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ellsarchive · 3 months

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I let out a guttural noise from my throat every time I see him and it’s actually embarrassing

#and I’m being deadass too #i love my man #am i ovulating #kenji sato x reader #kenji sato #ken sato x reader #ken sato

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laurrelise · 1 month

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the umbrella academy and everything is the exact same exact number five accidentally jumps forward in time into the backrooms

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kelin-is-writing · 4 months

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I am: Heartbroken…

#boku no hero academia #my hero academia #bnha #mha #dabi #touya todoroki #bnha dabi #mha dabi #bnha season 7 #mha season 7 #i just… what the fuck??? i’m already crying now… imagine when the episode will drop…#can’t do this… horikoshi please give him a happy ending because this is so…#you already deprived us of shigaraki twice toga and magne don’t deprive us of him too…#why do manga authors always love to self-sabotage and sabotage the best characters??? what happened to being actually good writers???#like— YOU OKAY THERE???? HORI BLINK TWICE IF YOU NEED HELP AND FOR ME TO COME AND SAVE YOU FROM YOUR EDITORS 😭#because how do you make peoples who have already suffered enough… suffer even more??? that’s crazy… stop all this deadass???

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allpromarlo · 4 months

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no u don’t understand. i NEED megumi to come back and beat the brakes off of sukuna so badly, he’s gonna regret ever looking at him the wrong way

#it’s not enough for him to just come back like that. i need him to COOK #i need him to make fried chicken out of sukuna like. yall don’t get me #bc if gege wasn’t a t3rrorist he would’ve expanded on megs potential WAYYY more #that stretch in the manga where it was just megumi being cool during the culling games…need that energy back #‘i’m not like itadori i have no qualms scoring 5 points’ I NEED MY MAN BACK #bc these people have gotten too brave putting his name in their mouths #saying HE’S responsible for the gojo mecha pilot meat suit debacle like. what #genuinely how did he contribute to ANY of this happening.#he was sunken in that hag’s evil water against his will pls read the manga again and stfu #i swear jjk fans love telling everybody they can’t read #it’s not even just the stsgs. it’s like 80% of the fandom #what is wrong with u all #like deadass #anyway megumi comeback 🔜#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk manga #megumi fushiguro

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shima-draws · 2 years

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Told my boss that NO I cannot take over customer phone calls because my anxiety will literally not be able to take it. And I’m being SO brave about it,

#I say this as I’m sitting here shaking and on the verge of having an anxiety attack. AHA #Shima speaks #She called me yesterday morning and was like. Hey your coworker is drowning and I KNOW you hate phone calls #But she really needs help #And I was like. Yeah okay. Maybe I can do this.#Fast forward to last night. I’m in bed hyperventilating bc no I CANNOT do this #My mental health has already been Bad for the past few months bc I’m already working overtime for this job #And now to take on the One thing I generally get anxious about? Bro. It’s gonna kill me. 100% no exaggeration #So I called my boss this morning and was like hi I’m so sorry I said I would but I actually can’t. I deadass had an anxiety attack #just THINKING about it last night #And she was like omg no I get it. I have anxiety too I know what it’s like. It’s debilitating sometimes #So she said I didn’t have to do the phone calls and now I’m like YIPPEE #And she said hey that was a really brave thing to do. Speaking up like that and making it clear when you’re not comfortable with something #Me still shaking and holding back tears: Thank you I’m being SO brave about this rn #Anyway I’m still coming down from the near panic attack I had before I called her to tell her lmao #It’s been a rough 24 hours. I’m fine (lying)#I’ll BE fine now that I don’t have to talk to angry customers on the phone tho 🥰

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misterbaritone · 9 months

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Aquaman 2 is like… Thor Ragnarok crossed with a Step Brothers/Rush Hour fusion spliced with the first Aquaman movie. Could’ve been worse but it could’ve been a lot better too. Solid 7/10. 6/10 on its worst day.

