#and my autistic brain was struggling

[thornlings]

(While talking about things fans gave them at twitch con)

Impulse: I think my favorite thing somebody gave to me is a card with Jimmy, Solidarity Gaming, so I could--

Joel: I got one of those as well.

Scar: I got one. I keep it in my wallet.

Impulse: --so I can have him next to me every night when I fall asleep since, you know, apparently I have a crush on him.

Tango: I was just going to bring that up. That is the weirdest thing. We all got Jimmy cards and we have like, a whole deck of them. It's very disturbing.

Scar: you have it in your wallet, right?

Tango: uh, yeah. Forever!

Skizz: yeah, they handed me a stack, like "can you hand these out?"

Jimmygirls (gn) having a normal one, I see.

[creaturefrom0uterspace]

[wolfertinger666]

being autistic sucks sometimes but it's also silly because my brain will think I'm a bunny and I'll be like "yes I am a bunny (⁠ᵔ⁠ᴥ⁠ᵔ⁠)"

[schmweed]

[jellypawss]

I love when people say I’m not autistic and then I get invited to my favorite thing ever and I have an absolute meltdown cause I’m not in control. Like yes I love going to get sushi but you set a timer for me and so I’m going to get ready at 6 am for this 6 pm event while being in heavy distress or I won’t get ready at all and my observable state will resemble homelessness because I planned on cancelling the whole time but I felt guilty and really wanted to go but I still didn’t control the timeline.

[canisalbus]

just a quick ask to tell u it makes me super happy seeing the detail u go into when pointing out stuff u like about other people's art of ur ocs :3 it's so rare to see but it's so so motivating!! <3

Thank you! I don't take any interest for my art for granted, and if someone goes through the trouble of drawing my characters for me, I feel like trying to write a proper response is the least I can do. For a visually oriented person, receiving gift/fan art is a huge deal, it means someone considered my goobers worth their time and effort, they've probably been thinking about them more than a little and found them inspiring in a way or another, and I find that terribly flattering. It's extremely fun and interesting to see other people's takes on them. And I've drawn stuff for people as well, I know how nice and rewarding it feels to receive a response that is longer than a word or two. Positive comments like that can linger in people's minds for a long time, at least for me they do.

[wanderingmind867]

I find that whenever my dad comes home from work, I get all agitated. And I don't know why. I'm assuming it has to do with getting used to having people near me, or something. Because i really do love my dad, yet I get so easily agitated when he's coming back home from work on the weekends. It seems like it all comes back to me having to get used to having a second person in the house, when i'm usually alone at home for the first half of the day because of his work on weekends.

Because I'm home alone from my wake-up time (which is usually around 6 or 7 am), to around noon. And so i have at least 6 hours alone where the only sounds come from me occasionally playing music or from me reading out loud or talking to myself. So getting used to another person's presence (even the presence of someone like my dad, who i really care about) can end up becoming really stressful.

[adhdgirl-d96]

Having a neurotypical family is having people continously discrediting our neurodivergent's feelings, thoughs, issues, the things we find usually hard to do on a daily basis.

Usually they tend to tell us we need to stop thinking about issues and just get help to stop being or feeling some way. I can't just stop being neurodivergent...

Get educated and stop making your neurodivergent relative feel stupid, that they are making everything up or that they are being overly dramatic about what it is to be neurodivergent.

You don't get to tell us how to feel or how we should be.

[ponchcronch]

HAHAHHA what people don’t say about autism is that you have to be careful what media you consume cuz if you get a new hyperfixation on something you won’t be able to function for days (for context I made the mistake of watching Lego monkie kid and now I CAN’T FOCUS ON MY PROJECT THATS DUE TOMORROWWW)

[entity56]

reminder that not struggling with eye contact, or even having too much of it, doesn't mean you're not autistic. a lot of autistic people complain about not having a good time making eye contact, but struggling with making it isn't in the diagnostic criteria, nor is it required to have a diagnosis

some autistic people might be just fine making eye contact

some might even swing in the other extreme and make too much eye contact that makes NTs uncomfortable. the diagnostic criteria just underlines "abnormalities" in eye contact

again, though, those abnormalities aren't required, because autism is a spectrum and not a straight line

[nemmet]

question: who is your favourite scooby doo character and why?

in a similar vein to my how did you get into scooby doo post from last month, i'm now interested in hearing who your favourite character from the franchise is! are they a member of the core gang or a side character? which iteration/version of theirs do you like best? do you have any specific memories associated with them? do they mean a lot to you personally, or do you just think they're neat? it's time to gush about them in the tags/replies!!

