#and it's fucking awful
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I'm not okay. On the verge of an autistic meltdown.
Can... can someone help cheer me up somehow?
#wow vents#vent#i'm being whumped badly#and it's fucking awful#feel free to send an ask to help me keep my mind off of it
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getting critically close to collapsing into tears about my (terminally I guess) ill cat. he'll barely eat, barely drink. he's meowing bc he's hungry and thirsty and yet we have three different water sources for him and I'm at the point where I'm smearing pureed chicken with his favorite treat on it on his mouth to try to get him to lick it up and he just doesn't want anything to do with it.
meanwhile, I'm doing better than ever at a job I never thought I'd be lucky enough to have, and every day there is a new incredible achievement. and I just feel like the higher the highs get there, the lower the lows are getting at home. and I don't know how to hold all this indefinitely without breaking the fuck down. like it's just a matter of time before I run out of runway and I'm freefalling off the cliff into depths unknown and I'm fucking scared
#tw pet illness#how many nights can i cry myself to sleep before I'm just absolutely losing it#i have to be strong for Stephanie bc this is way worse for her#i have to not cry bc I'll make myself sick and I can't afford to miss days at work#but i can't hold it back when it's past when i need to be asleep in order to get enough sleep before work in the morning#and then the next day I'm just#sleep deprived and hollow#and i go to work and work is so good#and i spend the whole time worrying about my cat#and pushing that down#i just want him to be okay#and i know he isn't gonna be okay#and it's fucking awful
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PROOF IN CASE YOU NEED IT
UPDATE:
I put this in my reblogs but I’m going to attack this to the main post.
TRUMP HIMSELF DIDN’T CHEAT BUT SOMEONE DEFINITELY TAMPERED WITH THE ELECTION RESULTS.
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Made by the amazing @the-gay-prometheus (genuinely thank you for saying this)
#destiel#november 5th#us politics#fuck trump#I usually have awful reach but for the love of GOD let this catch on
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are we still doing this because i have a late submission
#🐉#this is less about fan content and more about that awful lazy one size fits all#'10 years later theyre happily married with a cute little nuclear family' trope#because ive read some genuinely incredible fics about characters who would Not fucking have kids#ending up with accidental pregnancy scares or child acquisitions that get treated with all the nuance#and thoughtful handling they deserve#but also. i reread one of my favourite fics yesterday and when one character jokingly brought up the idea of children#and the other reacted with genuine visceral disgust and said what hideously awful parents theyd be#i lit up like a fucking christmas tree
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Sunset in Shinjuku
#art tag#my art#I'm so sorry I can't finish anything recently#but I still needed to express my FEELINGS#about these AWFUL LITTLE DOOMED TEENAGERS#jjk manga spoilers#jjk spoilers#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen spoilers#jujutsu kaisen#nobara kugisaki#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushikugi#I halfway rendered this and hated it so much I just went back to the sketch#edit: I fucking. got the name of the district wrong they were fighting Sukuna in Shinjuku I'm an idiot
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love how Gotham goons are like "awh, it's the nice, quippy one" when they see Nightwing and then Dick shoves his fucking escrima stick down their throats until they choke on it and almost die
#the duality of man#he is sweet and nice and quippy#and then you're gonna fucking choke on his escrima stick#and if you're really awful#he might even turn it on while it's down your throat#nightwing#dick grayson#the man you are <3#bruce wayne#batman#batfamily#dc#dc comics
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hey writers we have to talk.
if you've read any romance or fanfic in the past twenty years (i know you have), you know that there are a certain number of scents associated with hot dudes. you can probably recite the list of Things Men in Fic smell like in your sleep: leather, black pepper, pine, sandalwood, "something uniquely him", clean sweat, and if the character has ever fucking been within 50 yards of a firearm, something called "cordite".
here's the thing.
