#WELL ITS NOT LIKE THEYRE AUTISTIC
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Mouse (1) is following in the skilled nonverbal communication steps of Bear(7) who never bothered to use more than one word until they were 3. By pointing, gesturing and saying “namnamnam” and “Ticky,” while leaning heavily on my parental psychic powers, Mouse clearly indicated “I want to feed a piece of ham to the chickens.” And so I gave them a piece of ham and opened the door, and that is exactly what they did. How precisely “nam nam , Ticky” tells me this, I could not say. And that is presumably why Mouse is going to follow the pattern of Bear.
#house of glass#mouse#bear#actually was half diagnosed with speech delay but that’s another story#in which people infuriated me by saying in a well intentioned way#WELL ITS NOT LIKE THEYRE AUTISTIC#a thing I am#!!!#still mad about!!!#on every level#I accept that mouse fed the ham to chickens and so must you.#babies and chickens are on a level that common sense has no jurisdiction over.
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Hey, has anyone who's seen I Saw The TV Glow seen any good articles/posts discussing the themes of femininity/womanhood or specifically transfeminity in the movie? I want to read some analysis from that perspective but most of the analysis I can find is taking the approach of like, "transness" as an all-encompassing experience (or even from the experiences of trans men and non-binary people) & I think I'd really like to read something specifically focused on that aspect considering the protagonist is transfem herself
#i saw the tv glow#scenes like owen's unwillingness to appraoch his father & the whole dynamic of discovery through a 'girls' tv show with the pink opaque#present a really interesting narrative abt feminity specifically but i cant find anyone digging into it#like the situation here is that by searching i saw the tv glow transfem i found 3 people come out as transmasc which like. congrats king bu#im dying here. i guess most people who think theyre cis men arent really gonna watch a movie with a reputation for being transgender#two more things: the movie is absolutely about being autistic as well but its about being trans AND autistic theres no interpretation of#this film that ignores that. you can't say this is 'about autism' this is about being a trans woman with autism#& also interesting themes of infantilization w/ transitioning presented as a childish idea by society via pink opaque being a kids show#isabella buried in overalls#self-discvovery during a sleepover#much to think about#ANYWAYS rambly tags over#transfem#trans woman#<--- is this the tag ppl use. hello
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i know jotaro is somewhat based on clint eastwood's characters, but i think he's likely also based on lieutenant columbo (and he makes a reference to the show in the "justice" episode when he's messing with enya -- and he also is extremely columbo-esque in that scene lol -- "(trips enya) oh... y'know... you really shouldn't run with scissors. that could've been bad." fhsjfjdjfj)
the long jacket, the mess of curly/wavy dark hair, broad shoulders, and how he seriously doesn't give two fucks what other people think of his attitude, dress, and lack of manners (ALSO i insist that both characters are autistic).
they're both off-putting and brazen to most people around them, and they have a talent for making their enemies lose their sanity (most notably d'arby, and -- from what i've watched so far -- the bomb guy from columbo who has a very similar meltdown to d'arby).
#also they both hate being in planes even tho for jotaro its bc of joseh#*joseph ugh#i also think theyre both handsome in like an unconventional way#well jotaro is just handsome-handsome but he's also a weirdo so fhjsjfjs#jojo's bizarre adventure#jjba#jotaro kujo#autistic!jotaro
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every member of the smith/sanchez family is autistic and queer. see my vision
#rick and morty#rnm spoilers#??!????? kinda#so funny that morty is technically the straightest member of the family now 😭 minus comic content#ALSO YEAH. ILL DIE ON THE HILL OF THEM ALL BEING AUTISTIC#rick is canonically and morty is … kind of canonically?#jerry is pretty obviously autistic to me. he has a lot of typical Dad Autism interests and hobbies#and seems very unaware when it comes to social situations. also the balloon game lol… hes stimming idc#beth is sooo similar to rick. she definitely is lol and her being a weird kid is part of it#literal horse girl!!!!!!#summer is TOOOOOOO. being very obsessed w fitting in#which is obvs like. a Teenager thing but u understand right.#THESE R VERY SIMPLIFIED EXPLANATIONS ‼️‼️ im just lazy rn#but Trust me. theyre all sooo autistic its unreal. a world where neurodivergent is the norm and neurotypical is the minorty…#oh and as for the queer part. well theyve all (minus morty) had a same gender relationship in the show#and ill live and die by rick and morty being trans.
