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beauty-and-passion · 3 months ago

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TBOB PART 3: OF BILL'S SOLITUDE AND BILLFORD (3/3)

Welcome, everyone, to the last analysis post regarding TBOB.

It has been a long journey - and a fun one too! I’m glad you appreciated all the previous posts and I hope this one will be appreciated as well.

For all disclaimers and premises, please check the links below.

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Cause of his own pain

Before TBOB, I don’t think a lot of people thought Bill would react badly to his breakup with Ford. Maybe he would get angry or become even more possessive - in Journal 3, we know he promised an entire galaxy, to the creature who would’ve brought Sixer to him.

But facing it so badly to go to a pub and drown his sorrows? I doubt it was on a lot of people’s bingo card.

Speaking about the “LOSING SIXER” page a bit more: Bill said Sixer secretly loved “our “will-they-won’t-they-destroy-the-world” relationship”. And for all the people who don’t know, the “will-they-won't-they” is a figure of speech about “a potential coupling between two people who share romantic chemistry, but whose relationship is threatened by uncertainty, external obstacles or internal strife.” (courtesy of Google).

So not only Bill cared about Ford, saw him as similar to himself and has been more honest with him than with everyone else, but he also considered their relationship romantic-coded. He was down for Ford, just as much as Ford was down for him. And it’s pretty clear he was, considering the “one Sixer, please”, followed by him crying, getting drunk, trashing the place and even forgetting his mother died. If that’s not being down bad for someone, I don’t know what it is.

Also, according to THIS interview, Alex Hirsch said that:

Bill’s a trillion years old, so it’s like, Ford disappearing for thirty years is like- [snaps fingers] is like somebody saying they’re ghosting you and then texting you the next weekend, you know what I mean?

So, for Bill, their relationship happened in a very short time. AND YET, he grew so attached to get devastated by Ford disappearing for something that for him was, like, a week. He was down THIS bad.

And, for me, this is the icing on top of the beautiful tragedy that is Billford, because now we can be sure Bill cared before, during and after the breakup. He saw Ford as a potentially romantic partner. He wanted him around.

But because of his unresolved trauma and his inability to properly distinguish feelings, Bill mixed love and fear, thinking they were the same. And the result was losing the only human in the history of mankind he had been interested in.

Furthermore, this makes Billford even more tragic if we consider that, for better or for worse, these two had the potential to become a happy, powerful couple.

Think about it: if Bill wasn’t such a messed up individual, he could’ve been the Muse Ford needed. He could’ve kept being the center of his life and the sun in his galaxy, as Ford said. They’ve found a kindred spirit in each other: they could’ve been each other family, each other’s supporter. And with their cleverness, they really could’ve gone “through hardships to the stars”.

On the other hand, if Ford was a much, much more messed up individual, he could’ve joined Bill in his plans to dominate the galaxy. He could’ve worked with him to bring Weirdmageddon everywhere. He would’ve destroyed everyone and taught “a lesson to all”. He would’ve been to his side, ruling alongside him, “all-powerful, greater than anything you've imagined”, as Bill promised during Weirdmageddon. They would’ve been the most powerful couple ever.

But Bill lost both possibilities and the fault is his own. Just like he lost everything and everyone else in the past, once again, the fault is just his own.

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Again as before: alone

TBOB doesn’t end on a happy note. When I reached the last pages, I literally commented with: “Oh boy, that’s truly depressing”.

The way Bill snaps and says that “you turned out like all the rest”, the way he blames his past relationships, his “worthless Henchmaniacs”, his “miserable family” and Sixer. Yes, just Sixer, no bad adjective to add to him - understandable, considering he’s probably still down bad for him.

And he says he just needs one person, someone who will fall for his tricks. He’s not even looking for a special person: he’s just looking for someone. Someone who will get him out. Because he doesn’t miss anyone, nope nope, but he really, really wants someone. Anyone.

To me, this reconfirms Bill is and has been alone, for a very, very long time. Probably since the destruction of Euclydia. He tried to fill the void inside him with some romantic relationships, but he didn’t manage to keep them. He tried with friends, but he cannot understand a friendship not based on submission. He tried with an audience, but it still wasn’t enough.

And when he found the only soul who was so similar to him, both physically and mentally, the only one he was honest with, even if for a brief moment… he lost him too.

And now he’s, once again, alone. He lost his family, his friends, his loved ones. He lost everything.

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An immensely fascinating character

Bill is so. Goddamn. Fascinating. He was a fascinating character before, because the series gave us hints about his potentially tragic backstory (the famous “Flat minds in a flat world with flat dreams”). He was interesting and he was hiding something, so he got our attention.

Now, he’s fascinating because he’s multifaceted. He’s complex, he’s tragic, he’s desperate. You can empathize with him and feel sorry for him. But you can also laugh with/at him, fear him, condemn him. His tragic story doesn’t make up for what he did, but it helps us understand how he reached that point. In perspective, it makes all of his choices easier to understand too: Bill never went through all the stages of grief, he’s still stuck in the denial phase. And when you keep carrying denial for such an absurdly long amount of time, your choices and your mentality inevitably end up being skewed.

You know, it’s funny that Bill sees himself as a bidimensional villain, when he’s so, so much more than that. Maybe it’s all part of his trauma, his inability to see himself as more than just the insane monster who destroyed his home dimension. But this book does him justice and portrays him for the incredible, fascinating, complex character he truly is.

And that’s another reason why I respect Alex Hirsch so much. Aside from being funny and clever, this man is full of passion for the world he made. He is Gravity Falls. And, ten years later, he still has a great understanding of the characters: he can portray them so accurately, with so many details and connections to the previously disseminated dots - all while still leaving questions! Man, I can only wish to reach this level of understanding of my own characters.

So, once again, I’m here to thank this man. For creating Gravity Falls and sharing that world, while fighting censorship in every step. And for coming back, ten years later, to give the fandom a second renaissance.

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Gravity Falls, it’s good to be back!

I have a ton of moments in my life connected to Gravity Falls, of summers, feelings and memories. This show saved me from depression, brought me up to my feet, took my hand to Canada and back home, then left my hand for a while to make me take some steps alone.

In these years, I learned a lot, improved my English, improved my writing in general. And now, I feel more ready, more mature, more capable of writing something like nine posts to analyze one single book and show at least a small part of the deep love I still feel for this series.

I hope you all felt it - at least a little bit. I hope you enjoyed my stupidly long analysis, my silly theories and my obsession with the triangle guy.

And if you’re still not fed up with me and want more rambling, please feel free to ask for more. Tell me what else do you want me to talk about, if you want episode analyses, if there is something else I missed, if Dipper and Pacifica are truly endgame (the answer is yes). I will write them inbetween other posts about other fandoms (Epic and CCCC, I am coming back for you both).

And if you want new Gravity Falls fanfictions, don’t worry: I have one already in progress, a second one planned and a third one still in my mind. Maybe not all three of them will see the light of day, but who knows? Maybe I will get new ideas too. The love for this series is too strong on me and I need to express it somehow <3

So stay tuned, because we will meet again very, very soon~

Thank you all for your time and attention and I wish you all a nice day <3

(How about a coffee? ☕)

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bl-bracket · 1 year ago

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Finals: Pat and Pran First Kiss (Bad Buddy) vs Kinn and Porsche Goodbye Kiss (Kinnporsche: The Series)

[Submitted Reasons Under Cut]

