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Just dropped my glasses and the anxiety spike was insane.
#like#it's not anything import#important*#but goddamn#anxiety levels have been off the charts in the past 6 months#some days are so incredibly bad#i can barely get out of bed#the smallest things are just so damn scary#and i have to continue convincing myself#that i need to keep up the brave face and be okay#because i can't be breaking down wnen i got people relying on me for emotional support during a time i could never have actual impact on#while i generally just want to fall apart and did#die*#sigh#im tired but i don't even want to start understanding what he's going through#id have probably ended myself by now if i were in his shoes#this is a weird rant#guess i needed to see it out of my system#ra rants#yeah this feels slightly better than just bottling ig
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I may be pointing out something completely obvious, but Round 7 takes place immediately after Round 6?
Like immediately after.
Hyuna is still there, bleeding. Like it's so unlikely that Mizi and Hyuna have just been roaming for days. Like after round 6, it's been maybe a few hours at most?
My thoughts are a mess rn but damn that sucks for Till if that's true (not that it doesn't suck if it's not).
Ivan dies in front of him, then he has a change of outfit and immediately has to move onto the next Round. No wonder he looks so fatigued, like he's about to pass out at any moment.
Did he even get to eat or drink anything? I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't, but still.
#alien stage#alnst till#alnst round 7#alnst round 7 spoilers#alnst hyuna#alnst mizi#I will cry#Correct me if I'm wrong#alnst final#alien stage spoilers#alnst#vivinos#blink gone#also that might play a large part in why luka chose to impersonate Ivan#rather than mizi#i know ivan died and mizi didn't#but till doesn't know that#and luka didn't seem to expect to encounter mizi and hyuna at the end#specifically hyuna#This blond mf watching round 6#taking notes#update: just went back to round 6#it's probably an intricate system mizi and hyuna have to get through#and they're in a different place to where they were end of r6#but i don't see no food no water#it can't take them that long to get to where they are in r7#especially because there's already been an 'intruder alert'#anyways I'm trying to convince myself lol#tags getting long but let me continue rambling#Imagine being Ivan in heaven
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Hi, it's me again. I decided to follow your advice and try to seek out your 'actually serious' analysis, which led me to your komahina bible, the most easy to find compilation of this supposed analysis. Here are my thoughts-
1) Overview
- Most of this 'analysis' isn't analysis but a summary/overview of the game. It's not so much a 'bible' as a children's book summary of the bible, which at that point it would be better to play the actual game itself. It's clear it was made for a presentation on the 'uninitiated' if you will, but if that's the case, you shouldn't be advertising it as the literal bible on the subject.
- When you are not regurgitating points from the game beat by beat, the screen is halfway filled with either manga panels or fanart. My gripes with manga panels are, that even though they do depict the events of the game, the way they can be depicted by the artist can be pretty subjective due to the freedom of the medium in comparison to sprites, and that the role of one character can differ depending on whose pov manga it is (chiaki vs nagito). Fan art therefore should be scrutinized even more since it fully depicts abstracted and even the fandomified version of events, leading to situations where it's either unclear what is actually happening or betrays your more shallow view of the characters (i talk abt this later.)
- When you do use pictures directly from the game it's either a possible screenshot from a memorable moment or dialog from the wiki, limited almost exclusively to the freetime events. This leads me to believe that you haven't actually played the game(there are other factors hinting towards this) or watched a Let's Play of it, but going off of merely information that's already widely known and circulating within the fandom, and easy to search on the wiki.
2) Incorrect/Questionable information
Here I'll compile a lot of information that's either plainly wrong or baffling to having come to that conclusion , leading more credence to the theory that you either haven't actually played the game or your memory of it isnt as good as you think.
-"if Nagito's plan went off of without a hitch, he would have killed anyone that was closes to him at the time" plainly wrong. Komaeda's goal from the start was to make himself the victim, so by dying this way his death could have meaning and help the others. For somebody that keeps talking about Komaeda's "Martyr complex" this is truly a weird take to have.
