#adhd problems lol

[genderqueerpositivity]

I just did my first T injection! The syringes I ordered showed up a day early and I decided to just go for it.

The actual process of giving the shot isn't so bad, it's sticking the needle in that sucks. Doesn't hurt but definitely feels weird. Took a lot of breathing exercises and self talk to get it done.

Hopefully it gets easier from here on out. 🎉

Now instead of remembering to apply the topical T every day, I somehow need to remember to do a shot every two weeks...

I'm gonna write it on my calendar and hope for the best. 😅

[bad0mens]

Me: *writing a chapter that references a lot of previous events early in the story*

Also Me: *doesn't remember almost anything of what was said*

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[altruapparel]

ADHD Dyslexics of the World UNTIE!!! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

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[yournonbinarypal]

[internetgreatesthits]

[thebibliosphere]

One of the pitfalls I've been struggling with over the last three years while focusing on recovering from ADHD burnout is trying to find stimuli that are enriching and not just distracting because distracting stimuli might feel like it's keeping me from being bored, but really it's just keeping me numb enough so I don't have to process being bored or any of my emotions.

And that's not great when you're trying to heal trauma.

The problem is, I'm not finding a lot of things enriching at the moment. A lot of the things I've been relying on to keep my brain quiet since 2020 now feel overstimulating and are actively making me agitated rather than numb. Which I suppose is progress? It means I'm processing things and actually aware of them again instead of perceiving everything as background static.

It's just an odd predicament to be in. I don't think I've been this 'aware' of my own brain in a long time and on the one hand, cool. Great. Probably a good thing. On the other, aaaaah. Why is it so noisy in here?

[silvermoon424]

[tmninjagirl]

[mustchespud]

the crushing weight of two very manageable tasks.

[llove-r]

my toxic trait is thinking I can learn something I’ve never done before like play guitar or crochet in 2 hours or less and if I can’t it’s simply because I’m just not good at it

[fluttershybaby1]

[that-bluesybitch]

[yourresidentstanlover]

Stan was normal. 

He’d always been normal. He wasn’t like Ford. He knew when people were being sarcastic, he knew not to take everything literally. That’s why he protected Ford, because he was the ‘normal’ one.

Nevermind the fact that he felt like he didn’t understand what people were saying sometimes, despite the fact that there was nothing physically wrong with his ears. Ignore the issue of him not being able to focus on his work for more than a minute before getting distracted. And the times that he felt like crying because everything was too damn loud? Not important, that’s what. It’s stupid whenever he breaks down crying because he’s overwhelmed and upset– he shouldn’t be crying, he’s a man, dammit!

Sometimes he’d sit in his chair like a frog, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t normal, he just liked to be a little silly sometimes. And so what if the texture of Brussels sprouts made him gag, most kids hated vegetables anyways. 

What do you mean he shouldn’t be getting so attached to people he barely knew? And just… ignore the inability to tell the difference between romantic attraction and platonic affection, that’s not relevant here!

Stan was told so himself: Ma said he’s a normal kid. He’s not like his brother.

But let’s just gloss over the fact that Stan always felt like an outsider whenever he was having a conversation. That he had to think about how long he should look into someone’s eyes before looking away. And the times when he was told that the questions that he asked were inappropriate? Eh, he was just a kid, kids say dumb shit all of the time. Just don’t look at the fact that he tends to blurt out painfully honest truths sometimes. Don’t look at when he would overshare to a point where he made everyone uncomfortable. People overshare all the time, it’s fine. And the fact that he seemed to never shut up? Probably just the sugar in those Asbest O’s. He should probably quit chewing on those hoodie strings…

As Stan got older, he found himself becoming more ‘normal’ but… feeling more terrible. It’s hard to talk to people in a normal way. Sitting in chairs normally sucks. Eye contact is an awful thing to figure out. It doesn’t feel too great to stop moving his arms around.

…Maybe he wasn’t all that normal, after all…

[hatsunemikuismyspiritanimal]

Are you okay?

[internetgreatesthits]

This is me 247

[iconicgxddess]

my adhd shines everytime