#and my routine was all about her care
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If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever. -- David Ellsworth
#put my girl to sleep yesterday#i am... not coping well#but i think that's just grief#that's just what it is#she was so sick and the treatment that had worked for the last few years just wasn't working anymore#i bought some time and spoiled her rotten#and somehow 11 years has to be enough time#because there's no more time left#but there sure is a lot of love left for her#that's her that's my lj#she was my sweet girl#and i miss her a lot already#but she isn't suffering now and it was the right time#it's just... the house is so empty#and my routine was all about her care#and now there's just... nothing#:'(
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sillies beget sillies enrichment idea #6
goal: be silly with your dog and create more moments of connection in your day
disclaimer: idk your dog so adjust or skip this game accordingly
activity: while you're brushing your teeth or putting on makeup, invite your dog into the bathroom and offer them things from your counter to sniff. show them your toothpaste tube, lotion bottles, hand soap, mascara tubes, etc. most dogs will try to take the first few items you offer, but gently remove it and show them something else. let them investigate each item as long as they want as long as they aren't putting it in their mouth.
tip: present each item as if it's something boring and don't jerk it away if they try to bite it. move slowly and calmly to encourage calm investigation. start with hard, relatively bite-proof items (anything metal, tube of mascara, hard bottle of lotion). don't show them anything inherently harmful or dangerous.
goal: your dog should be somewhat interested in what you're doing and showing them. your dog should stop trying to chomp at things and eventually start to investigate them more calmly.
#dogblr#sillies beget sillies series#dog enrichment#dog games#this one is a controversial game because some people dont want dogs around the bathroom at all#so just skip it if it isnt for you#it might take a couple of tries for your dog to stop trying to chomp things and thats okay!#start with something huge or metal and move to more interesting things from there#this game is just about including your dog in your daily routine#pike is a huge huge huge fan of this one#she would beline to the bathroom when i would go to brush my teeth#her 'hold' cue was easily generalized because i would just send her to miles with bathroom items and he would send her back#so she got to carry random things a lot#anyway it was fun for the creature#rory doesnt really care about this one but we try every so often anyway#its just about including her!
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Hiii everyone, say, how do your Hawkes go go about sharing their estate? If they do it at all? Is everyone free to come and go or are they more private? Or do they only invite their LI to stay? I'm curious!! :)
#lay rambles#my ocs#oc: liam hawke#oc: lilian hawke#both my hawkes are very social w their friends but i love comparing their boundaries around it#theres variation in rules for specific ppl with both of them ofc but theres still general differences#with liam its all very open and everyone can p much come and go whenever#they dont get extra keys (theyll get lost and he doesnt want randos finding them lol) but they know where to find the spare key#and bodhan and sandal and orana know to let them in whenever#hes very lenient in this this regard but he does have rules abt what he does and doesnt want them to do#mostly its about not making too much of a mess lol bc liam prefers to clean himself#(he doesnt trust the crew with his household and also he has particular ways of doing things and Hates when theyre done differently)#so things like keep your dirty garb at the entrance dont cook by yourselves (this was banned after they did it one (1) time lol) etc#also no fucking allowed. do that somewhere else for the love of the maker he does NOT want to walk into that in his own house#(and it also comes back to liam not trusting them with cleaning but also Not wanting to clean that up lol)#also he is not fond of them going into his room uninvited. most of the house is chill but that is *his* space#he accommodates these rules by e.g. having spare slippers and a little washing basin in the entrance hall for dirty shoes/feet#always makes sure to have snacks in stock that he knows they like#food will have notes abt what to leave for leandra/orana/etc but otherwise food is prepared with his friends in mind#and in general he'll make sure to adjust the space/routine in little ways to accommodate them#(air out when fen isnt there cus he doesnt like drafts; keep curtains open cus anders prefers open spaces; etc)#lilian on the other hand doesnt like when her friends come into the estate without a heads up (cept for emergencies)#but once they have her 'ok' its basically mi casa es su casa#dont yknow. overdo it and get too rowdy but otherwise do whatever#however. she also expects everyone to clean up after themselves. she aint here to play maid and youre all adults#also liam has a general 'please try to not be too wild when leandra is here' and lilian doesnt#not cos she doesnt care but cos leandra is bothered by sth she can speak up herself#oh and lilian uses the basement space as temporary refuge for anyone who needs it (mostly escaped mages)#also side note: both offered gamlen to stay but he refused (out of pride/remorse)#...this got long and i ran out of tag space lmfao so this is it for now xD
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this is my little girl 💖
she’s running low on time with us, and my dad has been saying things along the lines of ‘this is why I don’t like pets’, because he finds the grieving process so hard.
