#and even that was dysfunctional as shit

[bornonthelake]

pro tip: do not listen to time’s blur on vinyl unless you are ready to bawl your eyes out it’s too much

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

[struggling-to-find-home]

Listen.

Look me in the metaphorical eyes and listen.

You do not need to forgive your abuser to heal.

Ypu do not need to confront your abuser to heal.

You do not need to let go of your emotions to heal.

Hell, you do not even need to have access to the direct memories of trauma in order to heal.

Healing is about YOU. It's about your feelings, your actions, your life. All of the consequences of abuse are woven into your life already; it doesn't matter what the abuser says or does, because healing from abuse is not about getting some sort of new and improved all-knowing attitude and a healthy relashionship with whoever hurt you. It's about taking those patterns which currently hurt you in their place and letting them go.

And if anyone tells you otherwise, fuck em.

[sparrowposting]

I know I KNOWWWWW now that I have full-time health insurance + am not living with my parents, I should go back to therapy, I KNOWWWWW. In grad school it was like. Emergency don't be stupid keep surviving therapy. Now that I'm managing (thriving?) all of that on my own it's like, oh we gotta clean up all the lingering mess leftover from The Everything About My Childhood therapt but also........scary.....

[katsy-kitty]

I live in constant fear of being annoying af

[callixton]

holy fuck. i have done literally genuinely nothing today

[somegoodomens]

I think Aziraphale and Crowley should be put in charge of this time finding the reincarnation of Jesus and nudging him to the right path to complete his mission on Earth, because maybe that’s the only oportunity they’ve got to once and for all stop all attempts of Heaven and Hell destroying the world.

Except that Jesus’ reincarnation happens to be a she, not a he.

Jessie would be a struggling college student who found a part time job at Nina’s coffee shop, lip and ears pierced, a couple of tattoos, a bit moody, androgynous haircut, with a bunch of daddy and mommy issues ever since she found out she was adopted. Oh, yes, and she also happens to be an atheist LMAO.

Like, just imagine Aziraphale’s face when he finds out that of all people on Earth, the one that’s the reincarnation of Jesus himself happens to be an atheist? He would collapse right then and there. Meanwhile Crowley simply grins approvingly in a “fuck the system” way.

[lord-squiggletits]

I must admit I'm getting this horrible image in my head of Tarn as that type of creepy guy who donates way too much money to a streamer and then absolutely loses it when he hears they're not single.

That's probably accurate lol. Although unlike (seemingly) most people in this fandom, I blame Megatron more for turning Tarn into that kind of obsessed freak than I do Tarn for being a freak. I mean, my view is basically "you reap what you sow/the monster you created turned around and bit you" so I don't really have sympathy for Megatron with regards to Tarn showing up and ruining his life lol. I actually really like the DJD coming in MTMTE as basically the living embodiment of karma and Megatron's comeuppance about not being able to run away from/ignore his past.

Like blah blah "no matter how sad your backstory is you're still responsible for your own actions" but also Megatron is literally 100% the reason Tarn is Like That, and Megatron also used parasocial manipulation, propaganda, and his grandiose personality to manipulate the Decepticons into worshipping/following him without question. So like. It's fiction, I don't have to be all "well they're all problematic" I can just be like "lol, lmao even" and point and laugh as Megatron gets fucked up by Tarn and the DJD because he can't talk his way out of this problem.

[fullcirclehuh]

wait slime and Mariana literally gamed the court case. That was the best possible outcome they could've gotten and it wasnt even one of the original options

[struggling-to-find-home]

What is a life if not a constant stream of bad days?

[irregularbillcipher]

demon show is one of the biggest examples of a fanbase doing a lot of heavy lifting to play around with/explore premises that the show doesn't seem interested in, but are wildly entertaining

[paldogangsaan]

i’m soooo normal abt theerapanyakul family dynamics. totally not chewing glass

[sea-buns]

Saw a post earlier of a screenshot about adhd and adderall and being a very specific definition of a successful human being and it just. I don’t know. Just started adderall recently. Like early enough on it that changes are yet to happen. But man. Will never get over going years without a diagnosis or even knowing there’s a problem cuz you’re a kid and the only normal you know is your own. But having to keep up with everyone else’s standards. And then getting diagnosed but like does it really matter? I mean it DOES. The first step to getting help and all that. But it doesn’t change everyone’s expectations. Most of all your own. Cuz the expectations and standards for normal are so imposed on everyone that it’s ingrained in you. And even though you know now that you’re DIFFERENT and that you WILL need help and that’s FINE you still hold yourself to that impossible standard. 

That's just been one of the major struggles for me. To go through the entirety of high school and only realize at the end ON YOUR OWN that “oh maybe it’s not just me”. But it’s like ok then what? A person tells me I’m right after I do all the work on the hardest possible setting my entire life? Worlds not gonna change itself for me. I can’t force my friends and family to come to terms that I’m still gonna neglect responsibilities but now “it’s not my fault actually so you can’t be disappointed or angry”. Pausing in my progression in life cuz last thing I wanna do is go into debt and be unable to pay it back cuz I can’t get up. Can’t dedicate myself to things even if I like them. To people even if I love them.

Coming to terms that YOUR life is allowed to be different. And THAT’S normal. That’s the hardest thing.

[orcelito]

I officially finished my 4th iwatex game, and am somehow already halfway through my 5th

I have 96 hours logged. I started playing this game only 10 days ago.

Heck.

[dont-open-dead-inside-25]

fully capable of giving up and never trying to do to anything ever but I don’t. And I think that’s pretty fucking impressive of me actually

constantly “trying my best” and sometimes (a lot of times) that means sleeping in a sleeping bag on the floor because I couldn’t get myself to make my bed but at least I put the pillowcase on my pillow. I still did something. Every single week I tell myself that this is the week I do better and if I’m not very much mistaken I’ve been getting steadily worse. But I’m still trying. I still make my cute little lists and get highlighters to color code everything. At least I’m still trying

[drifloonz]

one day ill be annoying ab my selfship again . although i enjoy that ppl enjoy my writing most of this is entirely self indulgent, projection, and for me . being so real .