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The 4th - S.H
Pairing: Steve Harrington x Fem!Reader
WC: 2.2k
Warnings: SMUT 18+ MDNI NSFW, cursing, drinking, characters are all of age, takes place after the events of ST3, slight exhibitionism only bc theyâre technically outside, itâs that slightly awkward but endearing sex you have when you fuck someone you like for the first time. It's realistic. Sue me.
AN: first time writing smut, i'm so nervous. fast times au?? If you squint?? the last half isn't proofread bc i simply cannot bring myself to read my own smut
âAmerican Womanâ by The Guess Who blares loudly from a twin pair of Hitachi speakers stationed on Steve Harringtonâs back deck. On the hottest day of the year, The Party had decided to congregate at the only non-public pool they had unlimited access to.
To his relief, Steve had been assigned to grill duty again. The cherry red bikini you had sauntered through his sliding glass door wearing was starting to seriously inconvenience him. He had his Ray Bans on, albeit low on the bridge of his nose, to disguise where his gaze had been lingering all afternoon; the large propane grill hiding his lower half.
Lounging poolside on your towel, you hear before you feel a large âSPLASHâ, and suddenly youâre soaked head to toe in overly chlorinated pool water.
âUgh! Henderson!â you scold as you stand to replace your now drenched towel. The cheeky boy looks up at you from where he floats in the pool and mouths a half-hearted âSorryâ.Â
âSteve! Would you happen to have an extra towel?â you shout to him as you hold up your ruined one, shooting him a deadpan expression. âYeah, âcourse,â he sets down the grill tongs and awkwardly shuffles his way inside, keeping his back to you. Weird, you think.
Steve caught one look at you, hair wet and dripping, water beading down your neck and disappearing among the curve of your breasts; nipples taught from the sudden shock of cold water and visible through the fabric of your swimsuit, and he was grateful for the reprieve inside would offer him.
After close to 15 minutes of no Steve and more importantly, no towel, you decide to venture into the spacious house yourself. âSteve! â Oh!-â you startle as you run chest to chest into him, both turning a corner. âYou scared me,â you chuckle awkwardly with a hand to your racing heart, âI was just wondering where you went,â you chuckle awkwardly.
âYeah no, sorry, I just uh- got distracted,â he says, avoiding contact and handing you the fresh linen. You glance down, and notice the slight tent in his maybe too-tight swim trunks. You feel the heat of a rosy blush crawl up your cheeks, and a sudden flip of your stomach. Were you really the reason why he was acting so strange? That felt incredibly presumptuous of you.
âWell umâŠâ you trail off, trying to keep your cool, âthanks. For the towel, I mean.â Steve had never made you feel so awkward and uncertain before. Something about the newly exposed skin and the salty smell of sweat mixed musk that radiates off of him from this proximity making your mind short circuit.
 â
When the cookout had dwindled down to just the adults and the sun dipped just below the trees, a joint had started to be passed around your small circle. âWell, we should probably head home,â Nancy announces in her usual demure tone, grabbing Jonathanâs hand helping him to stand. A chorus of goodbyes echo throughout the group, eventually leaving just you, Steve, Robin and Eddie.
An exaggerated yawn escapes Robin as she declares sheâs exhausted and needs Eddie to drive her home in his rinky dink van.
âCâmon man! I just rolled this joi-â
Robin cuts him off with a harsh clear of her throat and an even harsher jab to his ribs.
âI. Really think. We. Should. Go.â She punctuates each word with a forced smile. Why was everyone acting so fucking odd today? You try to send her a panicked glance, fearing the potential awkwardness of being left here alone with Steve.
Being best friends with both of you, she was well aware of the searing crushes the two of you had on each other. This barbeque was her opportunity to light a fire under your asses to do something about it.
âThatâs okay, Rob. Go home if youâre tired.â Always the gentleman. Right now you could kick him for it. If Robin notices your glaring, she doesnât acknowledge it as she rises to her feet and heads toward the gate leading to the driveway.
âBye losers!â She waggles her fingers at you as they make their exit, sending you a subtle wink that sets your cheeks ablaze. You now know without a doubt that this was intentional.
A hand on your knee as he says, âI can walk you home if you want.â
âNo, thatâs okay. We can finish the joint at least,â you smile timidly at him. Free weed wasnât easy to come by these days, what was the harm in staying just a little longer?
â
2 hours later, youâre lying shoulder to shoulder on the rough concrete surrounding the Harringtonâs pool. The joint had been snuffed out on the ground between you an hour ago, but with your thoughts dulled like this it was becoming increasingly easy to bask in the space you two had created for each other. The desire to turn heel and run with your other friends had long fizzled out.
âHey, what was up with you today?â you ask after a few minutes of comfortable silence, âYou just seemed really off,â
He looks suddenly nervous, âOh I uhâ I donât know. Julysâ always a weird month for me, I guess,â he lies, carding a hand through his hair.
Taking the hand thatâs not in his hair in your own, you ask, âAre you doing okay?â When he turns his head to meet you, your sincerity makes him blush - neck to ears. Your faces are closer than he thought they would be. He can count every eyelash from this proximity.
âYeahâ you know what,â He clears his throat, âIâm actually really warm,â he sits up clumsily as he pulls his shirt over his head by the collar, ruffling his hair and exposing the constellation of freckles and moles he has spattering the skin on his toned back.
âOkayââ You go to stand with him but heâs already dove into the pool. When he breaches the surface, he shakes his hair out like a dog and grins at you. You canât help your eyes wandering to the dark patch of hair covering his chest. Youâre starting to feel that warmth he had been complaining of.
âYou gonna come in? Or just stand there and gawk?â He laughs as he floats over to you.
So you peel your shirt off and watch him stare intently as you unbutton your shorts, letting them drop to your feet. A less than elegant swan dive and youâre disappearing under the artificially blue water. The sudden coolness of it shocks you, sobering you up a bit.
Youâre much more graceful than the boy when itâs your turn to come up for air, gently pushing back the hair that sticks to your face. He swims over to you unsuspectingly, then in the next breath and with a mischievous grin he lifts your body over his shoulder and essentially bodyslams you back under the surface.
More than the gesture itself, what shocks you the most is the warm expanse of his broad shoulders caressing you. You both emerge laughing, âAsshole!â you swat at his chest playfully.
When the laughter dies and fizzles out into an anxious energy, the air is filled with a sort of anticipation. The two of you are bobbing in the pool, faces no more than an inch apart.
