#am still very much alive
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Season 0 has me in it's grip ...
#mine#yugioh#yugioh season 0#season zero#ygo#yami yugi#pharaoh atem#yugioh atem#yugioh season zero#yes#am still very much alive#just had to take a break
72 notes
·
View notes
Text
made a little linocut for pixie <:^) miss her so much
#my art#illustration#linocut#printmaking#cat#it's getting easier but it's still hard in different ways now. but i am genuinely just happy she was alive and healthy for so long#went to see the new exorcist yesterday and it was pretty bad but also funny and good at points (the start)#but the REAL win was that I got 2 scoops of ben and jerrys (phish food and cookie dough for those wondering. the best flavours)#and the lady crammed as much ice cream into the pot as posible. like 2 VERY generous scoops followed by extra shoved on top#i had to resist asking to shake her hand she made me want to do like a pledge of allegiance or something
960 notes
·
View notes
Text
#like ffs if i wanted Harry Potter stuff i’d follow a Harry Potter account 😾#even before Rowling went mask off I didn’t consider HP to be sufficiently Halloweeny#but the longer she loudly & proudly reigns as Queen Terf#the less forgiving I am to ppl trying to uncritically shove her IP into more general spaces#if u don’t give her money & just wanna go off into yr separate niche nostalgia corner for fanart & fics u do u#but a lot of us don’t wanna be reminded of that bigot’s existence when we’re just trying to get spooky#and don’t give me the whole ‘but it’s got witches in it so it’s Halloweeny by default’ bs#because if ur bar for Halloween content is ‘there’s witches and/or other magic users in it’ then NEWS FLASH#there’s other fantasy movies & books u could get aesthetic quotes & gif material from#that weren’t made by a still very much alive very actively harmful spokesperson of a hate movement#and the Instagram/TikTok ppl can find different music/sounds to sample#halloween#harry potter critical#fuck jk rowling#fuck jkr#halloween blogs#halloween aesthetic#tw harry potter#tw jkr mention#halloween movies
88 notes
·
View notes
Text
there is a difference between “parentification” wherein you abdicate your fundamental responsibility to raise your younger children into well-rounded souls,
and older siblings doing the
basic, ancient sibling duty
of looking after their younger siblings
#‘I should not have been expected to dress my baby sister when I was 12!! I should’ve been allowed to be a kid!’#THAT IS BEING A KID. THATS BEING A KID WITH SIBLINGS.#i swear.#am I the only older sister who reveled in the responsibility of being the oldest?#and it’s not like it was easy. I was rebuffed at every turn. I still am#it’s still one of my favorite things about being alive#mobile#x#the point of parents is that they must do the things only parents can do#if there’s something the older kids can reasonably do (and that’s not very much!) they should do it
539 notes
·
View notes
Text
‘the children yearn for the mines’ is a little too real to me bc when i was a kid and my older siblings were trying to get me into pokémon i really never cared to try playing. BUT. i was obsessed with the underground mining minigame in dppt. i used to beg my sister to let me take a turn playing and set it up for me bc i didn’t know how to so i could go mine for gems nonstop until i cleared that entire cave section of glittering wall spots which always made me so sad bc i was having such a great time. i didn’t even understand the significance of what i was doing but 7 year old me was high off of it
#years and years later when i actually played platinum myself and it hit me like OH this is the game with the mining thing!!!#you have no idea how happy i was#…and also sad. it made me kinda heartsick bc in my childhood nostalgia dreams#my brother and sister used to play online together and do capture the flag#and their little minigame battles in the underground with their cool secret bases were so fun to watch#like that was back when the wifi connection was working and the games were alive and relevant#but i came back to it far far too late. when it was a mere relic and i was alone with no other players#still. hearing the music again brought a smile to my face#pokémon#dppt#i am once again rambling about my very special relationship to sinnoh#i didn’t play pokémon as a kid but also yes i did it was part of my childhood. like without really knowing much about it#the lil character sprites. hearthome city theme#the contests#the crunchy sound of the map opening#and the incomprehensible map itself#the bike and surf music#empoleon and staravia’s cries as they went to use surf and fly#truly. being a younger sibling watching your older sibling play has such an impact on you#it’s all nostalgic to me too i just didn’t know the full context of it myself back then#couple all this with the weird feeling of having played pokémon legends arceus as my first own game#and THEN going and finally checking out dppt#it was like double nostalgia. two different half-nostakgia experiences#just. agh i make fun of gen 4 for a lot of things but it is fundamentally my heart isn’t it#i also literally am incapable of talking about it for more than 5 minutes without bringing pla into it lol#pokeposting
35 notes
·
View notes
Text
i have several drafts from back in january comparing some of my old man yaoi ™️ ships which i decided against posting at the time because, quite frankly, they were thoughts no one would appreciate but me. two of the ships i know have some overlap, but the third didn't fit. a different genre. too niche.
