#also sorry i dumped everything in a post i hope it makes sense

[natailiatulls07]

The golden trio Pt 5

Lando Norris x female!reader

Carlos Sainz x female!reader

Max Verstappen & Female!reader & Charles Leclerc

Summary - Being bestfriends with two famous formula one drivers is never easy, but what will happen when you get involved with yet another formula one driver??

Warning - a cringy pick up line, cheating, slight argument and swearing

A/n - I’ve been ill all weekend so I have just been getting some things done so you are getting loads this weekend

There is also kind of a time skip half way through, but you’ll know when 🤍

How is everyone feeling about todays Grand Prix?? 🥹

The golden trio

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Text (White: Reader) (Orange: Lando)

Hey, are you lighting cause I make you McQueen 😉

Lando Norris are you trying to use a pick up line on me?? 😳

Of course darling, just trying to shoot my shot

Well in that case if you want to shoot your shot, take me on a date

Tomorrow 6pm I pick you up

Do I get to know where we’re going Mr Norris??

Nope. I’ll see you then 😘

See you tomorrow 6 pm 🤍

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Gossip Groupchat (White: Reader) (Red: Charles) (Blue: Max)

Hey Bee, me and Charlie have found a new film wanna do a movie night tonight??

Yeah! It looks like a great film, we think you’ll like it 😁

Oh I’m sorry guys, I have a date tonight…

A date?!

With who!??

Um…Lando 🤭

Wait what?? Has finally come to his senses and remembered that night?!

Idk, he sent me a very cringy pick up line to shoot his shot

Yeah and then what??

I then said if he wanted to shoot his shot he should take me on a date so yeah he’s picking me up at 6

Ohhhh so that’s why you were busy all day

Yep, I was getting my nails done and doing some last minute pieces

Well we’ll probably see you just before you leave so I won’t give you the talk just yet 😇

Now I’m considering sneaking out 😅

Don’t you dare young lady!!

lando.jpg

Shooting my shot for her 😍

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username I want dates like this 😩

username Lando taking photos of their date is just to make us jealous 😤

= username Well it worked 🫤

charles_leclerc Don’t forget about her curfew

= lando.jpg Of course, don’t want to get on the big brothers bad sides 😳

= username Overprotective brothers!!!

Texts (White: Reader) (Orange: Lando)

I had a great time last night, thank you 🥰

Of course, I had to win you over and I hope I’ve done that 🤞🏻

You were successful in winning me over

Yayyy!! Wanna do it again some time?

I’d be a fool to turn that down 😅

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yourusername

Monthly dump 😚

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username Not Y/n posting Lando’s back like we don’t know who she’s dating like girl we know, it’s okay 😂

username The food is making me HUNGRY!!

username She’s just like us, posting the ‘worst’ photos of her bestfriends lol

landonorris Who’s that in the McLaren hoodie?? 😏

= yourusername Idk but he uses some cringy pick up lines 😃

username Not Max being an iPad kid 🫣

f1gossip

Spotted: Lando Norris sharing a kiss with another girl whilst Y/n L/n is seen shopping on the other side of Monte Carlo

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username Isn’t Lando and Y/n a thing??

= username Yeah…

= username That means he’s cheating on her 🫢

= username Yeah…

username Why?? Lando why??!

username No I can’t, I just can’t today no!!

username He continues to fuck up my ship! FUCK!

Texts (White: Reader) (Orange: Lando)

Baby I’m so sorry!

No you can’t go ‘baby’ me. No not after you go and kiss another girl Lando.

It’s not what it looks like, please let me explain

Go on then explain why you were passionately kissing another girl in your car

Seen 4 mins ago

I can’t, I’m so sorry darling

Please it didn’t mean anything to me honestly

Baby? Y/n??

I love you sweetheart

Twitter

username Lando Norris you are gonna need to hide from Max and Charles once they see what you’ve done mate 😳

username He has fucked up so much!

username I bet she’s devastated, poor girl 🥺

username Every thing is okay, everything is okay, everything is okay… we’re fucked

Text (Blue: Max V) (Orange: Lando)

Look I’ve tried to talk to Y/n but I’ve just fucked it all up I’m sorry

Yeah you can say that again. Mate if you’ve come here trying to get cut of any slack you might want to think again

I know, I just wish I didn’t do it

Yk that girl LOVES you, she has been the happiest she has ever been since she started getting hate but you fucked that up

Yeah

Charlie and I have tried to get her out of her bedroom but nothing so you gotta think of something and fast

I will, I’m sorry

I know you’re sorry, please don’t think that me and Charlie hate you because we don’t

Thank you, she’s lucky to have you guys

We’re just abit annoyed that she has been hurt once again

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Tag list: @eviethetheatrefreak @janeholt3 @raizelchrysanderoctavius @namelesssav @amalialeclerc @eugene-emt-roe @skepvids @ravisinghs-wife

[cumulo-stratus]

BAU autism headcannons

(GIF NOT MINE)

(male reader)

CW: possible swearing, mentions of meltdowns and overstimulation, lemme know if theres anything else!

A/N: sry i havent rly posted in a while, i started a school recently and its been a rly big change for me so ive just been emotionally/mentally exhausted like all the time, but i dont wanna abandon u guys so i decided i would get something up, even if its not super good, thanks for y’all’s understanding <3

i think both JJ and Emily would become sort of mothers to reader

(not that they werent already mothers to the rest of the team but reader especially)

like JJ would totally have a motherly instinct for readers needs (like a sort of spider sense)

like if your ever nervous about something being too much or being overwhelming, jj would kinds know this and either make arrangements for accommodations or make sure you know you dont have to go if you want to.

and like she definitely wold put herself in charge of keeping your safe foods stashed on the jet and at the office

emily is more of a mother in a protective way than jj is

like this girl will not hesitate at all to go off on someone for maybe being disrespected to about stimming your chair while thinking

or like if you dont want to shake a police officers hand when your being introduced, and you get dirty/weird looks for it, or anyone comments on it? BOOM this girl will stare at them with so much animosity they’ll be scared of her shes so hot oml

anyways i thinks he team would be super accepting of you, especially if you joined after reid like they would already have some experience with autism

and like if you weren’t ent comfortable telling anyone other than hotch(i feel like it would be like a in ur file thing idk how the government works tho) spencer would defo be able to tell and confront u privately abt it (our respectful king <3)

and if you are comfortable telling the team, everyone would be respectful

i think like rossi/gideon would be a little clueless but like trying their hardest

like rossi would have no idea what stimming is but understands that like you move in certain ways or make certain noises when ur excited

and like with all his money he wouldnt hesitate to spoil u with any fidget toy u need/want or like a rly nice weighted blanket (its insane how expensive those things are)

and like gideon despite his profound understanding of others (hope yall got that ;)) he wouldn’ t get why sometimes you dont feel like/cant talk but totally respects it

omg garcia is our autism ally QUEEN im telling you

always has a big basket of fidgets/stim toys sitting on her desk and when your having a rough day shell leave you a little goodie in a brightly colored and decorated bag

i firmly believe that she is the queen at finding brands with clothes that not only fits your style perfectly but is also sensory friendly

i think she would definitely say that if she never ended up working in the FBI she wouldve started a clothing shop for sensory friendly clothing/accessories

spencer would totallllyyyy be your best friend when it comes to being under-stimulated

he will totally info dump on you and vice-versa

spencer (like penlope) would totally recommend clothing brands that are sensory friendly, but sock brands in particular

and everyone makes fun of you for nerding out over everything

also spencer would definitely get in the habit of grabbing your hands in his when you start to pick a t your nails and cuticles

like he didnt even realize what he was doing the first time but now he does it without thinking about it and for the team its normal

“hey,” and he would gently grab your hands to stop you from picking at them

“sorry..”

”youve nothing to be sorry for” (with that little reid smile oml rf[osifjgturhv)

and i also firmly believe that morgan is the best people to go to if your having a meltdown

he would stop you from harmfully stimming

“hey sugar, unclench those pretty little hands for me. there we go… good job kid.” he would have the softest smile and voice

and when he takes your hands to stop you from hitting yourself his grip is rly firm but gentle

but hotch is the best to go to for when your overstimulated

like he would make sure you know his office is always a quiet place you can go to with out questions

and he would secretly have a stash of like stimm toys in his office that he stole from garcia

his couch is always open to you, especially like late at night if you are really tired his fatherly instincts will kick in and force you to come to his office for a break

he would would hand you and blanket and a stim toy

”sit. sleep”

thats all he would say in his cute little stern but actually caring voice <3

[bwabys-scenarios]

hii i really don’t mean this in a bad way! but i saw one of your posts taking about how you mostly write for chubby readers, and i really admire that. keep writing!

buutt, i just have a (not very) little question. one thing about me is that i really do not understand why people write for specially one type of person? like, i absolutely love the inclusivity and i love all your works, but why can’t everyone just write.. for y/n?? if that makes sense.

like, not describing the reader’s body, skin tone, or anything else like that. i’m not trying to tell you what to do or anything, but it’s just something i have been curious about for ages! and i’ve been too scared to ask on the notes because i don’t want anyone to think i’m being mean ( ´ ▽ ` )

basically, what i’m trying to ask is; is it bad that i would prefer if writers wrote for nobody in particular?

because i think that it’s so much easier, that way everybody can be happy without leaving one type of person out?

also, i understand if it’s for one type of oneshot/ story, though. like such as reader getting bullied, harassed, or whatever because of the trait you chose to write about.

and i also completely understand if you write for a specific type of person because that’s what you’re like, and i think that’s great!! i love when writers write y/n as themselves, because honestly me too. but for the people comfortable with that, do you think they should write as i suggested?

like, writing a y/n that’s just.. y/n. not described fully so you can imagine whatever you want for them.

i love your works, and really want you to keep writing!

so please tell me your thoughts on what i said! i am trying to learn how to understand people better, but if you want to ignore that’s totally fine! thank you for reading, i hope you have a wonderful day. <3

note: im sorry if this is a lot and confusing. i kinda just dumped everything i was thinking because i’ve never brought this up with anyone and got a bit nervous to ask this. sorry!

short answer: I write chubby readers because chubby readers deserve to see stories where their bodies are mentioned, celebrated, and loved. Writing for a completely neutral reader is not something I’m interested in, because I would not be able to relate to that at all.

