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crowscadence · 2 years ago

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Me: I should cosplay this genshin character

Also me: but man titty window

#genshin #cosplay #cosplayer problems #I cosplay Kaeya and that’s really pushing it #like I want to do kaveh but I’m not that confident #a binder can only do so much #Kaeya #kaveh #Cyno #itto #Gorou #razor genshin #I know some of these are up and shirtless but my point still stands #or they have crop tops #whatever #shikanoin heizou #he’s got the low arm holes on his shirt #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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stravacious · 1 year ago

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gary’s twin sister, nadine!!

i’m a sucker for the bonnie & neddy episode :’)

#stravacious #i imagine gary dyed his hair pink bc it’s her favorite and then she wanted it done too #they’d interact with each other a bit more in this world #in at canon bonnie kinda just locks him in a basement bc that’s all she can do but like. nadine needs to eat #i picture it more like he is her only safe person #she freaks out about other people so gary doesn’t bring anyone over #she might be a tablet girlie #sorry if this is too ‘miku binder jefferson’ to ppl out of the at canon loop #their gum lullaby is just some rlly cute song their mom used to sing before she died #in my last at post i mentioned that they lived w their shitty aunt georgia (uncle gumbald) before gary moved them out #maybe she’s the reason nadine hates other ppl so much #adventure time #fionna and cake #gary prince

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narmothewraith · 4 months ago

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How I imagine myself (aka want to be)

Vent in the tags (sorry in advance)

#Honestly almost cried while sketching this #I feel so stupid #Like why did I agree to wait until i'm 25 to transition #Oh wait I know #Because I love my parents to much and they only really support me if I a) am 25 or b) my mental health is really really bad #Also it's that part of my mind that's doubting everything. That it's just a phase. That i'm not actually transmasc #Also the psychologist I used to go to supported the idea to wait till 25 and was talking about some whos she knew #And how that girl wanted to be a boy but she got a boyfriend and she didn't want to anymore #Or that boy who wanted to be a girl but later found his identity and was secure in his agab #And she kept saying/asking; “Would you be able to accept to be just a manly woman??” And similar questions #And I know it's stupid but because of it I just keep questioning myself over and over #Because now i'm especially scared it's something I grow out off #But I just want to look in a mirror and be happy #And while I do like my clothing. I want other stuff but I feel goddam dysphoric in that #Only things I can change about me is piercings and my hair but even that is something my parents aren't really keen of #Atleast the length is something they are okay with but if it's kinda more a “”man's style“” and I hear only “oh my god it's so manly"#Honestly I just hate that i'm to scared to do anything about it #All the while I suffer #cause I just cant get out of the house without a binder. Always checking how my profile looks like. Crying when its not how I want it to be #Or almost crying when my mom says “that size is better for a girl like you because other wise it looks boyish” even when I confided in her #transmasc #transgender #trans artwork #Trans #Artists on tumbr #Lgbt #my art <3 #my own post

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gasterofficial · 9 months ago

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don’t want top surgery but do wish i could just remove them temporarily sometimes. sometimes you need a shirt to lay flat for the gender

#i do have a binder but 1) unconfy 2) i breast boobily and it can only do so much #mine

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nauticalfools · 1 month ago

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#i am slowly trying to reach some kind of balance for being an adult #its just taking so long #even now i just realised i need a lot more sweaters after i moved countries cause its so cold here #and i only now bought some binders cause i still dont have every i need #and i need gloves cause its freezing and thick socks #but i dont have enough money to buy it all at once #im also trying to sort out my home in a way i can try to keep it clean #but im also in a HEAVY burn out and im only doing tiny steps or none #cause sometimes i only have enough spoons to clean just to decent level after a week #i cant wait till i have all of the basic stuff i need #and have everything set up #im also getting sick #so im trying to avoid that and rest as much as i can #at least i can grab a nice sandwich to have after my shift and a pastry for later too #so that saves me some money and some cooking #also the customers tip so well i can buy myself a little treat every week or every few days #i bought a book today from tips ❤#personal

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vampirebiter · 6 months ago

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i want mac and cheese but i dont want to have to get up and walk over to the house and make it. sigh... suffering....

