#and I just hate it! I’m so tired of it
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#I fucking hate how my dad has essentially told me that it’s my fault I’m in so much pain#not that he’d ever acknowledge how much pain I’m actually in#but I just keep getting told that my general physical condition is my fault and I’m a burden for needing more support than others#and that I don’t know what I need or how to take care of myself and just generally that I’m bad for being disabled#not that anyone would ever say that I’m disabled#and I just hate it! I’m so tired of it#I’m tired of my dad treating exercise like a cure and my mom supporting me only when my dad isn’t around and never in any meaningful way#and I’m tired of feeling like an unlovable burden when I’m in so much pain that I can’t stand#because it’s really getting to my head! I almost texted my friend asking them if they were sure they wanted to be roommates with me because#I might be in pain sometimes and that might impact them#like. what the fuck!? they already know I’m disabled and they’re disabled too! and we support each other and we are more than aware of what#being roommates consists of. my parents are just getting into my head to the extent that I feel like I shouldn’t be around people because#I’m a burden and unlovable due to my pain and I would tell anybody else that that’s wrong#so why am I letting myself believe it?#also I keep saying that my parents are getting better but I don’t think they’ve changed. They can communicate a bit better but#their feelings are the same and that’s the problem. they don’t understand and they don’t care until they’ve had time to think about it#about it and normally I’d be fine with that but when you’re stuck on the floor crying in pain you just want someone to care#you don’t want to wait until your health comes up weeks later in a conversation#you just want compassion and someone to be there with you and tell you it’ll be okay#they have never done that
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Laios's three Boy Best Friends. And yes, they hate him.
#dungeon meshi#laios touden#toshiro nakamoto#chilchuck tims#kabru#BF in this context could be boyfriend or best friend. The line is so blurry.#Chilchuck less so but whatever is going on between Shuro and Laios & Kabru and Laios is giving strong:#“dude if you were a girl I'd date the hell out of you”. And from the genderswap extra's that sentiment is canon for BOTH.#This was made prior to the translation of the Laios & Kabru & Shuro restaurant date comic and honestly I am just feeling vindicated.#I don't even know what to call this dynamic other than a situationship. There is so much going on between all of them.#Even on a purely platonic reading - the miscommunication and male yearning for friendship hurt so bad.#When we got the Big Hug scene in the epilogue arc I was whooping and hollering! Pure catharsis moment!#I also don't like hugs very much so I really felt it went Shuro ('hates being touched') went in for the bear hug.#Do not get me started on the agony of 'always lying' Kabru telling the truth (I just wanted to be friends)#and 'always believes' Laios thinking it's another lie and brushing him off.#I am once again supporting dungeon meshi day by posting art. Please watch dungeon meshi.#obligatory edit because I’m tired: YES. Chilchuck cares for Laios and him admitting it was a huge part of his arc#YES he is more just fed up with him that actually hating him.#I needed a third guy to be canonically done with his ass for the THREE WEED SMOKING GIRLFRIENDS reference
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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:
does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies
#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked#has been just so. mean about it#not even intentionally#not always at least#but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things#that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person#ever had#this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame#idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it#see it as a personal choice to be late#and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t#you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general#and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices#it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for#bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing#and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves#and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else#there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month
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the way kaladin is like. the only character who gets an arc relating to overcoming his prejudices but it’s…him overcoming his “prejudices” against lighteyes…like huh……?
#every time I remember this i feel like I’m reading the books wrong#and I just missed something crucial#alas I do think this is correct! and it boggles my lil mind!!! like HUH????????#stormlight archive#ellie reads#shallan is RIGHT THERE#shallan would be like. I can’t be bigoted I’m friends with kaladin 🙂#😒😒😒😒😒😒😒#I just…..tired. it’s tired!!!!#don’t even get me started on the ‘fuck moash’ stuff….#moash defender til I die also it’s stupid to hate a character bc they’re too morally grey for you….like it’s fiction.#sorry moash made the story INTERESTING !!!#stay mad kaladin wouldn’t be interesting w/out him!!!#im kidding I love kaladin but you get it.#the subreddit hates moash way too much it’s so annoying#like it’s fiction………#they also think Brandon Sanderson is above critique which is also annoying#anyways. love these books bc they’re well written the world building goes crazy and! they’re interesting from this angle and I enjoy#thinking critically about them.