Pat and Pran First Kiss: "There aren’t enough words to describe the way I felt the first time I watched this kiss happen. The buildup is immense, Pat is jealous but he doesn’t understand his feelings, Pran has been in love for so long he doesn’t want to even think there’s a chance. Pat talks about how damn lonely he was without Pran. He recontextualizes their whole relationship, yes they were enemies but they were also the only two people who understood eachother. And with that they’re not quite enemies, at least not anymore. And if they’re not enemies do you think they could be friends? When Pran asks, “Do you want us to be friends.” The hesitation before Pat just says no. It holds the weight of the world. And of course Pat is the one to lean in and cross that barrier, Pran is still petrified of his own feelings after years of beating them into submission. But once Pat has taken that leap and crossed that line you can see Pran say ‘fuck it’ and just go for it. If this is the only time he ever gets to kiss Pat then godammit he is going to make it worth it. Hands in each other’s hair like they couldn’t get closer to one another if they tried, desperation spills out of every corner of their kiss. And when then break apart, Pran is beyond devastated, he knows they could never be together, that this kiss might have been his one and only taste of something he has longed for, and he leaves Pat standing there for him to slowly come to the same bitter realisation as his face shifts from lovestruck to heartbroken. Ohm and Nanon raised the standard for every other kiss in any future bl. Not to mention the kiss happened when Pat was wearing a shirt that says ‘baseball mom.’ There is no other kiss that could be more deserving of this win"

Kinn and Porsche Goodbye Kiss: "it's about the EMOTION it's about the ANGST it's about finally having a glimpse at the freedom they've both dreamed of for so long and the pain of knowing that they will never have it but that in each other they can find a taste of that freedom and the pain and sacrifice that that entails. it's about the goodbye it's about the kinn kicking the ground and crying because he is willingly giving up the one good thing in his life to protect it it's about porsche being willing to cut off a hand for him for this man who put him through so much shit but that he LOVES because he has seen the true kinn, the real kinn, and the NEED to turn back and acknowledge that and that what they had in the woods was real and that kinn is worthy of his love. it's about the way that kinn staggers when porsche crashes his mouth into his it's about the arms wrapped around each other it's about the desperation to be as close as possible meaning that they hardly even move it's about the layers and layers of emotion folded into it it's about how porsche has to pull away and run so he won't turn back and so that he can give kinn what he wants (the knowledge that at least one of them will be free). it's about the fact that he does turn back. it's about them always coming back to each other. it's THEIR FIRST KISS IN LOVE OKAY IT'S EVERYTHING TO ME"

#bl bracket #bl drama #bl shows #final round #kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #patpran #bad buddy #best kiss

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luffyvace · 10 months ago

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Tanjiro x male reader<3

Tanjiro x male reader won second place in the poll!! :) enjoy tanjiro stans<3

Starting back at the final selection let’s say that’s when you met

just to clear things up

and you two started dating some time after that

of course eventually making it official

tanjiro was quite flustered when he realized his sexuality might be different from tradition

but he wasn’t afraid to be bi/gay/pan or anything

he just thought- ..! Actually he never really thought of that type of thing..

I mean he was kinda too young

but now that your together!

he has time to figure it all out :)

tanjiro is such a sweet lover!

and helpful!

and caring!

(Really he’s a ball of love)

if you feel tired he carries you

(Even if your both beat up after a mission)

if you need water he’ll spare you some of his or go fetch some

And he’s always down to spar at any type of day!

I will say he’s not thinking about you in that way when you take your shirt off

but when you do he definitely admires you!

you might have abs seeing as though the demon slayer corps has………...harsh (brutal) training 😅

if you do then he sees it as a result of your hard work!

same with scars!

especially with scars<3

he can 100% relate and you two share stories about each one

if you have any—you probably trauma bond

you guys just end up talking all night long about your past, everything that happened, your pain, whether you want revenge or not and so on!

It strengthens your trust and relationship with each other

btw if anyone asks why your together as two males or how you know you actually like men..

tanjiro will humbly and politely educate (lecture) them on how important you are to each other, how you met, why/when you started dating and even if they don’t like it, it’s simple to walk away instead of disrespecting your relationship!

I hope y’all don’t run into uzui..

(y’all do)

that man has THREE wives why wouldn’t he question when he sees you two?? 😬🧍‍♀️

tanjiro had to hit em with the quick fix cuz when I tell you he did not let that slide 😂

especially with how slick uzui mouth be gettin..😒

Tanjiro also has learned to adjust to scavenging for food (he grew crops with his mom)

as well as inosuke (he grew up in the wild) and zenitsu (he used to have crops with his sensei)

so if you can too, great!

if not the 3 of them work together to make the 4 of you meals

and after they learn how to stop burning them

theyre pretty tasty too!!

don’t expect inosuke to share.

do expect inosuke to take

-note to self, m/n.

zenitsu doesn’t see the attraction to males instead of females

he won’t judge but will ask you two if your sure your into males

and after tanjiro gives him that lecture about being respectful-

he doesn’t question it again

LOL

inosuke straight up don’t care

he doesn’t really view relationships in a romantic way

its more so between “they’re beneath me” , “they’re above me, I must beat them”

so no worries about him judging either 😋

if nezuko doesn’t like you

it’s not to say tanjiro won’t date you because of it

but I’ll honestly say it plays a factor

If sweet nezuko doesn’t like you it prob means something..🤨

she has good instincts so tanjiro might start to assume you have ill intent or smth 😬

he’ll try to get her to like you and if she warms up to you he assumes it might’ve been personal 😂🤷‍♀️

but if she doesn’t..

he finds you like 30% less attractive🧍‍♀️

if she does like you from jump, she starts to protect you as well

and loves to spend time with you when she’s outside her box

tanjiro adores this and you three cuddle or play in each other’s hair whenever you have the time

It also makes him happy if you accept nezuko as a demon quickly

after missions tanjiro finds you, nezuko, zenitsu and inosuke

then cries

like your all just a crying mess tbh

i mean unless your like emotionally unavailable..

BC I DON’T SEE HOW YOU COULD NOT CRY AS A MINOR WHO HAS TO KILL LITERAL HORRIFYING BEASTS FOR A LIVING?!?!?!?

Tanjiro will help you achieve your goals as you likely help him achieve his

even more so after that night you had where you opened up to each other about your past

(again, only if you have truama)

tanjiro is really grateful for you

before all he had was nezuko

and aside from zenitsu and inosuke

now he has you!! 💗

tanjiro’s love languages are acts of service, quality time, words of affirmation and (shy) physical touch

actually maybe some gift giving when he can too!!

so all?!

such a green flag 💖

for acts of service as I said he’ll genuinely do any sane thing you ask of him

he cares about you that much

he won’t bother to complain about being tired either

he automatically assumes your either doing worse or he’s fine

as for quality time he gets really relieved when he gets sent on missions with you

at least he can be there to see and protect you

(or maybe vice versa 😂)

he’d beat himself up about not being able to protect you more if you get serious injures

tends to your wounds everyday then trains vigorously

to get stronger and protect you as you fight along side him when he fights muzan

if your gonna fight along side him in that battle? He’s gonna need to be strong enough to protect you.

he doesn’t want to loose you.

especially not to that man.

he lost everything to him.

he won’t let it happen again.

💗💕💖🍡♥︎

for quality time outside of missions ✌︎('ω')✌︎

tanjiro likes to train, cuddle, go on walks, go shopping, chit chat :)

All that good stuff <3

with words of affirmation he really just praises you all the time

”you did your best today in training! I could tell! :D”

“You look great today m/n!! I’m glad your wearing the (favorite men’s jewelry piece) I got you!”

”I can definitely tell your getting stronger, m/n!!!”

it can also be

“get a good nights sleep, m/n! I love you!”

”be careful on your mission okay? I love you, m/n!”

“thank goodness we surviveeeeed!!! I love you m/n!! I love you so much!!”

now lastly for (shy) physical touch

he is nervous to touch you

he doesn’t wanna make you uncomfortable, yes that’s the last thing he wants

he doesn’t know how to execute it so he ends up either asking or making it very obvious of what he’s trying to do

that way you can shut him down early on just in case

and you won’t feel pressured to let him if you dislike affection

which mind you he does asks if your okay with it first

so that’s likely not the case

if you did mention your distaste for physical affection, however, it’s duly noted in his mind and will keep it to a minimum

your gonna have to discuss boundaries or else he’s gonna act like you have the plague trying not to upset you 🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Tanjiro doesn’t dislike pda or anything

he’s just a bit embarrassed about it

maybe if it’s more subtle like resting your head on his shoulder, then yeah that’s okay!

hugging too!!

but direct kissing or hand holding?

his face is a cherry and he’s apologizing to the passerbyers for disturbing them

even if they don’t mind

he’s self aware when it comes to not disturbing others

tanjiro can be a little flustered/shy about things but he’s certainly isn’t embarrassed about your relationship!

he’s quite proud, actually!

will happily tell/correct anyone that asks or misjudges♡♡♡

It’ll make me happy if you enjoyed this, so hopes to you did!