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

WHy do we as a society have to put in new trash bags, I mean why don’t they just manufacture/package/sell trash bags all inside of each other like russian nesting dolls so that theres a new bag already there when you remove the full one. What the fuck. Kinda reminds me of how we didn’t think to put wheels on luggage until 1970 (one year after we put a man on the freaking moon.) What are we doing

[bogkeep]

untangling my neurodivergence is such a trip like

- first time they tested me for autism i got a negative which is so funny in hindsight considering how Very Obviously Neurodivergent i was as a kid, so i had to return like OK I KNOW YOU SAID I DIDN'T AUTISM BUT CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN WHY I AM IN CONSTANT SENSORY HELL LIKE I'VE BEEN TOLD BY RELIABLE SOURCES WEARING CLOTHES IS NOT SUPPOSED TO FEEL THIS AWFUL ALL THE TIME and on second try i got an "hmmm ok you TECHNICALLY qualify but it's SO mild you are VERY high functioning like it's very vague. barely there. but you can have the diagnosis juuust in case you want accomodations someday" <- definitely didn't carry this assessment with me for years, no sirree, definitely didn't let other people's perception of "i'm not THAT autistic" color the way i viewed and treated myself well into adulthood,,

- the odd disparity between "but i'm so helpless i don't think it's possible for me to live on my own, i don't know how to do anything, i'm going to be a child forever" and "HUH living on my own is SO nice and easy?? i'm handling adulthood so much better than i ever thought i would????" because it turns out having control over my own environment frees up so much space in my brain

- the autism nerf becomes very apparent the moment i Return Home and suddenly the old brick walls in the brain are back. suddenly somehting as easy as making a little cheese toastie, a food that i've been eating almost every day for most of my life, becomes a strenuous task because i have to navigate a now unfamiliar territory, just choosing a cheese is hard enough because some of these belong to someone else and are off limits, if i open a new cheese when there was another one already open i will be berated for it, if i use the wrong cheese that is too fatty and melty i will be berated for picking the wrong cheese, and the fridge is very full and confusing and maybe i'm just missing the most obvious cheese, i'll just ask, and of course i can always ask, i am not afraid of asking for help but i'm always so tired of being made to feel stupid and clueless for needing to ask, but if i just assume i will always make the wrong assumption, and IS IT ANY WONDER SO MANY OF US DEVELOP ANXIETY

- anyway yes i'm absolutely THAT Autistic.

[baycitystygian]

I know I generally embrace being autistic but today the hardest parts of it were really in the foreground for the entire fucking exhausting day… having auditory issues on a VERY important phone call that I needed to make and fighting for my life to understand what the poor sweet insurance lady was saying because the audio was so distorted… having a way-too-long discussion with my sister where I (1) promised to “castrate [her baby daddy] like a hog” for ghosting her and genuinely meant it (thinking about stuffing his nards as a wall trophy tbh, if he doesn’t wanna be a dad so badly then surely it’s no loss to him!) and (2) argued with her about laws that are stupid and shouldn’t apply to her situation (that’s a long story)… which probably did not make her feel any bit better and honestly I think both of us are much more stressed out afterwards. like some situations get me so outrageously mad that I literally cannot handle it and I need to remove myself from the conversation because the other person isn’t budging because it’s something they have zero influence over and they are just trying to explain the damn thing but it’s Wrong in my eyes so I feel the need to argue my case and how the fuck does anyone put up with me

like I know I don’t go into much detail about personal issues on here (or much of anything re: IRL me) but uh. that’s a huge thing I struggle with and I have no clue how to change it. It’s like, does no one else have common sense? Why can’t anyone else see this? and it feels like screaming into the void and it makes me feel terrible and it only stresses out the other person who is Not Getting Paid Enough (well, at ALL) to deal with Whatever This Is

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

Years of reading and writing disapproving parent fic have come back to haunt me, as I'M now the one committing faux pas in front of my partner's uptight parents 🫠✌️

[demonlineswhore]

I long to be able to find joy and peace in reading and writing like I used to when I was younger. Autistic burnout is brutal