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phinktober day 11: ur fav AU
i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo
(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)
ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3
#soz copied caption from twt i have been drawing for 7 hours straight i need to drink water eat something take a piss and a shower and sleep#no braincell rn#goodbye it is wine time#hope yall like this idfk what people what these days other than ship art but im not doing that so sorry no knights fucking for you#just me making them look like me bc i’m a narcissist etc#god i am way too tired to be yapping rn i have no filter whatever ABYWAY HASHTAG DANIPHIW#art2 and craft2#dnp#phanart#dan and phil#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#phil lester#phinktober#punk edits irl come back to me please#i’m missing a fkn hashtag i just know it whatever i don’t CARE im TIRED i have eaten nothing but half a jar of picked today i feel so goblin#idk why i tunnelvisioned w this piece it’s not even that good or detailed LMFAO#actually the tattoos were a BITCH and also made me sad bc of my whole failed tattooing career etc#OH MY GOD WHY AM I YAPPING SO MUCH SOMEONE EUTHANISE ME#good NIGHT !!!!!!#pickles not picked btw but i’m not retyping all of that#now i’m sad bc i’m out of pickles and it’s 10pm and everything is shut:( hate my stupid gay life
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“This Is A Bad Idea”
“I Don’t Care”
Uhh HAPPY VALENTINES DAY *throws guys kissing at you and runs away*
If you wanna see more of them I have a LOT on my Patreon. Uhhhh yeah bYE —
#I’m so tired of being afraid of sharing simple smooching#what’s some making out between two dudes in their mid 20’s?#they are down bad#*shakes them in a jar full of marbles*#kissing#smooching#make out#idk how else to tag this#leoichi#LeoSagi#they ARE ADULTS OKAY#(hate feeling like I need to defend myself before posting anything but it’s my art and my au and I can do what I want)#I hope ppl like this#I just really love how the arm and hand on Leo came out#I LOVE THEM SO MUCH NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME
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katara sees her brother and bff approaching something that can make them happy and says no interruptions
based on this photo from the live action cast
#my art#i learned SO MUCH about digital coloring while working on this. i can’t wait to try to put it to practice from the start and on purpose#instead of stumbling upon leagues of info when i was already 95% done lol#anyways#zukka#idc about tagging rn tbh i’m tired#fuck backgrounds dude#hate that shit#i need to do lighting studies fr tho#i can’t do interesting light i just. don’t have the knowledge#makes me sad cuz lighting really makes or breaks pieces it seems#also lol i started this then stopped for like two hours and just sketched katara a fuck ton#what i landed on here isn’t my favorite but i liked the soft + gently amused emotion she’s showing#ok whatever i’m done rambling#post
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SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
I’M SO SICK AND FUCKING TIRED IF PEOPLE PITTING CANON AND FANON AGAINST EACH OTHER LIKE FUCK YOU
IF YOU DIBT LIKE SOMETHING DONT INTERACT ITS NOT THAT FUCKING HARD
‘OMG WFA this, WFA that,” people enjoy it and you don’t. People can read it and accept it as canon in a different universe, it was my first Batfam comic, and it holds a special place in my heart, personally. People use WFA to introduce people to comics, to introduce people to the Batfam. It’s not meant to be considered main continuity
‘Damian doesn’t consider Dick a father figure’ okay??? So don’t interact with stuff that shows Dick being fatherly towards Damian???
I’m so tired of constantly trying to make sure I haven’t gotten a small detail of someone’s characterisation wrong in TikToks, posts, fics.