âYou have got to stop looking at me like that,â you whisper, breathlessly.
Just then he surges forward and presses his lips firmly to yours. The kiss is close-mouthed and chaste at first, giving you a chance to pull away. When you donât take the opportunity, he deepens it. Your wet hands move to hold his face, breaching the water with a small splashing sound and his strong arms hug you at the waist, bringing you impossible closer. Pressed up against him like this you can feel all of him. The scratch of curls on his chest, the bulge of his biceps around your middle, the hard length of him pressed against your thigh.
Gasping into the kiss, you give him the opening he needs to lick hotly into your mouth, eliciting a breathy moan from your chest that sends Steve reeling. He starts to slowly kick his legs, swimming to push your back up against a vinyl clad wall.
Your lips move to lick the vein that runs down his neck, then up to a spot just below his ear. He groans when you take his earlobe gently into your mouth. Grasping your cheek in his hand, he forces your face out of the refuge his neck had provided from his intense gaze.
âCan I touch you?â He shudders when he speaks, having dreamt about this exact moment for years. Your response is an enthusiastic nod and another searing kiss to his lips - plush and pink and made for your own.
Steveâs knee moves to rest bookended between your thighs, keeping you open for him. In the water, he canât feel how pathetically wet you are beneath your bright red bikini bottoms. Youâre thankful for that, but even so, the whine that you release when his swift fingers push aside the fabric and start slowly massaging your clit is enough to give you away.
Your grip on his shoulders tightens, leaving small crescent shapes in his perfect skin. âOh!-- God, keep doing that,â you pant.
âYou like that, baby?â Steve tries to sound suave. Mr. Confident. King Steve. Honestly, heâs terrified. He has half a mind to stop and ask you to pinch him, not entirely convinced this is even real. But the sweet, sweet sounds youâre making are enough to persuade him otherwise.
âYes! Ahâ please, donât stop,â you beg, even though you donât have to. Steveâs positive he would do just about anything you asked of him right now. You have the sudden urge to return the favor, reaching down between your two bodies and palming him through his swim trunks.
âOh -- my God, donât,â he warns, the sheepish smile on his face signals to you that heâs not actually uncomfortable, âIâll come in my pants like a damn teenager,â he gives an embarrassed chuckle.
Growing desperate for more, you say, âI want you to fuck me.â with an impossible finality. It makes Steveâs breath hitch in his throat.
âWh-what?â He needs to make sure he heard you correctly.
âSteve. I need you to fuck me. Now.â Your voice is slightly muffled as you begin to press open-mouth kisses to his neck again.
âOh my God,â The boy sounds absolutely wrecked already, barely able to contain himself. His hands fumble blindly for the ties on your bikini bottoms and he pulls when he finds them. Unwrapping you like his very own Christmas present.
You pull his trunks down and over his hips, just enough to fish his red and swollen cock out, careful to not let them fall to the bottom of the pool lest someone have to dive and retrieve them. You line him up hurriedly with your entrance, but he stops you with a hand on your wrist.
âAre you sure about this?â His brows furrow in that way they always do, when he's unsure. He has a crinkle above his nose.
âYesâ you half moan before getting a look at his face, âWait, are you?â
âYes! Yesâ of course. I justâ want you to be sure,â He kisses you softly after he asks
Itâs so tender, you feel so safe with him like this. You fear you might be falling in love.
âI promise, Iâm suâOh!â he slides into you without warning, nearly knocking the breath out of you. He lets out a guttural groan into the space where your shoulder meets your neck as he starts to keep a steady rhythm.
âGod, you feel so good,â he pants into your open mouth, âiâve wanted this for so long,â
His words have you keening. He wraps his broad arms fully around you now, hugging you close as he pistons his hips into you. Repeatedly hitting that spot inside your walls where you need him the most.
âOh, Steve!â you moan loudly, no longer concerned about the neighbors hearing you. The pool water begins to form waves from Steveâs thrusting and splash up onto the concrete beside your head.
âFuck, say my name like that again,â you can feel his hips stuttering slightly.
âSteve!â He whines directly into your ear when you say it, you never wouldâve thought heâd be so vocal.
âTouch yourself baby, Iâm close,â
You do as youâre asked and start to keep a frenzied pace on your sensitive bud. Having both kinds of stimulation, mixed with Steveâs sweet praise, is sending you closer and closer to your edge.
As you reach your high, Steve can feel your warm pussy clench around him, making him hurtle towards his orgasm with you.
With a strangled cry, âfuck- I'm cumming,â You finish together as hips slow and he rides out his orgasm with you. His body curls in on itself and he trembles slightly. You run a warm, soft hand through his hair and down his back, soothing him through the intensity of it.
âShit- my parents are going to kill me,â he laughs and kisses you again.
Maybe you did like swimming. Just a little bit.
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I can do that! Under the cut (we've got quite a few now, this year dumped a bunch of new kids in our lap), let me introduce:
Riley! His 16th birthday is this Sunday, and he's still an intrepid explorer. He throws a tantrum if you try to carry him in his backpack before he's gotten his fill of walking around. I've had him since he was a baby, but he loves my partner so much that I get used as a stepping stone to get to them.
Here's Kaiju, who is around 15 pounds, and can reach things 3 feet off the ground. The shelter did TNR on his wild cat colony, and kept him for adoption because he was so friendly. He won't cuddle people, but he follows me around the house allll day and gallops to come say hi when I come out of a closed room.
This is Toast, He Who Screams. When partner leaves the house, he sits by the door bawling his heart out, and he never. stops. talking. He loves going out in his harness and will walk right up and make friends with absolutely anyone! He's named after the character from Bee and Puppycat, and his personality is exactly the same.
Here's Fennel, found abandoned at a dog park earlier this year. She didn't know how to play when she was found- she's mostly learning from Toast, so right now all she'll play with is cat sized twigs, shoestrings, and toy mice. She's locked into a war with one singular, specific squirrel that throws acorns and pebbles at her, and she will punch you if you stop petting her.
And finally, this is Squire, named after the best girl from baldurs gate 3. She's actually coming home for the first time later today! Partner and coworkers found her on the street near work (no tags no chip no spay), and someone else was holding her until the new crate got here. So far all we know is that she's had impressively good manners towards the dogs she's been staying with, she's very eager to please, and she likes to pick up toys and stash them in her crate. I know she's going to be a lot to handle, and I can't wait :3
Hey!
If you feel like it, please share some very funny or cute pictures of your cats, or other pets!
