#and now I should be working on that thesis

[raksh-writes]

I would love to take a break today and play some Cyberpunk, because I have a real craving for it rn, but the moment my PC starts sweating with running the game it'll turn my already warm room into an unholy sauna/oven combo of hell and Im already melting here ;_;

So. For now just Im half-heartedly gathering some snippets and sources for my thesis and trying to come up with a gameplan on how to Actually write the chapter (that I should be, by all means, writing rn) I need to turn in before the end of next week and, I guess, it Is some kind of work being done on the thesis too, if not put down on paper, but ugh... maybe I'll write down that gameplan for writing the chapter, at least there'll be Something to go off from then.

[necrotic-nephilim]

what's fun about shipping Tim with Dick, Jason, or Damian is he has, at some point, hallucinated all of them to comfort himself. even when he doesn't like them or particularly get along with them, he has to imagine/hallucinate them just so he has the power to go on. Tim's concepts of the Robin mantle and what it should be is so fun, because he respects the others through the Robin mantle. Tim worships Dick because he was the first Robin. he wouldn't be Robin if Jason hadn't died in the mantle. and a lot of his frustration with Damian is he feels Damian isn't honoring the mantle correctly. when you ship Tim with the other Robins you can't divorce their identities as Robin from it because Tim will always see them as a Robin first and that's so fun and fucked up. like.

batman (1940) #456

Tim perceiving Dick as *Robin* cheering him on, not Nightwing, which is the version of Dick that Tim actually knows? that's just. wild of him. he will always view Dick as Robin first, his personal hero but also the original of the legacy. his love for Dick is shaped by that.

and then of course, even when he's hallucinating/imagining Jason cheering him on, it's *still* through the lense of being reminded how Jason failed? subconsciously believing that Jason got himself killed because of his actions, and that being a lesson for Tim to learn from? Jason isn't a person to Tim, he's a moral lesson about how to be Robin. any potential idolization he could have of Jason isn't because he loves Jason, it's because of the lessons Jason's death taught him.

and then, even though him hallucinating TIm is from the New-52, which makes characterization all kinds of questionable, i do think it makes sense for TIm to hallucinate/imagine Damian after Damian's death in an attempt to cope with it.

teen titans (2011) #18

to an extend, he sees Damian's death as in part his own fault. and even hating Damian, Tim needs the comfort from this to cope with Damian being gone. he's angry that Damian even was Robin, and has to learn something from Damian's death and how it impacts the Robin mantle, and teenage heroes as a whole. like, Tim can pretend he hates Damian all he wants, even getting taunted by the image of Damian, but there's still an underlying love to their relationship.

i think that's just the fun of shipping Tim with any of them. you will never divorce Tim's views of them from the Robin mantle and how fucking Unwell he is about anyone else who's been Robin before or after him, to the point he has to hallucinate them comforting him when he's at his lowest. it's always going to be a little unhealthy, a little toxic, and driven by Tim's relationship with being Robin as well. i need more Tim being weird about Robin in these ships.

[fumifooms]

Your post about falin manifested some Thoughts in me. Seeing how such a big part of her arc was becoming more independent and discovering what She wants to do, mixed with a lot of parts in the manga where she is much more comfortable looking masculine - embarrassed about how blushy she is but not really liking makeup, enjoying more masculine clothes, that one haircut swap where she seemed really happy in laios' cut, it made me realize there's totally some room for even some transmasc falin headcanons! Or at the very least, she's definitely GNC and it would be fun to see that explored in fanfic and fanart... anyway, your in depth analysis posts have really inspired me, got me itching to create some obscure dunmeshi fancontent or analysis now!

Omg…… I’ve never fully thought about it but you’re so right transmasc Falin would go so hard… There’s also how she idolizes Laios a lot… Male older brother role model she puts on a pedestral, could play into her relationship with it. Because of the dragon I like to see her as intersex, including post-canon but beyond that I always saw her as being the more or less agender type that just goes with whatever she feels fits her better, the sort of cis by default for lack of caring about it all that much, not unlike how I consider Laios cis by default but if you dig deep enough there’s otherkin stuff going on in there… Def agree with GNC Falin.