NO ONE SMELLS LIKE CORDITE.
cordite was a highly specific type of smokeless gunpowder developed in the 1890s by england specifically and used mostly in wwi.
if your good-smelling guy is not (a) english (b) using a very specific type of british rifle (c) dying in a trench in flanders, he does not smell like cordite. technically even if he does meet all those conditions he still doesn't smell like cordite because he smells like trenchfoot.
the point is, cordite is so far from universal that no one but the most hardcore gun nerds give a single shit about it. making your Sexy Hero smell like cordite is like naming a cassette-only bootleg live recording from the 1970s as your favorite grateful dead album. everyone at the party hates you immediately and knows you're doing it for clout. also, it's just factually... wrong. please stop. i know everyone else is doing it, but you can do the right thing here, i believe in you.
so what do people who are using guns smell like?
well if your story is set before the late 1880s, the smell of a fired gun is black powder, which, unfortunately, smells like seventeen flatulent cows have been shoved in a tire factory. trust me, you do not want your Hot Dude to smell like black powder. it's b a d.
if your story is set after the late 1880s, guns are using some variety of modern 'smokeless' powder - which speaking broadly doesn't really have a ton of scent when used. it does have some, but it's sort of non-descript: the best way i can describe it is the sweet, ozone, hot-plate smell of popping your car hood with a warm engine.
people who use guns a lot don't smell like fired guns all the time anyway, so while those scents might work in a fight scene, they're not realistic all the time. but there are some things that your Sexy Shootist will smell like basically 24/7 and that's metal and gun oil. metal you can go and sniff (i recommend non-stainless steel), but if you want a reference, most gun oils have a sharp, organic smell that's not dissimilar to canola oil but muskier and with a tang overtop. it's not unlikely leather is in the mix as well due to routine handling of leather equipment and gear. modern gear also tends to have a certain smell although it varies by production country and storage conditions - lots of opportunities there.
in conclusion: gunslingers and hired killers and military folks can be sexy and smell great on page, but i am begging you not to say "cordite" when you mean "gunpowder" ever again. we can do this. we are writers and therefore pedants. i believe in us!
#i will kiss the first romance writer who makes their MMC smell like cosmoline on the mouth#(actually don't cosmoline smells fucking awful)#firearms#romance novels#fanfic#meta#writing reference#also if anyone has a hypothesis about WHY cordite took off i would love to hear it#historical firearms#nb4 the gun nerds show up yes this post does contain sweeping generalizations about the history of gunpowder
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pls pls heard me out...FIDDLESTAN! <3
ok, i got this ask ten days ago, and I've been thinking about it ever since. Because I got two other asks asking for fiddauthor, and I dON'T KNOW HOW TO LET THEM DOWN LIGHTLY BECAUSE I'M A FIDDLESTAN BITCH THROUGH AND THROUGH 😭😭😭😭 I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!!!!
Don't get me wrong, fiddauthor is great and makes sense and everything. But listen. Billford and fiddauthor are multidimensional ships, they are good! But FIDDLESTAN!?!? that shit is the WHAT-THE-HECK-A-HEDRON!!!!!!! Even though it's literally 100% speculation, the implications are FUCKING CRAZY!!!!!!!!! I jumped between three ships so far during this gravity falls thing, each time thinking one is better than the other. I've decided that FIDDLESTAN IS KING!!!!!! I'm sorry. I could rant about them forever. I've been listening to nothing but extended versions of disco music for the past week. (YES THEY HAD A CRAZY ROMANTIC FLING IN VEGAS NO I WILL NOT ELABORATE!!!! (yes i will. I will elaborate at some point. it will be like ten pages or text. or I will draw it. idk.))
Here is a sketchbook doodle from like a week ago. I'm gonna post another fiddlestan thing in a few moments, but my style changes like I'm a completely different artist every week without warning, so I'm gonna leave this by itself!
He comes into YOUR house, he steals YOUR identity, and he fucks YOUR research partner!!! Fuck you!!!!!!!!!!