But you HAVE TO INCLUDE NAMES!
Also one silly personality quirk if you wish. Or anything else you like!
I will post them to share and make people smile!
Here's Junie being fierce.
The Jeebers have weirdly long tongues for cats.
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The Hellfire Exotic Club Part 11
Just two more chapters to go. The tension is ramping up and you're gonna want to hold on to your seats. This is the penultimate chapter before everything is revealed. And hooboy is it going to be great fun.
In this we find out who the cleaner was and he gives Eddie the final clue he needs to stop his troubles once and for all.
Part 1Â Part 2Â Part 3 Part 4 Part 5Â Part 6Â Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10
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Eddie enjoyed watching the cleaning crew. They were like bees in a hive, not bumping up against each other or trying to do the same tasks. Cleaning up after some days was hell, like Tuesdays and Saturdays and he always made sure to pay extra on those days.
That said, he really didnât know any of them. The only familiar faces were the foremen. Eddie has asked the head forman about it once and was told that cleaning Hellfire was such a cushy job that he rotated teams so that everyone got a chance at it.
So imagine his surprise when one of the cleaners stopped Steve on his way out of the dressing room for a short chat.
It looked a little heated, if Eddie was being honest and was about to step in when Steve broke away from the conversation and drifted his direction.
Eddie cocked his head toward the cleaner. âWho was that?â
âAn old friend of mine,â Steve said with a shrug. âI didnât realize he had fallen on such hard times. Apparently his mom broke her hip and hasnât been able to work for the last year.â
âThatâs rough,â Eddie said, and waved his arm for Steve to go first. âI donât know how much the cleaners make, but maybe if he puts in an application we can find him something to do here. Hell, he could work in the kitchen if Monty liked him well enough.â
His chef was a thin, wiry looking fellow, but he knew how to make the best club food anyone had ever tasted. He was also particular about who worked with him. But Monty could always use an extra hand or two and it would never hurt to try.
âIâll let him know the next time I see him,â Steve said with a fond smile. âHeâs also got a little brother in college, maybe have him apply too. Couldnât hurt. Whatâs the least thatâs going to happen, you say no? They wonât be any worse off for applying.â
âYeah,â Eddie agreed. He didnât think that he would hire either of them if he was honest, but like Steve said, they wouldnât be worse off for it. âSo how was Creepy McCreepy?â
Steve bumped Eddie with his hip. âHenry Creel was fine. Heâs just passing through, by the way, Mr. Worry Wort. I think he has bigger fish to fry then some high end exotic dancing club. Not that this place isnât worth scalping, but I think heâs aiming for higher?â
âWorld domination?â Eddie teased, leaning into Steve space.
He laughed and nudged him away with his elbow. âYeah, probably.â
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Eddie ended up meeting with Steveâs friend because the guy needed consistent money coming in and while cleaning job paid okay, it really didnât have many regular clients other than the club. Mostly they cleaned up after major sporting events, political conventions, stuff like that. And with their boss Murray always rotating the crew who cleaned the club, some weeks were good, others not so much.
Eddie had to admit that guy cleaned up really good. With his hair out of his face and wearing nice clothes, he wasnât bad to look at.
âJonathan Byers?â he said, rising to greet him from a table he had sectioned off for the interview.
âYeah,â he said, shaking Eddieâs hand. âThanks for agreeing to see me.â
Eddie smiled. âNo problem. Iâm sorry to hear about your mom.â
âThank you.â
Eddie pulled out three pages and spread them out in front of Jonathan. âThere are three positions open right now, letâs see if you fit any one of them.â
He pointed to the first one. âThis is for the busser position. Basically you go around after people have left to take away plates and glasses as well as pick up any tips. Youâll get a small portion of the tips but mostly itâs a flat rate of $15 an hour.â
Jonathan nodded.
âThis one is for a cookâs assistant,â Eddie said tapping on the second one. âOften called a prep chef in bigger kitchens. Basically youâll prepare everything for the chef and put it in the fridge for him to grab as he goes. Youâll get here at 4pm and leave at 8pm when the club opens. Pay is $22 an hour because itâs only four hours a day.â
Again Jonathan nodded. âThat makes sense.â
âAnd finally the waiter position,â Eddie said. âThis one in the highest paid, but also the most demanding. Youâll only have two days off a week and youâll work from 8pm-2am. Base pay is $15 an hour, but you get a set amount of tips every night. Usually itâs percentage, but if itâs a rough night, youâll see a base pay of $200 in tips for the night. You arenât expected to pimp for tips as it were, as you arenât the main attraction. Youâll be invisible for most of the time and some will even get mad at you for blocking their view of the show.â
âWow,â Jonathan said. âThatâs really fucking generous.â
âI try to be,â Eddie said cocking his head to side, âbecause living in this hellscape we call American Capitalism is hard enough without having to worry about not having enough money for shit.â
âCan I take these with me and then send over my resume for the position Iâm most interested in applying for?â Jonathan asked, placing his hand over the a couple of the pages.
âSure thing,â Eddie said. âI have copies on my computer. Iâll give you to the end of the week, otherwise Iâm going to have to start looking elsewhere.â He stood up and Jonathan did the same.
âThatâs fair,â Jonathan said, holding up the pages. âThanks for this. Because you gave me a chance, even if I donât end up working here.â
They shook hands.
âLet me walk you to your car,â Eddie said, waving his arm for Jonathan to go first.
He huffed out a laugh. âI donât have a car right now, my girlfriend is coming to pick me.â
âThen Iâll wait with you,â Eddie offered.
Jonathan considered it a moment and then shrugged. âSure, man. Whatever.â
They walked out to the curb and chatted about Jonathanâs family and how his mom was doing. âMy brother is going to be famous one day,â Jonathan said with pride. âHe is such an amazing painter, his work should be hung galleries.â
âYeah?â Eddie said with a smile. He knew that tone of voice. It was the same tone Wayne got when he talked about him. âSo what did baby Jonathan Byers want to be when he grew up?â
âThis is going to sound so weird,â Jonathan said with a smirk, âbut a bug photographer. Not wild life in general. Bugs. Creepy crawlies. Insects and spiders. I loved that shit as a kid. I donât know how many times I freaked out my mom by bringing in a new bug to take pictures of and then release back into the wild.â
âYoung Eddie would have loved you,â he said softly. âI liked bugs and critters you arenât supposed to go anywhere near. Raccoons, possums, squirrels. Baby Eddie loved them all. My mom,â he wagged his hand back and forth, ânot so much.â
âThere she is now,â Jonathan said jutting his chin at the red hatchback pulling into the parking lot.
