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confused-spood · 1 year ago

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literally me when I think I have a crush on someone

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caligvlasaqvarivm · 5 months ago

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wanna ask how you feel about the eridan bpd headcanon/theory(?? not sure what to call it!) you're so good at your character analysis and i'd love to see your outlook on it

Since I don't have a degree or any formal training in psychology, I feel deeply uncomfortable diagnosing characters. I've made an autism joke before but only because I'm on the spectrum. He's definitely traumatized and anxious, but I mean those as descriptors of his behavior rather than capital-D Diagnoses. I try to focus on those when I can - the cause and effect of cognition, self-image, and behavior - and those factors may very well match up with DSM criteria, but I try not to touch an actual diagnosis with a ten foot pole unless the author has explicitly stated that X character has Y condition.

#there's a variety of reasons for this #part of it is that im GROSSLY unqualified to be handing out diagnoses when it takes a full on PhD to do that in real life #part of it is that psychology is inchoate and we are still very much in murky waters #for example: complex ptsd isn't even IN the DSM yet #and iirc my therapist told me it was because theyre still figuring out how to classify it (attachment disorder? trauma disorder? etc.)#part of it is that (from my limited and undereducated understanding) there are diagnoses that you can assign by completing a checklist...#but some that require a hell of a lot more testing and ruling out other potential causes #and the cluster-b personalities are (IIRC) not even ones you're supposed to diagnose minors with #bc of fears of self fulfilling prophecy and because minors in general are still developing personalities In General #and like the fact that i can't say that with authority speaks to how unqualified i am to do any diagnosing right? hahaha #and part of it is just because like #unless the story is specifically About That and the author has stated so explicitly #i think diagnosing characters tends to put blinders on analysis #like if i were to seriously go 'eridan is autistic' then it would massively bias my reading and understanding of his character #and we have 0 indication that eridan was ever explicitly intended to be autistic or that the author was trying to do an autism specifically #that doesn't mean that the reading is invalid because like thats what death of the author means #all readings are technically valid including stuff the author didn't necessarily intend #but that's just not the way i like to engage with media and not the way i like to approach character analysis #because PERSONALLY it just feels kind of reductive - but also -#i'd wager MOST of us don't have degrees in psychology #so when i say 'X character has Y condition' it might mean something totally different to somebody reading my analysis #even people who have Y condition aren't exempt because a lot of mental illnesses differ from person to person #whereas if i explain “X character has Y thoughts and Z behaviors” there's no ambiguity in that #eridan struggles with noticing that people are suffering and with realizing that he should care #at least part of this is due to his horrific murder-filled upbringing which rendered empathy a detriment & so he learned to ignore it #it could be autism - but it could also be trauma -#or he might just be Like That without actually meeting the diagnostic criteria for autism #& you can't even technically be diagnosed with C-PTSD #or maybe he has a burgeoning personality disorder but you aren't supposed to DX those too early anyway #or maybe hes just 13. see what i mean hahaha. ive reached the 30 tag limit

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ratwithhands · 9 months ago

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I'm curious. I've seen your art and something that's come to my mind is what actually got you attached with the Subway brothers. Your narrative on their different AU forms is so unique which is what brought me to that question

Alright, rat history time.

So basically back in 2021-2022, I was working on an old OC storyline (about 3 years old by then) and I was in grade 9 so I was like “A new Pokémon game? Pfft, like I care” and just didn’t watch any of the stuff related to PLA when it dropped. I still got recommended Twitter posts about it on Instagram and I ended up seeing this one.

I tried looking up Ingo cause I was like "oh, funky design, looks like a captain or something" but I didn't end up finding anything so I didn't press further. Anyways in March break of 2022, I got bored and decided to put some game streams on in the background while I drew. I saw Alpharad's PLA video and decided to watch it for a bit when I saw Ingo.

I was like "Hey you're the guy from Twitter!" and since I knew his name now, I looked him up and found his Bulbapedia article. I found him much more interesting than the rest of the PLA cast since he had history outside PLA, and I ended up reading up whatever I could find on him. I also by extension discovered Emmet this way, which only served to suck me deeper down the rabbit hole. By the end of March break I had a fan OC and 2 AUs made with more on the way, as well as a YouTube recommended page with nothing but theory videos on Ingo and decade old Submas content.

