#and the constant guilt trips

[brynalyn]

I hope other people who have experienced trauma from the floraverse discord servers and the toxic environment from that circle know they aren’t alone, and that they are valid, and their feelings are valid. It’s not cool that so many get bullied due to others whims. there are others who have experienced the same sort of alienation, you aren’t alone and you aren’t bad for wanting to be treated humanly and with respect. No one should live with constant guilt trips, feeling like they are being scrutinized constantly, constant fear of being punished for any misstep, that feeling of oppressive control is incredibly detrimental to mental health. I hope everyone can find a place that isn’t only half safe, but fully safe, where your presence isn’t looked down on, tolerated, scoffed at, mocked or ignored. Where you feel safe to be yourself and grow without judgement and with love and respect. Half safe is not actual safe. You shouldn’t be shamed for being a human being and growing as a person, and I’m sorry and it makes me genuinely upset that shame is used as a weapon to hurt others there, it’s wrong and it’s hurtful.

[pjharvey]

my current plan re: tumblr is to use this site once a week TOPS at least until the US election in november, then maybe resume every day. i literally dont think the amount of anger i have over the stupid bullshit i have to see from people who think you should have to be guilty about everything you do and that feeling as much guilt as possible is peak activism is like sustainable in terms of purely like. my own health reasons. im being tested for hyperthyroidism and a number of other things rn bc of chronic pain + issues eating exacerbated by stress and i don’t feel like mass unfollowing ppl bc a lot of it is coming from ppl i care about

[figofswords]

thinking about taking a little bit of a step back from social media for a bit for mental/physical health reasons (as in: chronic severe anxiety is causing chronic health issues and I need to remove stress Somehow). I will still post art but I’m probably gonna make an effort to engage with my dash only minimally, if at all. (that being said I have very poor discipline so if you see me suddenly reblogging stuff out of nowhere just. roll with it)

[phoenixisnthere]

‘Honestly people don’t realize-‘ ‘I never see people talk about-‘ ‘How come no one mentions-‘ ‘Pretty funny how people seem to have forgotten-‘

EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING EVERYWHERE ALL THE TIME! FUCK YOU FOR ASSUMING EVERYONE KNOWS WHAT YOU KNOW AND ARE JUST IGNORING IT! FUCK YOU FOR ASSUMING EVERYONE HAS THE CLARITY AND STRENGTH TO TALK ABOUT EVERY IMPORTANT TRAGEDY HAPPENING RIGHT THIS GODDAMN SECOND AND YESTERDAY AND TOMORROW AND AND AND!

[sureuncertainty]

Okay, yesterday was for crying and despair and anger, today is for continuing to live and fight and hope

[mycological-mariner]

God i miss privacy

[moneygoblin04]

I kinda feel like I'm falling apart

[raitrolling]

tho to be clear i actually dont mind if people think my ocs are Dateable unless you get Weird about it (i.e. ignoring character flaws or legitimate bad shit theyve done in favour of fawning over them for being cute/sexy), i just think its funny when people pick the terrible options when decent dateable characters like lucy and nancor are Right There

[pepprs]

feeling despair i don’t know how to put into words. im trying to figure out why im like this and how i got to be this way but i can’t even do it bc of the way i am and what im like. if that makes sense. like the problem prevents me from fixing the problem bc i can’t get to the root of it. despair despair despair

[sporadeen]

People on here hit reblog on every post about how difficult phone calls are then call people who have difficulty commenting on fics assholes and say "there are no excuses"

Do you not understand how anxiety works?

[ficsempai]

Me: *hating on Alhaitham* 😃

Some people: *Actually hating on Alhaitham*

Me:

[ourlordandseivior]

Love when my mom gets fucking attitudey with me for tending to my own needs when she and literally everyone else has tasked me with handling their emotions above my own

[theflamingmarshmallow]

Thank you so much 🍉🍉for being generous and supporting for my family that is now undergoing to all forms of pain, torture 😞😞and hardship. Please don't hesitate to help the miserable, hopeless and jobless 😢😢people of Gaza in such hard and dire time We need your kind help 😍😍through donating whatever you can to enable us to cover some of our daily basic necessities or through sharing my posts to other. Your contribution will be highly valued.  ❤❤

Damn whoever made this spambot sure didn't do a good job at it because half of my dash is:

LMAO. I've never once contributed to a GFM or even had the money to.

(Just for clarity, see that I have all donation posts blocked, and I have both sides blocked, this is just the first one on my dash and is related to the ask. All of this became almost my entire feed. It's too much man I'm a broke bitch part-time janitor and I just come here for fanart and memes occasionally. This is NOT a declaration of my stance on the matter, nor am I the most informed.)

[askshivanulegacy]

This. I've seen sooooo many artists hating on people who like their stuff.

Man, that's someone who liked your stuff!! Embrace it! They didn't have to do anything, and they did!

Something I found on Twitter that really puts things in perspective as a creator.

[bumblebeepixie]

[bean-pronounced-bawn]

The closer it gets to Normal People Are Okay With Eating A Lot season (i.e. thanksgiving and chrimus), the more grating my mother is becoming because she's got fucking issues and loves controlling other people's diets, and it's genuinely starting to push me towards the edge. It's one thing to be a health freak and not eat anything that doesn't fit in your narrow and tragic category of Okay To Eat, it's a whole nother thing to get on someone else's ass for eating A Cookie -- cookies that she fucking bought for us to eat because she has no self control and would rather self flagellate over buying/eating Evil Foods than sticking to her own stupid fucking morals and Not Buy them in the first goddamn place. You'd think that November - December she'd reel herself in a bit because this is literally Eating Season, but she has somehow become more irritating because instead of just Not Allowing Bad Foods in the house, she buys them and then gets mad at me for eating them after explicitly saying I could eat them. And that's not even touching on the fact that she thinks that there are limited Normal Times to eat and gets mad at anyone who eats outside of Her established breakfast lunch and dinner times, but that's not how my body fucking works and I tend to eat 4-5 small meals a day and I always get hungry around 10pm, but she gets mad at me for not eating enough at Normal Times even though I've explained to her that her Normal Dinnertime is right between my Body Gets Hungry times, so of course I'm not eating a lot cause I'm not fucking hungry regardless of what I've eaten today. And then she makes some snide fucking comment about my weight when I actually Do Get Hungry later and grab myself something to eat and acts like I've downed ten thousand fucking calories when I most likely haven't even had two full meals. I'm so fucking done with her, and I'm pissed because living alone the past two years finally allowed me to work on having a healthy relationship with food, and now not only am I backtracking on all of that cause I have to adhere to my mom's stupid fucking arbitrary bible, but I'm starting to do shit I never did before moving out like sneaking food when I'm out of the house and stashing candy to snack on at night and I know it's bad and it's pissing me off that I feel like I have to fucking do it. I've reached the point where little comments are making my fucking blood boil and I know that means I'm gonna start snapping soon and I don't have the ability to move out now or anytime in the near future. Fuck.