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it's about...longevity? stability? it's about natsume believing he'll be somewhere long enough to plant flowers and see them bloom. it's about him taking touko seriously when she asks him to tell her what flowers he wants to plant. it's about making something with his own hands, building a future with the fujiwaras. it's about him repairing a rundown home for someone else, restoring it because it's beloved to them, because it's the home of someone they love. it's about him seeing touko's joy and thinking about the youkai saying we'd like to look upon her happy face forever. it's about the box garden making him think of the fujiwaras' garden and his parents' garden, about the flowers being both the memory of flowers that bloomed there before, and the flowers that he and the youkai planted earlier that day. it's about him waking up in both worlds with sensei. it's about touko finding the petal in his hair. it's about him feeling how he falls short and the youkai saying, but you have such gentle hands...
#watch this right after the ephemeral ones to die instantly. i assume. i haven't tried it#i feel like so many of the emotional beats that destroy me in this story come down to impermanence#accepting loss and change. finding the beauty in transience. treating every encounter as something precious‚ knowing it's ephemeral#and this chapter is about...also accepting renewal? allowing oneself to think about the possibility of love lasting#allowing oneself to put down roots. nurturing what is there. building foundations. doing it for and with people#god you know what else you shouldn't watch this after if you don't want to keel over dead probably. the childhood home arc#natsume can now think of the memory of sitting with his father looking at his mother's garden#and associate it with warmth instead of pain. because he's no longer afraid of losing it. because of the trust he has built#because he knows he can build something. the people here have made it safe for him and he has and he is and he will#i am crying so hard i should be collecting my tears for water reclamation purposes#natsume's book of friends#natsume yuujinchou#natsuyuu meta#my posts
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There’s something about Rhaenyra’s epithet being the Black Queen and how the color black is often associated with mourning and grief. Because Rhaenyra’s story really starts with the death of her mother, and that’s a grief that she carries onto her adulthood. But it goes deeper than that, we’re told how many children Aemma lost during her marriage to Viserys, and Rhaenyra, though just a child herself at the time, had to experience the loss of her siblings alongside her mother, never being enough for her father because she wasn’t a son. Then she finally becomes the heir, but not in time to save her mother, and the grief never really leaves her. She loses Harwin (and at least in the book, Laena). She learns about the usurpation of her throne at the same time that she learns about the death of her father. She loses her only daughter.
She watches her sons leave her one by one until only one is left.
How could she ever be anything other than the Black Queen?
#idk there’s something here about rhaenyra’s son aegon carrying his mother’s grief into his own reing#like this is an ongoing theme when it comes to house targaryen#viserys only inherited the throne from jaehaerys because of the death of the two previous heirs#and jaehaerys only became king through the dearth of half his family#LIKE.. it’s about loss!!!#dany with the loss of her brother and the family she never knew and carrying that generational trauma and grief#that’s why it’s so important to me that she lets go of it and finds a place to belong and be happy#rhaenyra targaryen#house targaryen#team black#hotd#fire and blood#f&b meta#hotd meta#f&b spoilers#house of the dragon#meta#my meta
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another wildly unimportant star trek pet peeve of mine is that i kinda hate it when people persistently call kirk "james", either in fic or in posts. like, yes, he's james t kirk. that's his name. but. he's jim. he asks people to call him jim. every time, it's jim. idk, maybe I'm too trans, but I figure that when someone tells you their preferred name, you use it.
I know a guy named bill. his name's william, sure, but he's bill. he specifically said so. I know an alexandria, who is always ally, and I know an aleksandra who is never ever a nickname. I know a thomas who flat out refuses to be tom. y'know? hell, I know a john who goes exclusively by jack, and a sarah who's riley. and it's rude as hell to ignore that.
I do understand that it's. a bit Silly to have that strong of an opinion on whether or not to call a fictional character by a nickname, but. oh well. i'm a bit silly i guess. like, yeah. it doesn't matter. he's not real. he doesn't care.
but he's jim to me.
