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my brother who has been living abroad for the last two years is coming back and i am not mentally prepared for my house to become so stressful again
#my mom has so many issues#and she hit my brother for years and i didn't even realize that#so now he has issues#and he was obviously the victim here#and he coped with it by developing a very victim mentality#and he's very defensive and he's a bit histrionic and i lowkey think he has bpd#and they just dont get along#and i get carried in the middle playing therapist and middleman and have to listen to both of them fight and#and its very stressful#and i fucking hate it#and im already stressed#and i was having such a good day#and now all i can think about is that i want to cry and lowkey having some very self destructive thoughts#i hate my fucking family
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girl I think I need to move 😭
#my housemate is getting less and less friendly#and I'm becoming more and more frustrated with her patterns of communication#I'm just always like. dreading encountering her in the kitchen#plus there was a recent thing that was definitely my fault but the way she communicated abt it was not helpful#or proportional to the issue#she'll be like really clear and upfront about some things and then turn around and be very passive aggressive about others#and its very stressful#plus she acts like she's the only one who does cleaning when that is so deeply not true#and I seem to be the only one doing certain tasks#and overall we just seem to be on different pages about living with other ppl#in a way that isn't either of our faults#it's just getting more and more clear that we're not as compatible as maybe we thought#and that added to the way she's been acting recently has nawt made it easy to live here#especially when I'm home literally all of the time#which sucks because I love this apartment and the rent is great#but alas#ghost posts#text
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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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I wanted to join in @yamujiburo 's DTIYS!
I dont know what else to say here! Hope you're having a nice day!
#hanamusa_dtiys#hanamusa dtiys#hanamusa shipping#my art#i wanted to contribute#but for some reason drawing two people in my usual style seemed overwhelming#I've been working so hard lately to get the mushroom pin project ready for launch#now that its launched i just wanted to draw something fun and low stress#so having this to draw along with was very nice and chill#so thank you for having this up! i enjoyed it#and congratulations!
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Waiting for as long as it takes.
Bonus comics undercut / Explanation of Crow's Nest
#goro akechi#shuake#persona 5#akeshu#p5r#persona 5 royal#ren amamiya#my art#akira kurusu#im not too happy with this comic ngl#apart from the fact that i am very attached to crows nest as an idea#anw horror comic coming next#maybe tomorrow? idk its already done but i like spacing them out so I can take breaks#i had a stressful day my cat got injured and my brain is hazy#so i am rambly
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RAHHHh ok comics done I can post this now!!! He is having the worst possible time
#fop nature au#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dale dimmadome#art#digital art#fanart#body horror#weredeer#idk why I made myself wait until the comic was done like I didnt show the deer stuff#Ough but Im too impatient to wait any longer#current idea is that transformations are based on mental state#antlers for general stress#more animalistic when hes miserable or angry#Generally just making whatever spiral he's already in way worse#I like to think he starts getting more mentally feral when hes mad but he notices it happening and gets so scared he stops being angry#Like the idea of losing his mind makes him genuinely terrified#he exchanges one spiral for another ♥#I had some doodles that didnt fit where he had particularly overgrown antlers#have you ever seen those pictures of deer with overgrown antlers they look diseased and I wanted to capture that#they are heavy painful and most importantly very unnatural#unfortunately drawing overgrown antlers is very difficult for me and didnt look nearly as nasty as I wanted#its one of those things you can immediately pin as wrong in real life but is harder to get across in a cartoony style
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I think one underrated tragedy of Ice King's scars is that he probably took away Simon's sense of levity.
Like in his very limited appearances before Simon is consumed by the crown we see he's kind of a silly dude. In his introduction video, he only put on the crown in order to playfully tease his fiancee. Plus watching him make light of the loneliness and general misery for a young girl in a broken world. He was a dedicated man, who was generous and loved with his whole heart and threw himself one hundred percent into everything he did. He was also a fun lil guy.
But after almost a millennia of being a mad man, the brunt of every joke, someone who only existed as a broken caricature of himself and couldn't be counted on to take anything seriously, I imagine he was done with it. Now he wants to focus back on his academic endeavors, on his role as a father figure in Marcy's life, on being a proper adult. Any attempts to be silly could easily remind everyone - including himself- of Ice King, something he's eager to avoid.
So his jokes and jibes and general lightheartedness turned to sarcasm and self deprecating comments.