#i've noticed lately#after we've opened our eyes to some of fords assholeyness#some people are like 'hold on guys i think were being a little too hard on ford 🥺'#NO WE ARE NOT!!!!!!!!!!!#I hail from the iz fandom where everyone knows dib is fucking awful#and we LOVE him for it!!!!#will NOT shy away from admitting how terrible he is - it's why we love him!!!!!#ok enough rant#me typing on tumblr about this shit is like opening pandoras box#gonna close that up now for everyones safety#fiddlestan#gravity falls#stan x fiddleford#gravity falls fanart#ask#answered#anon#sketchbook
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“I got upset about 20 years ago because I thought it would block me,’ she says. ‘However, it’s been very easy to avoid reading any, so live and let live. If I were a young writer, I’d want to own my own ideas. But maybe fan fiction is a transitional phase: whatever gets you there, gets you there.“
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#I'm fucking tired#I know her behaviour towards fans in this regard was awful and she certainly deserved the vitriol at the time#and she was not the type to apologize for anything ever#but I feel like 90% of tumblr aren't aware that she changed her mind#anne rice#iwtv#iwtv amc#amc iwtv#interview with the vampire#vampire chronicles#the vampire chronicles
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Taylors wift is just elon musk for horse girls and gays who are afraid of faggots
#punkblogging#if any of y'all call me a fucking misogynist for this#I literally almost exclusively listen to women fronted bands it's not because she's a woman#I even listen to pop sometimes!!! (I mean not radio pop but still)#she is just fucking lame as a human being and she's an awful songwriter and an industry plant in the exact same ways as musk#I could say this about most men in the music industry as well but no one is out here fucking worshipping... idek I literally#do not know enough men fronted bands to put together an example
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i'm sorry but i don't think we should call this the "autism website" when there's still posts with tons of notes mocking people who:
struggle with social skills / have anxiety around social settings
are unemployed / unable to work certain jobs
have intense or "age-inappropriate" interests
haven't had certain life experiences that are deemed universal/essential
struggle with personal hygiene
don't have any friends or dating experience
don't go outside much or at all
take things literally / don't get sarcasm/jokes
have unusual ways of speaking
generally aren't "normal"
#+ other things i'm probably forgetting rn#i know most of these apply to other disabilities too but i wanted to focus on autism bc of all the 'autism website' stuff#it's genuinely disturbing to see someone go 'lol autism website'#and then in the next breath be like 'omg look at this loser who [literal symptom of autism]'#but i guess when these people talk about autism they don't mean actual autism#but the tiktok style 'just a bit quirky but still able to assimilate into abled hegemony with ease' autism#i'm just tired of the hypocrisy#autism acceptance month is over now it's time for autism wrath month#being disabled on tumblr can be fucking awful sometimes. might take a break for a while bc i just don't have the energy to deal with it#autism#actually autistic#actuallyautistic
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What I love about Jason Todd is that he's angry about his trauma. Life fucked him over and he's rightfully pissed off. We already have "healed from their anger" Dick Grayson and "ignores their emotions" Bruce Wayne. Thank you DC for giving us "hurt and upset and lashing out" Jason Todd.
#this is extremely personal to me and no I will not elaborate#but like#let someone with ptsd be fucking angry#let them be upset#cuz jesus christ#what they went through was AWFUL#jason todd#dc#dc comics#red hood#batman#text post
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hey silt verses? I just want to talk
#the silt verses#I'm soooooo!!!!! I'm sooo!!!!!#you can't do this to me silt verses!!!!!! I'm soooo!!!!!#val voice: you didnt want to be this I'm sure that#something something what did you want to be? a ballerina. a milkman.#the promised bride. become something else the trawlerman told her. she was just a girl. just a human with no where to go#all these characters stripped down of all titles and pretenses and forms and shapes. that's all they are. human#sorry i had to make another post about this because i was just talking about this on twitter yesterday#wouldn't it be truly fucking awful if it was just people out here and nothing else
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one of the worst things in the world is that feeling unloveable can (and will) make you act in ways that reinforces itself. I feel unloveable so I don’t respond to messages so people reach out less so I feel unloveable. one of the hardest things in the world is fighting back the brain demons long enough to break the cycle
#my best friend doesn’t have tumblr but I am mentally sending him so many apologies right now jesus fuckkkkkkk#I feel so fucking awful rn#I went and watched taskmaster and that distracted me a bir#but literally. suicidal thoughts out of nowhere. urge to drink out of nowhere#it’s like. 8:15pm and I’m thinking of just going to bed now#only way to get my brain to shut up#I have such a busy weekend ahead as well#godddddd I want to enter hermit mode so bas#I’m not gonna do anything stupid don’t worry#but I sure Feel Like Doing It
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your hero.
#bro thinks hes their savior 🤣👉#sorry i draw so much jimmy hes awful and so fucking messy and i love that#also this is another bit of art from my animatic.#mouthwashing#captain curly#jimmy mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#silly art tag
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seriously why is erik like that
#why did i spend 30 minutes making this#cherik#x men#x men movies#xmfc#erik lehnsherr#charles xavier#shitpost#erik was a freak forreal#erik ‘you can do that too?’#charles ‘aw fuck he’s found out about it’#they make emma do this with her telepathy so im allowed to joke with charles. for equality <3
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