator Ferdinand Marcos Sr. Thanks to the machinery and the historical distortion that was created by his family, he won the election.

Decades after EDSA Revolution, the Marcoses were already plotting and making advances on how they will change the image of their family. Little by little, each one in their clan is starting to gain a seat in the government until they start ruling Ilocos Norte again.

The historical distortion became prevalent in the last 2016 election. People were starting to paint Ferdinand Marcos as a hero who uses dictatorship to protect the country from insurgents and to instill discipline in the Filipinos. There was also false information spreading around on Facebook during those times about Marcos's alleged credentials. A lot of shit was going around during those times that helped the popularity of Bongbong Marcos to rise. Because of the disinformation, many people looked up to him, hoping that he was as "intelligent" as his father.

Just like how it was portrayed in the music video, the cheerleaders reminded me of the admins on those Facebook pages who were posting false information to lift up the Marcoses. Fast forward to now, some of their critics became their supporters and many people voted for him to be our president. I know that there's machinery involved there, but I can't deny the fact that he has lots of supporters.

During the recent election period, people were too busy scrolling on their social media, reading the posts about the presidential candidates. They were too absorbed with the content they were watching and reading, to the point that they believed everything that is posted there. That is why I literally face-palmed myself at the part in the music video where the band is facing the monitor screen because it reminded me of what happened during the campaign period.

While some people need to be held accountable for not being responsible enough in checking the information they're consuming, we can't blame those who are too tired from their responsibilities in real life to even fact-check the information they're reading.

So what was the aftermath of that election?? Well, a few weeks after Marcos was elected, my classmates and I were paranoid about our safety that's why we decided to create a group chat in Telegram for a while. When our fear and paranoia subsides, we transferred back to Messenger again.

I was hoping that it will be the last time I'll experience that kind of paranoia. But just a few weeks ago, some people from a certain university suspected that there were intelligence officers disguised as civilians who were roaming around the campus. I don't know what their reasons are, but the only reason that I could think of as of now is that they're searching for people who are activists and members of NatDem organizations.

I guess I gotta thank my meds for helping me not to be anxious about the political issues, and I honestly think that I'm already numb from all the shits happening here.

[chloesimaginationthings]

Pomni and Gummigoo reunite in TADC!

[hinamie]

to moving forward

[miss-americanbi]

was chatting with my brother about gravity falls (again) and i said something like “man, can you believe stan waited and worked for 30 years just for the chance to try and bring his brother back?” to which my brother responded, “yeah, it’s nuts when you think about it. i wonder if stan got trapped in the multiverse instead, if ford would do the same.” HELLO???

[miaogo]

Savior Au (part 1) Realization

(I know the dialogue is kinda rushed, but I want to get my point across)

Color will be shown when things need to stand out mostly

[srfiv]

this is never getting finished

[lorehappy83]

"Grant me your wrath, my dear. For I've become unworthy of your forgiveness"

[lotus-pear]

mourning black and the death of ideals

[zero06iranosaurusrex]

trying brush in angst hour while feels sleepy is kinda...something

[marisashinx]

"Why hasn't Silver woken up yet...?"