#biggest issue with the movie is pacing #Like first we start off with Arthur adjusting to being a dad and the king of Atlantis #then very quickly we switch to Manta finding the evil macguffin then freeing Ocean Master to get his help #then we're learning the backstory of the evil trident then we're at the big finale! It’s too fast!#Faster than Barry Allen running to his death in Crisis on Infinite Earths!#Other issue is the plot itself.#On paper it’s not bad but… it feels like some stuff was cut truncated moved around #I wonder if the Depp-Heard drama played a part in that cause it feels like Mera was supposed to be here more.#Tis a wonder #on the brighter side I still love Momoa as Aquaman #He’s probably far from how he is in the books but he’s a fun ass action hero.#His buddy cop brothers dynamic with Orm came a little too fast imo but it was great.#Black Manta is as great as ever too and honestly #I’m a little ashamed it took me this long to realize he has long earned a spot on the “Hatin Ass Nigga Hall of Fame”#Right up there with Reverse Flash and Lex Luthor.#Dude deadass got possessed by an underwater Lich King and it barely did anything but make him stronger.#He’s just THAT MUCH OF A HATER!#Also hes Kilmonger if Kilmonger were good.#all in all not a must watch but not the worst way to pass a few hours either #aquaman #aquaman 2 #aquaman the lost kingdom #dc comics

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nekoro-san · 1 year

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I really like the mystery female sss character design ( and her eyes look kinda a 🐱 so it’s opposite to Yuri as a 🐶). Based on her interaction with Yuri in chapter 81, she seems a little more carefree than him, which his is more serious. She seems to be a new recruit and under Yuri unit, too.

And Yuri boss now has to babysit these “kids” under the sss care now. Her dynamic with Yuri would be fun to watch because it’s could be a fun dynamic like Yuri with Anya.

#spy x family #yuri briar #sxf spoilers #SxF chapter 81 #sxf fanart #And I’m still suspicious of this new girl because I’m not sure what’s the purpose of her role in the story #but I felt like the recent arc starting to focus on the sss and there is possible we can try to see a different light #since the story still being the black and white of each system #also it’s not like I would decide to drew this out of the blue #but there are more jp/kr fans starting to drew Yuri with this new girl #and it’s inspired me too #now I’m also delusional to imagine that Gwen and Miles in Spider multiverse as them now #since Yuri voice actor voices Miles as Japanese dub and I can’t help to imagine that was Yuri lol #I know the recent arc is getting serious with indentity but I’m still positive thinking things will turn all right #also it’s not like Endo create these characters out of the blue #I felt like they would have some involvement in the story soon #my artz #I’m deadass will write a comic series of them if they interact more in the future #and not only but most yuri fan in twitter would do it too without me #so the new chapter got updated and her name is Chloe #I was right all along 👀#sxf yuri #SxF Chloe #Yuri Briar x Chloe

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blonkk · 7 months

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“so sad being a harry potter fan/jkr stan and a transphobe pick a struggle” ok but how’s it a struggle? ?? because weird losers i don’t know will try to bully me on the internet ??? y’all are just smug because you were nobody in high school and now you feel like you win at life because you have internet clout from tweens and perverted adult men plus the duds who jumped on the bandwagon because they have zero values and beliefs of their own …. like stop projecting i promise no one gives a fuck that you’re “different” it’s still annoying and your green shaved head and mushroom tattoo aren’t punk or even really that cool at all….get a grip fr …anyways i’m gonna struggle by A) being objectively right and B) enjoying my childish stories that have no shortage of material (and more on the way!) to keep me entertained

#feminism #jk rowling #harry potter #this applies to everyone #males and females #gay or not #trans identified or not #like so much if this movement is deadass made up of people who were unpopular in high school. and now they get off on being internet famous #and i was a huge loser in high school too so this isn’t some stance on social hierarchy #it’s just the kids who never got over not being cool when it actually meant something #so they’re trying to make it mean something now #and the saddest thing is that you’re still losers #and the biggest tell is that followers will always remain neutral #favouring the side of the cool people #hence the male he amount of silent so called allies #they’re gonna switch sides when this one goes under i’m afraid #anyways like it’s always the people who want attention who are the worst about this stuff #like i’m a huge harry potter fan. i was not popular in high school. people barely knew who i was #that is not something that was cool in the 2010s #but i’m still a fan and i’m not ashamed of that because i’m not just gonna flop on my interests and principles #and i’m not gonna let some weirdo who probably does actual weird shit make me feel bad about like one of the most beloved book franchises #of all time #when they were prob the types of weirdos having orgies under the stairs and grooming eachother and speaking japanese they learned from anime #anyways. i don’t know im just rambling im mad and tired and all seething and i want to bully someone about it