Long answer: Fat people, like me, are often taken out of the experience of reading a reader insert fanfiction because the reader is described as thin WITHOUT any warning saying the fic would describe the body type. You can write your the reader to look however you look, but not tagging it/warning about it can surprise readers and put them off, especially when it happens so often for chubby readers. So I’m not against a reader being skinny, it would just be nice to have a warning or tag.

But anyways, making the reader completely neutral works sometimes, but a lot of the time people write/read chubby reader inserts to see their SPECIFIC body type loved and celebrated because often times it is not in regular reader inserts. People seek out chubby!reader inserts to see a reader being loved that has their body type, they aren’t looking for neutrality. They want a character that has the same struggles, insecurities, and life experiences that they can relate to. A chubby!reader accomplishes that.

I hope this answers your question! It’s okay to be curious and ask questions nicely, so don’t feel nervous :)

[dreadnotau]

So, what the heck's been going on with Dread Not?

First off, kind of a big announcement, the twitter is officially GONE. As "twitter" (x?) added a policy that starting from November 15th, all posts made by users would be fed to their AI algorithm, both my personal twitter as well as the Dread Not twitter are deleted, to prevent my content from being used to feed some shitty AI algorithm. Tumblr isn't exempt from this bullshit AI fad either, but at least they gave you a toggle to opt out of it. It's a low bar and yet sites keep not clearing it. Don't be afraid, though, I've downloaded the archive of the official twitter account and if the fancy strikes me (and if there's enough of a demand for it) I might mess around with the html and make a downloadable version of the Dread Not Twitter for anyone interested in having it as a remnant of that bygone era. I'd just have to find a way to scrub all my actual personal data from that account first though, lmao…

On a more serious note, you probably noticed the comic itself hasn't updated properly since, what, June? And that was only one page. Before then the last update was in September 2023, so it's been well over a year since proper, consistent content for this comic has been made. For that, I am genuinely sorry. I made a lot of false promises and with the update in June I hyped it up with being "finally back" and then held up none of what I promised. That sucks and I wish I had anyone else to blame, but it's all me and my shitty nonexistent work ethic. I COULD'VE finished Act 1 during the summer, but with the way my motivation for art works, I got swept up in other projects thinking I could make up for lost time eventually, and then just didn't. This sucks and I wish it hadn't happened, but here we are.

Moving forward is going to be difficult because of this. As mentioned, I have other projects I'm working on now, projects I'm arguably more invested in than Dread Not. If Dread Not was EASIER to make, it'd be less of a problem, but I've set up a kind of impossible standard for myself of putting my everything into every page. This makes it look phenomenal, I can't deny it, the last few pages have been some of my best work and I still look at them very fondly, but there's also an aspect of… what it is that I'm actually putting so much work into. I don't mean to diminish my own fiction here, but Dread Not was kind of made on a whim, and while it has themes I find interesting it's not as… deeply significant as some of my other work is, or at least is MEANT to be.

To use a metaphor to illustrate, Dread Not is like popcorn that I've painstakingly made a giant ornate bowl to serve it with, while my other projects are fully planned meals that I need to find a good way to serve, and if all my energy is spent trying to figure out how to make my popcorn snack presentable, what time does that leave to the Actual Full Course Meal I'm planning? I hope that metaphor makes sense, because popcorn is still good! It's tasty! You can make it really nice and spicy, but at the end of the day that's not a gourmet meal, and I'd like to try my hand at more serious (culinary) projects. Projects that require me to work not just physically, but also mentally, to explore more difficult themes that mean a lot more to me. And, don't get me wrong, Dread Not HAS interesting ideas in there, it's just that I haven't reached them yet because I've been so preoccupied with this fucking BOWL. The popcorn is cold now and I still haven't finished painting it's goddamn container. There's a reason you usually serve this stuff in a paper bag.

And, paper bag analogy is right, because if you've seen my latest art dump on my art blog, you might've seen a couple of different styles in one place. Flat colours, monochrome colours with an emphasis on shading, a general complete lack of backgrounds, etc. What I want from you, dear reader, is to tell me what YOU want from Dread not. There's no way for me to finish act 1 in a reasonable time frame without downgrading the art, so I want to know what kind of downgrade you're willing to put up with. My personal ideal would be if I could just release the remaining pages as just line-art with minimal shading, but I understand that's probably not what people want, so…

Here's a forum for you to weigh in! (I recommend filling it out after you read this whole post)

On a different note, I want to heavily stress that I'm not abandoning the project, it's just morphing into something different now. It kind of HAS to in order to survive. Originally, working on Dread Not was something I did between classes, it was my only real "organised" artistic outlet if you could call it that, but now that I'm going to school FOR art, something as demanding as a full comic is less an outlet and more a chore. Even WITH downgraded visuals, that's still time spent on something that's not getting me grades or recognition, and while it's fun I'm kind of planning on doing art as a career now, so fun projects have to be REALLY fun for me to still invest so much time into (again, refer back to how my shitass art motivation works). This is why Act 2 is now planned to be entirely text, like other fics I actually work on in my spare time as a Break from visual art. It's a continuation of Act 1 still, just as originally intended, but I'll be adjusting my original script for Act 2 to fit into the new format. I'm sorry if this is disappointing to anyone (if the visual downgrade for the end of act 1 wasn't enough), but this is the most reliable way I can get myself to actually work on Dread Not since, again, I don't think a "passion project" should be draining to think about.

All of the technical stuff about the comic/AU/fic ASIDE… I want to give a huge shoutout to everyone in the Dread Not Discord server. Despite all the hiatuses and despite all the Lack of content I've given them, the server's been decently active and we've even made stories and characters completely divorced from Dread Not or even Deltarune as a concept! It's a really nice group to be a part of and I'm eternally grateful that something I made attracted such creative and thoughtful and SKILLED people into one place to share new ideas and discuss old ones. It's just a great time all around, and I don't think I'd be where I am today if it weren't for that server, as corny and stupid as that may sound.

I'm sorry this ended up being kind of a damper of an announcement, but seeing the state this blog is in I think it's a little necessary to make a proper post addressing all the stuff that's been going on behind the scenes. I hate leaving ya'll in the dark, but I also know that these posts are really long and probably really boring so getting something like this every other week would probably be even more annoying than complete silence.

Again, thank you all for your patience and, by all means, weigh in on what you think should be done with this AU going forward.

-Kooki

PS - I'll announce my other projects when they're in a more presentable state, for now you'll have to wait for those too, sorry.

[at1nys-blog]

How would the demon kings + Rin react to the descendant of a very powerful demon ending up being their crush?

Like... This demon used to work with Lucifer and Samael before he decided to stay in Assiah and start a life.

That was centuries ago by now, though, and now a half demon appears at True Cross with the powers of that demon.

This was harder than I thought, knowing little to nothing about half of them it got tricky but I hope you like it. Beelzebub's was so rushed, sorry if doesn't liveup to your expectations and if it took me this long to post it.

Lucifer's HC

He can feel it, is not that hard to miss it

Stoic but inside???

His feelings are all over the place

He asks Renzo to take you too but the boy fails (as if you would let him)

Hopes to see you again

When you get inside the Illuminati HQ he knows you are there

He can somehow tell is you

Orders to Homare Todo to bring you to him

He might be weaker than his usual but when you are in his presence you are overwhelmed by his power

He would just look at you because he wants to make sure about his suspicions

Then asks you about your powers and your family

You don't want to, like why would he wants to know?

But you give up immediately both because of Homare and Lucifer's presence

He used to like your demonic ancestor, they were one of the strongest one in his battalion

And he sees a lot of them in you

I think he would develop platonic feelings first towards you because of your ancestor and with time, keeping an eye would have a crush on you

If you don't accept his proposal to join his ranks he would fell bitter about it, a demon first and now you? This can't happen to him

But if that makes you happy, then, so lets be it

Sends his demons to keep an eye on you

No one is allowed to touch you

Like not even on purpose

If they do, Lucifer will deal with them immediately

When you are back with the Exwires, Exorcist and the Vatican to stop him, he would try to make you change your mind once again

If he succeds, happy Lucifer

Treats you like a queen

If he doesn't change your mind, would get mad but would find it difficult to hurt you

Mephisto's HC

The moment you walk into the school he is alarmed

In a good way though

As he can feel Satan’s powers he can sense yours

Special treatment and doesn’t even try to hide it

He doesn’t care

Follows you in dog form almost everywhere

Protective af

He invites to eat with him as much as possible

Would take you out every time he isn’t at the Vatican

You want to study? No you can’t. He wants to show you around the school grounds

Tells you about the school as if it’s his baby (is kinda is?)

Sometimes he is very cryptical so you understand nothing of what he is saying

Info dumps

A lot

About everything he know and he knows about a lot

Of course he would tell you about your ancestor

If you didn’t know about it he would react like a drama queen because there is no way your family didn’t told you

He has pictures about the time your demon of an ancestor was in Gehenna

Tells you stories about that time too

Astaroth isn’t allowed to talk to you

Or look at you

Or breath at your direction. Nothing

Will buy you gifts for no reasons at all. He liked it and though you would like it too

Flirting much

“Sugar daddy” vibes

Azazel's HC

He knows you

He is very close to your ancestor

The reason other demons and the Kings never even though to hurt you? His protection

He is the third strongest but Lucifer was never interested in you and so Mephistopheles

Dude is also your principal so why would he hurt you?

He crystallized but he knows how to keep an eye on you

Smiley when you befriend his demons

Like, so much smiley that if he wasn’t crystallized he would kick his feet like a teenage girl

(Your favorite are Ghosts and he sends in as much as possible)

You saw him twice in your life but you know he is the demon king that sends you friends

You are in the middle of plan plotting(?) and he is “does Mephisto treat you good?” “Are your classmates nice with you?”

He acts like a concerned father with their child at college

Embarrassment to the max

But somehow you are… BLUSHING???? (Daddy issues are strong but being fixed thanks to him)

The Exwires would tease you and he would think they are being mean to you

And he is there to save the day lol

Makes them stop without even talking. His presence is enough

One minute he is “👹” and then is all “😊”

He is fine with everything the True Cross comes up with until he knows you are save

100% tells his demons to protect you no matter what

He doesn’t ever openly confess but this is his way to

You don’t get it though

Like everyone else can but you

BON SUGURO GETS IT?????

