#and it triggers so much anger :/

[youngdutchishot]

young dutch and hosea, but its just them laying out in the grass, talking for hours as the time passes, neither realizing such until dutch's quiet snores halt hosea in his exaggerated talk. and all he can do is peer to his left, completely awestruck by not the stars, but him instead.

and it's the first time he's ever felt okay. it's the first time in what has felt to be a lifetime that he's realized that what dutch and he share, is so much more than his past.

that, with dutch, he can feel right, because dutch is what makes him that. and inspires him to continue being that.

[kingpains]

dr1 designs pt. 2

[19catsncounting]

Hey does anyone still think about the thematic differences between Supernatural and the Wayward Sisters and how self-isolating male hunters are compared to community-building female hunters and how this was shown from the Harvelles to even arguably Missouri Mosely and even Samuel Campbell who is his daughter's father almost more than a man himself (especially in Season 6) is not immune to this?

And how the Wayward Sisters could have been built not on sacrificing yourself to this singular all-consuming relationship with your brother and sacrificing yourself for the world second or in name only, but instead on what it takes to cut yourself into useful and digestible pieces for the sake of keeping your place in that community because you're almost certain that it's This Community or Solitude Forever (Alex you can never escape the life no matter how much you don't want it you've gotta pitch in do you want your family to die on this hunt Claire you know you'll never find anyone to love you unless you make yourself softer and then are they really loving you are you even worthy of love anymore Jody your husband and son would still be alive if you listened and learned you can't lose another child in every sense you can't quite let your children be defenseless children either and you know so well how sick this fear makes you and how you're dealing with it the wrong way your son got to be a child but your daughters can't be that vulnerable Even Donna you have Your Role to play here you're not good enough as a hunter but you're funny and happy and you don't take up that much space so that's exactly how much space you're given to exist in).

And yes, a lot of these things are echoes of Kripke Supernatural but instead of too-intimate and dark and quiet confessions that the Winchesters share and know that no one else could ever have the context to fully understand it's Community it's All Our Problems the humiliation and shame is all-encompassing because there is no privacy Everyone Sees You Everyone Knows You Everyone Wants To Fix Help You.

[lovsome]

am i so hard to care about?

[chaiaurchaandni]

eternal glory to our martyrs

i cannot even bear to look at the censored version of this image. there are people in gaza having to look at this - uncensored, right in front of their eyes, knowing that all they can do for this human is to reach out and hold his lifeless hand, to mourn him, to try to give him a respectful burial. the people in palestine are not just looking at this, they are experiencing it. they are seeing it happen to their children, their parents, their siblings, their friends, their lovers, their neighbours.

israelis did this. they crushed him with a tank, till his body burst to bits, spilling his blood and organs and flesh and tissue all over the ground. they had already kidnapped and tortured this man, as evident by the ziptie on his wrist. yet that was not enough. they had to dehumanize this palestinian even more. israelis constantly feel the need to reduce palestinians to nothing but bloody remains, that can barely be recognized as belonging to a human.

i dont know this man's name. i saw the uncensored picture but there was nothing left of his face. all i know is that he was an innocent man in a cruel world. there is no going back from this. all lines have been crossed and demolished. this can only end with the absolute destruction of the zionist entity of israel, all of its institutions, all of its armed forces, all of its bloodthirsty supporters. there should be no forgiveness, no mercy, no peace and no relief for those responsible for doing this, for allowing this, for enabling this.

[silvaurum]

havin a week/few days where i think: i deserve a fucking nobel peace prize and a congressional medal of honor for not being the biggest bitch in the whole wide world to everyone right now

[everyurlithinkofistoolong]

Everyday I think about how Misty isn't the antler queen and how she was the first girl to be disproven right off the bat to not be her. You would think it would be her at first right? She's unhinged, she's unable to see the fault in some of the things she does, she murders and murders, and essentially everything that happened in the wilderness is indirectly her fault because she destroyed the box. But she was the first girl to be shown unmasked because Misty doesn't attempt to hide, or maybe she just can't. She's unmasked because we see her nature right of the bat, there's no pretense of normalcy or repression of who she is.

