#and i need smth to get me through this semester and it will likely be this vampire show

[armandaughter]

iwtv mutuals you should acquire my discord and write iwtv characters with me <3

[scentofpines]

tomorrow uni starts again and surprise! i'm terrified. i start archaeology this semester and tomorrow i only have one welcome event so it won't take very long but i'm scared that i will be alone again while, through some sort of magic, everyone else becomes friends instantly. or like it happened a bunch of times in my previous courses, i come into the room that is supposed to be filled with ppl that dont know each other and still everyone is basically part of a group already, happily chatting, except for me. and then i feel like the little girl again that no one played with lmao. i literally cry when i think about it too much, i have to hold back tears a lot when i'm on the train on my way to uni, because my inner child is apparently not very healed lol. at least i dont cry in the situation itself, because i'm so stressed and tense that i cant show emotions like that. i tried to make myself really approachable the last year and be very friendly (while still trying to be myself) and still ppl seem to clock from a mile away that there's something wrong with me. and also i feel like ppl (esp. my age) just refuse to put any kind of effort into conversations both on whatsapp and irl. like i was looked at as if i had grown a second head just for saying hello to someone, girl just say hi back wtf. and then the rest of this week (and the rest of the semester will be the same) will be hard af too for me. i'm so tired of feeling like this and i do just try to be myself but i can't bc i have to mask so hard, otherwise i would just stare at the ground with a blank expression and look like a psycho bc once i get there i'm already completely overstimulated and zoned out i fucking hate that these things are so hard for me

[skrunksthatwunk]

so i didn't finish the paper on time but on the plus side i Almost know how to play mahjong now

[orcelito]

I do find it so funny that I will graduate college days away from my birthday. Like my birthday is literally in between the end of the semester ("graduation") and commencement

It really will be like a joint graduation & birthday party for me lmao

[tiredg0ds]

the semester starts tomorrow. so this is my official "elliott's going back to school and may be completely and utterly mia from everything for the next however long a semester is" notice !

[s0dabeach]

don't assume a test is gonna be easy and then not study until the night of

[binders-and-beanies]

Fucking loses my job for the second time in a month I guess

[starkeyvhs]

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PAIRING: rafe cameron x nerd!fem!reader

SUMMARY: your and rafe’s alone time gets interrupted when you get a notification about your grades.

WORD COUNT: 834

WARNINGS: soft smut (bro idek😭), it is smut but no explicit terminology or nomenclature used but the entire scene is set; super sweet; quite suggestive and light tbh; allusions to oral and subtle descriptions of riding (again, it is light 😭); usage of nicknames + lmk if I should add smth!!

EDITH SPEAKS: AS U CAN SEE, this is my first ever post which can be begun to be classified as smut, even though it's light and is nothing explicit. so like, give me feedback, PLEASE, and if you want me to improve somewhere, i would gladly accept your feedback but give it nicely to me please 🥹 and at last, reblogs are always highly appreciated!! (fic is inspired by this reel, and after watching it, wrote it in like, 20 mins in one sitting 😭)

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“Oh fuck…” Rafe sighs softly, his arms wrapped firm around your waist whilst yours are around his shoulders, your face buried into his neck as you feel heat creep across every cell in your body. You’re slow on top of him, almost painfully so, but even then, Rafe is relishing every damn second being so physically close to you.

“Oh baby… you’re so good…” he mumbles against your collarbone, causing you to let out a soft whimper as he gently kisses along the prominent bone, as if he’s laving his love onto your skin.

“You too…” you breathe out into his neck, your breath hot onto his perspiring skin. A soft moan slips past your tongue as Rafe twitches slightly under you, the action practically sending chills across your spine.

Your phone on the bedside table pings loudly in your bedroom, and your hazy gaze falls on the screen as it flashes momentarily. And you see it. You catch the logo, the bold heading of the mail, and god, at that moment, it feels as if your eyes have opened up fully.

You immediately reach out for it, and Rafe’s grip tightens around your waist. “What are you doing?” He groans softly as he watches you settle back down in your old position but now with your phone in your hands.

“My semester grades are posted,” you mutter, already flicking your fingers across the screen.

Rafe looks at you with a deadpan expression on his face. “Grades? Right now baby?” He sighs, kissing your shoulder gently in an attempt to drag you into the amorous bubble you both were just locked in.

“Just, just one minute, I need to see…” you mumble, and to Rafe it feels like you’ve forgotten what you two were actually just doing. Nevertheless, he softly squeezes your waist and presses a few more gentle kisses alongside your shoulder and the side of your neck. He knows how tough this semester was and how hard you’ve worked to get the grades you wish to get.

Suddenly, you let out a soft gasp and Rafe leans his head back to look at you expectantly. “I got all A’s,” you whisper softly, as if saying it out loud will somehow jinx it.

