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I dont typically like getting political on tumblr because I know the crowd of people who typically follow the fandoms I'm in. I know the crowd of people who usually pay attention to such fandom cultures in the first place, and I truly don't want to make myself such an enemy in anyone's eyes. But also, I don't want people irrationally scared that the new Hitler is coming to make their lives awful and oppress them in every way imaginable. Because to act like America is about to become Nazi Germany is to prove how out of touch you are with what other countries are doing and also just extra anxiety on your part that doesn't need to exist. I want your life to be less stressful, I really don't want anyone afraid for their life when it's unnecessary. Besides this "checklist" I want to comment on, remember that many changes aren't probably gonna feel very personal to you and while you might notice some slight differences, the day to day will probably be the same as it is through every presidential transition. Some things are cheaper/more expensive maybe, maybe your office or school has some slight alterations, but thats usually about it.
I don't hate anyone. I have met and become friends with more people I disagree with on a lot of important points than I do people I agree with on said issues. The scenarios in which I have met these people have allowed me to see how friendly, creative, and talented they are. It has also allowed me to see just how precarious and overdramatized interactions and relationships with them can be. This does not even include the internet or social media.
"Powerful and Continuing Nationalism" Americans value America first. A healthy country wants to succeed, and to want something to succeed you have to love it first. If you would prefer every other country over the one you live in, then don't live in it. But there is no logic in wanting a country to have influence and do better and actually progress whilst also despising its existence as a country. Plus, most of the "America first" sentiments don't pair with a "hurt other countries" sentiment. More like a "they can and should handle their own problems" one. If you can respect any amount of individual freedom, responsibility, or self pride, then you should be able to respect it on the national scale.
"Disdain For Human Rights" Its not that anyone in power at the moment disdains human rights. In fact, they know that within the government, every human has the right to pretty much everything. Anyone can run for office, vote, start a business, not be discriminated against as a potential employee or customer, and overall do pretty much whatever they like. What they don't want is those rights to be taken away because someone is offended or inconvenienced. Most republicans don't even actually mind trans people, they just dont want children permanently altered or women's safety threatened. If you have the right to sleep with whoever you want, dress however you want, and call yourself whatever you want then why shouldnt others have the right to live, be safe in their own spaces, consent to who gets to see their body, to their speech and opinions (offensive or not)? Those things can live side by side. In fact, the best you can do when it comes to human rights is not over manage speech. They should, however, manage some actions that can have harmful/permanent effects.
"Identification of Enemies as a Unifying Cause" This is clearly about illegal immigrants and trans people. Again, no one thinks trans people are the enemy. More so the ideology since overall it blatantly refuses the truth of sex, any self responsibility (you choose how you present yourself to people and how you manage your own thoughts and feelings), or any concern for others' feelings and safety that isn't a trans person. It would be like saying because someone hates depression they hate all depressed people. No. You as a person can still be good and deserving of all your human rights, but the ideas themselves aren't helpful to any society. Illegal immigrants aren't being threatened with mass genocide or really much violence at all. Rather, if they havent committed other crimes within the country that would deserve actual punishment they are simply facing return back to the country they came from. It is immoral to allow illegal immigrants in the country, not only for the safety of the citizens that the politicians swore to protect but also because it is exploitative. It's also dangerous to make it here, so why would you want to encourage people to risk their lives to come to a place where they can't enjoy all the rights of being a citizen?
"Rampant Sexism" As a woman, I can say with absolute certainty that I do not see one ounce of blatant sexism from the politicians coming into power and I certainly do not feel politically oppressed in any way. There are many other cultures where sexism is even worse, if you can even call anything in America actual sexism, but I'm sure it would be considered racist to make such a claim. Its not as if middle eastern women are fighting for their lives and education and equality or anything. Us Americans have it so bad because sometimes a man says something weird and gross. The most sexist thing I've ever come across on a societal scale within my life is the prioritization of men who say they're women over actual women. But we definitely don't see the new people in office supporting that sentiment.
"Controlled Mass Media" This is the only one I will give even the slightest ounce of credit, simply because I know the government would prefer Meta over other companies and they did ban tiktok/almost ban tiktok? In any case, if you can still get news from pretty much every political ideology, access any other social media website, shop at the "Banned Books" section of a book store, and access literally any other form of media that has existed throughout our history then your media is most likely not very controlled. The thing with social media specifically is that it is still so new so we will obviously need to figure out how to navigate that within our physical world but that isn't a sign of a fascist country, thats simply a sign that we are facing a rapid change in technology and don't know how to handle it yet. Its a great thing we have a constitution and hella rebellious citizens who will make finding the best, least oppressive solutions easier here than probably anywhere else on the planet!
"Obsession with National Security" The only reason there's a surge in national security is because there has also been a surge in threats against the security of this nation. Through many foreign nations and within our own borders. This country cannot be successful and cannot help any other country in the world if we are falling apart while we are doing it.
"Religion and Government Intertwined" There is a difference between politicians being religious and it actually being intertwined with our government. Most government policies made are based on our constitution and how we can best respect the rights given to us through it. The religion of any of the politicians is not going to become mandatory or oppressive to anyone not of that religion, because that is not the goal. Anyone can come up with the sentiment that they need to fix the way the government runs and protect the rights of their citizens. Yes, religion might influence some of their opinions on things and a few of their changes, but if you elect someone you have to accept that they have ideas about things. Thats just how it works. Overall, religion will not become permanently intertwined with the government or forced upon citizens.
"Labor Power Suppressed" Last I checked, you can get any job you want. Literally, you can quit any job you don't like, and just go find a new one. Not to mention they want to improve businesses and they know that the labor class is very vital to that.
"Rampant Cronyism and Corruption" Corruption is a vague word and a lot of the people in the new administration don't even agree on everything. The main thing they agree on is that they want to see America succeed and that they will respect the elected president's right to see that mandate through, as an elected official. How terrible of a president to hire people that don't hate him and won't sabotage the policy goals he was elected to see through.
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Looking more like a checklist these days. I want off this ride. 😭
#Sorry if this scares off some people#I really hope it doesnt#Because I genuinely like everyone I've spoken to#But I also can't help getting involved in the dialogue sometimes#politics#us politics
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♡⃟࿔ BETWEEN FEIGNED HATRED AND REAL DESIRE ♡⃟࿔
𑁤 Summary: You can't stand Jungkook, your brother's arrogant, cocky friend who is just waiting for an opportunity to annoy you. He always finds a way to get under your skin, and you were sure that what you hated more than him was the idea of having any feelings for him. But one accident changes everything. Left with him in a locked, cramped room, where every breath is a fire between you two, you realizes that you hatred has always been hidden behind something deeper. Something that cannot be denied, cannot be ignored.
𑁤 Couple: Jeon Jungkook/ The Reader, Jungkook • Y/N
𑁤 Age restrictions: 18+
𑁤 Size: one shot
𑁤 Tags: best friend brother, school au, y/n Hoseok sister, from enemies to lovers, sexual tension, unprotected sex, detailed description of sexual scenes, swear words, slightly domJK.
𑁤 Dedication: A late Valentine's Day gift 💘 @myjungkookthighs, @kelsyx33, @someoneelse0109, @mskookie, @kooccult, , @smokinghotstargirl , @curse-of-art, @rispwr, @kooko007, @medstudentlifestyle
𑁤 From author: Another of my fantasies that resulted in this, in my opinion, an interesting work. It seems that there are many such works, but you know each author writes in his own way 🥹💕 Therefore, please enjoy, this is a gift ( 🤫 Late gift) for Valentine's Day 💞🫶🏻💜
Your story seems is typical. You hated one of your brother's best friends. All five of the Bulletproof boys on your school's volleyball team were just perfect.
Namjoon, tall, strong, and very smart. Jin is tall, funny, and handsome. Yoongi is quiet, talented, and can always talk to you about anything. Jimin is cheerful, charismatic, and has a subtle sense of humor. Taehyung was synonymous with the word beauty, he was cute but also a tomboy.
And him. Jeon Jungkook. He was a walking nightmare who was hotter than fire, but had a temper that pissed you off. His favorite thing to do was to tease you. He would do just that when he came to your house to hang out at a party thrown by Hoseok, your brother, or when you were having lunch at school with your brother and a whole bunch of his friends sat down with you. Jungkook was always there. And you were literally sick of him.
There was tension between you because your conversation always ended with you screaming and wanting to scratch his face.
Today was Valentine's Day and you hated it. Why? Who wouldn't hate those sweet couples in love who kissed or hugged each other almost everywhere they went? Why are they so annoying on this particular day?
Physical education is over, the last class of the day. You took a shower and went to the locker room. The girls were all gathered together, talking, joking about Valentine's Day.
"Girls, let's each say who we would like to fuck today?" - Kim Sora, who was your bestie, suggested. Only the girls from your company were left in the locker room. They were all mostly cheerleaders, but you weren't. "I'd like Namjoon." - She says first. Everyone laughs and Hewon and Seolha say they would like Namjoon too.
"And I would like Yoongi. His aloof and almost bored behavior turns me on so much. I would know how to make him feel better." - Sejong says, and you burst out laughing. She's had her eye on Yoongi for a while now, but he's not paying attention.
"God, I can't decide between Taehyung and Jimin. They're both so hot, can I have both?" - Sumin asks. You laugh again as you put on your sweatpants. You look at yourself in the mirror.
"Y/N hope you'll forgive me, but I'd like to fuck your brother." - Arin says. You turn to her and grimace.
"Goshhh, Arin, I thought you had better taste." - The girls laugh, but you don't. You genuinely don't understand what girls find sexy about your brother. But fortunately, you don't have to.
"And you're Y/N? You're the only one who hasn't said yet." - Arin laughs and all the girls pay attention to you. You are a little nervous about their attention, and you walk back to the bench where your T-shirt was lying. You put it on.
"I don't know, I don't think I'm interested in any of the Bulletproofs." - You say casually.
"No, you're a liar." - Sora says, and you turn a sharp look at her. You raise your eyebrows. No. She's not going to tell you about him. "Girls, do you know who she dreams of fucking?" - Sora smiles slyly.
"Don't you dare talk about him." - You threaten your bestie , who breaks into an even more evil smile. All the girls squeal almost in unison.
"Who? Who is it?" - Arin squeals.
"Who is our impregnable ice queen dreaming about? Is it Yoongi?" - Hewon asked.
"Hey, Yoongi is mine!" - Shouted Sejong.
"No, I don't want your Yoongi!" - You said. You hurriedly started to pack your things so that you could run away before Sora said anything about him.
"No, it's not Yoongi." - Sora said. She was silent for a moment. You gave her an angry look and said with one lip, "I'm going to kill you." "It's Jungkook." - Sora finally said, and everything broke inside you. All the girls gasped.
"Jungkook?" - Hewon shouted out. "She hates him just as much as he hates her."
"I don't want him." - You said harshly. All the girls stared at you. "I barely live on the same planet as him, and you're saying this." - For some reason you were trying to justify yourself. And when you realized it, you decided it was better to leave. "Don't say stupid anymore like that. I'm going home." - You said more calmly. You stopped at the threshold and turned to Sora. "Sora, you are in trouble." - You smiled sweetly and hurried away.
You were so angry. You couldn't stand Jungkook, how could you want him? He was so horrible. You walk away with quick steps, clutching your bag. Your chest burns with anger mixed with shame. How could she do that? How could she say that out loud?
You raced down the path from the gym, clutching the straps of your bag so tightly that your knuckles turned white. Your heart was pounding and your cheeks were burning. Jungkook? Was it him? Why the hell would Sora say something like that in front of everyone?
You stopped, took a deep breath. You never want him. You can't stand him. He's been annoying you since the first day you met him. He's arrogant, self-confident, always sure of his own attractiveness.
And for some reason... You stopped abruptly when you saw him. Jungkook stood next to his motorcycle, wearing a black T-shirt that fit his muscular body and above it black bomber. He was twirling his helmet in his hands, and his eyes slid over you as if by accident.
Your face flushed even more. He raised an eyebrow.
"What?" - He said, smiling slightly. You took a step back in confusion.
"Nothing!" - You answered too sharply. His smile grew wider, almost impudent.
"You look..." - He tilted his head, studying you. "Tense."
"Go to hell, Jungkook." - You gritted your teeth and tried to walk away, but he quickly grabbed your wrist. You froze.
He took another step closer, leaning in so that you could smell his perfume. For some reason, your heart started pounding furiously.
"Wait." - He purred.
"Are you crazy? Let go of me. What do you want?" - You hissed, trying to pull your hand away, but he only squeezed your wrist tighter. His eyes darkened and a strange pleasure appeared in his voice.
"By any chance, were you thinking about me right now?" - His voice was as mocking as ever.
"You…!" - You choked with anger.
"Because you blushed." - He added hoarsely. Something tightened in your chest. You going to kill Sora.