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bo0zey · 2 years

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Did I miss "back from the war" recreation or is that not happening

OK so i've been meaning to address this for a while because it’s actually something i've been genuinely annoyed/sad/upset about; my original plan to recreate the post was to go to riot fest & have someone take pics of me during MCR live in person (caption wouldve been something like ‘when will mcr--omg they;re Back from the Warfdskns’ lol idk). i ended up 2nd row from the barrier & i was like OMG bc i didn’t expect to get so close & i was like ‘WOW these r gonna b such GR8 PICTURES!!i;m so lucky!!this is gENIUS!’ & so my plan was literally going according to/even better than planned right?? i mean the fact that i was ~a few feet away from the stage n was ~1.5hrs away from seeing mcr LIVE??? my plan was going along SUSPICIOUSLY well..everything was falling into place TOO perfectly...it was almost to good to be true right??? IT WAS. everything went to shit & my plan fell thru during the last band before MCR when my body suddenly fell victim to the effects of being crowd crushed for >7 hours straight; i experienced syncope & was pulled over the barrier & out of the pit by security.

sooooo, you didn’t ‘miss’ anything; the post was supposed to be recreated at the concert, but the universe pulled an uno-reverse on me when it remembered i’m on the universal ‘Do Not Ever Allow to Be Truly Happy’ list lol. i meant to post an update abt my failed plan afterwards, but tbh the actual event in itself made me wanna fr kms, and i felt even guiltier/worse for being unable to fulfill my promise to u all bc i fr planned on recreating it at the concert. 'ok but u were still at the concert after u got pulled out’ ok physically yes but mentally N-Ooo. due to the hypoxia (lack of blood blow/oxygen to the brain) i’d obtained secondary to being crowd crushed PLUS the psychological trauma of being removed against my living breathing dying will from the pit (btw the psychological trauma has nothing to do with being crowd-crushed but im not gonna get into that turmoil rn lol), i was stuck in an altered mental state for the remainder of the concert. i was dissociated for mcr’s entire set until i woke up the next morning & it took ~3-4 days for my body to fully recover from the physical trauma of being crowd crushed.

i still plan on recreating the post eventually, but tbh it’s not rlly my top priority atm bc 1) i still can’t come to terms w/ the fact i lost my 1 n only chance to experience MCR live & 2) imo seeing MCR live was the perfect opportunity to recreate the post & that clearly didn’t work out for me sooo now i have no idea how else i can top that idea :( .

#i have an idea but i’m not sure if it’ll work...imma need mcr 2 pull thru n meet me halfway on this 1 lol #anywyas i h8 talking abt riot fest i feel like every1 h8s me whining abt it too lol #i was so angry and upset with the world and myself. i really tried so hard to stay conscious;#ppl were asking if i was ok & i kept nodding yes because i didn’t want to be pulled out of the pit bc #then i’d lose my spot + my ONLY chance to see MCR live & so up close.#next thing i know i’m being pulled over the barrier by security and WHOOSH into dissociationville i go.#they were too much for my brain to handle so i’d just fall back even more into that weird dissociated state #i honestly would have preferred to not have even attended the concert. like HONESTLY 100% deadass i wish i didnt even go.#like imagine urself in my shoes lol i went from being 2nd row from the stage to like 70000 rows away.#yall dont understand how awful it is to have such a golden opportuntiy to be 1 hr n a few feet away from the band who saved u #to having it all ripped away from u in literally a matter of seconds #if i’d just stayed home my 12y/o little wouldn’t have had to experience the psychological trauma of having everything to having nothing.#my 15/16 year old teen wouldnt have had to re-live the experience of realizing there’s nothing left #in this world to comfort/protect/save her OR her childself #22 year old me realizing i failed them and all the other parts of me. i cant be happy i cant have shit in this world #i couldnt have my mom but at least i had mcr right??? nope lol that got ripped out of my fingertips too #i cant even begin to describe the emotional damage/psychological blow the situation had on me bc like #i cant even put it into words and i know nobody will truly understand/believe me when i say how heartbreaking & detrimental this #situation was for my already fucked up psyche. or they’ll think im exaggerating but its like u dont get it #ive lost so many things and people i spent my entire childhood/adolescence maladaptive daydreaming.#at age 12 mcr became my escapism for ~4yrs straight bc they were the only thing that made me happy #while all the other ppl in the real world in my day to day life were making me wanna kms everyday #like ik it sounds extreme/dramatic but ??? i mean i dont even fully understand my reaction tbh.#i think its just mcr used to be my happy place n then i get to see them live and its just an absolute nightmare #and the fact that i was dissociated from their concert when they used to be the only thing to keep me grounded to this earth???#truly i wish i didnt even go like i cant even listen to their music anymore without wanting to crawl out of my skin #when the only thing that made u feel alive made u feel deader than ever inside....yeahhhhh not fun!!#its a heartsinking feeling i hate it so much i wish i had a doever #mcr #when will mcr return from the war