-"Nagito...got the nurse for sure sick" is there any proof that specifically points to Komaeda for this? I believe the takeaway should've been that Mikan got sick because she was around all of them AND she overworked herself trying to take care of them. Is this just an awkwardly phrased attempt to make more of a connection between Tsumiki and Komaeda? I don't think you needed more than the ones that already existed.
- "he helps Junko brainwash a bunch of students" Kamukura at neither point in the anime or Danganronpa 0 was ever specifically implicated in the brainwashing. He never 'helps' Junko, especially in that way. If you meant, participates in the student council killing game, you should've said that, but even then his agency and influence is limited.
-"they found the Remnants and captured them!"...no, they didn't. The Remnants presented themselves as survivors and the Foundation took them in. They handed themselves over willingly. It was a pretty big piece of the final part of the game...
3) Komaeda and Komahina
- "Nagito's habit of putting people on pedestals" Where. Sure, he certainly parrots the belief that the "Ultimates" as a unit are at the top of the food chain and should be prioritised, but its clear that doesn't exactly carry over to his classmates like teruteru, Kuzuryu and even Souda sometimes. Just because of a few positive comments refering to them as Ultimates and the trial which he literally breaks down in, this is a hard position to support.
-"Nagito manipulates Hajime into playing the game" How. He literally just told him to play it. How is that manipulation. Also, isn't it a bit unfair to put the blame on Koizumi's death to him as well? I think they were multiple factors playing into this, but sure, how else are you gonna convince people that Komaeda is a twisted fucking cyclepath that loves leading people to their deaths.
-The way that you say the Kuzuryu/Pekoyama relationship mirrors Komahina as 'I will give up my agency for you/ I just want you' is also confusing. Unless of course you mirror Peko's struggle with her agency and harmful beliefs the clan enforced on her with Komaeda's own belief system, in which case, idk man, i feel like you are giving a bit too much credit to the supposed severity of Komaeda's views and trying too hard to make Hinata the 'rational' and 'grounding' one in the relationship.
- Again, the amount of times you refer to Komaeda as a freak for doing something 'weird' or even being drawn weirdly doing it , mostly in the manga, makes me belief this isn't just an affectionate tongue in cheek joke as you claim, but an actual way in which your interpretation of Komaeda is colored.
-"it doesn't excuse his nonchalance towards tragedy and murder but explains it" what needs to be excused here exactly? Komaeda doesn't need to immediately bawl his eyes out when someone gets killed or else he's suspicious and...bad? I am confused with what you mean by this. If you mean that Komeada shouldn't be so nonchalant about murder because he's constantly trying to kill someone else, that is plainly incorrect and i explained above why.
-Posturing about Komaeda's 'black and white thinking' while in the next exact slide you show fanart of him smugly explaining he has Borderline. First, i want you to explain to me the black and white thinking in a way that isn't "oh, the friends and classmates i previously liked turned out to be fucking terrorists". I think that's a pretty justifiable situation for your thinking to go from white to black. Also, if that is enough credence to assign Komaeda BPD, you really don't know how BPD works, especially since you assigned it to the one character you constantly talk about being a freak (and also lust...pseudo lust? after).
- The insistence with Hinata not really understanding Komaeda and running away, even if he wants to understands him is pretty suspect, especially when compared to the game. Hinata is confused and overwhelmed yes, but it's not just that he wants to understand Komaeda but that he still feels fondness for him, he still follows his advice and puts his faith in him and the way he mourns him in Chapter 5 is also pretty indicative of this. It's just another part in the pattern in you making Hinata the confused, rational, 'morally pure' man that's 'tempted' by 'corrupted' manic pixie mentally ill demon Komaeda. Something tells me your priest AU isn't so much playing with dolls as much as...what you actually believe these characters dynamic is.
- The whole page where Servant is basically made into a joke about how hot and sexy and freaky he is doesn't help your point either.