"If you don't let go now, you'll lost your golden bells." - You threaten, and your face expresses absolute anger. He laughs, but lets go. Because you usually keep your words. You give him a scorching look and walk home.
You get almost home, and when you want to call your oppa, you are horrified to realize that there is no phone. You dig through your pockets and search your bag, but it's not there. Damn it, you must have left it in the locker room.
You swear about everything, cursing this day, and go back to school. It takes you at least 30 minutes to get to the locker room. Almost no one is in the school anymore. You look for your phone, but it's nowhere to be found. You swear again and try to figure out where you could have left it. You desperately searched for your phone in the locker room, under the benches, in your things. But it was nowhere to be found. Fuck!
You exhaled loudly and ran a hand through your hair. Someone must have found it by now and taken it away.
"Looks like that girl has sown something again." - You flinched at the familiar voice. You turned sharply to find Jungkook standing at the door, arms crossed over his chest.
"What do you want?" - You asked abruptly. He shrugged his shoulders.
"I saw you running like a madman. I figured you were in trouble again." - He said bored. But his gaze was absolutely focused on you.
"I'm not in trouble!" - You were indignant.
"Yeah, you're just running around grumbling to yourself." - Jungkook said with a slight smile. You rolled your eyes.
"I just left my phone here." - You said, irritated. Jungkook shrugged again, but suddenly started walking around the locker room, looking under the benches. You raised your eyebrows and watched him. "What are you doing?" - You asked.
"Helping you find it." - He said looking at the windowsill.
"I didn't ask you to. Get out." - You say harshly, turning away from him. Although for some reason you don't want him to leave. And you want to hit yourself for feeling this way.
"Come on." - He said, coming closer. You glanced over your shoulder. He put his hands in his pockets and tilted his head. "What's wrong with helping my best friend's sister."
You turned away and grimaced, but inside you still felt a little relieved.
A few minutes later, you walked out of the locker room, and you looked around again, trying to remember where else you might have left your phone.
"Maybe in the gym?" - Jungkook suggested.
"Maybe..." - You mumbled, holding a little further away from him. He silently turned around and headed that way. "Hey! I told you, I don't need your help!" - You said, trying to get rid of him.
"Then just don't follow me!" - He threw over his shoulder without even stopping. You gritted your teeth and followed him anyway.
The gym was empty. You walked around it, looked in all the corners, and suddenly Jungkook stopped at a small room with sports equipment.
"Have you looked here yet?" - He asks, peering in. He walks over and opens the door wider. "I saw you go in here in class to get a ball." - Jungkook remembers.
"I wouldn't leave it here." - You argue, coming up behind him. He turns his head toward you.
"I think we should check here too." - He said and went inside. You looked at him skeptically and followed him inside.
The storage room was small, filled with balls, mats, and other equipment. You cautiously walked around the small room. It was lit by a single small window, through which the rays of the setting sun were breaking through. While you were looking at the stand with the volleyballs, you suddenly heard something. A click. The door closed. And immediately there was a sound that made you freeze. A lock.
"No, no, no..." - You turned around jerkily and pulled the doorknob. But in vain. You heard footsteps outside.
"Yeah... I think this is the last one." - You heard a muffled voice. "Finally, all the rooms are closed."
You pressed yourself against the door.
"HEY! SOMEONE HELP US! SOMEONE IS HERE!" - You pounded on the door, but nothing seemed to happen. Jungkook laughed.
"Damn, that's funny." - He said leaning on the stand. You slowly turned your head to him.
"You think it's funny?" - You squeaked. He held up his hands. "We've been locked in here. And probably on purpose."
"Hey, calm down. It's an accident, who would lock us in here on purpose?" - He asked skeptically. You slammed the door with your palm.
"Damn it!!! You're to blame for this!" - You screamed.
"Me?" - Jungkook was genuinely surprised.
"You dragged me here!" - You countered. He laughed out loud.
"My baby, you chose to follow me." - Jungkook said defiantly through hysterical laughter.
"Don't call me that!" - You shouted. You were shaking with anger. You'd lost your phone somewhere, but worse than that, you were locked in a small room with a man you couldn't stand.
"What? 'My baby' this word makes you angry?" - He asked again and smiled again. You looked around frantically.
"We have to get out of here. Call someone, Hosoku or whoever, and get us out." - You said.
"Oh, of course we have to get out. Otherwise, you'll be stuck with me in a cramped room..." - He suddenly took a step closer. "...alone." - You clenched your fists. Reflexively stepping back to the door.
"Don't do this. Just pick up the fucking phone and call my brother." - You said.
"Don't do what?" - Jungkook stopped one step away. You took another step back. There must be a door somewhere. "I think you don’t want that I’m really calling to anyone." - He said, leaning closer. You froze. He smiled slightly, his gaze sliding over your face, then to your lips. "Even you don't mind?" - Your heart beat faster. But you had to control yourself. You clenched your teeth.
"If you don't shut up now..." - You threatened, losing what little self-control you had when Jungkook pinned his gaze on your lips and took another half step closer.
"What?" - He lowered his voice. You could hear the noise in your ears and the frantic pounding of your heart. Jungkook must have heard it too, because he suddenly smiled mysteriously.
"I'm going to kill you." - You tried to say in your usual tone. The one you used every time you spoke to Jungkook. But as he stood so close and looked at your lips, you heard your voice break.
"Really?" - He asked. You suddenly realized the gravity of the situation and seemed to see yourself from the outside. You were like an antelope being caught by a lion.
You were ready to kick him, but he suddenly grabbed your wrist and sharply pushed you against the front door. Your heart was pounding even faster. His face was close. Too close.
"If you hate me so much..." - His voice was hoarse. "Why are you embarrassed next to me?" - You wanted to protest. You don't get embarrassed next to him. He always annoys you, and all you do is get angry and yell at him. Jungkook leaned in even closer, his lips near your ear. "If I kiss you now, will you push me away?" - He whispered. You felt his breath on your skin and knew he was playing with you. But what was even worse was that, against your will, you began to like this game.
You leaned back against the front door, your pulse pounding in your temples, and Jungkook's breath barely touching your skin.
"I'll push you away." - You gritted out, trying to raise your hands to push him away, but he grabbed them and pinned them behind your back, intertwining your fingers. You tried to get free, but he held you tighter. His closeness and the smell of his perfume made your legs go limp. He smiled.
"Oh, you do?" - He asked boldly. Your nails dug painfully into his palms.
"Don't play with me, Jungkook." - You threaten, looking into his eyes filled with mischief. "I'm going to tell Hoseok that you were hitting on me." - Jungkook giggled softly.
"You won't." - He said confidently. "Because you like what I do." - His lips were almost touching your ear. You flinched, but tried to pull away from him anyway.
"I don't like it. You're too confident." - You said firmly. He pressed even closer, and then... backed away. You were breathing heavily, trying to catch your breath. Jungkook had stirred up something in you that you weren't supposed to feel before.
"Do you want me to stop to make fun of you?" - He suddenly asked. You raised your eyebrows and shifted on your feet.
"What?" - You asked quietly. Jungkook smiled predatory.
"I suggest we end this here. Once and for all. Here's the deal. You do one thing I ask and I'll never make fun of you again." - He offered. It sounds tempting. The prospect of getting rid of Jungkook forever is too tempting.
"What are you suggesting?" - You ask sharply.
"Kiss me." - He says. You are frozen. But then you almost laughed.
"Are you silly? What kind of nonsense is that?" - You laugh. Jungkook takes a step forward and you don't take your eyes off him.
"Just kiss me and this will be over." - Jungkook says. You clench your jaw. Should you kiss him? Only if the world ends.
"I won't..." - You say indignantly. Jungkook is close again, and your pulse is pounding in your temples.
"Why, are you scared?" - He smiles even wider. "Do you think you'll like it?"
You grit your teeth. He dares you. He's just playing with you. He won't leave you alone even if you kiss him now. The thought of kissing him is driving you crazy. If you do it now, he'll laugh forever.
But...
Why did your hand suddenly almost jerk forward? Why did his gaze seem to evoke something hot and uncontrollable inside you? You took a deep breath. Could he be serious now? You don't know if you can trust him one hundred percent, but for some reason you think he's serious.
"Okay." - You finally agree. Jungkook raises an eyebrow.
"What?" - His voice is pure surprise. You took a step toward him, grabbed him by the collar of his bomber jacket, and go on your tiptoes, slowly reaching for his lips... You could almost feel his warmth when he pulled away at the last moment.
You froze. You opened your eyes and saw his sly smile.
"You..." - You said quietly, boiling with rage. He laughed, brazenly, smugly, his eyes sparkling with pleasure. How humiliating.
"So you really want to kiss me? You said you didn't like it. You didn't really think I'd let you do it that easily, did you?" - The blood rushed to your head.
"You... asshole." - You punched him in the chest, but he just laughed.
"Oh, I'm sorry, you were so determined to kiss me. Did you really? You hate me so much and you wanted to kiss me?" - He asks through his laughter. You got even more angry and started to hit him, but he quickly caught your arms and turned you around, pinning you against the wall again. He pinned you from behind and you felt his crotch pressing against your ass. You were breathing fast.
"That's enough, baby. I don't want to fight you." - He mumbled in your ear. His fingers tightened around your wrists, which he had pinned against the wall. "I thought you were so cold..." - His voice dropped to a whisper. "But you're heating up faster than I thought."
"Let go of me." - You hissed, wriggling away. But he didn't listen.
Instead, he turned you around and before you could realize it, he was kissing you. Hotly, greedily, so that your breath hitched and your thoughts were mixed. He pressed against you harder, and you... You didn't push him away.
On the contrary, your fingers tightened involuntarily on his bomber jacket. You hated him. But... You wanted it.
When he pulled away from you, his lips were still barely touching yours, and his voice sounded bold and deep at the same time.
"Should we stop?" - He asked. You were breathing heavily, your mind screaming no, but your body was reaching forward treacherously. His gaze burned you. Deep, dark, filled with something that made your body stiffen and your heart pound furiously in your chest.
Jungkook's lips barely touched your cheek, then slowly slid down to your jawline. His breath is hot and tickles your skin, making you shiver.
"I knew it." - He whispers. "You're not pushing me away."
"I..." - You stutter, not sure what to say. His hands, warm and strong, slid down your body. He slipped his hand under your sweatpants and squeezed your buttocks as if he didn't want to let go, as if he wanted to leave a mark on you-not just on your skin, but deeper, somewhere you'd never let him touch.
"Mmm?" - His lips touched your ear. "What are you going to say now?" - You wanted to say that this was a mistake. That you didn't want this. But your breath gave you away. Deep, shuddering, with an echo of desire. Jungkook smiled slightly, his other hand slowly moving up along your waist, tugging at the fabric of your T-shirt. "Do you want me to stop?"
His lips descended to your neck, a light bite, a burnt touch of his tongue that sent an electric shock through your body.
"Tell me..." - He demanded, grabbing your chin, forcing you to look into his eyes. You couldn't say no. Because your fingers had already slid over his chest, you could feel the muscles rippling under the fabric, and your body was treacherously searching for him.
"Jungkook..." - His name sounded almost pleading on your lips.
And before you knew it, his lips were on yours again, even hotter, even more greedy. This kiss was no longer a game. It was real. And you already knew you had given in.
His hand that had been squeezing your buttocks slid down your thighs and came to your front. Without taking his lips from yours, he parted your folds and touched your clit with his fingers. You unconsciously moaned into his mouth. He smiled into your lips.
He massaged your clitoris so gently and so wonderfully that you thought that if he hadn't been holding you down, you would have fallen over. The circular movements on your sensitive center were driving you crazy.
Jungkook plunged his fingers into your passage and finally pulled away from your lips. You were both breathing heavily, very close together. You felt his hard cock resting against your thigh.
"You're so wet for me, baby." - He whispers breathlessly. You can't speak, because the friction from his fingers prevents you from doing so. "Do you want more? I can fuck you right now." - Jungkook offers. You raise your eyebrows, moaning softly. Jungkook pulls up your t-shirt to reveal your breasts.
You're not wearing a bra. You didn't put it on after gym class because you were sweating and didn't want to wear a dirty bra. You didn't plan to go back to school, but you forgot your phone.
"I've always wondered what those nipples taste like." - Jungkook hummed and leaned over to one of them. His lips captured your sensitive flesh and sucked. You felt him smile. You held his shoulders and tried not to go crazy with his skillful fingers inside you.
"Jungkook..." - You called out to him. He didn't answer. He just moved to your other nipple and played with it with his tongue. "Please..." - You breathed out. The Jungkook left your nipple and you felt the cold air contrasting with the licked nipple.
"What is it baby?" - He asked into your lips then. But suddenly he pulls his hand out and puts his fingers into his mouth. You breathe heavily and watch him suck his fingers soaked in your cum. "You really want me to fuck you?" - Jungkook wants to make sure. You bite your lip, unable to say it out loud. But yes. You do want him to fuck you.