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bibleofficial · 3 months

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went to the beach w kp & 4 other indian friends & 3 of us had NEVER surfed before girl WHEW it’s SO fun literally only 20quid to rent a wetsuit & board & i fucking smashed my toes on the sand so much, but also we 1) got the wrong tickets so we got off 1 stop early 2) went to find a bus & the bus that was supposed to be 15 min turned into an HOUR 3) on our way to find a bus back everyone’s phones are dying or dead bc it took us 3hrs longer to get there, cigarettes are out 4) all of the shops in town are closed & the town seems to have ONLY a tesco extra & 1 off license that sells a PACK FOR 15.65 A PACK WHICH IS FUCKING CRIMINAL ITS CHEAPER TO BUY IT FROM TESCO ARE U INSANE 5) the bus back to the other town kept skipping us bc the bus stop wasn’t the ACTUAL bus stop - i had 1 bowl since literally 11a & we got back at fucking 11p 😭😭😭

#diary #i was honestly abt to strangle EVERYBODY #‘do u have a cigarette’ ‘where’s ur vape’ ‘where are we going’ ‘which bus is it’ ‘do u have a ___’ ‘did u bring ___’ girl what am i DORA w #the magic fuckin BACKPACK ??? while ur UP MY ASS dig around & SEE IF SMTHGS IN THERE 😭😭😭😭#i literally broke sobriety again bc i was just #girl i was so agitated & there was 1 TRAIN LEFT BEFORE 11P so we needed to get the 2ND TO LAST BUS OF THE DAY #i deadass was like ‘if we miss that train i will make sure u all go blind’ ‘did u bring a knife’ ‘I DONT NEED 1’#AKSJAKSKAKKSJSKSSJAKJSKAHSKSHDLASKAKDLA #LIKE U BITCHES SMOKED ALL MY CIGARETTES MY VAPES DEAD MY PHONES DYING UR ALL DRUNK IM GOING TO KILL YALL 😭😭😭😭😭#<- me knowing i could never be a parent #tbh if i caught my kid smoking a cig id make em do the ol ‘im going to sit down in front of u w a fresh box of cigarettes & make u finish #the box or pass out’#YES IM STRICT #i think it’s so funny ok unrelated but like they’ll speak hindi & i’ve just #learned it through being around them kind of like i can’t speak it except for some word u know like matachot etc but i’ll Understand the #Context & what’s being Said #ASLKALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLA like while waiting for the train back 1 of them was talking abt me being a fool to the others - literally they’re #all indian & i had walked away so when i walked back he was still talkin but then i started giggling bc i knew he was talkin abt me & how i #pinched a bit of the kebab to throw to the seagull bc he offered it to me & i needed to bait the seagull w something & i pinched & tossed &#& he looked at me like 😦 bhenchod ! & then the seagull came over & i was like :D hi bestie <3333 but then when i started giggling after i #walked back he was like ‘what the fuck does he just know hindi now’#it makes me laugh so fucking HARD 😭😭😭😭😭 LIKE FUCK U I LIKE TO PARTICPATE IN COVERSATION IDC ABT LANGUAGE #like i’ve been surrounded by yall for the past #girl it’s been like a year i don’t even talk to british ppl or americans #ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLALSLA MESS ! i love to slavsquat & kp hates it bc he’s like ‘we’re in the uk why are u sitting like this’ bc he thinks #it’s ’too indian’ ALSKALSKALSKALJSKAKDLA 😭😭😭😭😭 this hips were made for sitting #we’re definitely going to go back bc it’s SO CLOSE IF WE ACTUALLY USE THE TRANSPORT PROPERLY ITS ONLY LIKE AN HOUR OR SO COMMUTE EACH WAY #bring lunch whatever #i’m exhausted but also socially like bro i had to leave the donner place just to walk around the block for SOME QUIET #i’ve just been sososososo busy LOSING MY MIND

