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I am once again thinking about the reluctant ruler whose arc justly and correctly includes assuming the throne and taking responsibility for the people set before them
#it's about simba coming back to pride rock it's about aragorn using andúril to fight for middle earth and assuming the throne it's about#hiccup marrying astrid and assuming his role as chief and moses returning to egypt#and it's about irina loving her people so fully that when she claims all of her subjects as hers that chernobog must release them to her!!!#and it's about miryem choosing to stay with the staryk and repair the damage and assume responsibility for the land and people!!!!!#and! it's! about! gen!!!!#it's ALWAYS about gen!!!!#gen who didn't want to be king. who hated being king and only wanted to marry a queen but who obeyed his gods and became a king over kings#who lost his home and half his family and his HAND but who ushered in a new golden age.#and it's about sophos who ran away but who shot the ambassador and took back his kingdom#it's about duty and it's about sacrifice and it's always ALWAYS about doing the right thing even at great personal cost because it's about#submitting to a power higher than your own. of recognizing that the calling on life is one for serving others and having so much more to#answer for than just yourself. it's knowing duty is love is duty#i cant stand stories where the answer is 'give up the throne and reject your duty' because no!!! you dont get it!!!#thats how you get the monsters!!! thats how you get the prince turned into a beast and thats how you get every terrible weak king that#aragorn feared becoming#to accept your throne is to die to self!!! you are no longer you but 'king' or 'queen'#it's like queen mary says to qeii in the crown 'elizabeth mountbatten must die#elizabeth regina must take her place.'#that's terrifying! but it's also everything!!!!#die! to! self! die! to! self!!!!!!#lilac rambles#lilac goes to the movies#lion king#prince of egypt#lotr#spinning silver#the crown#tqt#the queen's thief#httyd
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I don’t Care about the ships WHERE IS JINX
#I’m so sad#I’m so sorry cai/tvi nation#I do not like that cop#I care about the siblings and the siblings alone#and ekko OBVIOUSly#Yk actually the ending was rlly good except the part where cait is still an enforcer b#and vi??? I don’t actually know if she is#ig she never quit#but she’s not wearing the blue so#idk#anyway I have a lot of thoughts#I’m really sad I was yelling in my room alone like a crazy person#AND MEL MY GOD HOW COULD I FOEGOR HER#I was blinded by the siblings im not gonna lie#but her arc was SO good#ok this got so rambly this was not meant to get like this#I wish we’d gotten like#1 more episode#to let the story breath a little bit#I think caits descent was brushed over tbh#I really fucked w the way they were going w it and then it just ended w a time skip#AND we don’t get Any resolution for it#I really hate the cop angle a lot#sorry I will never fuck w it#cait said and did terrible things and it’s really not… addressed#I would’ve loved to have seen her resign#I Wish vi could have dealt w how she betrayed her entire ideals and Became the very thing that tore her family apart in the first place#1-2 more episodes and more balls to go all in on the anti cop thing and I would have fucked w it meet#arcane spoilers
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hello to the other five ppl in here, the premise is 'we got reincarnated and we're inexplicably drawn to each other and we hate each other and we're best friends and we're a weird-atmospheric-dreampop-electronic-house musical duo'
#she who became the sun#the radiant emperor#zhu chongba#general ouyang#i have let's put everyone in a band disease and it's terminal#i have an intense vision in my mind that they're laying down on the carpet parallel to each other feet to head after jamming#and zhu says sth like. do you think we were made to make music together? feels creepy sometimes#also haha esen can be a terrible himbo fuckboy gym bunny in this#apologies for the stupid song names i think im sooo funny#also also yoo every time zhu is described as ugly in the book i was like haha EXACTLY MY TYPE THEN HELLO HANDSOME LESBIAN PERSON#the fender amp almost reading gender is intentional bc no shot is too cheap#my art#band au
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Someone just said that The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes was boring because we didn't get to know in the end why Snow became evil...