-The most damning evidence of course is a drawing in the second to last slide, wherein Komaeda is supposed to be analogous to 'guy who has something wrong with him' (distorted, freak, mentally ill) and Hinata is analogous to the guy that 'is the only one that understands them' (the rational one, the relationship of understanding doesn't go both ways).
- Your slide with sources is pretty vague and unclear. Also the way that you credit "Your superior mind" before the game itself when all you've been doing is repeating and misinterpreting the plot of the game is ...ironic
So yeah, that's all I got. Feel free to 'debunk' my observations as much as you please, I just want to know if there's actual basis behind everything you just said or I should go digging for 'the actual serious analysis' yet again.
i think you forgot that fandom is meant to be fun
#ask#anon#tw anon hate#i’m not gonna go through each individual point here bc frankly that’d be a waste of my time#so i’m just going to say this:#i am someone who makes jokes. funny haha jokes. i Laugh. i Shitpost. Common Fandom Behavior#‘freak’ is a word i use to refer to myself more often than anyone else#i view it with a positive connotation. and also kmda is objectively weird!! that is part of what makes his character good#i use 2 definitions of ‘freak’: the first is Related To Sex and the second is Strange Or Bizarre#komaeda is a strange and bizarre person who is regularly used for fanservice#you could for sure say maybe i have some sort of bias with calling people ‘freaks’ but for you to assume ill intent is nasty#that presentation was made to give my irl friends an understanding of what i mean when i talk abt kmhn#‘kmhn bible’ is a JOKE title. it’s a BIT. i don’t know if you’ve noticed but i try to have fun around here#anywho. i’m not going to argue semantics with someone who is clearly convinced that i couldn’t possibly know what i’m talking about#that’s not worth my time or energy.#i’m going to continue to have fun on the internet with my friends. i am going to continue making my funny jokes#i am going to continue to make weird bad not-quite-horny art. and i’m going to be happy#you can either block me like an adult and move on with your life. or you can send me another anon#if you do send me that ask know that i will block you. this is a conversation i am done having#because i will not have these conversations with people who refuse fo respect me#it’s clear that you have it in your head that you’re smarter than me. which sure whatever believe what you want idgaf#but regardless of how you view me i am not obligated to prove myself to you. ever#thanks for downloading my funny little powerpoint though ^_^
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I’m a bit of a nerd about biology so I do have some potential ideas about how Donnie would know about the kiddos. While regular turtles will nest for all their eggs, fertile or not, donnie doesn’t seem to have that instinct. The unfertilized eggs to him seem to be similar to a human on their period. So when the eggs are fertilized, maybe he does have that nesting instinct. Like he subconsciously knows and gets a severe bout of anxiety about making sure to have a good safe nest for these eggs. There could also be some kind of mystic thing that can be done to confirm his suspicions.
waves arms. biology!
i think both leo and donnie do have some degree of a 'nesting instinct' when they're on their cycle even now, they just don't currently have the chance to answer it. but i guess when they're typically on their cycle it's akin to their instincts gently being like, 'hey, uhm, a little burrow might be nice...' but when there's actually a baby on board, it's more like 'DIG A FUCKING HOLE IN THE GROUND AND GET IN IT, N O W MOTHERFUCKER. WE NEED SOFT BLANKETS AND DARKNESS RIGHT THIS INS T AN T.'
which does probably come with a great deal of anxiety, restlessness, etc. there would also probably be more human-ish symptoms, such as not bleeding (or producing any unfertilized eggs) as expected, morning sickness, and other general hormone fuckiness. and i'm sure that between the forces of science and mystics combined, they could figure out some sort of ninja turtle pregnancy test.
