#and I am. struggling to ignore it.
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So yall wont see me reblog or post anything here for a while as im going through a mental health crisis, im trying to fix it but if anyone wanted to help w bills, food, or hopefully money to cover antidepressants that would be cool
Pictures of cute animals would also be cool. I dont know my mental state is absolute shit rn.
#please dont feel obligated to share btw#i genuinely dont want tk be a burden its just.#my brain is trying to get me to cut everyone i know out of my life and then fix the whole issue of me existing#and I am. struggling to ignore it.#i apologize if you see this post and are annoyed or anything#thank you for your time
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Sae Niijima is such a good character it drives me insane a little. She's not a mother nor a maternal or doting older sister but instead a twenty four year old who was thrown into a position of responsibility that she never asked for. She loves Makoto just as much as she resents her and its so apparent every time they talk up until November. "Are you studying?" (I want you to do well) (I need you to get a job and stop making my life harder) "I'll use any method necessary to get this promotion" (Life will be easier for us) (So stop distracting me with your problems) "Focus on your future" (I know that you're capable) (I can't afford to waste my time on you, so stop wasting time on others)
Makoto is not only the sole reason she pushes as hard as she does for a promotion, for success, and the reason that she loses herself in her animosity over her fathers death, but also someone she can't stand for so long. Makoto was 14-15 when their father died. Sae was 21. As soon as she got the career she wanted and things started to look up, her stability was robbed from her and she was disillusioned with the system that her father had taught her to rely on and completely adhere to. How do you manage, the daughter of a cop, following his footsteps towards law enforcement, when you're suddenly reminded of how unfair it is? You can't quit, your little sister relies on you and she's so young and struggling just as badly with this grief. So you pick yourself up and you get moving again. You push harder, press further. You abandon your morals and your ethics because punishing criminals (guilty or not) is almost like punishing the man who killed your father.
And the whole time she's fighting for promotions, going for drinks with the SIU Director to make herself more favourable for promotions, trying to navigate being a woman in a competitive, suffocating, male-dominated field, falling behind despite doing so much where others are promoted for doing so little - all the while your little sister comes back from school and her biggest issues are so small compared to yours.
Persona 5 revolves so heavily around grief and loss and change and Sae embodies all of that so well, all of the sharp and unpleasant and jagged parts of grief.
#sae niijima#persona brainrot real#idk what possessed me for this i jsut love her#beyond her being rlly hot and such a driven and compelling character#the way that we see her on screen is so heavily shaped and influenced by grief that its almost crushing when you notice it#she focuses on work because if she falls behind it could cost her and her sister everything#yet she lives in her fathers house. works a job her father would be proud of. is praised through her proximity to her father.#her sister idolises her and relies on her like a parent. sae was never supposed to be that to her#how am i meant to be your mother and your father? how am i meant to be the source of stability in your life when im not stable in mine#and the whole time your little sister sits there and where shes actually putting on a brave face and forcing through her own grief#struggling to put a life without her father into perspective#to you she just looks ... complacent. willfully ignorant to the situation that you're both in and the struggles you're both facing#why WOULDNT you hate her?#and then you realise that shes not ignorant. shes not as stupid or as oblivious as you thought#every time she was being distracting and asking pointless questions she was just reaching out to you#and each time you had to push her hand away and tell her not now. focus. study.#they drive me insane actually#persona 5#p5r#persona 5 royal#makoto niijima
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wanna preface this by saying that i am. So normal. anyway i just spent the last week redrawing scenes from mystery skulls animated but as that hermitcraft au i posted about a couple times. you guys should watch msa it is. so so good.
