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I wish we could have met in some other way.
Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates
If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3
Still frames/Individual gifs:
If you know what every frame is from you get a free cookie. by the way
#death note#dn#light yagami#l lawliet#lawlight#oh god here we go#death note jdrama#death note 2015#death note 2006#death note musical#lctw#l change the world#dntm#lawlightweek2024#my art#collapses i am NEVER putting this much effort in one piece ever again /hj this was the Only one i had mostly prepared in advance#ironically the most painstaking part about making this entire thing was converting the images into an animated file#that wasn't either horrifically compressed or just. wouldn't loop. why do gifs have to look so BAD it's so inconvenient#and THEN i realized I had to forcibly Stitch the two animations together so they would actually be synced and it wouldn't look dumb#and the end result is STILL so compressed. because Tumblr. uhhh just don't click on it it'll look so scuffed LOL. anyways#this is what i get for watching Every Adaptation of Death Note. i am a death note multiverse truther#usually i'd have something clever to say in the tags but. this drained the life out of me just uh.#yeah. they're doomed in every universe. this is the only way they could've met. they are doomed by their own natures and the#circumstances that surround them. there is no universe where light tries to prevent L's death. and even in the cases where L Doesn't die#there is no universe where L can save light. there is no universe where he can truly “catch” Kira and make him see where he went wrong#(<- if you read LCTW you know. :) )#in every universe and adaptation L will call Light his first friend. in some universes they'll take that notion more seriously than others#no matter what one of them will die due to the other. its the only constant. it's the only way it can ever be. they are the others downfall
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king and harbinger, old and young
#hi sorry i havent been animating much cuz. i didnt fucking want to#i have my major work animations to work on so its kind of. drained the fun out of it#but this doctor who audio killed me the fuck dead so uh here#spoop combining his interests again…. who woulda thunk….#lmk#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk fanart#lmk mk#lmk sun wukong#sun wukong#qi xiaotian#qi xiaotian fanart#honestly this is less of a father/son thing and more just. kinship. if that makes sense#they are alike and wukong takes a sort of refuge in that he is not the only one out there#idk how to explain it ahsbdbjdf#also in my head this is set before mk is left at pigsy’s doorstep. idk man idk
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I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life
#tw sucidal ideation#tw selfhate#mentally drained#sorry for being depressing#anxitey#i hate me so much#tw depressing thoughts#tw sui ideation#depressing shit#mental health#tw depressing stuff#please let me die#please let me kms#let me go#you’re losing me#you’re on your own kid#mental problems#i wanna die#i want to disappear#i wish i was dead#i’ll never recover#what is wrong with my brain#tw sui vent#tw self h4rm#mentally fucked#so fucking exhausted#tw sui talk#very unstable#im going to kms#what is wrong with me
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the way depression made a full comeback this year lmfao
#not that it was ever fully gone#havent been able to rid myself of this fucking chemical imbalance for the last 10 years#but this year? slowly but surely it crawled back to full potential and now all i want to do is cry and isolate myself and die#literally every interaction hurts and i feel extremely exhausted from anything i have to hold my tears back the entire fucking day#but then i get home and i cant cry so i just hurt myself#and nothing i do means a goddamn thing its all so pointless im literally going insane#i just keep yelling at myself stop stop STOP this is maddening#but i cant catch a single break bc i work mornings i work afternoons i have night classes#everywhere i go i have to see people and talk to them and pretend im fucking fine and happy#and that drains me so much#but its actually disgusting how well i can pretend#like idk who im fooling anymore#im crumbling every second and idk how much longer i can hold it all together#yeah#dawn.txt#self harm tw#ig? idk
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You missed the mark! (Time Travel)
Extra: Otsutsuki
(they learn Kurama is willingly there)
anndd more sketches to give
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#obito uchiha#sasuke uchiha#sakura haruno#naruto uzumaki#indra otsutsuki#ashura otsutsuki#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#okay so when they time travel; kurama disappeared much more earlier#(so does the dad but its but a inconvenience🧍♂️… everyone is sweating)#and indra made the decision to be the one to go out in the world#while ashura takes charge back in their home to avoid panic#obito and kakashi are able to handle their abilities better at their ages#the rest are having fun with chakra exhaustion/drain (especially sasuke)#this au is the equivalent of team 7 acting as a family therapist#they do a terrible job (but ironically makes Indra and ashura communicate–#because they know there is something highly wrong with them)#anyways ashura getting the chance to strangle zestu after finding out his plans#other then this this idea is just vibing away#this started off me just liking Indra design haha
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#wip#im too lazy to finish#will finish it tomorrow#have this for now#ticci toby#creepypasta#i need to stop drawing him so much#lizards0up#somebody sedate me#my art#artists on tumblr#can my ipads battery stop draining so fast#felt too skibidi#i dont know what that means#i love tumblr more than any other platform im on#but dont tell them that#creepypasta fanart
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Even a hero needs some hope
#| haha i am so nervous on how these colors are gonna look on other screens#Hatchetfield#Nightmare time#Killer track#miss holloway#if they look pale its over-#i might die#no i will die-#1: Drawing this has drained me of my soul and will to live#2: I clearly don’t know how to draw microphones#3: Q: How much hair do you want? A: Yes#she came out looking so sad.... i guess that sorta works mm#Nightmare time 2#I think i hate this#but also thats to be expected#and also i cannot look at this anymore#or im gonna start pointing at every bad thing#or worse what if it looks too contrasted#i can't win
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Sometimes... the world can be a little too much.