He is forced to tell you because he can’t believe you don’t get it

Iblis' HC

A fucking flirt. She doesn’t even care that you and your stupid friends are attacking them

She is all bubbly and flirting with you but the second someone else is in the frame???

Be ready to see her demonic side

Is just so confusing to see (Renzo thinks is funny)

Confesses to you like… every two seconds?!

Followed with “if you join us I’ll treat you better than they do” speech

You are so frustrated

You just want to fight her but woman is “no, let’s flirt instead”

You remind her a lot of your ancestor

Surprise surprise, she had a thing for them too

Got very angry and sad (this is a secret shhh) when they stayed in Asshia

Sees you as a second chance for her to make you stay on the side you belong to does that even make sense?!

She is very short tempered so...

I can see her going into fight mode with you if you don’t either flirt back or join her

Still finds it hard to use all her power against you

Which just is an opportunity for you to use all of yours

Betrayal #2

If you are on their side though

Still a 24/7 flirt

Quality time>>>>>>>>>

Shows you off because she has the best “underling” ever

Never really had to confess. Her flirting did the job.

If feelings are reciprocated woman is living her life to the fullest

Will show you off still but now because she has the best partner

Astaroth's HC

when your ancestor left, he was very very very very sulky about it

Like, they were good friends. If not thr best of friends

And then they just left

So when he feels their power back… runs to see where are they

But finds you

He is confused

Why is he sensing the powers from a common human?

He has a hard time putting 2 and 2 together but when he does…

He refuses to believe it

There is no way they have procreated with humans

But you remind him a lot of your demon ancestor

And you have their same habits

The one Astaroth loves so much

Dude is drawn to you

But he can’t do much since he can’t enter school’s ground

And Rin is always around you

So he waits in the shadows

When he meets you for the first time on he other side of battlefield he is mesmerized because not only you LOOK like them but your fighting style is just the same too?!?!

Tries to convince you to join his side

You refuse, for obvious reasons

While he tells you about your lineage he confesses

You are like “did a demon, one I’m trying to kill just confessed?” With a very disgusted face on

And he is like “Uhm, yes?! But you are also part demon so don’t look so disgusted?! thanks”

Will 1000% take it personally if you don’t reciprocate his feelings

And would act accordingly, a.k.a prepare to see him fight at his max

Egyn's HC

Egyn is the chillest out of everyone else

This because he doesn’t register his feelings for you

The second he does…

Freaks out

Like a lot lot

When he is calm would ask to keep an eye on you

Watches over you with pride

He is so happy about all your achievements even tho they are made to be used against him and his siblings

His crush isn’t much of a secret

When he sees you on the battlefield…

He tries to not fight you

If you are tasked to fight Egyn, you are very confused because why is he avoiding you?

He will tell you the reason why, he doesn’t need to be told twice

You are more confused than before

But your confusion just keeps growing the more he talks

How can he have a crush on you?

You don't mind him too much, and he is just "okay, whatever" on the outside but on the inside???

Demon is like "PLEASE NOTICE ME PLEEEASE"

And when you do, for the wrong reason, he doesn't know how to react to be honest

I mean he is happy but he also is not because you are charging at him to attack

Avoids the attack by counterattacking you with like 1% of his strengh because there is no way he is going to hurt you

Very chaotic overall

The other demon King have to step in before he gets killed

Iblis is the one to lecture him about his feelings getting in the way but also she is nice to him about it because they are the closest so she is doing it for his safety mostly.

Now you are fighting Iblis but she is still not using all her strengh and you can tell Igny asked her to go easy on you

Amaimon's HC

Chaotic flirt

Oh Lord, is just there to flirt with you

Mephisto will tell him to not but he doesn't listen

He will try to make you jealous by controlling Shiemi, spoiler, he fails

He won't show it but he is sad that his plan didn't work

Did I say chaotic flirt?

No, because he would use all the cringy pick up lines he heard from humans

He has a list where he writes down new ones every time he hears one that he likes or he sees work

His favorite is: “If I could rearrange the alphabet, I’d put ‘U’ and ‘I’ together.”

Not for a particular reason he just like it

If when doesn't it work he would stop everything he is doing and take out his lil notebook and try another one

and another one

and again while you look at him trying to not laugh at him, I mean this demon came to attack you for started

"Okay, maybe this will do the trick *insert random very cringy pick up line* no? It didn't? Okay maybe this one *insert another one*"

Bon is ready to fight him and so is Rin like, they can't handle this dude even if they tried their best

You wish to make him look ridicolous a little more but you have a task and need to get it over soon so you just ask him to stop and give you Shiemi back

Pouty

He just want to flirt and you to fight? Why?

After Mephisto sends him away, he would ask his brother to tell him more about you

It will take him a lot to put the pieces together about your ancestor so when Mephisto tells him he is like:

I think he had beef with your ancestor so he is weird out A LOT and also this is funnier lol

Mephisto will tell him to stay away from you but he won't listen

best trope with him will be the 'He fell first, she fell harder'

Beelzebub's HC

Second chillest of the eight of them

I think he is the most rational one between everyone

Like he would be the only one that understands (accepts) your ancestor leaving Gehenna (he totally had a meeting with his demons and tell them to leave them alone)

He would check up on your ancestor for a while but stops because of his duties making him so busy to do anything else

Also because the other demon kings, mostly Iblis, would tease him a lot

He is very composed at all times, not when other points out his feelings because he has to analyze them first

But is not as easy as he thinks it was going to be

Once he comes to the realization of what his feelings are he is kinda of disgusted at first because you are human.

Sure you have demon blood running through your veins but still human

He will come around eventually

I think he would try and get into the school to talk to you but Mephisto is like "nah ah leave my students alone"

Just to tease him honestly

If he managed to sneak in Mephisto let him in he would just confess to you

Which confuses the living Gehenna out of you, but you kinda accepted, mostly to get him get away because he wanted an answer

He is fine with you taking sometimes thinking about it

When you met again the first thing he does is asking you if you have an answer to his question

If you say no, most probably because you don't know him and you won't go against your friends, he would walk away from you

Not before telling you about your lineage

If you knew about it True Cross and your family told you already he would let you alone

In case you didn't know about it, it could go in two ways: 1. You stay on True Cross side and ask for explanations for later or 2. you second guess everything the Order told you and might get on the demon's side. Your choice

If you side with them, Beelzebub would ask some of his underlings to take you somewhere safe and to never lose sight of you

Answers all your questions about your family, and about everything you want to know

Trains you to use your powers at their full potential

SPOILS YOU

+ Rin's HC

Something doesn’t sit right with Rin when he first sees you

He also doesn’t get why Mephisto is always in your business

Or why he is always asking about you

Then he kinda of put the pieces together

You are a half demon like him and Mephisto is your father

When he confronts you about it you just laughs at him

Confuse Rin

Not only he was wrong about your father but also you being half demon

You are fully human, biological speaking, but inherited some demonic powers from your powerful ancestor

Confused Rin #2

But he is also impressed by you

Befriends you immediately

Training sessions are a thing now

Studying sessions too (he doesn’t like those as much as training)

It would took him too long to realize he likes you

Longer to confess

He is an over protective type of boyfriend (by the way you asked him to be your boyfriend because he was taking sooooooo long)

Like, on missions? There is no way you two aren't paired up; At school? He is seated next to you in class, at lunch

He is having an hard time when you are in your dorm

He knows how it feels to have demonic powers and he wants to make sure no enemies attack you

He also will show you off every chance he gets

When you have to attack Lucifer a part of him wants you to stay back even though he knows you can take care of yourself just fine

Very proud of you when you take down an enemy stronger than you

Will talk about it 25/8

COOKS FOR YOU EVERYDAY

[yukidragon]

Ian was saying that more complex toppings were more ‘mature’ (as opposed to plain cheese pizza which admittedly is popular with children) plus cashews are expensive/fancy/healthy. Is he trying to project a more sophisticated image or something?

Is poor Sunshine the familiar, reliable but boring childhood comfort food he’s leaving behind to try something (or someone) more adventurous and glamorous?

Does he at one point start to see himself as outgrowing them? (In the opening of the game Sunshine expresses the opposite, implying Ian is the one childhood thing they’re nostalgic for. Ouch.)

He seems to talk about cheese pizza like they always get it, like it’s the safe fallback option… hmmm…

Googling brings up stuff about cashews being offered as a pizza topping in some places in the Northwest, others say it originated from some place in California called Dave’s Gay 90s. Can’t speak to the truth of that and don’t know why a young man living in Texas wants it, but perhaps it reflects his aspirations.

California is apparently home to a number of actors that have made it big and perhaps that’s where his acting school is?

So the cheese pizza is his safe childish past with Sunshine and the Californian cashew pizza topping is symbolic of the acting success he’s hoping his adult future will be?

I don’t know, I’m not American

Your analysis is very insightful. I think you did a great job with it. I really like the idea of the pizza being a metaphor for MC and Ian's relationship.

It would sadly make a lot of sense that part of why Ian cheated was because he outgrew the relationship and MC. It/they didn't satisfy him anymore. He wanted new, exciting, more mature things. MC was safe, nostalgic... a piece of Ian's childhood.

It makes sense too why after Ian cheated, MC recklessly abandons anything nostalgic. They're trying to move on from those feelings that Ian took for granted after the cheating tainted them.

It also makes sense why Ian is so desperate to get MC back, as new things, however exciting, are scarier than something safe and familiar.

Sometimes I've heard stories about couples that were together for years since they were teenagers who clicked just right and seemed perfect for one another... only to end abruptly when one partner suddenly starts wanting more. They want to explore independence, other relationships, and everything the world has to offer. They could even regard their partner as perfect even while their feelings have cooled, lamenting that if only they met later in life when they were ready to settle down in a serious relationship... then everything would feel perfect. They wouldn't be feeling this restlessness. The relationship would actually feel satisfying to them.

Then those same restless exes, after cheating, breaking up, whatever, and losing their former partner... They discover that they miss their ex despite being the one to break their former lover's heart when seeking freedom. The other relationships, though exciting, aren't as fulfilling as the childhood sweetheart they dumped. If they can at least stay friends then there's a chance of getting back together, but if not... then it becomes terrifying as their safety net is gone.