Rafe’s lips tug into the biggest smile as he leans up to press a gentle kiss against your lips, allowing your lips to move softly against his. “I’m proud of you baby, knew you could do it,” he hums against your mouth before capturing your lips back again.

He takes your phone from your hands and keeps it aside without pausing the kiss, his hands holding onto your waist the same way as before. You feel yourself falling back into the same mood, the same sensations beginning to light you up.

With the leverage on your waist, Rafe flips you two so you’re laying flat on the mattress and he’s on top of you, supporting himself by his forearms as your lips part. You let out a soft gasp at the sudden movement, looking up at Rafe through your eyelashes. The movement causes him to pull out, a sudden emptiness now making you groan inwardly.

“Mmm…” he hums softly, ducking his head down so his lips find your sensitive neck again, your head tilting back against the pillow with a hitch of your voice.

“So proud of you baby…” he whispers into your skin, slowly beginning to trail his lips lower onto your body as he kisses between your breasts, feeling their soft swell under his palms. Your breath comes out as shaky exhales as your fingers begin to thread through his hair, partially wanting leverage and partially giving him some pleasure too as you know he loves the feel of your fingers in his hair.

“So fuckin’ proud, knew my girl could do it…” his lips move down lower over your ribs, finding purchase on the soft skin of your stomach as he kisses along it, feeling your muscles jump under his lips which causes him to smirk.

“Rafe…” you breathe, fingers gently tugging on his hair in an attempt to not be too rough.

“Wanna give you your gift, baby,” he whispers, now kissing right over your hip bone, his fingers coming to spread across your thighs to keep them where he wants to. “Wanna give you your gift for doin’ so good. Will you let me?”

He looks up at you from his place between your thighs, his eyes soft and sultry, while yours are barely open.

“Yeah… yeah I will…” you whisper, and you feel his breath fan across your sensitive flesh, causing your hips to twitch.

Rafe leans his head down so his forehead rests on your tummy, his eyes closed as he practically revels in the moment. “Good girl,” he whispers, before moving his lips right where you need him. “Such a good girl,” he says for the last time, before his lips connect, and you feel like you are being lifted to heaven.

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[crushedsweets]

siigh it feels kind of silly asking for life advice from a creepypasta blog (I MEAN THIS IN THE NICEST SILLIEST WAY EVER i love ur blog) but im just curious on how u go about like . college n having to pay for it and a job and such .. especially w the state of the economy 💔 im going into community college soon however im low key frightened bc 1 money and 2 i don't entirely know what i want my major to be (even though i want to go in for art/writing or something along those lines but again MONEY) .. and honestly you have a very nice way of going abt things from what i have seen so im just curious

HI OKAY for starters. I’ve been working and saving since I was 16 yrs old, california minimum wage is higher than average, i went to community college then transferred, I live with family, and I commute bc I’m only 30 minutes from my university. I’m in a very very privileged position that I’m very grateful for because of this, so even though I pay for all my schooling and personal expenses, money hasn’t been a massive concern for me. I wanna be very transparent about that! Regardless, I still have some input

I also have a TLDR at the end bc I wrote way too much

Going to community college is already the best route! I did that and it saved me THOUSANDS on tuition, commuting, and housing - i also usually maxed out my financial aid because my moms income was low enough. Even if you think you might not qualify for financial aid, go see your community college counselor or financial aid advisors the first month of school and ask for help!!! They will know so much more and it’ll guide you a ton. They can even show you how to do things on your own through their websites

Scholarships r another thing. Idk about your location but both of my schools websites have a scholarship page where you can just endlessly scroll through hundreds of scholarships and apply. I would go to cafes, listen to music, and just submit application after application. I’ve gotten thousands in scholarships cuz of it (but also please get involved in school activities!!! It helps with these applications. Tutor English, be a TA, join clubs!!! I HIGHLY recommend joining some sort of competitive team. I do competitive speech and it’s been amazing and looks beautiful on applications and resumes)

Finding a job on campus helps too. I used to intern as a speech coach at my CC, and it paid a little above minimum wage, was super easy, made me amazing connections with my faculty, and I’ve essentially secured a position as a professor at my community college once I graduate with my masters LOL . I was also working 2 jobs at this time(my normal job + the speech job) and in all honesty, it was a lot to balance - BUT ITS WORTH IT.

Make!! CONNECTIONS!! NETWORK!! Talk to professors!! Ask them about programs and student aid and things they think you’ll be suited for!! Ask them for different positions at school!!!

Make sure you’re focusing on your GEs for the first year… I understand wanting to take tons of art classes since that’s what you wanna major in and you’re passionate about it, but taking your GEs first helps you play around in different fields and ensure you know what you want. And again, opens opportunities because the more you do, the more you meet, the more doors open. It’s better if you realize you wanna change career paths in CC, since it’s so much cheaper ! And again, if you think you want to explore smth new, DO IT WHILE ITS CHEAPER!!!! It’s okay!!! I changed my major 1.5 semesters in!!! …AND TAKE THE HARD CLASSES FIRST HAHAH I took my math and science GEs early on, and now I’m free from that - but that’s also cuz my major doesn’t require math or science..