#my art#hermitcraft#mystery skulls animated#geminitay#geminitay fanart#ethoslab#ethoslab fanart#falsesymmetry#falsesymmetry fanart#ignore the fact that etho's hair changes literally every drawing#poses + expressions are traced a bit; and backgrounds aren't mine(well; except for the second one; which you can prolly tell;; sksnsks)#and also (with the help of sap bc i'm bad at color theory) edited the truck bg colors a bit#but even so;; i am!! very very happy with how these turned out#mystery skulls animated spoilers#<- honestly that's mainly for the murder mystery one#granted anyone who hasn't seen the future at this point prolly won't have that tag filtered#etho's murder mystery form(no i don't have a name for it)'s collar tag is a mix between a mable leaf and a vex!#cuz reverb is cub in this au#hence all the blue and stuff;; skdhkdnkd#you'd think that last pic would have been the hardest for me to draw; with how complicated etho's design is#but surprisingly; it doesn't even place top three in terms of how long it took to draw#no; instead it was that Fucking. Truck.#WHY did that take me eight and a half hours#the second longest was only five!!!#the others barely even top 4!#also#WHY are the deadbeats(which are mini tillies here) so deceptively hard to draw#every time i struggle with them orz#anyway. images 3; 6; 7; and 8 are my favs <3#if false and/or pearl see this. o/ hoi
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Being aroace is so much easier when you're a kid. For one, no one bats an eye when you groan at a boring, unnecessary romantic plot in the show/movie you're watching (especially one that feels rushed) and two, no one ever judges you when you turn away when a sex scene comes on in a show/movie, in fact, you're expected to do those things. But when you get into you're teens and adult years and you do those things, people treat you like you're either the delicate, innocent little flower, or like there's something wrong with you. And frankly it is beyond annoying.
#aromantic#asexual#aroace#aro#ace#aroace struggles#ace rants#do i sound like a whiny child right now? yes. but am i right? also yes#please ignore my bad grammar
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sanders sides beach episode when
#YES its april NO i dont care!!!! summer is a state of mind!!!!#i dont actually like summer all that much i am chronically overheated#but l like swimming n stuff#my favorite way of drawing#is just refusing to do lineart#and taking the sketch and just. cleaning it up until its good enough#and using that#bc anytime i do lineart normally i fucking hate it#dont tag this as genderbend#theyr just trans#STILL struggling with my patton design#i also really struggled w logans fit so. ignore how lazy it is#roman sanders#patton sanders#logan sanders#virgil sanders#janus sanders#remus sanders#sanders sides#thomas sanders#sasi#thomas sanders sides#sasi art#sanders sides art#tss fanart#tss#ts sides#art#my art
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HAPpy with these faces :D
#that's the angle i always struggle with on sonic there#my doodles#ignoring how weird the running looks#i am tired and i do not know what i did to make it look weird but i will probably see it tomorrow when i hopefully have gotten sleep#it's the speed lines somehow i think#this is not asking for critisism i am ramble
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they planned him a birthday party and made him a cake. good job guys
#mod jack#bitterduo#jack manifold#tommyinnit#tubbo#< it’s his birthday i had to#dsmp#art#please ignore my inconsistent art style#i am struggling to figure out what i want to do with it
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“Actually they won’t grow old together cause one character has a longer life sp-“ SHUT UPPPPPKP
#ships#gay people ugh#as a fan of sci fi and fantasy genres this is the constant struggle#I am delusional and ignore it ❤️#codywan#spirk#bloodweave#shadowgast#akiangel#guys I need more sad lesbians help#figayda#straight ppl get gd percabeth and shit and we got spirk#screwed in every timeline#This is now a#farcille#post too#And#chilshi
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taking a break with your dearest helpful friend loop
also some doodles
#im so obsessed with this gayass game oh my lord#ignore the background btw. i am Struggling with those#loop my beloved. my dearest. my love. my starlight. my pookie#im so normal about this game <- has read almost every single isat fanfic on ao3 in existence#isat#i dont think this counts as spoilers in any way#in stars and time#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat bonnie#<- cause theyre there. kinda#posts random art. crawls back to my hibernation spot. see you guys in a month#drawinsometimez#dang the quality is wack. thanks tumblr
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Cannot Unsee. Cannot Unknow.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#xue yang#xiao xingchen#song lan#a-qing#blood#special appearance to the fox hairpin. Cute bonus episode and scene#alas I am already struggling a bit with maintaining good flow on this arc#I’ve got a better drawn mdzs art of A-qing coming soon to make up it though!#okay time to talk about This Scene…cause wow the angst is ripe and juicy#what really gets me is the fact Song Lan stays quiet while XXC stabs him….#And that Xue Yang never intended to tell XXC about the fake corpses#NOR did A-Qing want to tell him the truth!!#the theme of ‘ignorance is bliss’ is so strong here…xxc is blind to the evils of the world#and everyone seems to recognize how rare that is. How far they go to preserve it#Yi-city asks a lot of hard questions. As someone who values Honesty above nearly all else-#-the question posed here about whether honesty is truly the correct course of action really gets to me#Lying is a form of kindness in here. And in a story about rumours and manipulations of truth-#its a good parallel to what we see in the main story!#we see the harm caused by trying to lie to be kind. The harm in realizing youve been lied to#there are a lot of plot points around kind lies in mdzs and it facinates me!