Speaking of the fallback option, there's this one picture that isn't necessarily canon where Ian talked about MC as if they were his fallback option if acting didn't work out.

Credit, as always, goes to the awesome Sauce. Sorry about the cropping, but tumblr will not accept what's to the left of this image. You can check the full NSFW version out here if you want to see Ian and MC going at it.

BTW consider checking out the SnaccPop Studios Patreon. It's got a lot of other nice and spicy things. Just don't repost anything posted there.

Ian might be showing his insecurity here, but consider the timeline. If acting worked out, he leaves MC to go to his fancy acting school. There, he seems to have made it as a model and actor... and it's (presumably) where he cheated. He got what he wanted, all the excitement and fame of the life of an actor... including an exciting tryst... then he realized that he betrayed all his ideals, everything he said before about only loving and wanting MC, and his relationship with MC all for one moment of excitement.

MC was the comfortable option, the nostalgic option, the safe option... but sometimes a person just wants to take risks, to "grow up" and be adventurous... and sometimes that leads to reckless decisions, like what happened with Ian.

We might not know for sure exactly what led Ian to cheat, but he knows he messed up, as he admits to himself in the demo. He knows he wrecked a good thing... and that's why he's so desperate to get his safe nostalgia back.

Guess cashew pizza wasn't all that it was cracked up to be, was it, Ian?

@channydraws @earthgirlaesthetic @sai-of-the-7-stars @cheriihoney @illary-kore @okamiliqueur

[antiendovents]

hey! so tumblr eated the last one so i hope this one works (hopefully i got everything, memory is hard) also for some context: the only people fronting at this time was a persecutor (me) and a social protector, both of us don't have empathy and don't stand for the system being pushed around

anyways i posted about how weird it is whenever endos say traumatized people hold privilege over them and an endo came into my replies saying that i'm the reason their friend tried to kill themselves and people like ME is the reason people have issues.

mind you i am nothing but respectful in online discussions (and keep interacting with endos to a fucking MINIMUM!!) unless someone shows me disrespect first, then i am done with them (but never am toxic yk?) so i haven't done jack shit to make their friend wanna kts

but they came into my reply section all talking about how people who are anti endo are so evil and toxic and cause people to end themselves (mind you i mentioned how endos send me gore rape threats and etc and they did not reply to that)

then when i didn't bite and kept pointing out how A. no one was talking about that B. They are trauma dumping and C. they can't guilt trip me they started calling me a kid and an edgelord and calling me names and implying i was just to stupid to see that "[im] the problem". and that they weren't trauma dumping they were explaining nuance (which they lacked so badly. doubt they know the definition of the word.)

they then compared me to ben shapiro and told us they weren't there to have a normal conversation and atp i was done with them.

went to their page to block them and they had posts about hating how people block tags/other people cuz it makes 'people not receptive to other viewpoints' and shit and then they vague posted us. like its not lacking nuance or not liking other viewpoints, its the fact that you're a dick. you don't understand how to properly have a conversation with other people, respect THEIR viewpoints or understand nuance that doesn't fit your beliefs and think everyone should just bend to your will. not wanting people to block people isn't being smart its being chronically online and assuming superiority over everyone who disagrees with you. i have never seen someone so dense ironically talking about other people who disagree being dense. like maybe people just don't fucking agree with you and don't wanna hear your bs.

sorry if none of this made sense!

oh, jeez that's.. I hate how endos try guilt trip us, like no I'm not going to be pro endos just because your friend was bullied or harassed ((obviously I don't think they deserved that, but I'm not going to give up my beliefs and start feeding into misinformation just because that happened)). It's good that you blocked them, because they sound like a fucking dickhead tbh. You are not the problem, they are, and it's so frustrating that they can't see that. Like fuck off with your BS, no one cares about you or your endos shit (not directed at you anon)

Also don't worry, this makes sense ^^

[horrorknife]

hi ! sorry if this sounds weird but like

i stumbled upon one of your hoffheight posts and I'm so. genuinely fascinated ?? like, i THINK i understand it (I've certainly put them in a microwave and stared at them for the past few days) but i want to "get it right", if that makes ANY amount of sense. I want to interpret them correctly, I think is a better way to phrase it (it's 2am nothing I say will make more sense and I apologize for that.)

I think in a post you mentioned them being like, reflections of each other or something, which, I didn't realize but shit yeah?? they are aren't they. something about being on hair triggers or whatever. GOD they fascinate me so much I need you to understand how much this dynamic intrigues me. having them both be unstable in their own rights (esp with anger issues and all) it just. I love that ?? it's so fun!! I keep spinning them in my mind !!!

I think you also mentioned them being some flavor of qpr and as someone who's aromantic I. god qpr's my beloved. I really need them to be an evil qpr. that means a lot 2 me. ESPECIALLY if it's not even mentioned, but it definitely is a qpr. in my head Adam would have the potential (still not likely) to know what a qpr is, but he would never label it as that. at least not verbally. I love when there's a silent agreement that two people are definitely not romantic but labelling something as platonic is insincere. they're a secret third option don't worry about it !!!

sorry for dumping this into your inbox, I have a lot of thoughts and assumed it'd be mildly funny if I just left them with you. do with that what you will. I hope you have a nice day and thank you for the food for thought

[bonus ask that's ACTUALLY an ask and not just the ramblings of a mad man, do you have any fic recommendations of the two? for research, of course]

HI!!!! oh my fucking god anon you have no idea how excited and happy this makes me . *little cat running around in circles moment* 

so like. i imagine there’s this cord between them and neither of them understand it. they can both just Smell the sameness on each other, the familiarity of deepset rage and suffering and loneliness. adam’s young and impressionable and hoffman would be able to use him to his advantage. hoffman would love this guy. my characterization of adam post bathroom is lonely, detached, and even angrier than before so he gets into fights for the self destructive nature of the thing and hoffman would LOVE how unhinged he is (we all saw how much hoffman seemed to admire/get obsessed w strahm and that guy is Nuts). they’re the same kind of prey animal! they have the same fear of abandonment!!

something something the way they both die in the same spot, attached to the same pipe, forced to watch as LAWRENCE (OF ALL PEOPLE!!!!) abandons them for dead. adam is desperate for life adam is in a game rigged against him. hoffman fights and fights and gnashes and thrashes against this the entire series and yet he ultimately has no choice but to succumb to it, he dies the same horrific way adam did, alone and abandoned and feeling that same primal prey animal fear. there's something to both of them being lawrence's only (CANONICAL) victims (brad, ryan, and dina are lawrence's vics to me. but that's a different post) there's something to the way that adam dies in the first film and haunts the narrative forever and the person who reprises that role is HOFFMAN of all people. the way that this comes full circle is really really delicious to me

adam's camera is his buffer from the real world, it's how he processes things, he's at his best when he's unnoticed and free to Watch. guys we're not doing enough with the voyeur thing. guys. adam catalogs information adam loves holding secret knowledge. in a similar way, hoffman is holding a knife between himself and the real world, he's processing everything through a layer of violence before all else because he can't risk human connection anymore. all of his relationships are made through violence and this is of course present here as well because you adam's deepest connections are also facilitated through violence. you can argue that this is true of all saw characters and you'd be right but there's something so specially flavored about it when you look at hoffman and adam next to each other.

hoffman needs Direction From Someone Else in order to be an effective cog in the jigsaw machine–after john dies he just falls apart immediately and gets clumsy and makes stupid mistakes bc at the end of it all hoffman has been robbed of a Normal existence and the thing he really wants most is companionship (again, seen in the way he interacts w rigg and strahm–he communicates his ‘affection’ in adversarial ways to keep them hooked + offers them genuine chances at survival but they’re both too clouded and Against Him for it to work. king of misjudging situations) and direction. i think if he even had a LITTLE help he’d be a lot better at being jigsaw

conversely, adam is this poor, broke 25 year old clinking pennies together in his shithole apartment. and he has the same stripping of purpose hoffman does. he doesn’t communicate with his family anymore (for undisclosed reasons but this is one of my personal pinpoints for bi/transmasc adam), effectively abandoned by them, and we know that his one namedropped friend (his “BEST” friend btw) is a piece of shit TO him and ABOUT him. adam gets walked all over and he lives at the universe’s disposal to kick the shit out of. he’s been abandoned or mistreated by everyone significant in his life. hoffman is a well off and well respected cop with a whole department of people who highly respect him but he’s empty inside bc he’s incapable of having any meaningful relationships the moment he gets involved with john. he has to fully wall himself off again because it’s too risky to get close to other people. imagine your only worldly thread of understanding from another person ends up being the serial killer you’re chasing/impersonating. and he hates you.

adam’s a genuinely understanding and kind person under his defensiveness, we all know this, we’ve all seen saw 2004. he’d be kind to hoffman and hoffman would see stars. he forgot people were capable of treating him like a normal person. having hoffman warm up to you is the equivalent of having a crochety old man who hates everyone share apple slices with you. you’re a little nervous about it, you’re a little on edge, but he’s just cutting out his apple slices and handing you one every so often. a test of trust. maybe you’re uncomfortable but you’ll take his offering to be polite. you’ll enjoy his company, you’ll share that apple with him, you’ll forge a new bond with that person. this is the type of companionship im kind of getting at. 

um but yeah . rambling aside. back on track. unspoken/unaware qpr hoffheight is THE THING to me. yes we love each other yes we’d kill for each other no we’re not in love. we have a secret third thing and it’s called I Have To Keep This Guy Safe Right Fucking Now Because He Matters To Me More Than I Can Understand. OH mid paragraph im remembering something important. this absolutely all takes place within a sphere of hoffman and adam’s relationship starting with hoffman making adam his apprentice. i feel like that might have been obvious up there ^ but i want to be very clear w my intentions and my vision. KJDFSJKDF. ALSO oh my god . fuckkkkk fuck  fuck fml i think hoffman thinks 2 himself that angelina would probably have liked adam and that definitely endears him to the guy. 

like you said yeah i think adam has the Potential to know what a qpr is (but i dont think he does know)!! if anything he would ultimately just recognize it as an inherently special and inherently queer relationship…auuuu………i know i didnt get too into the evil parts of them too much here but thats cuz it would make me end up writing a 6k essay on them or something. just know that they do butt heads a lot because at the end of the day theyre from completely different universes and adam is an ODD/BPD king.