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my favourite thing about the always sunny podcast is listening to rcg all say something extremely neurodivergent and then agree amongst themselves and convince themselves its completely normal
#and to be clear im not diagnosing them charlie said he wasn't neurotypical#like deadass i think. the reason some of their writers just completely botch the gang's motivations/dialogue sometimes is bc at their core#these characters are all. SO autistic. which inevitably leads to them being misunderstood by others outside their group#whether rcg realizes it or not they inject this very specific vibe of neurodivergence into the gang#and its why they will just. argue over inconsequential details bc they Need to be understood completely#they can't just drop it unless they are crystal fucking clear#imo the biggest mistake other writers make is thinking that the gang is completely desensitized when its more like#they just don't react the way you would expect#which is often... adjacent to that but still distinct. and its trauma that influences this as well#the gang does not believe they themselves are 'bad people'. theyre most often oblivious to the fact that the things they do are insane#rob saying he doesnt pick up on social cues and then going on to argue in circles with glenn#i dont think last week was anything crazy but i think. rob doesn't know when to let up. which is a problem that *i* have#and while it comes across as being confrontational in an 'im right youre wrong' way i dont think its driven by ego here#just like with how as they said mac and dennis are making up while chucking bread rolls at each other#on both sides its frustration at being misunderstood#but they are all similar enough that even if they disagree over small details theyre usually on the same page. and this can be beneficial!!#thats the conclusion of the ep!!!! whether its suggesting smoking to cancel out the toxic apple skin or suggesting words u cant think of#glenn said he was upset about feeling misrepresented and picked on#dennis gets angry for those exact reasons in.... ALL of his big rage scenes#its frustration that leads to anger because youre speaking to (another) brick wall and you can't adequately explain yourself#which. glenn is clearly more competent than dennis & i think a lot of the time in sunny the gang is WAY more obtuse for the sake of comedy#but its interesting to watch the dynamic because as charlie said last week#they are mac and dennis (especially when theyre fighting)#i just think.. they are in a semi-unique position to understand this because this is how they are. while several other writers do not get i#ada speaks#untagged
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new guy alert!! i went in to design a different character who ive been trying to work out in my mind and came out w a guy with a mullet. as one does. character designing similar to what happened when i tried to design cas and came out with lucas instead and was like okay well lucas fucks and i must keep him so theyre just two seperate guys now and i STILL have the original guy to design. but anyway i like him and im glad i liked the first pass of a design enough to work w it so he may go thru some changes since originally this was just gonna be laying down color ideas for the other guy and he morphed in2 his own thing
#my art#ocs#furry#anthro#jaguar#he took the planned name of the other guy tho lol#love putting autistic on my oc refs like theyre not all autistic. well except the shitty ones they dont get to be#its safe to assume they r unless stated otherwise#not sfw text#cuz of the dumb fishing shirt lol. im unsure how to tag that but this is fine
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is it strange to genuinely not know what people think of you or how they feel about you? most people seem to just know if someone dislikes them so they can move on, or they just know when someone enjoys their company and is their friends. I have no way of knowing without people explicitly telling me, and people are horrible at doing that.
