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ceph · 2 months ago

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i haven't recorded anything in a while, but i'm getting the urge again, because i've been listening to a lot of things. theres been innovation in the field as well. (yes, i got pinged. my ears are still ringing.)

anyway, here's everything i ever made! so productive. i just unprivated the three "cohy" ones after like 5 years; i got shy about them but you know what who cares.

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bonus from 12 yrs ago on an old account i forgot the login to:

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#hypnosis #hypnotist #hypnosis video #hypnosis induction #i would like to include pings & eye roll inductions in something as i keep getting bingled by those...#and i will be taking more notes tonight #and looking at spirals...theyre so flashy now!#i got bingled by a sort of glitched out one on a youtube preview the other day and watched a video i probably wouldtnve so...feeling that #sorry i keep saying bingled #its killing me #Youtube

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tigeristired · 9 months ago

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hello fable cast scrolling the tag. having a good after stream time seeing everyone still crying hours later?

#this is light hearted i promise ive just had a few more cast than usual in my note tonight #hello welcome to my shithole ig #enjoy the posts. take a seat. stargaze. i dont mind.#fable smp #ramblings #mcyt

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itspileofgoodthings · 4 months ago

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I don’t even fully know why but “what do I do when I miss you so much?” / “Just wait, and pray desperately” was a knife to my heart in the best way.

#crash landing on you #my grandma once said most of life was waiting and praying #and when he said it it just resonated so deeply #I think because. it’s not like a revelation or anything #but I think it’s just because she was suffering so much and had suffered so much #and so in that moment #he just takes care of her so completely and gives her hope. and not a false hope #a true one #and on deeper reflection the ending does work within the context of this (in my opinion) most powerful scene #/ apex of the show #it’s just the tone that’s a little wrong. that’s too aesthetic-y.#because the kind of steady way he keeps taking care of her from afar. and the slow build of her recovering but continuing to hope #couldn’t lead them anywhere except a happy ending. even if the final pieces of it couldn’t be unraveled (or put together)#by the show’s writing. so it just kind of has to fade to black so to speak #because the characters have been so steady and consistent a) in their personalities motivations and desires #and b) in their love for each other! that never falters or betrays a false note #and it’s the truest thing you’re left with. which is why—again—I actually think the problem might have been the tone #I would have gone for something more muted. I would have had them be talking and/or arguing a little more in their old way #to keep and sustain the idea that there is more work ahead for them that we’re just not going to see #but that is ultimately a kind of nitpick. and the take me to the lakes vibe of that final #scene is also not untrue.#also circling back for a second can I just SAY. that I love the balance of their vulnerabilities #there are such clear and distinct times where one of them is stronger and the other more vulnerable #and it’s sooooo perfect to watch and gives you many instant layers #anyway I’m crying in this Chili’s tonight (*my bed at 7:00 am)

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shalpilot · 6 months ago

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confiding

#ffxiv #ffxiv wol #shadowbringers #shadowbringers spoilers #ocs #oc: yesui #it’s only impliedish but this does hinge on you being a Knower so #gotta draw more yesui and exarch stuff. the people must know.#essentially after getting accidentally brought back to life by him kinda #she went well since i can’t protect kiril right now i might as well throw myself at the next best thing: this guy #and despite the exarch telling her she’s free to go and she by no means has to stay w him at all times #it takes a while for her to be like wow. i can … do that….#cue her cryptid arc around the crystarium #she ends up assigning like. the whole crystarium as her charge #side note. she’s like. i have to devote myself to protecting [insert thing here] or else I don’t know what to do with myself #so a whole city rather than one person is honestly big steps for her good job #oh also she was another reason why it was so hard to grab kiril’s soul #bc she was actively batting the exarch away from it until he managed to snag her #so she was the last person to get mistakenly sent to the first #anyways that’s all my yesui lore for tonight good night

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zerotwoooo · 7 months ago

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stay strong you can do this most of us are rooting for you all to save popstar and be careful some has been tell in zero information about you and zero thinks that he has already won prove him wrong

"...We will try our best!"

"Agreed. We have gotten far."

"Let's hope things go well...!"