I don’t fault him for that, he just feels loss deeply and deals with it differently.
sometimes I even find myself falling briefly into the same thinking. ‘what if making a different choice all those years ago saved me and my family from this grief and this pain?’
but I also know there’s no way I would make a different decision. no amount of grief could outweigh the joy she’s brought us over these last fifteen years. the laughter, the comfort, the connection.
I think about hikes with my dad when she was tiny and able bodied and would race up ahead of us on the trails and then race back to check on us. I think about the first time she saw snow and she instantly turned into a tiny fluffy bunny rabbit, hopping through drifts that were ankle deep for us but nearly buried her, and the matted snowballs she came away with, looking like a tiny curly haired yeti.
I think of her interrupting GrammE and John’s wedding along with Sagie, confusion turning into laughter as they sped after each other across the backyard ceremony. I think of my mom, lonely on the island and isolated during covid, telling me that Ginger was her saving grace.
and these don’t even scratch the surface. fifteen years of love she’s given us.
so yeah. losing her is going to damn near break me and I know that. but I wouldn’t change it for the world.
#you don’t have to read the post I just want people to look at my baby#if you have non-human family members give them a little extra love#I’m trying so hard to remind myself that not only have these last fifteen years been a gift#but these last six months or so have been a straight up miracle#I love her so much#I worry about how my mom is going to cope with her loss#she’s my best friend but she’s lived with my mom since my mom moved out#and so she’s been a daily companion to her and part of all of her routines#on one hand I’m relieved because caring for a dog especially an aging and disabled one#is a lot of work and my mom herself is already disabled and needs additional help#(and sometimes that resulted in me worrying that both of them weren’t getting proper care for their health)#but on the other hand I do think Ginge had been the biggest part of combating loneliness for my mom#especially after losing Tan#anyway I’m uh maybe crying too much to type now so I’m gonna call it#but I might post more photos of my little old lady baby over the next few days#because I love her and I think other people should too lol#personal#tw pet death#tw pet loss#(she’s not gone yet to be clear but I’m tagging these for other people’s sake bc I know it’s upsetting)#(she’s in the final days/weeks of kidney failure just in case anyone is wondering why I’m making assumptions about her passing)#toy poodle#poodle#pet#dog#puppy
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I seem to be fine most of the day and then I have a BIG mood dip around 8pm. I think I should just immediately go to bed instead of entertaining any thoughts at all about the future
#I’m finding pumping quite demoralizing#but we did have our first breastfeeding success today so I am hopeful it won’t be forever#I’m also leaning so hard on my mom and it’s made the transition SO much easier to handle#but it’s also making me scared for when she leaves and I have to do everything myself#I already find it quite exhausting to work + do dog care + cook for myself + do all other chores + handle misc life tasks#adding baby care feels like it’s going to be a lot#but I’m trying to remind myself that I have five more weeks to learn the basic skills and build good routines#and then she’ll be back in august for two and a half months so July can be a test run#and then a little more help/support with her being in town but not living with me#anyway what did I say about not thinking about the future after the mood dip starts! get to bed jes#baby tag
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"the preteens are running around sephora because all their third spaces are gone!" i get that but did you know. did you know that there is an age appropriate store for young girls selling (fake) makeup & accessories. are you reasonable enough to understand that 10-12 year old girls do not need to be running around an adult makeup store ruining displays, destroying products, & generally leaving the stores a mess? all while they harass employees & disrespect them. the real solution obviously is to make 3rd spaces accessible again but until then keep your CHILD out of sephora unless you are right there with them & able to fucking parent.