#congratulation for not getting the kilometer huge point#that he is simply a bad guy#always has been#simply a shitty personality who is power hungry and got the good chances to act on it in#how can you miss such an important and fantastic choice#i remember being anxious that collins will go the anakin skywalker way and write a tragic villian#who became evil after traumatic experiences#but i knew i can trust our queen#and she wrote this guy who even though went through a lot of stuff get the chance multiple times to be good#she even put there tigris who is in the exact same situation as him but stays good#and we just got more and more thoughts from him that showed how terrible he is#perfection#coriolanus snow#president snow#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#tbosas#the hunger games#thg#suzanne collins#my ramblings#not star wars
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This scene is so sad for Angel. As someone who already has several trust issues, he finds out there is a traitor in the Hotel, that is working for the Vees (one of them is his rapist/abuser, Velvette other made the love potion that is used to abuse him, and Vox putted more than 5 cameras in his room, it's literally Hell), is slutshamed by the traitor and attacked with a psychodelic confusion, something he is unfortunately used to (be drugged against his will is probably a similar sensation). It's twice sad because moments ago, Vaggie and Charlie literally told Angel AT HIS FUCKING FACE that he "wasn't trying" and that Pentious was "truly interested".
When I say Charlie wants to help but doesn't know how, I mean it. The first person who actually understood and helped Angel was Husk.
#hazbin hotel husk#angel dust#hazbin hotel#sir pentious#charlie morningstar#vaggie#tw: implied sa#tw: mentions of abuse#tw: mentions of rape#before anyone say anything about pentious: i know he became a better person and got redeemed. i'm just saying the situation is terrible for#angel. specially after charlie gave pentious all the atention twice even tho angel was doing the same thing she asked for#and pentious called him 'hoe bug' as an insult. this triggered angel a lot and he had all the right to be angry at pentious
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shadowhunters show should’ve asked for volunteers to help write the storylines because I ME MYSELF AND I WOULD HAVE VOLUNTEERED AND I WOULD HAVE DISMISSED SOME OF THE WRITERS BECAUSE I HAVE GRAND IDEAS
I just started season two and it’s been a migraine already 😭 like Alec has such patience because I would have had him going off on jace
THIS MAN HAS ALMOST DIED TWICE FOR JACE AND FOR WHAT?????????
I do think Alec tells people off as he should but I don’t think it’s enough. guaranteed, it’s a shit ton more than book Alec but how has he not lost his mind? I know for fucking sure that Alec did not get paid enough to deal with any of that. and there isn’t enough Advil to cure Alec of his migraines he has daily because of jace and clary
SEND THEM BOTH TO IDRIS STAT
at least I can count on Magnus
and at least alec goes off on clary but-
I JUST WISH ALEC WOULD GO OFF ON JACE BECAUSE YOUR BESTIE SHOULDNT BE MAKING YOUR LIFE THAT MISERABLE
Alec shouldn’t be on his deathbed TWICE in over just 14 bloody episodes
if I was hired, I would have cut that CLACE shit out and have Alec stand up for himself. actually have the downworlders featured more. and I stated this before, but I would have loved to see Alec or Izzy have the more powerful gifts because I’ve had enough of basic bitches thinking they’re normal and then taking advantage of those supposed gifts when they find out they have power. it’s boring, tiresome, been overdone too much
but imagine how much better the show could’ve been if they rid as much of CLACE as possible?????? (also just get the whole rights because I would love TID and TLH adapted but not if CC is behind it) (she would destroy it)
and all the book fans would be so angry lmao
no I’m just saying like it makes me mad how much Alec sacrifices himself for jace and for what? why are we sacrificing so much here? Jace continues to make stupid choice after another and he almost pays zero consequences for it?????? everyone is so determined to save his life and clary’s????? FOR WHAT?????? Alec got his ass handed so many times in season one and I haven’t seen anyone as much apologize, show gratitude for Alec, or change their behavior towards him. Jace told Alec that his best wasn’t good enough- so why are we having Alec save jace over and over again?????