(apologies for the procrastination, and thank you for your patience lovelies!)

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celaenaeiln · 1 year ago

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I feel like Dick is good at making everyone view him as an equal, even when it’s not in his best interest. It’s not because he can’t reach their level or bring them up to his ofc (it’s one of his strengths!), but it leaves people looking for him in roles he shouldn’t necessarily be in. For instance, Bruce relied on a literal child to balance out his weaknesses because Dick went out of his way to be seen as a partner and friend, someone he could open up to, and that got in the way of his own needs. Then people like Deathstroke and other criminals look for him as an accomplice because he knows how to appear sympathetic while simultaneously making his skill set appeal to them, and while having their potential interest can be advantageous (like making team ups, deals, and truces easier), it’s also proven to be a pain with how their villainous disputes get personal. Obviously they’re already on opposing sides, but Dick doing what he set out to do suddenly stings if he doesn’t make the move to smooth things over. Making himself into an equal is a VERY good quality of his that I adore, but I thought it’d be fun to share some of the repercussions to it and make you think!

og post in reference

Anon, sorry for the wait, but you had me speechless.

This is such a brilliantly written speech about Dick's relationships and the impacts that I was frankly stunned by the beauty of it.

As you said, everyone relies on Dick to do everything for them. As Robin, it was mainly Bruce, the Titans, and a little Slade.

But a negative side effect of a child forced to become the equal to genius adults and metas is it results in massive insecurities and frustrations when those adults take away those responsibilities. The reason Dick wanted to quit being Robin in his later years is because he felt overwhelmingly like Bruce was treating him like a child. He had spent a decade by Bruce's side doing the exact same things. At 15 he was driving a batplane by himself while Bruce was canoodling in the back with someone. It's not even just meeting expectations, he was talking a guardianship role and responsibilities.

"Then people like Deathstroke and other criminals look for him as an accomplice because he knows how to appear sympathetic while simultaneously making his skill set appeal to them, and while having their potential interest can be advantageous (like making team ups, deals, and truces easier), it’s also proven to be a pain with how their villainous disputes get personal."

fantastic

Robin: Year One Issue #4

Because that is exactly what Dick does. He runs away from Bruce and goes undercover in Shrike's academy, an League of Assassins Instructor and he becomes the star pupil.

Robin: Year One Issue #4

The betrayal Shrike feels, it enrages him. He would've paved the entire way for him, praised him to the heavens, done everything for his pupil because he was so amazed, impressed, with Dick. He's never had another student like him.

But Dick was never really on his side

Robin: Year One Issue #4

The crying boy is Boone, the next Shrike and the one who gets defeated easily time and time again by Dick as Nightwing.

But putting his aside, the original Shrike feels the same was as Deathstroke does.

Dick's skillset is so good he easily impresses meta being and assassins but on top of which he has the emotional range to play them like a fiddle. When the villains finally realize, they're hurt and betrayed and outrages because they fell so hard for his charms and talents they never saw the betrayal coming.

Just like Slade never thought Dick would turn Rose on him.

He just has a special kind of talent that lets him do that. That's why like you said all his fights are so personal. Because his enemies know him but he knows them too and they both know what he did.

Obviously they’re already on opposing sides, but Dick doing what he set out to do suddenly stings if he doesn’t make the move to smooth things over.

That's right because betrayal isn't betrayal if they were always on your side. So when he doesn't reach out, it hurts and angers them because they fell for him and he didn't fall for them and for egotistical maniacs and people at the top of their game who don't believe in someone greater, that's unacceptable.

#dick grayson #robin dick grayson #nightwing #bruce wayne #batman #slade wilson #deathstroke #the shrike #cl anon asks #thanks for the ask!

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meracyn · 1 month ago

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Could we please get general relationship headcanons for Cana, Lisanna, and Lucy? Thank you!

relationship hc’s with lisanna, cana & lucy !

my bad for posting this late i wrote half of it last night and got busy today so i just finished it rn lmao + yakult is so yummy giys u should try it trust but the bottles r small asf :((

lisanna strauss !

she’s probs the clingy type though

ok this one was a bit hard since.. i never really paid attention to lisanna lmao

ill do my best to make it at least barely lisanna-like 💀

very protective (it runs in the family 100%)

despite not being on the same level as mira for example, lisanna will always do her best to make sure you are safe

pretty playful, might result in her shifting into her take-over forms to show you how many she can change into

training together constantly, lisanna strives to become stronger, having you training with her boosts her confidence and motivation to be as powerful as her siblings

is aware she doesn’t have the higher potential as them but still tries to be optimistic and not let that insecurity get to her

can be reckless at times/impulsive, basically thinks with her feelings and not brain; but yk if someone she cares about is in danger, which includes you

petting any animals you both see together during your missions

owning one too most definitely, if you don’t mind it

asks mirajane for relationship advice constantly, since mira and elfman approved of you two dating, lisanna doesn’t want to disappoint them and be as much of a good girlfriend she can be

always nice to you, never wants to hurt your feelings

whenever you need help, lisanna will try her best to help you out and think of a solution

really sweet gf

cana alberona !

as soon as everyone gets the news that cana has a partner they’re all most likely relieved

you automatically have the duty of handling cana whenever she gets drunk

cana is wandering off drunk in town?

“y/n cana’s drunk go get her”

cana is stirring up fights with other drunkards at the guild?

“y/n calm your girlfriend down”

cana passed out?

“y/n, cana—”

“i knOW DAMMIT”

you love cana of course but sometimes it does become too much 😭

if you drink along with her it just causes more trouble in the guild

cana would probably be fighting some random and you’d be cheering her on while being drunk too

if you don’t, cana’s influence might cause you to do so, unless you’re really firm in not drinking, it’d be a good thing since the guild wouldn’t need to worry about more chaos and destruction of objects lmao

reckless, drunk gf + levelheaded, sober s/o = good balance, everyone is happy

reckless, drunk gf + drunk as well s/o = bringers of chaos, everyones backs are breaking due to the pain

you both might have flirting competitions, whoever makes the other blush first wins

she probably wins though lmao

lucy heartfilia !

most of the time when you both want to spend time together, it ends up being interrupted by natsu and happy wanting to join in (or abruptly going along without asking lmao)

throws his arms over you both’s shoulders and asks “what are we doing today?” oblivious to the fact you and lucy were going to go out to have dinner

dw he gets scolded or even smacked and he backs off

whenever lucy gets new clothes or a cute accessory she bought, she always asks for your opinion

yk the whole twirling while asking “how do i look?” to you

will love it if you buy her dresses, skincare products, etc.

lets you read her writing drafts and appreciates it when you give her advice on any sort of improvement or anything– when levy is busy, lucy asks if you could proofread too

hmm perhaps matching bracelets ?? lucy would be so happy if you offer to match or already bought a set and tell her about it

going on walks, missions together, to a cafe or library, restaurants and parties too

lucy is just outgoing and the thought of spending more time with her partner makes it more enjoyable

that’s why she puts in extra effort in looking better for you

very happy gf moment if you compliment her on how beautiful she looks or the clothes she has on looks good on her

maybe cooking together if there’s nothing to do, doing the chores around your shared apartment together too

lucy probably buys you perfume and stuff she thinks you’d like, or books if you love them

gets her relationship tips from novels she’s read lmao as she gets too embarrassed in asking any of her friends + knows she will get teased endlessly about it

they’re all happy for her though, good for you

#fairy tail #i finished this so late sorry chat #lisanna strauss #lisanna strauss x reader #lucy heartfilia x reader #cana alberona x reader #anime #x female reader #x male reader #x gender neutral reader #fluff #relationships #lucy heartfilia #cana alberona #headcannons #meracyn #tired rn lmao #yakult is so yUMMY

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radiant-reid · 2 years ago

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Summary: Spencer and reader’s mission in Afghanistan finished years ago until both of them are taken hostage and tortured for information (based on 9x14 with Spencer and Reader instead of Cruz and JJ)

Pairing: Spencer Reid x Fem!Reader (angst)

Content Warning: Attempted rape (no rape takes place but reader gets sexually assaulted, please don’t read if this triggers you), descriptions of torture

Word Count: 2.4k

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This is not where Y/n’s meant to be.