#cod#call of duty#cod mw2#call of duty modern warfare 2#call of duty ghost#simon ghost riley#manysart#manyrambles#vent in the tags beware#drew a little ghost to see if it made me feel a little better and it did... maginarly...#I have been having the roughest month (roughest year reallly) of my life mental wise...#I feel so drained everything is too much everything is too little#it's like my brain is covered in static and not the good kind#I'm exausted mentally#my nerves feel rubbed raw#feels like I'm so close to snapping#I don't even know why I'm like this that's why it's so frustrating#now I'm gonna work on my assigment that does involve soap so that makes me a little happy#personal stuff yee haw
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*tries to organize my thoughts*
*remembers i'm not in school and therefore beholden to neither heaven nor hell nor any man's grading system*
*joyously shredding & tossing all my carefully arranged 3x5 mental notecards into the air like so much beige confetti. raising my arms in victory, cheering raucously until i accidentally inhale bits of homemade confetti*
(*coughing up itty bits of paper like a cat evicting a hairball with a firm understanding of tenants' rights*) wait wat happens next
#i marie kondoed my thoughts and *i* feel great. but now my stream-of-consciousness has escaped containment#so many innocent bystanders at stake#every time i try to organize my thoughts i run out of plastic bins and have to make a trip to the container store where i get even more dis#racted so. you can't just hand me THIS brain and NO catalogue OR library classification system#and expect me to single-handedly sort through all this nonsense? bad form but fucking form not in my job description#aNYways. formal education sure did a FUCKING NUMBER on us huh#(a number i measure not in gpa or dollars of student debt.#but in the number of therapy sessions & medical debt it will take to recover.)#seriously folks. our education systems are...innately traumatizing for a huge number of students. and we NEED to address this.#the fact that it is culturally common for adults to have anxiety nightmares about school/exams...even decades later?#that is not cute. it is Alarming.#no one--much less entire generations--should be spending their developmental years in an environment of chronic stress & pressure & strain#and yet that is the reality for millions and millions of pre-teen and teenage and young adult students#this isn't healthy and it serves and empowers NO ONE#...except of course the many exploitative educational & financial & debt-collecting institutions thriving from the current balance of power#and of course it's a nefarious and powerful way to sabotage/erase the middle class#which billionaires and the wealth-inequality creators they finance couldn't possibly have any noteworthy interest in whatsoever#it's not like there's an elite group of people with huge financial incentives to drain/steal resources from the masses...#anyways sorry for going all Conspiracy Theory on you.#obviously the billionaires who control the vast majority of our resources and news and political campaign funding#are not tied to every single itty bitty social issue and i'm a silly billy to imply it#please tell elon musk to ignore this tweet i am so subservient and acquiescent#mr musky u r so good at inheriting slavery-built mining fortunes & buying other people's companies#& building rocket ships & fancy cars that do NOT explode/catch fire & also NOT running billion dollar companies into the ground#mr musky u r so talented genius billionaire playboy with 10 kids and ex-wives who find you creepy af babe u r basically iron man
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Linktober day 2? ':D
Friend/companion- I love midna. Her character arc was the best, and the scene in the beginning where she plops on Link's back- and just refuses to get off- always makes me laugh.
More photos:
Egg carving for October challenge. This is a great plan. Yes go me.