This is what’s wrong with fandom etiquette.
People read things and have different interpretations for the same thing, WHICH IS FINE, but don’t go bashing anybody who disagrees with your opinion for it.
None of you people understand that Fanon is an oversimplification of characters, a lot of the time, in order to lure people in to interact with the media without overloading on trying to read DECADES WORTH of source material
Hal was a pedo, ‘but it was retconned’ yeah, it was. Things get retconned, canon changes.
Nothing is real. The sooner you accept that, the better it is for everybody in the fandom.
‘Why isn’t fandom fun anymore :(‘ cause you’re policing headcanon, slightly OOC characterisations, bashing fics, bashing art, no one wants to be a part of toxic fandom spaces, and YOU ARE MAKING THSI FANDOM TOXIC
#targeted towards batfam tok#I’m so tired of this#I’m sorry for the rant#literall no one cares about your opinion from watching two movies that weren’t good when compared to the source material#just let people have fun in niche spaces#i hate gatekeeping#but like certain niches should have stayed niche#I feel like a boomer#batfam#batman#dc comics#tim drake#barbara gordon#cassandra cain#damian wayne#dc#dick grayson#dc villains#dc fandome#fandom etiquette#fandom#duke thomas#jason todd#bruce wayne#dc heroes
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? He very much did also write Ted Lasso btw. He was a credited writer on Ted Lasso. He was in the writer’s room for Ted Lasso. He was writing it!
#I’ve discovered something I hate more than fans taking what actors say too seriously#and that’s imposing their own beliefs onto the actors because it makes them feel justified in being annoying#I’m simply so tired of everyone acting like half the cast hated the ending. that’s just YOU !!!!#and also it’s particularly ridiculous for Brett because he was literally right there helping to write it…#he was at the scene of the crime!!! good lord#AND THIS TWEET HAS NEARLY 500 LIKES…#in the TL fandom that’s doing numbers lmao#ted lasso#Ted lasso critical
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This is gonna be troy (2004) all over again and my heart can’t take it
#SOMEONE IS GONNA DIE AND ITS EITHER ME OR THIS MOVIE#I haven’t seen the return yet as it hasn’t played in my local theatres so I have no clue if it’s good#but this odyssey revival is going to be the death of me#they’re gonna get it so wrong I can feel it in my bones#THEYRE GONNA GET IT WRONGGGGG 😭😭😭#if tom holland plays telemachus I’m going to commit atrocities across the globe#THEY’RE GONNA BUTCHER PENELOPE’S CHARACTER HOLLYWOOD HATES WOMEN BRO 😭#I know I’m being a negative nancy but I’m just so tired#lads I am so so tired#hopefully this is somewhat decent but my expectations are in the ground#chat we are so cooked#the odyssey#sigh#what a good time to be an iliad fan lmao#tagamemnon#homeric epics
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“say, you think you could play that song I like again?”
#churro art#my art#fanart#illustration#digital art#star trek#star trek the original series#star trek tos#spock#s'chn t'gai spock#james kirk#james t kirk#spirk#OHHHH MY IPAD HATES ME SHE HATESSS ME#this should not have taken me forever to finish up but I’m stubborn so now it’s 4 am and I’m tired 😭😭😭😭#anyways I’m queuing this. again…….#U ALREADY KNOW WHAT IM GONNA SAY. I JUST WANTED TO DRAW THEM TOGETHERRRR HEHEHEE#i like the look Jim gives Spock#when hes doing literally anything at all#so this is just like. Artists Interpretation of such occurrences VSHJSVUHAV#i just wanted something sweet and easy but NO technology is HRAD.#oh but what ever it’s okay….. I’m really happy with how Spock looks heeereeee!!#Especilly after my last drawings I feel like I finally got both their faces down LOL#my first sketch of them is okay but I’m so glad I got better at it cus omg.#i look at those first sketched and I’m like WHO IS THATTT THATS NOT MY SPOCK😭#Jim’s hair almost gave me a stroke tho cus it looks so. silly in side profile#so I couldn’t tell if I’m just bad at drawing him side profile or if like. that’s how it is 😭
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the natural order of all things
#sorry it’s so pixelated. this was just supposed to be a 5 second sketch on a tiny canvas. and uh. well m my hand slipped#i hate the lighting in this but trying to stop being such a perfectionist also i’m tired and going to bed. good NIGHT#agatha all along#agatha all along art#aaa#rio vidal#lady death#aubrey plaza#agatha all along fanart#artists on tumblr#my art
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Rainworld fans when they don’t know how to interact with a female character without calling her a mother or a bitch: “yeah moons too boring :/// I like when she’s a bitch! Let her be mean!”
