#and sometimes it’s because I’m tired
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Do me a huge favor and if you’re not normal abt fat people please leave
As in Im 280lbs and 5’5” and I don’t want to hear you tell me to exercise. And I shouldn’t have to explain why or lay out my legitimate concerns about moving my body safely for you to stop fucking doing that shit to me or anyone else
#sometimes I don’t want to work out because my whole body hurts#sometimes I don’t want to because my joints feel unstable#and sometimes it’s because I’m tired#most of the time it’s because nobody ever stopped to teach me how to do it without hurting myself#nor do I have access to people who could teach me#I don’t know how to run without it displacing a whole disc in my back#and yes: sometimes the answer is I don’t goddamn want to#though usually the answer is I don’t want to have to wear a mask on a weight machine#because Covid never ended for me
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I would really like to remind everyone that it’s canon (we didn’t make this up. We didn’t have to make this up Flanagan made it canon for us) that everyone just. Accepts that Will is Halt’s son. Gilan says that even though he and Halt will always be close, Halt and Will’s relationship is much closer and is father & son like. Pauline treats Will as her son. Horace sees Will as his brother and Halt as his uncle. Everyone sees Will and Halt and are like “this man. This man has adopted a child” which is so funny to me because imagine you’re in araluen and you see Greybeard halt who never smiles with his happy son who doesn’t shut up (AND they’re the same height). Flanagan does a lot wrong in the series but making Halt see Will as his son and the found family aspects are NOT one
#sometimes I remember that I made this acc and got tumblr specifically for tra and question my life choices#no because like. everyone just accepts that Will is halts son it’s so funny but it also makes me sick with joy#I’m sick and tired irl so I don’t feel like doing my normal rambling tags#but I think you get the point#rangers apprentice#john flanagan#ranger's apprentice#will treaty#halt o'carrick#horace altman#gilan davidson#books#tra
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I’ve been thinking of going to the library to work on stuff for a whole week so I don’t have to hole myself up in my room anymore and instead I just fall asleep all day every day even if I don’t want to. It’s making me so sad at this point lol
#text#sometimes it really feels like I’m wasting majority of my life just in bed because I’m so tired. or lazy. I can’t tell anymore
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(whispers) hey friends I appreciate your excitement but gentle reminder it’s not very polite to ask fanfic writers when the next chapter is gunna come out
#remember friends: fanfic writers do this for fun when they have enough down time and wanna write#I’m an adult with a lot of adult responsibilities going on!!#again I appreciate your enthusiasm but ur just gunna have to trust me#ESPECIALLY since I sort of have a posting schedule#gentle reminder that fic writers shouldn’t need a schedule ever#I just have one because it keeps me on my toes#and that’s just a personal preference#but even then it’s just sort of a rough guideline— sometimes life stuff happens!!#and remember!!! a chapter that takes time will always be better than a rushed one#sorry to pop off but ya girl has had. A Week.#I’m not mad just a little tired#probably gunna delete tomorrow#but for now g’d night#pastel prattling
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free my complex female character, she did the same thing as complex male characters but the fandom takes Any analysis of her actions/choices/motivations that doesn’t strip her of all of her agency in bad faith and claims that only misogynists would dare to critique the things that they’ve noticed in her character because she’s a woman, completely ignoring the over-presence of discourse about similarly traited male characters in their fandom.
