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ragamuffin-ponies · 4 months

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I have an idea for a music project called Wolf of Babylon.

It is far too ambitious and serious for anything I could make alone, that's for sure. And I don't know who care enough to help me.

The song would address two identities I feel at odds within myself, that being my queerness and my Christian faith. I have struggled with these two sides of my soul for a long, long time. There was a while where I thought I wasn't as queer as I am, and likewise there was a time in my life where my faith in Christ was shaken. I felt like I could never be welcome in one community while I was apart of the other, and so I feared I would be in neither.

For a while, this was the case. Even now I feel like a black sheep among the queer and christian communities.

I'm sure to most this would not come as a shock, but the queer community I found has been far more welcoming and accepting of my faith than any christian community has of my queerness. My christian friends have always been very accepting, especially as we have all grown and learned more about sexuality and gender. But with my family, I feel burdened and shackled by my identity. This has nothing to do with religion, I am definitely the most religious of my household by a longshot, it's not even close.

My point to make, is I feel as though I cannot express my faith to my queer friends without feeling shunned, belittled, and patronized. Worse yet, I cannot express my queerness to christians other than my close friends without being called a confused heretic.

I think it's definitely my privilege, though, it is my understanding that must queer people turn away from faith as an act of nessesity. And I think that is a terrible, terrible, deeply saddening thing. It breaks my heart seeing queer people shunned and abused into seeing faith as an antithesis to queerness. It genuinely makes me cry.

This would be what my song would be about. That the suffering of Christ can be shown in a queer narrative. That evangelicalism is the wolf that Jesus warns about throughout the bible.

My biggest question is to the world as much as it is to God. Does anyone even care about this? Am I the only one with this struggle? At a time in my life where all my problems have been being solved, I have become far more contemplative and reflective on who I am. I've never felt more alone in a struggle. I really feel like I have no one to turn to other than myself and prayer.

I do not like feeling shunned or at war with myself. I don't really know who I am at this point in my life.

#queer faith #///#queer community #christianity #genderfluid #genderqueer #faith #jesus #queer #religion #crying out into the void #am I all alone?

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tetsuhaato · 8 months

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all my haters turn into graters when i present them with the cheeese of success

#is this thing on?#am i all alone?#is anyone there?#i need a bigger gun...

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hajimedics · 7 months

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I'M NOT YOUR DOLL AND I'LL THINK FOR MYSELF AND I'LL LIVE FOR MYSELF

#welcome home #welcome home puppet show #eddie dear #senjart #so #so. SO!#SO ABOUT TODAY'S UPDATE. WELL.#WELLLLLL!#eddie is happy. eddie is happy!#so excited for eddie's lobotomy arc #I have many MANY thoughts about today's update. by far the best one I should say #so much implications of the situation the puppets are in #how sally is so.... harsh towards eddie #and we got shown him having an outburst when hes left alone and doesnt know what to do #like he's so underappreciated but. delivering mails and making papercrafts are all he knows #his reison de'tre #his depersonalization on the armchair during the advertisement segment AND how frank reacted to it #he dropped the ''mr dear'' pretenses and called him ''eddie'' in such a concerned voice #AND MY GOD. RED FLAGS EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!#PUPPET ON THE STRING THEORY REAL? SCRIPTS THEORY REAL? OR AM I JUST TWEAKING #HMMM HMMMMMMMMM #ANYWAYS I'LL THINK OF MORE STUFF TO ADD HERE ONCE IM NO LONGER SLEEPY

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drrav3nb · 3 months

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AYO EDEBIRI as Sydney Adamu WILL POULTER as Luca THE BEAR SEASON 3 | Episode 10 - Forever

Are you close? Yeah. Kind of best friends and kind of lost touch, so. It's nice to reconnect. Yeah, especially when it literally is like a best friend that you saw every day of your life and you kinda went through this sort of battle together.

Bonus:

#the bear spoilers #the bear s3 #the bear #sydney x luca #sydluca #sydney adamu #luca the bear #ayo edebiri #will poulter #the bear fx #tvandfilm #cinematv #the bear hulu #sorry y'all but bye sydcarmy and i am now a sydluca shipper!#cuz how these two have more warmth in one scene than anything sydcarmy had all season????#i need sydney to get a partner that actually listens to her instead of arguing #and she radiated such feminine energy in this scene and omg if that don't show how relaxed she felt around him and safe too omg i need more #next season i better see him courting her cuz i'm done with whatever was up with carmy this season #they've literally destroyed any hope of sydcarmy even happening at this point :(#and look how he reacted when the other guy walked in - he wanted to be alone with sydney!!! T_T #AND THEIR HEIGHT DIFFERENCE OMGGG MY BIGGEST WEAKNESS!