I’m glad they made the lightwoods the stars because they obviously didn’t get good treatment in the books. LOVE MY FAV FAMILY (and yes I will hate on the herondales because they deserve it. I don’t care if they have golden eyes or if CC views them as the best. they’re abusive (most) and never change their ways and think it’s okay to treat others as if they’re beneath them)
I’m ending my rant but they both irritate the fucking soul out of me. Jace is supposed to be so strong and powerful but both he and clary would be dead without Alec Izzy magnus etc trio and I’ve seen on an occasion where Alec kept up with Jace in terms of fighting
me anytime I see jace:
but I can appreciate the show for doing what they could’ve without totally changing the whole concept of the series. because jace and clary book versions are absolutely insufferable. if anyone has never read the books or haven’t in a while, you’ll be amazed at how atrocious their book versions are. and Alec hardly ever stands up for himself there. like you’ll watch the show and think wow some of this is cringe and then appreciate it after you read the books because ITS NOT THAT BAD LMAO
no because I always get so vexed with clary and Jace show versions but then I think about their book counterparts and then I’m like ok so it could’ve been worse 😭
I’m for real done but I’m just here for Malec so everyone, carry on
I’ll need to stock up on Advil for the upcoming CLACE scenes PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR THOUGHTS
#anti cassandra clare#anti cc#just my stupid opinions#alec lightwood#anti jace herondale#anti clary fray#shadowhunters tv#show alec is superior#anti clace#show Izzy is superior#I love watching the show but I wish I could just edit it to where it’s only Malec content#and I love doing my analyzing#but the show had the capability to change it and not have it be the books#so I wish they would have went further with that#how has Alec not lost his bloody mind yet#or Izzy at least?????#she sees how jace treats her brother and is like oh well#I’m sorry but if I saw my brother almost dying twice jace would have an earful#but he’s herondale royalty so I guess he can have shit handed to him and he can do whatever#I don’t get why his life needs saving constantly#also he’s unattractive because of his ugly personality#this just became heavily anti jace post but that’s okay#putting anti cc on all show shadowhunter posts because i don’t want an pro book fans hating on my shit#shadowhunter show is superior#can you imagine how terribly awful the show could have been#just saying that they could have been worse
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I've been very jack & hsr rotating around in my head but I suddenly remembered riliane & allen and I got sad over tragic twins
#out of roses (ooc)#was riliane a terrible person?#yes; however she was 14 years old and lost both her parents & they faked her twin brother's death post their dad dying & then#she was possessed by a demon and lost her memories of her twin bc of the exorcism and then her mom died before she turned 14 and she was#possessed by another demon right after the funeral and her not dead twin came back to the palace as a butler but she couldn't remember him#and thought it was so cool that he looked like her so he was her favorite servant and then bc of the demon of pride she became a terrible#ruler and took momey from her people and they were starving and suffering while she was in her palace and then her fiance#broke the engagement bc he fell in love with a girl from another country and so she went a little insane and started a war and also her twin#was also in love w the girl and she ordered him to kill said girl but when he got there she was already dead#and then the people revolted v justified honestly and her twin went “not my dear sister” and helped her escape after revealing he was in#fact her “dead” twin so they chamged clothes and she escaped and he was thrown in prison instead by his adoptive sister#also he killed his adoptive dad by riliane's order too & his adoptive sister knew that he had taken riliane's place but allen refused to#admit it and so he was executed in her place and then afterwards riliane ran to a convent run orphanage and met a girl who was besties w th#w the girl she ordered dead bc her fiance broke up w her and they became friends and then one night riliane#now named rin; was doing confession by herself at night and confessed to all her sins & that she was the “daughter of evil” and then she#went to the beach w a message in a bottle bc of a story allen told her when they were kids and her nun friend overheard and followed her for#revenge bc her friend died bc of riliane but as rin was releasing the bottle out to sea the ghost of her twin brother appeared and stopped#the other girl from killing her and instead her friend cut her hair and riliane was basically “reborn” as rin and her friend took the secret#to her grave#and rin became a nun and eventually took over the orphanage and raised so many kids and when she was old and sickly the kids all came back#and asked if there was anything they could do for her & she just said she'd like to know if the person she sent a letter to received it#and the kids all went trying to find that out but didnt learn anything until they found an old man who told them her story & how she was the#daughter of evil and that the person she wanted to hear from was already dead & so the kids went back to her deathbed and told her that the#person (aka her dead brother) had replied “yes” (bc the message in the bottle was her asking him to forgive her&if theyre reborn to play#together again) and then she said thank you and she died#plus then theres the entire deal of the theatre of the dead & she becomes known as the waiter and allen's soul was like inside a doll but#like not that he was possessing the doll bc the doll was another sin & he was just like a prisoner??????