#also idk if we have water for me to boil my noodles.#because weve had no water for like 2 weeks now so itd have to be from the drinking water and idk if thats empty rn too #but i want my noodles !!! sigh..................................#on the topic of not having water. were supposed to get a water delivery tomorrow and im soo fuckin excited because i havent had an actual s #actual shower or done laundry in about two weeks. ive been washing my hair in my sink #since the cabin has a separate water tank from the house so i do have some water out here #and doing wash cloth sink baths #but i have like. no clean clothes. ive washed a couple shirts and binders in the sink but like. it can only do so much lmao #ghost.txt

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moonlessbeast · 1 year ago

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Considering starting a gofundme or something for top surgery bc I genuinely cannot keep living like this

#quacking #my fibromyalgia makes wearing any sort of binder or bra excruciating but my chest is too big to not wear one #and my degree is for an industry in a recession so the only work I can get is physically demanding #which makes my pain worse so it’s compounding to hell and at this point sleeping or just existing is hard #but how many hours I can work is super limited bc of my fibro and I’ve got a fuckton of loans so saving up isn’t possible #trans tape has been impossible to do alone with my size and I fucked up too much to have a usable amount left #and I can’t really afford more #I can’t keep going like this my quality of life is so bad #and my family doesn’t give a shit so I’m on my own and I just. don’t know what to do #a gofundme probably wouldn’t even work but I don’t know what other options I really have yknow #sorry for the vent I’m just 🫠

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thedisablednaturalist · 10 months ago

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I've been making worksheets to map out thoughts for different situations and they've been really helpful for my adhd and chronic illness brainfog. I might put them up on kofi eventually idk.

#wrenfea.exe #probably for like. $3ish a worksheet depending on complexity and how many times I had to revise it #i tried to get into bullet journaling but it was too much #so now i use worksheets in a binder that i carry around #i was actually a great student bc i had guidance on how to take notes and learn #so im doing that again for myself #bc information thoughts and ideas can be overwhelming and it makes me not able to get anything done #theres some worksheets online but they're like..only for adhd and a lot are only for college students

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em0-snail · 8 months ago

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Ramblings in tags

#do you ever just get like??? paralyzed by how many things you COULD do???#like hi i have a job that shouldn't fuck with my disability too much #so now i can actually have a little bit of extra money at the end of the month to have fun with instead of only paying bills #i genuinely don't think I've had anything extra for like??? months???#like there's so much I wanna get and even though I haven't gotten paid yet it's just. killing me #like i wanna get a dog to hopefully train to be a service dog right??#but i also wanna get an actual drawing tablet so I don't have to only draw on my phone #BUT ALSO i need shit like a new binder since my current binders are 4+ years old #but yet again i wanna upgrade my room a bit and get some posters and some new blankets #again I just!! don't fucking know what to do first!!#this isn't a vent or anything im just like. stuck. mentally #theres just so much shit to do and buy #like i wanted to buy a new videogame a few weeks ago but I ended up needing to pay a bit extra in bills #OUUUUGHGHHH #there is. so much. to do #and i know i already said I'd spend the money on going on that trip #but thats really far off so i don't have to pay for that stuff first #plus i also genuinely need to think about if i wanna go or not

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digifag · 1 year ago

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sacha…

#the wolfs howl #thoughts in my brain #b4 i start btw this is not a rant in defense of scott at all i do not like him still #but some ppl really blow his politics out of the water compared to what he’s done like #yea we’re gonna ignore the 50k he donated to trevor project in favor of focusing on the varied 30k to various political candidates #its ALWAYS the homophobia. always always always #its never the fact hes outright stated hes pro life; never the potential racism of who he donated to; never anything like that. always -#- the homophobia. which is still bad yes! but u could argue much worse things like w some of the artists hes hired n paid!!!#fiszi was so much worse than scott ever was. and she was gross w it w grooming n transphobia (she was also! FIRED later on!!!!)#like the ONLY reason ppl care is cuz someone pointed it out in 2020. there have literally been no more public donations since #can u imagine the indie game scene if ppl searched out where every dev and employee donated to?? cuz i guarantee not all of them are great!!#my biggest gripe is ppl comparing scott to jk.#riddle me this. is the outwardly proud transphobe whos also very racist and incorporates that into her writing and uses her platform to put-#-minorities down the same as a guy who donated money to a political party in 2020. and doesnt use his platform for that shit. whos openly-#-supportive of his fanbase and acknowledges he wouldnt b where he is without his lgbt fans as well #and again. glances at the 50k to the trevor project he donated #why the hell would he put all that money to a charity for lgbt ppl if he was wholly homophobic. itd be like if jk started giving donations-#-to trans organizations to fund binders and hrt like???#AND AGAIN. PPL FOCUS ON THE HOMOPHOBIA ABOVE ALL ELSE #he didnt donate to xyz BECAUSE they were homophobic. not every political figure is gonna be focused on gay rights theres sm more going on w-#-this country rn like #THINK for a second #also the fact that ppl were surprised the christian cishet white man from texas was republican is still kinda goofy to me like no duh hes-#-gonna be a republican ??#idk!! hes still a shit person obv but the way ppl are like ‘yeah hes a homophobic bigot’ is kinda lying at that point #anyway<3 posting this is probably dangerous but idc. have more critical thinking than hes homophobic because he donated to some ppl u dont-#agree with #politics goes so much farther than just gay rights man #anyway #rant

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strixton · 1 year ago

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Somedays I wish I had more control over my adhd.

