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Wait, I'm stupid. Is Roland and Olivier from Vanitas no Carte supposed to be referencing Roland and Oliver?? The classic French friend duo who died tragically trying to win a battle that was rigged against them? Who were loyal to the other to the point of death despite Oliver being the literal braincell in the friendship and warning against Roland's pride? Who were almost brothers but couldn't be ala them dying before Roland could marry into the fam via Oliver's sister?
Because if it is...what could it MEAN?
#I'm not deep into the vnc fandom...just watched the anime and thought it neat and promptly focused all my attention on Noe#well noe and murr....#but like....if IF Roland and Olivier are supposed to be a reference to Roland and Oliver....#then sjrhhrjsjajehrhrhskskoeh i may have yo look deeper into the manga#you guys dont understand im obsessed (like lowkey...doesnt really affect my life like some fandoms do) with the Song of Roland#its the commentary on pride and friendship and the notion of chivalry and glory and that anglo saxon notion of mod#despite it being french the whole not asking for aid and glory thing sort of made me think of the anglo saxon thing about mod#plus roland is like...obsessed with his ideals up until death comes and its too late#and i just....#fandom spamdom#vnc#vanitas no carte#note's nonsense#the song of roland#listen my comprehension skills STINK esp for classics so obligatory disclaimer and apology if i got song of roland off#anyway shout out to a roland gifset making me think this
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#im trying so hard to be optimistic these days but its so bad in my brain atm#so so so bad#and i just....#i feel completely aimless and like an utter failure#but at the same time im so down that its like ... whatever yk.#just gonna stay curled up in bed not thinking about anything i guess#about moi#ignore me im on my period so its making everything 10000x worse#also both my eye and my knee are SO bad today and im used to chronic pain (duh lmao) but its just... not good rn
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My dad linked me to his church's website and sermon archive and like monthly q&a things with the pastor of his church, because like he thinks the pastor is a smart guy with good theology or whatever.
And so I'm like watching some of his stuff b/c I want to know what it is my parents are like in-taking and what it is they think is so great. And the only conclusion I've come to is that their pastor is a fucking idiot.
#ramblings of an arrow#no nuance#it's like.... so clearly built to fit only specific narratives#and like completely ignores so many other factors#and I just....#either this guy is like a malicious bad actor who wants your money#or he's and absolute fucking idiot with no critical thinking skills#im struggling to find an in between here#mom and dad please#what the fuck
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2023 sucks , my neighbor who was really sweet after my dad passed just died this morning , found out when i was taking out the trash.
#:) im not ok#her cat flirts with mine#thru their windows#bc we have facing windows#and i just....#ugh#death cw
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“ the fuck would anyone want with canada ? ” @korinthiakos
#korinthiakos#* † . 𝔴𝔯𝔦𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤 ‚ in character .#sometimes he says things#and i just....#idk what this is
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shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this
#and by 'everyone' i mean me. im just hoping other people relate lmao#someone asks me about a thing i like and im just like h..................#been thinking about The Character for a solid 6 months+ and let me tell you. expldoeing soon#this is about ffxv btw . how am i supposed to say how much it lives in my brain . i cant think#text#1k#5k#10k#15k#20k#great googly moogly#30k#40k#50k#60k#boooy what da heeel#70k#80k#90k#will this be my first ever post to hit 100k... it remains to be seen#good lord. we did it#100k
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[on the verge of having a complete breakdown] i need to make some kind of list or perhaps sort things into categories
#🌿 misc#idk how to tag this#i just love making lists#and sorting things into categories#pinterest#??#this is part of what motivates me to write i just love making lists of scenes and then sorting them into categories#bangers
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Christmas as a cultural icon is starting to get really dystopian in a climate sense, december has historically been a time of year in which there would be snow in a significant portion of europe and north america, and the fact that its not even icy this time of year and all the christmas songs and decorations reference a time of year that will likely never exist in the same way again in my life time is so strange.
#for reference i live in scotland so it is weird that there is no ice or snow in december anymore#shitpost#not really but its just how i find my original content#christmas#climate change
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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what studying literature feels like
#it’s always one of these two.#either i have a great point in my head i just can’t express it right or i have OUGHDGDHHD in my head and i need to make that useful…….#pip squeaks#literature
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Dracula and Jonathan’s Tango - from The Polish National Opera production of ‘Dracula’.
With Choreography by Krzysztof Pastor and Music by Wojciech Kilar.
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Motaz Azaiza interviewed by Ajstream after fleeing Gaza, please do watch the whole interview...
#he just turned 24 yo#I can't imagine how many dreams aborted by what's happening#please do watch the whole interview#motaz azaiza#free palestine#gaza
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the man who owns and runs the thai restaurant in my town knows me by name. he is one of the kindest and most thoughtful men i know. i started ordering from his place back in january, which was when i got my fibromyalgia diagnosis. back then i was using a walker, had limited mobility in my entire body but especially my hands, and was very visibly in pain. i always ordered the same thing: yellow curry with no meat, potatoes and carrots only (i have texture and other dietary issues). he always made it a point to make sure i could get out the door and carry the food safely. he had his workers package the food so that it was easier for me to open. as i kept coming back and i told him a little bit about my health status, he would always encourage me to keep going. he told me about how the spices he used were good for inflammation and began to edit the recipe just for me so that spices that were even better for fighting inflammation were used. he’d give me extra portions and despite the fact that i would tip every time, i realized later that he never charged my card for them. as time went on and my condition began to get better, especially with the help of a physical therapist, he would make encouraging remarks and tell me how happy he was for me. the day i came in without my walker, he practically jumped for joy, and despite my insistence, he gave me my meal for free that day. i continue to make progress with my conditions and i continue to go to the thai place. this man who does not know me personally and who i hardly know anything about is one of my favorite people. it’s interactions with humans like these that make loving life easier. and his curry really does help my chronic condition. it’s comfort food taken to the next level.
#humanity#ok to reblog#chronically ill#chronic illness#forgot to add that i do physical therapy twice a week#it wasn’t just the curry that did that :))#☄️
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#palestine#free palestine#israel#israel is committing genocide#i understand both sides of the argument in the comments#but the fact that this can even be some what believable is concerning in itself#always remember that an “us vs them” narrative is dangerous#we cannot deny that innocent lives are being slaughtered#i just want this war to be over#but thats not something thats going to be easily done
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non-practicing slut. is this anythign
#this post is not about being ace i am actually the furthest thing from ace one could be#im simply a massive virgin loser#just putting that out there#more power to you if yourelate to it for that reason thoughb
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