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#graham calloway#gifs#many thoughts#first i was thinking how i hate the way s3 ends#the reveal deflated my enthusiasm SO much but i always begrudgingly accept it because#at the end of the day its thematically cohesive and helps move the story fine and thematic cohesion matters more to me#the crackle rod reveal however! is thank ! he's not dead + does not negate the choices and consequences of dark! carmen getting it#and reveals that he has changed in ways that impact people other than carmen and of his own volition since NO ONE KNEW HE DID IT#and this choice ends up saving his life and allowing him to have a true fresh start#plus add another to the headcanon that carmen won a little too easily on the train because gray knows how to throw a dude his size#and who is actively resisting him#Attempt is still an attempt and she should absolutely take it personally but for runtimes sake aside its laughable how short the fight is#no offense to miss carmens own fighting skills but almost every other agent she goes against can hold their own a bit longer#and i don't think gray is technically any worse than them#also gray and his absolute conviction in what type of person he is and slowly changing for the better anyways#little dude#digs a hole to rock bottom and then goes hahaha what if i became less terrible without anyone noticing#carmen sandiego 2019
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one of the things that i really hate is when a guy is really creepy toward women but people make excuses that maybe's he's just autistic. why is that your perception of autistic people. why do people think its more likely for a creepy guy to be autistic than just like. a regular misogynist that doesn't treat women as people. and why would being autistic make it excusable.
it feels kind of infantilizing to me. like people expect we autistic people to not have control over ourselves at all and no ability to learn right from wrong.
i think it's also because it's easier to blame individual people for "being wrong" rather than accept that our society and culture is extremely hostile toward women and creates an environment where men behave this way because they have been taught to and because they can get away with it.
#personal#people just hate autistic people even though we havent like. done anything.#but they imagine that we do!#i remember my ex's mom hated this random kid that was at their house one time. he was being annoying#but fully in the realm of normal kid stuff. following people around asking a lot of questions and talking about his interests#but he was obviously on the spectrum so this became a crime. and later they all sat around talking about how terrible he was#literally an 8 year old child#another time i met my ex's friend group and i was hanging out with some of the girls#we were outside and it was COLD so i asked if it was okay if i kinda huddled next to one of them. she said yes.#and then a little while later she said she didn't want to anymore and i was just like. okay sure thing.#and then she proceeded to make a huge deal about how i was obviously really mad that she had withdrawn her consent. even though i wasn't.#but its like. we are inherently read as being predatory#and this is justified by labeling people who are predatory as autistic. ignoring other factors that enable people to be predatory
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rambling time but while I’m fine with emerald getting redeemed (it was gonna happen eventually) and thank fuck for ilia getting redeemed but if they redeem cinder and especially if they redeem salem herself I will throw a metal chair at
#not tagging bc I’m rambling#cinder may have had a sad backstory but she’s also an abusive piece of shit villain who has KILLED PEOPLE#huh wonder who that sounds like. and if she meets ANY fate that isn’t exactly what [THAT GUY]’s was I’ll be side eyeing bombastically#there was a post that was like. what if emerald became a maiden and killed cinder and if there is a v10 please let that happen so help me#and if SALEM is redeemed? yeah fuck no. fuck off. i feel bad for her because the gods are shitheads but she is AN EQUALLY TERRIBLE PERSON#SHE KILLED HER HUSBAND AND KIDS. AND OBVIOUSLY EVERYTHING ELSE SHES DONE#i beg on my hands and knees clasping my hands together to stop woobifying the female villains. in my eyes it’s actually sexist#because noooo a woman can never be held reprehensible for her evils 🥲🥲 they just weak wittle babies who do nuthin wrong!!!!#like no fuck off. that’s sexist. genuinely to me.#and the sexism extends to the men too. i want to hope merc will get redeemed but we’re talking about this show.#male victims of abuse get either swept aside or ignored or KILLED.#and no man in this show except for JAUNE and I guess james can ever show emotion EVER EVER because EMOTIONS ARE FOR GIRLS#AND JF THEY SHOW THAT EMOTION ANY EMOTION ITS CUZ THEYRE WEAK. UNLESS UR A GOOD GUY LOLOLOL#this show’s got the maul’s lightsaber of sexism huh
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MOTW NPC Rach Lombardi, Mark's toxic ex who got ripped to shreds by dogman and then whose revenant ghost latched onto someone else who was on their own dogman revenge quest (player character Tatara)
she's fun.