I don't want to get rid of it. No. I just want more control over it. I know there are "solutions" but sometimes it would be nice to just have a magic wand that lets me turn on and off the sparkle in my brain so that I can do my homework and then turn it back on so I can have my personality when I am with friends

#adhd #vent #i dont like to vent on here much anymore but i felt like it today #again yes i know medicine and therapy helps #and i have medicine and i used to do therapy #but at some point that can only help so much #and if i hear 1 more person say “get a binder” or “just do your work its not that hard” im going to scream #because adhd means I have an impulse control deficit due to a dopamine level deficit so i seak the thrill of impulse #to try and make up the lack of dopamine #and homework takes away the dopamine #so i just doing homework is more difficult than it should be #this is something i should remember when I am a teacher #so no student of mine feels that pain of homework when they have me

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chaotictomtom · 1 year ago

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PUHLEAAASE AUUUGHHHHHH

#IT'S BEEN A MONTH :'((( WHEN DO THEY RESTOCK </333 #i can't pick the long one of the binder with zipper i'm already dying from the heat + sweating for much for now reason bc of the short one #im PISSED there's only 2 versions and of course it's the short one that is out of stock </33333 whahhhwahhhh #or i could buy the “advanced” one that is primarily used for post op but can be used pre op #cos it had the opening on the front so i could wear it #but it's pricier augh i feel already bad to spend >60€ on myself #80 is like. a lot #+ seems way thicker than the normal one with zipper #+ on that french shop EVERY binder with zipper are out of stock too. there's only xtrap binding ones available #and i already struggle to live through >5h of normal binder i can't imagine xtra strong one #it seems that they're putting back some stocks on the 22th i'm shit scared it'll be out of stock in a day and i'll miss the opportunity #cos it's the end of the month and idk if i'll have enough money left augh #sobbing sobbing crying out #i haaaate hate hate that i have to bind omgggg dying passing out exploding #ranting time im so sorry no one gives a shit #tomtom_is_rambling

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two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat · 2 years ago

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So most recipes for watercolor binder recommend using clove essential oil for its antimicrobial and antifungal properties (so your paints dont start growing mold)

Well I could not find clove oil for a reasonable price anywhere near me

I did however find cinnamon essential oil at walmart

So I did some digging and cinnamon oil can be used in place of clove oil for antimicrobial and antifungal properties. SO im not sure why all the watercolor binder recipes that tell you to use essential oil specify clove oil. I thought maybe other oils might make the paint weird? But I figured it was worth a shot to try the cinnamon oil. So far the paint seems to work just fine and its hardening nicely.

So if youre making watercolor binder but can't find clove oil (and you want to have an essential oil in there for the added antifungal properties) just know that any with antimicrobial and antifungal properties are likely ok to use. (This note isn't the point of this post I just feel the need to put it cuz I had a very confusing week of digging around online to figure out if I could substitute clove oil for another type of oil because literally every single recipe that recommended using an essential oil said CLOVE oil which makes me think that clove oil must have something about it that makes it different from other essential oils with antimicrobial and antifungal properties thats making all these other people use it specifically and was finding NOTHING and decided to just say "fuck it" and see what happens-.....anyway.)

This has had the lovely effect of making my paints smell very strongly of cinnamon

Which is definitely an upgrade from how I imagine they wouldve smelled had i not added essential oil at all. The gum arabic solution smelled very bad lol. The cinnamon oil helped quite a lot.

#like. besties. i am autistic. if you tell me to use a specific thing. and it gets repeated over and over to use that specific thing #im going to assume theres something about that thing that is necessary or that a substitute would fuck it up somehoe #unless you specifically add a note that substitutions are ok #i was so worried that substituting cinnamon oil would fuck it up somehow #EVEN AFTER RESEARCHING AND FINDING NOTHING THAT CINNAMON OIL AND CLOVE OIL BOTH HAVE SIMILAR #ANTIFUNGAL AND ANTIMICROBIAL PROPERTIES #AND CONFIRMING THAT ALL THE CLOVE OIL IS DOING IS ADDING THOSE PROPERTIES AND ALSO MAKING IT SMELL BETTER #anways highly recommend cinnamon oil for watercolor binder #not the best quality watercolors i have (those would be the viviva color sheets) but definitely the best smelling ones lol #also i didnt need nearly as much binder as i thought i would for the amount of eyeshadow i had #so now i need to ask around to see if anyone i know that wears makeup has some expired eyeshadow (or eyeshadow that they dont use #cuz most of the people i know dont wear very bright colors and so if theres any of those in their pallettes they dont get used)#that way i can use up the rest of my binder #cuz most of the recipes i found say it only stays good for about a week in the fridge #thankfully i only used half the gum arabic #so i can make more at some point if i want