Around May I decided to decommission my OC storyline for personal reasons, and by this point Submas was starting to occupy more of my creative work anyways. Since I didn't have my storyline to put my energy into, I started funnelling literally any story ideas into Submas. This led to nonstop content for a shockingly long time, and ofc I'm still coming up with stuff now.

Long story short, I got attached to them by accident! It was a "right place, right time" sort of thing since they came in as I was starting to get sluggish with my original content and I ended up being more interested in writing for them.

As for narratives, I am effectively playing dolls with these guys. Usually the kind of stuff that I write for them is meant for OCs, but I dumped the 60+ person cast so I put that energy into them instead.

Most AUs will either have a core theme, an out of pocket idea, or both to make things interesting. Usually I just come up with a dumbass idea like "what if we brought ReBURST back for a rerun" or "what if Emmet signed a contract with an eldritch space spider" or "what if Submas could see into the future" and stuff like that, then it picks up themes as I keep writing. For some silly examples:

Burst is based on Pokémon ReBURST and the idea of human-Pokémon fusion, but there's focus on skill, how characters misperceive it, and resentment as a result. There's also a spotlight on inferiority complexes, bottled up guilt, and blind confidence depending on which main character you look at

Journal is about a diary that helps Ingo to regain his memories, and it focuses on remembrance and regret as a result of him reading it. Spotlight on lacking awareness vs hyper awareness and the monotony of living as people around you leave

Oracle is exactly what it sounds like, with the twins being able to see into the future. It focuses on cooperation and the importance of working together, but also learning how to work alone. The spotlight's on jealousy and gratitude for this one, though the latter greatly outweighs the former in this case

I also just have AUs I made to try deranged shit for funsies, like Sapioflora, Cybernetic/Z-Λ, Team Supernova, and Idol. Those are mostly for exploring goofy ideas that may or may not go anywhere.

Right anyways basically I just saw Submas after watching PLA gameplay and found the twins more interesting to write about than the project I'd exhausted by then. The narratives are like that because the AU ideas I make are actually OC concepts that I modify to fit Pokémon specifically for these two or ideas about the two that I'd like to explore. Hope that answers the question ^^*

#submas #submas au #au #ingo #subway master ingo #ingo pokemon #nobori #emmet #subway master emmet #emmet pokemon #kudari #Fun fact: my old AUs were actually focused on Ingo if you could believe it #I know that must sound impossible because of how much I write on Emmet but it's true #Also‚ even though I never released it for the public fully‚ Stelleret is an AU that fits in the example list. It's about monsters‚#deals with eldritch beings‚ but it focuses on appearances‚ love‚ self worth‚ and self sacrifice. It's also like 1/3 shitposts by volume #Now that I think about it I have a lot of unreleased content #It's probably going to stay that way #WAIT I JUST REALIZED I NEVER RELEASED BATTLE ADDICT #uhhhhh what if I did a doodle dump 😳👉👈 I unfortunately only have pictures of Emmet with the strait jacket #It also has. 3 variants. But they get the happy ending in one of them I promise!!#I think it's funny how basically the only AUs where I have Ingo and Emmet in an ideal relationship is the one where they can see the future #and the one where they are diagnosed with Hyper-Competitive Combat Mania as unfit for battle due to the damage they cause #“We get along because we rely on each other” vs “We help each other improve to destroy the opponent on every level”#Anyways hope this answered your question ^^ if not sorry for the ramble 👁👁💦

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porblematic · 5 months ago

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Here's a thought. How about we work on making these disorders less stigmatized so people would be able to get accurate information on how these look like and what self-help strategies are available for these or that symptoms, including but not limited to anxiety, instead of focusing on how teenagers are sometimes, god forbid, wrong about own mental issues?