I don't know what my first impression gives. I don't know what vibes I have or what type of energy I have. I can't tell if someone hates me, doesn't care about me, or genuinely likes me. I can't tell what people's opinions on me are, if they think i'm nice, funny, rude, boring. I don't know if i'm bothering or annoying someone. I don't know if i'm upsetting someone or making them uncomfortable. I don't know if they are comfortable around me. I don't know if they enjoy my presence. I don't know if they are being fake nice and fake friends. I can't tell when someone loses interest in me. I cant tell if someone is trying to be a friend or is just being polite. I don't know if i'm easy to get along with, or difficult to be around. I don't know if my presence fills someome with joy or annoyance. to make it worse, each person thinks and feels different things. so i'll never figure out all of them.
if I try to think about what my presence and existence means to other people, i'm met with a massive blank hole. there's nothing there. I could never answer the questions "my friends/family would descove me as ___" because I genuinely don't know. I can only say what I think of me. unless someone explicitly told me with clear words, i'll never know. i'll usually know how I feel about another person at some point, and I try to tell them if I have the chance. but it's never reciprocated. they never tell me. so my presence in other people's lives is always a blank enigma I can't figure out.
any time i've tried talking about this, I just get a response like "stop worrying and caring about what other people think about you/just be yourself that's all that matters"
that's not the advice you think it is. that's more of what you'd say to someone who beats themselves up because they are worried about people disliking them in general and it fills them with anxiety to be disliked. they usually have low self esteem and think their worth lies in other people liking them. that's not the case here. hate me if you want, I don't care. i'd just rather know upfront before investing my time and energy in you.
this type of "caring what others think" is more about human connection, rather than acceptance....I wonder...is one reason I struggle to connect with people because I can't feel the presence of their feelings towards me? all I know is they are aware of my existing. thats it. try being in a group chat and not knowing if any of them actually like you or secretly hate you, not knowing if they are your friends or just being nice, and not knowing anything about how they feel about you, but you enjoy them very much. I try to share inner feelings with them, but theirs don't reach me. so I wonder, do mine even reach them? somewhere between us, the connection fails to reach. perhaps this is one of the problems i'm having with connecting to others.
if you don't know what people think or feel towards you, how can you connect with them? either you make assumptions, like "I think they hate me" and you could be wrong and push away someone that thinks you're friends, or think "i'm sure they enjoyed talking with me" and they later tell you they were just being nice but never wanted to talk to you becuass you're annoying. but assumptions are dangerous because those reasons, so the only other choice is to assign a blank slate to them and wait for them give you words to write on it. but if they don't use their words, they stay blank. you will never know if you are making a connection or it's staying superficial.
it's selfish to only go off your own feelings towards someone. you could really like someone, want to be friends, want to hang out and chat, but if they don't feel the same way, you just cause them problems and inconvenience. you bother them and ruin their time. i've noticed people often won't be direct about that and get even more upset because I missed it. I thought we shared a vibe or similar energy. but I might have mixed up my feelings with their vibes. if I like someone and enjoy them, not knowing how they feel about me can lead to me wasting my time and energy and also annoying that person unknowingly. it's bad for everyone.
if you can't assume the worse or even the best, you have to assume they feel neutral towards you until told otherwise. the problem is, most people go off of subtle hints, but if you can't see those, you get left out. while neither good nor bad, neutral feelings are still that of strangers. if you can't read people's thoughts and feelings on you, but it's rude to ask or people don't tell you the truth, you end up with many neutral people in your life. many strangers.
is this normal? do other people have an idea of what someone feels about them? or do you all "not care" what they think and go off of how you feel about them instead? is everyone making guesses, or do most people actually know without asking? how do you bond and feel connected if you aren't sure if someone enjoys your presence or if they actually loath it? I truly don't know....all I know is, not knowing makes me feel very disconnected from everyone.
I haven't gotten anyone else to talk about this or seen anyone else talk about it. so there's a good chance it's just a me thing. this type of topic usually gets reduced to "stop caring what people think" and goes nowhere beyond that. but!!! I think it's actually important to be able to know what people think or feel about you!!! at least to an extent. not obsessively caring to the point it becomes a mental disorder like social anxiety. but just enough to at least know if you are actually making a connection with them. just enough to know if you are able to reach them....