god . i could really just go on and on and on and on about them. i have so much more to say LOL but this is already a bit of a wordy response >__< i just have such a clear vision of their vibe and dynamic in my mind. it comes to me like sherlock visions. i’m being pelted with big times new roman font things that say shit like “HOFFHEIGHT GAY SEX” “They Are Everything To Each Other In A Codependent Ass Way” 

THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK BY THE WAY I UM. GOT SO FUCKING EXCITEDD WHEN I READ IT AKJDNJAKLDNVSJKFNFDKGNVDFK. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THESE TWO ARE TO ME . YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW SICK AND FUCKED UP I AM OVER THEM LOLLLLL. asks that made me get up out of bed at 6:30 in the morning because i was too excited and woke up fully 

if u have more questions or u wanna rap abt this more PLEAAAAASE feel free 2 send more asks or reach out via messages i love discussing my evil plots with them. i am literally ALWAYS locked and loaded and ready to talk about hoffheight. anon i unfortunately do not have fic recs because i do not like reading fanfiction. im incredibly particular about characterization and i’m a little bit of a writing snob. i don’t trust them in anyone else’s hands for fic if i’m being honest. i don’t think anyone else’s vision will fully align with mine and i’m too autistic to risk seeing that be done wrong. i’ll get too emotional KJDNKJSNFJ

[alaskan-wallflower]

100% agree with your ED post, considering how he makes dramatic changes to himself whenever he feels there is something wrong with him, like World Wide Privacy Tour, where he tried to change himself from clothes to personality to make appear more laid back (or mentally stronger in his words) when he felt his friends didn’t like those aspects about him in the episode, so it would make sense if he felt there was something wrong with his weight, that he would do everything he felt would make it idle in his eyes (though unfortunately a lot with ed’s don’t ever see that :( )

Also when you said he would be scared of not maintaining his body even after he was more satisfied with it, I honestly felt that, as someone who was chubby as a kid and criticised for it, then lost a lot of weight as a teenager, I was also scared of gaining weight again so I would also skip meals if I felt I didn't eat right (along with other stuff).

(also, sorry for being so venty over here and dumping this information about myself on you, what you said was just really relatable to me)

Anyway, I love your takes and I hope you have a lovely day!

tw: eating disorder

hey. you’re okay. i hope you’re doing better now, first of all. second of all; i kinda based it off of my own experiences too where i was afraid of not being able to maintain a “perfect” body. to the point i resorted to some things too. so i did kinda base it off my own experiences and i also like to do my research before making such a bold(?) take because i like to make it as accurate as possible. but yeah. i have seen some fics where people portray kyle as someone who would be obsessed with his appearance and in some more desperate measures, he takes really bold action, in a way.

i do kinda think that it stemmed from his middle school days. i headcanon that kyle was really thin? like he just ended up being really tall and lanky with no visible muscle mass (not discrediting him because he was strong but looking at him you wouldn’t know it? so at first he wanted to gain weight so he didn’t look so thin. so in the beginning it was a lot of binging. and then when he finally stopped growing and he did gain weight he was thrilled. but then he never really saw himself as like ‘oh i’m heavier because of muscle because i exercise’ but more like ‘i’m fat now�� kind of way. i don’t think hanging out with cartman made it easier. i don’t think he would be chubby per se? but looking at pics of him in eighth grade cs pics of him in say the end of freshman year he was noticably kinda heavier? not chubby but not like a stick figure either. and sheila also was probably no help. she’s probably load him with the whole ‘oh kyle, you’ve finally got some meat on your bones!’ type comments and eventually he kinda just snapped.

he probably kept some sort of diary and tracked what he was eating. likely in his phone in a locked note so nobody could find it. he honestly probably ended up tracking his calories that he took in vs the calories he burned and he would probably be out late at night if he didn’t seem he had enough exercise. after a while he started skipping meals if he didn’t eat something he seemed healthy. he gets help in the end but he ends up staying like this throughout most of high school. up until graduation i’d argue. eating disorders are no joke; they can last a while. he started getting help in college. he never told his mom. he knew it would break her heart so he just never told her. i also don’t think him being arguably the person with the most presence on social media helps.

it’s another reason i like to headcanons him as a child psychologist in the future. he wants to prevent the things he went through. i know oftentimes stan is seen as the one with the most ‘angst potential’ but looking at kyle it’s pretty clear he has some potential too. it’s honestly probably something i’ll incorporate into future works, like comics and such.

thank you for the lovely wishes. ditto <3

[my-mt-heart]

hi, Mt. This might cause some negative energy and I'm sorry, but I hope its still okay to write this to you. If you can't post, that's okay too. As much as I love Caryl and Melissa, I think I have to walk away. Fandom has always been too intense for me, so I like to stay hidden, but I like reading all the articles and following along on filming. Everything about S1 was making me uncomfortable. Daryl was being weird a lot of times and the things the producers kept saying, I kept wanting to argue with. I thought now that S1 is over and Melissa is announced, things would be a lot better. I do like all the photos of Melissa and I liked the little trailer we got, but something about this show feels very wrong. You talked about a lot of the things I noticed on my own, the way it still feels like Daryl is the most important and Carol doesn't mean as much because she's not in the title. That's just an example. I hate that. And I hate that the producers are making that feeling worse every chance they get. Zabel, he just makes me mad because his way of explaining Daryl and now Carol sounds like he's just ranting and sometimes doesn't make any sense. I don't think Daryl can make deep relationships that quickly for example. But Norman and Greg Nicotero, what they say sounds worse to me. Some people aren't going to like me saying this and I don't mean to cause you any trouble since it's your tumblr. The way they insult Melissa sometimes and hurt the fans to make us seem unimportant or dumb, it makes me feel like I'm in another abusive relationship and that's what I need to get away from. I thought about just staying off the internet and watching the show, but their behavior makes me worry about the show too. I believe you about them refusing a new showrunner who's a woman and it's not just because you said it. It's because it fits with past things they've done. Norman admitted getting rid of Angela Kang and then they hired Zabel who is a white man just like them. I won't be able to take it if Caryl's relationship is ruined. I didn't have much when I was young, including love. I was trapped in the same cycle for a long time. Watching Caryl gave me a lot of hope because they were similar to me and I wanted them to be together to know some happiness is still possible even if life has been so hard. Maybe they will, but it's not worth all this suffering in the meantime. I don't think I'll find characters like them again, but I'll find something that makes me feel joy every day, not misery and anger. Thank you for listening and for making me feel not so alone for a while. Thank you to Melissa McBride for being so talented and lovely. I wanted to be able to thank Norman too. I'm just too hurt right now, but Daryl will still have a special place in my heart right beside Carol as it should be.

***I'm including a trigger warning here and kindly asking anyone who reads to please be respectful of this anon's experiences***

Anon, you don't have to apologize. It's always bothered me when we assign each other a "negative" or "positive" disposition when in reality it's perfectly human to form nuanced opinions. Last year wasn't kind to Caryl fans at all, so seeing Melissa filming again and seeing bts photos of Caryl again felt like the first warm day after a brutal winter (to quote my favorite podcast hosts 🤪❤️). I think every single one of us wants to hold onto that feeling. I'm happy for those who are succeeding. We deserve to finally look forward to the Daryl and Carol show we were promised.

That being said, I also empathize with those who are having a difficult time holding on. I am one of those people myself. One day it feels like we're getting something exciting, like the first Caryl photos let's say, and the next we're getting dumped on. Case in point, an actor who isn't even on the show taking the opportunity to call Caryl's/Carol's fans toxic and using Melissa's return to self-promote. Or how about another actor using sexist language to attack the same fans because he didn't like the criticism the show was getting. Or the showrunner teasing another ship with zero regard for a significant portion of his soon-to-be audience (Caryl fans). It’s all very discouraging, especially when the intervals in between the bad PR get shorter and shorter.

As for the male EPs’ off-putting behavior, you aren’t the first person to describe it to me the way you did, far from it, which is just to say you aren’t alone. Thank you for sharing a little bit about yourself even though it couldn’t have been easy. I’ll share that when I was growing up, the men in my life would often display an urgent need to be in control, to let everyone know they were the boss and what they said goes. Tracking this show has definitely brought up a lot of the anxiety I thought I’d dealt with already, that Daryl helped me deal with when I first started watching TWD, so I completely understand where you're coming from.

The show we were promised in 2020 was a Daryl and Carol show. Theoretically, now that Melissa is back, it should be a Daryl and Carol show again. That’s what Melissa signed on for and her EP title is supposed to be equal to Norman’s. But Norman, Nicotero, and AMC are not honoring that. You already mentioned the title, so I’ll use another example. Norman said S2 is Carol’s story before amending to Carol and Daryl stories paralleling each other. Either way, why is his character the only one on the clapperboard? Where’s Carol? In that tiny plane?

These may seem like non-issues on the surface, but as I've talked about before, people working on the show can use them as cues to establish a chain of command different from what's in contracts. The male EPs can use them to drown out Melissa's voice in instances of disagreement. The showrunner is a big one. How about directors? Are they all white men again? Who's deciding that? And how can that be the only perspective we're getting if S2 is centered around a heavily-nuanced female character, a mother, a survivor of domestic abuse, a frequent target of misogyny and ageism on SM ? Melissa's input is highly valuable. I'm in no way diminishing that or suggesting she's helpless, but she needs to be shown all the professional courtesy she deserves, as an equal. If fans are seeing evidence to the contrary, and we absolutely can see that, it undermines the narrative we've been invested in all this time: Carol beating the odds over and over again, proving her worth, and becoming a leader.

I'm really sorry that you're feeling mistreated by a show you used as a source of comfort. It's not how things are supposed to work. There should be no gaslighting, no sexist name-calling, no playing into your fears, no insulting your intelligence, no making you feel unheard. Explicit canon is something that needs to happen, but it won't take away the discomfort you're feeling unless we can get someone else in a position of power to push for Caryl, Carol, and the Daryl we know, with Melissa. That's honestly what I'm waiting to see at this point. AMC needs to make big changes. In the meantime, please take care of yourself, anon. Your wellbeing comes first.