Jungkook glanced between your bodies. His hard cock was already resting against your pussy. He made a few thrusts and you squeezed his clothes harder.
"Go ahead and say it, or I won't continue." - He says tensely. A hush escapes your lips.
"You're lying." - Suddenly, your voice cuts through. "You won't be able to stop now." - Jungkook laughs. You're so damn right. He's either going to fuck you or…he's going to fuck you.
"You're such a smart girl. But you have to let me." - He warns you gently. But you don't answer right away. You think again that this could be a joke. What if will you let him now and he walks away again? And then what? Or you'll let him fuck you now and he'll tell someone that you begged him.
"Do you want me?" - You asked, instead of letting him. Jungkook pulled away and looked into your eyes. He saw how much you wanted him. He wanted you too, your question was so stupid.
"Isn't it obvious?" - He asked with an arched eyebrow. You ran your fingers down his neck, took out his hair and dipped it in your hands, stroking it.
"Just say it. Do you want to fuck me right now?" - You asked, smiling seductively. Jungkook smiled back reflexively. His eyes grew darker.
"Fuck it!" - He cursed. "Yeah. I want to fuck you so hard you can't sit up." - He said with anticipation in his voice. He put his hands on your hips and squeezed them. You smile satisfied, now you can let him.
"Then do it Jeon." - You say and his lips crash against yours. His tongue enters your mouth and finds yours. You get even wetter from his kisses. You want more and he just promised you.
Jungkook breaks your kiss and in one swift movement leaves you without your sweatpants and panties. He falls to his knees in front of your pussy and his eyes are filled with lust. You breathe raggedly looking down at him. You could never have imagined such a picture in your head. Jungkook smiles at you from the corner of his lips and presses his lips to your pussy.
You grab his shoulders and squeeze them. A moan escapes your lips as his tongue traces long streaks across your folds. Your legs tremble as he sucks on the tip of your clit, and you are just in bliss. You press your head against the door and your moans fill this cramped room.
Jungkook sucks hard on your clit. At one point he plunges his fingers back into your passage to stretch you. You are almost going crazy. It's the first time you've ever been eaten, and it feels so fucking good. Jungkook's skillful tongue takes you to heaven. It doesn't take long for you to come right on his tongue. He feels you twitching and spends some more time his tongue on your clit enjoying every drop of you.
You stop twitching and he finally pulls his lips away from your pussy. You look down at him, breathing heavily. You see his chin shining with your juices.
Jungkook stands up, wiping his chin with his hand. He takes your neck with his hand, pulling you closer.
"As expected, you are as sweet as honey. I should have tasted you sooner. But you hated me." - He says and then kisses you. He puts his tongue in your mouth so you can taste yourself. And it turns you on.
Not one of your boyfriends you've dated has ever eaten you because they thought it was not normal. Even though blow jobs are commonplace for them.
But Jungkook, did it in the first. You've heard about it from your friends and have been dying to try it. You want to laugh at the thought that the first person to eat you was Jungkook and he did it so damn well.
"If I had known that your tongue could do more than just talk nonsense, I would have been more sympathetic to you." - You said with a seductive smile as Jungkook broke your kiss so you could breathe in. He laughed, sincerely and infectiously. You laughed along with him. "So what? Do I have to do to make you feel good?" - You ask and reach for his pants. Jungkook is also wearing sweatpants, so your hand sinks inside without any obstacles, successfully passing through his boxers.
Jungkook pulls away slightly and lowers the looking between your bodies. He only sees your hand disappear somewhere in his pants, but when you feel his length and your fingers pump up the it, he barely holds back a moan. You arched your eyebrows and pretended to look like "not bad."
"You're bigger than I might imagined." - Jungkook looks up at you and smiles cockily. "I thought that if you had such a long tongue, your dick was tiny." - You mock. You couldn't let this opportunity go to waste. Jungkook didn't appreciate your joke. He grabbed your face gently with one hand and he another hand leaned against the wall to steady himself.
"You're going to regret thinking that. Because my cock will make you scream." - He said powerfully against your lips, but you weren't afraid, you smiled playfully,. Before you can say anything in your defense, Jungkook kisses you again. Insistently, authoritatively, and deeply, as if he trying to prove something to you. You pull down his pants and boxers below his buttocks to have a better opportunity to jerk him off.
Jungkook moans into your mouth as you speed up your movements. He's getting hard in your hands and you can feel it well.
Jungkook pulls away from your swollen lips with all his might and stops you.
"That's enough, you better give me your pussy so that you realize how wrong you were." - You smile at his words and let him. He turns your back to him. You hear him moving behind you, obviously pulling his pants down. You press your hands against the door and wait for that moment.
Jungkook takes his cock in his hands and pumps you on buttocks several times. He slams it into your buttocks and you breathe heavily. He touches your folds with his fingers, runs them over your pussy to smear your moisture.
You finally feel the head of his cock touch your entrance. You hold your breath. Jungkook leans down to your ear and whispers one last time.
"Please be quiet, so the whole school doesn't hear you screaming from my cock." - He grabs your head and turns you around to kiss you. Your mind is foggy with lust, excitement, and his words.
Finally, you feel pressure on your passage. Jungkook holds your hips. Slowly but surely, he plunges into you. You feel pain when only his head is inside. You scream out, which makes him smile.
"So you're already regretting thinking that?" - You hear his voice somewhere behind you. You say something unintelligible and then scream again as he presses harder. His cock is really big. The biggest you've ever had inside you. Jungkook hisses. "Fuck you're tight, so tight, baby." - You want to smile but you can't, it hurts. Jungkook finally takes over completely. You both freeze to get used to the sensations. Your hot breath leaves marks on the door.
"That feels so fucking good." - You say quietly, so Jungkook doesn't hear that his cock makes you feel so good.
"Are you okay baby?" - He asks leaning down to your cheek. You smile because you're glad he didn't hear what you said a moment ago.
"Yeah. Everything is fine." - You say honestly.
"Then get ready. Because I'm going to fuck you hard." - He warns. Jungkook straightens up and moves his hips. You bite your lip to keep from screaming. The first movements are painful. The next ones are pain mixed with pleasure. And when Jungkook sets a good pace, you feel absolute bliss. You can't stop moaning. He moves his hips so well creating exactly the friction you like.
But Jungkook doesn't stay gentle for long, at some point his thrusts become sharper, deeper. His fingers touch your thighs with a certain force. The cock presses into you as much as possible and you feel he shudders in your middle.
The sensations are simply incomparable. He is so good at this. Jungkook fucks you perfectly. Like no other. It's just nonsense. The best fuck you've ever had is not with someone you love, it’s with Jungkook, who you hate, and not on white sheets, but in a school in the small room with sports equipment. It's crazy.
"That feels so fucking good. Baby, you're just perfect for me." - Jungkook compliments you. He finds your clit with his hands and you can't stand the stimulation.
"Koo... please..." - You say between exhaling moans.
"What did you call me?" - Jungkook asks as he continues to fuck you. You feel a sweet bliss brewing in your lower abdomen.
"Koo..." - You moan his shortened name.
"Damn... You can call me that whenever you want to fuck." - He offers. You raise your eyebrows and open your mouth. Does he think this is not your only time? Right now, you're almost on the verge of cumming around him. And you think that you wanted it to be more than once, too. You want this amazing sex was constantly. But what will happen when you come out from this room, and you finally realize what you've done.
But the knot in your stomach unravels and you come, clutching Jungkook's cock. He's cursing behind you, and you can feel you squeezing him. He slaps his hips mercilessly, his balls slamming against your ass, and the sinful slaps drive you crazy. Jungkook pulls out abruptly and he comes. His cum spills all over the floor and his hands.
You turn around and see him cumming. He looks over at you when he stops spewing his cum.
You are both breathing heavily. Jungkook pulls on his boxers and pants, which he has slightly polluted. You put on your thong and pants and are afraid to look up at him. Jungkook looks at you and a confident smile spreads across his face. You pretend to fix your clothes.
"You have wipes? We're did a little a mess here." - He says and you hear a smile in his voice. You reach for the bag, but your hands are shaking. The warmth of his touch is still pulsating on your skin, and your breathing seems heavier than it should be.
Jungkook seems to sense your state, so he takes his time. He watches you take out the napkins, how you avoid his gaze, and smiles smugly.
"Are you always this quiet afterwards?" - His voice drops to an almost purring tone.
You start to get angry again, but instead of answering, you just toss him the package of napkins. He catches it with one hand and runs the other through his hair, causing the dark strands to become even more disheveled.
"Are you always this obnoxious afterwards?" - You snap back, finally looking up at him. He wipes his hands and the remaining cum on the floor. He stands up. Jungkook tilts his head to the side as if he's considering your question.
"I don't know." - He slowly moves closer, making you take a step back. "But I know I want to do it again." - Your heart jumps into your throat.
"There's not going to be another time." - You say sharply, straighten your clothes, and pretend nothing happened. Even though you want there to be another time. Jungkook laughs again. Deep, low, and this sound makes you even more confused.
"Why not? You liked it." - He states. You clench your jaws and look at him with a challenge.
"Don't you have anyone else to have fun with?" - You ask. He takes another step, and now there are barely a few centimeters between you. His eyes are dark, attentive, and something dangerous is burning in them.
"No. It's just you now." - He says. Your breath catches in your throat. He kisses you and you don't resist. What could that mean? Is this an invitation to fuck without obligation? But he's so annoying when he doesn't fuck you, how do you deal with it? He pulls away from your lips.
"Just don't tell anyone. This will be our secret. You don't want your brother to kill me, do you?" - Jungkook asks, he strokes your cheekbones. You laugh slyly.
"Half an hour ago, I was dreaming about it." - You admit honestly.
Jungkook smiles, and you see something triumphant in his eyes. You hate it - how he always wins your verbal battles, how he always knows which buttons to push to get you off balance.
But you hate it even more the way your heart jumps out of your chest at his proximity.
"So now you don't dream of my death anymore?" - He touches a strand of your hair as if it were something familiar, as if he had a right to do so. You cross your arms over your chest, trying to maintain control. His fingers slowly slide from your hair to your chin, and he lifts it slightly, forcing you to look directly into his eyes. "Don't worry, baby. I'll have time to make you dream of other things." - He says this with such confidence that your skin crawls with goosebumps. You pretend not to feel it.
"We'll see." - You snap back. Jungkook lets you go. He takes a step back and then pulls your phone out of his pocket.
"I forgot to tell you that I found your phone earlier." - He smiles, and you are frozen with shock. So he set this up? You blink, not fully believing his words.
"You... you found it earlier?" - Your voice trembles a little with anger.
"Yeah." - Jungkook throws the phone to you, and you automatically catch it. "I wanted to see what you'd do when you went back to look for him."
You squeeze the phone in your hand, feeling indignation boiling inside.
"You asshole!" - You punch him in the shoulder, but he doesn't even move, just smiles smugly.
"Maybe a little. But we've had fun, right?" - He takes his phone out of his pocket now. "Let's get out of here."
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pls i need more soft rafe 🧎🏾♀️ i feel like people barely writes for him all soft and cutie
◜ RAFE CAN’T FOCUS ᪖ during movie night ᮫ ۪ ۫ ֢
༝ ﹆ softie rafe ༝ ⊹ ᰍꫬ distracted rafe ༝ ੭
you playfully shoved rafe’s hand when it went to lie on you again. you glanced over to see him lull his head onto the back of the couch, upset after another failed attempt. you giggled at his slight pout, “at least the first ten minutes” you referred to the film you put on for you two to watch. it was a favorite of yours and you wanted to introduce it to him. “’m down” he had said. but seeing you in your cute pj set all snuggled up next to him, made him distracted.
“just give me a brief synopsis so i know what i’m watching . . i’m paying attention, i just wanna . . pay more attention . . ” you watched as his brows slowly furrowed and a from formed on his face as his sentence went on. he didn’t even know what he was talking about.
you nodded, going along so you two could just start the movie. “so, they’re starting their first senior year of high school. well, at least she is. you’ll figure out why he technically isn’t later . . ” you were cut off by rafe gripping the bottoms of your set. “where’d you get this from? i want to put you in more.”
you grabbed his hand, putting it back onto his lap. “were you listening?” you huffed out. rafe looked up to you, “yeah, she’s a senior, he isn’t . . what?” rafe realized your words.
you giggled, “no, they’re both seniors, he just . . well, you’ll see. anyway . .” rafe halted your words again, “no, seriously, what store? you look so cute like that explaining your favorite movie. i could listen to you talk about anything. i’d believe anything you say. i don’t even have to watch the movie, you just tell me everything and i sit here and stare at you. is that an option?”
you froze, hands mid gesture while explaining. “no . . not an option” rafe’s head slung down. he sighed, “yeah, i figured.”