#me every time i read a spirk fic where spock repeatedly calls him james in an intimate moment: he would not FUCKING say that#<- gritting my teeth the whole while even tho it literally doesn't matter and doesn't even take away from things unless you're weird (me)#besides spock already says jim like the name holds his whole heart. calling him james cannot possibly make it any more intimate#than the way he whispers jim. jim is already an endearment for him. the full name isn't somehow. 'more pure' or whatever.#especially bizarre when people call him james in their personal posts. who are you to him. are you his mother. it's allowed. but. odd.#i've read a fic or two where the Reason spock calls him james is because he thinks nicknames are Illogical (which is dumb)#but DOES make me tempted to write something where spock says nicknames are illogical and then jim shuts him down immediately#kirk: it's not illogical for someone to chose what they want to be called. i don't like being called james. use jim or kirk NOT james#you feel? spock says james in bed thinking it's cute and jim is like. no. that's a turnoff. don't say that. instant loss of erection.#tos#star trek tos#star trek the original series#james t kirk#captain kirk#jim kirk#kirk
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Do you think Cole’s body remained in Yang’s temple? Do you think his body— without a soul to keep it together— solely began rotting away & that’s why he now has a scar? Do you think that’s why it took a minute before he came back to the others in the end of DotD? Do you think he spent that minute regaining his sense of aliveness & steeled himself before returning to his friends?
Do you think his mother felt it when he died in the temple? Do you think she tried desperately, fruitlessly to reach out to him, to comfort him & tell him everything would be okay & embrace him in the afterlife? How do you think she felt when she reached out to hug him only to still be unreachable to him?
Do you think she was proud of him when he went after master Yang with the intention to finish him for good? Was she proud when he saved the trapped students & tried to free their captor despite all the pain & injustice? Do you think she still sat with him while he regained his bearings in the mortal world again, knowing it would likely be even longer before she could possibly get a chance to be with her son again? Do you think she prayed to the FSM for him to live as long as possible despite the pain it brings her?
Does she still dance in the afterlife, even with no partner? Does she still fight for those who can’t & protect the weak? Does she still recall the Geckles & Munts fondly?
Is Lilly still proud of her son?
#random#rambles#real#rant#tee hee#lego ninjago#ninjago#ninjago cole#cole brookstone#ninjago lilly#lilly brookstone#master of earth#death & undeath mentioned#just thinking about them#about the silly little lego people#projecting my own mourning & sense of loss onto them#do you think Cole suffered from body dysmorphia even after being revived?#do you think he could hear his mother’s voice faintly even if he couldn’t see her?#did he know she was still there with him through it all?#did he?#I like to think he did
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(starts biting into drywall) can we pls discuss this
#guys i feel fucking crazy wife guy artemy REAL 😭😭😭#artemy who has been surrounded by loss and grief his entire life to lose his mother his brother his father and his wife#but he STILL finds it in him to love and to love with ruinous abandon im gonna be sick#pathologic#pathologic 2#artemy burakh
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I really wanna enjoy fem Law, I really do. I just can't let go of the idea that this is what Lami would've looked like as an adult if her lifespan wasn't robbed by an incurable disease.