:)
@la-sera
#Loz#Zelda#linktober#twilight princess#Loz tp#midna#THIS FREAKING KILLED ME#do you know. I mean probably not but humour me-#do you know. how hard it is. TO GET PHOTOS OF AN EGG?!?!#the hole near Midna's helmet is where I drained the egg btw#I'm freakin. crazy#when it covers more of the egg it gets much harder to get 3d art in photos#but#I wanted to do midna on wolf link being an asshole and grabbing his ear like she did in game#so I did#it took me almost as long (<exaggeration) to get photos as to do the egg TT#ok I'm done complaining#smoll art
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happy ten year anniversary friends at the table!! i collected some of my favorite fan works i did over the years. fatt got me drawing again after ages and really inspired my creativity and just helped me grow so much as a person. and i made many many amazing long term friends AND met my partner of 5 years through fatt so thank you so much to the best actual play podcast <3
#friends at the table#wish i had drawn much at all for sangfielle or palisade but grad school has really drained me there#i have so many more things i like but i tried to condense
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Happy Holiday Truce @jackdaw-sprite !!! (And a happy new year~)
I kinda smushed two Lost Time prompts and was inspired by two posts you tagged as Lost Time for inspiration since I've never really written or drawn art exploring Danny and Clockwork's relationship before. (Hope that's ok xp) I hope you like it ><
Danny raced through the Zone, struggling to reach Clockwork's lair as ghost after ghost delayed him, picking a fight with what Danny's core quietly noted was motivated by desperation.
Desperate to what? Beat him to the ground?
No, that wasn't it.
His core hummed with... discomfort??? Unsatisfaction??? None of these ghost were giving him what he wanted.
What did he want?
Danny didn't know. Didn't have time to think as he blasted away one of his rouges, confusion bubbling when Pandora of all ghosts seemed to bow at her defeat. Although, it wasn't like she was putting much effort into their fight. She seemed only amused. A quiet acceptance lingering in her eyes as he slowly floated away from her.
"I understand I can't have you. Not with how your cores call for each other."
...what?
He didn't stick around for an answer. A desperate need like no other pulling him towards Clockwork. Idly, as he finally reached Clockwork's lair, a conversation he had with Clockwork resurfaced.
"Ugh, that's the third time this week that Skulkers broken his promise not to attack during school hours! And it's only Tuesday!" Clockwork simply smiled in amusement as Danny ranted about his day.
"But as I recall, you've successfully ended the fight before the Fentons showed up with minimal damage. You're improving. What is there to complain about?"
Danny snarled but pulled back, startled at his harsh reaction, hands slapping his mouth closed. Where did that come from?
"Sorry, it's just that..." He growled softly, flexing his hands into fists, "Lately these fights have been feeling so... UGH lame!"
"Lame?"
"Yeah! Lame." He huffed, looking away from Clockwork, knowing he was laughing at his childish insult.
"Poor thing." Danny's core bubbled at the insult. Clockwork raised his brow towards Danny, the ghostling's irritability easy to read with how little control he has in hiding his core's projections. "Is the lame fights to blame for your irritability or does the baby ghost need a bedtime?"
"BEDTIME?!" He stuttered at the offense, his core surged at the insult. He groaned. "Don't tell me you want to pick a fight, too! That's what everyone seems to want from me lately! At least you'll be a challenge."
Clockwork's eyes pierced right through his soul and Danny involuntarily shivered with fear.
"Perhaps tomorrow."
"Tsk- Perhaps tomorrow." Danny mocked. "Scared you'll lose?"
"No." He smiled a little, "I'd like to see their desperation as they fight for guardianship one last time. I let this go on long enough."
Guardianship. His core hummed with recognition. Expectation.
This was it. What was it? He wouldn't be alone anymore! Since when was he alone? He just had to prove himself! But why??
He entered Clockwork's lair with a grimace, irritated and tired from all the ghosts attacking him since their last conversation. Everyone understood what they were fighting for except him. Would Clockwork even explain himself after?
He didn't have much time left to think, when Clockwork swung at him. His core hummed with excitement, wild green eyes meeting calm, piercing red.
Game on.
