#also the . when you leave me i should die

[kristalijah]

HE'S CHECKING OUT GARY!!!! I REPEAT, HE'S CHECKING OUT GARY!!!!

[arsonistman]

I feel like I’m going insane. Am I the only person rooting for horrible and toxic chiluc??? I don’t care about them being cute and happy together, they should be trying to kill each other while going through emotional turmoil not even Shakespeare could imagine

[marcsnuffy]

Everyone can headcanon whatever they want but whenever people say Hiori's a cozy game enjoyer, something inside of me dies

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

thinking about superheroes unfortunately

[whoblewboobear]

Bumping up the smut scene bc realistically there’s no way Jace would be away from Porter for 6 months and not wanna jump his bones within a day or two of being reunited.

But jokes on him bc Porter has been so terrified to lose him again reformed that he’s like overly careful to the point of being attentive about asking Jace if he’s okay with doing anything again before they’ve even discussed the killing and rage star mind control of it all. And Jace vehemently would like to get his nut and not think about the past because they’re back by each other’s side; always a duo.

[waterloo-to-anywhere]

“well since i listened to Death on the Stairs naturally i gotta listen to New Love Grows on Trees and if i listen to NLGOT i HAVE to listen to Gin&Milk which means i should probably listen to Shiver (demo) which will bring me BACK to NLGOT which'll take me to Deadwood and if I listen to Deadwood I also need to listen to Heartt of the Matter and and”

[perenlop]

in general i think im really tired of kirby antagonists that are like “ohhhh this is the main antagonist- actually they’re just being possessed and they’re not actually responsible for their actions at all”

[crossbackpoke-check]

a junkyard dog ain't always pretty but you always love that toothless smile

[cinnamon-bunni]

NOT okay right now im thinking abt pokemon leaving scars on their trainers + everyday, domestic problems.....

[hauntingblue]

Yabushige count your fucking days. I am so mad

[teknikolor-walters]

I'm your man mitski named number one grandpa duo song

[carmarriage]

red vs blue restoration blew such huge chunks im actually mad. like completely enraged. and i wouldnt have it any other way. rest in peace you son of a bitch

[bittwitchy]

see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place

[neverendingford]

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[perenlop]

last magireco bitching post for tonight i promise but i think all those people who complain that sayaka and homura are abusive and horrible and unreasonable for the crime of being manipulated and traumatized 14 year olds in awful situations and arent perfect little victims about it should go watch magireco and have their brains implode bc i think yachiyo is like. so much worse

[student-on-the-run]

I wrote a LOT of fic back when I was in an abusive household. I wrote fic religiously for TEN YEARS. Literally wrote every day. But couldn't keep anything on my laptop or phone or anything because they were searched randomly and regularly. So here's what I did:

When I wanted to publish the fic, I wrote on (at the time) fanfiction dot net text editor. The equivalent today would be the AO3 text editor lol. Occasionally used the DeviantArt text editor too, but was less active there.

When the fic was for friends/ for me/ still in the ideas stage, I wrote it on separate papers (NEVER put stuff in a notebook. You write it then cut it out with surgical precision so that no one notices you tore pages out) and used to hide them in odd places. I hid them in my bra's padding (yes I walked around with my SasuNaru fanfic between my tits, why do you ask?). I hid them in a fake bottom I had in my desk drawer. I hid them in weird places in school when I couldn't risk leaving stuff at home. I taped them to the bottom of the book cabinet in my teacher's office. And so on and so forth.

If else failed I entrusted my handwritten fics to friends, like an insane scientist leaving their most important research to someone before they get mysteriously murdered by the government. (I didn't get murdered by the government. But from those friends POV I might as well have because I disappeared mysteriously from several locations when my abusers thought people were onto them)

And I think the most unhinged online thing I did to share fic was create a GOOGLE CHAT (you know, that thing in your gmail THAT NO ONE EVER USES) with my fans AND UPDATE THE FIC THERE.

Do you even understand HOW MUCH GOOGLE CHAT CONVERSATIONS THAT IS??

Oddly enough the only fics I wrote that I was able to recover were the Google chat ones lmao. I copied (by scrolling all the way to the top for hours. Google chat doesn't even have a select/ export/ search function. or at least it didn't back then) the whole chat to a txt document on Notepad. I made a decoy by calling it READ ME and put it in a work file and added a huge wall of real READ ME text with a bunch of computer lingo so that, if my abusers found the file and went through it, they would give up because of the technical language.

Now that I've been out of abuse for a few years and have my own flat and stuff, I use MS Word like a basic bitch, and can finally experience the "fear of the blank page" everyone talks about.

There's something about the imminent sense of doom that makes you churn out stories at a non-human speed lol. Now that I'm safe I write a lot less, despite having vastly improved as a writer and having more ideas.

plz reblog for science