Eddie pursed his lips and resolved not to say a damn word until she did.
And oh boy did she ever. She got out of the car and immediately started yelling at Jonathan.
âWhat on earth are you doing here?â she cried. âI thought you had an interview.â
Eddie tilted his head to side. âNot an interview yet, more like a fact finding mission. But I like him.â He grinned at her.
âI forbid you from working here!â she shrieked. âThis is a den of sin! I have vowed to take it down.â
âNancy,â Jonathan said warningly. âWeâve had this discussion. If I didnât work at every place you found morally objectionable, I wouldnât be able to work at all. I just need something stable until Will graduates and Mom can move around on her own again.â
âWhen you told me that Steve was working in this hive of iniquity ,â Nancy growled, âI made it my responsibility to shut it down once and for all. To save Steve, to save you from having to sweep the vile filth from its floors.â
âWhat?!â Jonathan cried. âI didnât tell you Steve was working here to have you go on one of your crusades. I told you because Steve was a good friend when both of you were dancing ballet together.â
âItâs a sin!â she cried one more time.
âSo is fornication,â Jonathan huffed. âAnd breaking and entering and a shit ton of other things you do that are supposedly okay as long as you do them.â
Nancy folded her arms and stomped her foot. âThatâs not the same and you know it. They have actual fucking nights dedicated to a specific deadly sin. I may have broken a few laws in my time, but I would never stoop the depths of depravity that his club sinks to!â
âYou continue with this vendetta,â Jonathan warned, âand I swear to God, weâre through. There is nothing wrong with what they do. So what if people see them naked. Donât go see it. Your rights stop at their personhood. You can only dictate what you do and not anyone else.â
He turned to Eddie. âCan you take me home? I donât think I want to be in the same car as her.â
âSure thing, man,â he replied, thumbing behind him. âJust let me lock up and Iâll be right out.â
When he came back Nancy had gone and Jonathan looked like a kicked puppy.
âYou ready to go?â
Jonathan nodded and without a word followed him to his car. After get the address and putting it into the GPS, Eddie said, âIâm sorry about how she acted. Has she done this sort of thing before?â
âWhen I first graduated high school I got a job at a photography studio,â he muttered. âI took pictures of babies and toddlers. I had this cute little pink rabbit that never failed to get a smile.â He cleared his throat. âShe found out that in addition to family portraits, bridal and wedding photos, they also did boudoir photo shoots.â
âOh no,â Eddie moaned, completely seeing where this was going.
âYeah,â Jonathan said with a sniffle. âShe got the place shut down when she found out that some officialâs daughter got them for the guy she was sleeping with, who was not her fiancĂ©.â
Eddie frowned. That sounded too familiar.
âAnyway,â Jonathan continued, âthis bitch got the whole place shut down and suddenly I was without a job. If I ever find her, I think Iâd like to strangle her with my bare hands.â
âHer named wouldnât be Heather Holloway, would it? Mayor Kirk Hollowayâs daughter?â Eddie asked running his tongue over his upper lip slowly.
Jonathan snapped his fingers. âYeah, thatâs the snake in the grass.â
Eddie pulled off to the side of the road and closed his eyes. âItâs a fucking scam. Holy shit! Itâs a fucking scam.â
âWhat is?â Jonathan asked.
Eddie turned around. âI just figured the whole thing out. All of it. The attacks against Steve, Billy getting caught with his hands up the wrong skirt, Jason fucking Carver. Iâve got to give it to your girl, she is one smart manipulative bitch. But Iâm smarter.â
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Promposals [Touya Todoroki x Reader]
ËââźđȘ©As long as I look fly by prom night!đȘ©âźâË
"Promise to get a little better as I get older. And you're so patient and sick of waitin" Prom - Sza
High school Senior Prom AU of my fav villain ââ (â â°â âżâ â°â )â ââ
HS! Semi-Normal! Dabi x F. Reader
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WC: 1008
"Soo..." my best friend, Mina, started with a coy smirk, "anyone ask you to prom yet?" She nudges my arm, obviously hinting at my boyfriend.
I shake my head, adjusting the books in my arms. "Nah, I probably won't go anyway. Seems like a waste of time, not to mention money."
"It's our senior year! You're acting like your parents aren't loaded," she scoffs, clearly unimpressed by my excuse. "And really? I thought for sure Dabi would've asked you by now. You guys have been dating for, what, five months?"
"Yeah, I thought he would too, but it's whatever. He's just not really into stuff like prom." I shrug, knowing my boyfriend is the definition of lowkey. Honestly, Iâm sure he thinks going to prom would mess with his carefully crafted 'mysterious bad boy' nonchalant vibe.
Her eyes widen happily as an idea forms. "I'm sure Kiri wouldn't mind if you tagged along with us!"
I give her a look. Her boyfriend, Kiri, is very outwardly lovey-dovey, and there's no way he'd be okay with sharing Mina on prom night. She catches the look in my eyes and immediately reads my mind.
"Yeah, you're right. Bad idea," she admits, rolling her eyes.
"Very," I agree. "You two have fun, though. I gotta head home and study for that econ quiz."
"Yeah, yeah, I'm sure you'll have just as much fun with that," she jokes, giving my arm a playful pat before waving goodbye.
I wave back and head out of the school, walking toward my house, which is a short distance away in the suburbs. Normally, I'd ride home with Dabi in his sexy black Mustang, but he skipped today, which, knowing him, isn't too uncommon.
I unlock my empty houseâmy parents are in France on business, so Iâve been left to die. Well, technically they left me to "fend for myself," but it's basically the same thing. I kick off my shoes and head upstairs to my room, changing into some comfy lounge clothes before flopping onto my bed. I open my laptop and pull up my economics notes, trying to get through the material, but after a while, I realize I have no idea what the hell an "invisible hand" is.
I lean back against the pillows and let my eyes close. Studying is overrated anyway.
I woke up to the blaring sound of my phone alarm to take my vitamins that I had already taken earlier, but the alarm still ran incase I forgot. I groggily rolled over and squinted at the screen, still half-dazed from my nap. The time read 6:15 PM. Great. Iâd fallen asleep for way too long. I rubbed my eyes, stretching as I sat up. My laptop was still open with economics notes, but the words blurred together like they were written in a foreign language. Ugh.
