#and i cant help but yearn for that feeling

[nymphiearon]

somehow, I ache for something that was never, and can never be, mine.

[neosappho]

all i want is to be loved to have someone look at me and my faults and love me

i want to feel like im enough like the space i take up matters and im not too much and i dont have to prove that

is that selfish to ask is it unrealistic to hope for is love without condition just a dream or have i done something to lose that privilege

[martyrbat]

batman and superman vs vampires and werewolves #2

[anonovershare]

Being touch starved sucks, I'm sitting here contemplating it and I've never cuddled with someone, never leaned against someone sitting together, never held hands with someone, never had a hug that lasted more than 7 seconds at most, can't remember the last time I got a real actual tight hug, and I have sensory issues/potentially trauma when it comes to touch so when I tell people I'm particular about the physical affection I receive they either ignore that and end up triggering my sensory issues or they respect it too much and never touch me again. Is it so much to ask for something in the middle, where someone just respects my boundaries I have in place without going so far as to treat me like a leper? It's been like this for so many years and I haven't figured out how to balance it.

[skunkes]

[spotsupstuff]

Read the snippet *cries*

That last writing with Tarrow is beautiful. In my mind was playing Farewell by Bernth and is was a struggle to not cry in public.

I just fell in love with Orion! I love his gentleness, how he just want to give comfort and just AHHHHHH!! That last paragraph just with the hope that Tarrow will see the family that still has is just gets me.

On the side note (and to laugh a little after that beautiful mini story), Crows still is a background character.

OOOOO hey i know that song!!! yeah i can imagine how that'd make it hard to exist in public with some dignity JGDLKJLCMKSL

hah, another Iterator found a way to worm its way into your heart JGKSLLCKMLKS stars, same- the gentleness but also in the contrast of what he's gone through, what that kindness and sweetness had to endure. and he's stern and strict and some would call him a little scary when he talks to them like to some soldiers- promising that if this time around (in the off string au) someone will be caught neglecting their responsibilities like some have done with Mission Self-preservation he will be able to deal with them Personally this time. Notos won't be the only thing they'll have to worry about now. and sometimes he's a little insensitive as a result of that trauma, too. but ultimately? oh gods, ultimately he only wants everyone to be okay and taken care of as they deserve

GSLJKMCKLS fucking Crows.... leave it to the One og character i have in Moon's group to do me a favor and stay as she is meant to be

[kordbot]

someone taking a nap on me would fix me I think

[medicasino]

ive just accepted im just never going to fit cleanly into any label or community ever

[guinevereslancelot]

if they put abby and hoyt together that's just unrealistic. why would either of them go for eachother with calian right there

[milfygerard]

when emma falls in love is genuinely the funniest song ever written. This is why they bullied you for being gay in high school taylor

[sweet-milky-tea705]

Day 1000000000000 of being romantically confused.

[hagfishviperfish]

eieudururururuffggh… it’s definitely along the lines of limerence. u think its fine when ur sitting together, it’s actualized that this is someone you could never be together with, and really he’s not all that glittering attractive in terms of someone you would want to be in a relationship with anyway. but then there’s the twofold dream of living with him, then wandering around a city aimless with the thought resounding “i love you so much please text me back”

i think it’s a sign of needing to reconcile something in myself but i don’t know what. i am left with these feelings that i do not know how to deal with. i desire him so much but he is not present. he never will be. it’s just how he is. i don’t know why he’s worth it in terms of my brain/heart. as i said, there are so many things about him that are extremely unattractive in terms of a relationship. This is a consequence of coming back into his life, but really this was happening anyway, in the past two years. it was so nice to just sit with him and not want for more, except i feel bad drawing him to speak to me but that’s fine

i don’t trust him with anything in the world, i feel that i don’t really know who he is, if he’s even a real person — but also that it’s so simple and he’s much more simple than i think. except it’s just that i don’t know. i can only assume and assume and theorize because he’s never around. i don’t know why i wish to know him specifically. Maybe it’s an ego thing. Maybe it’s an issue.