#kirby meta knight #storypost #meta knight #kirby of the stars #kirby askblog #trypanophobia warning in notes #So #While theyre hitting castle ddd tonight #I might not post again tonight or tomorrow #Im getting vaccinated tomorrow (supposed to today but yknow... things happen or whatever)#anyway I have severe phobia of needles #Im not guaranteeing that I wont post tomorrow but I do know that I will likely be sick (not literally but in the stress way)#I did want them to hit Castle Dedede around now so feel free to ask anyways!#I was just letting yall know why I've been and will post less #even though its hitting a heavy story point #and I usually try to post several times durring those #just letting yall know ahead of time ^^#so... 200$ vaccine #we had to search because no one takes medicade #to find it at 20$#kinda annoyed #anyway its tomorrow??? again #if this happens one more time im gonna lose my mind

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acourtofquestions · 4 months ago

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Overhead, the stars shone clear and bright, and though Mala had only once appeared to him at dawn, on the foothills across this very city, though she might be little more than a strange, mighty being from another world, he offered up a prayer anyway.

Then, he had begged Mala to protect Aelin from Maeve when they entered Doranelle, to give her strength and guidance, and to let her walk out alive. Then, he had begged Mala to let him remain with Aelin, the woman he loved. The goddess had been little more than a sunbeam in the rising dawn, and yet he had felt her smile at him.

Tonight, with only the cold fire of the stars for company, he begged her once more.

A curl of wind sent his prayer drifting to those stars, to the waxing moon silvering the camp, the river, the mountains.

He had killed his way across the world; he had gone to war and back more times than he cared to remember. And despite it all, despite the rage and despair and ice he'd wrapped around his heart, he'd still found Aelin. Every horizon he'd gazed toward, unable and unwilling to rest during those centuries, every mountain and ocean he'd seen and wondered what lay beyond... It had been her. It had been Aelin, the silent call of the mating bond driving him, even when he could not feel it.

They'd walked this dark path together back to the light. He would not let the road end here.

#Chapter 23 #Kingdom of Ash #Sarah J. Maas #Rowan Whitethorn #Rowaelin #Essar #Mala #more starry quotes #lord of the north #I will find you #no spoilers pls 1st read to read along with me pt 4 of 4 perspectives more notes/quotes/reacts in tags; spoilers in both post & tags #They would not all go in all go out. — he won’t leave without Aelin… and probably Cairn dead #Ready to unleash hell when he sent a flare of his magic diverting soldiers to their side while Rowan made his run for Aelin.#She'd protested but even Gavriel had told her that she was mortal. Untrained. And what she'd done today… Rowan didn’t have the words #thank you for Elide appreciation day #He trusted Essar. She'd never liked Maeve had outright said she did not serve her with any willingness or pride.#But these last few hours before dawn when so many things could go wrong...#the full circle of him praying to Mala in HoF and then mentioning it in QoS and EoS and now here in KoA😭#She had to be there. Aelin had to be there.#If they had come so close but wound up being the very thing that had caused Maeve to take Aelin away AGAIN #The bond within him lay dark and slumbering. No indication of her proximity. — Maeve doing that too AGH I HATE HER SO MUCH #Essar had no idea that Aelin was being kept here until Elide informed her. How many others hadn't known? How well had Maeve hidden her?#— maybe that means there’s some good face on their side who might help if they know or learn?#ah rowaelins love language of revenge and compartmentalizing #Overhead the stars shone clear and bright and though Mala had only once appeared to him at dawn on the foothills across this very city #though she might be little more than a strange mighty being from another world he offered up a prayer anyway.#his magic sending a prayer to the northern stars for dawn to stay with the woman he loves — even back then😭#Tonight with only the cold fire of the stars for company he begged her once more.#HE SAYS COLD FIRE BECAUSE ITS NOT HIS FIREHEART😭 and the the darkness back to the light — IT WILL NOT END HERE WE WONT LET IT HE WONT LET IT #and the fact he knew he loved her back then😭 and all those centuries before when he didn’t know why😭😭😭

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the-valiant-valkyrie · 11 months ago

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ouh... mm unicorn fabby?? ouh... and um? earth pony solaris? 🥺? and erm um maybe even dragon zor? hello can anyone hear me hello