#exhausted by people categorizing CRITIQUE. not even genuine hate just literally basic analysis of imogen’s character#as a) hate at all but b) misogynistic simply because… they assume the person like caleb and percy uncritically like#i love imogen and i love her because she’s riddled with complexity that gives reason for her to be unlikeable#the shit ashton says makes me want to tear out my hair and i could write analysis on why but they’re still one of my favourite characters#i enjoy caleb but watching him infuriated me because of his self interest which is a coherent trait of his but is a tiring one#similarly with percy of love his pretentious Smartest In The Room shit but sometimes it meant he treated others more poorly than necessary#but i’m not unpacking all of that just so i have some fandom mandated right to say that i think there’s an aspect of a female character#that is imperfect in the human sense#because like. i will continue to call imogen’s self interested until the world burns and the moon shatters. because she is.#the only reason her choice to do good is compelling at all is because the choice to do otherwise is so tangible#it isn’t a Mistake or Fault that she’s self interested. it’s by design#like. she reaches towards the storm in curiosity in her sleep. but then she fights back when she’s awake#that’s it#that’s the dynamic. that’s what’s compelling#but no ur right fandom. let’s instead all agree that imogen is actually just intrinsically good#and take away all agency and complexity and humanity from her#and instead slap a sticker of Morally Good and enjoy the caricature of her where she’s made to fit into the imagine of#the latest aesthetic ad for diarrhoea medication#imogen temult#critical role#inspired as always by dumbass twitter posts that i’m subjected to because of school n work#the worst part is i do like the laudna n imogen dynamic in the stagnancy where it is but so much of that fandom is so clear in their erosion#of both characters actuality to suit the picture of Ship Tropes#like fuckin. so much of imogen’s fanart in imodna making her fat which as a fat person great love to see it#not so much when it’s clearly to make her short n stout against laundas tall n lanky.#anyway
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I think even if you’re not on the ace or aro spectrums yourself, it’s worthwhile to learn the term amatonormativity and add it to your lexicon. it encompasses a lot of things, and affects everyone, but especially those who are ace and aro (and those who are polyamorous, in their own way).
#hannah talks sometimes#also I’m tired of trying to have conversations about these things#and having to instead make the conversation all about teaching someone this term#because they haven’t heard it#as much as I enjoy helping someone learn#I want to talk about other things!
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I point you all to my ko-fi page once more -> link
my parents, enraged that I didn’t sort a massive mound of clothes yesterday (after doing the other chores they asked), essentially decided they are going to start charging me rent.
So this is just in preparation for that moment when they do start asking. I’m still trying to save up to move out. It’s not a huge deal yet (idk how much they’re going to charge) so there’s no pressure to donate.
I work a full time job so I can’t really give much in return. But I can take doodle requests upon proof of donation! I’ll doodle any DCA you want.
Thanks.
#Idk what to tag this#i’m just so tired.#i’m just tired of my parents putting so much pressure on me#like 1) I did the chores they asked of me#2) The only one i didn’t do was because it was literally an overwhelming amount of clothes. The entire fucking laundry room is filled to the#brim with clothes. Literally you cannot walk in there without strpping on some#that’s 6 people’s clothes. Not even most of mine because I actually do my own laundry. other than the ones that get mixed in with the others#and they wanted me sort them. by myself.#I’m autistic and a massiver germaphobe and they wanted me to sort their grimey fucking clothes.#And when I don’t do it? call me useless and lazy#and then i fel insane because maybe i am just lazy and i should do more because they let me live here for free#sometimes i feel in the wrong. maybe i am in the wrong. maybe i should just suck it up and deal with it instead of complaining#I don’t know. I’m scared. I’m so scared#I don’t have anything to fall back on. I don’t have my own car. I have nothing.
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deeply loving something or someone does not equal (≠) worshipping something. connecting with an artist’s body of work does not equal (≠) being invested in a celebrity for no reason besides their fame and power and money. hope this helps.
#sorry that Taylor Swift is the biggest celebrity in the world and also a legitimate artist. I wrestle with it too sometimes#lol#but the false dichotomizing happening especially among Christian groups is incredibly annoying#I am trying not to comment on an Instagram post that I saw because I don’t need to be doing that lol#so I’m posting here to get it out of my system#could there be a lot more nuance here re: celebrity culture worship/flawed human nature/etc.? sure#but I’m really tired of the posturing and the lecturing and frankly the stupidity#that abounds in the critiques of Taylor fans in particular#it’s a lot of ugliness and a lot of stupidity. participation in it is an instant red flag to me#like. stay away from me in a public setting/I will go out of my way to avoid you red flag#and I have my own thoughts on swifties needing to take a step back sometimes! and/or live in reality a bit more#in terms of our relationship to her. but like. all of what I’m saying here still stands
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I have a genuine question: how do you find so many david tennant looking like a fox pictures. Like where do you even get this many fox pictures. Do you just scroll through some sort of fox database? I keep seeing this account pop up and I’m just amazed at just how many posts there are.