#one piece#trafalgar lami#fem law#oh I can make the pain worse by saying that fem law also resembles their mother so that's like a freaking double kill#by default law looks like his dad#his genderbend version looks like his mom + his sister#trafalgar law carries the faces and bloodline of his loss#he is more than a personification of flevance#he is also a living reminder of the family he once had#now this is just me sprinkling more angst but#I think it's also the reason why he kept the sideburns and goatee too#survivor guilt is one thing but#being reminded every single day of the loved ones you lost through your facial features is another trauma dump discussion entirely#trafalgar law#law
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no matter whether ppl are trying to make zk's canon relationship out to be sibling coded or associative friends or whatever else ppl make up i feel it all comes from this place of people that don't ship it being unable to handle zuko and katara's canonically deep and intimate friendship at the end of show without (whether subconsciously or not) perceiving it as some kind of threat to whatever katara or zuko ship they DO ship (usually either k/a or z/s or m/z)
they don't know how to acknowledge/write zk (and i don't think them being a m/f ship is divorced from this) having their canonically close friendship alongside whatever they ship because that closeness, no matter how platonic, can't supersede the romance of their own ship. so they just lazily write it off as "siblings" or convince themselves they weren't ever that close in the first place or that katara still secretly hates zuko or something in order to get out of the bind of allowing them to be close friends even if you ship them with other people 🤷♀️
#holly talks bs#zutara#atla fandom critical#hot take maybe but i do genuinely believe zk have one of if not THE mutually closest relationship in the gaang#because it's not about screentime spent together it's about the depth of what those scenes communicate about the characters and#their relationship#katara is the only one zuko ever marginally opened up to about his scar and his banishment and what he thinks and feels about it#zuko is the only one in the gaang katara talks about her mother in depth to#yes she's acknowledged the loss before and uses it to connect with ppl like haru and jet#but zuko is the person katara tells the whole story to#in fact zuko is the person who hears all three perspectives of kya's murder#and is yknow the person that actually GOES WITH HER on her journey to the centre of her deepest and most defining trauma#and then there's just the whole finale where they's essentially attached at the hip and he jumps in front of fucking lightning for her#brb just gonna jump in front of lightning for my associative friend#no big deal or anything we can barely talk to each other without someone else in the room#even tho zk have several scenes alone together while yeah they're not making out but they ARE usually talking about something#deep meaningful and personal#they spill their guts out to each other at the first sign they've found someone who might actually understand them
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midorima: come akashi, i will teach you about loss
dead mother akashi seijruo: OH REALLY??
#obvioulsy not what he meant but i really wish akashi weaponized his dead mother right than LOL#dont mess with him r hell teach YOU about loss#kuroko no basket#knb#kurokos basketball#akashi seijuro#midorima shintarou
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I'm absolutely obsessed with how mythology portrays parent-child relationships, especially when at least one divine party is involved. I've talked about Karna and Arjuna's relationship with their fathers, and how it might tie up to their characters and situations, and the Mahabharata as a whole, but they're not the only ones! Speaking exclusively about father-son dynamics in this post, and we have a lot of them!
You have Yudhisthira, whose father Yama/Dharma shows up in his son's mortal life twice (iirc), gives him a 20 min quiz each time and then tells him that no son, we don't allow dogs in heaven (which, how dare, but we all have that one parent). This is so in line with Yudhisthira's arc, poor man that he is, having to spend his whole life finding answers to questions about righteousness and honour, losing his friends, brothers, wife and children in the process.
Rama-Dasharatha and Ganesha-Shiva are pretty straightforward - there's plenty of mutual love and respect despite the horrors ™️ , but then there is Rama and Luv-Kush. If you're counting the Uttar Kand, then these boys literally saw their mother die because there father could not stop questioning her honour. That has to mess with your head. There's no way it's a happily ever after story.
Another man who interests me greatly is Yayati. Like sir... what were you doing. Who grows old and thinks, "You know what would be great? Me borrowing my son's youth" and then curses them when they refuse? What were you thinking. What were your kids thinking. I need to take your heads apart with a scalpel, this is so incredibly insane. A father should give to his children - the only thing this man "gave" was to spare Puru from his curse.
You have Bhishma and Shantanu, another wild story. I understand that Bhishma chose to give up his birthright to make Shantanu happy, but can you actually tell me Shantanu wasn't at least somewhat interested in the plan? Shantanu is Bhishma's father, it's his job to stop him from doing things like this. I feel like pulling my hair out everytime I think of this. You can tell that Bhishma was afraid for his father's well-being when he made this decision, and that so... unfair.
