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nutella will be my downfall

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Any @na stoners? Feels like I'm the only one...( ಠ⁠_⁠ʖ⁠ಠ)

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so the same doctor removed “eating disorder” from my file bc a psychiatrist hasnt told me i have one.

woman. i eat less than a toddler. i assure you, i’ve got an eating disorder.

my doctor assumed that i wasn’t feeling well because i was eating too much and too fast on a constant basis. i’ve barely eaten in weeks and THAT is still what i fucking look like??? i told her no that cant be why im in pain, I DONT EAT. and she looked at me like i that couldnt possibly be true. told me 4n0rexic people were sickly thin and i wasn’t and got quiet when i told her that’s not true and that the majority of people with ed aren’t underweight

and she kept talking to me like me i was bülim1c and saying “so you throw up what you eat?” and i had to be like “fucking no, i. don’t. eat. what arent you hearing?”

do i still fucking look that big? i literally never wanna eat again i hate doctors

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my doctor assumed that i wasn’t feeling well because i was eating too much and too fast on a constant basis. i’ve barely eaten in weeks and THAT is still what i fucking look like??? i told her no that cant be why im in pain, I DONT EAT. and she looked at me like i that couldnt possibly be true. told me 4n0rexic people were sickly thin and i wasn’t and got quiet when i told her that’s not true and that the majority of people with ed aren’t underweight

and she kept talking to me like me i was bülim1c and saying “so you throw up what you eat?” and i had to be like “fucking no, i. don’t. eat. what arent you hearing?”

do i still fucking look that big? i literally never wanna eat again i hate doctors

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THE FRIENDS WERE TOXIC AND NOW NO ONES HERE TO NOTICE IS THIS A GOOD OR BAD THING NO ONE KNOWS

my friends are noticing my disordered eating 😰😱😭😓😧

... my friends are noticing my disordered eating 😏😫🥰😋🤩

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reblog for xm4s god help us all

there is literally no event worse than family dinners i stg

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ive decided to become a genderless entity that doesn’t require food that’s all good day

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just realized that i never learned how to be a person (clean my room, cook, even shower properly) because my parents never actually TAUGHT ME HOW i was just expected to know

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me when i realize i’ve lost 40 POUNDS THIS PAST YEAR????? AAAAAAAAAAA

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too real

Sometimes it feels like this.

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that feeling when you were wondering why you bother doing this to yourself and then you enter a honeymoon phase and ur like oh 😀

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old friends out, new friends,,, soon?

i think i need new friends

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i love looking around at a family function and seeing who got the tism and who didnt

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i think i need new friends

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ed tumblr is literally my double life. like my friends and family have no idea that i come on here to look for motivation to literally starve myself. i feel like hannah montana but with an eating disorder.