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I'm pretty sure studying shouldn't feel like your soul's trying to become a black hole.
#i don't know what is wrong with me#but i know something is#i am just trying to study#why is it so difficult#why is everyone acting like its something everyone can do easily#what the hell just study means#just concentrate#just open the fucking book#IM TRYING#WHY IS THAT NOT ENOUGH#WHY SHOULD I END UP CRYING#WITHOUT HAVING DONE ANY PROGRESS#what is wrong with me#what should it do#im desperate#im broken#i need help.#exam season#exam stress#final exams#exams#its the neurodivergency#neurodivergent#???#is this what it is?#it is what it is
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ratsave 1.2 by ratboysims
⭐sorry about the wait on this one!!!!!!
WHAT’S NEW FROM 1.1? • willow creek got a facelift with a lot of completely new builds! • magnolia promenade got a complete facelift with all new builds! • sulani is completed, yes all of it! • other worlds are still not completed, but there are a bunch of new builds and families scattered throughout! • every family in willow creek now has descriptions and story, and their in-game selves should reflect that story!
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#throwing up and shaking and crying#idk why this one is making me so anxious it feels like i should be more done even if it is literally just a hobby activity#i think because i had to rush it at the end to get it out today even if i KNOW i did it as good as i could#anyway PLEEEEASE ENJOY I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT I DO ENJOY PLAYING IN HER#mycc
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cw: you two have a son together, mention of being married, old man Bakugou
older retired pro hero Bakugou, who you find hunched over his desk one night. it’s late and the day was long and your son was whinier than he usually is. you’d think the old man would be in bed right now, but alas—he’s not beside you.
instead, as you round the corner to get a full look at him, he’s wearing his reading glasses, adorning an old ratty tank, his arms still big but softer than the years from before. he has a book open in front of him, desk scattered with pictures you can’t see from your angle, scissors, stickers, glue sticks.
“What are you getting up to at this hour, old man?” You ask softly, smiling when Bakugou doesn’t even look up from what he’s doing. his tongue is sticking out in the corner as he cuts a squiggly line on a picture, posing it beside another on a blank piece of paper.
“Therapist said I should get into crafting,” he grunts, finally looking over at you from over his glasses. “Do things with my hands, feel busy, get my mind off’a shit.”
you pad over to where he sits, the overhead lamp on his desk focused on the big baby blue book with white pages. peeking over his shoulder, you rest your head on top of his, chin nestled in the still unruly blond and silver locks, overseeing his work.
and honestly? it almost makes you wanna cry. it’s a scrapbook, the page open to pictures of your wedding day, how pretty you looked, how big he smiled at you. you can see other scattered pictures on his desk—when you got a promotion at work, when he was number one for seven months in a row, a positive pregnancy test, the cutest baby you’ve ever seen, two little teeth coming in, baby being held in dads big ole arms that will always protect him.
“After this page, I gotta do the honeymoon.” Bakugou speaks gruffly, setting down a picture to wipe a hand down his face. “And then life accomplishment shit, the baby, his first steps.” He sounds so tired, and you can’t help but wrap your arms around his shoulders, sliding down to smush your face against his own.
“You always have tomorrow. Come to bed.” You say against his cheek, squeezing him when you feel the rejection start up in his belly. But he deflates, pulling his glasses off, reaching around to pull you in his lap. He looks so grumpy, with his frown lines and crows feet, and yet so handsome with his small smile and soft eyes.
“I’ll print more pictures tomorrow. And maybe go by the store to get some more stickers, too.” He tells you in between kisses, his words soft, his hands rough through your pajamas. You hum against his mouth, holding his nape, afraid to ever let him go.
“You do that. Now let’s go to bed.” You whisper, standing up and pulling him with you. He closes the scrapbook for now, and you glimpse at the cover, heart melting at the picture of you two holding up your son, both kissing his cheeks. The picture is captioned with “Our Life” and you don’t think you’ve ever been more grateful to have met him.