I don’t know where you live but the university system in California is CSUs (California state universities) and UCs (universities of California). I’m going to a CSU because they’re significantly cheaper . DONT LET PEOPLE MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU NEED TO GO TO THE EXPENSIVE OPTION JUST CUZ ITS MORE PRESTIGIOUS OR WHATEVER. Life after university is also about the connections, internships, experience, and person you become rather than a nice school with nothing else to back up your growth and learning

I don’t know your living situation so I’m hesitant to give this advice, so please take it with a grain of salt. But once you transfer, if you could transfer to a commuter school(aka a school within 30 mins from you) and live with family for cheap/no rent, I highly recommend it. housing is easily the most expensive part of university. AGAIN, take this with a grain of salt because if living with family isn’t viable then that’s okay too, and all the previous advice is just as applicable

Soz I’m superrrr rambling im just really passionate about school and education and making things as easy as possible (with healthy challenges).

TLDR; use the hell out of all student resources. Student aid, financial aid, grants, scholarships. Get familiar with all school resources (some have free student pantries, free health care, free bus passes) Get acquainted with your counselors and professors. Find a job on campus. Make connections with faculty and peers. Focus on GEs. Don’t let people pressure you into doing more expensive programs just because they’re more prestigious—do what fits your goals. Maybe try a commuter school if possible.

Anyway. You’re gonna be okay. I was scared shitless before starting college and nearly passed out and threw up on the first day LOL but genuinely college is what you make of it. Please get involved, take care of yourself, ask for help, and be optimistic! You got this everything is gonna work out for you I promise

[bad268]

heyy, could you write some kimi antonelli comfort? like, reader gets a bad grade or smth, idk, just some light and cute fluff

Any Time, Any Where (Andrea Kimi Antonelli X Reader)

Fandom: RPF/Formula 2/3

Requested: Clearly (In honor of me failing my final, please enjoy this lol)

Warnings: Failing a test

Pronouns: You/your

W.C. 764

Summary: After failing their final, the reader seeks comfort from their boyfriend, Kimi.

As always, my requests are OPEN

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~~(^Google/F2 announcement article)

You studied so hard for that test. You really did. You prepared so much for this test, looked over the class notes, did the practice tests, and even went to the professor’s office hours for extra help. You really worked your butt off for that final exam. You went into that test thinking that you knew every topic that could be asked.

You did not walk out that way.

It seemed like every question asked about the niche topics that you did not think would be on the test. For that reason, you did not work on memorizing those smaller topics. Honestly, you should have because this 37/100 was not what you needed this close to the end of the semester.

You were still in shock as you walked back to the apartment you shared with your boyfriend, Kimi. You knew he would be back since he texted you that morning along with wishing you luck on the test. Clearly, none of that luck helped you, but you still appreciated his effort. Plus, you just wanted to be held by him.

You walked up the stairs to the third floor where your apartment was before stopping just in front of the door. You took a deep breath as you tried to recenter yourself before walking in. The last thing you wanted was to bring down Kimi’s mood because of your bad grade. You wanted to enjoy this short time with him before he went back on the road for post-season testing.

You finally pulled out your key and opened the door, immediately taking your shoes off and setting your bag on the counter. You turned your attention to where Kimi was moving around the kitchen. You did not really feel like talking, so you just walked up behind him and wrapped your arms around his waist, leaning against his back.

“Oh, hi,” He chuckled, placing one of his hands on yours as he briefly looked back at you. “I didn’t even hear you come in, amore (love).”

“I tried,” you sighed, attempting to bury yourself deeper into his back, inhaling his scent as he turned around in your arms. He wrapped an arm around your shoulders as he used the other to lift your head to meet his eyes. He tilted his head as if asking what was wrong. It was a face you did not see often, but you knew what he wanted to know, causing you to sigh again. “Don’t look at me like that, please.”

“Do you want to talk about it or forget it while we eat and rewatch your favorite movie?” He offered, running his hand through your hair before resting it against your neck lightly. “I made your favorite.”

“As long as I get to cuddle you, I’m in,” you chuckled quietly as you leaned into him more. He laughed with you as he swayed with you around the kitchen, knowing it was one of the things that made you feel better. He was not in a rush to do anything, and in all honesty, he did not want to let you go just yet.

~~ The next morning, you woke up still on the couch. The television was still on, but it was showing the “Are you still watching?” screen on Netflix. You remembered finishing your favorite movie and starting Sex Education (Oscar recommended it), but you could not remember much after the first episode.

Kimi was still behind you, in the same spot you remembered him being. He still had his arms tightly wound against your waist, and his face was still hidden in your neck. You tried your best to turn in his arms without waking him up, but it’s easier said than done on a small couch. It did not take long for Kimi to get jostled awake, eyes peeling open to meet yours as he let out a yawn.