#rae.txt#and stop giving them fucking giftcards to makeup stores !!!!#like this whole debacle is making me soooo anti makeup at this point#bc WHY do these young girls think they need skin care routines !!!! why is society pushing this on them so young !!!#my sister is 19 & grew up in the age of beauty influencers & i watched her grow up faster than she should have#she has tons of makeup she doesnt use & only buys bc shes influenced ! literally has money burning a hole in her pocket daily#i just. most makeup looks these days arent about self expression its all about homogenizing women's looks#to european beauty standards. and to do it well you have to destroy your skin on the daily.#sorry to be a crazy feminist on main but i do think the beauty industry has done irreparable damage to the feminist liberation movement.#ok ill stop now.
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give me more horrorkiller content i say as i proceed to post solely about full mtt/mttpoly. i cant I CANT i cant just SOLELY post about one of the duos...... i cant JUST post about 2/3 of them it upsets me. everything MUST be in a trio of else i merge into my bed and rip my skin off when i try to get up
#it physically upsets me when i make 2/3 mtt content#i literally feel EMPTY like.... THIS IS NOT COMPLETE!!!! THEYRE NOT COMPLETE!!!! I NEED THE THIRD OF THE SET OF THREE DOLLS!!!!!!#maybe its just because i have a tendency to want completed things. royale high back in the day was terrible for me the collector#me at miniso opening blindboxes until i get the very specific 3 that represent the mtt idc how much it costs#i just choked on spit while typing this thats how i know that mtt content without the third is a curse#even if i did make just solely a horrorkiller post id just bring dust up in tags 😭😭😭 it would just end up being mtt poly in the end anyways#horrordust but i physically cant resist the urge to type out killer in tags#the dynamic just doesnt feel complete and im being so fucking serious about this#there is something MISSING from horrordust. horrorkiller. kist. something very wrong missing#the ship hits because its mtt but it doesnt feel SATISFYING without all three#i just cant explain it but there is an inexplicable whole in my soul that cannot be filled unless its with full trio#like just..... theres an aspect to the perfect group that each of the trio satisfies#this is absolutely an old thought but one that will never leave my mind#when youve become so inlove with the mtt that you simply like the concept of three now on its own and cant fathom one or god forbid TWO#3 is my favorite number now..... bc of mtt....... ermmmm...........#orange is my favorite BUT like.... red blue and purple as a group are tied for it in my heart#a lot of my favorite things have shifted because of the mtt#so when you (me) ask me to do anything BUT in threes i ask you......................... do you want me to kill mysel#i pat my dog 3 times on the head to signal im done petting her#ive trained my hands to be able to shuffle between ✌️🤘🤙 on instinct now. its routine#god i make everything about the mtt its not even funny. only true mtt fans have made a song cover singing as them#i demoted myself to number 3 fan in my bio during my little mental break i had a couple days ago#but 3 is still high for the sheer amount of mtt fans that they are so i really dont care..... someone else can have spot 1 and 2 but 3#tricule rant
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Don't know how to do the whole living under capitalism thing anymore sorry...
#liveblogging my life#i feel such an idiot for having such a hard time coping#bc like if i get fired I'll be fine#my parents have two apartments under their names#i will never ever be on the risk of homelessness#and likely not starving either#so like I don't have to have two jobs to make ends meet or whatever#I don't have children to take care of#abd yet this is killing me#post university life is killing me#before even with work i had like a purpose goals#now I'm not even doing anything i care about#I'm just wasting my life so that a company earns more money#under a boss who hates me bc he thinks I slack off (i don't!!!)#but I don't have time for myself#nor motivation to pursue any personal projects#and i end up too tired from work to do anything else#at all#not to mention how hard living with my girlfriend is#like i love her to death but god the constant socialization#it's exhausting#i want to have my room back!#I want to have any sense of control or direction as to how my life is going#and I don't have it anymore#my life is over#it's just work until retirement#no living in different places anymore#no more excitement#just... routine
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seriously what kind of industrial grade hair spray or product or grease is kuwabara using to keep his pompadour that consistent. his hair is literally never down. Even in official art. One where they're in the hot spring and his hair is perfect. They have a beach episode and it remains untouched. HE SLEEPS WITH IT STYLED LIKE THAT. we get one manga panel with it slightly undone and that's the only proof we have that kuwabara's pompadour isn't simply a cleverly disguised helmet. show me his curly hair while I'm asking nicely 😤😤