but, with a new deadpool movie out and other ppl seeing the buggy parallels, i might as well get this off my chest:
shuggy is cablepool.
(not movieverse cablepool, to be clear. (i enjoy movieverse cable but he is not my mutant messiah.) comics cablepool.)
the dynamic is eerily similar:
we have an occasionally slapstick murderclown with obvious issues about the unusual way he looks, who presents himself as only having selfish motives but is (sometimes) lying about that, is very hard to kill, is disliked by ppl who have to work with him and popular with and beloved by ppl who don't both in-universe and out!
and his ex-bestie, a massively overpowered would-be martyr who is missing a flesh arm, has three scars over one eye, whose continued fondness for the murderclown post-breakup baffles everyone around him (murderclown included), and who refuses to elaborate on his motives for doing shady shit (including manipulating our beloved murderclown) except that he's doing everything for the sake of the future
like. tell me that's not them.
#tos originals#tbh it's kinda wild how much lines up. even the redheaded kid adopted in secret who much of fandom would like to pretend is still alive!#(note that comics are notoriously inconsistent re: characterization across books so i AM picking and choosing >#> and most of my interpretation of c&dp comes from their excellent mid-00s team-up comic)#…but seriously. it feels like everything but the childhood frenemies backstory is present here.#dp refuses to admit that he believes cable can accomplish his pie-in-the-sky dreams & is very tsuntsun about backing his play#cable is so op atp he tries a pacifist route knowing that if anyone tries to wreck the good thing he's building he can swat them like flies#when they break up dp is super bitter but cable never stops being fond of him. dies to save him even! (he gets better. it's comics.)#in dp's solo runs he occasionally waxes rhapsodic—missing cable and hating him in the same breath#…and dp basically never comes up in a cable solo book lmao#(it's not his fault. most cable writers hate dp. they also don't seem to like cable much.)#hhhhhh this STILL feels too niche to put in the tags#…just the ship tags then#shuggy#cablepool
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
ah yes, the happy soft vibes for the @sillylovesongsfest, you get it...
based on the assigned prompted song Till Forever Falls Apart by Ashe and FINNEAS, as well as this photo shooting
So this is it, that's how it ends I guess there's nothing more romantic than dying with your friends
for an even sadder and bloody version look under the cut <33
#enjolras most angelic angry boy furiously heartbroken about hwo things went down#combeferre prettiest man ive ever drawn still trying to protect his friends (covered in blood by the people hes tried to keep alive)#and then there is courfeyrac#nah he is still round and radiant like a centre i guess but he is just cute instead of pretty next to the other two#look this song so very much just screams them but i do have to admit that it is just a little too sad for valentines vibes#so i AM also making a prongsfoot one thats a little less sad because the song also is very them it just breaks my heart in the softest way#Silly Love Songs Fest#enjolras#combeferre#courfeyrac#les amis de l'abc#les mis#les mierables#les amis#les mis fanart#les mis art#barricade boys#mine#my art
142 notes
·
View notes
Text
So, Alba hasn’t liked a single tweet or browsed anything on twitter in TWO YEARS AND OVER FOUR MONTHS.. NOT A SINGLE TWEET.. and she comes on and
THIS IS THE TWEET SHE CHOOSES TO LIKE??? THIS ONE. .. a video her co-worker and friend made about what it was like to kiss her… i-
@Mawica78 How the kissing scene was made. They didn't even prepared much 🫠🫠
#SaveWarriorNun #WarriorNun HYMM FOR HER
#alba baptista#kristina tonteri young#warrior nun#avatrice#sorry i know it’s been days but i am still very much HERE#i love alba so much#i know they are always in touch and all but#i hope it made her smile#and it was so cute how kristina qrt’ed that spoiler tv thing they both won just to tag her#also i need to see the other take#i wish i could’ve been meena that day lol#and kristina looks so friggin good in all of these cameos damn#alba and kristina#twitter#if you love avatrice come to twitter y’all#the fandom is really nice and friendly and we’re having a great time trying to save the show#it’s keeping the fandom so much more alive over there#1013
690 notes
·
View notes
Text
Today, I'm thinking about timeskip Asahi's arms.