#I feel like you can always tell what I’m doing bc I end up writing about bkg doing it ajsjdkd#I AM SCRAPBOOKING!!!! and it’s more stressful for me than it should be 😔#it’s fun tho!!! and nice to see it come together!!!!#but I think he’d hate it and be all grumbly about it#until it starts coming together and he’s like ‘🙂 I made this and it’s fuckin awesome’#loves putting in every single memory and every single picture of you#bc he can’t decide which one looks better bc they all look good to him wksjdk#ends up having to get more pages or a whole other book entirely bc he runs out of pages#all dedicated to you and baby#why am I crying#okay bye I sleeby#also should I write tomorrow or do my makeup 🤔🤔🤔 cause I won’t be able to do either until Monday 🤔🤔#bakugou treats! 🍬#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#dad bkg
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daily reminder: Ochako had to make herself physically see the damage the villains and war created in order to forget the uneasy feeling she got when Himiko smiled sadly (+ all the things she thought when she saw her). She cant forget what she has done (because she doesnt like the destruction), but that doesnt mean she cant forgive her or that made her feel distance from her.
Izuku can't forgive what Shigaraki has done, and as far as we know, he doesn't need to remind himself of the pain; his empathy doesn't make him feel weird about reaching out to a villain, at least on its own.
Its not a copy paste of the same battle or story.
Himiko and Izuku make Ochako wonder about the concept of heroism and saving, the roles heroes and villains have, and they also have an impact on her behavior, ideals, and feelings for them and herself. Shigaraki's fate and the world around Izuku seems to make him wonder about his role as a savior, because he doesnt feel like he fulfilled it really, when it ended up with someone else dying. He finds in Ochako someone who would agree on ideals about saving others, and thats great on its own.
#grrr talking#togachako#togaocha#ochahimi#himichako#I can see how hori tried to make her part of the triangle with deku-shigaraki (?)#when the three met at the mall#but she isnt connected thru that anymore#bc she should be somewhere else#im on my knees I would cry if Ochako ended up like a normal girl with a normal love and a normal relationship#“but they are weird!” bc they are in that interpretation so heroic they would save villains?#yeah no they are weird bc izuku has his fucking crazy moments#and ochako thinks a cannibalistic villain looks all cute#do they match their freak? do you think they match their freak?#im sorry im stressed n when im stressed I tend to talk about why I dont want izu///ocha to happen dakjdadkasjdlka
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Amazing, take some of the side character demons from Evil Bound.
Vincie is a menace to Chuck and Chuck alone so in Hell, Chuck hexes his hand behind his back so that he isn't grabbed as much (and it's harder to pet him). Chuck is like the most irresponsible older sibling ever to demons though so Kelvin recruits him (as an older sibling vibe) to go help him get his ACTUAL older sibling from Earth. Chuck agrees. And then drags Vincie from Hell with them because no one else wants to babysit him and he refuses to unbind the hex just to re-hex when he returns to Hell.
In Hell, Kelvin actually doesn't appear much different than his human form! Like Kronos, the lines under his eyes are red in Hell but black on earth. Chuck however? In Hell he has wolf-ish ears and has a fur lining his neck (note the neck scars in human form). In addition to that he has four eyes in Hell (note the scars under his eyes in human form). Vincie just has horns in Hell. And! In Hell the hex doesn't have a silly looking "tied up" look, it's invisible unless Vincie strains it with movement and then its red text. But it shifts on earth to be visible.
Vincie's biggest agony for the entirety on earth is "dude it's colder here than in Hell I want a jacket to slip my arms into BUT I CANT BECAUSE IM BOUND".