“Sorry, didn’t mean to wake you, amore (love),” you whispered, not wanting to disrupt the environment or startle him too much. “Grazie (Thank you) for last night, ti amo mio amato (I love you my beloved).”

“Any time, any where,” he whispered back, leaning forward to place a small kiss on your forehead. Then your cheeks. Followed by your nose. And finally your lips. He pulled back just enough to ghost his lips over your lips as he gazed into your eyes. “I will always be here to make you feel better. No matter where I am, you will always come first. I will spend forever reassuring you of that if I have to.”

~~~~~

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[danganphobia]

but they stay with laios until he falls asleep anyway they barely get any sleep later in the morning themselves.

this is honestly so sweet they r his lesbian parents… AAAAH man laios angst is rlly real. i love farcille sm they are thee understanders TM theyre so sweet,,, theyre probably out here having fun and silly theatre or opera dates … the :3 to me

also also u mentioned chilshi. what r they up to. are they old men yaoi. r they professors or just . job havers. bar owners or smth

oh mah god i havent thought much about chilshi. my beloved old man yaoi. that's ok we're going through my thought process together.

if i were to think about it chilchuck sounds like a miserable medieval history adjunct professor. he's divorced. he sees his daughters like twice a month and they're the reason for his will to live, when he doesn't see them, he hates everything and everyone. he doesn't really like his job. he has tenure. he can do what he wants. when his students ask him if he could repeat the assignment he just says "No." and tells them all to leave his class because lecture time has ended and he refuses to go another minute over. his class exam average is below 40 percent and he doesn't give a fuck. he's waiting for his next paycheck to buy drinks at the local pub.

senshi's a culinary professor. he loves cooking and he loves teaching people how to cook. he's been doing it his whole life. he cooks for the gang during dnd meetings. whenever he's in a kitchen he makes it his own, even if the kitchen doesn't belong to him. if it weren't for him everyone would probably die of dehydration or live on cup ramen and frozen food for entire semesters. he leaves pastries on chilchuck's desk because chilchuck has to mentally prepare himself to help teach a class of 50 uninterested people that do anything but actually pay attention for nearly 3 hours. the pastries are actually what keeps chilchuck going. chilchuck is the one that asks senshi if he wants to go drinking. senshi is a really good listener, chilchuck finds that hot, and tries to sleep with him, but senshi stops him and asks if he could just come over to his apartment and senshi will cook a nice warm meal for him instead and take it slow, because he's a gentleman.

chilchuck actually agrees to it and has a good time. they sleep together but don't have sex, and he wakes up in the morning like damn, i actually have a crush at my big age? that's crazy.

this becomes a regular thing for them until chilchuck can't take it anymore and grabs senshi by the beard and is like "WE NEED TO FUCK. RIGHT NOW." and senshi goes "okay :) after dinner with me first :)" (they have sex).

"how did they get into the dnd club van" falin slapped a bunch of posters around campus with cute doodles and senshi saw it on his way to his classroom. he asked chilchuck if he wants to join sometime in case he's sick of teaching hopelessly unmotivated students. chilchuck thinks about it for a long time but one day when he's so stressed from teaching he joins a meeting and promises it's just "one time only" and ends up becoming a regular.

he brings his daughters to the dnd meetings and marcille is so happy because they're so cute. most of the time they just want to play minecraft and are on their expensive smartphones but they're nice girls. sometimes namari and kabru buy them fast food behind senshi's back when they don't feel like eating healthy.

[mamasbakeria]

hey, what's your major again?

summary: my credible expert opinion on what the aot characters would study in university. what are my qualifications? the dozens of hours i’ve spent staring at my school’s program bulletin trying to figure out what i’m majoring in

genre | includes: headcanons, sfw, minor language, uninformed percy jackson reference (pls don't hate me if im wrong)

characters: eren jaeger, mikasa ackerman, armin arlert, sasha braus, jean kirschtein, connie springer, historia reiss, ymir, reiner braun, annie leonhardt

author’s note: had this in my drafts for months now. i just need to post it so it stops haunting me. might do the rest of the marleyans and vets in the future! lmk your thoughts, my only tumblr notifications are from p*rn bots, so i'd love to hear from real people lol. enjoy <3

eren: sociology and public policy, 4+1 program for a social work masters

there’s only so many times you can hear “you’re gonna be a doctor just like your dad” before you start to believe it. that’s why eren started out with biology on the premed track. the thing is, he really didn’t care for it. eren is really passionate about lessening equity gaps and is a firm believer in “if you want something done right, do it yourself”. this is why i see him making the switch to a double major in public policy and sociology. he wants to know about how society got to the point of perpetuating disparities so that he can fix them. but he also knows that the government fucking sucks and thinks its naive to expect policy change to be the only method of change. and like the maniac he is, eren is enrolled in a 4+1 program so he can get his master’s in social work when he’s done with his undergrad. he’s determined to graduate with both degrees in just 4 years though. rip his summers.

armin: international relations and military ethics, minor in communications or smth