#also? i do have a personality disorder and i am plural so it's one and a half of the three already #and only time will show whether i have any psychotic tendencies #but you bet every person who sees me for the first time immediately goes ''why are you so fucking nervous young human!!''#anxiety is superficial and pretty easy to armchair diagnose #try living in someone's skin for a week #sprout post #root post #popcorn and bleach #also do y'all think teenagers like. are under impression there's something to gain from identifying with a more stigmatized disorder?#i got laughed at when i suggested i might have depression at 13 y'all #publically identifying with something serious is more of an act of bravery and autenticity than anything else #just self-diasnosing? that's just the direct function of the available information #give better information about everything and quit trying to manipulate people #then we talk

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certainlyceleste · 5 months ago

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i always thought i had adhd but i got tested and got a negative. in retrospect i believe that it was a false negative and so does my therapist but at the time i assumed that i was just neurotypical and needed to suck it up.

then fairly recently in the grand scheme of things i met my boyfriend and he is autistic and through lots of observation he came to the conclusion that so was i, but since i had been tested for adhd and exist in an environment where we don’t look out for neurodivergence i didnt believe it. but then i really thought about it and came to the conclusion that yes, im adhd, and yes, im autistic.

looking at my life through that lens explains a lot, and helps me cope with a lot of Previously Unexplained Phenomena that i had to deal with. before, i just thought that it was all me being messed up in some way, that i should just itnore the problems because i was, externally, doing well. but i always knew something was up, and finally figuring out what was incredible for my mental health.

then, i see a whole bunch of discourse about self-diagnosis. i cannot get a diagnosis for a plethora of reasons, so it is likely that i will only ever be self diagnosed. people who say that self diagnosis isn’t valid are attempting to take this away from me and other similar people, and it is horrifying that some people can be so out of touch with reality that they think that self diagnosis isn’t a useful tool and that nobody who doesn’t have an official diagnosis is valid.

i shouldn’t have to wrestle with myself about why i can’t understand people, or why i can’t deal being in some clothes or bright lights or dense sounds. self diagnosis has helped me understand who i am and it’s wonderful and you can’t take that away from me

#autism #adhd #actually autistic #actually autism #actually adhd #self diagnosed autism #self diagnosis #self diagnosed adhd #neurodivergent #what i do wonder is #my boyfriend and i have also noticed some symptoms of ocd in me #and i’m not at all sure about that one #but it’s definitely got some similarities #i feel like with both the autism and adhd i went through this same arc #idk!! we stay silly :33 #long post

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torchickentacos · 5 months ago

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you ever scroll past some sort of discourse that you didn't even know existed, and you have to take a second and realize that, while none of us are superior to others, some of us ARE much better at choosing which dumbass hills to die on? because I think sometimes you deserve to go 'huh. at least I'm not getting involved in all that'.

#well idk i'm still wasting time typing this out but that's marginally less embarrassing as an outsider than the people arguing about it #tw abuse mention in tags #so APPARENTLY!!!#enneagram mbti people are complaining about enneagram 7s being predisposed to being manipulative (?)#someone's like 'my sister was a 7w8 and neglects her kids' like jesus christ i don't think her enneagram is why she does that?#saying this as someone who LOOSELY AND UNSERIOUSLY enjoys mbti/zodiac/boxes to put my blorbos into:#these people are just doing the zodiac but for people who think they can armchair diagnose others they dislike with cluster b disorders #like congrats you made it worse and combined it with pseudopsychology to make some hellish ableism amalgamation #and it was already stupid to begin with but man you really took it up to 100 #like we do realize that this is all fake. right. this isn't an actual psychological profile.#and taking it seriously has worrying implications? and you cannot judge someone based on anything but their behavior?#like again i get having fun with these things as little categories. my autistic ass loves sorting things into categories.#i will give my blorbos full star charts for 6 hours. yay categories.#but with the caveat that it's unserious and for funsies and not at all an actual representation of any human being?#like when i say 'i'm such a taurus lol' or whatever i'm not actually under the impression that it dictates my actual personality?#it's all confirmation bias anyways. people see what they want out of this kind of thing #like yeah i'm kinda lazy and i like food and self indulgence but. that's probably like half of the. idk. virgo population or whatever too #i think those are just things that most human people enjoy unless you're one of those super ambitious go-getters who never slows down #same goes for every other trait. curiosity? emotion? stubbornness? logic? those are just things that most people have in some capacity