#my characters#amazing show stopping rng wheel thanks#i have my oc plots on a wheel - thats 80 different options! wow! - and spun it#i spun twice and the first time it was the bodyguard plot that i drew a few days ago#the second time was evil bound#i genuinely think it new its a bad day and im not doing well so it took it easy on me with things id done recently#anyway ive never colored kelvin before which i realized today#i only have pencil art of him#also fun fact about their lil earth adventures#they fucking fail horrifically the first time they go and kronos doesnt go back#then they go back to try and get him to forcefully bring him back and theeeeen shit hits the fan#and so vincie is vibing with tolliver since hes basically useless without hands and then oops!#no more hex! and so he starts to get really super scared and tolliver is like uh isnt that a good thing your hands are free now#and vincie is horrified because the only way to break a hex from a distance is if the caster is near dead or dead#and if thats the case chuck is probably dead and that means what if kronos and kelvin are dead#how is he gonna get back to hell alone and is HE going to get punished for it#but then kronos and kelvin show up and take vincie back to hell with the not breathing chuck#but its fine in the end bc the succubi bring him back to ... life ? question mark? anyway hes revived#but vincie does have a part where hes just crying in tollivers apartment bc he thinks hes gonna be punished#for not helping the other demons and then they died#but chuck dying is basically why kronos goes back to hell - he feels responsible (hes at fault so good for him to own up)#vincie is one of the very few demons who doesnt have dark sclera#chuck vincie and kronos all have black sclera while the succubi have gray#i dont think there was ever a reason for it tbh i should make up a reason#time to go lie down and not exist the rest of the night if i can avoid it
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Cutting this whole bit and most of the servant's lines and Bard explaining how to play cricket get the fuck ouuuutttt
#i have been waiting for them all season#they're THE characters on the show they're just as much regulars as the midfords i don't understand#i already had a bad feeling with how they didn't make up a house episode and that one scene they stuck in at the end of the first episode..#...of sebastian serving tea the house felt sooo finny-less and then finny's scenes are cut too and mey rin's and bard's shitty food-#that's the whole reason tanaka had to get the other food from sebastian and it made me cry hearing a new seiyuu#if this were 2008 they would have inserted them more scenes the servants are ciel's family!!#i am already pretty disappointed with how they have changed some little things but this hurt my feelings the most today#again. we only got 11 episodes out of this arc and they felt like they should scrap all of their scenes??? but lord druitt gets to talk????#i shouldn't have to wait until germany to see them if they're canonically right there!! cricket is dry as hell!!#it's some of what i said before where they're animating the humorous parts of this season so off?? and this gets cut altogether??#AND AND since they're animating germany i know everyone gets to show up soon but why act like they don't matter now#i also don't like how bard got animated :(#kuroshitsuji#my kuro posts#phantomfam
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We were seated by the fire, as just now described, and Miss Havisham still had Estella’s arm drawn through her own, and still clutched Estella’s hand in hers, when Estella gradually began to detach herself. She had shown a proud impatience more than once before, and had rather endured that fierce affection than accepted or returned it.
“What!” said Miss Havisham, flashing her eyes upon her, “are you tired of me?”
“Only a little tired of myself,” replied Estella, disengaging her arm, and moving to the great chimney-piece, where she stood looking down at the fire.
“Speak the truth, you ingrate!” cried Miss Havisham, passionately striking her stick upon the floor; “you are tired of me.”
Estella looked at her with perfect composure, and again looked down at the fire. Her graceful figure and her beautiful face expressed a self-possessed indifference to the wild heat of the other, that was almost cruel.
“You stock and stone!” exclaimed Miss Havisham. “You cold, cold heart!”
“What?” said Estella, preserving her attitude of indifference as she leaned against the great chimney-piece and only moving her eyes; “do you reproach me for being cold? You?”
“Are you not?” was the fierce retort.
“You should know,” said Estella. “I am what you have made me. Take all the praise, take all the blame; take all the success, take all the failure; in short, take me.”
“O, look at her, look at her!” cried Miss Havisham, bitterly; “Look at her, so hard and thankless, on the hearth where she was reared! Where I took her into this wretched breast when it was first bleeding from its stabs, and where I have lavished years of tenderness upon her!”
“At least I was no party to the compact,” said Estella, “for if I could walk and speak, when it was made, it was as much as I could do. But what would you have? You have been very good to me, and I owe everything to you. What would you have?”
“Love,” replied the other.
“You have it.”
“I have not,” said Miss Havisham.
“Mother by adoption,” retorted Estella, never departing from the easy grace of her attitude, never raising her voice as the other did, never yielding either to anger or tenderness, “Mother by adoption, I have said that I owe everything to you. All I possess is freely yours. All that you have given me, is at your command to have again. Beyond that, I have nothing. And if you ask me to give you what you never gave me, my gratitude and duty cannot do impossibilities.”
“Did I never give her love!” cried Miss Havisham, turning wildly to me. “Did I never give her a burning love, inseparable from jealousy at all times, and from sharp pain, while she speaks thus to me! Let her call me mad, let her call me mad!”