everyone always says armin would study marine biology or oceanographic studies, but i honestly think that it’s a passion that he pursues on the side. he takes marine bio courses for his breadth requirements, but knows he’d end up hating the ocean if he spent the rest of his life studying it. he also strikes me as someone who would rather run buck naked into traffic than sit through multiple semesters of organic chemistry. armin was always a good public speaker, though, despite being a bit insecure. that’s why his speech and debate teacher during sophomore year of high school recommended model united nations to him. he was hooked after his first conference and now genuinely sees the path of international diplomacy as his calling. that’s why he’s majoring in international relations. his concentration in military ethics is something he tacks on in his junior year after taking some courses and publishing research with dr. erwin smith. he probably minors in communications because he can.

mikasa: forensic science

mikasa had no idea what she wanted to do when she started uni. she’s good at nearly everything. like never gotten a B in her life and is the student who the curve is based off of. but excelling in every environment you’re put in often means you don’t know what you’re best at. she knew deep down that she wanted to do something justice related like her childhood best friends did, but she’s no public speaker and has no interest in political reform. she was, however, emo in high school and heard a fair share of undertaker jokes at her expense. it wouldn’t hurt to look into right? as cool as the title sounds, morticians don’t make enough money for the job they have. fortunately enough, forensic pathologists do and mikasa looks good in a lab coat. she would never admit it to spare armin and eren’s feelings, but when they, as children, recreated the crime-solving shows mrs. jaeger always had on, mikasa always wanted to be the brains. so criminology and forensic science it is. (side note: she definitely joins the military and they pay for her education)

jean: structural engineering and industrial design with a minor in studio art

more than anything, jean wants to provide for his mom and knows he can’t guarantee a retirement of luxury for her as the freelance artist he wishes he could be. he’s decent at math when he tries and doesn’t hate physics, so he decided he’d give structural engineering a try for at least a semester or two. he wasn’t expecting to get much from it, to be honest. he had a plethora of backup plans waiting for his supposedly inevitable distaste for engineering, but he found that he didn’t hate it at all. someone once told jean that he had the makings of a great leader and he didn’t believe them until he started taking the lead on design projects and producing incredible results. his only qualm is that he just doesn’t get to be as creative as he wanted to be. that was easily rectified by an additional major in industrial design and a minor in studio art. he’s unbelievably busy, busier than he anticipated when he started his post-secondary journey, but he’s content and there’s nothing some extra coffee can’t solve. 

sasha: environmental science and sustainability

sasha spent her childhood ankle-deep in mud and fighting her way through forest thickets without a compass. an upbringing like that doesn’t leave your spirit, no matter how far into the city you go for school. so sasha’s always been passively passionate about the environment. that passiveness became significantly more prominent when part of the woods she grew up in was cleared out to build an industrial complex. it was then that she started researching and writing petitions about preserving wildlife and making environmentally conscious decisions. her work actually got her the scholarship she’s on (because god knows it wasn’t her grades). and she genuinely loves what she does, so why wouldn’t she keep learning about it? the environmental science and sustainability program at the school is small, but tight-knit and known for churning out changemakers. sasha knows she’ll be one of them one day. just hide your plastic straws from her, okay?

connie: computer science and chinese

stick with me here okay? everyone expects connie to be a douchebag marketing major whose hardest assignments are graphing functions and making posters on photoshop, but he’s a lot more invested in his education than he looks. don’t get me wrong, connie has always struggled academically, but that’s because so much of early education is pre-determined. he performed way better when he could choose what courses he took. it’s kind of like percy jackson being dyslexic in english because he was wired to read in greek. connie can’t keep his eyes on a history textbook for shit, but will gladly sit in front of the c++ code on his pc for hours. he doesn’t even get mad when he realizes that he was missing a semicolon. connie loves how versatile of a future he could have with a compsci degree, because, let’s be real, he could never survive in a typical office environment. definitely takes a bunch of chinese classes and doesn’t realize that he has enough credits for it to be a minor until his second to last semester.

historia: political science with a minor in international relations and child development

historia is a lot like eren in the sense that she knows her time is best spent doing hands-on work in the fields she cares about. she realizes this sometime after reconnecting with her estranged father and volunteering at the orphanage she grew up in. but now that she’s publicly associated with a powerful political figure, historia doesn’t get to do what she wants, only what is expected of her. that’s how she ends up on the pre-law political science and public policy route. the nickname “ms. president” that connie and sasha give her only further reminds her that she’s heading down a path she never wanted for herself. after lots of encouragement from ymir, historia decided to take child development courses on the side. even if she doesn’t take on the full minor, she’s taking some classes she cares about. maybe she’ll find use for it someday. at the very least, it’s her first step in becoming the most selfish girl in the world.

ymir: data science and business management