I pushed it aside and glanced at the clock again. Dabi would usually text me around this time, or he'd show up randomly at my door, leaning against the frame with that smirk of his. But today... nothing.
Sighing, I grabbed my phone, half-expecting another generic message from my mom or dad asking if I'm alive. But instead, there was a text from Mina.
Mina:Â "You sure you're not going to prom? Think about it! You'd look so hot in a dress, and I'm sure Dabi would change his mind n suck it up if you rly wanted to go. If he doesn't, still come and I'll make sure Kiri brings his best friend, so youâre not stuck third wheeling!"
I snorted at the part about Kiri's best friend. Mina's boyfriend has two best friends, Bakugo, who is painfully hostile, and Kaminari, who is super enthusiastic but also a little too much of a pervert, I'm not interested in either of those personalities. Either way, I have a boyfriend that I'm pretty exclusies with, and don't feel like pissing him off.
But the thought of prom? Of dressing up, of being surrounded by everyone elseâfeeling normal, like everyone else for a nightâwas kind of tempting. Even though I pretended not to care, I always wondered what itâd be like to go, to have that experience.
I stared at my phone for a moment, texting back:
Me:Â "I donât know. It feels like too much of a hassle. You really think Dabi would go if I asked?"
There was a long pause before she replied.
Mina: "If u ask him? fat chance... But if you rly wanna go, I'll help u ask him!"
I could already hear her upbeat, enthusiastic tone in my head. It was like she was daring me to do it, challenging me to take that step.
I locked my phone, rolling my eyes as I flopped back onto my bed, already overthinking everything. As much as I hated to admit it, part of me kind of wanted to ask Dabi. Maybe heâd surprise me. But then again, maybe he'd just shrug it off and tell me he wasnât into it, and Iâd be left feeling stupid for even thinking it was a possibility.
Maybe Iâd just let it go.
But a part of me couldn't stop wondering: what would it feel like to go with someone who actually cared enough to make the night special?
Just as I was starting to drift off again, my phone buzzed, snapping me out of my thoughts.
Dabi â€ïž: "You still up?"
I smiled to myself, feeling a little lighter. At least he hadnât forgotten about me today.
Me: "Yeah, whatâs up? :)" Dabi â€ïž: "Look outside."Â
I raised an eyebrow, curiosity sparking as I looked at my phone. Then, without thinking too much, I got up from my bed and walked over to my window. My heart nearly dropped when I first saw the fireâuntil my eyes caught the message the flames had formed.
"PROM?"
A laugh bubbled up from my chest, and I couldn't help but giggle at the absurdity of it all. Running downstairs, I grabbed some slippers and hurried outside.
"Yes! But you really need to put this out!" I called out, smiling wide as I watched him casually stand next to the fire, hands in his pockets, looking like he hadnât just used his quirk to set the entire front yard ablaze.
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#dabi#mha x reader#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#dabi x reader#dabi x you#mina ashido#kirishima eijirou#touya todoroki#touya x reader#touya todoroki x reader#mha#high school au
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I'm back and i brought an new OC to this blog :3
Meet Arwen Traime, my Twisted wonderland oc
This is some basic information about her
Template by Ai_kan1
Under the cut will be more fun fact about her
All these questions is made by Miriaocs
1. Name: Arwen Traim
- Arwen means a noble maiden, very beautiful, or muse, all three meanings are suitable for Arwen
-Traime Mainly made from Tremaine
- Rook calls Arwen Dame de la pluie, which means Lady of the Rain, which is a nickname people often use (because when Arwen appears, it often rains). Rook also calls Arwen Reine de la pluie
- Floyd calls Arwen stingray-senpai (Akaei-senpai). The reason is because Floyd realizes her danger despite her gentle appearance, but the real reason is because of her ponytail. The stingray looks gentle so I chose that nickname :)))
2. Inpso: Arwen was inspired by Lady Tremaine, when I first learned about the game I also wanted to create an OC, and decided to choose Lady Tremaine without looking at the cast... and then when i finally play the game and saw saw professor Trein, at that time I almost finished building Arwen and couldn't bear to leave her đ
3. Age/Bday: She is 18 years old. Birthday is on May 20, close to Silver and Deuce's birthday
4. Dorm: Dorm leader of Celfam, when I created her I created her dorm myself. Dorm Celfam is based on Lady Tremaine's flexibility . Arwen is flexible, and knows how to make people do what she wants but is also cold like Lady Tremaine. Currently, she lives with Lucasta (vice dorm leader, who is based on Lucifer), the two are close friends
5. Class: Arwen is in class 3C with Vil and Lucasta. Vil and Arwen talk quite well. Studied together for 3 years
6. Height: Arwen is 1m75 tall, weighs 50kg
7. Hair/Eyes color: Gray-blue hair with white highlights. Two-colored eyes but few people notice because the two eye colors are close together, one eye is jade green, and one eye is emerald green
8. Homeland: Homeland is in the Vault of Memory (imagination country that i created). No one in the cast is from the same hometown as Obv, she knew Kalim and Idia before coming to NRC because her family was familiar with the Asim and Shroud families
9. Club: Didn't join the club because she was too busy with work and because of health issues
10. Subject:
Best Subject: History of magic, Arwen is extremely good at this subject because she is a diplomat and has to remember all the big and small events.
Worst subject: Physical education (make her run 3m and she faints).
She gets along well with Mr. Trein and often asks Mr. Trein to learn more about historical events. Physical education is unavoidable
11. Hobby: She likes sightseeing, especially places with water like waterfalls or lakes, once at the lake near the ruins she met Malleus there, and from then on the two of them often went sightseeing together
12. Pet peeve: chewing makes a sound, she is super annoyed with that. she will glare at the person if they do it near her
13. Food: likes strong flavors because her taste buds are very bad. She has no preference for food, but will not eat poorly prepared dishes. Often shares with Lucasta (Lucista gets it herself)
14. Talent: Excellent diplomacy, very good at talking
15. Unique Magic: "Back to your place"
- Arwen's special magic allows her to control others according to her command (not hypnosis but direct manipulation)
- Incantation: -"heed my words and follow my command, Back to your place"- changed from the sentence - "Cinderella will be put in her place." Lady Tremaine's
- Weakness: very corrosive to the user, the biggest loophole is that you have to know the name of the person you want to use it on before you can use it + the person you want to use it on is too much stronger, it will cost a lot of magic (which can lead to her death, will be explained in the backstory)
16. Quote: -" People may enter and exit our lives, and while it can be difficult to say goodbye, it's a natural part of our journey."- she said to Malleus when talking about her illness, not long after that he Overblot
17. Personality:
- on the outside, she is mature, gentle, kind, and delicate and loves peace but always gives off a very distant feeling. Arwen is considered one of the gentlest dorm leaders (after Kalim ofc) but is still a dorm leader, a trustworthy senior.