#watching him in simon & marcy compared to Fionna and cake#like he is handling the two stressful situations totally differently#fionna and cake#simon petrikov#adventure time#like this was a dedicated historian but hes also a fun guy!#and then he spends a thousand years as the worlds biggest punchline#and suddenly he doesnt WANT to be funny anymore#he wants to be serious and taken seriously#and to separate himself from IK as much as possible#he thinks of a silly joke and immediately quashes it#like its not just his obvious depression in F&C#it really feels like new Simon is trying very hard to not be that guy anymore#no wonder he feels lost hes purposefully divorcing himself from a part of who he'd been even before the crown#ive binged a ton of AT eps the last few days I could be wrong but thats the vibe I get
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Everyone enjoy this pic of our new cat, Chester. The thousand-yard stare and extremely mushed face really make it an instant classic
#cats#tc posts#part of why ive been so busy & dying was all this stuff w adopting him but its all calming down now. its been a process introducing him#to the other two cats but theyre all starting to chill & hang out which is all i could ask for is them to be friends#chester is kinda dumb but also very smart. classic kitten behavior#tho introducing him to his new brothers has been less stress than getting him fixed & having him in a cone for 10 days. that was rough
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after many years of being strong // may you have the chance to be gentle again
#simon blackquill#aura blackquill#athena cykes#ace attorney#more fanfi c deleted scenes :V this is how i deal w being stressed#i hope its clear theyre getting simons stuff from auras storage unit and putting aura's stuff in while shes in priso n#this sequence is also many headcannons deep. mainly that he was into birds before samurai stuff and also is autisti c#there's scholarship abt the correlation btwn being aut istic and tra ns. not that simon is but he mightve been Bad At Gende r in other ways#as in Let Me Bring My Soft Pink Thing To School. which might lead you to seek out more mas c interests at some point#like strong muscuIar men fighting each other with swords. A very manIy interest for someone whos 1000% straigh t of course#Also if you consider the timing and Auras whole Vibe I think you will agree she was a scene queen#my art
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Does Mr. Turner like rubbing his “son’s” successful career in Dinkleberg’s face??
He does! He brags about Timmy's success to every person within the neighborhood's vicinity. Mr. Turner loves how successful his son is! It really secures his reputation at the neighborhood HOA meetings they host at their house.
Timmy's worked very hard to gain more successes than failures. The more successful he is, the greater his family's social standing!! And the less he gets to overhear his dad ranting to the neighborhood about his failures.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#chimmy changa#asks#raven with a pocketwatch#itty bitties fop au#tw parental neglect#<- ask to tag#using the neighborhood gossip is a very good way to reign in your son when he gets too cocky or proud for your liking.#but its also a good way to boost your social standing!! wow!! the joys of reaping the rewards from someone else's hard work!#by contrast mrs. turner doesnt mention his successes to her friends#which timmy does appreciate somewhat but she also doesnt really. give him much of anything.#so.#cant really tell whats worse. the oversharing or the ignoring.#timmy's parents hosts a LOT of events at their house#so he's usually juggling like. hundreds of tasks at once.#he has to get the drinks the plates the food the clean up watch the kids get more drinks respond to his dad's calls handle 3 conversations#prevent his mom from offering him to clean her friends yards stop that kid from spilling ketchup over the grass catch the loose dog#get more drinks for his dad watch the grill avoid the aunt's mlm scheme pitches reject the neighbor's pitch for a potential girlfriend-#all while picking up work calls and scheduling office hours and fixing his coworkers' mistakes and emailing clients and and-#....which is all to say that timmy does most of the hosting. while his parents partake in the celebrating and partying.#man. you'd think doing this for 20 years you'd be able to handle stress
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absolutely adored dead boy detectives but god did it make me miss when we got more than 8 ep long shows like i love what we got and they did the best with the time they were given but there are so many things that could have been explored if the show had more time to breath
#this could 100% just be a me problem i miss long shows so bad#i cry everytime i see a new show is just 8 or less eps#like theres only so much u can do in that time#it doesnt help im also very stressed it wont get enough seasons to fully tell its story#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#(sorry i just finished rewatching black sails before watching this so now I'm cursed to think abt what streaming has done to story telling)
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lrt wrt carrying tiny things around -tbh this is relevant to what I do when im overthinking/spiralling on a walk, I don't have a tiny baby on hand but I *imagine* theres a tiny baby resting gently in the cup of my hand and its like ok sleepy energy gotta be chill and calm theyre sleeping shh
#mal talks#i guess its like#daydreaming but more presently#I find body/breathing focus very stressful so like body focus but the thing isnt real is kinda good#i dont talk about it at all but I have v bad anxiety lol
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Been wanting to draw some fanart for Poor George MAP since it's my favorite one, and because it was its anniversary recently, I finally did it :>
ID: A digital drawing in two panels with characters from Warriors. In the panel above, there's Yellowfang watching Brokenkit play with a moss ball, she looks endearingly at the little kit; they're in a green environment and plants surround them. In the panel below, Yellowfang is in the same possition, looking down at an adult Brokenstar at her feet, already dead, she looks sorrowful. Fireheart is by her side, looking at her with compassion. They're at ThunderClan's medicine den.
