#and i know whqt im doing

[nururu]

truly don't criticize me over things that don't matter bc I'll end up getting so bitchy about it and then be mean in return bc like "it's just a joke" I'm not material for jokes unless they're funny and literally what's funny about "you do this thing I don't do???? fufufufufuu loser" like I'll kill your entire family and make you watch and then frame you for it shut the hell up

[just-call-mefr1es]

new solarballs au just dropped

[chloelouygo]

Trying hard in therapy so I can fix myself to make my therapist proud 🫡

[pallases]

AUDITIONS!!!!

[lightnersdream]

bleeding and shaking

[shleemies]

Got asked by a coworker "why do you wear that mask?" are you stupid???

[quarklynx]

just found out I'm a vriska rising. devastating news

[verdemoun]

Ghhhhshh im so sorry bc im like. Pretty sure u made a post abt the callander boys pretty recently but.. If ur up to it can we get more on whqt u think of them?😋 i love them SOOO MUCHHH and the way u talk abt them is always so AWESOMEEEE

rubbing my grubby little mits together

The origins of my Mac and Davey Callander: their parents immigrated from Scotland when Mac was a wee toddler. Davey was later born in America. Mac had a completely normal childhood, went to school, and was well on his way to being just some guy when their father was killed in a wagon incident. He left school to look after Davey while their mother tried to find work. Being a woman, this was nearly impossible, and it wasn't long before their house knew the glow of a red lamp. A few months shy of Mac's 10th birthday, their mother also passed away (syphilis) and he was left orphaned and sole carer for a 4 year old Davey

Mac spent the next 3 years in a perpetual state of terror, selling what he could, stealing what he had to, chasing the pipe dream of giving Davey a normal life. Less than a year after their mom died, the landlord kicked them out. For Davey, their new life of camping out under the stars was another amazing adventure. Mac, in contrast, was so stressed his hair fell out in chunks and the only time he slept was when he collapsed.

Things got a lot easier after Mac decided to pick a handgun off a guy who passed out drunk at a bar. Originally, it was for safety, and then the occasional intimidation tactic in a hold-up, and then before they knew it Davey was 17 and they were committing their first bank robbery together.

They'd never run with the gang before the VDLs. It had only ever been the two of them, which showed in their uncanny ability to know what the other was thinking at all times: especially on a job. The only thing witnesses would report them saying to one another was Mac giving Davey a firm 'no' for seemingly no reason - every single time Davey had been thinking about doing something stupid, like firing his weapon just to scare the poor accidental hostages more. Or maybe killing the teller and just breaking their way into a vault instead of waiting.

Dutch was the one to recruit them, using bounty posters as a catalogue for potential new members. It was 1896: Mac had just turned 31, Davey 26 - and everyone except Dutch immediately hated them. It was obvious that Dutch wasn't looking for recruits, he was looking for replacements. John had run off and Arthur was bedridden with mourning having found Eliza and Isaac's graves. For Dutch to pick up two similarly aged, similarly talented gunslinging brothers felt like a punch to the gut: they were all replaceable.

But damnit, for outlaws, the Callanders were just too likeable for it to stick. When the awkwardness of having not interacted with anyone other than his brother for over 20 years was too much, Mac factory-defaulted to his polite Scottish Catholic upbringing. He was a brute, but always addressed the gang seniority as sir, or ma'am, and smacked his brother hard over the head reminding him to thank Pearson for the burnt, tasteless gruel.

Davey had the same appeal as the then even younger Sean Macguire: he was loud, he was energy, twitching to go and always the first to volunteer for a mission no matter how small the take was going to be. Unlike Sean, though, he had an off switch in the form of his brother. Davey was like a hunting dog with Mac holding the leash. But that energy was what the gang desperately needed that dark year, when half of them were considering taking off just so they could get a damned night's sleep with a colicky infant Jack around.

Davey loved an audience: being around a regular group of people was the best thing to happen to him. Javier learned English from Davey because Davey would constantly talk to him despite the fact Javier was lucky to pick up every third word. Not being the youngest anymore also inflated Davey's ego tenfold. Sean might have been 17-18, but the hero worship he had for Davey was obvious. They both had the gift of the gab and could talk to each other until they went hoarse, and Sean obviously picked up Davey's impulsive, reckless 'hit 'em hard and loud' mentality on a job.

On a job, it was like music. Mac was used to being the one making plans: he could pick bigger scores now that it wasn't just him and Davey. With a look Mac would send Davey to the back door, and when the sight of one lone gunman started to make people think they could fight back, Davey would burst in on queue to make them think twice. The VDLs that went with just learned where to slot themselves in like puzzle pieces coming together - and if the Callanders had made it to Horseshoe Overlook, they would've had enough money to make it Tahiti. The gang had never lived so comfortably before. The stew actually started to taste good.