#ik in my heart his hair is curly okay i feel it in my guts#I would've liked to see it is all okay#pardon my obsession but like IT'S NOT FAIR#yusuke gets soft hair-down scenes why not kuwa#just say you hate him and you hate me and want me to die#anyway to insinuate that Kuwabara would ever sleep with his pomp in is a disgrace#idc that it's canon it's not true he cares too much about his hair to commit these atrocities#he has a 37 step routine for night and a 24 step one for mornings.#mfs are lucky if Yusuke washes his face when he gets up. but he's STILL a pretty boy with big brown eyes so no one cares 🙄😒#listen people don't see the resemblance between shizuru and her brother most times#until they're both in face masks with their hair wrapped up getting ready to relax and watch tv together#head in my hands that's his sister she wouldn't let him have a pomp in 24/7 it's simply Not Done#kuwabara kazuma#yu yu hakusho#he is very much still a grimy dirty kid but he like. takes care okay he washes and conditions and he doesn't drink cos it's bad for u or wt#qeued post
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#we have now had this puppy for two weeks and she’s for sure here to stay#she’s warmed up to our family so well it’s adorable#the only thing is that I didn’t really grow up around dogs so I’m learning a lot about them#and it really is a lot closer to bringing a baby home than a cat#I don’t mind it at all- I’m her chosen person and it’s very sweet- I just wasn’t expecting her bedtime routine to be so many steps 😅#beyond the basic care tasks my cats monitor themselves and ask for attention when they see fit#meanwhile I’m breaking the rules and allowing the puppy upstairs during one kids bedtime so the puppy doesn’t cry so much downstairs#she hates being by herself and she’s scared of the dark 🥺#i love her very much#I’m also very tired#she sleeps like a baby#in that she mostly naps 😅
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tell me what your morning/nighttime routine is, if you have one
#in the morning i change my pillowcase#tidy the mess i left the night before#like my desk or any clothes i have lying around#make coffee or tea#brush my teeth and wash my face#have breakfast which is normally a smoothie#then i do my makeup/hair/outfit#before i leave for work i always try to pet my outside cat for a few minutes bc i love her#i wish my nighttime routine was more strict...#i'm not as good about it#i used to stretch and meditate and all that#now it's normally just a shower#take my meds and get into bed#i miss when it was a little more self care based instead of just necessity#i just need more self discipline lol#rb and tell me your routines!!#i love to hear what people do every day without fail#it's like sweet to me idk
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If I had the proper equipment for that I would 100% make a career out of sorting stuff on video. It's like one of my favorite activities ever but I rarely have the opportunity to do that. It's like a special treat for special occasions. I love doing it and if I could I'd milk that forever <- is currently sorting a whole jar of plastic gems for fun
#in the last year me and my cousin accidentally formed this silly lil routine where whenever i visit her she gives me some stuff to sort#it started a year ago on her birthday#she was making cupcakes and couldnt buy pink sprinkles so she bought rainbow sprinkles and asked me to separate the pink ones#and she was like you dont actually have to do that i need only a lil bit of those sprinkles you dont have to get all of them#but i was like. sure sure but actually is it okay if i sort the entire package#and i did#i sorted the entire whole package of sprinkles#she let me sort markers or beads or stickers#its amazing i love her#and she always has stuff to sort bc she likes to collect stickers and beads but doesnt really care about their placement#i love doing that so bad its insane#and ive looked for sorting videos on youtube but they rarely scratch my specific itch#theyre like overproduced or not caring enough or focusing too much on asmr and not on the actual sorting#which you know isnt a bad thing i love asmr#but like i need specifically content where someone takes a collection of something and sorts it entirely into specific categories#i suppose its just that different categories are important for different people#i wish i had a camera and like a set for that#like id genuinely love to record that for fun#and also yknow. views and money#i dont like how we kinda have to turn every passion into a career but this is something that id be willing to turn into a job if i could#maybe someday#bee buzz
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Idk if its just me but i cant get behind jasprse/nep lol
#text#idk everything about what she said about nep just felt like a huge sarcastic middle finger to anyone who genuinely likes her character#as you know. its not subtle how they make fun of you for characters they dont care abt lmfao#also its just. oh im half cat uhhh *spins le wheel* lets be weird towards nep coz also cat#but i did like nepetas half of the conversation like shes so sweet and kind#jasprose felt weird to me idc#also i think i just have a natural opposition to ships that ppl make to fill in space bc they dont rly care abt her#nobody gets nep like i do..my darling#also im sorry all my posts have been texts and also not very happy! just frustrated is all heheee#once my life is at a consistent schedule imma draw so much#im autistic#I NEED MY ROUTINE
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people out here saying they can't tell the difference between a bbl and real butt cause they don't feel different........good thing they look completely different huh?