#forced my family to watch the m.lp movie for movie night tonight. jokes on them though they liked it. yay #side note they're taking it off of net.flix soon so watch it now if you want to #anyways this is a thought that i had for a while but watching the movie reminded me of it #fabby and solaris are NOT those ponies for rari.jack reasons. i mean like yeah they are. but also they're just coded that way #i GUESS i could see solaris as a unicorn for the flight/space motif but. one. i want her to be built like a brick wall. its essential #and two. i think it matters more if she accomplishes her goals through brute force and hard work rather than being born-#-with the ability to do what she wants. as that's kind of her motif from the start isn't it #anyways i've given this more thought than necessary #zor with a HUUUGE hoard of gold its their favorite they love it so much. their yummy treasure.#and their silly little ponies to collect it for them or else. yay

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badgirlcoven-official · 4 months ago

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"Willow is a bad character because she's a mary sue" me when I missed the entire point of the show

#scrolling her tag and going insane #side note there is apparent a toh cr1t tag #I will not look at it for annoying takes to make fun off (affirmations)#at least i won't tonight who knows what the future holds #anyway im obsessed bc they were like #'imagine if willow was just a fan character in fanfics you'd all think she was pretty cringe huh'#NUHUH IM NORMAL UR WATCHING THE CRINGE CULTURE TOWARDS HARMLESS THINGS IS STUPID SHOW #also jesus fucking christ do you honestly think that a disabled coded woman of color being a badass is somehow overdone #like the reason ppl criticized MS's in the first place is bc we rlly do not need another white abled girlypop to be the super magical #chosen one and never be in the wrong ever #disabled ppl and woc don't GET that fantasy #also her powers aren't disproportionate to the universe at all #yes she gained a lot of power in two months but she's spent the past several years repressing her very potent magic to mold herself to #other ppls expectations the whole fucking thing is a metaphor for how disabled ppl who now have accomodations/can live their life on their #own terms do much better much faster than people give them credit for #and once again she's really powerful yes but she was for example nothing compared to Darius #she doesn't take on a coven head (though a battle between her and Terra would have been super interesting) and win and she can take care of #1-2 coven scouts on her own but needs support and help from others #if there are more of them #ALSO EVERYONE ELSE GETS MORE POWERFUL ALSO #why isn't Amity a mary sue for going from only making small abominations and needing a training wand to being like the 3rd strongest #abomination magic user? bc shes white?#their main complaint seemed to be that willow demasculated hunter tho #so like #lmao cope. seethe.

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shikai-the-storyteller · 5 days ago

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Backing up the billion photos I have on my phone after putting it off for literal Years, but I just hit the QSMP section and man... :(

#I'm still not over it #So many screenshots so many tags so much art so many funny posts #Just went through an entire year's worth of QSMP stuff I had saved on my phone and genuinely feel miserable #At first it was bittersweet rereading everything but then I reached the last month / two months section and I was like ah. That's right.#It's dealing double damage to me too rn because I just so happened to put one of the QSMP movie night streams on in the background #just for background noise #I miss it man... it had so many problems but I miss it so bad #It's not even that I want a QSMP 2 I just want to go back to those early days when people were happy #I want to be happy again #:(((#On a lighter note I can see the exact moment I started watching Pac on the daily because I have five billion screenshots from each stream #Me trying to desperately screenshot important subtitles and mark the timestamps like a madlad #There's some things here maybe I'll share another day because nostalgia doesn't always have to be painful #but tonight it aches a bit more than usual #i talk #qsmp talk #Anyways — I know I said I was taking a step away from RA but On God I gotta finish that QSMP finale clip I was doing #because if I see one more person say Pac / Mike / Richas are dead I'm going to lose it

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 2 months ago

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rewatching 13s era for me is not so much diminishing returns as it is something opposite and eviler...............increasing losses? increasing losses