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egophiliac · 4 months

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i love your riddle design so much, he's so pointy and british. so gracious. do you think he would enjoy a brazilian goiabada

thank you! ❤️🖤❤️ it's just. important to me on a level I can't explain that Riddle have an extremely pointy nose that he can stick into everyone else's business.

also goiabada is sweet and fruity and red, I think he would like it very much indeed!

not me stealth-editing because I forgot his antenna whoops

#art #twisted wonderland #me: riddle's nose is important to me (draws him without a nose)#a study in contrasts?#regardless it is my power as a fanartist to let riddle eat sweets and by god i'm going to use it #i also love british riddle. briddle. it's just RIGHT.#i think about how someday the anime will come out and get dubbed and riddle is going to have Generic Anime Boy Voice #instead of the most over-the-top prim little benedict cumberbatch accent like he does in my HEART #and the world shall be poorer for it. alas.#i also think it would be VERY funny if malleus had a super exaggerated french accent because something something french fairytale #i am probably alone in this however #(sorry still trying to catch up on everything!)#(all of my focus has been going towards Deadlines so hopefully i will have space to think...eventually :')#(i still have some main story things cookin' and i JUST finished tsumsted 3: the squeakquel so uhhh)#(there may be a bit of a flood at some point. you've been warned.)

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livsmessydoodles · 4 months

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looking out for you

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dkettchen · 5 months

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she would've told them unlike her canon! version who decided not to be an ally smh

#one piece #trans!sanji #sanji #kiku #yamato #ワンピース #I'm practicing my japanese shhhhhh #（日本語のペラペラ人：俺は文法とか書く方とか間違ったら教えてください😅ありがとうございます）#translation:#Yamato: I'll be able to get as strong as Oden?#Sanji: Probably... 🤔#[meanwhile Kiku is remembering the time in the hot spring]#(Sanji: Nami-chan!!!)#(Nami: Shut up!! The women's bath is supposed to be a peaceful place!)#Kiku: I am also ⚧️ ... o.o #(y'all english speakers had me all to yourselves for a decade it's about time I start to also sometimes make stuff in my next language lol #notably for media *from* that language #same as it made sense to make fan content in english for [american superhero franchise we don't talk abt anymore] back in the day #(happy seasonal reminder that Ren Is Not A Native English Speaker and This Is My 5th Language hi 😅))#while looking up reference for this I learnt that the straps to tie back the kimono sleeves are called tasuki #also I decided yamato get big muscles cause he got them kaido genes in im (I also gave him his dad's young-man-facial hair)#the more I do transition projections for one piece characters while tryna adhere to the style the more I learn that sometimes stylisation #uses bones less as literal determinants for where things go and just kinda exaggerates shapes based on vibes alone instead #meaning trans characters' bones wouldn't literally stay looking the same in that stylisation in the way they do irl #they'd get exaggerated differently based on what the surrounding stuff is doing #I still think oda's transition demonstration when we first met iva was unreasonable even with that in mind tho

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grand-line-shenanigans · 7 months

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For those of us who cannot comprehend big numbers (me) I have done the math. FOUR FUCKING YEARS. SECUNIT WHAT THE FUCK.

#the murderbot diaries #all systems red #murderbot #secunit #words #math #yes i write in my books. sometimes. when i love them a lot #on a totally unrelated note (totally)- if i doodled pictures of the characters based on their descriptions in the library copy of #Network Effect (in pencil only) would that be an asshole move or would it be a charming little treat for the next reader to find?#i almost certainly will not do it because i like the public library and do not want to offend them #but. in pencil. and only little doodles in the margins.#only like. one or two.#id be so charmed if i found somethig like that in a library book??? is that just me am i alone in this?????#thoughts please

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vagueconfusion · 6 months

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Feeling real ridiculous for not having realized that Baron's "stark father" was the Nightmare King until now

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #also #love cassandra's gender situation going on here tbh #hell of an episode. i am totally normal about it (they are in fact. not normal about it at all.)#am willing to explain my thought process here if need be #there is a slight temptation to write something about the possible relation between cassandra and baron now though #did cassandra know that was where baron was like she could always summon kalina?#the creator and creation (the thing you made at your worst)#father and son (you can barely sustain yourself. let alone others)#you were once a god and then you weren't and you made this being and now you are a god again and it still exists #hmmmm #hm!#things to think. thoughts to ponder.#sorry i keep adding tags. i keep having Thoughts

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shrimp-frier-of-rice · 2 years

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I'm 60% sure I'm the only cis-hetero-male on tumblr

#Am I all alone?