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daisybees · 2 years ago

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not to stop being fun and cool and chill on main but i’ve been super dysphoric about my chest lately and it’s really starting to get to me

#i spent the last two hours looking up bra stuff ™#i’ve never had one that fits and i’ve tried binders too but i don’t like the squish ™ plus they’re super uncomfortable for me #so now i’m looking at ‘minimizing’ bra’s #like i don’t mind my chest i’m ok with like it being there— but everything i wear accentuates then and i hate it so much #like #i have a big band/cup size but smaller rib cage and waist so like #anything i wear really draws attention to my chest and i do not vibe with that at ALL #all i wear are graphic tees too so like if the print is in a weird place it makes it even WORSE #like the last time i was fitted was 9th grade and i went from an A to a D Then a D to a DDD/G and now I’m looking at H and I #i hate it here #they’re so fucking heavy too like #the only acceptable reason to even have these at this point is if a pretty person offers to hold them for me #i was looking up reductions straight up recently #the way i feel about gender and my relationship with being nb makes me think about this a lot and idk who else can relate but #i want LESS of a chest but i don’t want it gone completely you feel? like not quite top surgery but like…. less #like i will even take like AVERAGE bra size like i don’t care im cool with a C #just not this duo planet ORBIT i have currently #like i said sorry to rant but it’s really bothering me today #plus like anything that even remotely fits or feels comfortable is so expensive.#luckily i found some cheaper brands that don’t make me feel horrible #i thank adoreme every day of my life fr

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jackalhadrurusluvr · 2 months ago

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the mixture of "body has always hurt and heart has always been a little too fast with exercise" and "quarantine which meant i didnt go anywhere or do anything" and "my friends are all in college so i dont have anyone to hang out with and i Hate being Outside Alone" and "mentally illness" and "its been a really hot summer and the heat makes me feel like im gonna keel over and die on the sidewalk" has really ravaged my body. but they dont know. i dont know how to start slow about it like the people say

#yes. i could go for a walk. the safest place to walk near me is a giant hill that everyone who's walked it with me says it sucks #the ground is uneven and steep which means my effed up calves get sooooo upset so much faster #also errmmm. cant wear my binder because ill Die but cant Not wear my binder bc im out in public and ill Die #and everytime i go “ok ill just walk a really little bit” i end up walking way more then a little bit #do not let the guy with a power-thru-the-pain-as-punishment mindset go for a walk he will push himself too much and then #badda bing badda boom. 3 days of terrible pain and exhaustion #they dont know ive never been athletic and its always hurt so getting thru gym did create such a mindset about it #but i cant say the pain is particularly motivating #in fact id say it does the opposite #WHATEVRR!!!!!!!!#when it stops being 90 degrees (ALMOST IN OCTOBER BTW) itll all be fine at least then i wont pass out #i just need 70 degrees #i need 70 degrees so bad #anyways. idk maybe itll get better when i get a car and i can drive to a park or something #ive grown up being told this area isnt safe + had some Very vivid nightmares sooo. as u can imagine #definitely dont have it in me to take full care of a dog and i would get No Help with it + we have a cat + we live in a small space #but imagine if i had a dog to walk. thatd probably be awesome #i wouldnt be alone #the only person im around is my dad dawg and he cant walk very much either

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135-film · 6 months ago

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i need to start testosterone incredibly soon before i die

#dook dook #whimper whimper in tags #i wish being around people who didnt give a fuck abt me and hated me for being transgender didnt fuck with my head so much #i go 'oh. i guess i should live as a woman' and then get so upset and distraught i can barely function #i love wearing my binder until im called ma'am over and over and then i feel like. whats the point.#whats the point of living as a man and loving myself and being happy if no matter what i do in order to even TRY to pass doesnt matter.#i wish i could just be like. well i dont pass NOW but i will in the future #but ive been saying that since i was 14 and i only ever look more and more like a woman and i feel so ugly #i couldnt even be a cute woman. i have to be ugly

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