#every time i rewatch an episode the points where it couldve been better poke me in the eye #maybe probably the exact same thing would happen with any other thing i would get this obsessed about #you stare at something long enough its flaws will become ever more apparent #you love something enough everything it could have been but IS NOT becomes ever more painful #i watched 13x5 tonight.........honestly what the fuck goes on #no these were my responses now 3 years and probably a dozen rewatches in:#1) what the fuck goes on #2) philosophically stilll utterly unintelligible to me i might be stupid #swarm and azures whole thing. like. everything they say about their Schemes is completely......incoherent. i dont understand it.am i stupid #3) feels like most agents in these plots are just doing busywork. but might be my inability to understand plot again #but like diane?? who is she what is she why is she #4) 13s message to yaz 'flux destroys universe so refugees coming take over earth your task' is.....like.....profoundly......wtf #and seemingly easily fixable: flux destroys universe refugees come to earth find a way to welcome them #get unit involved THAT way. right?#unit as the liaison between humanity and alienity. rebrand #but maybe that doesnt work with the snakeman plot idfk im stupid with plot #5) scenes between 13 and tecteun couldve been so much more. mastervoice: i have Notes. first and least: tecteun shouldve called her Child #damn now i want to do 13 era rewrite again #i really should do that one day i think it would be good for my skills #turn it into a good oldfashioned 13 ep series. still one story tho. but to deepen everything out a bit more #actually getting into all the stuff thats only sort of Touched upon #making swarm and azure not only make sense but also emotionally important and if possible even lore-wise interesting #more abt the division past. doesnt need to be shown in detail if the absence is the point. that doesnt mean there cant be more absence #swarm&azure lore + division lore + vinder&bel lore in separate pieces starting to show a horrible puzzle when put together #yaz and dan in 1900s for 3 full eps or so. time to breathe. more yaz&13 stuff. a lot more 13&yaz stuff #i think that might actually be the heart of it. maybe it should be the heart of it #leaning into that 13-tecteun parallel. the frustration and resentment. build up to the 'so why are you SO interested in him!' stuff #more of their life in the tardis just the two of them without buffer #i kinda want to play with like a lot more body language between them which the camera doesnt allow as we have it #like zoom the fuck out pls

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dykeferatu · 2 months ago

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my leather jacket is looking so cute and worn-in lately

#been wearing her a lot and was just taking note of how much stiffer she used to feel #<- i know what i said. anyway i feel like i've taken her for granted so tonight i am appreciating #i neeeed. more leather #buzz buzz

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supercantaloupe · 1 year ago

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truly detest how pcos tags/forums/etc are absolutely crawling with terfs

#(okay to rb but stay in your lane)#maybe i just want to look and see if anyone else has experienced what i went through today without seeing someone going like #'you'll never be a REAL woman because you DON'T HAVE OVARIES #and will NEVER understand the TRUE WOMANLY EXPERIENCE of having A VERY DISRUPTIVE AND COMPLEX ENDOCRINE AND METABOLIC DISORDER'#like i think there are more important (read: actual) targets to direct our frustration at here than #[checks notes] getting mad at a trans woman for saying she relates to some of the problems caused/faced by having pcos #like. idk. the fucking medical system and lack of research/treatment options #(also. christ. reducing every person w pcos into the 'woman' category automatically bc 'ovary'.#even though it's literally an intersex condition. yikes.)#also i don't know about y'all but i don't wish this on anyone? regardless of gender??#i actually don't want trans women to have to experience this in order to be considered a True Woman #because i don't want ANYBODY to have to experience this. it sucks! it's not fucking fun!#i just wanted to try and see if other people have gone through the same thing i have. not expand my blocklist by half a mile tonight.#i wanna talk about me #even though i didn't exactly find what i was looking for (😔) and i had to play fucking whack-a-terf while searching #if there's any bright side to be found it's the number of posts/people affirming pcos as an intersex condition/identity #i saw someone say 'if you don't want the [intersex] umbrella for yourself you don't have to take it #but it's nice to have in the closet for a rainy day'#and. man. yeah.

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joyridingmp3 · 4 months ago

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can my entire family stop being suicidal for one second so I can enjoy my weekends instead of having to monitor their mental wellbeing on my only two free days (/hj)

#im sooooo tired #im taking my dad out for dinner last night bc I found a suicide note he wrote #and then taking my sister out tomorrow night after work bc she's burnt out from work and having major issues with her bf #and then my mum keeps saying she doesn't want to be alive any more so I'm paying for her tattoo the day after that (while I get one)#and then I'll take her out to eat after #and then HOPEFULLY everyone can keep it together so I can have sunday free 🤞🤞#except my 12 year old sister has relapsed with self harm so I may have to take her out on sunday and check in with her #mine #suicide mention #self mention #im only.half whining i know I have complicated relationships with my parents but it's still nice to be able to do nice things for them #and id do anything for my little sisters so it is an honour to be there for them #but also im reaaaaally tired #but it's fine!#this sounds really bitchy idk maybe I'll delete it later #taking my dad out for dinner TONIGHT** sorry as I've said i am soooo tired #anyway. if i make time to go and see you and hang out with you #then i must REALLY like you #is all I'm saying #im a very busy bitch