ymir is smart. much smarter than she presents herself to be, almost as a form of protection. nobody expects much of someone who is aloof, so it makes it easy to slip through the cracks to remain safe and comfortable in the shadows. business management is notoriously low commitment and easy to skate by with. guaranteed internships, post-graduate employment, and so on. To anyone who doesn’t know ymir well, it’s perfect. but they have her mistaken, ymir will do as little as possible to go as far as possible. sure, she can live comfortably with a business degree, but it could be better with a little bit of data science in her arsenal. she’s intelligent enough to pick up on it, and determined enough to make it her bitch. yeah, academia is a money-sucking pipeline into the capitalist hellscape, she doesn’t believe in it yada yada, but at the end of the day, ymir’s gonna get the bag. so what if she’s gotta sleep through some stats classes to get it?

reiner: behavioral economics

reiner’s mother had convinced him his whole life that getting a high paying job would fix their lives and bring his father back. believing “perfect grades lead to a perfect life” made high school tough for reiner; gifted kid burnout is no joke. it really messed him up. he wasn’t sure if he could withstand the pressures of university, but here he is. reiner was never allowed a therapist, so he figured pursuing psychology would, at the very least, give him some answers and be a good pathway to a medical degree. he loved getting to understand how people work and why they act the way they do, but something was missing. he found out what it was when a guest lecturer spoke in his economics class. he knew making the switch would be risky, it’s a new field and his current career options are really only research, academia, or government, but the interdisciplinary study of behavioral economics is calling reiner’s name. 

annie: biomedical engineering and kinesiology

annie’s entire life revolved around her father, including the injury he was never able to heal from. the one she gave him. he’s claimed to be over it, she’s forgiven, but annie will never feel like she’s earned that forgiveness until she gets rid of the problem entirely. how is she going to do that exactly? with biomedical engineering. she has years of hell in front of her, especially with her concentration on biomechanics, but she doesn’t care. annie will throw herself into her work to get the results she wants. she takes the highest amount of credits possible every semester so she can graduate early. you’ll most likely find her chained to a study cubicle at the library at all hours of the day and running on 2 hours of sleep, but it doesn’t faze her. she tacks on a minor in kinesiology because it makes sense and she had most of the credits for it anyway. and as if it couldn’t get worse, she probably TAs for a thermodynamics course or something crazy like that.

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[slashthrashandcrash]

Slasher Ashley and Final Boy Stranger got me thinking about Final Boy Ripper and Slasher Francine…like Francine’s a podcaster that is able to come up with such good theories for cold cases because she used to be in the business herself (and did some of them too) who makes first contact with Ripper because he’s a fanboy that always sends in mail and invitations to his art shows or smth

OUGH THE WAY THEIR REVERSE AU JUST IMMEDIATELY FLOODED MY BRAIN IN PERFECT VISION--

Because like Ashley/Stranger, I imagine them to still have their same overall personality, but it'd be so fucking funny if the only real difference in this AU is because Ripper/Mason actually went to therapy and got put on Lexapro and is 10% more normal so he never became a serial killer.

Francine though, this poor girlie cannot catch a break. She's a struggling writer in an oversaturated industry with cases that have been done dozens of times by now. She's broke and desperate because if she doesn't start getting steady work she's not going to be able to keep a roof over her head. True crime isn't her passion, she dropped out of med school the first semester because gore makes her sick, but she needs a new story to tell that hasn't been touched by 2187317 other indie podcasters.

So, she's pretty familiar through her research about how killers got caught, how they avoided getting caught, who was a suspect since day one and who went undetected for 40 years. Sometimes...you just gotta write that story yourself. And, okay, like, the victim doesn't have to be someone whose smile always lit up a room or whatever. Who would be mad if...maybe she let that creepy jerk at the bus stop "take her out" one night, get him blackout drunk, and leave him face down in a flooded gully?

But accidents don't sell stories. Blood and guts do. It makes her physically and emotionally sick but god if she misses another payment this month then they're gonna shut off her power. While Ripper was brutal for the sake of art, Francine is because the more violent details she can include, the juicier the coverage she can provide for it. And, as she already knows from research, female serial killers aren't as common as male, and her method of random brutality is even rarer. Besides, while she's already kind of on the sheriff's shitlist for only talking about the town's worst crimes, they'd never suspect in a million years half of them were being carried out by this tiny little Korean girl who types up scary stories all day.

What's important is that it works. She's still a ghostwriter for someone else's podcast, she doesn't want her name too attached to anything, but the ratings just keep climbing over these deepdives into all things violent. More viewers means a bigger paycheck. She takes no pride or delight in being the so called Northshire Ripper, but she needs to do what she can to survive right now. It's not forever, just until she has a solid footing under her for a better job opportunity.

And who else would listen to her podcast while he works than the man himself Mason Zimmerman. It started off just as background noises as usual, but it wasn't long until he was sucked into one of the stories and just how twisted it was. The hosts weren't his favorite, but the in depth writing for it was incredible. Soon he was going through their whole catalogue and discovered he almost entirely favored the ones written by Francine. As morbid as it sounded, she was inspiring him for his next collection - the darkness of emotions, blacks and reds and feralness and splatters, the pieces were coming to him so easily and vividly he could hardly get enough canvases.