Moon very rarely displays anything beyond (Understandable) bitterness at her situation and some passive aggression. If you want to make aus or explore an alternate canon where she DOES act more “bitchy” go ahead. I support women’s wrongs. But I find it very disheartening that people see Moon’s sheer willpower, that she chooses to be kind again and again and again, as a weakness. As a “wrong” reaction to the situation she was put in.
I’m not gonna deny that some of her politeness is a hold over from etiquette back in the Ancients’ day. But I simply do not think her peace and kindness is wholly a weakness, or something subconscious she is unaware of. (OR uninteresting. In a world that is DESIGNED to make you feel small, a world designed to be unkind, having a character who chooses to be the opposite is SO interesting imo.) And I do not exactly think reading her angry moments as “bitchy” is a normal thing to do with the only prominent female character in the whole game.
#rain world#looks to the moon#rw lttm#this is more of a vague post than anything I’ve ever posted#if you posted a take like this and read this: I don’t hate you or anything#this is phrased in a very frustrated and cynical way but I’m so tired#you are allowed to dislike moon#find her uninteresting#etc#but I simply do not agree with the ‘popular’ reasons for viewing her as such#and I think it’s clear when people view her merely as an extension to a story centering her brother#instead of realizing rain worlds story (esp in vanilla) is very decentralized#just because moon is largely ‘static’ and her arc is less extreme than Pebbles’ is#it doesn’t mean she. doesn’t have one?
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I just want to say, I have never once claimed to speak for all survivors… my posts are from my experience and I try to cover all angles. I’ll make posts about people being strong while making posts about it being valid to not identify with the word.
But getting aggressive comments on my posts about it how I “don’t speak for all survivors and should shut the fuck up” is honestly a lot. And using “I’m a survivor too” like it’s some valid excuse to be rude and aggressive isn’t okay either.
I blocked the person. And I will continue to block people that pull this shit. But it is getting beyond exhausting that people constantly come into my posts to say “this isn’t true for me”. And I can handle that but being told to “shut the fuck up” because you don’t personally relate to a post is honestly a lot.
#I am so over tired#and feeling so overly emotional#the urge to impulse delete my blog is a lot#I come on every day to attacks in my activity feed#in my ask box#as replies on my posts#people have literally made hate blogs about me#I’m tired#I’m a real person#I’m a real person struggling with my trauma just trying to do some good#swearing#tw hate
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Today I ate dinner outside by myself. The heat was my only friend and it still is so what who cares not me.
#life#me#selfie#mine#and I’m not vagueposting#I just#hate certain topics so much#and I’m tired now and
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I honestly do feel stupid. For expecting better? For trusting what was on screen (and not expecting the happiness to be so an out of nowhere break up hurts more- like that’s crazy to admit in an interview) ? For wanting good and not biphobic rep for once? For trusting a showrunner? For trusting an actor who seemed to understand what it meant to play a bi character before he says some biphobic shit? Or for all of it idk.
#I haven’t slept at all and I’m just so tired and numb#I wish I could turn off my hyperfixations with the click of a finger#I hate it and I’m not sorry for ranting on my own blog#idc who sees who laughs it’s been a shit week for me and this just makes it all worse#leah rambles#BuckTommy
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