She isn’t exactly sure where she should be right now since the hours have escaped her, but wherever it is, it’s not with her arms above her head, chained to the ceiling after being brutally tortured while she lays on the floor and waits for the next assault. The chilliness of the room is the least of her concern.

It had to have been close to a day, nearly 24 hours of entire body pain. She has been hurt by unsubs before, taking a punch to the eye, being knocked onto concrete by a bomb, or being hit in the back of the head, but this is different. What she feels is blinding pain running through every vein of her body, total agony, likely the result her abductors are striving for.

The only escape is in her head which is pounding so loudly that her brain is barely functioning. She has been hoping for the BAU from the moment she was dragged off into the night with a hand over her mouth that quickly made her lose consciousness. They would have been notified quicker of her disappearance had Spencer noticed when she missed their date, but she has no idea when, or if, they found out.

Technically, Spencer did notice she wasn't at the restaurant at 7:30, but that’s because he’s chained up next to her. It means the BAU is two team members down. If it were just her or Spencer, the other would have easily linked an abduction with this MO back to their joint mission in the middle eastern war zone. It's the same players, code names, and secret numbers.

It was a bad idea to be in Afghanistan. She knew from the moment she was on a jet there that getting involved in such a confidential mission with murky alliances was dangerous, and now she's paying for it, possibly with her life.

The only slightly positive thing is that their mission abroad was the catalyst in her and Spencer’s relationship. They had both been taken from the BAU without explanation to their team members. He’d been recruited for his linguistic abilities, learning Arabic as quickly as he could, and she was there for the feminine presence they needed. It wasn’t appropriate to have an official romantic relationship, and they didn’t have the time, so nothing romantic happened until they got back to DC and were back with the BAU. They’d learned to separate the personal and professional moments overseas during their nighttime talks or card games in the desert, so dating and being agents wasn’t a challenge.

She's hoping they called Emily when they realized they were missing. Although Y/n never went against the oath she swore, there was a conversation just after she got back where Emily picked up on some of the worry pouring out of her friend and tugged slightly at the string that could unravel it all. As well as her international connections, the current BAU team will need what Emily doesn't know she knows.

Penelope had been suspicious of Y/n and Spencer for a while. The secret phone calls and the passionate discussions that halted when someone else walked into the room led her to believe they had either gotten secretly married or were expecting a baby. It was just trivial office gossip which everyone knew was light-hearted fun and not to be taken seriously, but Y/n wished it was that simple.

She’s dreaming about both scenarios as an escape, but the logical part of her brain prepared her to accept that this is it: she and Spencer will never have any of that because they’re about to die.

Like thinking about her beat-up boyfriend beside her, thinking about the BAU makes her want to cry, knowing she might never see them again. They're her family of many years, and none of them needs more tragedy.

She caves first, appearing to put her passcode in. If the team is where she thinks they’ll be in their investigation, Penelope will get the panic code, and they’ll be saved. It’s what she’s desperately hoping for when she types it into the computer.

They need Spencer’s, too, but the BAU needs time, and the profiler in her knows how she can stall. Tivon Askari is a torturer and a follower, not a leader, but she knows who is.

“Okay, it’s enough.” She declares. “Come out.”

“Who are you talking to?” Askari demands.

She’s not going to get a positive reaction, but this is valuable time for the BAU. She doesn’t have much left to give, laying on the concrete floor covered in bruises and blood, but she’s going to give everything she’s got. It’s what Spencer once told her he admired about her, and it’s a descriptor worth dying for.

“Not you, to your boss.” She clarifies. “Come out and face me, you coward.”

Spencer sees Michael Hastings first when the door opens, but Y/n doesn’t bother to look back, knowing she’s right.

“How’d you know?” Hastings asks, strolling into the room.

If Spencer wasn’t so wrapped up in calculating the probability they get out alive and profiling their former colleague turned traitor, he’d be thinking about how smart she was for figuring it out.

“Askari couldn’t know about Spencer and me.” She tells him. “Not even our unit chief in the BAU knew, but we were just about to kiss one time before you walked in with a message from the BAU.”

She remembered it fondly. How tanned Spencer looked, how they were technically breaking the rules by sitting on the lookout post instead of in their tents, and how pretty the sunset was, despite how horrible everything around them was.

“The Humvee attack proved there was an inside man.” She continues.

“And look at what it cost you.” Hastings taunts her.

The answer is everything.

“You can threaten to kill me.” She informs him, not breaking eye contact. “Spencer won’t give you what you want.”

“She’s right,” Askari confirms, carefully watching Spencer with the laptop on the floor.

“Don’t I know it.” Hastings’s voice moves as he walks behind her, stopping where she can’t see him and doesn’t know what he’s doing until the chains drag her up and off the floor forcefully.

The stretch on her arms is painful, especially when she’s feeling so weakened already, and her breathing deepens as she grunts.

“But I also know you, Spencer.” Hastings continues, walking back to Y/n.

Spencer’s torn. He knows Hastings is going to punch her or make her bleed, and what type of a boyfriend is he if he lets that happen? The only way he can stop it is by handing over his code and betraying his country, then they’re both dead. Still, Y/n’s message wasn’t just to Hastings. She was telling Spencer not to give him the code, even if the threat of violence was there. He’s seen them hurt her, so he just has to put up with it for as long as it takes the BAU to get here.

Hastings’s hands gravitate to her hips, thumbs touching the bare skin of her waist that’s exposed when her arms are above her head. “And what line you won’t let me cross.” He reminds Spencer.

Y/n’s breath hitches in her throat when she feels his hands dip along her ass. She knows what this is. If he’s behind everything that happened to Nadia Mubari, she’s about to meet the same fate. The pit of her stomach sinks as she informs herself of what is about to happen, like it’s going to make the suffering more manageable.

It’s surprising a sexual sadist managed to withhold this long, but there’s a reason he waited, knowing it would be the ultimate move to get them to surrender.

She knows she’s not meant to show fear but she can’t look at Hastings as he stalks over to her, still talking to Spencer. “And I don’t blame you. She’s an attractive woman.”

In one move, he grabs Y/n’s chin in his hand, forcing her to look at him, like the dead look in her eyes is a turn-on for him.

“Don’t you dare touch her!” Spencer yells, finally breaking.

“No more games,” Hastings tells him, forcing Y/n’s head back as he looks across the room. “I want Integrity, and she’s the price.” Then he pulls her head forward again, not at all helping her pounding headache.

“No, no.” She resists, trying to keep space between them. She still hasn’t accepted what’s about to happen, but she repeats the fact to herself: she’s going to get raped and Spencer’s going to be forced to watch.

His hand drifts to her lower stomach, fingers spread across her shirt as he rubs circles, pushing her shirt upward. All her muscles tense at once, and she’s hyper-aware of every nerve ending. “Maybe I’ll fuck you better than he does.” He suggests.

Y/n’s heart beats quicker and harder, so painfully she wants to throw up. He’s so close to her, where she can smell his musky scent, and he’s touching her somewhere no one but Spencer has touched in a long time.

It’s intimate, that part of her skin and it sickens her that someone’s touching it and she can’t fight him off. “I’ve always wanted to.” He confesses, voice deep as if it’s romantic. She’s begging herself to space out, let it happen to her body while shifting her mind somewhere else.