“rafe!” you grabbed his face, getting closer to him by shuffling forward on your knees, “it’s not that hard! it’s a good movie. watch this one, then we can do whatever you want.”
you’d thought that would tempt him. but instead . . “i really like when you touch me. have i ever told you, your hands are so soft, and i might be one of those physical touch people. but i only want touch from you, all the time. what is that called?”
you sat, staring at him. “um . . obsessed.”
rafe nodded in your hands. “yeah, that’s it. i like touching you too . . ” he pulled your waist, head coming down onto your neck. you felt him take a breath. “and you smell good. jus’ wanna cover you in bites. can i, please?”
you sighed, not understanding how you two strayed from the movie this much. “so . . no movie?” rafe’s head came up, frowning at the look on your face. “no, we’re watching this movie. my baby wants to watch this movie, we’ll watch it. she gets anything she wants.”
you couldn’t help the smile that formed, “okay, yay. will you actually focus?” you rose your brow at him, mockingly serious.
“yep,” rafe rose his hands in surrender, “no touching . . ” he quickly put his hands back onto your waist, “actually, no. got to touch.”
you giggled out a, “fine,” and turned in his lap to continue the movie. “comfy?” you asked.
“of course,” you heard from behind you. “great. there’s four more movies after this.”
“there’s what?”
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my love, mine all mine.
eren yeager x black female reader (bestfriend)
warnings: oral sex, fluffyness, jealous eren, soft sex, eren is kinda a nerd, creampies and a tight grip super soaker
enjoy and happy late valentine’s day!! :))
You were buried in your textbooks at your campus library, the various pages spread out before you. Psychology. An interesting major if you say so yourself. You thought it’d be simple enough: learning about how the human mind works and what makes people tick. It was fascinating, really.
And yet here you were, hunched over on the slightly uncomfortable chair, trying your hardest to remember exactly what your professor meant by “cognitive dissonance” and how it related to human behavior. You could feel your mind starting to wander as you tried to read through this particularly dense section.
Your focus was absolute, trying to absorb as much as you could for your upcoming midterm. The world outside this small corner you had found didn’t exist—just you and your thoughts. The peace and quiet here were comforting. It was rare that you could study without distractions and were determined to take full advantage of it.
You sighed and momentarily leaned back in your chair, the quiet hum of the library your only companion. The chair creaked slightly as you stretched, glancing out the window. Students were scattered everywhere, likely heading to their next class. The soft light from the afternoon sun cast a gentle glow through the glass, and you found a certain beauty in it.
You’re about to head back to your studies when something interrupts you. Someone, actually.
A shadow loomed over your desk, casting a slight imbalance in your peaceful space. A little startled, you looked up to see a tall figure standing beside you. You didn’t need to look too hard to recognize him—Eren—your best friend since grade school.
You blinked, a bit caught off guard. He wore a white wife beater that clung to his frame a little too tight. His jeans looked worn, with traces of dirt hinting at a long work day. A mechanic’s job was never exactly pristine, you guessed. He must’ve just gotten off his shift.
“You studying?” his voice smooth like it always was when he was trying to get your attention.
You couldn’t help but roll your eyes softly. “What does it look like?” You gestured to the open textbooks and scattered notes with a slight flush. You mentally, thank God, it wasn’t visible. “Psych is kicking my ass. I’m starting to wonder why I thought this would be easy.”
He leaned against the edge of your table, his arms crossed. His recent gym visits have been seriously paying off, and it’s impossible not to notice. You look away from him and face your laptop, determined not to let him catch you staring. “Maybe you thought you could magically understand the human psyche,” he’s teasing you like he always does.
You shot him a half-smile, unable to resist his charm. “Yeah, that’s exactly what I thought,” sarcasm dripping from your voice. “But I’m pretty sure I’m about to fail the midterm at this rate.”
He stifles a snicker. “Nah, you’re too smart for that.” He pushed himself off the table, walked around to the chair next to you, and sat down casually. “You’ll figure it out. You always do.”
You tried not to let his proximity distract you, but it was hard. Downright impossible. His scent—a mix of motor oil, the fresh air from his work, and something else uniquely him—was all around you now. It was distracting. Stubborn that you are, you brush it off. Doesn’t mean anything. You shifted in your seat, pretending to focus on the words on the screen. Focus.
“So, what exactly is giving you the most trouble?” his gaze never leaving you.
You exhaled deeply, closing your textbook with a slight thud. “Theories of personality,” you said, pinching the bridge of your nose in frustration. “I just can’t wrap my head around it. Freud and Jung… are so complicated. Like, how are we supposed to remember all this?”
He gives you an uncommitted hum and starts explaining it to you. Eren had this ability to make anything he said sound convincing, even if it was complete bullshit. You suppose it’s his confidence.
He was close. Too close.
He leaned in when describing Freud, his arm brushing against yours as he pointed at your notes. The warmth of his bare skin sent a shiver down your spine, but you forced yourself to focus on the words he was saying and not the way his voice sounded when he spoke so close to your ear.
His eyes stayed on you even as you stared down at your notes. They were sharp as if he were studying you more than the material before you. He tilted his head slightly, watching the way your lips parted in thought, the way your fingers tapped absently against the notebook as you processed what he had just explained.
He always thought you were beyond beautiful.
“You just need to simplify it,” he interrupts his own thoughts from going further.
He never hesitated to break the invisible barriers most people respected. You had never minded before. At least, you told yourself you didn’t.
When he finally finished his explanation, you blinked at him, momentarily caught off guard by how easily he made it all make sense. For a second, you forgot how smart he was.
���Okay, that helps,” you murmured, scribbling down his words before they slipped from your mind. You could still feel his gaze on you, but you kept your focus trained on the paper in front of you, trying to ignore how your fingers suddenly felt clumsier holding the pen. “I forget you have an almost 4.0.”
Eren leaned back, stretching lazily, the movement drawing your attention to the way his muscles flexed beneath his shirt. What is wrong with you today? He simply shrugged, “I’m just that good.”
That twinkle in his eyes—that mischievous glint he always had after saying something cocky—made your stomach flip in a way that annoyed you. You were used to it, used to him, but lately, it felt different. Lately, you were noticing too much.
His voice softened just a little as he added, “But, seriously, you’re gonna ace this thing. I believe in you.”
You forced yourself to roll your eyes, but the small, grateful smile you gave him betrayed you.
“Thanks, Ren,” you said quietly, tapping your pen against your notebook, something you picked up as a nervous habit. You cleared your throat, needing to shake the feeling away. “I trust you or whatever.”
“Good,” he replied instantly, watching you a beat longer than necessary. “But if you fail, I’ll take the blame.”
You let out a small laugh, shaking your head. “Sure. I’ll blame the nigga who cheated his way through high school but somehow knows more about psychology than I do.”
His smirk widened, and instead of arguing, he gave you a wide smile, looking way too pleased with himself.
⋆𐙚₊˚⊹ ᡣ𐭩 ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹ ᡣ𐭩
The library had started to empty out after a few hours, the quiet hum of students packing up their things filling the space around you. You sighed, stretching your arms over your head as you finally closed your textbook. “I think that’s enough psych for one night,” you muttered, rubbing your eyes.
Eren, who had been scrolling through his phone while waiting for you to finish, pushed off the table with a lazy grin. “Took you long enough.”
You rolled your eyes but didn’t argue, stuffing your belongings into the LV monochrome bag Eren had gotten you for your birthday last year. He sees it as a way of staking his claim on you. He fell into step beside you effortlessly as you walked out of the library, the cool evening air from the hallway AC brushing against your skin.
“You actually gonna remember any of that next week?” he asked, nudging your shoulder.
You huffed. “I’d like to think so.”
He snorted, shaking his head, but before he could get another jab in, a voice called out your name from just ahead.
You both turned in unison.
A guy. From your psych class—tall, almost matching Eren’s height, though not quite—was making his way toward you. His curls were neat, framing his face in a way that made him look effortlessly put together. His skin was fair, and his smile was easy and friendly.
He was dressed in a fitted long-sleeve shirt, the fabric clinging just enough to suggest he worked out but not in a way that screamed it. The sleeves were pushed up to his elbows, revealing forearms that were toned. It was paired with gray sweats. He was cute.
His hands were shoved into his pockets, his stride unhurried as he approached, like he had all the time in the world. His gaze flickered between you and Eren briefly before settling on you, his smile widening just a touch as he finally spoke.
“Didn’t mean to interrupt, but I just wanted to catch you before you left.”
You blinked in surprise, vaguely recognizing him in lectures from a few rows ahead of you. He was one of those students who always had the answer, constantly engaged in class discussions. A teacher’s pet almost. You never really talked outside of the occasional group work.
Your best friend shifted beside you. His arms remained loosely crossed over his chest, but there was a new stiffness in his stance, as if he was suddenly more aware of his own posture. His weight shifted slightly from one foot to the other, his jaw ticking just the slightest bit. You didn’t think much of it at first—Eren was always fidgeting in some way.
You tilted your head slightly, blinking up at the guy. “Oh—what’s up?”
He hesitated just a second as if gathering the nerve, before rubbing the back of his neck with a small, almost sheepish smile. “I, uh… I’ve seen you in class a lot, and, well… I was wondering if you’d wanna grab coffee sometime? Maybe this Saturday?”
There was a beat of silence.
Your brain took longer than usual to process what he said. It wasn’t like people never asked you out, but something about this moment—maybe the unexpectedness of it, maybe the presence of Eren beside you—had you hesitating.
Your best friend, however, didn’t hesitate at all.
You felt the way his jaw tightened, just a tiny twitch, but you noticed it because you always notice things about him. His stance changed, going from casually relaxed to something more grounded, like he was unconsciously bracing himself. Learning Psychology does pay off in some cases.
His voice, when it came, was firm.
“Sorry, we have plans that day. Don’t we, (꣑ৎ)?”
Your eyes flickered toward Eren, surprise flashing across your face, but he didn’t look at you. His gaze remained locked on the guy in front of you, his expression is unreadable. His green eyes, usually lazy and half-lidded with amusement, were hardened now in a way that sent a clear message. She’s unavailable.
It seems the guy wasn’t so easily deterred. He hesitated only for a second before his strained smile returned, a little tighter than before. “Oh. Sunday, then?”
His voice was lighter, forcedly casual—like he was only picking up on the tension in the air.
You barely had time to open your mouth, to form even the beginning of a response, before Eren spoke for you. Again. Are you just invisible?
“No can do,” his tone leaving no room for argument. “She has a midterm coming up that she needs to study for.” His head tilted slightly, almost like he was appraising the guy in front of him, before adding, “Speaking of, you should be catching up on that too, right?”
The question wasn’t really a question, that much you knew.
The guy stood there, blinking, an almost shocked look on his face, as if he wasn’t quite sure what to say. His mouth opened slightly before closing again, and for the first time since approaching you, he seemed genuinely unsure of himself.
Eren, more than satisfied with that reaction, barely gave him another second to recover before turning toward you. “We’ll be leaving now,” he said simply.
And just like that, he placed a hand against the small of your back, steering you down the hallway without so much as another glance at the guy he had just dismissed. You walked in silence, your mind racing, but you held your tongue, deciding to wait until you reached your dorm room before you interrogated him on whatever the hell just happened.
The soft click of your shoes echoed in the otherwise quiet hallway. You couldn’t shake the feeling that something was off, that Eren had done more than step in to save you from a potentially awkward situation. The way he responded, the way he shut it all down before you even had a chance to speak—it wasn’t the usual playful teasing that he was known for.
As you reached the door to your dorm, you couldn’t hold back anymore. You turned to face him, narrowing your eyes. “Okay, what the fuck was that?” you asked, crossing your arms.
Eren didn’t even flinch. His posture was relaxed as if he already knew you were going to challenge him, as if he was waiting for it. He didn’t even look at you when he spoke. “What are you talking about?”
You raised an eyebrow, the frustration in you bubbling to the surface. “You know exactly what I’m talking about. You practically scared him off and answered for me like I couldn’t say no myself.”
Eren pushed himself off the doorframe right then, he didn’t wait for you to catch up—he just walked into your room, leaving the door hanging open. “I just did what needed to be done,” he shrugged.
His back was still to you, and you couldn’t entirely ignore the way his long, dark hair—extensions, you’d noticed before—swung just below his shoulders as he moved. He always looks so pretty with his hair down.
You followed him inside, refusing to let go of the subject.
“What needed to be done? Are you serious? Eren, you shut the guy down before he could even finish his sentence. I barely had a chance to say anything.” You stopped in the doorway, trying to keep your voice steady before you slammed the door shut.
Eren turned to face you, a grin slowly spreading across his face, like he found it all amusing. His eyes got slightly hooded as he eyed you up and down. The outfit you wore left little to the imagination, and all he could think about was.. How could he let anyone else have you?
“Why are you upset? He was making you uncomfortable. It’s my job to step in when that happens.” His gaze flickered over to your face once more, almost like he was daring you to argue.
Before you could respond, he adds, “Unless… you wanted to go out with him?”
You scoffed, shaking your head in disbelief, dropping you bag on the nearby desk before turning back to face him, “I wouldn’t even know, cause once again, you didn’t even give me a chance to respond!”
He groaned, the sound almost exaggerated. His eyes rolled dramatically, like he was irked that you weren’t just agreeing with him. “Oh please, girl. He wasn’t even taller than me. He looks scrawny as fuck. He looks like a pussy. You deserve someone better than that.” He practically waved the whole thing off with a flick of his hand.
You stared at him for a moment, caught off guard by the bluntness of his words.
“And what? That someone is you?” The words slipped out before you could stop them, and you instantly regretted how it sounded—like you were baiting him.
Eren stepped closer to where you were standing, closing the space between you. His body was warm, his scent—it was clouding you as he looked down at you. There was a beat of silence.
His response comes out slow, “Could be,”
Your breath hitches, almost caught in your throat. You mind can’t understand what is happening, it never can when Eren is this close to you. His eyes are dark, more intense than they’d been a moment ago. Your pulse quickens, and you couldn’t stop yourself from looking down at his lips for a split second before snapping your gaze back up to his eyes. With the way your mouth opens and closes repeated, it was clear you didn’t know what to say.
“What’s the matter, baby?” Eren’s voice was barely a whisper now, his breath warm against your lips, his hand tentatively grasping your waist.
“Nothing,” you manage to whisper, your voice coming out shaky, unsure if you even believe your own words.
Eren’s lips twitch upward at your lie, you’re so cute sometimes. You’re fucking gorgeous all the time. His grip gets slightly tighter when he feels you don’t push away. You can’t stop yourself from leaning into his touch, from leaning into how the heat in your chest turns into something that pools low in your stomach.
“You’re lying,” he murmurs, voice rougher now. His thumb traces mindlessly circles on your skin, and you find yourself losing all self-control.
Your heart is racing, but it’s not from fear. Far from it. It’s from the way he’s making you feel alive in a way that only he could do. You can feel the uncomfortable stickiness pooling underneath your skirt.
His other hand moves up, cupping your chin gently but firmly, tilting your face upward to meet his gaze. There’s no mistaking the way his eyes flicker down to your lips again, and there’s a certain hunger in them.
His voice carries that commanding tone you’ve always known too well. “It’s okay,” he murmurs, his thumb gently grazing your bottom lip, making you inhale sharply. “Lemme help you get the words out. That okay?”
And when he does lean in, it’s not like anything you ever felt before. His lips brush against yours gently at first, being the tease that he is. Then, without warning, he deepens the kiss, his other hand coming up to slide into your neatly done butterfly locs, gripping it just enough to tilt your head back slightly.
You’re desperate, and your best friend knows it—the way your fingers clutch at the thin fabric of his shirt, practically begging. He pulls away just long enough to yank it over his head. The string of spit still barely connecting you makes something dark flicker in his eyes, his restraint snapping completely. The next kiss he goes in for is more forceful.
You try to push eren back, just a little, but he barely budges—barely even lets you catch your breath. The taste of him is overwhelming, as you manage to get the words out between shallow breaths. “Ren, Are you—Are you sure about this?”
“Never been more sure about anything in my life.” He moves fast, tugging the strings of your white top, pushing it down until it slips from your shoulders, falling to the floor. His lips stay on yours, the sweet taste of your strawberry lip gloss making him crave more. He feels like he might cum, just from kissing you—embarrassing as that is.
You’re the one more concerned, your voice faltering, “But what—Ah! I don’t want to ruin our friend…ship.”
His lips wander further down. Pressing feather-light kisses to the crook of your shoulders before he moves back up to where your sweet spot is. He doesn’t hesitate to harshly grip your beautiful breasts, pulling at both of your brown nipples the best he can while his mouth and brain are preoccupied. The moan you let out is sinful, staggering, really, as you find your brain getting more hazy with each move he makes.
You think he hasn’t heard you when he doesn’t answer right away. Eren gently pushes you back, guiding you to the chair by your desk. He makes you sit with a firm hand and then drops to his knees in front of you, his gaze intense as he speaks again, “You really wanna stay just friends after this?”
He sucks at the skin of your soft thighs as his hands work to slip your boots off. Your eyes widen when he unbuttons your shorts, prompting you to slightly lift up to make it easier for him to slide it off of you. Before you can answer his previous questions, he’s interrupting you, “No bra or panties? Were you expecting this to happen (꣑ৎ)?”
You release a pathetic whimper when he moves closer to your sopping core, taking a deep inhale like he’s trying to commit your scent to his memory forever. You shake your head at his accusation, but it’s clear he doesn’t believe you when he takes two of his thick fingers to spread you open, revealing your tiny clit barely hidden behind its hood.
“You’re making a mess, baby. You need my help to clean it up?”
He needs to shut up. His words, his voice, do nothing but make you wetter. Eren slowly starts rubbing your clit, barely applying enough pressure to give you the stimulate you need and it’s starting to get you frustrated. “Answer Ren, baby. Do you need my help?”
You let out a cute squeal when he blows on your mound, and you’re too depraved to do anything but listen. “Yes! Yes, please help me!”
And nothing if not devoted to you, he listens. Eren places a wet, open-mouth kiss on your twitching pearl. He’s slow with his movements, savoring the honey-like taste of you that’s just pouring into his awaiting mouth. He moves his tongue in slow circles, up and down, drinking the juice coming from your slit.
You’re struggling to breathe, the pressure that’s building up all too quickly is too overwhelming. He’s not just eating you out. Eren is making love to your sweet pussy. It’s breaking you apart.
His ministrations on your dripping sap continue for a minute before he gets impatient and slips one long finger inside of you. And God, you’re tight. Gripping onto his finger so firmly, it’s almost like you never want him to leave. He begins pushing them in and out slowly.
You breathe out, “Eren! Oh my- Goddd.”
The squelches your pussy was singing become louder and more obscene. Your best friend considers that as his starting point to add another finger that is equally big and long. They both curl up to reach your G-spot instantly. The minute he found it, he just didn’t let up. Despite his slow pace, he continues to abuse your sensitive area. You’re gonna cum.
“Are you gonna cum? All over my ‘pretty’ face?” He’s throwing your own words right back at you. You were never shy about telling Eren how good he looked, and maybe that’s exactly how you ended up here.
You’re quick to nod, unable to keep silent as broken moans escape from your mouth, “M’gonna c-cum! Right there- Oh!”
How quickly your release hits you is unexpected. You gush. Streams of squirt land all over Eren’s fingers, and his face even lands on his hair, leaving it a bit damp. He gazes in astonishment as your eyes roll in the back of your head during your dramatic convulsions, and he groans into your essence. He looks down to look at the mess you made and— Oh. You creamed, too.
Fuck. He loves it. He loves that he’s the only one who can make you do that. He loves you. He also realizes that he needs to be inside you. Now.
The movements he makes, from removing you from the chair to your single bed, are hazy. You’re not sure how you got there; your brain is still trying to process the most intense, body-curling orgasm you’ve ever had in your life. But you’re quick to feel something wide and heavy pressing at your still-gushing entrance.
“M’gonna put it in now, kay?” Eren figures giving you a warning is the least he could do before rearranging your guts and mushing your insides.
You beg him to fuck you already by whining and grinding on his leaking tip. After laughing at the sight, he leans in to give you a deep kiss. You’re gasping and mewling in his mouth as you finally feel him push in.
He’s gasping in your mouth. Feeling his mind starting to scramble at the feeling of suffocating cunt. God, you’re perfect. “Is it- Is it in yet?”
He snickers. God, you’re just so cute. “No, baby. Not even halfway.”
You’re whimpering, hiccuping as small tears start to pool in your lower lash line. You’re clenching around him so tightly, and the more he pushes in, he is trying his best not to cum so quickly. He decides to plunge the rest of his eight inches in one go. Fuck you’re so loud, sputtering and wailing at the feeling of being so.. Full. You’re so full.
“Move- Move, please. Oh my-”
You don’t have to tell him twice. He steadily drags his cock away from your cervix, pulling out all the way before he pushes back inside again, hard. He repeats this. Once, twice, thrice more, and God, you “Can’t take it-it.”
He shushes your whines, kissing the tears falling down your cheeks, reaffirming you, “Of course you can, baby. I’ll even help you, yeah?”
His attentiveness is entirely too much. You’re babbling when his hand reaches in between you both to rub your swollen clit in rapid circles. A complete contrast to his way of fucking you.
The pressure in your lower abdomen is building at such a fast speed. Every harsh thrust against your cervix is painful like he’s trying to prove a point. But it feels oh so good.
“You feel so fucking good. I want you to cum, baby. Make a mess, just like you did on my face. Can you do that for me?”
You’re nodding and spluttering incoherently about how you can, how you will. You’d do anything for him. Both of your holes are releasing the most beautiful sounds. Eren presses a messy kiss onto your plump lips without waiting for you to respond, causing drool to escape from both of you. The sheets below you are feelable because of your wetness.
With a few more strokes, your body convulses once more. This time, your best friend has an up-close view of how beautiful you look in your most vulnerable state. Your orgasm gets even stronger when you feel Eren whimper against your lips and his own release, caused by the feeling of your spraying all over him.
His thrusts don’t change its pace as he stuffs you full of his seed. Your eyes look dazed, your makeup slightly ruined, and your lip combo nowhere to be found. He still can’t help but think you look just as gorgeous. He places one final peck on your lips before he speaks once more,
“I’m taking you out on a date this Saturday.”
Guess he wasn’t kidding when he said you two had plans that day.
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Hiii vee! Just out of curiosity... what do you think each batboys ideal way to ask bb to be their valentine ? Hope you have a wonderful rest of your day <3
Hi!!! Omg this is such a cute question!! Looong post but hope you like! <3 Happy belated Valentines Day to all!
Dick Suave. Shameless. Thoughtful. You don't really pay that much attention to Dick's presence in the manor. There's no point of perking up like a bored puppy when you see that flash of striking blue and inky black, stretched across the strong chest that was the unfortunate source of your earliest 'tinglings'. Entraced in your upside down doomscrolling session on the sofa, you don't even notice the frown that tugs the corners of his lips when you fail to greet him with your usual enthusiasm. Or at all, really. He clears his throat once, and then twice- which finally gets you to drop your phone and right yourself. "Hi." "Hey," he grins, setting a duffel bag at your feet. "Sooo, you're gonna wanna get dressed. And...I kinda can't tell you why." You don't know what you're expecting- but it isn't the Rouge Astronomers Gown and a matching domino mask. "Dick-" "Please, little wing?" You have literally no idea why you're wearing noise dampening earplugs, or how no one saw two distinctly dressed figures grappling into the rafters of Gotham Square Garden- but you do know what it's like to see Juno performed live, soaking up the vibrations of Nightwing's own humming as you lean into his chest. "Will you?" "Huh?" The whites of your mask convey confusion, and then understanding. "Oh." You snort, glancing back down to the dancing Sabrina Carpenter. "What? Let you make me Juno?" "No," he laughs, and you can feel his arm tuck you closer into him as the other fishes for a heart shaped card. "My puns aren't that bad." BB Mine? "You sure about that, Nightwing?" Jason Jason in my head has the capacity to be an old school romantic (even more of a romantic than Dick) but he doesn't have the confidence to do something as overt as he'd like. Jason's desire to look cool and his history of comparing his game to Dick's makes for a storm of overcompensating via nonchalance. But it's super obvious because the romance still comes through in the end. So he'd: - ask BB if she was free 'on Friday' (Valentines Day) - if she wanted to go to 'this bookstore opening' (it's a romance only bookstore such like Lovestruck in Boston). - if she's hungry, they can 'grab something to eat' (it's a picnic. He made the ice tea pink) You'd lay together tucked away in a corner of Robinson Park, full on little treats and pastries and ice tea. You'd share his earbuds, the short wires forcing you into close proximity as you listen to an audiobook together. "Jay?" "Mm." "Is this a date?" "...Do you want it to be a date?" "Jace." "Princess." "Be my Valentine?" You ask, prodding a finger right over his heart. "Is that all I'm worth to you, BB? No card? No Hoizer? No heart shaped- ow!" He groans dramatically as you shove him, and the playfighting that ensues ends with him allowing you to pin him. "Well, if you're gonna beat it out of me," he sighs. "Yeah, sure. I'll be your Valentine." Tim "Whose the lucky guy?" Silas asks as he pushes off the gates marking the entrance to the academy. Students huddle together, whispering behind their hands and doing full 180s to glimpse you in the courtyard. Arm thrown around your shoulders, Silas guides you to your locker. It's stickerbombed with motifs of glitterfied conversation hearts toting classic phrases like 'Luv U', 'XOXO' and 'UR Cute'. There's no note on your locker. You side-eye Silas, who raises his hands in full surrender.
"Learned my lesson last time." He announces, but not to you. He's glancing at Damien, who leans against his own locker looking more displeased than with his usual resting Bat face. The final straw is when you open your locker, shutting your eyes out of reflex as an air cannon full of rose petals and glitter kindly decorates you and a few curious peers. You don't even have to look at your phone to know whose calling.
Fishing the vibrating device from your blazer, you scowl as the screen goes pink, save for some text. BE MINE? -TIM YES | NO (will brick ur phone </3) Damien You think next year, you're gonna ask Bruce if Jason was left out of the Christmas cards by choice. When he first started wearing the bat again, he'd vehemently denied any non-life threatening get togethers with extreme prejudice, but it's been years. Maybe all he needed was another push. You'd hate to think you all have been excluding Jason all these years on an assumption. As Dick, Tim and Bruce help the photographer finish the last of the set up, Damian hands you Ace's brush. You two have been tasked to be the animal wranglers this year (and every year), which involves making sure the handsome black dogs not only look their best, but are pumped full of enough treats not to mind the excessive repositioning. "Do you still check your google calendar?" Damien asks, running Titus' brush down the dog's neck. "Uh, yeah. Why?" "I need some...assistance. With an engagement." "Vague. When?" "Nine weeks from now. You'll recieve a reminder a few hours beforehand."
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Headcanons: Jeon Jae Joon is in love with you🖤
Featuring: Jeon Jae Joon x Reader(f)
Warnings: Bullying, yandere guy
A/N: I'm sorry that I'm not publishing a work on SG. I just wanted to diversify my blog somehow. If you like this job, I will be happy!
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School years
• It all started after Dong Eun dropped out of school. Yeon Jin immediately found a new victim. And it was you. She also mocked you with her company. Jae Joon was always on the sidelines and laughed at the way his girlfriend humiliated you. But everything will change in the future.
• Once you saw how the guy beat his classmate again because he insulted his eyes and laughed at color blindness. You even felt sorry for Joon, despite the fact that he was your bully. You decided to come up and support him. You waited until he was left alone and quietly approached.
- Jae Joon..
- Fuck! What do you need, bitch?
• He screamed and very loudly, you were scared, but you continued anyway.
- I wanted to say..don't pay attention to what people say. I mean..that there is nothing wrong that you are different from others..you have beautiful eyes and your color blindness is just your feature, you don't need to listen to insults about it, they don't understand anything and it's low to condemn a person for the fact that he didn't even choose at birth.
• After your words, you quickly ran away, leaving the guy alone. He just looked after you, processing the words you told him.
• He realized that you were the only person who told him such a thing. With this act, you changed his attitude towards you. But don't think it means that you're saved, it means you have your guardian demon. After all, he was very interested in you and he looked at you differently.
• The next day, he told Yeon Jin and the others to leave you alone and threatened that if they did something to you, he would kill them.
• He didn't beat or touch you, he didn't use physical violence against you, only moral violence. He could humiliate you with his words, and then laugh at your reaction.
• He forbids everyone to touch you, and if someone offends you, Joon will beat that man until he barely breathes, lying in a pool of his blood.
• You are only his. No one dares to look at you anymore.
• His friends didn't understand his behavior, especially Jin, as he began to cool off to her.
• He had one answer to all the questions: "FUCK YOU!"
• He watched your every step. He watched from afar as you walked home from school or from some store, he was always next to you, but you didn't suspect it.
• He scared all your gentlemen to such an extent that many were afraid to just approach you.
• He doesn't want you to understand that it's his business, so he tries by all means to hide his guilt.
Adult life
• He didn't leave you alone, he also kept you close to him.
• He arranged you in his store and ordered you to fulfill his requests, but you were not like Son Myeong Oh, he treated you more carefully and did not ask you to do something difficult.
• He made that you had nowhere to live, and then offered you to stay with him. He wants you to always be there for him.
- Why do you want me to move in with you? I'm just your classmate, we're not even friends.
- You shouldn't care about it. If you don't want to live in a dump, then agree to my offer.
• He knew you would agree. He knows how to manipulate you.
• When everyone found out that you lived with him, they were in complete shock, especially Yeon Jin
- Why are you to take care of her?! Did you fall in love with her??? Did you trade this me for this worthless bitch?!?!
- Don't you dare call her that. It's none of your business what I feel for her, leave us alone.
• He also secretly spoils your dates with other men. He can't let you leave him.
• He continues to follow you and will always do so. After all, you are only him.
• Joon realized a long time ago that he was in love with you, but he believes that this is how you need to show your love.
• He will probably never admit your feelings to you, because Joon knows that you will refuse, so he will enjoy you at a distance.
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That’s Enough
Based on the following ask: An adorable nonnie sent in a 2 for 1 request, allowing me to choose, and I went with this one: “Maybe the reader is trying to control the situation either at home or at a family dinner but no one is really paying attention and it's a bit '🙁😟' and Hotch notices that he's getting a little shy or something so he yells to get attention to her and at the end he leaves a nice kiss on her forehead 🥹🥹” I kinda combined both…but I made some adjustments. So the reader struggles with anxiety – this is why Aaron notices her struggle and steps in.
Aaron Hotchner x Fem Reader Angst/Fluff Word count: 1050
REQUESTS ARE OPEN - not edited - please be kind. Requests are open and feedback is welcome if it's constructive!
Warnings: My blog is 18+, minors DNI, reader has anxiety and takes medication for it, reader and Aaron have children together, explicit language, let me know if I missed anything.
I do not consent to having my work translated or reposted to any other site. That being said I do not own the characters portrayed in this story.
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You had always been an anxious person. In childhood it had been about silly things; not climbing trees because you could fall, not riding a bike for the same reason. In your teen years it morphed into something different; not dating because you’d get your heart broken, not getting you license because you’d get into an accident, feeling nauseas before piano recitals and volleyball games, panic studying for all your tests. Anxiety lingered in adulthood too, only now, you were appropriately diagnosed and medicated for it.
You’d been doing well, the anxiety dying down as your children grew older, they no longer needed your constant supervision, they were in middle and high school now. Jack is the oldest, a sophomore in high school, then in 8th grade was Elias and in 6th grade were the wins, Mara and Thalia. Your children were polite and well-behaved, rarely causing trouble within your household and with them all being old enough to handle their responsibilities, you were able to lower your dose of the anxiety meds.
Aaron had been so wonderful throughout everything. He made sure to take note of your coping strategies and what worked best in which situations, and when you decided to go on medication, he helped you research options and monitor your side effects. He was proud of you for being unafraid to advocate for yourself.
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This week, you were starting to feel a bit overwhelmed. You’d gotten a promotion at work, thus taking on more responsibilities and working longer hours. Aaron had been away on a case, and so on top of your debilitating workload, you had to manage the kids’ schedules…that also meant facilitating this weekend’s sleepovers.
Mara and Thalia had their friends Audrey and Bri over. Elias had Michael over and Jack had Henry over. JJ had offered to host the boys at hers, but then they were called away, and Will was working nights. You had assured everyone that you were fine, and truthfully, you had been.
You had ordered dinner for everyone; the consensus had been pizza and wings, so once it was delivered you set the table. Opting for paper plates given the chaos that was sure to ensue. Once everything was set on the table, you called the kids for dinner. One rule in your house had been that dinner was eaten together, no matter what, and that didn’t change when friends were over.
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Dinner shouldn’t have been making you this anxious…it really shouldn’t have, but you were currently trying to tame the children and had been failing miserably. The boys were shouting and talking with food in their mouths – effectively spitting it all over your table. The girls had been gossiping and were now arguing over which cute boy was dating who at school.
You’d been trying desperately to calm them down, asking them to quiet their voices as you were inside. You asked them to finish chewing before speaking but they weren’t listening. Next thing you knew the boys were reaching across the table in attempt to hit one another, causing a two-liter of soda to spill all over the table and onto the floor.
“Guys, please calm down! “Jack, get the paper towels please.” You tried.
“Dude chill! Look what you did!” The boys laughed. “That was you stupid! You made a freaking mess.”
“Guys please, let’s get this cleaned up.” You tried again.
“Ugh boys are idiots at all ages, clearly.” All of the girls rolling their eyes in agreement.
“That’s enough, Jack get the paper towels, Elias go grab the mop please.” You sighed.
The boys made no moves to follow your directions, continuing to argue over whose fault the spill had been and who should have to clean it up.
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You hadn’t even noticed Aaron come in. He’d set his things down by the door and made his way to the dining room to check out what was going on. Upon turning the corner, he heard you ask the boys to get what they needed to clean up the mess, they surely caused…and when they made no move to do so, Aaron turned his gaze to you.
He quickly noticed the glossiness of your eyes, the mess of your hair, and the way your nails were digging into your palms. You had very clearly been anxious and stressed and the kids acting this way had not been helping you at all. He was feeling incredibly guilty for having gone on this case the week you started your new position. He knew that the best thing he could do for you now was step in.
“Boys please!” You raised your voice, standing from your seat.
“Mrs. Hotchner, relax, it’s just a little soda.” One of the kids replied.
“That’s enough.” Aaron’s voice boomed throughout the tight space. “Jack, Elias, your mom told you to do something, now move it. And whoever told her to relax, you don’t speak to my wife that way. She has been nothing short of wonderful, welcoming you into our home and getting dinner for you, show her some respect.”
The kids all moved at that point, working diligently to clean up not only the soda but also the rest of dinner. Aaron’s hand had made its way to the small of your back, gently guiding you to your shared room. He began running you a hot bath, being sure to add your favorite Epsom salts and bubble bath. He lit a few candles and played some soft music, only leaving once he had you settled in the water.
He was gone all of five minutes before making his return. He entered the bathroom, sitting on the floor just beside the tub.
“They have cleaned up the dining room and kitchen. I told them it was time to calm down for the night, that they needed to go to their rooms and play video games or watch a movie.” Aaron explained. “I’m sorry I wasn’t here baby.”
Aaron pulled your hand to his lips, pressing his lips to your palm where red crescent shapes were starting to fade.
“Thank you Aar. I really thought I’d be okay…but this new position has been challenging and exhausting honestly.”
“I’m here now baby, let me take some of the weight off your shoulders.”
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— kiss me under the pale moonlight
☆ glinda upland x elphaba thropp
☆ summary: glinda finds out elphaba isn’t too fond of valentine’s day and she does everything in her power to make it her favorite.
☆ warnings: smut
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“how could you hate valentine’s day, elphie? it’s pink and love and it’s just amazing!” glinda followed elphaba down the hall, nearly out of breath trying to follow her friend that wouldn’t stop walking or pay her any attention.
it was february 13th. the day before valentine’s day, and glinda would not let it go. elphaba slightly mentioned how she doesn’t like the holiday, how it’s just another day for her, and now she has a perky blonde chasing after her and trying to convince her otherwise.
“yeah…exactly,” was all elphaba said in response to her.
glinda grunted, as if elphie’s response had seriously impacted her. elphaba didn’t know why it was such a big deal. some people hate christmas or halloween, so why wasn’t she allowed to not like valentine’s day.
it always just felt like a smack in the face to her. like the universe was just reminding her that nobody would ever love her and the green skin that comes along.
elphaba thought, by the evening, that glinda had completely forgotten about what she was nagging her about. but by the time they had gotten into bed and moments of silence passed by, glinda brought it up again from her side of the room all the way to elphie’s.
“maybe you just need someone to show you how amazing valentine’s day can be,” glinda said, her voice echoing against the four walls in the dead of the silent night. she said it as if she were to be talking to herself, pondering out loud.
“glinda, i appreciate you trying to figure out my dislike for the holiday, but i really don’t want you to try and find me a date now.”
the thought of glinda trying to set her up on a date just felt like a chore. a chore to get ready for it. a chore to go to it. a chore for her to entertain the young man.
but being with glinda…it felt natural and easy.
“why not?”
“i couldn’t be the least bothered to go to some date with a boy that will just cause me headaches.”
“well…who said it had to be some boy,” glinda said shyly, “maybe there’s someone who is trying to get your attention that would die to take you on a date tomorrow.”
glinda said it quietly. almost as if she didn’t want elphaba to hear it. but despite her low tone, elphaba still heard it. she was grateful, both the girls were, that neither could see the blush on their cheeks at the moment.
elphaba let it go. glinda did too. they acted as if they were sleeping but neither of them could let glinda’s words go.
the follow day, elphaba wanted to lock herself inside her dorm. and lock glinda out of it especially. elphaba couldn’t stand seeing every other student receive roses and look at each other with glowing lusty eyes. a part of her, that she would never admit, was envious of it all.
she wanted to be treated like she was special.
to elphaba’s surprise, glinda didn’t have a valentines date. the prettiest and most popular girl in the school, maybe even in all of Oz, failed to accept a boys offer to take her out tonight.
it wasn’t that she didn’t have anyone ask her. because multiple boys were lined up at her feet. especially boq. it got increasingly annoying when she’d be in a conversation with glinda and some random boy would interrupt them to hand glinda a fresh red rose.
she felt jealousy pool in her belly. but not because of the treatment glinda was receiving. but mostly because of the fact that they were trying to take glinda away from her.
she couldn’t put her finger on why she felt this way towards her best friend.
all day glinda had acted strange towards elphaba. elphie caught onto her sudden new behavior very quickly. she seemed…anxious. which glinda typically didn’t feel. or at least, never showed it. she was always very confident, but today she just seemed lost in her own head.
that afternoon in class, glinda stared lovingly at her focused friend beside her as she typically does. elphaba is far too fixated on her education however the only thing glinda wanted to study was elphaba.
“plans for tonight?” glinda whispers to her while dr dillamond’s back is turned to the class.
elphaba turned her head to the bright-eyed blonde who held a gentle smile on her face. elphie wanted to tell her to be quiet, to pay attention. but she just couldn’t when she heard her sweet voice, and when she saw that smile, every thought disappeared from her head.
“i’m going on a date,” elphaba said, glinda gasped, “with myself, in the library, studying.”
glinda’s face then fell flat. unimpressed on the outside. however, she was nonetheless over the moon that nobody had gotten elphaba before her. that her plans would still work out.
that night, of february 14th, glinda stood infront of her vanity mirror, touching up her makeup. she put on a different dress than the one she had been wearing that day, but nonetheless pink. it was a delicate shade of pink and the short sleeves fell off her shoulders. it was one of her favorites that she felt the prettiest in.
she applied a deeper shade of pink gloss to her lips to clash with her dress. she took one last look in the mirror, turning to each side to make sure she hadn’t missed a spot of perfection.
glinda had memorized elphaba’s nightly schedule. she had since the day they became roommate’s. glinda had approximately two minutes before her favorite witch would join her.
she walked out to the balcony connected to their room. there were some blankets spread on the floor along with some pillows and candles. glinda sat on one side, lighting the couple of candles with a match.
right as she blew the match out, she heard the door creak open. the sounds of heels against the wooden floor grew closer. “glinda?” elphaba said.
she walked further into the room, hearing a high pitched “over here!”
elphaba walked over to the open doors of the balcony. her eyes widened at the sight. not only what glinda had set up, but glinda herself. she practically glowed under the moonlight. her features were illuminated in the perfect way, accentuating all of her best physical qualities.
“oh! i’m sorry, do you want me to get out? i didn’t realize you had a date,” elphaba said, shaking her head in hopes all of the lusty thoughts would float out of her head. she went to turn around to leave. and typically, she wouldn’t leave her own dorm for something like this, but it was valentine’s day, and she really couldn’t be in the same room as glinda while she was sharing her space with some boy.
“wait no! elphie, come here,” glinda said hastily. elphaba stood there awkwardly, lips parted because she wanted to say something but she didn’t know exactly what. “sit down,” glinda nodded her heads toward to spot in front of her.
hesitantly, elphaba walked out onto the balcony, letting the cool breeze knock her back into reality. she sat onto the blanket into a criss-cross position. there was silence. a slightly uncomfortable one. glinda shared a soft smile with her before breaking the silence.
“i don’t have a date. i mean, i hope i do but…” she trailed off, voice quiet and quivering with anxiety.
“oh.”
“no, elphie. what i’m trying to say is i hope you’ll say yes to a date with me. well, we’re already on it.”
elphaba’s eyebrows furrowed and her eyes twitched. she didn’t look quite amused. “you don’t have to do all of this,” she said, slight angry, “i don’t need your pity.”
“elphie—”
“i’m fully capable of being alone. i don’t need you to try and make me feel included—”
“elphaba thropp, i don’t pity you im in love with you!”
that same silence arose one again, but this time it was incredibly loud. glinda’s outburst, which had probably been echoed all throughout shiz, had left them sitting there both speechless. it was certainly not how glinda planned it to come out and this wasn’t how elphaba expected this night to go.
elphaba opened her mouth, closed it, and then opened it once more. she was in shock, not knowing entirely how to act. momentarily, did she think that glinda was just doing this as a big joke. pfannee and shenshen were going to jump out of the closet and laugh in her face along with glinda…there was no way this was…
“i want to have this date with you. why else would i reject every boy’s offer to take me out? none have been as special as you are, elphaba thropp. i feel things with you that i’ve never felt with any other boy!”
speak. words. say something.
elphaba sat there silently and then when she actually found the courage to speak, all that came out was, “I—”
“this was so stupid of me. why would you want me? i’m a girl and i’m not—”
glinda looks like she’s going to cry. or maybe even have a mental breakdown. elphaba can’t just sit there and watch anymore.
“glinda, shush! it’s not stupid.”
“what?” glinda looked straight at her. her eyes were red like she were holding in tears. she refused to let them spill over and ruin her makeup.
“i didn’t think it was possible that the feelings were mutual. i mean, can you blame me? i’m green and you’re…perfect.”
“elphie—” she wants to, so badly, tell her how perfect her green skin makes her. how it, somehow within these fucked up standards, makes her even more perfect than the most popular girl at school. but elphaba keeps going. all the words that were stuck in her throat now pour out of her mouth like water.
“this is all…wonderful and too much and just enough and i’m sorry i made you think i don’t want you because that’s all i ever wanted. you’re all i ever wanted before i even knew your name.”
“elphaba,” glinda says as if she were to be testing out her name for the first time. elphaba liked hearing it. the way it rolled off her tongue like butter. the way her high pitched voice got lower when she said it.
glinda scooted closer to elphaba. and so, with both of their legs criss-crossed, their knees were touching. it made elphaba twitch when she felt glinda against her. “can i kiss you?” she whispers it to ensure that elphaba is the only one to hear it. even being alone, she couldn’t risk someone, somehow, hearing it. not because she was ashamed, but because these words were only for her elphie.
elphaba just nods, staring wide eyed back at the blonde. her vision is blurred from just how close glinda’s face was to her’s or maybe her sweet vanilla scent is just making her dizzy with lust. either way, her eyes flutter shut as soon as she felt lips as soft and sweet as a honeyed dewdrop against her own green ones.
it wasn’t long after that glinda pulled away. and glinda stared back at her friend like she were trying to analyze how she was feeling just by looking at her face.
“was that your first kiss?” glinda asks. it felt as good as if it were her millionth. elphaba just nods, the shame she’d typically have answering that question completely gone in this moment. “did you like it.”
“mhm.”
“me too,” glinda whispers, and then shyly asks, “do you want to do it again?”
“yes. forever,” elphaba says. and this time, it’s the green witch that leans into her.
glinda’s lips taste of strawberry and desire. the kiss slowly begins to lose the tentative softness to it. it becomes full of passion and hunger.
glinda doesn’t want to overwhelm or frighten elphaba considering this is her first experience with this, but elphie shows no sign of discomfort. she just keeps going at it like a hungry animal.
glinda then slowly pushes elphaba back so she’s laying down with her head against a pillow. or maybe elphaba fell back. neither of them could tell you. but either way, glinda is on top of elphaba, still making out with her, and elphaba fears she may burn at the strong aching feeling.
the blonde witch pulls away. she looks down at elphaba, captivated by her beauty. just like this. lips slightly pink from a mix of glinda’s lipgloss and the way she attacked them, her eyes wide; full of hope and lust and curiosity.
she wants elphaba thropp like a moth drawn to a flame. she’s irresistible. she just has to have her.
“why’d you stop?” elphaba asks, and she twirls the hem of glinda’s dress between her two fingers as a way to occupy them.
“elphie,” glinda asks, not paying attention to the fact that she already has elphaba’s.
“yes?”
“i want to make love with you,” glinda says it so boldly, that it causes elphaba’s face to burn. she never expected anyone to see her in this light. to want her in this light. let alone glinda to want her at all. “would you like that?”
elphaba gulps, “more than anything.”
“right here?” elphaba then asks. they’re on the balcony in front of the entirety of shiz. despite them laying on the floor where nobody down below could likely see them, elphaba still feels the need to remind her of their whereabouts.
glinda nods. “i had this whole idea about watching the stars together,” she admits, “but now all i want to watch is you coming undone under them.”
glinda then leans forward, kisses the side of elphaba face before whispering in her ear. “everyone’s either on their dates or sleeping by now, my sweet.”
elphaba’s green flesh becomes covered in goosebumps as glinda’s warm breath is felt on her cold neck. she pushes glinda’s hair behind her ear that has fallen in front of her face from holding herself up above elphaba. “i want you to touch me,” elphaba whispers, and she can’t believe those dirty words are coming out of her mouth, “i want nothing more in this world.”
glinda smiles. she reaches her hand beneath elphaba’s dress and drags her nails all the way up to her stomach. her cold hand rests there, making all the muscles around her stomach contract.
“glinda,” elphaba says as if there was glue in her throat, trapping her voices there.
“yes, darling?”
the name makes her almost come undone right then and there.
“i need you.”
“i know, i know” glinda gently assures, “can i take this off of you,” she asks, tugging at her black laced dress.
elphaba hums her consent and then helps glinda pull it up and over her head. it only takes just that until she’s left vulnerable in just her bra and panties.
elphie feels like covering her body with one of the blankets. people gag and run when she’s fully clothed. elphaba couldn’t imagine what glinda was thinking.
but if she did know what was going through glinda’s mind, maybe she wouldn’t feel so bad. and so, glinda shares what’s on her mind. because she knows how elphaba feels about herself, and she must know how glinda feels.
“you are beautiful…just breathtaking,” glinda says, quite literally breathless.
“i’m not,” elphaba shakes her head, blushing.
“the most beautiful girl i’ve ever seen.”
elphaba doesn’t know how to respond to such compliment that she hadn’t ever received before. matter a fact, any compliment at that. she gently brushes her thumb over glinda’s knuckles to show some appreciation.
glinda leans down, kisses elphaba for a second long enough to question where it’s going, and then she pulls away again and elphaba’s lips pulse with an ache for more.
“elphie, you’re trembling,”
“i’ve never done this,” elphaba says nervously.
“i’ll take care of you,” the blonde assures. she offers a gentle smile to ease her of her anxieties. “do you trust me?”
elphaba nods, genuinely.
glinda then lets her hand drift back down to elphaba’s thigh. elphaba allows her knees to drop down to the floor to gift glinda full access.
elphaba breathes sharply at glinda’s hand being so close to where she needs her so badly. but glinda wants to take her time with her. this is art and she cannot, will not, rush it.
glinda slithers down elphaba’s body and kneels down between her parted legs. she kisses elphaba’s tummy right below her belly button.
“do you want me to take my dress off,” glinda then asks. quietly enough to maintain the gentle atmosphere. “so you’re not all alone.”
elphaba wants to scream a yes. but she has to play it off cool. and she also doesn’t think her voice is working to its best ability right now. “will you?” elphaba settles on.
glinda nods, smiles, and then her fingers reach back to unzip the zipper on her pink dress. she worked so hard to pick out the perfect dress for elphaba’s but, frankly, she was hoping it would end up on the floor anyways.
the pink fabric then fell off her body easily when she slithered her arms out. it ended up being mixed with elphie’s darker clothing in a pile beside them.
elphaba stared up at her, almost as she were enchanted by a spell. like she had gotten shot by cupid’s arrow. glinda prettily batted her eyes at her friend, or lover, or whatever they were right now. that typical face that everyone falls for.
“you’re ravishing,” elphaba said. she thinks it might have been the first time she had complimented glinda. she constantly tried to keep it nonchalant so her feelings for her wouldn’t grow.
“elphie,” glinda blushed, “i wish you’d see that you’re the most.”
glinda then leaned down and picked up elphaba’s thighs, positioning them on her shoulders. elphaba was completely clueless. she had no idea what glinda was doing. but it made her throb. especially when glinda starts kissing her inner thighs.
she kisses every inch so she never can feel that a piece of her isn’t loved. elphaba wants to cry at the care and consideration that glinda shows every part of her, but she blinks the tears back knowing it would only cause her embarrassment.
“can i touch you, my sweetness?” glinda asks, elphaba nods. she can do anything she wants to her. she can ask her to do anything and elphaba would say yes.
with elphie’s approval, glinda hooks her fingers on the top of elphaba’s panties and drags them down her legs until they’re at her ankles for her to kick off. she feels so safe here that glinda could completely rip her open and she’d feel more comfortable than ever.
with elphie’s legs spread and her flower present right in front of her, she gently places her thumb on elphie’s bundle of nerves.
elphaba gasps. it’s an entirely new sensation. one that she wonders how she’s gone so long without. glinda then, slowly but surely, moves her thumb in a circular motion. elphaba’s toes curl and her back slightly arches at the ever so light touch to her clit.
“g— glinda,” elphaba stutters out, trying to figure out how to combine a bunch of syllables to make out what she wants to say. glinda’s thumb slows to a stop. and elphaba can finally piece together words.
“what is it, darling?”