#makes me go 'ugh men'#first of all why you care so bad whether it's natural or not you're the one who hopped in bed with her#second.....#.........BOY if you tell me you cant tell a bbl butt from a real butt#its like telling whether someone is on steroids or not#it is SO obvious if you know what normal human beings look liek#and look. ive got an ass. always had one probably always will.#funny thing about having one? you can't have an ass and a flat stomach. sorry you just can't#women are now obsessed (for the moment) with having an ass but they don't want a pooch#i have both & likely always will#my butt was never considered attractive growing up but suddenly became so like 2018#and it'll probably go out of style again but i don't give a shit#i see all these girls desperately trying to work out to get an ass when that's now how butts work#and the girl whose workout routine they're imitating just has butt pads plumping up her shorts anyway#because guess what everywhere but her butt she's stick skinny
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i spent 3 months watching gilmore girls and i finally finished it and a year in the life and then netflix is like hmm what should we recommend... gilmore girls season 1 episode 1 is starting in 3 seconds
#against my better judgement i watched a year in the life again and it was so much worse the second time. i only watched it when it first#came out and then forgot everything that happened because it was so bad it didnt even have to be that bad but it was so bad.#like this might be an unpopular opinion but god whenever they reboot shows or do like a reunion the magic from the original is just gone#that came out wrong i dont mean the original show loses it's magic but that the reboot is missing the thing that made the original special#like ok spoilers and also unpopular opinions but there was just like no chemistry between any of the cast anymore IMO. imo dont come for me#i have no idea what the actors were doing or what they had to move around to make cameos or whatever but just imo alexis was like on another#planet i have no idea why rory was like that. it was just so. routine and expected ? like they were acting how we would expect them to act#but it was just so insincere? i guess is the word#like season 7 sucked and we all know it but god season 7 was better than a year in the life in retrospect#the ONLY good thing about a year in the life is emilys story like good for her finally living her own life and finding what she loves#that makes sense and that all adds up like love that for her.#im biased because ive been a jess girl since i was 8 but jess. fantastic. sucks that he's still in love with rory but hes doing great fine#lane deserved more than that that was bullshit that she was there for 5 minutes and sookie too like#from what i remember melissa mccarthy couldnt be in it or didnt want to or i dont know but i didnt like that they essentially made sookie#abandon jackson and her kids idk.#christopher i dont care about but PARIS deserved more as well#dont get me started on the wild plot omg.#but that's another thing that ruins the reboots is they just try to add such topical references and it just ages so badly imo#and anyway im just so confused. rory is still sleeping with logan but she has a boyfriend whose name she cant remember but also#she's having one night stands at comic con ?#all for the show to end with SPOILER her saying she's pregnant ?#? ? ?#?#ok.#like. they ruined her character a long time ago but they just completely gave up in this.#lorelai is lorelai i expected nothing else so it was boring i just. think this was the wrong show to do a reunion with i dont know.#i didnt watch it but i think the friends thing is the best way to go where they dont make new episodes but just bring the cast back together#like it was so much better with us all just imagining luke and lorelai got married and had another kid and rory went on to be a journalist#and that was that but here we are
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our flour is infested with fucking moths yayayyyy
#i hate my mother i despise her#our pantry is infested with moths and roaches and they get into fucking everything#and she doesnt care nor will she do anything about it#she blames me for all of it too as if shes not the one that refuses to fucking clean out a dish or put up food#she left milk on the counter overnight and decided it was “fine”#along with routinely feeding her kids deadass just uncooked meat I HATE YOU#anyways#“oh its fine it wont kill you” i like being sanitary thx#gwext
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