- truth is Arwen is always jealous of the people around her, extremely distant from everyone (except Lucasta), cold, cruel, and will do anything to achieve her goals (even harming herself and others). Secretly has a superiority complex, in her heart she always looks down on those she thinks are inferior
- But Arwen is just a child who was forced to grow up too early, living in meaningless compliments but never received any true love or affection, the guilt that she bears. She also struggles with PTSD and Depression . (more will be in the backstory)
School uniform and dorm uniform
Countdown poster
She also appears in Glorious masquerade as an SSR card this is the card that i draw for her
The ref of the outfit is here
#disney twst#twst wonderland#twst fanart#twst oc#twst#glorious masquerade#oc artist#ocs#my ocs#oc art#oc artwork#original character#original art
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Jimmy is an egotistical, delusional, and narcissistic person who wasn't capable to be a leader and a manipulative person as well. He r-word anya, literally make Curly not being able to do anything and literally the reason why Daisuke and Swansea died
Sunny is a child, he pushed Mari out of stress and fear, he suffered a lot due to the traumatic incident he had to witness plus the grief and guilty due to the consequences of his actions
Honestly, I am baffled as to how you think this two characters are the same, you probably need to seek a brain specialist and check your neurons, I'm sure God gave you a wrong patterns recognition. And hey maybe you can test your IQ in there and have some advice to get smarter.
Also, a friend of mine decided to come up with rebuttal
First of all, his murder of his sister was not an impulsive decision. The game doesn't indicate that Mari physically restrained him to stop him from running away. This means that instead of reacting like a realistic 12 yo child and running away to someplace safer - either his bedroom or the bathroom, which both were on the same floor they were having their argument on - Sunny consciously employed physical force.
Yes, but as we are both entitled to using non canon materials (the album captions are considered non-canon), I shall use mine:
youtube
This video: timestamp 0:35 Mari screams âWhere do you think youâre going?â
Anyone with reasonable deductive skills can see what she means by this. The timeline was as follows:
Pre 0:35: Sunny attempts to get away. There would be no reason for him to pull his sister as heâs getting away, so thereâs no contact, 0:35: Mari screams âWhere do you think youâre goingâ, 0:37: Mari falls down the stairs.
Now in those 2 seconds, who is more likely to make first contact? The angry one or the one getting away.
Bingo.
Mari grabbed Sunny, closing the distance between them, and Sunny having a flight or fight response (normal for a human being, by the way) and shoving her off him, thus down the stairs.
Voila.
consistent pattern of being an ass.
Let me address each argument for you.
(Apparently) was aware of Aubrey's troubled situation at home, wasn't shown doing anything of note to help and/or support her
What can a ten to twelve year old do other than talk to their friend and make sure theyâre okay? (Which Sunny did do a lot with Aubrey by the way, shown through the video montage of âDuetâ).
Whined about having to help his friends build their treehouse
What twelve year old wouldnât complain MENTALLY? Itâs not being an ass, if he was, he wouldâve outwardly said all those things. Itâs just that mentally he doesnât want to do it. But he does because he knows it's only fair to the others. Thatâs called respecting other people and compromising for them.
Threw a tantrum that resulted in the death of his sister because he couldn't watch cartoons for as long as he'd have liked
Once again, I am allowed to point at non canon as you have.
0:04: Sunny says âGosh, you-â
0:05-0:014: Unintelligible
0:15: The violin crashes
Firstly, no one screams âGosh, you-â without the other having not done anything.
Secondly: Do you really think Mari stayed silent for those 9 seconds of unintelligible noise?
Was throwing the violin down the stairs the best option? No. Do I think it was just caused because he didnât get to watch cartoons? No. Mari obviously said something to provoke it.
Blamed Mari for the argument as if she forced him to practice even though he himself begged her to let him join her
Something tells me you donât have younger siblings tbh. Itâs very normal for kids to want something at first, but change their minds later after they realise the work that has to be put in. (E.g: Wanting to go to school when theyâre younger but hating it as soon as they start) Also, youâre disregarding Sunnyâs motive: He never wanted to do violin because he loved the violin. He just wanted to spend more time with Mari.
Also to address â as if she forced him to practice â
You think a 15 year old whose parents booked a venue for their recital wouldnât be pressured and in turn pressure their younger sibling into making it PERFECT? Just food for thought.
Chose to resolve his argument with Mari by violence even though he had the option to run away instead
Already addressed this :)Â
Was relieved that he got away with accidentally killing his sister
For someone who has a brain and must scream, it sure seems otherwise. Do read what it says. âFor a moment, you feel at peace. You hate yourself for feeling this way.â He was relieved, sure. But he hated himself for that. Because he didnât want to feel relief.
Chose to lie to his friends by omission and let them believe they had somehow failed Mari due of the assumed nature of her death as a suicide, irreversibly scarring them
Chose to let Basil take the fall for blacking out Mari's photos in the photo album, which entailed Basil becoming the target of Aubrey's bullying and wore Basil's mental health down to near-psychosis by the time of the game's events*
Half of the game is just showing the consequences to Sunny doing that though. It's portrayed as a bad thing. Itâs also realistic to those experiencing PTSD or shock. I donât want to make this too long (itâs already 800 ish words) so just read it here https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/post-traumatic-stress-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-2035596
Walked out on Basil - his best friend - when the latter had a mental breakdown despite Basil begging him to stay
Considered leaving Basil to his death as a legitimate option, twice
Seems to have been content with thinking of doing nice things for Basil (e.g. watering Basil's plants in his dream world) as opposed to actually trying to support him in the real world
Walked out on Hero after seeing him crying over the piano
Again, just read up on the link I sent earlier. Specifically avoidance. Itâs not morally correct but that doesnât mean itâs in his control either.
Wasn't shown to feel any guilt or shame from having a picnic with the people he lied to near his dead sister's grave
I donât know if youâve played the game, but you like to bring up âSunny and the player arenât separateâ so⊠Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe the reason Sunny doesnât show any guilt in-game is because heâs discovering the truth as much as we, the player are? Just food for thought
Twisted the supportive words of the people he lied to to alleviate his own self-loathing over committing manslaughter
This is just a wrong interpretation entirely lmfao. The battle against OMORI isnât a battle against self loathing. Itâs a battle against the denial that kept him from telling the truth to begin with. Sunny doesnât kill himself in the bad ending because he hates himself. He kills himself in the bad ending because he wants to hide the truth and knows he canât do it for much longer. Why do you think he doesnât end up killing himself in a majority of the hikikomori routes even though OMORI has taken over?