#irbis draws#fanart#warrior cats#warriors#warrior cats fanart#yellowfang#brokenstar#fireheart#firestar#thunderclan#shadowclan#cw animal death#animal death#poor george map#i really love this map. it brought me to tears at the part where yellowfang decides to blind brokenstar but still sees her little kit in hi#i remember when i first watched it i was procrastinating a very complicated project#i'm working in a quite stressful project rn too but ive got more sense of things and im almost done with uni!!!#and its still my favorite. i had heard of it like a week before it released and already liked the song aaa#and then the whole pacing was just perfect#also the scene where brokentail kills his father felt so real. i could feel raggedstar's struggle to survive#woaaah#very amazing map#AND THE CREDITS SEQUENCE#im gonna turn this into a ted talk goodbye
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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rare WIP preview from me#this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao#its been really hard working this far ahead#my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely#which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority#its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o#I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see#when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode#and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on#but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually#bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all#cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory#my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together#and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game#we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything#cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever#but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization#and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer#I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down#'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all#anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry#WIP#lineart#time and time again
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older designs for my specialest guy
#you actually could pay me to watch boruto the payment is reviving any of madara-obito-itachi in a cheap fan service moment. itd work on me 👍#neji hyuga#hyuga neji#art#fanart#naruto#2024#i think konoha would love to project the will of fire shit onto neji after what he did. ya know. trying to give your life 'for the village'#in that way hed probs have a lot of respect from others but respect has never been enough when your life still isnt yours 😛#the pessimism would likely take a bit to return to him but it Would return hes just like. less interpersonally volatile#the realization you had two whole very public meltdowns and no one that matters cared will do that to you#anywayfor the happy ending one. i think while neji is always going to be a little bit bitchy hes bound to soften up a lot when he's not#under constant stress and has to micromanage his every thought#i like to think that if he were allowed to hed grow into a very outwardly warm person. sunflower :)#and my general opinions of neji and boruto are:#1. yes it is a blessing to not be made to be straight married#2. however consider: what if i wanted to see neji be a dad. i dont care for romantic njten but i do not hate it. it would be acceptable#when i think abt this guy in boruto hes chronically single but still.talking about what CANON could be. it would be acceptable#3. yes hiashi shouldve gotten his ass killed in the war but i would be lying if i said the awful family reunions#are not fun as a concept#are they fun on purpose? no#but the rule is: A situation can suck if it sucks on purpose#and 4. i know about the time travel episode i have mixed feelings on it.#anyway no hate if you like boruto i like being hyperbolic for fun but its just anime. the kids seem cute#but if any other hyuga-brained person ever wants to get unimaginably angry you should also watch the hiashi birthday episode of boruto#thats my special recommendation from me to you
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you know im unable to shut up when i have any opinion on zelda (though i try and have thus far succeeded at not commenting on any other concept from the darn book)- i find most totk ganondorf concept art worse than what we got to insulting even (of those i have seen) ..... this one though
much more the one in the background than the one up front, still at least he has the collar and the weapon we saw in the first trailer of things that never happen in the end (like so much else)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#it looks like he got actual shoes in the bg one#which i like#also the big flowing robe is jsut cool as fuck#i like old japanese aesthetic but i still dont think it fits at all in totk#like its so clearly done to other him from the gerudo despite wearing their symbol all over#idk it looks so much more unique and memorable#sorry but totk gan normal looks a lil boring though i like the pattern in the robe#and his deeeemon form looks more like they tried to do demise again but not quite#like yeah lets use the design things on the uncool and forgotten and possibly retconned villain#and staple it too the much more known one :)#like yes he looks different from the gerudo still and very much still japanese in this concept#but it .... just kinda looks more unique and interesting to me#like in an either go all the way or leave it kinda way#yes i am biased#i love both demise and gan#anyway- i am still a prisoner of art (cant draw weeeee)#(plus IRL stress with my parents and weather change thus migraine yippiiie)
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