[atinylittlepain]

Hello Gin 🤍

For the “do things get better” question I wanted to offer some personal thoughts….

I ask myself the same question and think it does get better, it just takes time. People will be like “oh what’s takin u so long” but healing is a tricky process and should not be taken lightly it can’t be forced to happen as quickly as possible. Especially if people who hurt you who are literally responsible for why you are in such a state of mind are the ones who pressure you to get better faster that pisses me off. Just because they can’t see a change doesn’t mean nothing is happening yk. Sometimes you don’t even realize that it gets better because the situation still feels terrible for example I’ve lost a lot of “friends” and now I only have two left. I asked myself why everybody left and felt very lonely but recently i understood that these were not real friends and without them I’m better off. I’ve got two great friends who are like sisters they know me so well and with them I don’t have to pretend. And then there’s the kind people in here who made me come out of my shell a little bit 🤍

I also live by believing that whatever is happening is the right thing like if the universe doesn’t want these people in my life because they’re bad for me then the universe takes them away. Though I have to backtrack a lil, not everything is the right thing. There are definitely things that happened that don’t make any sense and that are not in any shape or form something that should’ve happened.

I don’t know if that was helpful and I’m sorry that I dumped all of this here but seeing that post made me think 💭

Gin I hope you’ll feel better and if you ever want to talk or idk anything I offer myself 🫶🏻

Hi Mina, you know, i really appreciate you sharing this - i feel you on the dropped lines with friends thing - i'm the kind of person who has no problem cutting and running, and sometimes i think i might be a little too quick with it, but most of the time i think i get it right - also, my brain is full of holes rn lmao, so if this response sounds a little drab, please excuse me :')

but yeah, i think i overall agree with you on this, though i may just have a less optimistic spin on it - i'm more of the, everything ends, everything passes away, so this too will end and pass away, school of thought - nothing is forever, nothing is permanent - and that can be both a huge relief and the greatest pain...

i don't know, whatever i'm in right now, it will eventually change into something else, and there's gotta be some hope in that sentiment i suppose

god, i sound like a total bummer, oh well, that's what graduating college will do to a guy

thank you for your thoughts and support <3

[nikeiyomiurioverthinker]

So I ended up hyperfixating on the new post Linuj made so I translated the entire thing.

I do need to preface this by saying I don't speak Korean at all and everything I have written is based on Google Translate and vibes! Syobai is cussing a lot more than he probably should in this unofficial translation because of it.

I am also sorry if some sentences don't make too much sense, I'm trying with my limited English grammar knowledge.

Without further ado, here is the first Omake story, Queen of Despair, in a format that is probably going to be akin to that of the other Omake stories!

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I love despair.

It's good to see people suffering. Hearing yells and screams makes me unbearably happy.

To someone like me, the "Ultimate Despair" was a god-like being.

Over the past few years, the incidents connected to the Ultimate Despair have made me madly excited.

It was the first excitement and pleasure I felt in my boring life, and so I continued to savor it.

But there is no such thing as 'forever'.

In the end, Ultimate Despair was defeated by Ultimate Hope and the biggest, most awful, most tragic event in all of human history was almost over.

Humanity overcame despair and moved towards the future with newfound hope.

It was… it was despair for me.

My name is Taro Watanabe.

There are Remnants who love despair and live for it.

Despair is hard to survive these days.

Ultimate Despair was annihilated, and most of the remaining Remnants were either killed or imprisoned.

In recent years, since the world has regained hope, and the judiciary has been completely revived, not only are the Foundation guys roaming around, but also those government dogs.

For the Remnants who worship despair, the current situation could only be called 'despair-inducing'.

Taro: …It's here.

However, even in this hopeless situation, hope existed.

After much searching, I finally got to her.

To the Queen of Despair.

Taro: Three blocks northwest of the garbage dump, 15 steps in the direction of the church with a broken payphone…

Taro: !!!

No way… the information was real.

My heart started to tremble with excitement.

The person I am about to meet is so important, a mere plebian like me couldn't even dare to look her in the eye.

Rumors that have been floating around for months…

The rumors that there is a new "Symbol of Despair for the Next Generation" that erodes all hopes and calmly commits crimes that would shock even the Gods…

Taro: …Let's go inside.

A dark, dusty old staircase.

It was a ruin that ordinary people would not even pay attention to, but the atmosphere was somehow reassuring to me.

It was the energy of despair.

After passing through several stairs and corridors, I found a door that exudes unusual energy.

I took several deep breaths and knocked on the door with trembling hands.

Taro: …

???: …Come on in.

Taro: Ah…!!!

The air feels agitated.

At first glance, it sounds like a cute child's voice, but there is a terrible energy of despair hidden inside.

Just by hearing this voice, I knew that I had come to the right place.

I grab hold of my heart that is beating like crazy, without thinking about stopping…

Soon, carefully, very carefully, I opened the door.

The inside of the room was in much better condition than expected, compared to the door on the outside.

The dust of the ruins was still hanging in the air, but there was no time to worry about that in this room.

A feeling of intimidation filled the small room.

The moment that person came into my sight…

…I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed.

Iroha: …are you Watanabe Taro?

On the outside, she looks like an ordinary girl.

However, from her shady face and her unusual appearance, I could tell that she was absolutely not a normal human being.

She had the composure of a veteran who had gone through all kinds of battles.

I could tell by the way the leisurely laughed.

Taro: Ah…!!!

Taro:T-That's right! This is Watanabe, the one that contacted you!

For a moment, I had forgotten that she had called my name and just blankly stared at her.

This person is the "Symbol of Despair of the Next Generation" Iroha Nijiue.

A person who, at some point, became a legend among Remnants.

"Queen of Despair" "Enoshima Junko the 3rd" and "Next Generation Despair" were all names for her.

If you were to look at her actions, she was a member of an organization that kidnapped and killed the symbols of Hope for the next generation, she killed a member of the Kisaragi Foundation and…

She even has on her record swindling and murdering the broker "H", whose identity has recently begun to emerge to the surface.

Moreover, even after committing all of these actions, the government or foundations did not catch her, and her work is still ongoing.

And even though this must be Iroha, who is actually being chased by the world, she is still facing me so boldly.

To be honest, her appearance was a little different from what I expected, but…

Thinking that the Queen of Despair, who had committed such great feats, was right in front of my eyes, I started to get goosebumps all over my body.

Iroha: Yes, I received the letter and the aid money you sent.

Iroha: I heard you have brought more gifts…?

Taro: Yes! Yes! You're right! Here…

After saying that, I took out a small box from my bag and handed it to the Queen.

Iroha: …this?

Taro: Yes, actually, there was a bit of a scuffle with the Kisaragi Foundation guys all the way here.

Taro: After a fierce chase, one of them was decapitated. I wanted to show my spirit to the Queen…

Iroha: Deca…!?

Taro: Yes, he was a young boy.

Iroha: …you-

Iroha: you idiot!! Who asked for something like this!?

Taro: Hee! I'm- I'm sorry.

Iroha: Uh- hmm, besides, there was trouble with the Kisaragi Foundation, you said…

Iroha: Are you insane? To come all the way here in that state… what would you have done, if you had been tracked down by the agency?

Taro: That's…

Taro: I'm- sorry. I didn't think that far ahead.

That was definitely true. I did not think about that.

I was busy thinking about my meeting with the Queen of Despair, I ended up almost causing her a lot of trouble…

Iroha: If you truly are sorry, shouldn't you show it sincerely?

Taro: Sincerely… you mean?

Iroha: Get three more cheques ready. In addition to the funds sent today.

Taro: Three- three checks!?

Iroha: Can't you? If you can't do that much, would you rather I turn you into my servant?

Taro: Oh no- it's possible! Consider it done!

Iroha: …we prepared a SUV in the back of the building. Get on it and move it.

Iroha: First of all, we'll take you to the hideout. A detailed explanation will be provided by the officer there.

Taro: That- that means!

Iroha: …you just have to make up for your mistakes.

Iroha: Welcome. You are now an Ultimate Despair.

…I did it.

In this bleak world where hope swallows despair, I finally met the mother of despair and became a child of despair.

The hard life of the past is now over.

It wasn't until today that I became a member of the 'Ultimate Despair'...!!!

Iroha: Mr. Hashimoto!!

Iroha: What's with that guy!? Isn't he crazy!?!?

As soon as Watanabe Taro left.

There, the "Queen of Despair" started screaming and running around.

Iroha: No, why the heck would you give a person's head as a gift!?

Iroha: Who in the world would love receiving something like that…

Syobai: Well, if he was a normal person, would he come to people like us?

Syobai: Have you never seen a person with a severed head?

Iroha: Like once or twice!! Why would I want to see something like a human neck!

Syobai Hashimoto.

A broker operating only in the shadows.

After the Utsuroshima incident, his identity was revealed to the light, and his actions shocked many people.

But.

The public thinks that he died when the bridge collapsed while escaping from the Kisaragi Foundation.

As it turns out, it was Iroha Nijiue, who was with him, that managed to escape by disguising a corpse under the bridge as her own.

That's the truth known to the public.

Somehow, people seem to believe that Iroha Nijiue killed him…

That's the only truth that was known. Until now.

Syobai: Hey, bubblehead. Shut up… what the hell were those poor conditions earlier?

Iroha: Wh- what?

Syobai: Why the fuck only three? Three. These are bastards who would risk their lives in order to enter the "New Ultimate Despair".

Syobai: Even if you were to tell them ten, those are fuckers that would make the money by selling all their organs or some other shit.

Syobai: And you only asked for three cheques…? You've forgotten everything I taught you.

Iroha: W-well, but he seemed to be having a hard time already when I told him to give me three more cheques…

Syobai: And since when did you start caring about the "fish"?

Syobai: Those guys are all fucked in the head. Getting the money out of them is all that matters.

Syobai: We are just "baiting" them.

Iroha: …

Syobai: If you understand, prepare to move. I am going to take care of that guy from earlier.

Iroha: Yeah? But, uh… the three cheques?

Syobai: Didn't you hear what he said earlier? There was a scuffle with the Foundation guys.

Syobai: If even one of the chaser comes, it's game over for us. We received the aid anyway, so the goal was achieved.