Like excuse me sir
#i'm still going to be thinking about this tomorrow#yes i am alive and still very much in love with this man#i miss doing smiling collections#but no time rip fr#asahi azumane#azumane asahi#asahi haikyuu#asahi#azumane#asahi azumane haikyuu#haikyuu!!#haikyuu#karasuno third years#karasuno
139 notes
·
View notes
Text
Almost back home!!! I’ve been away for two weeks and I haven’t had good internet connection. Looking forward to getting back home.
I’ve been quiet cause of it, so how about a shop/merch update!! The products from my shop have already gone through a round of proofs this last week after I placed the order (as some files had gotten mixed up). I’m hoping the products finish their manufacturing and are shipped to me within this next week or so!
I’ve ordered extras of everything to put up in the shop as “in stock” after I send out my preorders, also ordered a few items as samples. They had a higher MOQ (minimum order quantity) so if they turn out well, I’d like to do a giveaway with some of them!
#I know I’ve been kind of quiet in general lately too apologies for that#gonna be honest and life has been pretty rough lately#general TW I reference death below#two incidents happened a few months ago regarding almost losing brother and losing a cousin to horrible situations#and it’s really been very difficult to deal with and has brought on a lot of haze and mental dullness or inability to focus#and tbh even months later it’s still been very difficult#it’s why I’ve probably come across as closed off or absent these last few months#so just explaining that#I’m still overcoming it but I believe I’m doing better now#I have been unable to mentally pull myself together enough to successfully create any content like fics or art#though I’m trying very hard#it is getting easier too. I have written a lot more on vacation than I’ve mana fed to write in a long time#I still love and appreciate PLA and submas so so much that just hasn’t been able to manifest in content creation lately#but it has manifested in buying merch haha#when I get home I may just show my collection#I am still alive in this fandom#if you’ve read this far thank you#and thank you for sticking around while I’ve been quiet!!
42 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'm still not used to writing for Cooper, so any constructive criticism is welcome!!
Trigger warnings: none
Romantic/platonic?: romantic
Requested by: no one!! Just a fun lil thing
Category: heavy fluff
Ship (romantic or platonic): prewar!Cooper Howard x reader
Word count: 1000
He's a Doll
The apartment had been so quiet, so calm and peaceful. It was almost suspicious just how calm it had been.
It was a nice saturday evening and you were home alone while your spouse was out doing odd jobs, sipping on a cup of tea while reading an article about the war. It was always a topic your partner avoided but you found it interesting, always keeping up to date on the new information coming out.
Cooper Howard, while at one point a well known and beloved actor, had fallen back into the bottom after his divorce with Barbara. A woman you had never met - nor cared to. You honestly were about to give up on the dating game since you were getting older, and age certainly wasn't kind to anyone. You were a 36 year old woman who already had bad back problems and creaky knees, who would want that??
But he did. You both had met when out grocery shopping, with you trying to reach something on the second to highest shelf and trying to regrettably monkey climb and remembering your age in the process.. when all the sudden hearing a chuckle from behind you. And there he was, a very exhausted looking Cooper Howard chuckling at your dispense before helping you out.
The both of you had met when his divorce was still being finalized and custody as well, it seemed like everything was going south for Coop until he fortunately went down the right aisle at the right time. He couldn't even remember how it happened, meeting and then talking and it somehow took off from there. You'd be lying if you said you understood how it happened either.
The radio was playing in the background of the calm little apartment, legs tucked into your side as the hot cup pressed against your lips and a soothing sweet liquid spilled down your throat. With a smile, you continued to read while humming along to the radio station.
“Everyone tells me he's no good
He doesn't love me like he should
I would forget him if I only could
He's a demon, he's a devil, he's a doll”
The lyrics rung out of the little box, causing you to hum along to the beat and drift off into your own little world inside of your head. The song oddly enough reminded you of Cooper, well, besides the whole cheating aspect.. the lyrics were so sweet and reminded you of the sweet devil you fell in love with.