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year ago

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the sensible part of my brain is like maybe I should fess up to my doctor at the appointment tomorrow and the part of my brain that got me into this mess in the first place is like no absolutely cannot do that until it's got bad enough it should have got stitches again (but unless I hit a vein I am not going to get stitches)

#still on hiatus and shall return probably in the morning or afternoon so not checking notes or anything - i SEE those 25 dm notifications-#i just wanted to ramble somewhere I'd find it later lolol #personal #tw sh #puddleglum hours #I also want to kill myself but that's separate lol #am I in the middle of the worst self harm patch of my life so far? almost. if i go as deep as i have before then i definitely will have #and there are details about this that are arguably more concerning as well but i won't ramble about htem #tw suicide #<- for a couple of tags ago not for the last one #anywayyyyyye im fineeeeeee and nia if you see this i need you to come yell at me to stop taking myself so seriously lol #where by 'fine' i mean 'it's not even 8pm and i have harmed myself six separate times already today each time upwards of four cuts and i #will probably harm again later tonight bc thats how it goes atm'#once again reiterating nobody call the cops #anyway! i started writing patience yesterday so yay #and the hiatus has been helpful and will help me in then moving forward to allocate my time more wisely lollllll

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zickmonkey · 10 months ago

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Oh my god hey besties guess who's having an awful time like mentally

#ironically I have an email to respond to for an appointment with my mental health worker but I don't have the energy to answer #I've eaten approximately one meal and then dessert today. Nothing else. It's 11pm #And the thought of eating just the half a bag (snack sized) of chips makes me want to cry #not to mention the days long urge to take a knife and try to cut out my veins. Like a dissection but I still get to watch #Playing guitar hero last night was great for giving me something to do that didn't make me think #except for the part where every time I missed a note I hated myself more #I ignored my bestfriend for 3 days after proclaiming that everything was bad and I didn't want to be alive #and then when he asked if I was still alive and I replied we had an entirely self deprecating conversation #Ryanna was texting me this morning and I replied but the whole time I had no interest #And at one point I wanted to cry just because nothing was right and it was all too hard #Ryanna is usually my favourite person to talk to #She said she'd text me again tonight (to finish the conversation) and I'm hoping she doesn't #I hope she's too busy #So yeah besties having a hard time lmao #jamie shut the fuck up #personal blog #just vibing #rambling #vent :(

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byanyan · 8 months ago

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the amount I've been hoarding away some of the memes I've seen on the dash over the last week or so is so not okay for someone with as many drafts as me ashfjdh

#me: i want to focus on getting through all my drafts when i get some energy back #also me: but good & juicy memes........#I'm thinking I'm gonna lean more into doing whatever the hell pleases me once I get back to writing tbh #but I'm almost definitely throwing all the drafts into a paused queue that I won't start posting until they're all finished #will I reblog a meme or two to play with as I do that? probably. almost definitely.#fresh stuff always helps get my brain going again ahdjgsg #but know that drafts will be happening!!!! I did delete some stuff but like. not enough lmfao. I have too many great threads #that I can't bear to let go of and i've kinda accepted that at this point #sorry I'm so slow y'all pls know that me taking forever to get to shit has nothing to do with how much I'm enjoying our threads #the fact that I'm clinging to them despite wanting to start completely fresh & dump everything says a lot more about how much I love em all #anyway. may or may not write tonight? I'm going with the flow tonight & rn the flow is telling me to keep reading #I finished my reread of the second book in the millennium series last night (& stayed up way too late in order to do so ahdgksg)#& I've started my reread of the third today and I just. I can't stop. it's too good.#if I find the willpower to put it down at some point I might dabble in poking at smth but. if not perhaps tomorrow uvu #(also want to note I've been marking the books through my reread with pink page flags #whenever smth really smacks me in the face with how much byan was inspired in some way by lisbeth lmfao)#ANYWAY. love u guys!!! I'm lurking & hoping you're all doing well!!! 💜💜#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

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