#if people actually tell me how they feel 99% of the time its been to tell me something negative that i didn't pick up on#id think we are friends and they like me and suddenly get hit with “i havent ever wanted to talk to you but youre annoying and wont leave!”#only once can i remember a positive one. it was someome at a health clinic. they said i make them feel very comfortable#and they just want to sit in the same room with me and read a book because im so calm and relaxed#that was the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me 🥺 i wish i remembered the exact quote....i hope theyre doing well wherever they are#lee rambles#autistic#autism#actually autistic#once again is this caused by the autism? or is it just a me thing?#but also. how do i know what people to pursue or reach out to if i dont know how they feel towards me?#ive spent so long writing this amd tryijg to fix typos and errors. too tired to fix more#trying to word this thiught correctly was very hard so i overexplained and said too many words that probably make it hard to understand....
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personal preference but i just can't stand autistic coded brunette white boys in ties and suit jackets. i want to explode them with my mind
#house md being the only exception and thats cause he was an awesome nasty old man#actually i realized almost all of these character types are sherlock holmes adaptations LOL#lockwood & co was basically the same thing as well. anyway.#u could at least make them actually autistic 😭 like sherlock & co's take on sherlock holmes#not much that can be done in edwins case being that its literally just his design#at least in the original casting he was blonde... i think he was better blonde#anyway. brunette white boys boring in general but im just sooo tired of it all#just say autistic. say masking. say overstimulated. say meltdown. PLEASEEEEE#idk how to explain it.#i feel like actually using the word autistic opens up the character to be more three dimensional and empathetic#otherwise theyre just stuck in 'annoying and weird and mean. probably because theyre autistic lol' hell#the most beautiful thing in the world to me would be if niko was autistic and taught edwin about it.....#literally never gonna happen. wailing
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who up getting autistic over a podcast theyve never seen
more under cut idk if theyll format or not... beware
some of these i just did some of these are old
some of these are the drawing style thing i did sooo.... in order... : FIRST THROUGH FOURTH IMAGE peter drew those :-) FIFTH rumi drew that one :-) SIXTH exandroth drew those :-) SEVENTH peter drew that one :-) self portait EIGHTH rumi [bad at art edition] both NINE and TEN i dont remember if they were ment to be peter or just me goofin... so picjk ur poison LOL ELEVEN thats peter LAST THREEEE meeeeee :3 9-10 and 12-14 are the older ones everything else i did last night / this mornin'
#jrwi#jrwi apotheosis#angelstone#sqlumi#................i prefer sqlumi.... why did name it angel stone thats like exandroth + peter not rumi + peter its confusing to me#im sorry i watched the angelstone cut like half a year ago#IM SOOO AUTISTIC ABOUT THEM YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA MAN YOU HAVE NO CLUE SOSHAKSHLSXHLDHDJDJKRKFKF#i cant contain it anymorw im going to post my cringe#quite a few of these ones are from my little handwriting drawing things where i make up their handwriting and art style tee hee#i think rumi either SUCKS ASS at drawing or can decently draw in an anime esque style#i imagine peter has a lil bit of artistic abilities... he did paint a ton of mug paintings if i remember right????#he aint the best but he can do it#thanatos has 0 skill because he has never drawn anything ever until this hypothetical situation where theyre drawing and writing this all#exandroth adapts peters skill to an extent#peter tries to follow the rules taught to him about writing as a child to a T soooo he has generally neat handwriting if hes thinking abt i#but if hes tired or just out of it idk#you cant get one word man that shit is just complete chicken scratch even he cant figure it out sometimes LOOLLLL#rumi also has very neat handwriting HOWEVER i love the idea that she hams it up to be really swirly like that one girl in elementary#thanatos is very stiff and neat might as well just be font...#exandroth is either writing in full caps or alternating between whatever ver of a letter he wants to write at any time#VERY heavy handed and goes over every line like 3 times#when writing his name EVERYTIME he writes exandroth archangel of retribution everytime#if you guys wanna see what i have so far.... you can ask.... hehe#theyre my ocs at this point man i havent seen the damn campaign#i would just make them my ocs but my brain immediately loses interest whenever i do that uuuuggghhhhg#i mean i have a beast moomin furry thing peter and an object oc peter bur#*but like idk#btw i have like waaayyy more to say but i reached tag limit <////333 tumblr hates autistic people real#ill just retype it all in the next post ^.^*#archive
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noooo you can let me describe the doctors body trust me i totally wont be weird about it this time