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in-kyblogs · 3 months

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Doomed by the narrative - Doomed by her parents

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gatoiberico · 2 years

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parfait pals

#GAH my hands are tied with so much work right now so all I have is scribbles and doodles #so I'm gonna be posting sketches!!! either until I am free once more or forever and ditch the idea that I can only post polished pieces #what do u mean I'm a perfectionist ahah HAH #but I'm literally going to explode if I don't just #throw something out of my system #like this random thing #especially with the next arc that's coming up I am losing my marbles for tomorrow's episode already #if you're scared about how you're gonna survive mp100 in december you're not alone I am fearing for my sanity #jk but also (screams internally)#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #reigen #mob #elgatoiberico

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tea-cat-arts · 4 months

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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

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lazycranberrydoodles · 1 year

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you’d think after 800 years he’d learn his lesson about taking afternoon naps. / prev comic / follow for more sleepy xie lian

#i think xie lian and hua cheng are sleep deprived for different reasons. xie lian does get sleepy at like 10pm #but prayers will often keep him up past then. or he’ll get up at 4 for similar reasons #hua cheng doesn’t need to sleep. he would never pass up an opportunity to cuddle but when xie lian isnt there #you can BET he’s working on a new sculpture for 8 hours straight #or reading. or managing his city. or painting. or taking care of black water’s fish. or any of the other 8 million things he excells at #i think they’d try to minimize the times they sleep apart though….. theyve both been alone for so long :(#i am a BIG believer in hualian naps. what a luxury yknow?? when youre touch starved and busy all the time?? i want these men COMFY #ALSO TUMBLR DESATURATED THIS TO HELL GRRRR IT HAD SUCH A NICE GOLDEN HOUR EFFECT #tgcf #art #comic #tian guan ci fu #hualian #xie lian #hua cheng #san lang #hob #heaven official's blessing #tgcf fanart #天官赐福 #mxtx #my art #lmao #tgcf meme

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zuzu-draws · 2 months

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Trolling aside, i think there is some great importance as to why Gege chose this specific manner of panelling for the Yuji-Sukuna confrontation in JJK 264. We can't help but think that Gege's trying to show us some sort of a parallel between Gojo and Sukuna in this situation.

In JJK, there's this interesting notion of one's decision to go "North" or "South" as explained by Nanami during Gojo's death Flashback:

And we all know, that chapter of Gojo's death is titled as "Go South", which highly implies that Gojo chose to stay as who he was, as opposed to starting as something completely anew.

Now the interesting point in the Yuuji-Sukuna confrontation is that apparently...

....the destination for the supposed train within Yuuji's domain...is "North".

Which means that Yuuji's taking Sukuna towards the North.......

They're heading towards the North.....do you guys understand what that means?? For BOTH of them??? Q C Q

#why am i suddenly getting the feeling that both Yuuji and Sukuna are going to die together #and Yuuji's grandpa's whole shibangle of “Yuuji make sure you don't die alone” BRO do you UNDERSTAND??#also WHY is YUUJI looking SO happy like all cheery and happy like they're a bunch of friends boarding the train going on a friggin #vacation???#he's all specific bout it too like wdym “ Come on Let's go! Sukuna!” WHAT??#also does Yuuji REALISE that the one he's being all casual and shiet with the KING of CURSES is his last remaining FAMILY??#The only one he could call as “his own” ????? BRO WHY'S THIS ALL HITTING ME ALL AT ONCE--#my heart is </3 ing the more i'm thinking about it i need a few more chapters before i could fully articulate my thoughts well but the #IMPLICATIONS here man i'm just...MAN #sukuna #ryomen sukuna #yuuji #itadori #yuji #jjk #jjk 264 #jjk leaks #spoilers #jujutsu kaisen #king of curses #my thoughts #ooc

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weaponizedalibi · 1 year

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Erm guys I think she might know how joan of arc felt...... lol.........

Made in flipaclip, edited in cap cut. Song is Bigmouth Strikes Again by The Smiths

#fnaf #my art #five nights at freddy's #cassidy fnaf #fnaf missing children #william afton #purple guy #springtrap #glitchtrap #i am not listing all of the characters william has a million names alone #animation #animation meme

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