#and now. well

[skunkes]

Okie this prob sounds insane but in Arcane season 1 I absolutely HATED Silco, but season 2 and your posts are bringing me around to him... he's just a mentally ill old man without his bear and a single father to his bpd daughter

When S1 was out i kind of didnt latch on to anyone in particular (except ambessa lmao) but once i finished S2 it was like ohhhhh i get it now that dusty old man was carrying the entire show thank goodness he wasnt around to watch the full commitment to centrist "slop" 💀 and he's hot as fuck

But yes....traumatized old man who truly loves his bpd daughter among it all... he did in fact do all that shit but his character is so Good genuinely even without the fixation lenses but um then you do get to add distinguished old man hotness and a nice voice and a big nose (and a homoerotic thing going on with his old friend and a daughter he loves.) So.

[saturnsfather]

lost the pentacle necklace charm ive had for like. fifteen years or something at work. i think it mustve ended up in the trash as i was taking it out and now its just gone.

like of the two i had (the other is a fmab homunculus symbol) THATS the one that mattered. my mother gave that to me. just. ugh

[dellinah]

I recently lost my best friend to cancer, and words cannot describe how incredibly painful every waking hour has been since I got the news.

They say time heals all, and I can only hope that the memories that suffocate me now will soon become nostalgic treasures that will soothe my longing.

Right now, it fucking hurts tho

And grief is just a weird feeling. It's trying to face a reality that you cannot comprehend, much less accept; but it forces itself onto you regardless, bc there's no way back.

No way out.

This how it is now.

But really, in trying to process this new reality, it has dawned upon me just how... weird, it is.

Just how weird it all feels to me.

I still know his birthday by heart.

And when it comes around, I know I will think of what gift I should get him for a second - before remembering he's gone, and crying all over again over a wound that never truly healed.

I still know his favorite shows, and I know that he collected funko pops of them. There's a list on my phone with the ones he already had, so that I knew to look for new ones when shopping around.

The messages we sent are still on my phone. Still among the most recent ones, for now.

And when I click on them, the last words we ever exchanged (and will ever exchange) stare back at me. Just like they're any other ordinary message, unaware of the massive weight they carry to me.

As does his profile picture, a frozen image of what he will forever look like in my mind.

Spared the burden and the blessing of aging beyond his mid twenties.

The audio messages are still there, too.

His voice still calls me, by name, every time I hit play. Like an echo of what once was, a voice I will never hear again in this lifetime.

But the recordings remain.

And it hurts me so, so bad.

Yet, I play it over and over again.

Maybe hoping the words will be different at one point, like he's just recorded something new.

But by now, I know each audio by heart.

Over and over and over again.

I still know by heart all of the inside jokes that only he and I knew. And now, I have no one else to tell them to.

When I see a pair of blue pants, or finding nemo merch, or a news reporter wearing yellow; I'll have to keep it to myself from now on.

Because no one else in the world gets why that is funny to me.

Or why it was funny to us.

It's just, I didn't expect everything to vanish when you did.

But I didn't expect just how much what you left behind would hurt.

Your birthday. Our inside jokes. The recipe we always made together. The road where we'd drive at night almost every weekend. The shows we watched together that you'll never see the end of. The path we walked home after school as teens. Your favorite color. The book I borrowed and never gave back.

You are gone, but so much of you remains with me.

It's like a letter adressed to an empty house.

What do I do with it all now?

[kutiee]

Firework seems to be heavily concept based, like following the storyline of their lore;; mv teasers were interesting

Wonder how the mv will look and the song will sound

[lighthouseas]

11 (and if so what song!!) + 20 + 42 + 53 !!

11 - are you listening to music right now

sadly no :(

20 - what is your favorite song at the moment

when i tell you this changes so much....maybe when i come around by green day? as of right now

42 - favorite book (s)

this is so embarrassing but i am actually such a terrible reader like. well i can read WELL but i get distracted easily and it takes me like 10 mins to read 1 page (why i read fanfiction so slowly lol) because i read ahead or don't process the information etc etc. so um. needless to say i don't have a favorite book rn 😭 anyway i will start reading more soon i promise....

53 - five things that make me happy

my cat, my best friend, bagels, lakes, and being warm and cozy

[wishfulsketching]

Girl dad Silco is a source of endless entertainment for me

Extra doodles:

Someone save Sevika, she is in hell

[bookwyrminspiration]

sometimes a theme recurs in your work without your permission. and sometimes it reaches a threshold where you're like. well now i think this is saying something about me against my will. don't know what though

[pangur-and-grim]

also I got a tattoo partially re-coloured today and they bandaged me in veterinary wrap like I'm a sick horse

[shinynewmemories]

The Hunger Games has the FUNNIEST arranged marriage of all time btw. Katniss realizes she'll have to marry Peeta and she's obviously upset so Haymitch tries to comfort her by saying "you could do a lot worse" and Katniss is like "well DUH of course I could do worse than Peeta he's the best & handsomest person on the face of the planet but that's not the POINT I want to be able to choose for MYSELF". Then she goes and chooses Peeta anyway lol. Comedy gold I tell you

[napping-sapphic]

take your clothes off and get on the bed what no we aren’t having sex right now we’re cuddling and pressing every inch of skin together as close as possible for the next six hours

[batcavescolony]

Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.

[rivetgoth]

It's honestly crazy that discussion around testosterone HRT skews so much towards the beginning stages of it (to the point that you have dozens of guys thinking their transition is "failed" if they don't pass by like a year in lol) and what the initial changes of the first couple of months to years look like, like the classic laundry list of those early basic changes like bottom growth, voice drop, etc, when IMO literally none of that compares remotely to the depth and intensity of the long term total masculinization you start to experience like 3-5+ years in.

[owlpero]

free will is all about headcanoning your faves as autistic

[redstonedust]

i appreciate the attempts a lot of game devs are making with gender neutral character creation, and i appreciate that it's actually a very difficult task to implement that depending on the game's base code. but it's so funny to me when you hear an uproar because some game has "entirely removed the gender option from character creation!!!!!" so you go to check it out and its just like

[demaparbat-hp]

Existential Nihilism Squad™