#me explaining why the doctor is hot: well theyre old enough to be my messiah so jot that down#also a body thats died many times#me opening the powerpoint: so before we begin hands up how many of you have spent more time than you should thinking abt jesus' body#church was like and this is body of christ and me being 7 and autistic took that in every way they DIDNT mean#anyway sorry yaz not sure what exactly the sin is here but im pretty sure uhhh it is one#its usually the master doing this#but yaz is taking the masters place in this fic so#that tracks i guess#gonna have to figure out how to take the pronouns out of this too#also look at the third person/second person flipflopping#i do that kind of a lot but i realised in this paragraph maybe thats because..........there isnt a third person imperative uhh mode?#is that a mode we call that idk#there ISNT a third person imperative right? thats just second person?#i think so#but its interesting bc thats like the main way my narration flipflops#idk if thats like bad. bad writer habit or whatever#if it is i dont really care#it doesnt bother ME so#idk if it bothers anyone else#one time i had a fun paragraph in the doctors pov where it went from its standard 3rd to 2nd to 1st. 1st plural i think#and then Back to 3rd distance yourself from yourself dont get too close#anyway
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yeah its important to have interests that arent just for children as an adult because at the end of the day it’s good for you and the way you percieve media overall to have a variety of things that you like but like you also shouldnt make fun of adults who are passionate about childrens media and imply theyre stupid for it. i think both of these takes can exist at once
#i dont like how some people are taking ''read a book for adults'' as ''do this so you are less cringe and stupid in my opinion''#rather than ''do so because its genuinely good for you''#and even so if someone likes childrens media and they like to analyze it and theyre not being a jackass to kids about it#just leave them alone? sometimes that's just what their interests are and thats okay. it makes them happy#and i hate to be That Guy but uhhhh. yeah theres an overlap here w nd adults#not all of us but certainly a good amount bc some special interests are so strong that they last throughout childhood#past an ''acceptable'' age#and again not the case for everyone but like most autistic adults i personally know are into childrens media#and have been into a specific property since they were a young child#and thats just autism like im sure for people with down syndrome and others have a similar experience#and even if they like something recent like bluey like. who cares it is not hurting you#echoed voice#and it also annoys me that most posts like this have people going ''um well fandom moms are annoying tho''#or even worse literally implying there's inherently a sinister motive#as if its not common for adults to get mocked for being childish and naturally get defensive#and as if every single adult into a pbs show or toh is inherently a bad person or something.#bc people will go through several mental gymnastics to defend being a jackass over something not socially acceptable#before they go ''yeah thats kind of rude sorry''
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thinking abt the touden siblings got me sniffling and weeping....
#im.too emotional abt them to properly explain#just rly glad to see autistic characters in media that i can deeply relate to and share experiences with. its such a rare thing#and i feel so protective of them i dont give a fuck abt fandom normally but some ppls bad takes lately are getting under my skin#like just say u hate autistic people and leave. stop calling laios a fucking freak im going to kill you with my bare hands#ppl think theyre so smart and funny for making posts like haha hes thr type of autistic that makes everyone uncomfortable and wish he-#would shut up or go away. im going to start hitting u with a brick until ur a bloody pulp#and thw way ppl treat falin so differently just bc shes not a guy. even tho theyre both clearly autistic and struggle socially#like wow thats crazy. do you act this way abt autistic ppl irl too#whatever just liberally blocking ppl abt it i dont fucking wanna see ur stupid posts#anyway.. back to thjnking abt their backstories and crying a little. masculinely of course#man i am soooo tired im so glad its the weekend i want to melt into a puddle and soak into the carpet and stain it forever#but we dont.have carpet.in this flat so.i guess ill just go to bed......#well maybe a little elden ring first#i would reallt like to draw sometime this weekend too. need to muster up some creative courage#but thats a problem for tomorrow... zzz#.diaries
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what’s fantasy high ?^^
Fantasy High is a DnD show on yt ^^!!!!! its like, small town queer mystery, found family type shit about 6 teenagers in a school for adventurers!!!! <33
season 2 used to be behind a paywall but since season 3 is on the horizon (NEXT MONTH AHHH) theyre releasing s2 on yt now tooooo!!!