#ragsycon exclusive#ragsymakes#artists on tumblr#oc art#monster of the week#oc rach#she's conniving and self-serving and manipulative#which means she's very fun to play in game. love to rp an absolute garbage person#she and mark dated for awhile in their early to mid twenties#it was all around a really terrible relationship but he didn't really know it until well afterwards.#the entire time what he thought was positive attention was really just her using him to get what she wanted#up to and including using him as leverage to get to his brother stuart who she was seeing behind mark's back for a while#and he found out by complete chance. walked in on them after getting home from work early#and to mark's shock and disgust at this betrayal she just said 'eh that's fine. i was done with you anyway' and kicked him out right there#mark had a fairly significant breakdown over it and just. left town. ghosted everybody and got a job at a watchtower deep in the woods#didnt talk to anyone for years. became an unwitting forest cryptid (different can of worms). let all of his baggage fester for way too long#until stuart managed to get a hold of him and invited him on a Brotherly Reconciliation Camping Trip And Rach Is There Too#and rach did what she's good at which was needling mark's insecurities and insisting he's overreacting when he got upset#but at this point mark was possessed by an evil spirit that turned him into a feral dogman when angry (again. different can of worms)#and the dogman came out and attacked and killed her. total carnage. stuart was away getting firewood when it happened.#mark at this point had no memory of any of this dogman transformations so he woke up covered in blood next to rach's corpse and freaked out#as did stuart#so this Brotherly Reconciliation Camping Trip was kinda the last time they've seen each other since#and later on rach's earthbound ghost finds someone who is on a revenge quest for several other deaths at the hands (paws?) of the dogman#and this other person is already being guided by the spirits of her deceased loved ones#and rach. ever the opportunist. latches onto the other person to maybe get vengeance for her own death#sapping away the strength from the other spirits to make herself strong enough to DO anything#to say 'how fucking dare you' when the other person chooses to offer mark mercy instead of outright killing him#to decide she can finally take matters into her own hands and take over the other person's body and do the dirty work herself
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hi update things are fucking terrible and my eyes hurt from sobbing. lol
#purrs#delete later#not to liveblog and be tmi or whatever but i feel terribly alone and terribly miserable so this is in fact a cry for help lol. or really#comfort bc im fucking going insane. so for context last spring when i was still an intern another intern orchestrated this back channel#where everyone was supposed to talk shit about our supervisors (my dearest most belovedest mentors) and all of us hid it for months and it#all came to a head at asb 2022 because there was a lot of drama witb the asb student facilitators and our staff team. and it was sooooo ugl#and messy and horrible and probably played a direct role in one of my dearest beloved est mentors (who was the point person for asb) fuckin#getting a new job and abandoning us in july lol 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 and so i became a full time staff member and me and my remaining dearest belovedest#colleague besties fucking carried the world on oh r shoulders and put on amazing programs as just 3 of us in the core staff and we thought#we were doing a really good job with the asb 2023 leaders and that there were no drama dynamics or whatever and guess fucking what. tonight#we found out that half of them hate us for reasons we still don’t know and all of them are at each others throats and also some of the#participants feel a type of way about us. and i know i am being a fragile sensitive crybaby over it but i have had terrible cramps all day#and have barely slept since ive been here and feel like ive been bending over backwards to support the leaders only to find out that half o#them think we’re evil and i just… i couldn’t take it. so i cried and now im beating myself up for crying. but it’s like come ON. i know we#did a pretty imperfect job of preparing them for this. and i should just take responsibility for that and not be defensive. but it’s like…#have NEVER seen this program in person before or been part of the planning of it. i was just a student last year like all of you. and also#HOW many fucking times did we create space for you to talk to us and invite us in. and still this shit happened. and i just feel like a#failure. and i couldn’t react to that information in any way except cry liek it’s all so over my head and out of my depth and im not as#emotionally mature as my colleagues bc im the youngest and this is my first time dealing with this and i feel so incompetent