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ratcandy · 4 months ago

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grounding techniques sound like such bs until you’re actually in the thick of it and suddenly find yourself counting shit you can touch and hear n etc and suddenly it’s like oh ok. Horrors are done

#aka. We had a moment 👍#but I’m ok now.#Helps having a very very clingy cat who sits on you as if she’s been trained to do that when she most certainly has not been #Anyyyyway. I need to get Diagnosed .#the one like non-catastrophizing thought I had in that mess ‘wow they weren’t kidding #this Girl can Need To Go Back to Therapy’#Realizing that thing ur previous therapist suggested you might have may actually have some weight to it. Like. Awww fuck #That’s like so much to deal with. I’d like to opt out of this mental health issue thanks.#Not adhd. The Other Thing. The Scary Thing (to me)#I’m dodging saying it because I’m in the phase of like ‘if I dont say it it’s not real’ where right now I can be in denial 👍#because I’m NOT diagnosed. I’ve just had two separate counselors tell me I probably have it. 👍#Which could mean nothing. <- lying to self #vent #<- I mean yes it counts so I’m tagging it as such #clamtalk #it’s 1am I need to bed . Long day tomorrow.

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crypt1dcorv1dae · 1 year ago

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Apollo yelling "I'm Apollo justice and I'm fine" is literally just him stimming ok? Ok.

#apollo justice #he is autistic ok he told me himself #hes probably not officially diagnosed tho bc he strikes me as the type to avoid going to the dr unless absolutely necessary #like how he literally almost got exploded and had rubble rain down upon him and was seriously injured... and still tried to stand in court #like. hes dumb. hes self sacrificing. he doesnt always realize when he needs yo call it quits. hes like literally everyone in my family #like trust me i know this type when i see one. im surrounded by them #my dad literally blacked out and fell and could have cracked his head open recently and hes like no its fine it only happened once #like????????? BRUH?????? HUH?????? IT ONLY TAKES ONCE FOR SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO END YOUR FUCKING LIFE MY GUY #HES LUCKY HE DIDNT HIT HIS HEAD!!!!! OR LAND ON SOMETHING SHARP????#like my dude. my guy. you are our lifeline if u croak wtf are we supposed to do #pls take care of yourself

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seraphasia · 2 months ago

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the problem with self-diagnosis that most concerns me is the risk of people, teenagers especially, pathologizing normative behavior

#p.s.#yes there are social and financial and sometimes familial barriers that limit people's access to official diagnosis #and I don't think self-diagnosis is an inherently bad reaction to any of those #but the thing is you can reasonably look through the diagnostic criteria for just abt any mental illness or disorder and diagnose yourself #with it if you spend enough time analyzing everything you do #diagnoses don't indicate just a pattern of behavior but the severity of the pattern and the context in which it was formed #like all those 15 year old who think they have BPD #you don't have BPD hon you're just 15 #doesn’t mean you don't need support or mental health services #but the reason we don't diagnose teens with BPD is bc there's no real way to tell since most teenagers just kind of act like they have BPD #if you're acting like you're 15 and you're 15 that's called being a hormonal teenager #if you're acting 15 and you're 30 that's BPD (this is a gross oversimplification but you get the idea)#also we don't tend to diagnose personality disorders in teens very often bc teens are still developing their personalities #like you can do all the research in the world in your early teens and correctly come to the conclusion that your behavior mimicks BPD and #the incorrectly self diagnose as BPD bc you understand all the symptoms of BPD but don't actually understand what a personality disorder is #or how it develops #I've met tons of people who are self diagnosed as this or that who couldn't correctly define a depressive episode let alone their own #diagnosis #also the tendency for people to perpetuate completely normative behaviors as signs of one disorder or another indicates to me that a lot of #people don't understand these diagnoses as much as they may think #or when they blame unrelated behaviors on their self diagnosis - as if that's an excuse even if they were related #again I don't think self-diagnosis is bad but seeing large amounts of teenagers and kids pathologize their age appropriate behaviors as the #most severe kinds of disorders and then having full grown adults go to bat for their right to view their normative behaviors as a mental #disease that they will have to manage for their whole life is... concerning to say the least