#its soooo fun and also so beginner friendly when it comes to dnd#it does have slight Scooby Doo Mystery Incorporated vibes in some ways /pos#the character arcs are insanely well done the relationships feel well developed and real despite it being improv#its a lot shorter compared to a lot of dnd shows (cough cough critical role) and iiiii love it#2/3rds of the girls are in wlw relationships and theyre done WELLLLL#ALSO RIZ GUKGAK MY BEST FRIEND RIZ GUKGAK. SO AUTISTIC CODED AND ALSO LIKE THE FIRST AROACE CHARACTER I SAW IN MEDIA EVER ILY RIZ GUKGAK#not to say that the queerness of thw show is the main draw bc its NOT the mystery is compelling the worldbuilding is cozy#it really does just feel like a cohesive stoey#and then s2 is batshit INSANE but the mystery is still sooooo good#this is me not so subtly pitching Fantasy High to u btw Bdksbdj#chex tag#beverly says stuff#fantasy high#asks
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do u have lore/a storyline in ur head for wandering karate perchance? i love them a lot :')
AHHH... Wandering Karate, my truest beloved!!!! I do!! But I am rewriting my canon :3c so this is kind of messy and due for a little bit of changing maybe?! Orz !!!!!!!!
UH.. WEOW... cringe...
The basis for a lot of this is a really old fic I wrote for myself that doesn't exist anymore waaa qwqq sorry if this doesn't make sense!
• Joe's family lives in one of the villages Ronin (Wandering Samurai) has rescued.
• Specefically I imagine the one in "Super Samurai Slice", since he leaves unnoticed.. However, Joe saw the whole thing! (Imagine this is some like, 3rd incident lol)
• I like to think Joe would attempt to jump into action and help out (foolishly brave!), but due to being a teensy bit of a clutz he ends up being carried most of the way.
• But he still helped out you know, and like, real danger! Ronin is impressed. And gave compliments where it was due
• Samurai is invited for a drink / some steak and rice. They hang out!! They just chat. I think both of them are a little lonely, and it was just easy to talk. And they did, for hours.
• Joe's inspired by Ronin's skill. Ronin thinks Joe is inspiring for jumping into the situation despite his misteps. Like the desire, but weak energy for skill (Joe, who i project chronic fatigue onto lol), in contrast to the unstopping precise performance, that could fear nothing more than a mistep.
• To me, Joe is a guy who's embarrassed a lot, but he keeps trekking! But hes also frozen still into his current situation, unable to free his wings. While Ronin has light feet when it comes to his embarrassments. And, ofc, cannot let himself stay too long, anywhere! I think due to his nature, he's lonesome and is locked into a endless cycle of self reflection/percieved redemption (over critical)
• Anyways the family comes home. And Ronin's like, ah, I shall go. (Not wanting to be a disturbance) and heads out the door.
• BUT Senior is like "Joe, I need you to pick up my epic gi from -inserts convenient far away comical temple post office-" and Joe, somehow not irritated, and now given a journey, is like 💡‼️ and chases after Ronin.
• He really wants to tag along for just a while. He helped after all! Whats some more time together..? Ronin briefly attempts to decline, before deciding the company wouldn't be a bother... letting Joe come along- call this a ROADTRIP!
