#and accepting me

[imagine-a-life-like-this]

I'm in a soft mood, so I want to make a post thanking the people that have helped me feel so loved and accepted.

Every single follower I have, I want to thank you. I always receive a lot of love and support on my posts and it really keeps me going. So really and truly, thank you. Also we're all besties now. I love you all 💕

@hobasimp89 I want to thank you for coming into my life 8 years ago and never leaving. We've had our fair share of fights, but we always work things out and I'm forever grateful. You showed me what true friendship really is and I don't think I thank you enough for that. Here's to 8 years and many more to come 💕

@maeleelee and @mxnsxngie I want to thank you for helping me get out of my comfort zone. And for being there whenever I need you guys. And I know I've sent you 2 so many sappy messages before, but I truly love you both. When I was feeling insecure as more people joined our group, thinking you'd like them more and leave me behind, you reassured me over and over that that will never happen. Wifey trio is forever 💕

I would also like to thank two others, but I'm not sure if they'd be comfortable being tagged. So I hope you both see this. Zhane and Ari, I love you both so freaking much. You both were the first friends I made here on tumblr and both of you honestly mean the absolute world to me. You're both always there for me and have helped me with my confidence and I appreciate you both so much. I only hope I can give that same feeling to both of you as well. And I hope you guys know how much I love you 💕

Something I'm sure not a lot of people know is I struggle a lot with talking to people. I hide behind this (semi) anonymous tumblr and interact with people, and still I second guess every word I say to everyone. I just wanted to be loved and accepted.

Then the wifey trio decided to make a discord server and allow anyone to join. It was chaotic but fun. People found other people they clicked with and made new friends.

Honestly, I wasn't expecting to make new friends. I had my roomie, the wifey trio, as well as Zhane and Ari, and that seemed good enough for me.

Then @bunnyiix @acrylishly @cadenonlinelive and @babyboyquokka came along. And it hasn't been that long since we've all been talking, but you all have already made my life so much better. And I love you all more than words can ever explain.

It hasn't been that long since the 8 of us have been a group, but it really does feel like fate. We were meant to meet and start our own little family.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you for giving me a safe space and a family. It feels right being here with you guys like this.

8 really is fate.

8 makes 1 team, my greatest loves. Here's to forever 💕💕💕

[apocalypsegay]

i don't think he clicked through

[inkskinned]

she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.

my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.

my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.

my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.

at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.

my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.

i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.

two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.

it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.

[doccywhomst]

[emilnikos]

I need non autistic people to realise meltdowns are a real debilitating thing that has a serious effect on your mental and physical health NOWWWWW!!! The way its been trivialized and lessened pisses me the fuck off. It's not a tantrum and it doesn't come from "being too weak-willed" it's painful and it's embarrassing AND MOST OF ALL IT'S INVOLUNTARY!! Don't claim to be an ally to autistic or disabled people and then make fun of people who have meltdowns. Literally get the hell out of my sight

[malenjoyer]

WE'RE SO BACK

[krysmcscience]

I have some questions about karaoke night, Alex Hirsch. Very Important Questions. Which I will happily scream at a poor hapless baby triangle who can have no answers for me, and possibly also does not have object permanence yet.

Follow-up that is I guess suggestive, but let's be real here, Bill's a fucking triangle:

Dude slipped right into his birthday suit, lmao

this is so stupid :D

Anyway, I don't care what anyone says, this brilliant individual knows what's up - Bill is absolutely way more of a monsterfucker than Ford could or ever will be, full stop.

[seefasters]

no but it's the way for aziraphale "nothing lasts forever" meant "i'm willing to give up the bookshop if it means i can be with you safely" and for crowley it meant "nothing lasts forever, not the bookshop, not earth, not us"

[sangrefae]

i love getting to see day one expac launch bugs such as "eating pizza breaks male au ra faces" and "syrcus tower now has savage level difficulty mechanics"

[anthropoetics]

why must we network. isn't my kindness and willingness to try to be better everyday enough?

[computer-boy]

the ordeal of being known is in fact mortifying

[chloesimaginationthings]

Happy one year anniversary to this FNAF post,,

[thetisming]

every month is autism month if youre autistic

[mcmissileproof]

favorite hobby when I'm driving is to catch someone trying to climb up my back bumper while I'm going a completely reasonable speed and just slowly take my foot off the gas. you seem upset, brother. why don't we slow down and enjoy the view awhile

[ambrosiagourmet]

I think one of the biggest tragedies of Laios & Falin and their relationship is how much his actions impact her life. But like. Specifically how much they WOULDN’T impact her life as much if they weren’t both stuck in such a shitty abusive situation.

This part of the Falin-tries-makeup daydream hour comic is what got me thinking about it again because truly it just... it seems like such a like an offhand comment that I'm sure Laios didn't mean to be cruel or anything. That's just like. A little kid not thinking about what they are saying. ESPECIALLY when the kid in question is Laios.

But man they depended on each other SO much as kids. Too much. It really feels like they didn't have any other source of positive reinforcement, or anyone else to share themselves with. So of course an offhand comment like that has a huge impact on Falin.

Or this little bit from one of the flashbacks:

This tears me apart. Do you think it tears him apart to think about? I think it does. I think Laios holds every small failure to care for Falin against himself.

And then there's the Bigger stuff. The way that him coping with his own trauma ended up impacting her.

Like his interest in monsters. Like him going to find a ghost, and accidentally revealing Falin's magic to the whole village in the process.

Like him needing to leave. And leaving her behind.

He shaped her life so much, and he carries so much guilt for it. And again, there should have been other people there to help. The same things that made Laios need to leave home are the things that made his leaving so hard on Falin. She ate alone after that. She shouldn't have had to eat alone just because Laios wasn't there.

She was 9 when he left for school, and he was 11.

Nine. And Laios feels like he failed her because he didn't stand by her through this better. As an eleven year old.

Both of these kids deserved so much better from the world.

[samsketchbook]