#donnie lowkey assumed that he (a fucking turtle) and his partner (a goddamn cat) wouldn't be biologically compatiable#and doesnt consider Baby to be a potential answer/outcome to these symptoms#(they are also perhaps not as careful as they could have been for this reason)#tw pregnancy#tw menstruation#asks#anon#my legacy of being The Egg Person continues ig#i did this to myself#i must accept it#gemini au asks#gemini asks#donnie is mad af because his body is screaming at him to NEST MF and then he doesnt even lay any eggs like he was EXPECTING#(coz theres babies in there and they gotta cook longer)#and hes like ?!?! WTF ARE YOU SCREAMING AT ME FOR THEN MY GOD. FUCKING WASTING MY TIME--#(hes not leaving the nest tho.)#actually lowkey i thought abt it a little more and as soon as he. like. proceeds to Not Lay Eggs he probably Panics#because the last time he Did Not Lay Eggs when he was Pretty Fucking Sure He Was Supposed To he almost died and it was horrendous#he probably freaks the fuck out and eventually goes to sorrel/leo and they gently coax him into getting checked out#coz theyre all convinced hes eggbound again#but nope! surprise mf <3 CHILDREN
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Hey! I just wanted to remind you how much we all appreciate you. The little moments you share about your day and the poems you write resonate with so many of us. It’s the authenticity and honesty in your posts that make you truly special. You have a way of making everyday life feel beautiful, and your words touch hearts. Never doubt the impact you have—you're loved more than you know!
this broke me (in the best way) I fkn love y’all 😭💓
#if this is rlly true it’s the LEAST I can do to repay y’all for giving me a space to exist and a will to bring myself back to life#or at least the will to continue to try !#I’ve actually come a long way in the last 7 months even tho it doesn’t seem like it and I think without y’all as my base idk if I would hav#and like u have no idea how much i needed this rn#like i hate that im so needy AHAHA#but like even tho y’all have told me such nice things so many times my brain just likes to forget (even tho ill never rlly forget)#like I never forget but my brain makes me convinced it wasn’t real#cannot thank u enough like I don’t even deserve this but thank u <3#MEANS A LOT
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having a high sex drive and being raised in a sex-negative house had absolutely horrific effects on me. now I'm horny AND guilty about everything.
#this also goes for relationships#every time someone gives me attention I run away immediately#and then I feel bad#and the cycle continues#like I just wish I didn't feel like the world is going to crumble when I feel Normal Human Emotions#there's no happy medium for me because as soon as I convince myself it's ok to be a human with human needs I start feeling nauseous#like I WANT intimacy and romance but it scares the living shit out of me#I've also felt my entire life that I'm “not meant” for sex or relationships#like everyone else is allowed to have it but I'm not made for it#idk#i be thinking
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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Chapters: 18/19 Fandom: Pocket Monsters | Pokemon (Main Video Game Series), Pocket Monsters | Pokemon - All Media Types, Pocket Monsters: Omega Ruby & Alpha Sapphire | Pokemon Omega Ruby & Alpha Sapphire Versions, Pocket Monsters: Ruby & Sapphire & Emerald | Pokemon Ruby Sapphire Emerald Versions Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Characters: Matsubusa | Maxie, Aogiri | Archie, Izumi | Shelly, Homura | Tabitha, Kagari | Courtney, Ushio | Matt, Groudon (Pokemon), Tsuwabuki Daigo | Steven Stone, Handsome | Looker, Kyogre (Pokemon), Higana | Zinnia Additional Tags: Action/Adventure, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe, possession AU (sort of), Swearing, Nonbinary Character, Trans Character, Enemies to Friends, Humor, archie swears like a sailor ba dum tish, ORAS versions of the teams, but maxie has a healthy dose of RSE maxie's personality, and by that I mean low WIS and low INT, terrible mishmash of ORAS and RSE history with some original headcanons thrown into the mix, maybe eventually hardenshipping but they sure as hell aren't right now, a possibly surprising amount of fistfighting, Drama, Slow Burn, Sporadic Updates, i write when i feel like it, content warnings will be listed at the beginning of each chapter, steven stone is surrounded by idiots unfortunately for him, graphic depictions of violence is just for a couple scenes, that i wouldn't consider super graphic but are atypical of pokemon canon in their violence levels Summary:
Zinnia pisses off Steven for the very last time! Maxie sees shrimp colors.