Told his friends the truth shortly before having to move town, thus avoiding the direct consequences of his confession and leaving Basil behind again to face them alone
Not exactly his choice as Iâve said earlier.
Is only concerned with how his friends' pain affects himself at the end of the day
Canât say much about it (Iâm a little stupid and canât be bothered to spend over an hour doing this) other than I wanna see an analysis of My Time next. Sure it's not made for the game, but it was chosen for a reason.
What Sunny did was the fault of an irrational mindset
What Sunny did was the fault of him being a child witnessing a traumatic incident being led by another child who witnessed the same incident and then the rest are just the effects of PTSD. A majority of the reason the incident took place the way it did can be explained by: Sunnyâs in worse shock than Basil due to him having to process that he was the one who killed his sister, and Basil just wants to protect him. If anything, Basil's at fault.
âLol I just got off the hookâ
Lol I explained this already. You used the same point twice.
Sunny is forgivable because he was a child who was not in a good rational mindset and made an impulsive decision with much more dire consequences than anticipated
Jimmy is not forgivable because he was an adult who had to make several conscious decisions to do what he did and does nothing but repeat his horrible behaviour
Both games are about forgiveness but two completely different ends of that spectrum. Omori is about how forgiveness can be healing and help those recover, and mouthwashing is about how sometimes forgiveness does nothing but enable horrible people to continue their abusive behaviour
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âCharlie Watts has a huge dongâ
Original first chapter of âLife.â Publisher read it, realized what sort of book it was going to be if Keith was left on his own: poorly typed, beautifully phrased sentences but those sentences are about tiny todgers and huge dongs. Keith reported he was taking fact-checking seriously and called Marianne and Shirley for confirmation. Marianne confirmed, Shirley had her number changed. Publisher called James Fox immediately.
#lord only knows how or why Marianne would have that information#although I'd be entirely unsurprised if she really does#considering who her boyfriend was#and who her best friend was with for 15 years#the rolling stones#charlie watts#keith richards#old married band#mick jagger#james fox#marianne faithfull#shirley watts#meme#ask response#anonymous#my life feels so strange#because being on Tumblr has forced me to learn basic editing skills/software#mostly so I can answer asks how I'd like/with the vision in my head#but it's also just a useful life skill#and it's not as though I can tell my 60 year old Harvard PhD revered in his field and very straight laced advisor#'oh yeah I know how to use adobe and photoshop because I want to bring my A game answering random stranger's questions about Charlie#Watts' penis on the internet'
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In the Star Beast novelization it says that when the Doctor sees Donna again he just desperately wants to give her a giant hug and that it burns him that he canât. If you even care.
#doctor who#fourteenth doctor#donna noble#the star beast#doctor who 60th anniversary#yes I KNOW most of you already know this#this keeps me up at night#imagine seeing your best friend in the universe#for the first time in 15? 1000? 4 billion? an unknowable number of years#the person you missed so much you built your entire current identity around that missing#and you canât give them a hug#I canât even GET to the rest I canât even GET to the fact he has to act like heâs got no idea who she is#I canât even GET to him having to hear her not know him#the fact that he canât give her a hug does too much psychic damage
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it is wild to me that people are acting like its an actual injustice that Rose and Donna have their own Doctors but Martha doesnt. yall do remember she walked out on him right. and I dont say that to mean "oh she walked out on him she doesnt deserve her own Doctor" what I mean is that Martha saw that being with the Doctor was not good for her and she made the choice to walk away. her situation with him was so vastly different from both Rose and Donna's. Martha doesn't need her own Doctor and frankly I dont think she would even want her own Doctor. she walked out and she moved on with her life and she did it for HERSELF like giving her her own Doctor and treating that as her happy ending would be an actual injustice to her character
#doctor who#doctor who spoilers#martha jones#Rose gets her own Doctor because they're in love#Donna gets her own Doctor because they're best friends it's time for him to come home#why would Martha need her own Doctor? its been 15 years she moved on she got married#she doesnt need him! she's living her own life!
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I think above all the worst misconception about a naruto character has to be a 31 year old obito still being in love with 14 year old rin. Not only does this go against obito's whole character past the third shinobi war but it's plainly disgusting that people think this about a middle aged man. I'm telling you now that rin was not the sole reason for Obito's hatred for the shinobi world she was just the catalyst for him agreeing to madara's plan, resulting in everything that happened.
It's just annoying to see this misconception even when within the manga itself obito has stated he isnt in love with rin anymore in his adulthood as he refers to his love of her in the past tense. It's just painful to see people forget that rin was his best friend, not just his crush. She was the first person in his life to introduce him to friendship and to truly believe in his abilities and dreams. They were eachothers closest friend within life, even if rin didn't reciprocate obito's feelings she still loved him and cherished him.
I see comments about obito being the ultimate simp or some shit like that and its infuriating to see this shit about such a complex character like obito, he's only wittled down to some guy in love who apparently caused a war only for her or kakashi's friend.