A little goblin owes me a debt annd they repay me by hunting down the pictures for me, even if they have to take the pictures themself….
- Envil
#No but seriously Pinterest and Instagram is where I get most of them#Sometimes I have to reuse pictures when I’m too tired to look for new ones#But luckily for me one fox picture can match up to more than one picture#Because David is practically a fox himself obviously#envil#replies
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Okay, I’m gonna make a post that I hope makes sense because I’ve been thinking about this the whole day and it’s wracking me…
I hate when people say shit like “don’t worry, you are not missing on anything” and it becomes especially horrible when the person who says that has gone through that experience. It sounds very hypocritical. Okay, maybe they are right and that particular experience isn’t as special or fun as it may appear buuuuut they did it and so they know it for sure or they are just lying and it is actually an important experience.
When I would complain, as a child, because I couldn’t do or was denied an experience because of my disability, hearing that sentence didn’t help me at all. Honestly, it’s no consolation.
What if it actually was something special that would leave an important mark in my life? And I can’t have it. I mean, wouldn’t I have the right to be sad, angry, furious?
People usually say it to shut your feelings (at least that was the case with me) and the only thing that it achieved for me was making me sadder or angrier.
Let people grieve and be furious if their situation makes it impossible for them to do something they would like to try. Because yes, they are “missing on something”, even if it’s small and stupid and not fun at all. But they wouldn’t know, would they?
#cripple punk#disability#cpunk#cripple#crip punk#disability justice#life experiences#experience#missing out#cripple life#I focused on disability here but it can be about anything#I’m tired of the bullshitting clichè sentences#I wanted to jump from a cliff into the water as a child but my parents didn’t let me because I’m disabled#and my sister told me that exact phrase#and no it didn’t help#people don’t understand#sometimes it’s better to just shut up
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#does anyone else here feel like this show is sometimes too heavy for them?#i mean that the themes themselves are dark but also that it brings up really really dark and heavy things within you?#i know i am not the only one who’s had this kind of fandom experience and i want to talk openly about it#i’ve been an unsafe and cruel person in my past and i need to talk about it so i can let it go so it can stop swarming around in my head#i don’t want to be a cruel or hurtful person my heart is too heavy for that#i am going to talk openly about it in therapy too#but i’m tired of feeling really alone in this because that’s not helping me to get out of my head#hannibal#nbc hannibal#hannibal lecter#will graham#hanniblogging#hannigram
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okay but how insane would I be if I admitted I was curious about the ship dynamic between The Ghoul & Norm?
The only issue I foresee is that, in my head, Norm is the younger brother and cannot possibly be over 22 years old… but boy, does that little worm in my brain bring up the ship every time I write.
Sometimes I just think it’d be so interesting? Norm has gained some backbone by the end of the series and I really think he wouldn’t be afraid to just… say what he thinks to The Ghoul’s face. He’d also have none of that ‘Vault Dweller Goodness’ that The Ghoul has associated with Lucy. There’d be a strange combination of respect and animosity… plus, I think he’d appreciated Norm’s dry humor.
Imagine: Lucy & The Ghoul are traveling together and Norm joins them at some point. Norm is keeping records of all the Wasteland creatures he comes across because he’s genuinely interested in how the surface has affected things and people…
…which leads him to asking rather probing questions to The Ghoul. Does he have genitalia? How long did the process take to become a ghoul? Are they experiencing radiation exposure just by traveling with him or do they have to be in closer proximity? Is he semen irradiated?
Purely scientific, of course, but The Ghoul would turn it right back on him and ask if he wants to experiment to learn these things.
Norm is disturbed, initially, cue crisis…
Who knows who knows.
#ao3#fanfic#kinda#musings#norm maclean#norman maclean#the ghoul#cooper howard#norm x the ghoul#it’s still kind of vaultghoul but not really#ghorm#hahaha#is there even a ship name#is anyone interested in this dynamic? is it just me and my multi-shipping brain?#fallout#it could be a platonic ship too#like I don’t think everything needs to be done to end romantically or sexually#but the dynamic itself is something that’s so fascinating to me and something I just love exploring in my side-fic that I work on sometimes#it’s a ghoulcy fic entirely from the POV of Norm#so I have some fun exploring how he views things and interprets things#especially his interactions with The Ghoul are something I’m trying to understand because BOY is there some things to explore#idk i’m tired#can you tell what’s been on my mind for the last several weeks?