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#magma leader maxie#pokemon maxie#aqua leader archie#pokemon archie#lorekeeper zinnia#pokemon zinnia#FINALLY I CAN TITLE THE OMEGA CHAPTER.#just damn. silly summary as usual but i can't believe I got here kind of#3 years ago this was a half-baked plot that i thought was going to join my pile of WIPs#I was half convinced I would never finish a project for myself Ever. nothing that wasn't for school or work#but here it is with over 100K words#and excepting the small epilogue#its done.#its done and i'll probably continue to fiddle with it and edit it but its done#the story is here and complete and i am proud to have finished it
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Finished the first chapter of the old man yaoi
I still have to write chapter 2
#currently staring at my fic like how a disappointed father would at an unwanted son#do not understand how people have the willpower to write multi chapter fics#also do not understand people who are fast writers#and also do not understand the people who have the attention span to write continuously all day#where do I go to find these godlike powers???#maybe it would be a good idea to inquire for beta readers…#despite how embarrassing it would be for me#I just can’t convince myself that my writing is good
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Me: "One of the great things about fanfiction is that anyone can write whatever they want. It doesn't have to be amazing. It doesn't even have to be good. It can be short, long, ooc, an au - anything. And that's good no matter what."
Also me: "unless it's my fanfiction."
#trying to continue writing the fics I've started and genuinely feels like theres a brick wall between me and my fics sometimes#cant seem to easily convince myself that my fanfiction doesnt have to be on the same level as like Shakespeare#i literally have one chapter left on my mq fic. one!#and here i am. not writing it
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y'all help i just got recommended a youtube channel of someone testing out different yarns on a rigid heddle loom and now i wanna learn weaving despite not having the time/space/energy and also having approximately 72 different WIPs combined between all my other crafts that i'm already trying to learn
#granted i don't do Much with my bead loom so its not like i have that many WIPs there#and i haven't been able to get my hands to work right to hold needles so cross stitch and hand mending are on pause#but i've still got so many WIPs. and a couple projects i haven't started that are on a time limit#since i'm trying to crochet things for a convention in march#i've been working on the first part of this cosplay since fucking March lmao#haven't even started on a couple of the other portions despite having the supplies cuz this first part is taking me So Long#I Do Not Need To Learn Another Craft. I Do Not#(i will continue to repeat this to myself in the desperate hope that maybe it will convince me (it won't)
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there are doctors there are hospitals there are specialists there is medicine there are systems in place so people do not have to suffer and be tortured under their own chronic pain daily and yet. they're all fucking inaccessible to the people who need it most!!! to what I would argue is most disabled people!! I'm so fucking done with the medical system.
#today is an absolutely wretched pain day that makes me want to not be here anymore but guess what!#wasted a whole year trying to convince my doctors I was in significant and disableing pain daily and the best they could do#is tell me to go to PT and to wait 6 months and tell them if it gets better#to prescribe some shit like gabapentin or otc pain meds and write me off#tell me they'll get new X-rays to see if it got worse by the summer#disability exists!! specialists exist! good doctors fucking exist!! somewhere!!! I'm sure!!#but here I sit. in excruciating amounts of pain unable to convince any fucking doctors of anything#and that year I spent pushing myself to the limit is wasted bc at the very end of it all only one guy listened to me#and he said no one in their giant ass facility could diagnose me#so I'm back to square one bc I got a new job which means new insurance and new doctors to try and convince again#I just want to be on disability so i can want to be alive again#I'm so frustrated and in pain constantly#what are people like me who have to work 40hrs to afford to live but don't have any family to rely on supposed to do??#just die? am i supposed to continue to work until im too disabled to move and be profitable unless i get lucky?#bc some fucking doctor finally decides to actually listen???#ive tried ALL THE DAMN TRICKS TOO. telling them a friend has it and thats how i found out. that my previous doctor was looking into it#etc etc#I'm SO done living like this i am exhausted.#and to know that i COULD BE HELPED. RIGHT NOW. is the worst fucking part#these systems are in place so people like me dont have to fucking suffer.#but i cant even do anything about it bc i have a cat.