• Anyway, the idea was they had two nights of travel / chitchat, with a bit of shenanigans to themselves. Learn about one another. Kind of can see a glimpse into the others perception. And like.. yah... Dudes who want to be friends so bad, everytime they talk there's a silent spark inside both of them bc they're so lonely and a!!!!
• My oc, Karate Maccie, played into my fic uhmm,,, she became the unwanted child tagalong. She's the comic relief pretty much lol!!! but she also is like really trying to set them up as friends you know? She sees these two introverts trying to make it happen. She thinks Joe could use the friend :] She's also just nosey. I know what you are (lonely.)
• More shenanigans & silly adventure for Senior's mail... In the end, Joe and Ronin would have to part ways, but, they would keep touch in letters!!!! Joe being given a post office to write to, and Ronin promising to be there in time to recieve it!
Also I think Maccie + Ronin would have a mini rivalry arc, but it's mostly one sided from Maccie's end lol, and by the end it's somewhat resolved, and Ronin actually offers to train with her or something some time! They all had fun okay! Ugh!!!
I think from there their relationship is just you know, they get each other I guess? They share their thoughts in letters, and are honest and discuss anything and yeahaha... Sometimes a letter is just. "I saw a bird :)" -drawing-, and they get it...!!! they repeatedly will express in their letters how much they truly treasure the others company. Idk man!!! Queer platon guys okay!!!!!
Ronin would definitely make time to come around and visit the village, and Joe would up and leave the house w/o anouncing for mini trips to travel and meet the wandering samurai when hes close to the area!! Skipping practice?! For the samurai he holds dear?! It's serious, you know!!!
But I think the tension takes forever to boil over into melting their boundaries with one another. These dudes need to embrace. So bad. I think. But it's so hard, when you know the lack of it can hurt???? But one day.. I will feel confident enough in both of us, to hold you...??? And know that even when we part, ill see, and hold you again? Wails???
Uhgrhrbrbmammamaaammama 👍👍👍 normal about burnt out souls that are maybe a little mentally ill <33333333 I LOVE THEM SO MUCH ugh,h,m,m,,,,,,
Also they both have a somewhat similar family life in my hcs. Dead mothers, somewhat strained relationship with father, tradition, a clash in how they want to live? Something. They can't be together, but they treasure and hold their shared time dearly, and hold their long distance relationship with nurture :) I lovegh. Them.
Also, food for thought- Bon Odori is also in the village Joe lives in. (And I hc the toss boys are kids in this village, so fourth) maybe Samurai Slice Endless (DS) is there too :] I think he'd do that anywhere needed, but I like the idea of him going from not well known anywhere aside from few legends, to becoming apart of this community because of Joe? Or something? Sobs...??? Sorry idk...
Also I imagine a mini plotline of their relationship regarding the fact Ronin doesn't have a true name + Joe's rise to doing things outside the house ??? Things.. !!!
and and UHHHGGGGGGG rhythm heaven head canon world I missed you.....