Fresh tears appear in her eyes when he starts unbuttoning her shirt. Her plan to not show fear so he can’t get off is gone in a second. It’s all too real.

His hands don’t feel like Spencer’s. It’s not that time at her apartment, the first time, when Spencer undressed her in the living room, admiring her before letting her lead him to the bedroom. It’s not that time in his apartment, both of them slightly wine drunk, as he frantically unbuttoned her top between frantic kisses.

“Take your time, Spencer,” Hastings tells him. “I know I’m going to take mine.”

“Spencer, don’t,” Y/n tells her boyfriend, despite every part of her willing this to not happen. Dutiful until the very end, that’s what Spencer admired about her. “I’m fine. I’m fine.” She repeats as Hastings starts on her pants, the back of his fingers against her lower stomach. It’s an assurance to herself as well. “I’m fine.” She manages between gulps of oxygen. She can feel the heat and excitement radiating off his body.

Spencer breaks at the look in her eyes. It’s predictable, really, probably why this was Hastings’s strategy. “Okay, okay, enough. Just stop!” He yells. “Just stop.” It comes out as more of a whimper that time.

Hastings does stop, and Y/n wishes she could believe it was over. He focuses on the laptop being brought in front of Spencer, all of them waiting for him to type in code that’ll put valuable information in the hands of the wrong people.

Hastings tells his footsoldier which files to download while stroking Y/n’s hair back harshly. Spencer sits there wondering if he’d done the right thing, jeopardizing so many people’s lives just because he couldn’t watch his girlfriend be raped. It’s selfish, especially when she was so selfless as she promised the room she could take it.

Then Spencer gets dragged up by Askari, arms yanked above his head, but at least Hastings has left Y/n alone. He’ll take any amount of pain to keep it that way.

The lights flickering off is not what anyone expected, clear from the look on their captors' faces. It’s the BAU. She knows it deep inside her, but she can’t get too excited. Not when Hastings and Askari have been planning this for so long and can do deadly damage in seconds.

She’s listening to their conversation about escaping, taking it all in so she can relay it to the team when they get there. They both grimace when Askari slices their inferior's neck open, a clean gash that has him dead in seconds.

Hastings walks over to her, hand on her stomach as he pulls her wiggling body into his chest to whisper in her ear. “Sorry, sweetheart. I was excited to have you.”

He turns and leaves the room, nodding to Askari, who, predictably, isn’t about to leave Y/n and Spencer alive. He holds his knife firmly as he replaces Hastings’s position behind Y/n, ready to murder her.

Their farewell must have taken too long, though, because Hotch and Emily bust through the door at the right moment, neither hesitating to shoot Askari.

“Em.” Y/n whimpers as her friend hurriedly unfastens her chains, Hotch doing the same thing to Spencer. She didn’t know she had any more tears left to cry, but these ones are of relief. “I knew they’d call you.” She pants out, landing on her feet as Emily helps her to the floor. She doubles over trying to get her breathing right.

“Shh.” Emily tries to calm her, working on getting the shackles off her feet. “We’re here, we made it.”

Y/n nods, coming off the high from all that adrenaline pumping through her body. She hears Hotch talking into his comms about Hastings fleeing to the room, but she’s focused on slowing her heart rate.

“Y/n.” It’s Spencer’s voice, right near her. She recognizes it and stands up so quickly it makes her head spin.

All that matters is hugging him. No comfort comes close to being in his arms, feeling her chest firm against hers while he rests his cheek against hers. They stand there and cry together for a moment, relieved, hurt, but ultimately going to be okay. It’s the moment they’ve been waiting for all of those terrifying hours.

He pulls away to cradle her face in his big palms. “Are you okay?” He asks seriously, and not just about her superficial features.

“Better now.” She assures him. It’s going to take time and therapy, but with Spencer by her side, she’ll recover. “You?”

He sucks in a breath, nodding. “Now I am.” He answers. “We’re okay. We’ll be okay.”

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hhave-a-nice-day · 1 year ago

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ripping my hair out screaming throwing up being spiderman as a metaphor for being queer the essay is writing itself okay okay okay. so the metaphor is more interpretation in the first one but not this time baby!!!!! they fully went into it okay okay listen. being spiderman means being queer. gwen doesn’t come out to her father because she fears rejection the same way that miles does. they both fear their parents asking why they “lied” to them about who they are which queer people sometimes get when they come out, that they have been hiding and lying to their loved ones. when gwen does come out she does not get a good response and therefore she runs away to be with more spider people (i e more queer people). miles has been feeling alone and once gwen is back he no longer feels like he’s alone and when he sees the life she gets to live with all these other queer people, he wants in. HOWEVER. his experiences of being queer are not the norm, they’re not what everyone else experiences, and he doesn’t want the experiences to be the same. he doesn’t want to be in pain and he doesn’t want others to be either. as a result, he’s shunned by the people who should be a part of his community and should be the ones to accept him no matter what. it could be argued that this is a metaphor for assimilationist queer and radical queers. the people who believe you have to fit in/suffer to be accepted and the people who are loud and angry and won’t stand for that. when gwen comes back it turns out that her father was going to accept her after he reflected and realized that she was more important than any preconceptions he had about her based on who she was (also do not get me started on the trans colors in the scene where she’s talking to her dad. something something trans (color) coding on a scene where a person demands respect and demands that the other person know that they are not a danger and simply doing their best to be good in a massive movie that many people are going to watch in the midst of horrifying anti trans violence i Will cry). as a result of realizing that they don’t need to conform and be what anyone tells them to be both inside their community and out, they create their own community where they can make the change that they need to. i think that’s most of what i have to say. i need to watch this movie several more times.

#this may be completely incoherent #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #across the spider verse spoilers #and also don’t get me started on how the scenes of the kids telling their parents that they’re spiderman #TOTALLY read as coming out scenes. like 100%#anyways gwen stacy trans #hobie brown trans #miles morales trans #spiderman trans #i could keep going

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intimidating-fettuccine · 2 months ago

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Aaaa! You are like my favorite creepypasta blog! I love all the stuff you do so much! Would you be willing to go like a bit more into lyra and Toby's relationship or something like that? I find them super interesting, If you've already done that and I forgot sorry!

Hellloooo I’m glad you like my stuff so much! ^^ I’m gonna provide a link if you click right here to my Toby character analysis, which is where I went into his background and in that is the basis of his relationship with Lyra, but I don’t mind giving you some rambles about them as well :)

So as I say in the character analysis, in my canon Toby and Lyra both suffered incredibly at the hands of their father’s abuse. As Toby can’t feel pain, their father often used Lyra and abused her in front of him as it affected Toby the most. When not being abused, Toby and Lyra were always huddled up together in each other’s arms, and despite being the one physically harmed the most, Lyra was always comforting Toby, reassuring him that she was okay, and that he didn’t need to be so worried about her.

Lyra couldn’t stand the sight of Toby always being so distressed as a result of the abuse, and she always tried her best to cheer him up and make him feel better. Toby to this day still remembers the stories that Lyra would tell him to distract him, and he often repeats them to himself in his mind as a way to calm down and distract himself from anything bothering him.

I’ve always had this headcanon in the back of my mind that Lyra had a bracelet that she would wear all the time. After her and their father’s death, when Toby was packing up to run away one of the things he took with him was that bracelet. He’s worn it every day since, except when he’s on missions or training as he doesn’t want it to get damaged, and it’s his most prized possession.

I think he really got his affectionate nature from Lyra. As I said before they were often holding each other when their dad wasn’t around, and I think she would hold his hand a lot to remind him that she was there with him, and their mom would do the same, the three of them always in contact in some way as it was the only comfort they could provide each other when living through hell together. As Toby no longer has his sister to fill that void anymore, he gets pretty clingy with the people he’s close to in the mansion, since he still desperately wants all of that affection and they’re the only ones that can provide it to him. If he has a partner, that’s why he’s always clinging to you and wanting as much affection as he can gather from his s/o. If he doesn’t, like I said, he tries to get it from the creeps, and I think he most often clings to Slender/Tim/Brian/Jane/BEN. It’s not uncommon for him to be wandering around holding hands with one of them or clinging to them in a hug.