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nelliesoffline · 4 months ago

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lowkey cried while reading that lord

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valewritessss · 4 months ago

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I feel like I came out of the womb with raging anxiety

#never been fully relaxed a day in my life #literally had a panic attack at age 6-7(?)#I’ve been super self aware for as long as I can remember #the tension in my body is my natural state #I’ve BEEN imagining every worst case scenario since I could form thoughts #7th-8ish grade is where it got worse #had panic attacks like four times a week #and then heart palpitations started and holy shit I was googling symtoms and that would make it worse #was convinced I would get a heart attack #having a headache is part of my daily routine #then I got a crush on a guy and with it came body dysmorphia #couldn’t look people in the eye from how ugly I felt(still struggle with this one but we got this💪🏼💪🏼)#now I mostly just cry #like I deadass get stressed and overwhelmed and just cry #depression came next and I was honestly not surprised #and it tampered my anxiety a bit but I’d honestly rather feel stressed than feel so numb #yeah I wouldn’t recommend #so basically I lie awake feeling aware of my own heartbeat or of my body #oh and I can’t forget the physical pain that anxiety caused me #muscle aches literally convinced me there was something wrong with me #went to the doctor numerous times bc I NEEDED to be diagnosed with something or I would go crazy and instead got told to see a therapist #and the therapist basically told me everything I had already figured out myself but at least I can talk to someone #tw anxiety #tw depression #tw body dysmorphia #anxiety #mentions of depression #and I’m only a teenager so should I be worried about what happens in the next few years? bc this already sounds like a lot to me #this was supposed to be a funny little post but nvm I guess?? don’t worry about me I’m good though many good things in my life #teenager

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sp00ky-scary · 1 year ago

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sometimes i think about how early this year i was talking to a friend who has ocd about some mental brain things and she told me that what i was describing very much sounded like ocd (something that has been said to me many times by many different people) and then later that day i had a mild breakdown over the concept of potentially having ocd and was very very in denial about even maybe having it, but in retrospect that breakdown/meltdown whatever does not help my case

#im not self diagnosing and currently refuse to see a therapist #so we will never find out if i truly have ocd or not #however i sure have been showing signs of it #just another thing to add to the list of things i probably have #i also probably have adhd and by probably i mean i do i just dont have a diagnosis #but part of my autism diagnosis was a recommendation to get an adhd one and they said if they were allowed to they would've diagnosed me #fun times #i wish i had no disorders but sometimes you gotta face the reality that you definitely have disorders which ones nobody knows #except the autism everybody knows

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kimetsu-chan · 5 months ago

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My dad told me there was something weird going on in my brain(jokingly) while we were on our bike ride 0-0

#I told him I got kinda dizzy or my head hurts when we went through little tunnel things #esp ones with graffiti #And that’s when he said it #He brought up my rather severe sensitivity to noise after that too-#Might asked to get checked out or smth when I go to my yearly checkup #For what you ask? Idk ;-;#Whatever it is that makes me all sensitive and stuff #Have been wanting to ask to get checked for autism but I don’t wanna self-diagnose or seem like a pick-me(for lack of a better term)#Like sometimes I’ll be like “omg I might actually be autistic” and other times I’m like “pfff no. You’re not autistic you dummy”#So yeah ;-;#Idk- too scared to bring it up to my dad-#But it would explain some stuff if I was

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seventh-district · 1 year ago

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it’s finally getting cold enough that i can bring my cardigan collection back into rotation without feeling like i’m gonna melt into a puddle the second i step outside!!!