#i wrote the snippet for more context and to hopefully articulate what i struggled to like visualize for the comic piece#at least a before his like 'defeat'#and then the gif is his baby core instincts finally calming down satisfied to know like oh safe!!! proven to be strong#ghost!!! so that means hes safe!!!!#and the first image is just more inspo from the tumblr post :>#just ooooh imagine with bad parent fentons context !!!!!#but uh yeah!!! hope you like it!!!!!! this was so fun to work on my brain kept wanting to do so much but xmas drained me TAT#phandom truce 2024#danny phantom#clockwork
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I feel like I should say since there's been a recent uptick in a lot of communities I'm in/see stuff from a lot of white people pretending to be Asian, but you are not welcome here if you are in anyway stealing from Asian cultures for clout or the aesthetics of it
This includes if you're white and you give your self inserts Asian names, I truly do not care if your f/o is from an anime, you should not be using an Asian name under any circumstances. I hate that whenever I see someone using an Asian name online, I feel like I have to start searching their account to see if they're actually Asian or just a white person who likes the aesthetic of it bcs far too many white people will use Asian names here just bcs it sounds cool, with no regard for the actual cultural meaning behind it. Meanwhile actual Asian people will be mocked for their names, or treated like their names are too hard to learn to pronounce, or discriminated against based on their names
Asian cultures are not a fun little costume for people to dress up with. They aren't just a nice aesthetic, they aren't just a thing you can borrow from bcs you think it sounds cool
#my posts#selfship community#anti asian racism#like it's definitely a perpetual problem of white people not seeming to realize asian names are like#a thing that are tied to culture and identity#but it's gotten crazy lately with people pretending to be asian online for clout#just in the past like 3 weeks of things i've seen#we had the white woman pretending to be a japanese woman on comic twitter#the white woman who pretended to be korean to get a 'ownvoices' book published#(who btw. named herself kim chi. you cannot make this shit up)#and then the white guy pretending to be japanese to try to justify his hate of the new assassin's creed game using stuff around yasuke#like it's so draining. i hate how much this is a never ending problem#i hate how casually white people will use asian names#like worstie. i am a korean woman. but i am whitepassing and mixed so i never use korean names for my self inserts#bcs i have the privilege of looking white and people generally only knowing i'm asian if i say it#it feels inappropriate to me for me to name my self inserts a korean name#bcs that would then mean they experience the world in a different way than i do#even being whitepassing bcs of the way people treat korean (and other asian) names#if you are white you have no fucking right to asian names#idgaf if your f/o's an anime character. stay away from asian names bcs they are not yours to dress up in#vent a little bit sorry team#i've been dealing with white people doing this shit and being assholes to me about it for well over a year now. it's exhausting
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I walk into a room and immediately think of all the potential ways to kill myself that exist there
#mentally drained#mental health#anxitey#sorry for being depressing#depressing shit#i hate me so much#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#tw sui ideation#mental problems#tw sucidal ideation#tw selfhate#please let me kms#i wanna cvt#let me go#you’re losing me#i wish i could disappear#you’re on your own kid#mental illness#mentally exhausted#i wanna die#ready to kms#let me disappear#please end my suffering#please let me die#why am i this way#please help#i cant do this#i’ll never recover#why can’t i just be okay
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inspired by a conversation i had with mars the other day, i ask tennisblr:
*significant can mean a 1000, the wta/atp finals, the billie jean king/davis cup finals or something else i'm forgetting that's particularly important during the tennis season. some of these have dates that have varied more than others over the years but regardless since every tournament obviously happens on different dates every year i'm asking usually, so if most years your birthday is during, for example, indian wells or the davis cup finals pick the 2nd option even if sometimes it isn't, you know
#overexplained this probably#tennis#polls#nico rambles#my answer is yes. my bday is pretty much always during the us open#i was telling mars THE sincaraz match was the night after my bday. also flavia beat stosur on my bday on the way to her title!!#and i've sadly seen matteo lose on my bday twice.. 2 years in a row (that semi vs rafa ...)#i'm going by when the match happens here in italy btw bc i mean if it's already the 7th here it's my bday even if it's the 6th in the us#anyway last year i didn't even realise it was past midnight and it was my bday bc THAT FUCKASS JANNIK JACK MATCH WAS DRAINING MY LIFE FORCE#but i can happily say aryna won the us open on my bday and jan the day after... presents for me!!#oh also for loena if you're reading this: bianca also won uso on my bday <3#i think roger lost to delpo on my bday as well. that's as far as i can remember notable things happening in tennis that day#it's kind of a double edged sword especially bc it's also usually towards the end of the tournament so very important matches#and i can start or end my bday watching my fave win which is fucking fantastic... or i could watch them lose. which is considerably less so
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kay oh bee dee
#arting#transformers#kobd#knockout#breakdown#megatron and starscream are also here but this ain't about them...#idk if i like my breakdown human ver but whaaaatever...#i was pretty set with knockout.... hmm hmm#I AM STILL PISSED AT THE CHARACTER DEVELOPEMENT FOR KNOCKOUT BTW... like 😭#also with breakdown's death 😭😭😭😭😭 aagagahahahhhh whhyyyyyyyyyy#i'm not even pissed actually he died but the way knockout reacts to it is like 😭 ok. sure. call him your partner and shit and you dgaf 😭#like. ok at first i was like ''ooh he is trying to ignore it but later they will show his reaction to it!''#THEY DON'T!!?!?!?!? it's just ah yes.. my fellow comrade died... oh welll i will avenge him! 😭😭😭😭 fucj you#it pisses me off especially arcee gets multiple moments remembering cliffjumper and tailgate#you know... her previous partners? yeah..#i understand budget stuff and shit but come on... you could've done more with knockout? idk...#i heard bd was supposed to become an autobot which is so cool but they didn't do it due to budget stuff. kms....#😭😭😭😭😭#idk they just had so much potential and they threw it down the drain..#man even dreadwing had a similar motivation of avenging with his dead brother 😭#ok... anywya yaaaaa 😭
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