#am sucks

[smol-lif3-in-smith3r33ns]

Angry Mood😡 / Rant 1 (30/08/2023)

hating how as soon as brown girls hit around 21, that fam starts taunting each thing we do and go "is this what you're gonna do in your sasural?"

bish u dont need to remind me of the horror that would come with A.M.

it's inevitable but i dont need a constant torturing reminder of it

to the new brown parents, do better than this for your daughters. why was it that since a young age, i heard the concepts of shaadi and sasural and shit like that, but not of masters and phd and making a goddamn career as priority

i sometimes hate them so much at times like this

no they wont sit me down, on my 20th Birthday to discuss about my upcoming 20s, or on my graduation to hear out my career plans or guide me on the career options ahead

but THIS

every fucking day

and god forbid if i too lose my shit in the middle of it or fight or increase my voice volume. because at the end of it, there's only one loser that loses everytime and that's me. it's only met with something worse everytime i do

the marriage age they have in mind for me: 24

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?

imma run someday from my home if this goes on

ukw, i get the reason why they want me to do my masters so soon, so early RIGHT NOW before even letting me explore my career field or my 20s or a chance to find love or live in different cities, countries even

im so angry

imma plan my Masters around this age itself so that for 2 fucking years they wont be able to do shit. tab tak toh main khud dhund lungi koi accha, and if AM is after that then i wont mind even

and uske 2 years toh break even lagne mein hoga

25 tak toh jeene do baccho ko :(

why is it like this in gujju family (matlab dhong mat karo na phir progressive hone ka)

even my bros (padhe likhe bros) agreeing to this ki haa 24 pe rafa dafa

and being such lil patriarchal shits that kitchen ka kaam sikh lo whenever they get angry on me (which is most of the time a day)

hume dafaa nahi hona

i wont do this shit until like 27-28

jao dhund sakte ho toh dhund lo. and if they badger me, imma shut down on them like they do on me (whenever i try to get a word in)

fucking double standards

the fact that i have to stay at home all day (cause i have no studies or classes to attend, or any job to go to...and not many friends i can find sanctuary in) is already eating at my SOUL.

maybe ill just go to the library, and sit there all day. Because i cant fucking bear this another minute.

wow great, now they're asking what the fuck are u doing on phone all day (this is the first time i took my phone at length today :'))

[bookpdf]

unfortunately i Do feel better when i clean my living space and eat enough fruits and veggies and go outside and generally remember i am a mammal :| real pity that knowing this does not make it easier to do those things

[bismuth-209]

[myiliterallyhavenolifegoals]

Learn your history!!!!

[firefrightfic]

to anyone missing my writing please know i am also missing my writing

[secondbeatsongs]

for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal

before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"

and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"

[morebird]

Father Astarion

[fanaticalthings]

just another night in gotham

<- Prev Masterlist Next ->

[artsekey]

Thinking about the time I lost a game of Overwatch and I was so mad about it that I genuinely considered getting into shit with the other team in chat and then realized that it was a colossal waste of my living breathing Human Time and uninstalled Overwatch instead because it was only making me angry.

And then thought about the OTHER time when I was on TikTok and realized I was Not Enjoying Myself and was, in fact, seeing so many sad videos and fake influencer ads that I felt Truly Despondent and then just…Deleted it.

Imo I want my social media /general media experience to be a pleasant break from real world and I get to decide what I get to cull to make that a reality for myself. I highly reccomended it! Life has improved considerably!

[bluciusmacaw]

yes i think Laios would kiss like Flint Lockwood from Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs what of it

[chibigaia-art]

desire

[mari-lair]

the 'favor tree'!

[themaymoth]

the mermaid princess has fallen for your spell, just not the one you intended...💖💕

✨beefleaf fairytale au because ill take any excuse to draw lesbian mermaids✨

[a-most-beloved-fool]

makes me a little sad when star trek ignores IDIC. like. vulcans are logical. that is true. But 'logical', for vulcans, does not amount to 'without compassion,' and it definitely doesn't amount to 'racial superiority.' Belief in 'infinite diversity in infinite combinations' should NOT result in the weird racist/speciest stuff we're getting in some of the newer treks. It does make sense that some vulcans are discriminatory. They're still flawed. But that should not be common or expected, like it seems to be in SNW. If it is, then it's a race of hypocrites, which. doesn't seem very true to Star Trek's message.

I think TOS Spock does a pretty good job of embodying this. Not always, it was the 60s, after all, but mostly. He was often trying to find non-violent routes, and get by without killing - even if they were in danger or had already been attacked. (See: the mugato, and the horta (until Kirk was the one in danger, lmao. t'hy'la > IDIC), the Gorn ship). Kirk, in his eulogy, calls him the most human soul he's ever known, and I've always read that as Kirk calling out Spock's overwhelming compassion.

It's just so much more interesting when Vulcans get to be radically compassionate. I want them to believe that everything and everyone has value. I want them to respect all ways of being. I want them to find ways for even very non-humanoid aliens to exist unfettered in society. I want them to see hybrids and think that it's amazing. Also, like, disability rep. I want Vulcans to have The Most Accessible Planet and available resources because they want everyone to feel accepted and valued. It makes for better characters and more interesting stories.

[son1c]

NEED to inherit 10,000,000 dollars from a mysterious estranged relative i've never met before. like right now

[xpupslxtx]

a moment of appreciation for when they’re so hard their t dick starts twitching