and like i#failed. failed the first time by not speaking up when i was implicated in the stupid fucking Google form back channel situation last year#and now failed the second time by not being able to prevent this stupid drama bullshit from happening again and for not catching it. and jf#like… im in excruciating physical pain and haven’t slept and haven’t eaten well and my life is falling apart and we were ABANDONED BY THE#PERSON WHO WAS RESPONDIBLE FOR THIS (i know we weren’t abandoned she literally just got a new job i just have psychological issues) and#we’ve been running at a million miles per hour with absolutely no break and now you’re mad at us and not even telling us and it’s impacting#everyone’s experiences but you want to pretend this is fucking high school and keep secrets. i am TIRED of drama. i am TIRED of this stupid#bullshit. and not to say this bc i don’t know if asb 2022 drama factored into her decision to leave but if it did i get why * left now. i#get it. bc this shit makes me want to jump out the hotel window. i do not want to face any of them tomorrow and deal with more bullshit. i#am emotionally unstable and incompetent and not equipped to deal with this in a mature healthy way. i want this to be over NOW. im done.#ok i think that’s it um. sorry about that i just needed other people to know i am suffering and i will suppress the shame i feel about that#just this once. esp bc i denied myself the opportunity for my colleague besties to comfort me while i was crying and i regret it now lol
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actually ive been thinking abt this a lot lately like basically for years i assumed i was very (cis)het passing and only recently ive become aware that i am in fact. very obviously perhaps almost comically gay to other queer ppl. like lmaoooo ok then
#i think its bc a) when i came out at like 15 everyone was super surprised so i assumed ppl still found it unexpected even now#+ b) im not super aware of social cues generally (autism) so dont tend to pick up on stuff like that unless its explicitly said#+ also c) ive never felt like i physically appear very conspicuous bc i dont have any piercings/tattoos/never dyed my hair etc#i only cut my hair short relatively recently too..... so idk i just assumed i blended into the background for everyone#but now im interacting with ppl outside of my tighter social circle more often ive become more aware-#of how ppl might perceive me. or rather ive become aware of just how UNaware i am of how ppl might perceive me#and its really funny how many odd interactions ive had in the past suddenly make sense if u assume the other person clocked me as gay#like strangers that have gotten flustered around me that might be bc i was giving off strong dyke vibes etc#the other day i was in a bookstore and the guy behind the counter was very stiff + quiet until i replied to smth he said and suddenly he-#became way more animated + started talking to me more casually + that was the first time i realised i probably sound gay as fuck#like i think i kinda have a stereotypical gay mannerism/lilt to the way i talk... no wonder i used to get called a fag so often lmfao#or like i remember trying to find a lab partner in 3rd yr of my degree + i had to do it on call only bc of covid + there were a bunch-#of us with similar lab interests but it got sorted SO fast bc this one other student seemed to gravitate immediately towards me#and i remember thinking afterward that it was odd how quickly we resolved that. esp bc we didnt even meet it was just voice call#anyway yeah i found out she was a dyke much later but i think maybe she clocked me straight away bc of how i sound....?#and that was why she warmed to me so quickly... but god i remember debating for ages with my ex abt whether she was gay or not#like my gaydar is truly terrible i suck balls at picking up on cues so its funny that to some people im reeking signals#also i met up with an ollldddd old friend last week + 30 secs in she was like oh fuck you must use different pronouns now#gesturing to Me. like oh..... im visibly gnc......? or maybe behaviourally???? idk. also shes v femme which made me realise that-#i rly do come across kinda masc/butch nowadays. even tho ive never really thought abt it that deeply before or made an effort to#i mean yeah i do identify along those lines but ive never directly considered how to flag that to other people etc im just doing me baby#ANYWAY this has been a rly long ramble idr what point i was getting at but just find it fascinating to think abt how im read in public#bc im just genuinely so unaware of it. its weirdly rly validating to find out that im automatically recognised as dykey + a little masc#boosted my confidence a lot as well tbh ive felt rly comfortable in myself lately. partly also cuz im getting a little muscular ;^)#ANYWAYYYYYY enough of all that i need to go sleep if youre reading this ily goodnighttt xoxo#.diaries
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Are you okay?