#Seven.txt #my face #i have rematerialized back out of the void to once again make my once-in-a-blue-moon selfie & life update post #i’m running on 4 hours of restless sleep and the single banana i ate for lunch earlier today. let’s do this #hrrrrg i hate the lighting in my bathroom but i refuse to take pictures in the absolute Mental Illness Disaster Zone™️ that is my bedroom #anyways. got diagnosed with Mystery Pain Syndrome at the dentist today. so now i take ✨steroids✨#the less funny explanation is that my tooth still hurts with pressure nearly a month post-root canal and That’s Not Good #so we’re trying some new medications to see if that fixes it. and if not then who knows. root canal pt.2 the sequel. or extraction. sigh #and so the Dental Saga continues. todays visit went quite well in spite of the unforeseen mystery pain delaying the tooth-shaving plans #we had some time to kill so he managed to fill some of my other tiny cavities while i was there today so that’s good #okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more-#-guy to come and finish the interior install and the long awaited fast internet will finally be mine eheheheheeeee #now i can feel my hours upon hours of unedited gameplay footage breathing down my neck :)#man i’ve got so much stuff piled up right now. i’m drowning in Tasks and it’s a lil overwhelming but i’ll handle it all! eventually #uhhhhm my current writing project is coming along well! i’ve never put so much time and effort into a oneshot before in my life #its a labor of love though and i think i’m gonna be really proud of myself (and the fic) once it’s complete #even if no one reads it bc it’s so goddamn self indulgent and kinda lowkey throws canon out the window but like. fuck it!#if i want Astarion to write a song on piano and perform it for me while mentally taking me on a trip down memory lane. then so be it #fr though i’ve never written anything quite like this and i rlly want to do it justice. even if its unrealistic i still want it to be Good #in other news i received word that one of the chickens i sponsor at my local Gentle Barn has passed away so i had a lil cry abt that #i feel so bad for his little tiny chicken wife. they obviously loved each other and it’s like. so sad when one half of an old couple dies #like. she pulled him out of his depression after his 1st wife died. now who’s gonna be there to pull Her out…#anyways let’s not get all sad about that again. in happier news my cat who i presumed died/got killed has returned home uninjured!!!#after that huge stray dog chased her into the woods i thought we’d never find or see her again #but then the morning after i started grieving her she showed back up hungry as hell yet completely unharmed like the enigma that she is #so that’s one definite highlight from earlier this month. uhh what else. rapid fire summary of the past few weeks let’s go-#Jersey turned 10! Bullet turned 10! my 6 year Veganniversary happened! i’m approaching 700 days on DuoLingo!#i’ve written more than 20 thousand words! i’ve been facing some fears! fighting my OCD! taking care of myself! (kinda!)#anyways things are far from being all sunshine and roses around here but i’m trying to focus on the good stuff for the most part #for now tho i have a headache and have reached 30 tags so it’s time to go shovel some mashed potatoes into my mouth :)

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outlying-hyppocrate · 10 months ago

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i am not used to novelty, and i don't think i ever will be; i am used to cold limbs, white eyes, sharp teeth, soft brown sepia, liquid in the taste, the taint is what now fills my blurry eyes, everyone is sclera when the pupils cry (everything is merciful and everything is soft and we are all marshmallow candy on the 31st of the new month expiry is an option not an option but the sell-by-date corroborates strange things whenever we can come across)

#random thoughts #and it's exactly that so sweet which ruins mold intoxication and i have a strange disorder that i diagnosed myself #these complications with your body become all the more concerning because the only way to fix it is to force beneath the mouth #when simple idea scares you that's when children start to cry #we call them names as they do not defend the one eternal self #leo lights a lion; the diem noctem is on fire #and the way we are perceived is an illusion of the wealth

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mikiruma · 2 years ago

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#talking #polls #ok i lied im posting this. this is more important than sleep #anyway context for each one bc they all apply #1) my friend dallas :) we basically lived the exact same internet life and only met around high school. whack #2) self explanatory #3) roadhog just appeared out of thin air and isnt in a video game owned by a shitty company wdym #4) my parents asked me not to get diagnosed but i have official papers saying Autistic Tendencies+#outside the diagnosis prompt so like. LOL idk why the phrasing is so hilarious. but yeah #5) my cool uncle was in multiple bands & i have a few shirts for them! still havent heard any of their music though #6) real and true. was hyped for rewritten so we could try again and then disney shit the bed #7) PEOPLE SAY I WAS WEIRD/GROSS FOR THIS BUT IT WAS SO GOOD???? COME ON #8) i joke about fictionkin amino a lot but that place was a god damn nightmare i cant believe how long i used that app

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