She and Toshiro have some interesting parallels, of being passive and suppressing themselves for the convenience of others, it’s a reason why seeing her being unabashedly entranced by a bug struck him so much— himself being a bug fan and polishing his demeanor to be perfectly respectable. Because of that and including specific details like getting told "boys don’t cry" by Hien- Actually just let me link this excellent post about trans Toshiro. Transfem Toshiro is so compelling and I think pairing it with transmasc Falin would be very interesting… The gender envy of it all, the talks… Need them to go on a trip together post-canon so so bad, life changing self-discovery camping trip

I’ll be munching on this... I love it. Your reblog tags have been a delight, I’m so happy I could inspire you in any way! So looking forward to what you might make in the future

[cleocatzby]

Work in progress <3 The Property of Hate

Part 3: Scene redraw sneak peek!

It's like they're watching the line being drawn

Part 1: Hero!

Part 2: RGB!

[corviiids]

wben i finally get more than 0.2 microns of energy and make one of the multiple video essays i desperately want to make so i can yap out loud as god (never) intended

[newtness532]

i know that graduating one semester later is not that big of a deal and i haven't made any plans about what comes next so it doesnt even make a difference. so why does it feel just so terrible

[purpurussy]

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[tevatron]

i'm so glad i won't be working with my pi after this month. i think i've reached my limit. i just can't deal with her anymore

[snowsays]

god I hate having anxiety and placing my worth on my productivity

[sumquiasum]

In honour of Tanz Hamburg closing, list of lines that enable my trans Sarah reading.

Sarah @ Alfred: "Du hast was ich gern hätt'"

Krolok @ Sarah: "Ich geb' dir, was dir fehlt"

Krolok @ Sarah: "Du wirst dich in mir erkennen"

[repurposedmeatlocker]

How would you rate film school????

Oh boy! Hmmm. Admittedly, I'm never good at rating anything so I'll just give my solid thoughts and you can take from it what you will.

I think in a lot of ways I have learned a lot and I'm personally happy with choosing to go! As someone who wants an artistic-related career and is passionate about the subject outside of just being a hobby, it is a good experience. It was nice to take classes dedicated to filmmaking with other extremely talented peers. I loved the film crit classes as well and got exposed to some really great movies and essays. Film/animation school gives you accessibility to a lot of things that might otherwise be expensive to get on your own like programs (Adobe, Toonboom, etc) and top of the line film equipment, which means you have lots of opportunities to be experimental.

On the other hand, and I'm not sure if this is in part due to MY specific experience with MY university or not, but my biggest gripe had to be the sense of competitiveness and elitism in my peers. I think way too many people are concerned with "connections" and "technicality" and "making it big" or whatever. This logic from other people made it kind of lonely to me. I work more in an animation path, which has a way better vibe and group of people in general, but as someone who struggles socially, going to university was a bit alienating. I don't think this is exclusive to me being in film school though. I'm sure it would happen in any major I dedicate myself towards.

I'll finish by saying that film school is certainly not for everyone. You will be put in positions where you might even hate what you're doing as a once enjoyable hobby becomes yet another assignment. But for me...the need to create is so strong. I've really come to embrace that with the final classes I've been taking. I legitimately can't see myself doing anything else longterm...

[lesbianlotties]

my life may be absolutely crumbling down but you guys will not believe how good the ice cream i had yesterday was. ice cream is always enough to fix all of life's problems

[cleocatzby]

Work in progress <3 The Property of Hate

Part 2: RGB!

Part 1: Hero!

Part 3: Scene redraw sneak peek!

[raksh-writes]

Ive spent most of yesterday doing all my uni stuff for finals and a couple hours today too, and I should be doing much more, but I can actually feel my brain giving out on me rn. Im starting to develop a headache and that's very much Not ideal. I have A Lot to do and not a lot of time to do it, ughh...

Forcing usually doesn’t work on me though, so even though my anxiety will prob have a field day, I guess I'll try to take a break, maybe play some Skyrim, maybe write a lil' more fanfic if my head feels better, and who knows, if in the evening it feels up to it, I can try to add some more to that big project Im trying to finish or start on a presentation for a different class. Either would be nice, but if its not possible tonight, then I guess I just gotta hope taking a break today will help me get back at it tomorrow.

Here's to hoping!

[goth-automaton]

ALL FEBUWHUMP FICS ARE FINISHED, BABES!!!

[danielnelsen]

always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds