#TW weight

[cosmic-puppygirl]

lol people get so confused when i tell them i want to gain even more weight. they so quicky go from "heck yeah i love your chub body positivity!!" to "ohh uh...yeah ok" when i say i dont want to lose weight, and in fact would like to gain even more

[fish-bonezz]

“You have an 3at!ng d!sorð3r”

No, my special interest is loosing weight💕

[cal-by-cal]

Having an ed is so lonely. I want to talk to someone about it without them telling me to “stop” and that im “not fat”

[slavicskinnyend]

my account might tr!gg3r u. If this content is not for you, please leave. Tumbler makes me feel appreciated after years of being a f4t ass... I can finally write what I feel without fear of being sent to a psych ward. If you need help, write to me. Don't run towards ☆ving. Let me be myself, but I don't want you to be in my place.

Please stop sexualizing me, I feel disgusting...

[chained-to-the-mirror]

Health and wellbeing ponderings below the cut. If weight stuff triggers you, just look at this gorgeous winter sky and scroll on 🩵

I’ve been thinking about health a lot for a bit now. I’ve been quite tired over the holidays, and I also always get very tired at the beginning of the year (as I’m sure most of us do). This year I wanted to try and avoid that as much as possible, preemptively. 

I seriously overdid it with the sweet treats during and after Christmas, and as a result I have been very sluggish. Again, something many can relate to… I have stuck to my intermittent fasting as normal, but the things I’ve been eating during the eating window have been far from optimal. So, I think I ended up gaining back some of the weight I have gradually lost. I still don’t own a scale so I have no definitive way of knowing for sure, but I can feel the difference in some of my clothes. This alarmed me a bit, as weight gain always does. But more importantly: when I last had blood tests done (I think it was September), my ”bad” cholesterol was too high. Not a huge amount, but enough for my doctor to suggest things to lower it. This made me feel like I am failing a good human test - which is insane, but that’s how my brain works. As a fat person, I am not allowed to have health problems, because everything can be said to be caused by the excess weight. No matter how nonsensical, this is what I feel in my core at all times.

Anyway, after thinking it over a bit, I figured that I really should think of this as self care. I only have one body and it makes sense to keep it healthy and happy. So, after the holiday season passed, I decided I will try to do something. First, I downloaded an app for walking - which seems silly, but I need the external motivation. The idea is to walk every day, not a huge amount but enough to stay active. I’ve been doing this for a week now and I only have good things to say about it, really. And it hasn’t been as difficult to start as I originally feared. 

Second thing is a more tricky one, because of my history of eating disorders. In my fasting app, there has always been the option to log your meals as well, but I never used it before. Now, as an impulse, I decided to test the function. It’s very straightforward, and a lot of it relies on me posting a pic of my meal in the app. It analyzes and lists what it thinks is included, and offers those as a starting point. I can add things it doesn’t catch, and take out false suggestions. I can also change the portion sizes if the app is way off, but I’ve not been super particular with this because I’m not counting calories, and I’m not weighing my food. That was one of my most crippling issues during the ED years, and I will never go back to that. But the app is doing a lot of the thinking for me, and it gives me the thing I am most interested in, which is the amount of carbs, protein, and fat. Namely, getting enough protein and fat, because carbs are never going to be an issue. I want to get back to feeling good, and I will try this to see if it helps. So far it’s been a positive experience, and it encourages me to choose nutritious and wholesome stuff instead of constant feed of sugary treats. And I actually enjoy the taste of the things I eat, so it’s not just mindless devouring. I already feel a lot better, and it’s only been a week. I also know now that I’m doing what I can to be healthy, and that calms me a lot.

Another thing I’m trying to do as much as possible is eat more vegetables and fruit. I do alright with the fruit, but the veggies I really need to work at. Not because I don’t enjoy them (I love them actually) but mostly because I have not found natural ways to include them in my snacks and meals other than lunch, which is my main meal of the day. I always end up having the same side salad with lunch, and then basically bell pepper, cucumber, or cherry tomatoes with my other meals. If anyone has any good EASY options for this, I would love to hear them. I can only think of raw carrots, but I do not love eating them whole, and grating them would no longer be easy. Thankfully a lot of my lunches are vegetarian or at least leaning heavily of that side. I order a meal box service quite often, and the meals I pick from there are 99% vegetarian or vegan. This helps, but it would be good to have more veggies at EVERY meal.

I’m also eating a lot of gravlax currently - maybe not the best form to eat salmon in, but it works so well on rye bread. I have it instead of cheese a lot. And salmon is very good for me. Self care and all that.

I’m not sure why I wrote this? Maybe just to reach out and see if others are also dealing with the same stuff right now. It feels embarrassing to be a part of the New Year New Me phenomenon, but I hope that it lasts longer than till the end of January for me. 

If this sounds relatable to you, say hi in the replies. Or inbox me even. Would be nice to share experiences with someone.

[onlytiktoks]

[notinrecoveryy]

“You don’t need to lose weight!”

Says the girl with a flat stomach, thin thighs with a thigh gap, visible collarbones and hips, slim arms, and no face puffiness

[angels-stuffs]

How i imagine Ana

[gravitysoupbowl]

my ford body hcs though the years!!

[darkxandxlonelyy]

Ana wróć do mnie proszę..

[sugarnocarb]

[kwulmi]

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[chomchomm]

goal

[sibmakesart]

i have been for the last week doing brain dead hand only work and that had lead my brain to wonder to pretty angsty territory (work has lead to wondering, angst is just. me lmao.)

anyway how about time travel au 30sanji at rock bottom so depressed he doesnt cook anymore, left the crew, because he lost taste and smell (COVID AU)

[runawayfromdrakekids]

Nothing will change if you don’t start today.