On the other end of the spectrum are Krishna and Vasudeva, who are wholesome to the point of despair. Vasudeva giving up his everything just to get his boy out of prison?? Waiting years and years for him, but never lamenting or cursing Krishna for not coming fast enough??? That's peak fatherhood (Shantanu take lessons). And Krishna honours that sacrifice!! He comes from idyllic Vrindavan, slays the tormentor of his parents and rips the bars of their prison!!! And that old married couple trapped within those dank, dreary walls, with no one except the other for company, watches their godly son turn up to free them and show them the sky for the first time in more than a decade - the thought of it brings me to tears. Possibly the only part I like about the change from baby!Krishna to adult!Krishna is his reunion with Vasudeva and Devaki!
Oh, and last but not least, our favourite problematic pair: Jamadagni and sons. I'm slightly terrified by how Jamadagni was like "kill your mother for me she's sinful >:(" and when four sons refused, he actually killed them. HIS OWN SONS! Admittedly, in some versions he asks Parashuram to do the killing but like... those are his brothers. Who probably swaddled him and rocked him and fed him and played with him. And all this is presumably happening right in front of Renuka. And then Parashuram has to kill his mother as well, unless he wants to be a heap of ashes.
(In some versions, including the one I've always heard as a child, Parashuram is said to be "aware of" his father's immense power, which just seems to me a really polite way to say that Parashuram knew disobeying his father had consequences ™️ that weren't always right or rational)
Worse, after the killing is done, Jamadagni is so pleased he offers Parashuram a boon, presumably with the remains of the rest of his family still nearby, and when Parashuram asks for his mother and brother to be revived, Jamadagni is all like "ooh actually I got really angry, I think I'm going to renounce rage forever. Dw btw your brothers and mother forgot you killed them you're welcome <3"
Sir??? This is what you got out of the whole issue???? No wonder Parashuram killed a whole bunch of kings, this couldn't have been healthy.
#the best part is that literally all of these fathers are around even today#yama is the father whose exacting nature drives you to ruin#dasharatha and shiva are father's who make wrong decisions but their love withstands their follies#whether or not they make it right#shiva is always THE father though#dasharatha is... human. poorly so.#rama is the father whom your mother forsakes. you bear his presence. you accept his love. it makes you feel guilty#as if you're betraying your kind and gentle mother. but she isn't there. so you take what you can#clinging to the last remnants of warmth. you cannot be left alone.#yayati is the father who takes everything except a 'no'#and when you refuse#he will curse you and loathe you and name you selfish#and give everything to whoever curries his favour the most - a father of syncophants#(and as an added flavour he will blame your mother for it because why not)#shantanu is the father who takes advantage - of your grief your loss your fears and your immaturity#vasudeva is the father who tries: “yes i am far away. but i am with you. always and forever”#and jamadagni is a case of his own - a spectre of rage dressed as an authority and guardian#fatherhood#father son relationship#rama#yudhisthira#yudhisthir#parashurama#jamadagni#yama#hindublr#hindu mythology#ramayana#mahabharata#mahabharat
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For whatever reason, I like to think Elizabeth Masen would have been an incredibly toxic mother-in-law.
#you know those posts where mothers lament the loss of their sons to their wives or say to their DIL “I was his first love” or whatever#that would be elizabeth with edward#bella is lucky esme is her MIL
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Hey do you ever think about how Ygraine's death probably impacted Arthur a lot more than "Morgause's" "death" did? Mordred was just a baby when the saxons took him in, at the very least he was young enough to have no lasting memories of Arthur. But in hnoc we see how strongly Arthur loves, how the death of any of his partners is not acceptable to him even if it means he could have power on par with a God's. The loss of his wife (one of two) would be absolutely devastating to him, especially so close after their child was born.
Do you think Mordred would ever consider telling Arthur his original identity, if he ever hears Arthur recounting the tale of the caravan, but stops himself upon seeing Arthur speak of Morgause's fate and not once shedding a tear until he speaks of Ygraine?
Imagine being the only one to come back when a large part of family dies and knowing, despite your father's joy to hold you in his arms again, there is someone else he wished returned more so than you. And that, more than anything else, is a feeling you cannot share with him, as the mother who died as you laid against her is not even half as much of a mother to you as is the one who tore you out of her arms.