Not really :/
Constantly dealing with one traumatic/chaotic event after another
#moms in the hospital again#we are not on good terms at all honestly she was and is a terrible person to me#but its almost always preventable shit#2nd time in a year that I've had to call 911 for her#because she refused to deal with very easily treatable infections before they became life threatening#she now has terminal cancer for the same reason#she was very obviously sick for nearly 2 years before she finally had to be taken to the ER#rn she has multiple infections and brain swelling+potential sepsis (again) because she refused to go to the hospital for the past week or so#its not that she cannot care for herself at all#she is physically and mentally capable of caring for herself in many ways#at least enough to care for herself on a basic level#but she just refuses to do so#the only reason shes been doing chemo for the past 3 years is so she can smoke more cigarettes#she has been smoking 2-3 packs a day for as long as I have been alive#she hasn't slowed down even a little bit#she has talked/asked/argued with me about cigarettes several times since shes been in the hospital (3 days)#she is the worst addict I have ever known and my whole family was/is filled with all different kinds of addicts#pills alcohol heroin pcp meth#anything you can think of someone in my family is addicted to it/has died from it#her addiction to cigarettes is by far the worst out of everyone#worst addict I have ever met#she could be in a house fire and she would use the flames to light a cigarette before thinking about calling 911#If I could leave I would#I have no way out at the moment#I dont make enough to save up because I am financially supporting 2 people and I make too much for social security to help me#i am also completely alone dealing with all of this shit#i have no friends family only involves themselves when its life or death and i haven't even thought about dating#i don't want to even make friends/date rn because i dont want to bring people around any of this it will ruin any budding friendship anyways#its incredibly fucking isolating#just want to be taken care of sometimes too yknow?
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It happened spontaneously, but I love AU. So… Avatar Hiccup. Hiccup considered himself an ordinary person before meeting Toothless. (Dragons can be equated to spirits, i mean relationships between people and them). Then he discovered his talent as an airbender and Toothless became his teacher. Later, other talents were discovered, which made it clear that Hiccup was an avatar.
Astrid became his waterbender teacher. Snotlout was an adept of firebender, but he sincerely did not understand how to teach, because he himself used magic on a subconscious level. Fishlegs is an earthbender, but he did not go beyond the amateur level and could not become a teacher. The twins are always on their own wave. Ruffnut is a master in airbending and can perform techniques with clouds of gas, while Tuffnut is not a master, but is ready to set fire to the gas with his sparks at any moment. The twins always come in a set.
Brothers Grimborn! Lord of Fire Viggo. The aesthetics of blue flame and lightning were created for him. So I couldn't resist. The hottest flame and deadly techniques of lightningbending made him the most terrible opponent for the young avatar, but in the future, he will become the teacher of fire magic for Hiccup. I endowed Riker with explosion magic, as for me, it suits him perfectly. An explosive mixture of rage and bloodlust.
Berserkers! Remembering Viggo's words about how the berserkers in ancient times lured the Skrills with metal, I thought about a tribe practicing metalbending. Dagur discovered his talent for earth magic much later, including metal. I like to think that Dagur could be a threat to the avatar even as an ordinary person, relying on his ingenuity and physical strength. Heather is a master of earth and metal magic, she could well become Hiccup's teacher in this matter.
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You met your incubus!husband late one night during a thunderstorm. Usually he wouldn't be out feeding in a time like this, but he was hungry... and once he caught a whiff of your scent, it was all over for him.
He entered through your window, ready to go into your dreams...
That's when he spotted you curled up on your bed, hands over your ears as you tried to stifle your terrified sobs.
His first reaction was... intrigue. Why was this human crying in the middle of the night? Why was she curled up with a stuffed animal, wasn't that a thing only children did when they were afraid?