Arthur's rage hearing about Mac's death was personal: Mac really was one of his besties in the gang. He might have hated working with him, because Mac wasn't the sort to take orders from anyone, but in camp, Mac was one of the few people he could talk to. They were a similar age, but what they really bonded over was that silent feeling of having the entire world on their shoulders. Arthur's entire adult life was dedicated to the gang, the same way Mac's entire life had been dedicated to keeping his brother safe. They could just sit quietly around the campfire and drink, until liquor loosened their lips enough to properly bond over how unfair their lives had been without ever actually complaining about the hand they'd been dealt.

Mac was the only member of the gang, outside of the OGs (Dutch, Hosea, John (and Abigail), Grimshaw and Tilly) that Arthur ever told about Isaac.

[ellecdc]

hng…. (jumps out of the bushes like a scared tiny dog) hi …… itms so preppy in here???…… (/pos) . uh uh what to say what to say. im uhh my names irina. imagine i am standing infront of u shivering like a tiny dog that is always nervous. ur works are so. bururhgjejskskososoaopaa. so keysmajsh worthy. like i cant type properly bc i js read all of your poly!marauders + lily fics from start to finish, finish to start. do u know js how much of a godsend u are. like what the frickity frackity. ure so cool. i js licked your works clean. thank u. uhh uhhh whqt else do i say. eat well live well sleep well write well ! uhhh uh hhhhhhhhh uresocoolhiiiiiii happy belated birthday! do i have permission to send u a detailed passage on my thoughts on each one of your poly marauders +lily fics. pls. i have so much silly (positive) things to say. pls. have a good day. thank u. (disappears into the bushes)

— 👙 irina

hahahaa oh wowww, hi irina! thanks for the love hahaha, I have the sudden urge to put a jacket on you

you're more than welcome send detailed passages on your thoughts on each one of my poly!marauders + lily fics 😅

*makes pspspspsps cats at the edge of a bush like trying to convince a feral cat to let me pet them*

[knific]

hiiiii i just wanna sy that. I ove. I LOVR YOUR ARt!!!!!! i juat wana know whqt brushes do u use + drawing progtam.....i wwnt 2 know pretty ppls. /nf ur art is so cool anem......super bright and coplfupm...

i cant spepl sory...ummmm

heheee im pretty basic but I use ibis paint. occasionally i use ms paint but that's about it

[lizzygsuperstar69]

TW €D

pls someone read this im losing my mind

idk what to do im so stuck between "im scared for my hair to fall out, i feel sick, this is dangerous" and "i shouldnt have eaten that, its embarrasing, i need to lock in, i cant let my thighs touch"

for context im already pretty slim, i havent weighed myself in some time but before i got into this shit and when i didnt watch what i ate i weighed around 54 kgs (im 171 cm tall) .

therefore im scared to loose too much weight and get sick, thats why i do eat but i stick to one meal a day and its rlly small portions and a healthy snack, generally im never full i do get hungry i eat just to survive or stop my cravings or when i feel sick

but i still feel guilty

im scared that this will go to far even tho im not that deep in and the longest i fast for is maybe 12 hrs, im anxious that ill get too sick and there will be no way out

despite all that i cannot go into recovery, physically its impossible, my thighs and bloated face have always been my insecurity i just dk whqt to do anymore

if anyone knows any diets that keep u real thin but are not too harsh pls comment on this or dm me let me know im so desperate

edit: my real goal is a thigh gap since my stomach is flat and my arms are skinny, so its not all THAT bad...goal weight is 46-47 and to stay there.

whoever read the whole thing thank u

[jonahmagnus-research]

jonah

i just got an ask asking me why i gavent killed myself alreadu and it made me realisr i rwally dont lnow. i font know why i didnt kill myself when i was 21 and torutee on q daily basis. i dont know why i didnny kill myslf when i was 35 and raliseed i eient rcognize myself in the mirror anymore.

but i know why im not going to kill mywelf now and its becquse of you. and my alice also did i tell you i cane out to her as "aeomantic" ir whatecer and she was really nice and undrstanding and shes willing to try out q non-romantic relationshipc eith me and its scary becquse i never thought ut was possible for me to have the iind or relationship i qctually wanted. i was ready to settle for a romantic rekatuonship even though it wuleve made me si unfomrtable becquwe i wanted to be close to her and i thought thtq qs the onlt wqy to do it but now im wcared of actually tetting whqt i wqbted. it feels so undeserved and i also feel bad because i feel like im fetishising her even tgough i eont mean to but maybe i am? ?? without reqlizing it. maybe im a horrible person ughhj i hate that i do thiw evrytime.

i tihnk i night have obsessive comoulsive disordr

i love you and i gope youre well

...I'm sorry that I didn't respond to this sooner, Leena.