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darlin-djarin · 1 year

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"yeah i don’t participate in fandom discourse lol" dude it’s not even discourse. people are just being straight up racist and you’re sitting there doing nothing.

#saw a meme just now that was talking abt fandom fighting and so many of the notes were like #“yeah lol i’m just sitting back watching while eating popcorn”#like. guys.#i don’t even like discourse but at this point it’s literally just blatant racism and y’all aren’t doing anything to stop it #i hate that i’m seen as the “discourse mutual” like i’m literally just trying to enjoy this piece of media #without being blasted with intense and vile racism in my face #and y’all are just so okay with accepting the fact that the entire fandom is so horrendous #and y’all don’t even put in effort to even try to raise awareness about it #i’m sorry i involve myself in “discourse” i am just trying to exist.#anyway yeah this is about star wars #star wars #the mandalorian #ESPEXIALLY THE MANDALORIAN FANDOM OH MY GOD I HATE YOU GUYS YOU ARE THE WORSTRTTT #i love the mandalorian so much y’all just are disgusting #the bad batch #y’all too #like if i see something i don't like then i'll just ignore it or block em but if i deadass see genuine racism. even just microagressions.#my blood boils #“i don't like getting into discourse” ok but you're excusing literal racism.#sorry guys i'm just so pressed about this #oil.

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michi-chelle · 1 year

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“but i fear that they already got all the best parts of me” goes so hard

#if only this song came out like 6 years ago lol #i’m also nearing the end of season 2 of my free! rewatch and gosh haru’s conflict hits closer to home than ever #and idk if i’m just getting more emotional lately but makoto and haru’s fight in ep 11 deadass made me tear up #when will i stop relating to teenagers real or fictional lmao #part of me wishes i was still a teenager just because being a teenager would explain my sense of purposelessness in everything i do #like taking things one day at a time with a blurry future on a road leading to nowhere #but others having high expectations from you and being sad seeing you so lost #but you just don’t want to let go of what you have now #you don’t want to box your passions in what other people want from you #and going back to the lyrics of the song #you feel like there’s not much you can offer anymore ‘cause you were a ‘gifted’ kid and now you’re just an ordinary person #whose gone complacent to the disappointment of everyone who wants to see you succeed but you feel you don’t have it in you #so again you’re just floating through life trying to enjoy the blessings each day brings again with no clear goal #anyway idk what i’m writing #at the same time i’m glad i’m not a teenager anymore ‘cause that shit sucked #but being a grown adult sucks ass too #i know there doesn’t need to be any purpose in life but #i feel like things’ll be easier if i did have a dream #guess i need a best friend to take me to another country or something to inspire me or something #in other words i’m about to watch one of my fave free eps where rin and haru go to australia #anyway i’m rambling #michi yaps

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lyriumsings · 11 months

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sad bc i can’t really pin down which oc was my first oc bc ive literally been making them for as long as i can remember ive had them for every interest ive ever watched, played or read. but if i had to choose i think the title of My First Ever Oc would have to go to my percy jackson one tbh who honestly should probably be completely revamped SHSJ