The incubus felt something strange while observing your trembling form... but he pushed those feelings away. You were too panicked and scared to feed from, so he'd have to find a meal somewhere else...
But he paused when you looked up at him. Not because he was afraid he had been caught, no, he froze because of the look you gave him.
Your lip was trembling, hair messy and cheeks covered in tears. When you looked at him, he almost felt compelled to rush forward and pull you into his arms, to comfort you with soft kisses and gently rocking.
But why did he feel this way? Why was he beginning to walk towards your bed and reach out to place a hand on your hair to soothe your fear?
The way you instantly began to relax, leaning into his touch made him... feel something. Something other than lust.
"Thank you.."
His eyes lit up at the soft gratitude you showed him.
Had anyone ever thanked him before?
Before he could even think, his arms were wrapped around your body, pulling you in closer so he could shield you from the thunder and lightening. The loud sounds and bright flashes of light became blurry and muffled... and you finally found yourself able to sleep peacefully.
His visits became nightly after that. There was something about you that drew him in. He couldn't feed on anyone anymore, his heart wouldn't allow him.
You became friends quickly, though it was obvious to most that he was pining after you terribly. Every waking moment was spent thinking of you and the next night he'd be able to visit...
You noticed he was getting pale one late evening, his eyes a bit dull.
“Are you feeling okay, Lulu?”
His name was Lucian, something you learned after his second visit.
“Ahh… I’m alright. I just… haven’t fed in a while.”
Lucian settled down next to you, his tail gently caressing your thigh. It wasn’t on purpose, his tail was moving on its own due to how hungry he was. To anyone other demon it would be clear how much Lucian wanted to mate with you…
“Fed? You haven’t… um…”
Your cheeks felt warm against his shoulder. He sighed softly, nuzzling against your hair. No other person he had bedded with had a scent like yours. It was intoxicating…
“I haven’t had sex since we met.”
This made you feel kind of… flattered. The way he gently reached for your hand and held it, the soft smile he had when looking at you…
Oh.
“Is it… because of me?”
His cheeks flushed a light pink, and she looked away. “… perhaps.”
His tail swayed before beginning to move up the skirt of your nightgown. He immediately looked embarrassed, trying to pull it away.
“I’m sorry, it’s just… it moves on its own when I’m…”
You shook your head, opening your legs a little to give his tail access.
“Don’t be sorry. You’re hungry, aren’t you? Well…”
You smiled shyly, squeezing his hand back. “I… wouldn’t mind providing you with a meal.”
He was gentle, his tail slipping under your panty line to play with your clit as the two of you shared your first kiss.
Lucian tasted like strawberries and honey, you couldn���t get enough. When he reached a clawed hand to hold onto your soft cheek, you instantly leaned into his touch.
He had never kissed someone like this before. Usually they were quick, heated with tongue and gnashing teeth…
But you slowly licked his bottom lip, and he felt his cock twitch in his pants as he explored your mouth. It was so sensual and tender that he could almost cry.
‘I… think I love her…’
With that revelation, his slit pupils expanded and he pinned you down, his tail rubbing your own slick against your pretty hole before plunging in.
“L-Lucian!”
You whines out in a mix of pleasure and discomfort, getting used to the feeling of his tail fucking in and it of your as his lips moved to your neck. His tail pumped aphrodisiacs into your body, making your head get fuzzy and your pussy throb with need.
It wasn’t long before he couldn’t take it anymore. Your cum was intoxicating, he was starving!
Lucian sank his cock into your, watching as you writhed and bucked your hips, your pussy gushing and clenching around him.
The two of you were a heated mess of needy kisses and cum, both unable to pull away. He had already had his fill, but continued to fuck into your fat cunt, watching as his cum spurted out of you with each thrust.
By the end of the night the two of you were clinging to each other, exhausted but happy. He had never been so worn out in his life… or as satisfied. As Lucian gazed down at your sleepy face, he knew then that you would be his wife soon enough.
He kissed your head and fell asleep too, leaving his life of being an incubus that slept with whoever he could behind.
Lucian would be your devoted husband now, until you died, and even beyond that. A demon’s love could last lifetimes…
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