“Why should I call you mad,” returned Estella, “I, of all people? Does any one live, who knows what set purposes you have, half as well as I do? Does any one live, who knows what a steady memory you have, half as well as I do? I who have sat on this same hearth on the little stool that is even now beside you there, learning your lessons and looking up into your face, when your face was strange and frightened me!”
“Soon forgotten!” moaned Miss Havisham. “Times soon forgotten!”
“No, not forgotten,” retorted Estella. “Not forgotten, but treasured up in my memory. When have you found me false to your teaching? When have you found me unmindful of your lessons? When have you found me giving admission here,” she touched her bosom with her hand, “to anything that you excluded? Be just to me.”
“So proud, so proud!” moaned Miss Havisham, pushing away her grey hair with both her hands.
“Who taught me to be proud?” returned Estella. “Who praised me when I learnt my lesson?”
“So hard, so hard!” moaned Miss Havisham, with her former action.
“Who taught me to be hard?” returned Estella. “Who praised me when I learnt my lesson?”
“But to be proud and hard to me!” Miss Havisham quite shrieked, as she stretched out her arms. “Estella, Estella, Estella, to be proud and hard to me!”
Estella looked at her for a moment with a kind of calm wonder, but was not otherwise disturbed; when the moment was past, she looked down at the fire again.
“I cannot think,” said Estella, raising her eyes after a silence “why you should be so unreasonable when I come to see you after a separation. I have never forgotten your wrongs and their causes. I have never been unfaithful to you or your schooling. I have never shown any weakness that I can charge myself with.”
“Would it be weakness to return my love?” exclaimed Miss Havisham. “But yes, yes, she would call it so!”
“I begin to think,” said Estella, in a musing way, after another moment of calm wonder, “that I almost understand how this comes about. If you had brought up your adopted daughter wholly in the dark confinement of these rooms, and had never let her know that there was such a thing as the daylight by which she had never once seen your face—if you had done that, and then, for a purpose had wanted her to understand the daylight and know all about it, you would have been disappointed and angry?”
Miss Havisham, with her head in her hands, sat making a low moaning, and swaying herself on her chair, but gave no answer.
“Or,” said Estella, ”—which is a nearer case—if you had taught her, from the dawn of her intelligence, with your utmost energy and might, that there was such a thing as daylight, but that it was made to be her enemy and destroyer, and she must always turn against it, for it had blighted you and would else blight her;—if you had done this, and then, for a purpose, had wanted her to take naturally to the daylight and she could not do it, you would have been disappointed and angry?”
Miss Havisham sat listening (or it seemed so, for I could not see her face), but still made no answer.
“So,” said Estella, “I must be taken as I have been made. The success is not mine, the failure is not mine, but the two together make me.”
Great Expectations, ch. 38
#I read an abridged version when I was like 8 and could not get over it#her bit about daylight and love!! almost a Plato’s Cave element to it#this time around I was hit by the last line —#’the success is not mine the failure is not mine but the two together make me’#like why should she be surprised??#and still Estella is kind in the way she can be to Miss Havisham!! still at the end of the chapter she warns Pip!#she warns him over and over#and she says ‘I deceive and entrap all men but you’#like!!!!#A child brought up in darkness with beetles gathered on the floor#taught poison day in and day out#and she even says!! that Miss Havisham frightened her! from which I think that some part of her reared against the unnatural education#GOSH#this GIRL#from two or three years old brought into a terrifying woman’s care#when she knew love beforehand#to have it drained out of you#cruelness nurtured in you day after day#and like!!! She’s still somehow kind!! in her way#because she tells Pip over and over#she chooses Drummle because that way she can’t hurt anyone else#she’s been raised in such an evil manner#and Miss Havisham crying ‘what have I done’ over and over once she realizes#GUYS the Victorians!!! no one does it better#Great Expectations#Miss Havisham#Estella Havisham
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because i wrote insane jerseykyleyb dialogue in that long ass ask answer i just wrote ( which, holy shit guys, a mildly in character nina post? naaah ur tripping; un hasn't answered an ask in months skdks )
you can have some of this VERY CURSED ( i'm sorry, he's so fucking funny he is my hero, seriously ) in the heat ( wheW! bc he's BAD) of the very fucked up ravesey breakup/divorce and ( sigh ) a very frightening manic bipolar episode/bender ( manz bad in both ;) & :( ways ) rockstar ravenstan of crimson dawn on stage at his show
BEIN THE FUNNIEST MAN ONCE DEAD & NOW ALIVE,
and the only context is that it's a divorce era para ( the worst kind, like bruh, uncle neen! can we pls have something hap--shhhh~ don't worry about that, baby! just eat your delicious dinner, sweetheart! xx <3 )
ravenstan has manic panic pixie dream boy box-dyed red hair, ( i am barking ) it's a crimson dawn concert, and...jersey is in the audience in...( sigh again ) the worst FUCKING DISGUISE i've even SEEN!!!!
anyways...