Toby also tells stories about Lyra a lot, sometimes the same ones over and over again, because he doesn’t want to forget anything about her. I think his mom also tells him stories a lot about Lyra, things he wouldn’t remember or know because he was her younger brother, and it always brings him joy. If he’s dating you, he especially likes to tell you stories about her, and he always says that he thinks Lyra would have loved you, which usually makes both of you cry together. If you ever ask him to talk about Lyra though, it makes him so incredibly excited.

I hope this quenches your Toby and Lyra lore thirst for the day because this went on way longer than I meant it to, but if you ever have specific questions always feel free to assskkkk

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What was it like when OJV style first started dating? I’m rereading OJV for the 100th time and I live for early teen style fluff lmaoo them being dorks with each other makes me happy

Aaaaaaa my sweet awkward boys!!! Oh my goodness Stan just bumbling out a “dudeireallyloveyouandimgladyouredoingbetterholyshitdidijustsaythat” and Kyle laughing and saying he loves him too and then they’re texting all “wait does this mean we’re boyfriends now”. And when they tell their families everyone’s confused bc they thought they were already dating lmfao.

These poor babies had NO idea what to do at first, but it ended up being pretty similar to how they’d always acted, just with more hand holding and kissing (simps). OJV style was always pretty much attached at the hip, and that definitely doesn’t change when they start dating, it just results in more overthinking at first.

And ofc those codependent losers were always very give and take, Stan says those three little words first and Kyle considers it his responsibility to initiate the first kiss (day 4 of my Style Week fic those gay idiots kissin under the stars ugh I love them so bad) and they’re both trying SO hard. I will absolutely never apologize for Stan’s dorky ass deciding the best way to impress his boyfriend is to learn fucking ELVISH and what’s more it WORKS goddamn losers one of my favorite things in OJV canon tbh.

As for group dynamic when they get together, Cartman naturally says some shit like “whatever, as long as you too faglings don’t fuck up the broship” (yes Kyle punched him for that) like he’s not secretly over the moon bc Cartman is a shipper through and through. Kenny and Marj are super supportive to the point it’s embarrassing and Kenny ofc has to tease them relentlessly.

Now y’all know a very important thing to me about OrangeJuiceVerse style is the size difference, but they start dating freshman year and Stan is only like two inches taller than kyles 5’7 (little do they know Stanathan is gonna shoot up while Kyle’s done growing lmao angry short king) this makes kissing much easier since they’re on the same level, but come junior year when Stan hits that last growth spurt? Bro gets HUGE and Kyle is at first bothered (until he sees him sweaty and very Boy after practice hehe). Naturally this brings me to the Style Carry™️, which, in OJV canon, occurred for the first time ever in A Fall In The Springtime. And that was only because Kyle didn’t really have a choice and couldn’t say no to Stan’s knight in shining armor complex. Ngl I think that whole ordeal is what awakened Kyle’s pain kink bc being carried up the steps after being hurt in a basketball game was really sweet and Stan was just too doting and adorable. They’re both down horrendous.

Of course it’s crucial to me that they’re super best friends at the root of their romantic relationship. They still joke around, tease each other, act like typical teenage boys and get into shenanigans. They’ll hold each other’s hands after taking bets on who can build the tallest snowman though.

They grow up together, and thus do a lot of learning together. Stans only relationship experience is his childhood fling with Wendy, and Kyle’s relationships have never been more than a passing experiment. They figure it out together, with a lot of (often misguided) advice from the rest of the gang. Their parents probably aren’t any help, because the dads are pretty useless and their moms are overbearing to the point of frustration so they kind of wing it and do what feels natural. After all, super best boyfriends is really only a step up from super best friends, and no one will ever understand them the same

#god i love them #south park #them #style #lmm voice: look at my son #look at this i learned something today ass bitch #OrangeJuiceVerse #asks #PCE answers things

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the-river-rix · 3 months ago

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Bones hcs series‼️

In this series I’m gonna just be dumping a bunch of my hcs surrounding different relationships and characters in Bones, because I’m insane and need to get my thoughts out somehow!

I will very happily take requests on ships/characters!! My ask box is always open!

This was inspired by a conversation with @sourcandyceo so ty!

Hcs below the break!

Zack x Sweets hcs

I think they would sing/play music together and (in a reality where Zack is free and Sweets is alive at thr same time) they are karaoke partners

They’re T4T and end up bonding over it when Zack mentions that Hodgin’s paid for his top surgery

They both really like physical touch once they get close with each other

Sweets loves playing with Zack’s hair especially

They play chess together (Zack is astounded and a little mad when Sweets wins)

Zack goes from (mainly) calling him Dr Sweets to Sweets to Lance as they get closer

Booth makes fun of/complains about Sweets liking Zack until Sweets calls him homophobic

They get into heated discussions/debates over sci-fi movies (and other shared stereotypically nerdy interests they’re both shown to have), mainly a debate over whether Firefly or Star Wars is better (Zack on team Firefly-he’s right- and Sweets on team star wars)

Zack actually really likes nicknames and terms of endearment (as seen with Hodgins and Cam in particular) and when Sweets catches on he starts using a bunch of them with Zack (Zacko, Zackaroni, Addy, etc) one time he accidentally calls him Zaddy in an attempt to start a new nickname and is mortified (this goes over Zack’s head completely)

Sweets gives him a weekly update on the cases they’ve solved, with details and sometimes photos

Sweets loves Zack’s freckles/moles

Zack agrees to let Sweets (attempt) to teach him psychology if he lets Zack teach him anthropology/complex math

They’re terrible at flirting because most of Sweets’s flirting goes over Zack’s head and most of Zack’s flirting are complimentary statements without a clear tone

Those are some of my sillier ones these are some of my sadder ones

Sweets helps Zack with his lasting nerve damage chronic pain and scar tissue care needed due to the explosion using tricks he learned growing up to cope with the injuries he suffered due to abuse

Zack is deeply jealous of Sweet’s relationship with Brennan and Booth and struggles to understand that Sweets found the familial love and validation he craved from them

Sweets is deeply jealous of the level of respect and professional validation Zack receives from Booth and Brennan

Zack ends up developing c-ptsd and suffers from flashbacks and severe nightmares as a result, and Sweets tries to help him cope but Zack is too guarded to let him help much

Sweets is quietly jealous and a little resentful of Zack’s massive ‘loving’ family because of how he grew up (only child, adopted, bad foster homes )

Zack’s family doesn’t visit him (hes basically disowned) because of how horrified they are about Gormogon (they called him a freak just because he worked with bones I doubt they’d try to empathize with alleged murder and potential cannibalism), when Sweets finds out he’s both guilty for being jealous and furious about it- he almost calls Zack’s family but he asks him not to

Zack ends up trusting Sweets enough to tell him details and stories about Iraq and Gormogon that he never tells anyone else

He thinks of Sweets every time he sees his reflection and his scar (post s10)

Zack develops a habit/stim of rubbing his head scar when he’s upset because it makes him feel closer to Sweets

After getting out Zack visits Sweets’s grave regularly, to return the care shown by Sweets through his weekly mental facility visits

#bones hc #bones #bones tv #bones 2005 #bones hc series #lance sweets #zack addy #Dr Lance Sweets #Dr Zack Addy #zack/sweets #Zack x Sweets #polar duo

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mamuscript · 1 year ago

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They Had To

After we watched the season finale - and then rewatched it, then rewatched both seasons, then watched about a hundred hours of YouTube edits (that last one may have been just me) - we had an hours-long argument about who was “at fault.” After the last ten agonizing minutes of GO2, my hubba was very anti-Aziraphale.

I can’t really blame him for feeling that way - that “I Forgive You” is seared into my soul in a way I’m not ready to forgive Mr. Gaiman for, yet. It was crushing, and the way you could see the hope draining from Crowley is a study in expertise by David Tennant.