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Btw not gonna be TMAGPosting just yet. I am going insane but I also need to fight my brain to the death before I can do anything
#garlic breath#this just in i am a total fucking dumbass#basically i need to convince the npd that no. you dont need to the the number 1 fan of tma/tmagp. calm down#i love sam gwen and alice so so much#and im brainrotting as all hell#but also my brain is being evil and i cant properly enjoy it yet#which is annoying as shit#BUT JON AND MARTIN AS CHESTER AND THE NAME SORRY I DONT HAVE THOUGHTS FOR ANYONE OTHER THAN JON#OKAY IM SO NORMAL#I WILL CONTINUE TO RESTRAIN MYSELF UNTIL IM NO LONGER INSANE#youre only dreaming
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Maybe I'm just cursed 🤪
#trigger warning for everything that follows in these tags btw#i am in need of some venting into the void#so im gonna vent#so uh#im almost out of time to find a new job before i have to leave my flat and move back with my parents#in the past 27 days ive filled in 189 job applications#6 of those led to interviews#so far 5 of those have been rejections#i even started looking at jobs that paid way less than i can feasibly live on just so i could at least cover rent and stay here but no luck#anyway thats already sucky#and then ive had to go off my adhd meds because of continuous and annoying fuck ups with my drs and im hesitant to work to fix it cause#might be moving counties anyway lol#my depression is the worst its ever been in about two years i struggle to want to exist day in and day out and#this morning i found out my dog - my baby who i dont live with because i moved cities - he lives with my parents#we found out he has an agressive cancer - and i have to now make choices i dont feel ready to make#and im just#do you ever feel like youre already one the ground but life wont stop kicking you#and i feel#so lonely#my friends are doing everything right my cousin who i live with is always checking in on me and i am still#convincing myself i am being a burden i am the problem i#my whole life is collapsing and i#even writing this all out in tags my brain is yelling at me for being an 'attention seeker' or smth and idk#i just wanna#idk#its complicated ig#im fighting#i am fighting so hard#i just want ppl to know im doing my best thats all#anyone who read all of this - hi - i hope youre having a beautiful day. its all going to be okay in the end 💛
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i wish smoking wasn’t so bad for u and i didn’t have an intense hypochondria fear of lung cancer so that i could give in to my stress smoking dreams……in the dreams i’m always like finally i will smoke my cigarette but smth prevents me and i want to smoke sooo badly and i wake up & i’m like ok i have never smoked in my life though….this has been going on for yrs btw since i was in high school 😭
#michelle speaks#i’m like i feel bad for her. i wish i could let her live her smoking dreams.#however. i will not being doing that bc i would convince myself i had lung cancer every day for the rest of my life#so my subconscious self will just have to continue longing for cigarettes in silence. not my problem!#i once had a dream abt huffing either white out or permanent markers when i was in high school i can’t remember. idk if that was before#or after the first cigarette dream either…..but like what is that 😭
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may be late on the first day of kloktober, but the fic is going to be ❤️ heart breaking ❤️ so that's something lol
#text post#did i mean to make the first fic so far in the future it would be desperately sad? no#not until the second paragraph at least lmao#it needs finishing and an edit but hopefully will be posted today#then i can hop back to the first day kinkyourtober fic i also need to post#and try to work on day two fics for both of these#am i aware i don't need to do every day of either challenge? yes. must i do every day or I'll feel like dying? also yes#we'll see how it goes. idk. the insomnia and depression continues to kick my ass so I'm tired and blah and just#before any of this i have to convince myself not to nap for the entire fucking morning and wasting all of that time#... we'll see how that goes too i guess
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