I had a dream that i think was a sequel to an existing dream but i dont know. It was like. I was adopted by the queen and king of england, they looked over me and raised me for a bit. And eventually i had to go back home to my mother. This dream was the sequel where I come back to see them again and see how every influence I had on their castle and lives and everything was stripped away and muttered about as ill-fashion— “oh, that old thing.” whereas i looked up to them so much, i was devoted and dedicated so much to them. they taught me how to dance, i taught the king jokes, things like so.

upon seeing all the ways i meant nothing to them I proceeded to have a breakdown in the dream, taking it out on them, everyone around me, tearing things down, playing into the ill worth they regarded me with by giving them something to be actually disgusted by.

My ex was there— he was there because he heard it was me, on the news, in the rumors, and came to witness. he was talking to people about me, telling them who i was and who he was, *defending* me. Which was crazy. So fond. but when i really think about it I think he was there because ultimately being the child of the queen of england and then coming back to see i meant nothing felt like what it was like to be in a relationship with him.

Why i am drawn to people i mean nothing to. I dont know. why their validation in my worth means so much. i dont know. why i see my worth through others. i dont know. this is what i need to reconcile in myself but. i don’t know. How. I even feel like its fine most of the time, but then i look up to someone and it all comes back.

I just wish he cared about me enough to come by. But he doesnt and i need to find someone who does. Thats the path i’m trying to take. It’s just sorrowful. What also overtakes me sometimes is that when he’s not there, he claims to be thinking of me. Stalking my twitter. Watching what i’m doing wherever. Songs that make him think about me. Which kind of makes it worse. All of that and it’s still not enough to draw him near. He was right in saying I am someone that needs someone to be there for me and it was hardly a kindness that he let go of me when saying that, especially considering the circumstances, but at least he could admit he was not that person. it’s this wish i have that i need to reconcile. the fact that it exists at all. I wish it could go away, I’ve been trying to make it go away, forcing it to by looking at all the facts and realities, but yet its still here, I don’t know how to change, I need to be strong

[confier-boyfriend]

Knights are perfect. They’re impressive, they’re masculine in the most perfect way, they can fight, and they have knight helmets. BUT best of all? Armor, including the helmets. Oh my god armor. What more could you want for a man? Just. Mmmm I need to make myself/and or buy myself a suit of armor. That’d be like an entire childhood-to current age character arc for me. If I cared about fashion it’d be knightcore every fucking day. I could be someone’s knight in some type of armor.

[killmekittenxx]

tracking my menstrual cycle through how much i listen to Mitski

[lizard-rustler]

i hate missing her because i cant do much else except miss her 😭 the the thoughts of her freeze me in place and hold me down so i cant focus on anything else. god she’s gonna be the death of me

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

https://www.tumblr.com/twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat/742232698896171008/i-miss-my-wife-would-you-be-willing-to?source=share

Oh my gosh, these snippets are actually insane??

Like?? They're stunning.

I audibly gasped when I saw them.

The imagery is beautiful.

I love the ginkgo imagery. The idea of snuggling into the soil? Comparing Suguru and Kenjaku using a ginkgo tree? And just the way you did it? I feel like I should be analysing this in an English class. Your work reminds me, somewhat, of Alice Oswald (cf 'Dart', 'Woods etc.').

You're really talented. (To me, too, your work, especially in these snippets, feels very slick.)

OHHH ANON MY LOVE this made me so happy u have no idea 😭😭 this fic is very special to me so i def wanna go very heavy on the prose … I’M SO HAPPY U LIKE THE GINKGO IMAGERY sugu just reminds me sm of those pretty golden leaves <33 and kenny too ofc !!

ngl i shamefully had to look up who alice oswald is i am Not cultured lmao BUT WOWWWW ANON???? i’m so flattered i cried HER WRITING IS SO GORGEOUSSS i’m def gonna check her stuff out for inspo ….. might buy one of her collections bc her poetry seems so stunning !! tysm for sending her my way <333

AND GOSHH CALLING IT SLICK IS THE KINDEST THING EVER ??? the thing i’m most insecure abt when it comes to my writing is without a doubt the general Flow, so that’s just. such a relief 😭😭 ILYYY i’m so happy that some ppl are hyped for the kenny fic :’33 if u decide to read it when it’s out then i hope u enjoy !! <333