#Tw binge

[whispytears]

Upgrading time!

(The GIF has no relevance, I thought it was cute).

Hey everyone! I have decided to make some changes to this account in order to bring in more traffic and more people into a non-toxic eating disorder community. I have been so happy with the interaction from the ed community. It is such an invisible disorder until it is not so I truly appreciate all of the invisible warriors (sorry if that sounds corny but it's true!) who support my content in any way. <3

Some changes I would like to emphasize:

There is now an anonymous "ask me" section. Feel free to ask about any recovery advice OR share some personal stories about a topic in the eating disorder community!

I will change the weekly polls to bi-weekly. The weeks in between will be a dedicated space for my followers/invisible warriors to share or ask questions about the ed-community.

Those are all of the changes for now. To keep full transparency I will blaze this post but it will be the last blazed post in a while. I want to reach out to as many people in the community who want to be a part of the good energy and vibes I intend to create on this blog.

<3

~whispy

[thelunarsystemwrites]

[TW Eating disorders of multiple kinds, like BED, Bulimia, and ARFID!]

(Also mentions of weight, guilt, food/eating!)

So... you know the bad time trio? Y-Yeah so uhm... like I migh'tve thought of something. Like another way to torment them.

So I might've thought of a real stupid AU, where I gave them each an eating disorder. (All coming from my personal experiences.)

So starting with Horror, he has BED, which stands for Binge Eating Disorder. Something he developed as a result to being in the underground, and starving for so long—He tends to think with a scarcity mindset. He finishes his food even if he's full, and a lot of foods are trigger foods for him to start binging. Also, he tends to hoard.

Killer, is suffering from Bulimia. I haven't quite decided why he does it, so I'm also going to go with trauma response. Like he constantly feels empty, he needed to feel anything else. And, listen—Only takes one time purging to get addicted to it. (<- speaking from experience there, I very much regret September 16th.)

Dust has ARFID, which stands for Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder. For him, it's a huge mixture of guilt and delusions that causes him such distress. He'll look down at many certain foods and can't stop thinking of someone he's dusted, can't stop seeing it as something he should not eat. It's textures, smells, tastes, looks—Which. He's dropped a concerning about of weight due to this.

Now, the thing is after the murder time trio figured out they're all terrible at eating. You wanna know what they did?

*Sharp inhale*

They formed a pack, one that was basically to help each other out when needed. If Nightmare or Cross (<- not an ED, but he does have an exercise addiction) ever got suspicious, they'd cover for each other, make up excuses when Dust wouldn't eat or why a whole pack of chips was gone the next morning after just being bought.

As for Nightmare... he is, incredibly suspicious of these three. He feels embarrassment and shame in the air when he asked who ate of last of something and it almost always comes from Horror.

He feels emptiness and frustration that comes shortly after Killer excuses himself from the table, Killer always excuses himself first.

And he feels sadness, fear, and guilt from Dust anytime he picks up a fork, fear.

And he doesn't know how to handle it, or what to do. They all look so... tired, and so exhausted and dinner time is so awkward and he hates not knowing what's wrong.

So the story would focus on Nightmare trying to get to the bottom of it, and once he figures out what's wrong, he'd ne focusing on trying to help them recover.

Now, he's not entirely sure how be would help them recover, but he's getting there.

AU credits!

[staristrying]

I gained an ungodly amount of weight (16 lbs 🤮), went from BMI 16 to BMI 20, and fell out of love with Ana and myself. I've never hated myself more. My grades improved but my looks went wayyy down

But hey at least I lost 1 inch from my waist 🙈

(I am not ok someone pls help me I miss my honeymoon phase)

~St☆r xoxo

[vampiricbisexuality]

You know when you’re so upset you don’t feel hungry.? Might 24+hr fast mifht binge who knows it’s a gamble

[im-in-trouble-3]

nutella will be my downfall

[biteofboredom]

Just saying that there are so many reasons why somebody might develop binge eating disorder.

None of them are 'lack of willpower' or 'being lazy'.

Some actual causes:

Restriction. Mental or physical. One of the main reasons I started bingeing was because I used to be anorexic and it backfired. This needs to be talked about more. (And yes, diets count as restriction)

Emotional regulation.

Food stims.

Boredom (another big one for me. Bingeing is a quick and easy way to relieve the awful boredom feeling.)

All or nothing thinking (I had this one thing, I'll eat everything now).

Being in an environment with a toxic attitude around food.

Just needing to feel something. Sometimes I just feel numb and bingeing is an easy fix.

[you-will-never-be-satisfied]

Kudos to my dad for buying me the “unhealthiest” foods knowing very well that I’m going to binge them in a couple hours because at least I’m eating. Don’t care if this is technically enabling, or that he shouldn’t let me live in a binge-restrict cycle, I love him so much. Like I’d buy them anyway on my own, it makes my parents a tad happy when I eat :)

[caloriecounter-ibarelyknowher]

i want to cry 😭

I have a stomach ache because I just couldn't stop eating

I ate a whole packet of maoams

then I ate a packet of crisps

and these crisps are disgusting

they're horrible

I've had them open for days because they're so gross

but I ate them anyway!?!? despite them being absolutely revolting

and then I ate a chocolate bar to 'get the taste outta my mouth'

I HATR IT

I HATE HATE HATE IT

ME

I'm so GROSS

[depressive-stimulant]

starving away the fat is great but i wish i could starve all my bones away too.

i don't think i will ever truly be skinny because of how broad-boned i am.

my ribcage and shoulders are too wide and there's nothing i can do about it :(

[whispytears]

Sometimes I miss who I was when my #ed was more controlling of my life. I was the type to use food as a reward to get stuff done. And I got a lot of shit done.

But then I slowly became my own bully, pushing my depression and self hatred to the edge.

Why wasn’t it ok for her to just eat?

🌸Don’t be your worst enemy.

~whispy

[thelunarsystemwrites]

Tw: purging/binge.

Honestly it's a pain in the ass to do. Would not recommend. I've been doing it since like sep 2022. And YEAHHH it's kinda satisfying after a binge, but then you just feel like shit. Also you get cold and it's uncomfortable.

[staristrying]

This binge-restrict cycle is so fucking tiring.

When will it be a restrict-restrict cycle???

~St☆r xoxo

[minniedream]

yesterday had such an urge to binge on fries and fried foods but didn't 🙏 haven't binged or had any oil in 2 months so im super happy, im hoping now i made it through yesterday i can keep going more easily. i certainly feel better and the urge to binge isn't back (yet anyway, its almost 8am here)

i think taking the 2 lorazepam before sleeping helped me calm down. i feel like i can stay strong again :)) yay i prevented a binge!!

[vampiricbisexuality]

also theres no way he told me that im going to binnge it all later💀

[leave-me-alone-please]

I hate everything

I am so stressed

Nothing is working out

I low-key binged because of the stress

Now I am even more stressed

Let's hope I get through the evening without throwing it all back up

[biteofboredom]

Stop posting shit like "ed content" or "relatable ed things" or whatever if by "ed" you only mean a restrictive one. Binge ED exists too. Stop excluding it.

(And no, including bulimia is not the same as including binge ed, they are different disorders. Either specify which ED you're talking about, or include them all.)