The antler queen is hidden, behind the scenes. She isn't the one who dragged pit girl's body out, prepared it, and served it. It was served to her. If the wilderness is the representation of trauma, then the antler queen is the source of it and the instigator. The center.

If Misty is a hammer used to beat someone to death, then the antler queen is a quiet poison that you don't even know is in your system until it kills you. Anyways here is why I believe with my whole heart that Shauna is the antler queen.

[sensitivegoblin]

Stupid period vent

If youre a cis man; kiss a uterous haver on the forehead today

Cus fuck this feels like a mental parasite

[dandyshucks]

me waking up at 6am this morning and immediately having the thought "maybe Guz still gets angry a lot because strong emotions are difficult if not impossible to control esp if its rooted in abuse trauma BUT he learns how to apologize, and thus - especially in the beginning - he would lash out as an automatic response but quickly realize what he's doing and apologize for it and we'd move on and be okay" like it had been beamed into my brain from some divine source.

also junebug (waves. thats literally just me.) would have to do their own hard work to learn to not automatically fawn when someone starts seeming the littlest bit potentially displeased or unhappy (because that is unhealthy for all parties involved). they'd BOTH be putting in the work to make it work !!!!!! 🎉

[necroticghost]

omfg, someone being over at our place triggers my ocd like nothing else

[graveyarrdshift]

bpd splitting is so fucking funny lmao *cries*

[beanniiee]

rant in the tags

[ebiheart]

I loooove having borderline :DDD

Everyday is just

Open silly little internet

See something that conflicts with my beliefs and shouldn't affect me that much

Feel full of rage, with my body burning as the flames of the pity of hell

Now my whole day is ruined and I feel like a piece of garbage who shouldn't exist or even try to express myself because no one cares about my beliefs or my opinion and fuck myself basically. no one cares.

[robinsnest2111]

I need to stop saying "it's whatever/doesn't matter" whenever things go wrong at my expense and others try to apologise for having a part in things going wrong.

[lacependragon]

"Autistic people hate drinking water."

Y'all the only thing I can drink is water. Everything else tastes disgusting. I love water. Gimme the metals and the rocks. I love how it tastes. I love it cold or cool or lukewarm.

Ask anyone who knows me in real life what I drink in a week that isn't water. Most weeks? Nothing.

Autism is varied. Some of us prefer the taste of water, which is relatively similar everywhere even if it's different (which it is) as opposed to sweet or savoury or bitter things all day.

God everything else tastes so fucking much. The inside of my mouth has taste. My lips have taste. I wanna drink something with a bland taste that doesn't bother me. Yes water has a taste and yes it varies but it's all the same shit. It's all metals and rocks and temperature.

"Hating water is part of autism" I am so very fucking autistic and if you hand me a drink that isn't water I will most likely go thirsty.

this is not a post for water haters. if you hate water, there's plenty of posts for you. fuck off.

[annoyingfobbie]

i hope those barricade brigade bitches realize they're the most insufferable people on the planet. like seriously, you're dedicating yourself to going to as many of these expensive ass shows as possible and are fighting tooth and nail for barricade every fucking night? and then you have the nerve to be PROUD of yourself for it??? no. nuh uh. die.

like, most people are lucky to get to go to ONE of the shows, and if they happened to shell out that extra money to get GA so that they can see MCR up close for the only time they're ever gonna get to see them, then why the fuck do you think YOU'RE entitled to that spot at the front instead of them? IF YOU'VE ALREADY SEEN THE FUCKING SHOW FROM BARRICADE THEN FUCKING STEP BACK oh my god it pisses me off an unreal amount. the fucking self entitlement, the fucking privilege, its fucking unreal.