So of course it made sense to reach out and personally thank her for all her hard work, and the galleries will be equally as pleased to have so many new exhibits. And Francine, who has no knowledge whatsoever about fine art or who Mason Zimmerman is, just responds back with an enthusiastic thank you. Which Mason likes, because it's nice being able to talk to other people who have no idea who he is, and they start a bit of a correspondence. Then, hey, it would only be right to invite her to one of his shows, since she's 70% of the reason the pieces even exist.

What it essentially boils down to in the end is Francine so desperately trying to keep her dirty secret to herself while having to keep up her new friendship with Mason. She can't stop now while her stories are his biggest muse. She's one of the very few people allowed anywhere near his inner circle, she can't break his trust. She can't risk getting sloppy. But the weight of what she's doing is starting to break her down and having a real friend is going to make things complicated the longer this goes on. If push came to shove...could she get rid of Mason? No, he's too private and prolific. Could she frame him as a back up plan? Tamper with his medication, make it look like an artistic frenzy, goad him into an episode so she can call the police as planting all the evidence?

Time will tell (:

[skrunksthatwunk]

not me spending like three hours on a late assignment (it's only like 5 days late) only for the submission box to be closed 💀💀💀

[lucsf19]

Hey :) i wanted to ask if you plan on making their relationship healthy? Because of the whole distance thing yulian has going on, wanting to learn to exist without vaughn. I think it makes sense, since until now it was always yulian going after vaughn and in the end getting hurt. there was no trust between them and i dont think yulian wants to put distance between them because he wants their relationship to be healthy per se, but rather because he wants to get out of that same cycle of getting hurt in the end and because he realized vaughn doesn't trust him like he does. To be honest after reading the chapter with the distance thing from yulians perspective I was a bit confused. I didnt think it fit since he had this obsessive love going on (which makes sense since in their world theres not really a clear distinction between love and obsession i think), so I couldnt imagine him giving up on vaughn (not that he's doing it but in that moment it felt like it for me hahah). But then I kept thinking about it; if they kept going like that, nothing would have changed and vaughn would have kept on doubting him and that wouldnt really be called a relationship would it. Anyway, if I misinterpreted smth correct me, i just wanted to tell you my thoughts :)) So after all this, are you going the healthy relationship route, because thats nice and all but in their world i dont think theres something as a typically healthy realtionship (and tbh I love obsessive yulian hahah and vaughn duh when he finally comes around). I love ur writing style and its so cool to see how much thought theres behind ur writing process and how much sense it makes. sorry for the long message and any weird sentences, english is not my first language :)

hi! thank you for your message. tbh even from writing it and i did mention it a bit in the notes sections of the chapter but i agree what i have written doesnt make a ton of sense with how i vision their characters to be, but since im writing it to be 'cannon' at least timeline wise, there is only so much i can do. by the end of KTV, which is the furthest in the timeline we get (excuding god of war) its generally suggested that the only time vaughn has ever been to the island is for the initiation. the next time he goes will be at the start of the next semester when he transfers there, but we havent reached that far yet by the end of KTV. however, it is very much suggested through his talks with gareth that there is a lot going on behind the scenes with him and yulian. so, essentially, i needed to keep finding ways and reasons as to why yulian wasnt going to new york (as it isnt ever really mentioned that he leaves the island for any reason) and as to why vaughn wont come to the island. obviously, i still have a few times but they have always been short or where the heathens wouldnt know. there are also other things like yulian saying there was someone in his room, vaughn saying he doesnt want to talk about yulian to gareth, vaughn having to leave the room to take the call which i think was suggesting they were together, all of which i guess i had to interpret and explain within my own story to match up with cannon. in terms of distance, it wont be for long. if you can match up where we are in my story compared to KTV, youll realise we are close to the end and (i know i usually say no spoilers, but ill make an exception haha) but there is going to be a small time jump at the end of the next chapter and the one after will be starting from the transfer. so the distance was literally just because i needed an excuse for them to not be near each other so it matched up with cannon and that will change very soon as vaughn will obviously be tranferring to the island, as he will in cannon. also, i totally agree that yulian wanting space isnt because he wants them to be 'healthy' (he does not gaf about being healthy haha) but becuase he doesnt want to be hurt again. and he wasnt giving up on vaughn, but more needing to stay away for a bit to ensure he can act without distractions to ensure his father allows his sister to join him after christmas for the second semester. yulian might hate his father, but he loves his sister. fianlly, their relationship definitely will not be 'healthy' in the way we would picture a healthy relationship in the real world, but it definitely wont be as dark