Syobai: It's just three cheques, and it's better to deal with this guy here as soon as possible.

Iroha: Well, then this hiding place…?

Syobai: We most definitely need to move.

Iroha: Uh, but… this place was pretty good out of all the ones we've had so far…

Syobai: Hey, the way that guy grimaced over all the dust when he first arrived here tells us everything we need to know.

Syobai: Hey, I'll be back soon, so stay still here.

Iroha: …

Iroha: Hey… Mr. Hashimoto…

Syobai: What?

Iroha: How long do we have to keep living like this…?

Syobai: …

Iroha: "Queen of Despair" this, "Enoshima Junko the 3rd" that…

Iroha: By promoting non-existent fantasies like the "New Generation Despair"...

Iroha: This life of extracting dirty money using this fish and bait method…

Iroha: Are you really satisfied with this, Mr. Hashimoto?

Syobai: …

Iroha: O-of course, I know that we have no choice but to do this if we want to earn a living.

Iroha: That there is no other way for us as long as the judicial system is revived and the Kisaragi Foundation's power is so strong.

Iroha: But, well… we survived!

Iroha: We survived that hellish killing game!

Iroha: So, someday, this life of escape will end, and we will be able to return to our daily lives as decent members of society…

Iroha: So? How long do we have to continue like this…?

Iroha: If it's Mr. Hashimoto, you'll end up using a more daring method…

Syobai: Hey.

Syobai: What the hell do you think I am?

Iroha: Huh?

Iroha: You are… the world's greatest villain, who even stabbed Mr. Sannoji himself in the back… is that wrong?

Syobai: …Jeez.

Syobai: Hey, you. Listen carefully.

Syobai: I don't know what kind of fantasies you have made up about the person known as "Syobai Hashimoto"...

Syobai: But this is how I've always lived.

Syobai: Do you think that trash like me has lived a wonderful life?

Syobai: Trash lives by doing trash things.

Iroha: …

Syobai: If you're sick of this, then our deal is gonna be over starting today.

Iroha: Huh!?

Syobai: I've earned enough money to now be able to comfortably live in the shadows while doing other businesses.

Syobai: You can stop playing the villain that you hate so much.

Iroha: No! That's not what I meant…

Syobai: I have no interest in working with someone that still has lingering feelings for society.

Iroha: Okay you are right! All right, but if you disappear, I…

Syobai: Why are you clinging to me like that?

Syobai: You still have your "Divine Luck".

Iroha: That, but that's…

Syobai: You saw that on the bridge at the time, right?

Syobai: Maeda Yuki is alive, somehow, thanks to Divine Luck.

Syobai: Just like you used to look for Utsuro, why don't you look for him?

Iroha: Mmm, what… how can I…?

Syobai: Jesus, do I have to sit you down and spell things out for you?

Syobai: This conversation is over. It's a waste of time.

Syobai: I'm going to take care of that guy and disappear, so now you either live or die on your own.

Iroha: Ah, Mr. Hashimoto-! Sorry!! Please don't leave me…

*Siren starts playing*

Iroha: Wait, what is this noise…?

Syobai: …Ah, fuck.

Syobai: It's that thing that the guy from earlier came with.

Syobai: Those are the Foundation guys.

Iroha: Huh!?

Syobai: Judging by how loud it is, it's already too late to go to the SUV.

Syobai: I should have left right away without making any noise… shit.

Iroha: Ooh, what should I do!? What now!?

Syobai: …

Syobai: What to do, what to do…

Syobai: No matter what you do, you have to get out.

Syobai: Go, come with me!

…A disgusting story about disgusting people.

To begin with the conclusion of this short anecdote, those two managed to escape somehow.

However, did the chase last long, or did Hashimoto prepare safety measures for this type of situation?

Did he even establish the deal with Iroha Nijiue again…?

"Queen of Despair" would continue to appear after that.

With a minion in a suit wearing a crow mask.

It seems their deal isn't over yet…

[ruminate88]

Deeper Layers:

I write and write about my exes. More so Andrew because he was my recent ex and I felt I obsessively idealized him the most. Then I go back and read these post over and over and over…. My brain scans my own words and feelings, then tries to make sense of it all. I use an A.I ChatGPT to break down the post and then it gives me an interpretation which I scan with my brain again and it feels endless but I realized last night there is layers to this “healing journey” because of there is such depth to these emotional scars. ❤️‍🩹

I love metaphors and symbolism in life because it helps me, someone who is a “visual learner” to actually be able to see what I need to. When I fell off a ladder last thanksgiving/christmas, the deep wounds in my legs opened the door of compassion within myself for the wounds in my heart/soul. I realized how much of me needs restoration and resetting.

EVERYWHERE I turn or read, it says in hidden messages, “healing takes time”. “Healing is on going”. It’s a “never ending process”.,… but I also get messages of “forgiveness” and “letting go”. I’ve been going around this mountain and around as I’m traveling up. I often feel stuck in cycles but yet, I’m slowly unraveling each layer or untangling each strand of the web of lies. Either way you want to look at it, I’m STILL finding truth in all the fog of the past.

I know without a doubt, yes my ex Andrew deceived me but I loved him. I may have idealized or fantasized our relationship but I cared about him. I showed up for him even while he’s inflicting pain on me and dumping stress on me. I wasnt perfect and I wasn’t asking him to be perfect either. I just wanted him to be real and honest with me. If you have other girls you like, tell me. Don’t make me believe I’m the only one in your life when clearly you’re entertaining multiple. 💔 (this is part of the letting go that I struggle with cuz it still hurts me even now and it shouldn’t)

I’m not depressed anymore, thank God!! I know what depression or oppression feels like. This is just “sad”. Sad because I’m losing a part of me that was toxic and no longer serves my higher good. Andrew can’t serve my best interest. I’ve worried about that man and prayed for him. I’ve feared him but had hope with him even KNOWING he cheated, a small part of me was hopeful that he did love me even if it was a small portion…. Thinking he only used me because he hated my guts, that just makes me feel awful but can’t deny that possibility!! 😓

Also, remembering how I was helping to raise my bro’s kids at the time when I was actively talking to Andrew and I was sorta in this weird “mothering mode” where I just took care of everyone at that time, even Andrew. He would cry to me that college was hard, that his parents were so strict about his grades, that he was afraid to fail and disappoint them…. So, I would “baby” him and feel sorry for him. I would lie to myself that he trusted me and needed me… I lied to myself that he loved me because I was the one he came to with his problems. I believed it was “love” and so I did everything within my heart of hearts to care about him and I would try so hard to encourage him but I couidnt relate to him on any level because I didn’t even go to school. I dropped out after the 7th grade, then didn’t get my GED till I’m 19. I felt stupid talking to Andrew about “home work” and “schooling”. I was fearful he would think I was stupid….

Yet I’m the one showing up for him, encouraging him, trying to understand when he’s been “gone for 3 days” but suddenly comes back with “hey babe I miss you soooo much I’m soooooo busy have sooooo much homework” 😝😝😝😝 and I would FORGIVE HIM, OFFER TO BREAK UP annnnnnd STAY WITH HIM when he promises me he’s going to change and make more time for me…. Even when he’s snap-chatting me from his frat house. Selfies of himself at parties but yet telling me how much homework he has and how stressed out he is.

I gave him the benefit of the doubt, my online girlfriends kept saying to me, “Why are you with that little kid???” And they made me feel bad constantly. I felt my friends were judging me for being so much older than him and clearly he was immature BUT I was constantly crying to my girlfriends how Andrew kept disappearing and how sad I was but then turn around; Andrew would suddenly come back and be sooooooooo romantic. Tell me how beautiful I am, how he misses me sooo much but still cries he’s too busy. My girlfriends were tired of me being up and down constantly. I wouldn’t change. I know that’s why Bri went behind my back becuase I wouldn’t take advice about Andrew. I would get overly defensive and tell my girlfriends, “I just want you to be happy for me” 😒💔

Looking back, I was NEVER happy. I didn’t tell Andrew half of my secrets becuase I was already traumatized from Cody and scared to lose Andrew. I told Andrew I had been ghosted, that I NEVER wanted to experience that again. Andrew KNEW I didn’t wanna be hurt yet he just couldn’t care. He could only be selfish with me. He found it easy to ignore me when he’s busy but when he’s not, suddenly he’s all over me again begging for my nudes and telling me how good I make him feel…

I have an older Facebook I used to stalk him with back then and I would blog on it and wow… the many post of one minute I’m on cloud 9 with Andrew but then the next, I’m anxiously on the edge ready to end my life… there was never any solid ground when talking to him. I was either crazy high or dying inside….. 😭😭😭 Then at some point I stopped blogging and that’s because the relationship got 10x worse. Andrew’s responses to my text or Snapchat’s got shorter and more robotic up until I found proof he cheated and then we broke up.

Not once can I look back and say it was a good, healthy or loving relationship sadly… I can only realize how I misinterpreted Andrew’s behavior towards me and romanticized all the sexting as love. 😔💔 I still don’t hate him or even hate myself…. Just, it’s sad that I believed in love with him when it was just sex. It just makes me feel bad and stupid. I know forgiving myself is just as much a process as forgiving him. Yeah, I’m upset he mislead me but he can’t take it all back. The way he posted the next girl all over his social, that was a slap on my face but doesn’t mean he treated her better than me. Also, the way he tried to FaceTime me after I moved on, like…. What did that mean? Was it truly just to continue to manipulate me or did he miss me? Hah 😝😝😝 (I’m for sure he probably only missed the attention I gave him.) I doubt he EVER cared about me for the real me. Plus there wasn’t too much deep stuff we even talked about) I guess I just wanted Andrew to potentially be the one cuz so much chemistry and vibes between us. His Facebook seemed normal and I actually believed he was a good boy who respected his parents and grand parents 😂😂😂😂😂 (I was just wearing rose colored glasses and was blind to the truth)

[greensagephase]

Hi!!! First, how are youu??! I hope you are doing find. Second, I LOVE NON VIOLENT COMMUNICATION SO FREAKING MUCH!! I mean honestly, majestic piece of work. I would frame it or printed out to have it in a really cute book in my shelf. You are amazing.

Also, I find it adorable when you apologise for the word count, because it is like: non sense, I want moorre, gimme all the words your brain creates into this beautiful poetry. Really, it is amazing.