#mordred hnoc#arthur hnoc#high noon over camelot#hnoc#the mechanisms#Their dynamic honestly kills me they give me so much emotions#The impact of a loss of a baby and forever dreaming of what could have been is strong don't get me wrong#But with how young Mordred was said to have been and how hardened the wastelands have made Arthur#I don't think he'd have had enough time to get really attached. At least not enough to be on par to how much he loved Mordred's mother.#And he will mourn that loss of a chance for the rest if his life#But more so he will mourn the one who he fell so in love with it made him put aside the thoughts of their world only being a hell and#take the chance of a future and starting a life together
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(Part 2) Sherlock Holmes Chapter One achievement icons enlarged and upscaled in case you were also curious to see the art in full detail! (Part 1)
#sherlock holmes chapter one#frogwares holmes#frogwares sherlock#shco#shco achievements#the “closing a chapter: remember everything” always gets me in the feels#and the drawing being that of a weeping angel ugh#symbolizing grief being the statue over his mothers grave also symbolizing loss of innocence and childlike purity by remembering the trauma#weeping angels also symbolize the inevitability of change and decay#decay being a reoccuring theme throughout the game#im rambling in the tags again
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Hot take but Ed's crippling daddy issues and his trigger-happy attitude around older male figures in his life are completely valid and make a lot more sense when you, too, have crippling daddy/mommy issues
Stop forcing Ed to forgive Hohenheim 2024 :) Please :))
#Ed has such eldest daughter syndrome. he's just like me fr#fullmetal alchemist#fma#edward elric#van hohenheim#vent post#the kat speaks#I won't even say “he was a good person but a bad parent” cuz. no. I am never forgetting his FIRST words to his own son#being about his GODDAMN house followed by an insult#not a single question of “how've you been coping with the loss of your mother” and “are you okay?”#nope. just. where's my house. also you wet the bed hahaha#okay hoho. okay.#fandom bullshit#fmab critical
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On Miguel O'Hara
#web weaving#on love#on grief#on death#on loss#on rage#across the spiderverse#spider verse#atsv#spider man across the spider verse#miguel spiderverse#miguel o'hara#handlingwelcomesart#On his daughter mother father brother his job everything he lost and everything he ruined himself#pray for him
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Actually you know what I don't want any more seasons of the sandman I can only go through that ending once and I barely survived the first time
#youre telling me youre gonna get tom to say “im so tired” ????#youre telling me youre gonna get ferdie to CRY ????#youre telling me ill have to hear matthews hearbreaking speech as he deals with the loss of his FRIEND ????#youre telling me ill have to watch dream forgive lyta without a second thought#and EMBRACE HER - this woman who was once some version of his mother#HELLO?????#cancel the show#(im kidding oh my god please dont)#the sandman#the sandman comics#the sandman spoilers#dream of the endless
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Bruce Wayne stop slandering your dead son whose murder you were high-key responsible for challenge
#difficulty level: impossible#batman nonsense#anti bruce wayne#also “it wasn't bruces fault!!” :/#he didnt realize his teenaged son was in a whole ass ANOTHER conctinent#bruce and jason only crossed paths in ehtiopia bc bruce went after joker instead of trying to find his mfing SON#he was like “ugh jason isnt over his parents deaths ://”#look at whos talking bitch#also he deadass didnt have to make jason robin#unlike tim or dick or steph#jason didnt beg to be a vigilante#even though jason was already severely traumatized#he made jason robin and basically taugh him violence as a coping mechanism AND retraumatized him(gloria cough)#just bc he didnt want to feel lonely like mf...#he also immediately accused jason of murder#i mean would it have been a loss if he HAD actually killed the guy? no#but its the principle of the thing#he also left jason w sheila even though he had no idea who she was or if she was actually jasons mother or smth#to chase after(you guessed it) JOKER AGAIN#like hey....#if choosing joker over ur kids is a consistent behavior of yours#dont adopt kids ffs
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