“That man can look me in the eye
And tell the biggest, sweetest lie
And I forget the lipstick on his tie
He's a demon, he's a devil, he's a doll
Sometimes I make up my mind
That I'll stop being so blind
And tell him off real bad
But then he turns on those charms, and there I am in his arms
And I forget why I'm mad”
A soft sigh escaped your lips as you continued to listen, while the song wasn't necessarily about a good relationship it reminded you of yours in a good way. You and Cooper have fought, but he always somehow manages to calm you down before you blow your top off.
The door opened and Cooper was greeted with the sound of music and your humming, which was a pleasant surprise. He closed the door behind him and put his keys up, looking at you in the living room completely off into your own world.. a devious idea sparks in his head.
Quietly, he walked up behind the couch and leaned over just enough to be hovering. He stopped and admired you for a few moments.. the way you seemed so relaxed and at peace, despite that god forsaken news report on the nuclear fallout and war being in your hands. He chuckled quietly and then grabbed your shoulders abruptly earning a startled yelp and a quick swat to the arm.
“No need to get your panties in a twist darlin, ‘m sorry.” The southern cowboy said with a laugh as he saw your irritated gaze, his pearly whites on full display as his eyes were crinkled up. Oh you couldn't stay mad at him no matter how hard you tried.
Your gaze softened in almost an instant when seeing how joyous his face appeared, rolling your eyes playfully as you folded up the newspaper and tucked it into your arm. He smiled when he felt a delicate hand on his cheek from the one he adored, chuckling and placing his larger and rougher head atop your smaller and softer hand. Your hands had callouses, but they were like buttermilk compared to his sandpapered skin. He leaned down and captured your lips with his own, hands sliding down to your hip dips and squeezing softly.
With a content hum, he snaked one hand over to that pesky paper you had rolled up and took it away from you while you were distracted. He was glad to see you after a long day of work, your lips tasting like sweet sun tea with a bit too much sugar but he still accepted the flavor on his tongue happily since it was you. You pulled away and smiled at him, before pressing your cheek against the cushion.
“Well, I'll just accept it as a heads-up that you're sleeping on the couch tonight.” You chuckled as he gave you a fake offended look. He nuzzled his nose against yours with a chuckle, before pouting. “Oh sugar cube, you're so cruel to a poor cowboy down on his luck.”
You both stayed like that for a while, just adoring each other with playful jabs.. the music continuing to be sweet as it filled the room and danced around the both of you.
“He's a palooka, he's a brute
He drives me crazy but he's cute
Why do I love a guy I ought to shoot?
He is a demon, he is a devil, he is a doll~”
I'm working on requests!! Thanks for reading
#ghoul fallout#fallout show#fallout ghoul#fallout#the ghoul cooper howard#fallout cooper howard#cooper howard x reader#cooper howard#prewar!cooper howard#sfw content#I am still very much alive i swear#I need help writing cowboys#im from the south damnit how do I NOT know how to write for him#sigh#cooper howard my beloved<33#i love him sm#but seriously any and all constructive criticism is wanted/needed#pretty please#*bats eyelashes*#Spotify
28 notes
·
View notes
Note
you are complaining about complaining too much while complaining about the fact that maybe people dont like you because you complain too much while complaining about being alone. just stop complaining and do something about it. talk to people. reach out. dont just wait for someone to come to you first.
i have tried reaching out to different people in the past year or so but it never works. i understand its my own fault for letting relationships decay because of my own insecurities and issues but that doesn't mean i can just will myself to think or believe different things about myself. it's a self fulfilling prophecy ; i think people don't like me so i don't reach out so people don't like me etc . i am sure you do not want to hear me list all the things i want to say in response so i will put them in the tags.