I heard someone say recently that you know a storyteller has done their job when you get to the end and, however much you never saw it coming before, once you arrive there, it seems as inevitable as the sun rising in the morning.

This is the beauty, the agony, and the absolute mastery of the final fifteen minutes of GO2.

Because neither Crowley or Aziraphale could have done anything else in that scene.

Crowley was cast out of Heaven for what we have reason to believe was a minor infraction. He’s spent millenia witnessing the cruelty, unfairness, and incompetence of Heaven. He looked into Gabriel’s face as the archangel told (who he believed to be) Aziraphale to shut his stupid mouth and die, already. In the deleted scenes, we see that he witnessed Heaven giving a demon permission to humiliate Aziraphale, just for fun, before they killed him - which is the height of cruelty; cruelty for cruelty’s sake. There is no question in Crowley’s mind that Heaven are the bad guys just as much as Hell - possibly more so, since they wear a cloak of righteousness while they commit their atrocities. At least Hell is honest about what they’re doing.

There’s no world in which Crowley could ever agree to go back to working for Heaven, and part of the pain of that scene is that if Aziraphale had taken a moment to really think about it, he would have realized that.

But.

First (and I identify with this way too strongly), Aziraphale is a company man. He knows that there are problems in middle management, but he still believes in the rightness and goodness of God. As far as he’s concerned, Heaven isn’t the archangels or the Metatron; Heaven is God. And while God, as far as he knows, is responsible for the eviction from Eden, and for the flood, and for allowing humans who start off in abject poverty to be judged by the same standards as those who are given more advantages, he also truly believes in the ineffability of God. He was told, long ago, that all of these things are part of the Ineffable Plan, and Aziraphale would never think to believe that anybody was deceiving him - either intentionally or otherwise - without being explicitly told so.

And crucially, he hasn’t seen what Crowley has seen. He didn’t witness - and hasn’t been told about - whatever transgression Crowley committed that resulted in his fall, and however much he has grown to love Crowley for who the demon has become alongside him, he doesn’t have enough information to know that Crowley didn’t deserve to be cast out at the time. And Aziraphale was not there when Gabriel told him to die; he didn’t look into Gabriel’s face and see the pure, cold malevolence there, the proof that however much goodness there may still be in God, She isn’t actively calling the shots, and the beings who are are ruthless and capable of malevolence. He hasn’t had that experience and doesn’t have that depth of understanding.

But most importantly, Aziraphale is, at his core, a being of justice, of love, of goodness. He has seen things like the flood, he knows there are problems, and he has been powerless in the face of them - but now, he can help. “I can make a difference,” he says. Aziraphale, because of his core nature, cannot see an opportunity to make the world and Heaven a better place and not seize it.

He can’t have made any choice other than the one he made. And if Crowley had taken a moment to really think about it, he would have known that he was asking the impossible.

So, for my money, the tragedy of that scene didn’t begin when Crowley said, “And you told him just where he can stick it, then?” even though that was the beginning of the most painful moments of the series, perhaps of all of television (at least for me). All of that - Crowley’s rejection of Heaven, Aziraphale’s rejection of Crowley’s declaration of love, their brutal separation - was inevitable the second the Metatron put the offer on the table.

(Which, among other things, means that the Metatron is a deeply manipulative villain.) That’s what makes the final scene so riveting, so painful. It’s not only that we want these two beings to be happy and in love and together, and due to pride and miscommunication they aren't. It’s that with who each of them is in their soul, as things currently stand, they are incapable of being together.

#good omens #crowley #aziraphale #neil gaiman #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #aziracrow

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oneweirdbookaddict · 1 year ago

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Whumptober day 20!

Time and the shadow have a little talk…

1001 words

Warnings- mentions of death, being doomed by the narrative. Let me know if there should be more!

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This is going to work. We’ve got this, Wars had said with a smile. Twi grins excitedly back, high fiving the sailor.

“We’re gonna win.” Wild nodded, a grin stretching across his face.

They’re hopeful. Excited. Have a plan.

Hopeful. They were so hopeful.

The town burns, and he’s reminded of his time in Castle Town after waking up after his seven year sleep.

The pale red sky from flames, ash and smoke making the air hard to breathe and painful in his lungs.

Dark Link walks closer to him, face stony. “Hero of Time. How’s your failure feel?”

“About as good as that wound in your side feels.” He spits, scowling at the shadow.

A small chuckle.

“And how does it feel knowing your friends are dead? Gone? As a result of your failure?”

His lips twist into a snarl, refusing to believe it.

As if reading his mind, the shadow speaks again. “Don’t believe me? Twilight and Wind were trying to evacuate villagers. It took several of my beasts to take them down. Fought ferociously, those two. Protective to the very end. Wars was leading offense with Legend and Sky. Wild and Four were archers backing them up. Hyrule was with the town medic, trying to help the injured. Always so selfless, that one. He was so exhausted from magical usage that it was easy to take him down.”

He growls, lunging at the shadow but freezing before he reaches it. Dark Link laughs. “Ah ah ah, Hero of Time. There’s none of that, now. I won fair and square.”

“You’ll regret touching them.” He snarls, baring his teeth. “You’ll pay for their pain.”

“Oh, Time. You should know better than anyone- that’s a price that can’t be repaid.”

“You’ll suffer three times what they did. You won’t win. We’re destined for success- I know my future.”

Dark Link snarls, now, expression twisting. “You’re destined for failure after failure after failure! All you heroes are so foolish! Why do you think you’ve all faced Ganon?! You fail! And you fail again! And again! It’s not a pattern- it’s a curse! The cycle can’t be broken! You’re destined to fail again and again! Your descendants suffer endlessly, doomed to face the same battles you did!”

His blood chills. “No.”

The shadow shakes its head. “You fool.” But it’s almost pitying, no longer angry. “You haven’t made that connection? Your boy Twilight faced Ganon. Wind faced Ganon- he actually killed him rather than sealed him away. His timeline is safe- for now. Ganon returns. Ganon always returns- and he wants his vengeance. The pitiful thing you call your success only leads to your descendants suffering. Sealing Ganon isn’t permanent. You caused your descendants pain with your failure.”

“That’s why you side with him.”

A small smile. “Ganon wants to break the curse. That’s all he wants. Will it come at a cost? Yes. But think about what’s going to come of it. One more person will suffer rather than a whole bloodline. It can be ended, Hero of Time. You’re wiser than the others- you understand, don’t you? We can stop the cycle.”

His mind races, but he shakes his head. “No.”

A frown. “No?”

“It can’t be broken. Not by us, not by Zelda, not by Ganon. You said it’s a curse- Ganon succeeding won’t stop the curse, either. A hero will rise and take Ganon down. And the cycle will just continue. Legend’s from a timeline where the hero died- another hero came along and defeated Ganon. The cycle won’t be broken.”

That surprises the shadow. “Legend- wh… you lie!”

“I don’t.”

The shadow is agitated now, pacing around. “No… I see. I understand. It’s a lie. It’s all a lie.”

“I-”

“Ganon lied… I see. No… he doesn’t know.”

Dark Link looks at him, expression… odd.

“I will return you back. Before this happened. New information has been understood, and I believe we both need time to think it over.”

“Wait-”

“Until next time, Hero of Time.” The shadow says, and the world grows fuzzy and spins until he can’t look anymore and closes his eyes.

Then he hears the sounds of his teammates moving around, their soft conversation and laughter.

He can hear Wars and Wind arguing as they both laugh, Legend’s voice hiding laughter as he takes sides, Twi’s laughter and Wild’s as food is being cooked. The sounds of a sword being taken care of, cleaned and polished, Four’s quiet voice explaining what he’s doing and Hyrule asking questions.

When he drags his eye open, Sky’s nestled next to him, fast asleep on his shoulder.

A blanket covers them, Sky’s arm wrapped around it sleepily.

“Hey, Old Man!” Wind says happily upon seeing him. “You’re up, great, can you tell Wars that the ocean is aqua, not turquoise?”