ROOOOLL CLIP!
( edit: no one clap me for my bad eStañol; i haven’t taken it or anythin seriously since universidad ( bad ), babEy! )
please note that after this…he quite literally just started basically making an online dating profile and was listing off his interests ( idk if it’s gonna stay but it was hella funny and he is so cute to me; it just got too long ) but this is my favorite part — BEAUTIFUL DORK TTRPG RAVENSTAN IS LIKE NERVOUS FLUSTERED SIMP JERSEY TO ME; IT IS MY FAVORITE CONTENT —
rock and body ROOOOLL
BONUS TRACK:
my hand is over my EYES…btw, the people booing?
That’s ME.
i’M BOOOOOOOING!!!!
gET OFF THE STAGE, STANNIE DORKOOO!!!!
#LOOK AT THIS DORK ASS BITCH I'M CRYING HEEEELP#like i need yall to know he is a beautiful famous rockstar#THE STUPIDEST MAN ON PLANET EARTH#AND FUUUUUUUUUUCKING LOOOOOOOOOOSER#this cannot stay i got way too into it and was being insane like this is too cursed BUT I WAS DYING LIKE HEEELLLO???#SUPER BESTIE YOU ARE DOING TOO MUCH THIS IS SOOOO MESSY BUT ALSO KEEP GOING KING UR KILLIN IT#after the events of rm when he can just freely exist and be UN(H)CRINGED on stage as RavenStan...Immaculate Content#LIKE HES KINDA EATING NGL I AM SIMPING MY MAAAAN#i know jk out there sweating and fighting for HIS LIFE TOO#I KNOW HES CRYING AND THROWING UP LIKE WHY IS MY CRAZY HOT EMPHASIS CRAZY EXBOYFRIEND UP THERE#SAYING VERY SEXY THINGS IN SPANISH WHORIN HIMSELF OUT TO THE FAKE INSURANCE COMMERCIAL LADY#AND LITERALLY PUTTING IN A BOYFRIEND APPLICATION TO HIS ENTIRE AUDIENCE OF LIKE A MILLION PEOPLE#LIKE I WOULD END IT ALL I AM SOOOO SORRY TO HIM#( but also idk king maybe you should slide an application in and use a fake name ) I GOTTA WRITE THE FIT DESCRIPTION#BUT ITS SO FUNNY LIKE OH MY GOD BROTHER THEY ARE BOTH DOING THE MOST MY BOYS MY BOYS MY BOYS#also ravenstan trans intersectional feminist KING ILYSM
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watched Logan (2017) for the first time after watching every single x-men/wolverine movie this week and lemme tell you-
I am NOT okay. what the FUCK
#a brown woman offering to pay a dangerous man thousands of dollars to get her child to a 'safe haven' is about where i lost my goddamn mind#basically i started crying and i am unable to stop#cant believe they made those movies for like 20 years and then ended it like that#so fucking depressing and for WHAT#god. if i had a therapist they would be hearing about this but instead im going to word vomit here#they really made wolverine a FATHER. they gave him a little girl! and then they fucking KILLED HIM OFF#200. YEARS OF ANGUISH?! THEY COULDNT LET HIM HAVE SOME HAPPINESS!!!!#anyways im going to keep crying about this poor fucker and my own fucking dad issues but can i just say that this movie was also hilarious??#like i would absolutely die for laura she's so weird and perfect and relatable i love her sm#also why did they even bother making more marvel films after this?? 98% of them have been trash they should be embarrassed!!#mkay imma shut up now i think. many more thoughts but im bad at english
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return to the underground is so funny because everything Donny says or does Raph and Leo are like 'that's him our baby brother, precious little genius, watch watch he's gonna do something cool, we are so proud. do you need anything Don Don'
And Mikey's like 'this is the worst plan you've ever had. I hate you.'