I... would like to have words with the person that sent you that missive, but I'm glad you... have reasons to not go through with such an act. I'd miss you; you're one of my friends.

And I'm glad that Ms. Dyer is willing to try such things for you—you deserve to have a relationship that makes you happy, that you find to be fulfilling. I know such things are... nerve-wracking, terrifying. Getting what you want isn't easy when it's so entirely new, at least in my experience.

I'm not familiar with this disorder you suspect you might have, but... I'm glad that there might be a way to help, at least.

[xxxdreamscapexxx]

https://www.tumblr.com/xxxdreamscapexxx/733178665038381056/httpswwwtumblrcomxxxdreamscapexxx73298003753

IM HERE TOO😭 PLEASE- I KNOW YOU DONT KNOW WHQT TOUR DOING BUT ITS GOING GREAT!!

-🫂

I guess I'll just pass that along :D

[justan0therstar1nthesky]

hi 👋, i'd just like to let you know that i was the individual catgirl-izuru mentioned in his response to you and that most of the things he said were wrong.

proshippers aren't people who "ship [toxic/abusive/age gap/incest] ships" but people who believe that people should be allowed to explore whatever content they like in fiction without being harassed. comshippers are those who do enjoy "problematic" content, and there is a distinction here.

in reference to the screenshot of the post added to my blog, notable context that he left out was that the post mentioned my blog by name.

3. yes, i did send him an ask asking him to check on his friend. i didn't know he had me blocked at the time because my old blog was a sideblog and when you block a sideblog people the person can still access your page.

4. when he asked me to stop ""stalking"" him (read: looking at his public blog posts about me), i didn't say no, i in fact said "yes, if you also stop posting about me"

nana probably thinks he can get away with lying about this because the blog was deleted, but luckily i have a crazy memory for people being shitty to me.

5. His mutuals were making rather graphic threats of violence about me. one went on a detailed rant about how they wanted to kill me with an ice pick, another went into detail about how i was a "danger to children" who would "probably be denied from jobs for being creepy" (which, yay, thanks, OCD thought spiral), and several just said they wanted to beat me up. His response?

...to excuse and dismiss the threats completely.

6. I did not send that anon from today. It was a fucked up thing to say, and I would never say that to anyone, not even people who abused me over years. i can think of at least one person who would (whoever runs the blog @/alloftheworldknowsmebynowsheep - almost certainly a sideblog as well)

7. if he got 'vitriolic anons', i'm fairly sure those weren't from my followers. i can't completely rule it out, but i'm fairly sure that they were not from followers

8. I'm pissed off that people are pretending to be me to harass him, or that he's assuming that i'm the one sending the hate. yes, he's been overwhelmingly shitty to me, but he seriously doesn't deserve it.

that's all! feel free to ask for more clarification.

im not rlly sure what to belive here in all honesty and imma be honest i couldnt really read whqt you said in ny detail because i am so fucking tired rn. ill look more cloelsy into this when im not so tired.

[psychotrope777]

my thoughts on what spomgebob charqcters would be if they were animal crossing villagers:

squidward - the easiest one. squidward is canonically an octopus which exist in animal crossing so

spongebob - the rest are harder. octopuses are the only villagers based on marine animals and they cant all be octopuses. it might be a really easy pick but i'd say that spongebob might be a dog on account of his jubilant and inquisitive nature.

patrick - im remembering something about how hillenburg designed patrick with the intent of emphasizing the sea star's predatory behavior which is why he tends to go on rampages. so knowing patrick represents a dumb / good-natured but also incredibly aggressive and volatile predator i'd say it might make sense to have him be a tiger or a bear

mr. krabs - i think mr. krabs would be a squirrel on account of his covetous personality / desire to hoard wealth which is kinda whqt squirrels do

plankton - a lot of plankton's gimmick stems from him being significantly shorter than the other characters so it might be easy to make him a frog or hamster

[yb-cringe]

So uh

How you doing?

i think if theres genuinely a wra closure scene even just a scene i just want ONE acene of closure i think that’ll be it for me like. if it drops while im at work i guess im just gonna have to Leave and Be Fired or like i dont KNOW ill go catatonic or something either way i will be inconsolable. im trying to think of like whqt i would Want from a wra finale and honestly i think it would just be that Sausage Recognizes that he Missed them and that they say they were Looking for him and just like oh i missed you like i think i just want recognition thay we werent all insane in thinking they were family . and i think i wpuld be okay if that was it

sorry what was the question