#obito uchiha#rin nohara#naruto ramblings#naruto#anti naruto fandom#obito is genuinely my favourite character in naruto so im alot more passionate about him than other chara#and i've been seen too much of those comments lately#It's a shame because he's written so well and has so many layers to him#He's a middle aged man who's been manipulated for the past 15 years of his life i dont think he's really focused on being in love#especially with his dead 14 year old best friend who killed herself using his rival whom promised would protect her for him
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5 AM
Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again đ
#hopefully the meds work but while waiting for them to kick in I get so damn nervous#and sometimes I do get nights where even on my full dose my anxiety is too overpowering and I just. Do Not Sleep#I mean I do eventually but not without spiraling first :')#way before I was prescribed sleep meds my longest was 3 nights without sleep while on a VERY stressful trip#I felt like I was gonna die and I did not sleep until I got off the plane and was back at home#(this was like 15 years ago already but it still haunts me fhfgsgdh)#my best friend and I were having a conversation today#and she was like 'not sleeping can make you hallucinate right?'#and I was like :') I get the hallucinations in other scenarios too#BUT I also get what she meant#not sleeping is really bad for me mentally which is why I can't do 'sleep restriction therapy'#and fun fact#a lot of my OCD obsessions revolve around sleep!!!#which is 'awesome' because laying in bed with insomnia makes my OCD flare up so like#the two get to feed off each other and make my life a living hell!!!#and don't even get me started on my sleep paralysis episodes#(which I like to think of as just my brain misfiring but that my aunt tells me is saints or demons trying to talk to me)#'cause she hallucinates too but hers are like 'spiritual' or whatever#same with my mom's hallucinations as well#and to add fuel to the dumpster fire of my mind and body is the fact I've been overcaffeinating again#which I've known not to do ever since I was in middle school and saw the pediatric cardiologist who specifically said 'hey don't do that'#fast-forward to adulthood and I still haven't learned how to handle anything#like. I have heart meds and sleep meds and migraine meds and IBS meds#and yes meds are good but like. I know you need to incorporate lifestyle changes as well#which I do for like 2 weeks until the next time I fuck up#I've been so irresponsible lately but like. ESPECIALLY today#didn't eat#took some meds on an empty stomach and forgot to take my other ones at all#had too much caffeine#stressed out over some stupid situations thanks to overthinking
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RiAAU Sasha's complicated relationship with her adoptive parents, Percy and Braddock, stems from an awkward mixture of unconditional love, resentment over their inability to protect her from Grime in her childhood, and their fear of what she's become.
#raised in amphibia au#amphibia#sasha waybright#my posts#they sort it out but it takes time#percy and braddock have loved sasha since she was brought to the Tower all dirty and crying and scared at the tender age of 3#and they did their best but also... they were very young themselves. like early 20s maybe#hell they weren't even together by the time they adopted her#they were just friends who saw this kid in need of parents and legal guardians and decided to take care of her#but with Grime being their superior and Sasha being forced to grow up in the Tower...#Percy and Braddock had to do compulsory military service for like. 15 years or something idk. this is my made up toad lore: toads have to do#at least 15 years of military service in their youth. like not all of them. there's probably like some sort of lottery and if you're#disabled or had a family that depended on you or if your daddy is a corrupt politician or something you'll be spared#the rest can either follow the law and be assigned to the closest tower or like. become a runaway criminal and join a group of bandits#or something#anyway percy and braddock had to do their time in the South Toad Tower so they couldn't just leave with their kid#and raise her in a more child-friendly enviroment#another point of contention! when sasha learns there's another human who was raised in a quaint little farm by frogs in wartwood she just#it's devastating to her because *that could have been her*. she could have been safe and she could have grown up like a normal kid#she could have developed like a normal person instead of becoming... *this*#and she resents Percy and Braddock for not giving her away to someone else when she was little. for not noticing when she started#acting ''abnormal'' as a result of trauma. she could have been normal like Anne. but she wasn't.#pair that to the fact Sasha is the one who remembers Earth the most and the one who wants to go back the most#AND the one who feels the most distant to her adoptive family#and the understanding that she's been *broken into* this world and that she can never go back. even if she finds a way... she can't go back.#she can't bring her REAL parents this monster#she can't explain what happened to her#and even if she went back Amphibia would alwahs haunt her#so. she can't go back. not like this.
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God writing that last post was so, so hard.
Rn I feel the weight of every sadness and every bad thing that's happened to me since I was 9 and had my first important pet death
#my brain:#hey remember when your cat died and for years you thought it was your fault?#hey remember when your dog died and then like a week later your childhood best friends told you they never wanted to speak to you again and#how you still have NO idea why?#remember the depression that sent you into and how scared you felt that you could FEEL the happiness going away?#remember how your first suicide attempt was that year?#remember how when you were 15 you suddenly turned trans and also developed severe mental health issues and also your childhood cat died#while you were away so you felt you never got to say goodbye?#and how that same year you got groomed possibly TWICE?#and how that same year you got sexually assaulted in a way that was so weird you assumed no one would beleive you so you just didnt tell#anyone for years?#remember a couple years ago how you got the news you wouldnt graduate and then a month later granny died#and then a few months later your cat died very very painfully in your arms over a period of several hours while you suffered through choice#paralysis because you couldnt decide whether to take her to the far away emergency hospital since that would cause her MORE pain?#remember how you had to seriously consider asking your hunter neighbour to come inside and snap her neck?#remember how a week later your dog (who you got at age 12 to try to feel better about your other dog who just died and to try to stave off#inactivity from depression) had to be put down?#remember how 2 weeks after that your favourite uncle died unexpectedly?#hey remember how last week you got the call that your grand dad died?#thanks brain! i DID need to remember everything that was very helpful
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having an existential crisis because i can't decide if i should drop an irresponsible amount of money to meet some internet guys i've been fixated on since i was a teenager or be normal
#like i am doing it for 15 year old me who drew cat whiskers on her face and went to school like that#(also drew them on my best friend that i was totally not a little in love with)#yes this is about dan and phil again stick with the program#and when doing the math...a single gold vip ticket (w/o fees) adds up to about how much i make on a single sunday at work#the mental gymnastics i have to do to justify it are really quite minimal#but my anxiety about money is immense so...the horrors consume me nonetheless#there are two wolves inside of me:#one hates the idea of having to pay for human interaction on any scale#the other understands this is their job and all work deserves to be paid#there is also the horrible reality that i am going to die poor no matter what i do! so i might as well have some good silly fun while i can#and my friend agreed to go with me even though she simply does not care about them anywhere near as much as i do#and i fully plan to pay for like...half of her ticket to make up for it...#so...a little ouchy on the wallet...but also silly and fun and something i will probably never get the chance to do again#personal#secret controversial fear is i love their yt content but i fear what the live show will be like i hate stand up and most comedy specials...#what am i signing up for
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Itâs so nice to see how youâve grown.
#my best I friend who moved is back in town for the weekend#and i used to be so afraid of her growing without me#and I guess me growing without her#but itâs been about a year since she moved#and these 6 months are the longest weâve gone without seeing eachother for 15 years#this year weâve been friends for 16#and it just so wonderful to see the changes in her#Iâve missed her sm
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Fighting the horrors of life one pair of straight leg jeans at a time
#last Friday was bad and this Friday is worse#my best friendâs gran (who is basically her mum bc her real mum is a horror)#is going to die imminently#and itâs all bad and sad and nobody is really sleeping in our flat rn#sheâs been my best friend for like 15 years#and Iâm sad because sheâs sad#but also her gran is like a random pillar of my life too#rambles
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