#i made her when i was literally single digits and therefore #she carries a lot of internalized racism tbh #she was straight and cis and white as hell #i think her name was elenora and she was absolutely from apollo cabin lmao #never drew her or anything #i think i wanna make a completely new one tho #with completely different everything #lyriumsings txt #percy jackson airs in like a month #and i need to reread *at least* the first cook #book*#speaking of books deadass i’m about to order the other percy jackson book that came out in sept #i’m so excited to read about him again #missed him so much #he’s hands down one of my favorite blorbos #he shaped part of my psyche #can’t believe there was a time when percy was older than me as a child #nico TOO THO! i remember being so shocked when he was forced to put himself #out*#like i absolutely at age 15 was expecting the confession to be about annabeth i was like why is this so hard it’s so obvious #and then boom it was not obvious SJSJSJJS

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thatone-churro · 11 months

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y’know just as soon as i start getting comfortable with the idea of being open/relying on my dad and him being more comfortable with my choices than i feared, i can essentially throw all that out the window with how vehemently he yelled at me at the thought of my getting my septum pierced (even though i never said i was yet. i said my side before i decide anything else). also making underhanded remarks of me never getting tattoos other than the one for my mom. like okay don’t ask me why i don’t tell you about anything or talk to you or anything. what the fuck.

#‘i love you no matter what’ and ‘you’re an adult and as long as your choices make you happy’ out the window i guess.#are we too sober for those statements to apply all of a sudden?#and again i didn’t even say i was getting it any time soon. i said my sister wants to take me to get my first non-ear piercing.#she’s getting hers repierced & i want to get my side.#and then he started going off on me for it for no reason. and brought up the one tattoo i want to get for my mom.#and THEN made an off handed remark of a similar vein about dyed hair.#i hope he knows he’s literally the only reason i don’t have piercings or tattoos or dyed hair or like anything that lets me look how i wanna #like deadass. i know i’m your ‘baby.’ but can i please actually embrace myself. i don’t care if you don’t like alt culture. i do.#he would shun the girls i crush on fr like oh my god.#like if he knew what i really wanted to look like i think he’d disown me. won’t even have to bring up my funky relationship with gender.#literally as soon as i start thinking i can be open with this man he pulls this shit and then asks why i’m slowly getting more distant.#like wow it’s almost like i’ve been regulated and raised according to what you want and not what i want.#and you wonder why my sisters (especially my oldest who has a lot of piercings & tattoos like i want) aren’t close either? isn’t that wild?#how we never got much of a chance to explore this without reprimand until we were moved out? even as legal adults?#absolutely WILD correlation there i wonder if the causation lines up here pa. what the fuck.#anyway i’m gonna go now and not cry because my roommates are home but i’m gonna go sulk because i’m sick of this ✌️#oh wait convenient that the showdog poem went up tonight too isn’t that crazy. man calls himself out so hard lol #grace being stupid #text post #personal

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bangtanloverboys · 2 years

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just queued all my yoongi fics for tomorrow for his birthday and,,,,19. one every hour between 6 am and 11 pm,,,,,enjoy

#i write too many yoongi fics #and i’m deadass going to be writing one tomorrow so #dip rambles #(one is being posted at a half hour mark bc it’s closely connected to the previous one so yeah)

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chewwytwee · 2 years

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#I kinda got fucked over by my friends kinda badly #like it sucks ass I lost a bunch of friends and it feels like they all just wanted me gone #like it sucks because like it’s all ‘no you’re a great friend we like you’#until I’m like ‘hey I’m really upset and I’m gonna leave’ then it’s ‘ok #well I’ll respect you decision bye 💜💜💜’#isn’t exactly putting off vibes that you actually like me… not too torn up about losing me as a friend #just ‘ok well I’ll see you’#feels like they meant way more to me than I did to them #and now I’ll probably never talk to any of them ever again and they kinda just don’t care #I hate saying what they are or aren’t doing definitively but I mean #def haven’t cared about it up until now. isn’t at all upset about me being gone. doesn’t want to figure anything out #like I’m too much work I’m too much of an asshole I’m too much of everything to be worth talking to #my self esteem has deadass never been lower #hate it too cuz like yet again people say ‘no we’re never gonna grow to dislike you or find you annoying’#and then ~6 months pass and they do that exact thing so like what is it??#just fucking tell me if I’m annoying instead of running around behind my back talking shit #whatever

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