#every time i try to reach out or talk to someone it goes nowhere. i dont have any social skills anymore and have no clue how to keep a#conversation going. half the time even when i do people stop replying to me. which is fine theydont owe me a reply but still feels likeshit#when i tried to make one new irl friend it just didn't work because they have better options for friends. we spoke occasionally but never#messaged online like ever and would only talk when we happened to be in the same place. i tried multiple times to organize a time to hangou#none of which came to pass. i dont understand why this one didn't work because i thought this person was interested in being my friend but#i guess i was wrong or thought they were more interested than they really were.#i have a problem with reaching out anyway which has been a problem i have had since i was like 11. reaching out to people first doesnt come#easily to me - in the beginning when i was a lot younger i didn't want to bother people with my presence & thought if i were to come to#someone first they would feel pressured into talking to me when they didn't want to. this is stupid of course. but has still not left me as#something i feel is very core to the way i act today. waiting for someone to come to me first feels like my only option because i do not#know how to reach out effectively (my evidence being i have failed every time i have tried) & i am convinced people dont like me in the#first place and do not want me to approach them.#i dont really even know who to reach out to in the first place. my world is extremely narrow. the number of people i know has shrunk#significantly and my standing in their eyes collectively has also shrunk significantly in the past few years. i feel like every person i#was once friends with wants nothing to do with me. i feel as if i have burned every bridge possible.#when it comes to the fact i complain all the time . which i know of course is annoying. its because i cant find any kind of joy in anything#i do or see or whatever. nothing makes me happy - i only see things to complain about. all stimulus seems grating and the world seems#specifically catered to make me miserable. all i can really do is complain. i treat this blog like a stream of consciousness and when most#of that consciousness is occupied with how much i hate being alive the blog will mostly be complaining. its a vicious cycle lol .#anyway . i guess the key theme is low self esteem begets low self esteem in many ways. mental illness begets mental illness.#i am not really saying this to anyone least of all to you anon. i just felt compelled to recount i guess for myself the reasons that came#to mind for why i am like this. i am talking to myself here
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!
#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself#like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me#it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc#just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very#set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me#the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay#that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool#coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself#LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH!#'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body#like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes
77 notes
·
View notes
Text
“Adrien made Kagami realize she’s a lesbian because she was not attracted to him” is boring and overdone.
Kagami made Adrien realize she’s a lesbian because she called him her “boyfriend” and he flinched and she was like “oh shoot what’s wrong” and he was like “i dont know, boyfriend is a really weird word for some reason” And because she’s Kagami, instead of being like “oh he clearly doesn’t want me” she just sat him down immediately and started googling Other Words and trying All of Them, and then she tried “do you want to be my girlfriend?��� on a whim and he was like “holy shit this has awoken something in me.” And then kagami was like “oh huh i may be a lesbian.”
#adrigami#adrimi#im alive sorry for not posting for like a year#time to go back into hibernation love u all#kagami tsurugi#miraculous ladybug#i am still here with my very specific interpretations of adrimi#they are so important to me#i love them so much#love their season 5 dynamic love that theyre still friends#projecting sooo much onto them#its about being allowed to still be friends with someone even after the messy breakup#but also being allowed to be mad#and being allowed to Wish for something Else with them but to still be okay#i am probably not making any sense im jusy#i love them too too much theyre my emotional support undefined mess of a relationship#and also theyre gay#idek in what way but in Some Way#the ‘secret hidden queer romance’ to ‘secret hidden queer friendship because the romance didnt work for them#but they are both now super commited to helping each other with their secret queer little relationship endeavors#this is why kagami is trying to help adrinette happen#because gay rights#hope this helps#and they can be queer so many different ways i just#clutches heart#incare about tthem#theyre sooooooo not normal in some kind of way#both when they are dating and when they are not
266 notes
·
View notes
Text
================================================
♠️ ♠️ ♠️ \\ ♠️ 🟣 ♠️ // ♠️ ♠️ ♠️
art by @connie-art
Branzy
ft. porffor a cardiau am fy hun
Branzy
ft. purple and cards for myself
#lifesteal smp#branzycraft#slime#cloud slime#playing cards#purple#i am still very much alive and still very much learning welsh#give me a request if you want!#mcyt stimboard#stimboard#stim#fy pethau
31 notes
·
View notes
Text
I might. be getting into a new ship. a little trouple
#komahinanami#i am still thinking about how i feel the dynamics would be but#i just really like the concept#lets ignore completely how it literally is not possible after the DR3 ending#i am aware and i do not care#let's picture this as an AU where my dear girl is very much alive ok#thanks#danganronpa#danganronpa 2 goodbye despair#danganronpa 3#danganronpa fanart#sdr2#danganronpa anime#chiaki nanami#nagito komaeda#hajime hinata#digital art#artists on tumblr#kirirez fanart#digital sketch#sketch
50 notes
·
View notes