He looks blearily at the captain, repeating Wind’s words as the sailor laughs and Wars looks incredibly offended.

“You’re not even going to hear my argument? Ok, Old Man, I knew the sailor was your favorite.”

He can’t help but to smile, draping an arm over Sky. “There’s no argument to be made. The ocean is aqua, that’s where the name comes from.”

“But if you compare aqua to the ocean, they don’t match!” Wars argues, and he laughs as Wind argues back.

“I still think the sky is aqua.” Legend mutters, and both the captain and the sailor turn on the veteran.

Four gives a sigh from the other side of camp, smiling gently and meeting his eyes. “They’ve been at it for an hour.”

Hyrule snickers as he smiles again, shaking his head.

He has no idea if he just had the weirdest dream of his life, or… or if he had some sort of vision… or… if it was real and he just accidentally made a temporary alliance with their enemy.

But he looks around, and his newfound family is happy, safe, and very much alive and well, so he’ll worry about it later.

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#whumptober2023 #whumptober writing #no. 20 #blanket #found family #you’ll regret touching them #linked universe #death tw #linkeduniverse #time Lu #Lu time #time linked universe #linked universe time #no beta we die like time’s self control #lu dark link #lu dink #dark link lu #dink lu #my writing

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raydianbluesandhues · 9 months ago

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any de blob hcs? he my favorite dude

Navi here!

I RISE FROM THE DEPTHS to talk about my favorite guy

i have been. Dead i am so glad someone asked about him. finally my autism

Anyways

I have stated before (though rather vaguely) that Blob is not Raydian, but is instead a subspecies known as Ultrechian/Ultrechter (doesn’t matter, same thing)! They’re basically opportunistic carnivores that, while they also mainly eat fruits like Raydians do, WILL eat meat if given the option. They’re almost the same thing as Raydians from a biological standpoint, with the only difference being they can process negative energy in food form.

And then I realize I never made that post about them like I said I would, so we’re going to make this a multi-topic post now! Buckle up because I really like to ramble

Everything in this specific universe is made up of some form of energy. Color Energy is regarded as “positive energy”. It’s what plants and animals and most living creatures are made of. Color Energy is the diluted form of Pure Energy, which comes directly from the sun and dilutes as it comes into contact with Raydia (and other planets). Think of it like a prism, if it makes it any easier.

Raydians have thinner skin that allows them to take in and release Color Energy, similar to how plants function. They are, essentially, walking color energy filters, and most living things act the same way. Color Energy also manifests in the form of emotion, so when a Raydian is in a particularly good mood, they produce more color energy than normal. Negative emotions manifest in the form of Negative Energy, otherwise known as Ink, which is produced in a specific organ that I am going to call an “ink sac” because if you couldn’t tell already I’m not the most creative person when it comes to naming things

Negative Energy and Color Energy are opposites to each other. Too much Negative Energy in one area can completely negate the Color Energy present, and the same can be applied in reverse. Raydians cannot handle a high amount of Negative Energy, and Inkies cannot handle a high amount of Color Energy. They’re both opposing forces.

So what happens when a Color Energy based organism dies?

The thing is that the opposite of Color Energy is Negative Energy, and when it is absent, Negative Energy tends to fill that void. Since it manifests when they are angry or feeling any other negative emotion, when they die, their bodies quickly decompose and start producing a rather alarming amount of ink. It’s why the trees were all dead as well; without color energy, they’re simply dead.

The same thing is applied to animals. It’s why Raydians don’t eat meat: they lack the proper organs to properly process it, and even then what the hell is their body gonna do with it?

Well! Ultrechians know what to do with it!

Ultrechers live in a slightly more hostile environment. Their planet is a bit further away from Raydia, so they aren’t getting a whole lot of Color Energy as a result. So! They have to make do with the energy present. They have thicker skin because of this, which is meant to trap in whatever energy they consume. They eat fruits, which contain high amounts of Color Energy, but another good way of getting energy is by eating things that also contain it.

The only issue with this is that said energy turns into Negative Energy quickly, and this normally wouldn’t be very good,,,,, Ultrechers are built different however. They simply Don’t Give a Shit

The Negative Energy they consume is processed and instead turned into a toxin that is dispelled in their claws and their teeth, basically if they bite or scratch you, you’re going to be in pain for a while. It’s a good way to reuse the Negative Energy that would kill a Raydian in any amount, but also incredibly terrifying if you think about it too much

So anyways, back to Blob and why all of this is even relevant:

Blob was NOT raised on Ultrect. He wasn’t exposed to said low-energy environment, and didn’t develop the proper tools his species normally would. He can’t produce the venom because of how his body reacts to ink. His skin is thin, like a Raydians, due to how his powers function. Any amount of Negative Energy consumed would likely hurt him instead. He gets tempted by meat, but he doesn’t eat it because

1) He would be seen as a fucking freak, more so than he already is

2) His stomach would hurt later. It’s like being lactose intolerant but you actually listen to your gut when it tells you that You Shouldn’t Have Eaten That

He doesn’t even mind eating fruits! It’s one of the few ways he gets his energy, outside of literally sitting in paint all the time. Plus! Fruits taste good! Why would he complain about eating fruit

Oh yeah, it also hurts his stomach

The thing about Color Energy is that too much of it is ALSO a bad thing. It is a very unstable energy source, and if mixed with Negative Energy, can lead to some… unsavory events occurring (black hole). Yes, Negative Energy is a “bad” source of energy, but Color Energy can be lethal as well. Raydians, depending on their size, require a minimum amount of Color Energy to survive, but also have a maximum amount as well. Too much energy can lead to stomachaches and even death in worse cases. Ultrechers also have a limit as to how much Color Energy they can have, and it’s much LESS than Raydians due to their thicker skin.

Even though Blob was raised on Raydia, he is biologically an Ultrechian. His body will tell him that he has had WAY TOO MUCH energy in the form of him throwing it up later or just in general not feeling good after a big meal. Even though he has thinner skin due to his powers, his body and DNA are still Ultrechian, and his instincts and basic genetic programming are telling him that he has consumed way too much Color Energy in one sitting. He’s old enough to understand his limits, but Blob generally doesn’t give a shit about rules or limits, so you can imagine how family dinners go. Thanksgiving’s a bitch

He also doesn’t eat in front of people. He’s. A messy eater

Some other, smaller, headcanons because I think I’ve rambled for too long and I don’t want to give y’all migraines:

Blob is bilingual and can speak in both Raydian and Ultrechian! Both of the languages are similar to each other enough to where Raydians can (sort of) understand him when he speaks in Ultrechian, but even then he doesn’t speak often enough for this to matter much.

Blob is actually fairly introverted and doesn’t like social gatherings all that much. He can handle a conversation, just not with multiple people at the same time. He hates interviews.

I, personally, HC him as intersex and genderfluid! He literally doesn’t care about how you refer to him, as long as you’re nice about it and aren’t a fucking bigot

Blob is pansexual as well, as long as you’re nice to him then it’s fine

Blob, when angry, tends to fall back onto his native language to call you curse words you didn’t know existed

Blob actually has a bit of a temper and has a limit for how much bullshit he can handle before he simply loses his mind. He tries to be playful about things but he can only handle so much shit

Him and the CU get along well, though. They understand his boundaries enough to give him space when he needs it. He views all of them as close friends, and he even has a sibling-like relationship with both Pinky and Zip. He may have a tiny crush on Arty but he…. Doesn’t act on it in fear of being rejected

He doesn’t remember how he got his powers. It’s a fuzzy and painful memory for him, and he usually says he was born with it to get people to stop asking. He doesn’t remember, and he doesn’t want to remember.

#de blob #headcanons #de blob 2 #blob #he’s so much #like my GOD #i will explain his powers in a separate post #because if I keep going i will miss class #and also i will give someone a headache. i know how this goes (ive done this to myself)#(i am a victim to my own hyperfixation)#(why am i like this)#anyways #here yall go #come get your food (rings the dinner bell)

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