He really was not happy about going back underground XD
#his donnie imitation cracks me up every time#'come on guys. lets go down to the underground city. we'll have some laughs. WE'LL GET EATEN#also to be fair to mikey don had been cranky for an unspecified number of fays due to not sleeping#which could also explain why Leo and Raph are being SO gentle with him#more than usual which is saying something#Mikey: so Raph gets a stun gun. and I get. a limited number of nets. Donatello. i will eat you someday#raph litereally says to sydney:#'our little donny is full of all kinds of surprises'#oh my gosh we get it you love your brothers can you please stop making me cry#no but raph and leo are also very patient with mikey in this episode#they should both get a trophy#they'll look at each other too like 'which one of us..? yeah both' and then repeat several times how smart donny is#or reassure mikey that it's all gonna work out#you take Mikey to the underground city? the underground coty with monsters? oh! oh! jail for donny! jail for donny for one thousand years!#he was so happy to see Quarry though 🥹#and then at the end when he is no longer living in fear of drowning in lava he makes sure to tell Don he's proud of him too#i can't with these turtles#that's enough tags yellow
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me : "i wonder why my back hurt"
my desk chair literally :
#i really should invest in a normal desk chair at least#after the last one ended up fucked up when i moved i gived up#why would i pay for shit that break so easily...#(so you won't have to cry about your back pain you imbecile -said a distant voice)#am i trying to convince myself to buy a chair in my tumblr tags#yes
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HAVE U SEEN THE EPISODE YET it was so good😭😭 I wasn’t expecting hagure to be so sly and I loved it :3 I’m glad we’re getting to see other sides of the characters now
LOL I JUST GOT OFF WORK AND WATCHED ITTTT... despite my initial disappointment over it not being a normal beach episode I AGREE i thought it was a rly good + fun ep 😭
yes i love big schemer hagure + i like how he always ends up the announcer at event stuff LOL
it was also nice to see matakara and arajin having a normal conversation... though i do not trust this show with the fate of big bro 💔💔 "he's coming home next week :3" okey we'll see how that one goes.......
#bucchigiri?!#it was my own fault for expecting anything normal in this anime ✌✌#even if i hadnt seen screenshots as soon as marito was like 'u like group dates yes 😁??' i knew it was going to be battle matches LOOLL#he should have learned from the depunchery thing idk why he expects captain homotron to set him up with girls#arajin is delulumaxxing#mahoros fucked up bento box had me crying#marito will rly just eat anything WHY did he eat it😭😭#NOT EVEN IN HER PRESENCE LIKE ?!?!?#his pjs were so cute doe#he calling jabashiri jaba-chan is cute too#arajins awful acting like 'ow... my leggg... ouchiee...' was so funy to me he's such a lewser#and ofc matakara is like 'its okey 🥺🥺'#the several seconds of silence + freezeframe before he almost kills arajin over the spicy maji kebab 😭😭#WHERE IS IT ARATEEN!!?!?!#+ hagure being like MARITOO NOO NO NO ✋😨🤚!!!#sillyyyyy silly ep#ichiya staring after matakara at the end 😨
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🎶dost dost na rha, pyaar pyaar na rha🎶
#well she would be the one singing this tho-#ye bandi i swear she is so stupid i want to break into her house and just slap her 😭#ek thappad marungi na fir sane ho jayegi#first she starts everything herself because yk she believes in fucking revenge and when iss bandi ko apne karmo ka phal milta hai toh#she starts crying her eyes out-#like bhena i get it kuch log were pretty fucking brutal to you but WHY REVENGE#when yk she could have just told the teacher or her fucking parents#but no she took everything in her own hands#decided to pull some anime villain shit by making a plan to take revenge#and now she is depressed because it didnt work fully and she is one who got in trouble in the end?#gurl it wasnt a good plan to begin with and we told you#and now you think we are fucking idk scaring you so that you should “give up”#bruh#like no#we are just trying to tell you that yeh sab mein only you are going to ruin your year with your idea of trying to make your 'bullies'#suffer#😭����😭😭#like this girl has no fucking brain or what#she is childish but they actually think before taking their actions#toh vo log toh nikal jayenge but bandi ye cope nhi kar payegi#and she would end up just crying to herself because she even pushed her bffs away for this bullshit plan 🤡😭#idk if i should cry or scream or beat the fuck out of her-