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crying easily is not fucking manipulative. what IS manipulative is using your stress response as an excuse to continue being an asshole. idgaf if you cry while we have a conversation about you hurting my feelings. I DO gaf if that means you’re going to ignore me and continue hurting my feelings anyway.
#Also no mental illness isn’t an excuse for dogshit behavior. Sometimes People With Mental Illness#Are Abusive. Get over it and stop treating abusers like a different species it prevents you from seeing abusive#behavior in yourself. Also if you refuse to have conversations about hurting someone because “it stresses me out!”#Then people WILL start leaving btw. No one wants to be around someone who has zero regard for anyone’s feelings but their own#anyways. I’m talking about my exbf here because I’m tired of people overblowing “manipulative” things or refusing#to acknowledge their bad behavior under the banner of illness. Do fucking better Jesus Christ#Emotional abuse
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Starbee vacation end
Started the day off with some hot cocoa (which cybertronians can totally drink) and pandolce…complimentary bed and breakfast for them!
Then they said bye bye to the boats and started on the road-trip home.
They made a stop for a small beach date
Then continued on home
And picked up a friend a long the way!
Bee fits in his arms so well ^^
#star almost lost his kneecap at the beach hahaha 😭#these are actually from yesterday because I was busy until now lol#but now I’m tired so I’m going to go watch cbv and be cozy in my bed that isn’t the floor of a boat or a stiff rv bed#i love being home sometimes it just hits different lol#also I ran around a parking lot today which is a contributing factor to my tiredness#transformers#maccadam#starscream#bumblebee#earthspark#starbee#tfe bumblebee#tfe starscream
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You're doing amazing and wonderfully
Hope things are going alright for ya
Also this happened yesterday apparently
Drew a dragon for ya (they don't have any braincells but that's okay cause they're nice and they're trying lol) I tried to emulate the iconic eyes you draw cause i love that but i am not very good (didn't capture the same adorable essence but that's okay)
Aahghdhfb I’m a bit late but
Loving the creechur very much ✨
#I’m so disorganized with the asks lately ahfhshd im sorry aaaa#trying to organize time for drawing and drawing ideas and other stuff at the same time and I am in fact not organized at all heehehehfhdh#I will do a batch of rollo related asks soon tho ! very soon#been tired but doing alright tho lately ! I just tend to sleep very late because I like being up late an draw w/ instant noodles sometimes
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just found out that non-aromantics actually have feelings towards the people they decide to have a crush on. Apparently it’s not like, “hmmm should I consider this person for dating? what are the pros and cons here?” Or like, “I want to be really close friends with that person” But it’s like an actual emotional response or something? An emotion that is different from the “I wanna be really close friends” emotion??
also I just figured out that I’m aromantic
#I’m also ace but I already knew that#Shout out to Jaiden Animations#Never would have figured this stuff out this quickly otherwise#asexual#aromantic#aroace#My first “crush” was Carmen San Diego#I was 18yrs old and that “crush” lasted 2 days#Turns out she wasn’t as pretty when she wasn’t wearing her signature outfit#I didn’t actually have a crush on her I just really liked her outfit#I think I just decided that “ya know I should’ve had a crush on someone by now kinda weird that it hasn’t happened yet”#And then I just picked the first pretty girl I saw#She’s animated so I guess that made it less weird than having a crush on a random stranger#But like there were no actual romantic emotions there#Didn’t know that there were supposed to be any but oh well#The whole “I wanna be really close friends with that person” thing really threw me off for a while#Cuz I thought that was what romantic attraction was#But apparently it’s not???#Too confusing we should just get rid of romance#Honestly my idea of the “ideal romantic/queerplatonic relationship” should have tipped me off sooner that I was aro#It was “a close friend who lives in the same house as me but we have separate bedrooms and sometimes we cuddle on the couch but not…#… always and we don’t hold hands or kiss or anything but we just act like really good but close friends because that’s what I think a…#… romantic relationship is two people who are really close friends”#might delete later I dunno just kinda rambling and I’m really tired
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