Lastly, I hope I am not overstepping, but, do you have any advice on how to start writing? Because I've had this idea for months, and I feel like it is really good. But I sometimes can't find the way to translate the things I picture in my brain to paper, you know? So, I just wanted to ask you, because your story really made me want to write mine.

Anyway, love yaaa. You don't have to answer if you don't want to ❤️. Apologies for my English, it isn't my first language

Hiii, V!!! I’m doing great today, thank you!! I hope you’re having a fantastic day/night!! (Also, sorry for taking a moment to reply to your ask but I wanted to sit down and make sure what I'm saying makes sense regarding the writing!)

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! 🥹 You’re so sweet, truly!!! I’m screaming about the framing or printing out the story into a book 😭 (lowkey, I might do that once the fic is done as it’s my best writing so far and I’m proud of it, so thank you for the idea)!! You’re too kind!!!🥺

And aww, thank you!! The word count always makes me feel guilty! I feel like in a way, I’m forcing readers to read long chapters, even though I know I’m not forcing anyone physically. I have a few readers who always reassure me it’s okay, so I’m slowly learning to accept that some of my chapters are and might continue to be longer than the average length of fanfic chapters lol!

As to the last bit, you’re not overstepping at all!! I’m so happy you’re writing your own fic, and I’m so, so touched that NC made you want to write it!!!! Seriously, this alone made my day!! Thank you!!

On how to start writing (I apologize for how long my response is but hopefully I can be somewhat helpful), I have some advice and I’m also sharing my own process for writing a NC chapter specifically since the process is more concrete than it is for my other short and standalone pieces.

One, I recommend simply starting!! I was reluctant to write my first ATSV work because I hadn’t written fanfic in many years and all I had been writing was either academic or for my original novels (not published but I hope one day they are). From experience, I also know posting fanfic online is or can be a commitment. I never want to be a writer that leaves a fic halfway done because as a fanfic reader, I’ve experienced that pain too many times 😭, so I knew if I posted anything that was longer than one part, I was going to stick with it no matter the ups and downs of my life. Ultimately, I decided to push past everything, even though I had nothing beyond the first chapter of this initial idea. I had an itch and needed to scratch it, so I gave in and literally wrote it on a car ride in my notes app lol not caring if I even posted it. That work is not published, it never was (it’s still on my notes app and it’ll probably stay there forever lol), but it helped me immensely with finding my voice and getting comfortable writing fanfic again. A few days after writing that, I was working on the first NC chapter! So, just start writing and don’t think about it. Brain dump everything on a page that you have so far without worrying about how well it’s written yet!

Two, I recommend doing a writing exercise. It doesn’t have to be about your fanfic, just write about something and get your writing juices going. Sometimes we overthink and it’s the one thing holding us back! You can easily find some short writing prompts on here, so if you’re interested in that, just search some up! This helps warm you up and once again, get more comfortable with writing.

My process:

Consider using outlines. I use these especially with NC because it’s a multiple parts work and has a clear story line. These are the best thing ever! I've also seen other people use mind maps, but I prefer outlines because they're more organized in my opinion.

I start the outline with the “bones” or foundation of the work. These are the main points/events of the writing piece. This is anything from a big event like an action moment with a villain to a character chilling alone on a rooftop, but they can also be pieces of dialogue that are essential to the chapter. I usually have some snippets already planned out in my head, so I go ahead and include those in this part. So I start by doing this, writing each point in chronological order, at least the way it starts out. Sometimes it changes with new main points being added or some omitted during the process and later on in editing. That’s okay! But either way, writing the events in chronological order helps keep everything organized and allows me to physically see the layout/flow of the chapter so far, and make changes to it.

I then go back and add the “meat.” This is all the details surrounding the main point that I have in mind already. This part becomes bigger once I've laid out the first layer of details.

Here’s an example from one of my old outlines, please excuse the handwriting and how messy it may seem. Usually I’m planning and writing all my thoughts in a rush because my brain is thinking faster than my hand is moving lol (I’m like “write that down, write that down!”)

The main point is that Miguel wakes up. Everything else is the meat of that scene and you can see I even have that one snippet of dialogue that I had stuck in my brain.

When I get to the writing on my laptop, I follow my outline and by the end of a writing session, I have a scene that I’m happy with. I do go back and edit, and usually this is when I do my best ✨magic.✨ I think the reason for that is that the idea/scene is not stuck in my head anymore and I can focus entirely on the other details that truly capture the mood of the scene perfectly to how I see it play out in my head, down to how the characters are sitting and looking at each other to the weather outside. This is why I highly suggest that you just write what you have so far and allow your brain to do its magic, it'll help you capture your story from brain to paper!

I hope this helps a bit! And of course, don’t stress too much on it! Writing should be fun and not stressful! Be kind to your writing and have fun creating!

Once you post your fanfic, pls tag me! 😊 I'm trying to read more fanfic these days, so I'd love to read yours! And if you have other questions that I can help you with, send them my way! I’m not an expert but sometimes just talking with someone helps a lot! Also, no need to apologize about your English!! It’s great!!! 🥰 I hope you have a great weekend, V!! 💞💞

[ro-is-struggling]

Hi there! I wanted to make a request for Geralt since I loved the way you wrote him. This might be a little angsty, idk.

So Geralt had a romantic partner for a long time, she is a magical creature as well (I see her as a nymph) that he dumps and abandons for Yennefer. She at being under his protection for so long is exposed now that she is alone and a king that is a magical creature hunter captures her, and uses her for his entertaining and for his guests at parties. So Geralt crosses paths with this king while he is in a hunting party, and invites him to join them. While they are on their path he brags about his creatures, and Geralt of course doesn’t like that. So they go back to their camp were the king invites him to talk in his luxurious tent. While they are talking the king commands his men to bring her to him and kills her in front of Geralt, just for his entertainment. Geralt is mad, so mad, he thought he would never see his former partner again, and he had them in front of him just moments ago, and the grief, guilt, anger and sadness are more than when he thought he los Yennefer. He almost kills the King right there if it hadn’t been for the soldiers surrounding him. He gets chained in a tree outside for the rest of the night until the hunting party is far long gone.

Time goes by and Geralt can’t get over of what happened. In all this time, he was remembering what they had gone together, so many years, to many difficulties they had gone through and he just throw it out so easily. And now she was dead because of him. He misses her so much.

Then he hears about the opening to the underworld, convinces Yennefer to go with him. But everything is just a trick. Hades, let’s him take her with him after passing a torturous path to make it to the depths of tge underworld, but paying a price, a soul for a soul. So Geralt offers Yennefer, because that’s the reason why he brought her along.

(Idk if you will want this idea)

Hi beautiful💕

I have no words to express how much I LOVED your request! It’s the perfect mix of creative and sad but also kinda cute, I adore it! That’s part of the reason why it took me so fucking long to finish it and post it (sorry about that!). I’ve been working on this fic since the moment you sent in the request and I rewrote it a couple of times. If I’m being honest, I had so many ideas for this fic that I would need to write a multichapter story to actually develop the storyline and the characters as I wanted. But I don’t have the time to do that, so I had to condense all my ideas into one long ass fic, so sorry if the ending feels a little rushed!

I really loved the process of writing this one and I felt happy when I finished it (even if it took me forever), but I have been writing and editing it for so fucking long that I kinda hate it now, not cause it’s bad (like I said, I liked it), but because I had a long ass time to pick at every little plot hole and imperfection. It’s one of those stories that just sounded so much better in my head, like, I feel that I was too ambitious and I definitely don’t have the skill set required to do this request justice. 

That being said, I hope you like it anyways and that it was somewhat close to what you had in mind when you requested it! I only changed the ending a little bit cause it made more sense to me that way, I hope you don’t mind and enjoy it anyways!

You can find the story HERE

Oh and get ready to cry :)

[jayflrt]

alice oh my i just saw the craziest debate on my tumblr tl like im very strongly pro-palestinian but for wtv reason my blr showed me some post like 4 rbs deep of continued debate between a fucking "proud zionist" and some hindu supremacist abt whose people had it worse ... the hindu supremacist was saying they were an ally bc of the "mughal conquering" of india but the zionist wouldn't accept them or wtv i honestly didn't understand but i was just staring both in anger and bafflement bc im not sure that they can be compared ... the nakba is such a recent thing but the mughals conquered india in the 1500s and how is that any reason to support fuckass modi's entire anti-muslim propaganda ughh i want so badly to be more educated on the history of both what's going on in palestine and also everything else that's happening in the world but it keeps making me so upset to see how blinded people are by their own hate and wtf are politicians corrupt almost everywhere ?? do they genuinely have no compassion ?? im so sorry for dumping in ur inbox :( i feel like the blr community has kind of adopted u as part of our wise counsel of elders lol bc i always feel like everyone including me goes straight to ur inbox to talk ... maybe its the psych degree but ur so comforting to talk to <3

omg WHAT that's so :(( i'm so sorry you had to see that,, what a weird thing to argue over. i don't think people realize that fighting over who had it worse only benefits the oppressors..... we're ignoring the true problem at hand while we go back and forth. that's just a general statement btw i am not supporting either of who you mentioned and they should not be using such awful historic events to defend the atrocious acts israel is committing against palestine 😭 supporting modi of all people too..... FUCK THAT MAN!

i do wish things were different and i wouldn't have to say this but i'm afraid most if not all big politicians with influence have lost sight of what's important and are mostly driven by greed and power. most people see the career path of a politician and have high hopes that they'll create change and make a difference, but when you enter that world you quickly realize the best way to keep your seat in the government is to align your political views with whoever pays you more to push your campaign forward :( sure there are probably exceptions, but it would take a lot more than exceptions to flip the current political climate. that's why it's so so important for us regular citizens to create change ourselves!! all these protests and boycotts may not seem like they're doing much from our perspective, but we're all exercising our free speech in a way our governments can't suppress. educating ourself, spreading awareness, donating, sharing information—they're all ways for us to reclaim the power of the people

i'm answering this somewhat half asleep so i hope this made sense!! omg pls i always think of that tweet that says psych majors are either chill or the worst people you've met 😭 but you're too sweet, i'm so glad you feel comfortable enough to send an ask in my inbox! feel free to drop a message whenever 💘