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sometimes being so overly sensitive makes it hard to function like how do people do it. today we drove past three dead pheasants and i'm expected to be fine about the fact that they died alone and in pain and everyone keeps driving as if they never mattered. as if they didn't live and breathe and think. ok
#how is this fine. am i insane. how is it not so devastating that it stifles you#today i learned that the life span of a wild fox is three to four years#does that not make you want to cry every time you see one in the street. knowing they will never be safe#how do you look at your cats and not feel consumed with sadness because they won't be here forever#and no matter what you do you can't ever guarantee that they will always be healthy and safe#and they don't even understand any of this because they're just babies#which should be comforting because it means they aren't aware of their own mortality#but it somehow makes it sadder. like you don't know you are the entire world to me and i will spend my life missing you#i fear i'm genuinely a bit mental#because this shit keeps me up regularly#maybe it's the ocd. or the autism. maybe i'm just weird#it does get worse when an animal dies. i guess rescuing duck + finding out he died is the reason this time#i rescue A Lot of animals so this happens to me all the time#and i don't get any better at dealing with it#i still think of the chicks + lambs + mice + chickens we couldn't save when i was a kid#and the fact that sometimes a litter of animals would be born and the universe just decided that one wasn't going to make it#and it would be lying there dying whilst its siblings got stronger and braver and ate and played#and it wouldn't know or understand that it had drawn the short straw for no reason and would never get to live#WHY is the world like this how do you make peace with that#they think duck was hit by a car. only a man made thing can do that amount of damage right#the fact he was just a little animal he was so small and delicate and then he ended up all mangled like that#it's so unfair. poor angel#ask to tag
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i fucking hate this gane
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#sophie’s idle chatter#i just finished chapter 5 meaning the end of season one and its safe to say this game has destroyed me in a million different ways#some of which being my emotions and my bank#what the fuck was the entirety of chap 5….. lunar games i cannot do this u have actually made me cry so much why did u have to make the#writing so so good and all the characters so compelling in their own way 😭#im abt to start chap 6 where we can unlock yuye and jihans routes from this chap onwards#sighs im not emotionally ready for this bc seeing glimpses of the bad ending illustrations in the archive makes me wanna jump out my window#and then after i unlock all their routes theres still season 2 thats locked…#hwal and eunhan…. throwing up …….. shitting tears …… banging my fists against the wall ….. punching air …….#fuck#at least this game is the kind with ads to replenish bc im used to these kinds of games#stares at lord of heroes and all their reward ads 🧍♀️#anyway my bank is always open for this game rven if it forces me through emotional trauma#baek jihan my beloved…. my love…… my life…… ourgh#AND SUYEON WAILS I LOVE U#man the devs have me in a chokehold for their amazing lore and writing…#anyway its 2 am and my eyes are puffy and my nose is stuffy and i should sleep but what is sleep when u have been emotionally damaged 🫡
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It’s incredibly rare for my mother to ever accept and admit that she did something wrong, especially if her own family is on the receiving end (she might give in sooner or lie to others), but for her to work towards making up for it, or figuring out a solution, or find common ground, or really, just do anything that would actually matter to make something right? Never happens. She might think about how to or about actually doing something that she thinks might be the solution, the answer, whatever, I truly don’t know if that ever even happens in her head or not because she just won’t communicate, but I know that I’ve never seen it in action.
#my teenage self used to get all frustrated and screamed in her head only to end up crying in the bathroom like#why won’t you *do* anything about it? i get that you admit it. I’m fucking glad you see it. now what are you going to do about it?#what *are* you (if already) doing about it?#and#silence#and yeah (point at me)#i should be fixing it#and no. not for the both of us. her. i should make things right for her so that she doesn’t have to do something wrong. again.#so like. we're past that now ofc. she can’t expect that of me obv. but like. that longing doesn’t ever really go away does it?#needing you mother to *act* like your mother?#it's alright i guess#mothers#daughters#mother daughter relationships#words
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