as KTV or god of malice. id say it will probably be at more of a god of fury level which is purely just because i dont really feel comfortable writing something that dark. i enjoyed both the books (esp KTV) but some of the stuff was a little much for me at times, whereas god of fury was about right for me in terms of 'darkness'. i did say it before in my notes, but when i get to the transfer and beyond (so soon) and i no longer have to follow cannon stuff and can completely dictate what i wanna do, the decisions and storyline will make much more sense, i think. from the start until the transfer has mostly been about establishing the characters and who they are, their backstory both family wise and the flashbacks and showing what was actually happening with them throughout KTV when they were mentioned. from when vaughn starts at kings u in a couple chapters, is when their story will truly begin with youll be able to read their story with all the necessary info (which i know sounds a little insane considering ill be like 100k words in by then but i do love a bit of a slow burn and personally hate it when the characters backgrounds arent developed well)

sorry this was so long but i wanted to answer everything and if there was something i didnt touch enough on please feel free to ask again! and dont apologise for the long message i actually think its so cool to see what other people think and 'theorise' i guess about what is happening and the characters so thank you so much :).

thank you again for your message and kind words they mean so much and i hope you enjoy what is to come <3.

[otrtbs]

Hiii ! I had already asked that question, but I will ask it again because you didn't respond to it last time but at the same time it's harmless (I think), and if you don't respond again then I guess it isn't harmless 😭

I was wondering how you got into art ? Have you ever made art yourself like painting, drawing, and sculpture and decided to study that, or do you really just love art history and never had touched a pen to draw in your life? And how did your family react ?

And another question was were you in school, or work when you were writing AHB (I mean in general when you are writing actually) and if so, how did you find time to write and read? Because as a writer I feel like an important part is to read but when I do write I don't read, and I know that a big part of that is just school and I don't have time, but maybe you got a magic trick or smth?

hi! yeah it is harmless i am just SEVERELY behind on answering asks these days but i am not intentionally ignoring you/anyone. i am just behind on asks, sorry! also i get rambly under the cut so this is a warning!

as far as how i got into art, i used to volunteer at my local art museum when i was in high school!! and during that time i got to talk to a bunch of curators and educators and i was like,,,,, 'yeah. i wanna do this'

i am NOT artistic at all,,, i can't draw or paint to save my life el oh el. i had to take a fine arts course as an undergrad in uni which was fairly rudimentary ,,, just exploring different art mediums,,, color theory,, etc. and i was SO BAD at it,, so. bad. we had to bring in our art projects for critique and i still have nightmares about that...oof.

as far as my family support,,,, also el oh el. uhm,, no one was very thrilled with my life decisions to say the least...but i do not care! it's my life to live! then when my sister went to uni and said she wanted to be a biomedical engineer major n maybe go to med school,, well they put all their attention on her so we move!

also yes!! i was in school while i was writing ahb! i was in my final year of undergrad, i worked full time as a resident assistant at my university and i worked part time at a call center (<- WORST JOB OF MY FUCKING LIFE) and sometimes i would pick up extra shifts at my university's campus store because i was paying my own way through undergrad and so honestly.... the truth is i hardly slept. which is not healthy and i do not recommend that you do that at all. by any means. thankfully, because it was my final year i had some easy "blow off" classes in addition to upper division art history courses so the workload was lighter than previous semesters.

but my RA job would put me "on call" which meant i was the one an entire building of 500+ college girls would call if there was emergency of any kind (could be something serious like a fire or a strange man in the girls dorms or someone needing serious medical attention to something miniscule someone's fire alarm running out of batteries). and we would be on call for 24 hours on the weekends or 5pm to 8 am on weekdays. and if you missed a call because you were asleep you would be fired immediately no questions asked. and bc i got my housing and a lot of my income from that job,,,, i would get so paranoid and stressed abt missing a phone call that i wouldn't sleep at all when i was on call. so i did a lot of my writing for ahb! during those times at like 5am while i was on call. i was also required to work 10-15 hours a week at the front at my university through my RA position and it was a 24 hour desk and i got the night shift where literally nobody would come in. i'd work 10pm-2am on tuesdays and thursdays and then a few hours on saturday (But those were normally busy). and i would write my fanfic then!!! (should've been doing school work ,,, but alas) <- so for the "sHE CoULd'vE aT lEasT EdiTed iT" crowd who have beef with ahb!,,, i was too busy trying to graduate uni and working 3 jobs to do anything but post. so eat dirt.

additionally, i didn't read fanfic when i was writing ahb! for the most part. i was reading a ton before i started writing and then i think i was only able to keep up with the choices updates and picked up heavy fanfic reading again once ahb! was finished.

so no magic tricks from me unfortunately :(( i think it was only feasible bc i was operating on like zero sleep and my course load was light the final semester, and i got lucky with my job hours !! otherwise,, i didn't really do anything else. like i stopped reading, stopped watching shows,, etc,, if i had free time i would be on the google doc hahaha