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"If it is any condolences, I think I would have fallen for you in every universe."
Here's this panel from a scene of a fic drawing request comic thing I'm doing to hold yall over til I get it dONEZO 💪💪💪
#They call me the Procrastinator#on account of how much i procrastinate#HOWEVER I AM PUSHING THROUGH!!! FOR THE LOVELY FANBASE#falsettos#falsettos fanart#falsettos musical#falsettos revival#falsettos 2016#falsettos revival fanart#falsettos musical fanart#marvin falsettos#marvin gardens#marvin cohen#marvin falsettos fanart#marvin gardens fanart#marvin cohen fanart#whizzer brown#whizzer falsettos#whizzer falsettos fanart#whizzer fanart#whizzer brown fanart#whizzvin#whizzvin fanart#marvin x whizzer#whizzer x marvin#marvin x whizzer fanart#christian borle#andrew rannells#ignore marvins hands i was struggling a bit#robin's art
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anyone in the mood for some ba sing se jetko??
(click for quality, tumblr is killing me😭)
#id in alt text#this turned out a little more 😳 than i planned for#but i am in a jetko era#the world needs more jetko truthers#jetko#jet#zuko#jet avatar#atla#avatar the last airbender#my art#atla fanart#avatar#pls ignore the hair i struggled for a full 24 hours bc idk how to render hair😭#tea arts🍵#jetkooo
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b u r n o u t
#original art#sketch#i am straight up struggling my dudes#i am just so tired right now#but there's so much i need to do#i have been ignoring A Lot of Everything and i am filled with Guilt#can i just nap until like...september?#pussycat draws
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so i saw this old-ish post about an au centering around a villain lewis and a hero arthur,,, and i. may have gotten attached to it,, dkdndkdjs. so i decided to make some edits + doodles based on it!! i also really wanna make a lil oneshot about it as well,, but uh... whether or not i actually follow through on that, we'll see,, skdjsojdks.
edit: good news, gang,, i wrote the fic!!
#my art#mystery skulls animated#lewis pepper#msa lewis#arthur kingsmen#msa arthur#really happy with how their designs came out !!!#it was a bit of a struggle to make lewis not just look like how he is in canon but with a cape;;#but i think the patterns + sugar skull makeup help a lot!#imagining lewis has the power to just turn into a ghost form;; which he uses for villain stuff. think danny phantom#(<- has never watched danny phantom)#and arthur's just kinda like batman; makes his own gadgets and stuff! i imagine his metal arm also has some fun doodads in it#still debating on why exactly arthur is so beat up in the potential fic; so far i'm thinking maybeeee reverb?#or maybe just some unknown new villain guy#and yes i know there's additions in the post i linked where everyone agrees it was actually mystery#not even murder mystery just. mystery.#i am politely ignoring that. bc i don't like that.#mystery is just vivi's not-dog in my version of this au.#'vivi please don't try and break into a dangerous supervillain's lair to try and rescue some hero' he says to her#meanwhile vivi's already halfway there#being vivi's dog is a full-time job
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HNK ending arc spoilers aAAHH!!
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I come bearing an HNK AU hi
Antarc and Cinnabar go visit Phos before going to nothingness yahyo yahyo
#hnk spoilers#houseki no kuni#land of the lustrous#phosphophyllite#hnk phos#hnk fanart#lotl#lotl phos#lotl fanart#hnk cinnabar#lotl cinnabar#lunarian cinnabar#cinnabar#antarcticite#hnk antarcticite#lotl Antarcticite#Lunarian Antarc#antarcinnaphos#Antarcphos#cinnaphos#hopefully this is all legible and understandable enough I am chronically stupid and was STRUGGLING with finishing this piece lmao#I might go more in depth on the storyline I’ve concocted for this AU hrmmm#I kinda want to#cus it’s sorta easy#I say before it becomes a long project like everything else I make#IGNORE THE FUCKINF NUMBERS IN THE CONRNER LMFAO
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Hannddss
#I like his clawed hands ok#its very fun to draw em#ratchet and clank#digital art#dr. nefarious#dr nefarious#ignore the text#text is slightly suggestive#don't have drawn more#rn struggling with art#also obsessed with Mass effect rn#yes I am very late to the party to this game
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