#rhythm heaven#wandering karate#my otp... my favorite rh ship.. my beloveds....#theyre also 100% both autistic i think this matters#ALSO IM CONSIDERING THEM BEING T4T AS WELL bc i can who will stop me???#they see each others top scars accidentally and assume THERES NO WAY and backflips to “battle scars” and then its like -spiderman pointing⁉#karate joe#wandering samurai#<< do we use a different tag for him ?#IS THIS LAME? I FEEL LAME... /lh lh lh#they r a qpr ship to me but i think its definitely a grayspec relationship given time?? who knows! i love them#SORRY I DONT MAKE SENSE#got kind of excited even if its a mushy slop brain#UGH#wails and weeps#this IS an invitation to input or give me any wk idearsgh i will eat you (pos) HFKZLFMVMMX..#inbox#considered soft traumatized queerplaton old man yaoi okkkkk#txt
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you know how sometimes theres some popular character and most of the fanstuff is mostly accurate on the surface but you personally have some lived experience shared w this character that enables you to have a deeper understanding of little nuances under the hood that inform things like their decision making and stuff. its on a sliding scale of accuracy of course. personally i mostly get this with my mental disorders with characters such as ogata but sometimes theres LITTLE TINY THINGS that bother me about specifically the various violence related fetishes. and the fact that it bothers me itself bothers me cuz i feel like. "oh Clearly you havent received or inflicted wounds for sexual pleasure". yes obviously they havent done that. nobody else does that. i am abnormal in nature and insane in the head
#obviously not Rlly nobody else im well aware. but it is uncommon. and it doesnt Rlly bother me but i can often tell#yes ienaga vore jokes are funny but i dont think shes into vore based on what we see of her character and attitudes towards cannibalism#however. usami and tsurumi 100% are. tsurumis gay little speech in that scene would not be out of place on a vore sideblog thats EXACTLY#how certain ppl talk about it. thats literally It. tsurumi tokushirou invented vore in 1907#thats just the most clear cut and easily explainable example i think but there are so many little bits of tiny nuance idek#there are different attitudes of course but i feel like ienaga doesnt rlly feel any Connection to eating ppl and sure there are ocs and#little stories or scenarios about the pred just being like 'yea its just food' cuz some preys find that rlly hot but. irl there arent rlly#any of that kind of pred cuz if they dont care then. they dont care lol. like they dont Care about vore. so theyre not into vore. u know#so i think shes not into vore sexually and such shes literally just here for medicinal purposes or w/e. but that is just my opinion idk#sorry for vore essay in the tags i am autistic 👍 those deviantart stamps are not ironic they are a Warning#if anybody like. cares about being 1/5th of a mm off in their depiction of masochism or smthng i will answer questions. but be prepared for#me to get at least this ^^^ autistic about it. i dont have a phd in masochism but i can at least say with certainty that i have never#said 'it hurts so good' in real life. the full sentence like that is just a little cheesy in my opinion. 'it hurts' usually speaks 4 itself#og post
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why do teachers insist on going around and making everyone say their name and something about themself??? like what the fuck, what do they want from me hi I'm ellis and my fun fact is this is making me want to fucking combust, nice to meet you like I'm not gonna remember any of this I'm just suffering for no fucking reason
#i hate this teacher immediately#she did put her pronouns in her introduction slide but still#if you somehow dont know im autistic which the school knows#and that means i dont have to answer any questions if i dont want to#with no represcussions 🤙🏻🤙🏻#however it felt way more awkward to just stare at her this time 🧍🏻♂️so im going to throw myself off something /j#we're now watching some of hamlet and i fucking love hamlet i am a complete shakespeare nerd so she is gaining back some points#cause this isnt my shakespeare lecture but shes bringing him up anyway 🤭#i still hate her 🤺🤺 how dare you make me speak#NOW WE'RE WATCHING SOME OF LION KING COMPARING THEM HEHEHE i love the fun fact that lion king is an adaptation of hamlet#its a quite well known fact nowadays but in case you didnt know#lion king is an adaptation of hamlet 😚😚#hamlet and the tempest >>>> everything else#theyre my faaavveess#i really like literature#one of my broader special interests lmfao#i do have focuses#like shakespeare and marlowe#and then gothic fiction like dracula and frankenstein and jekyll & hyde and DORIAN GRAY#i fucking love dorian gray i have 5 copies 🤭🤭 possibly 6 i have a complete oscar wilde thing but i dont know if its just his plays or not#im very off topic but im trying to stop the autism panic by talking to myself about autism interests in tumblr tags lmfao#modern problems need modern solutions <3#the new and improved grounding technique#one of my favourite topic is the origins of vampires in literature 🤭#and how they went from mythical grave yard monsters to hot seductive nobility lmfao#OH FANTASTIC NOW SHES MAKING US SIT IN GROUPS AND TALK WOW I FUCKING LOVE THAT /SARCASM SARCASM SO MUCH SARCASM I WANT TO SCREAM AND RUN
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