“could you…could you come up here,” elphaba motions towards her face, upper body. “i don’t want to be alone over here.”
glinda giggles, letting elphaba completely melt at the sight of her dimples. elphaba wanted to be so close to her that someone could mistake them for one. glinda then hovers over elphaba’s body like earlier and now places her middle and ring finger against elphaba’s clit.
elphaba gasps again. and now glinda is so close that she can feel her breath against her face. “you’re so sensitive,” glinda mutters. she leans down and kisses the corner of elphaba’s mouth and pulls back in just enough time that it’s considered a tease.
glinda’s fingers get to work against her clit again, which twitched beneath her fingertips. she worked speedier than previous moments ago. elphaba almost let out a throaty moan but she suppressed it with her hand.
“don’t do that. i wanna hear you,” glinda says in a lower voice than elphaba has ever heard her use. the blonde girl grabbed elphaba’s hand with her own free one and pinned it above her head so she couldn’t quiet herself again. intertwining their fingers to make her feel comforted.
glinda leaned down and started kissing elphaba’s soft lips again. the gentleness of the kiss was mostly gone, it was now filled with hot passion.
“glinda,” elphaba whimpered against pink glossy lips. glinda could feel elphaba’s legs shaking against her arm. her thighs starting to close. glinda wasn’t finished with her yet and she didn’t want elphaba to be either.
“shh, i know. can i put my fingers inside of you? i wanna feel you around my fingers so bad.”
elphaba gulped and nodded. she didn’t know how any of this worked. she thought glinda’s fingers were already…inside of her. but then, she felt two slender fingers ease into her dripping hole, and she quickly came to realize what glinda meant.
“glinda— oh!” she didn’t know what else to say. all that could roll off of her tongue was the name of the girl inside of her.
“does it feel good?” glinda asks, despite the obvious sheer look of pleasure on elphaba’s face. she just nodded. her back arched off the floor in suite to glinda curling her fingers inside of her.
elphaba bucked her hips up so glinda’s fingers would thrust deeper inside of her. glinda kept the steady pace, pumping her fingers in and out with her thumb occasionally providing a pleasurable sensation to her clit to near her closer to the edge.
her climax approached her quite quickly, but if she were being honest, she could’ve completely came undone just by a single look of glinda’s.
“glinda, that feels really good i’m…” she didn’t know what. but she knew something was coming. like a wave about to crash on the shore.
“you’re gonna come,” glinda assures. elphaba then, with her hand that isn’t pinned above her, holds onto glinda’s arm that leads down to her heat. “it’s okay. just let it all happen.”
elphaba’s mouth falls open as she hits her climax. glinda holds on tightly to her and lets her ride her high until her body stills and she lays there with her chest heaving. glinda’s looks down at the beautiful mess she’s created with a gentle smile on her face.
elphaba flutters her eyes back open to see that pretty face that she adores. “do you like valentine’s day now?” glinda asked her.
elphaba breathed in sharply, “i think it may be my favorite holiday.”
#gelphie#wlw#wicked#elphaba thropp#glinda upland#ariana grande#cynthia erivo#glinda x elphaba#wicked movie#wicked the musical#glinda the good witch#the wicked witch of the west#gelphie smut
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HALLOWEENIE. [2]
skully j. graves x (female) reader cw: nsfw, retail au, smoking, modern au (no magic), cheesy workplace romance, may be ooc (some creative liberties were taken for various aspects of skully's character and may not align with characteristics shown in tnbc event), characters written as 18+ note - skully returns for another season of work at fellow honest's halloween store. is this the year he finally musters the courage to confess to his cherished coworker, or is it going to be another year spent with his nose buried in his poetry journal? // split into three parts due to size. read part one and part three.
You stand in front of your mirror and hold an outfit up. Rollo sits on the edge of your bed and surveys each option like one of them is the key to a life-or-death riddle.
“Does it really matter?” he asks.
“Well, I don’t wanna be lazy. I have to show some effort. Plus, I always strive to look my best regardless of the situation.”
“And said situation is a borderline date.”
“As if. We’re just hanging out.”
Rollo watches your reflection apply lipstick as dark as onyx to puckered lips. He hums low in his throat.
“And what’s on the agenda for today’s ‘hang-out’?”
“We’re meeting up at a bookstore and then we’ll probably go to a café. Maybe come back here to play some games.” You shrug and smack your lips to coat both the top and bottom evenly. “We’ll see where the day takes us.”
“In that case, take your key. I plan to stay at the library for most of the day.”
“Don’t party too hard, scholar.” You lean in close to admire your makeup. It’s just the right amount to look presentable and not in the trying-too-hard way. “You sure you don’t wanna hang with us?”
“I’m sure,” he replies with an immediacy that startles you. “You should enjoy your time together. I couldn’t get in the way of that. Rather, I’d like to avoid doing so.”
“Why? Worried Skulls will accuse us of being married again?”
“It seemed like a genuine fear for him.”
“I dunno why. We’re all still young. Who’s thinking about marriage now?”
“A man hopelessly besotted, that’s who.”
“Have you ever considered that he might like you?”
“Not at all, for I’m merely Mr. Rollo to him.”
Frowning, you settle on one of the many outfits you assembled for today. It’s not very extravagant, but you tell yourself it shouldn’t be. Rollo busies himself with his phone while you change.
“With his sweet and polite attitude, he’s probably super popular with his classmates. He doesn’t need to fantasize about me if he’s some sorta lady charmer.”
“You think?”
You pull your shirt down just as Rollo flips his phone so you can observe what’s pictured on the screen. Bewildered, you stare at the student in the photo and wonder what you’re seeing. There’s an uncanny familiarity about his shy smile, crooked circular frames, tell-tale bedhead, and sweater vest. If it wasn’t for the Jack Skellington pin, you’d think this was someone else entirely. You yank the device from his hands for closer inspection.
“Whoa, hold up—pause! Is that Skulls?”
“Were you not aware? He goes to the same school as us.”
“Yeah, but—no?!” You whip your head in Rollo’s direction, flabbergasted. “What do you mean he goes to our school? How come we’ve never seen him?”
“I have,” he corrects. “Many times, as a matter of fact. You neglect to pay attention on behalf of his lack of presence.”
“Wait. So this is how he normally dresses for school? He looks so…different, and his eyes are so pretty. Orange like pumpkins.” You pinch the screen and zoom in. “I always thought he wore that goth suit of his everywhere. Are you telling me there’s a chance we passed each other and I completely ignored him?”
“It’s a possibility.”
“Fuck. I feel like an asshole now. He’s a first-year, right?”
“Going into his second year, yes.”
“And you’re sure that’s our Skulls? That’s not a doppelgänger? Those are real, you know!”
“Where else is he going to attend school? The woods?”
“So that really is him. Wow. He’s almost another person without his makeup and sunglasses. Doesn’t really have that gothic vibe when he’s dressed like this.” Despite your roommate’s protest, you zoom in on every aspect that catches your attention. “He looks so cute. Where’d you get this picture?”
“He’s in the drama club. They have staff pictures online.”
“Staff? Isn’t he part of the show?”
Rollo shakes his head. “According to their website, he’s credited as a stagehand.”
“No way! I always pictured him front and center. Lead role. Roses thrown on stage when he takes his bow. That sorta stuff. Not…stagehand.”
“It isn’t our place to judge or speculate.”
“But you’re totally curious, aren’t you? You wanna judge, too, don’t you? I know you do, Rollo.”
“Not nearly as much as you do. Besides, any longer here and you’ll leave Skully waiting. It’s rude to be late.”
“Shit, you’re right!” You snatch a jacket from the pile on your bed and stuff your arms through the sleeves. “See ya!”
Skully’s waiting outside the bookstore when you come jogging down the street. A surge of relief flashes through you when you notice his casual manner of dress. Plaid green slacks, a black-and-cream striped jumper, and a collared shirt with a tie. You notice he’s without his sunglasses, having swapped them for the circular frames instead.
He’s fidgeting anxiously, tugging at the oversized sleeves. When he turns his bespectacled gaze on you, he breaks out into a beaming grin and straightens his shrimp posture. He meets you halfway, covering the distance in just a few lanky strides.
“Hey! Nice to see you.” You mirror his bubbly energy after a short assessment of his person.
So this is Skulls outside of work. He seems quieter. Kinda meek.
Skully’s cheeks flush, but he still lowers to one knee and grasps your hand. You notice his hands are soft and slim, lithe fingers curling around your wrist to gently guide your hand to his chapped lips. A startling contrast you’ve since grown accustomed to after receiving so many hand-kisses from him.
“I’m honored to meet you here on such a fine day. May this glorious encounter remain everlasting in my memory.”
Cute.
“Were you waiting for a bit?”
“Not at all!” He offers his arm. “Shall we?”
You take hold of it, giggling. “We shall.”
The shop is packed full of books, all stacked and arranged on shelves that stretch up towards the ceiling. It’s a literary paradise—old and new novels, genres and titles of all ranges, the satisfying smell of a flipped page and an unbroken spine. Caught in a web of awe, you separate from Skully and shuffle deeper inside. The thin passageways between the stacks have a distinctly labyrinthine feeling to them when you can’t see what lies beyond the sea of authors.
After greeting the woman at the front, Skully trails dutifully after you. “Are you looking for anything in particular, my dear?”
“Not really. Just browsing. If you’ve got any suggestions, lay ’em on me.”
“Oh, I have a veritable cornucopia of recommendations!” He begins to rattle them off in succession, occasionally threading in his thoughts on a specific work. “Carmilla is a classic you absolutely must read! Did you know it came before Stoker’s Dracula? I think both are wonderfully eerie in their own rights. And ‘The Rats in the Walls’ is perfect if you’re looking for something that will leave you speechless and haunted.”
You’ve heard of some of the literature he’s listing off, familiar with their stains on a course syllabus, but a few of them are new.
“I should be taking notes,” you joke. “You sure know your stuff.”
“Those are just the classics. There are plenty of gothic tales published by contemporary writers.”
“Sounds like a lot to keep up with. Where do I even start?” You run your fingers along the spines as you travel down the shelf, plucking one at random. From the looks of the cover and the synopsis printed on the back, it’s a sci-fi thriller. “Do you have any favorites within the genre? What about gothic romance?”
“I couldn’t possibly settle on a favorite—not when each one is so brilliant!”
“I guess that’s fair.”
You slide the book in its spot. You’re not searching for any particular titles, so it’s with a surge of excitement that you squeal and attempt to seize the book from the shelf above. Your fingertips brush the corner of it, but you can’t quite reach it. Skully takes notice of this and grabs hold of it for you.
“This is one of my favorites!” You hug the book to your chest and then flip through a few pages to remind yourself of its greatness.
“The Phantom of the Opera! I’ve read it a handful of times. The musical production is simply stupendous!” Skully gasps and moves in closer to read from the page you’ve landed on. “I’ve always imagined how beautiful it must be to behold the Palais Garnier in all its grandeur. Would that I could witness a real opera, but I’ve never traveled abroad before.”
“I’m not an opera fan, but I love Phantom and everything related to it. I actually got to see the opera house a few years back with Rollo. He’s got family there, so it was really convenient. We went for the city’s Halloween festival and decided to get tickets for a tour since we were already there. Aah, he’s so lucky. He’s from a place with yummy food, amazing architecture, and so much history! It’s a city full of the prettiest flowers. So romantic.”
Skully nods, his gaze wandering across the words and never meeting yours. “You and Mr. Rollo do a lot together.”
You’re not sure how to respond to that. It’s not as if you and Rollo are joined at the hip, even if you do have a tendency to drag him around like he’s your own personal therapy goat. But when you aren’t under the same roof or scheduled together, you live separately. You and Rollo value solitude and independence, and sometimes the two of you need that. At the foundation of your friendship, there’s a mutual understanding you’ve never known from anyone before.
It occurs to you, while searching for an explanation to debunk the myth in Skully’s comment, that he doesn’t appear as outwardly cheerful anymore.
You turn to face him. “Are you…jealous, Skulls?”
“N-Not at all! I admire your closeness. That’s all,” he replies in a snap, mumbling the rest under his breath. “And I desire something like that for myself. I wish someone understood me the way Mr. Rollo understands you.”
Suddenly, you’re brought back to the day you broached the subject of school with him.
Does he have any friends? It’s not like I can ask him that outright without hurting his feelings. At least, I hope he thinks of me and everyone else at the shop as friends.
“If it’s any consolation, it took us a long time to understand each other. We didn’t get along at all in the beginning. Hated each other’s guts.”
“Really?” His eyes glitter in the amber lights.
“Really. We had to learn how to coexist if we wanted to continue living together.” You drum your nails over the cover of the book and fall back into reminiscence. “You should’ve heard the way we’d argue. ‘You can’t take the car on a day when I need it. That’s hardly fair.’ And I’d always say, ‘It’s my car, so you either get used to the schedule or you’ll walk!’ Random junk like that. Looking back, it was all stuff that could’ve been resolved if we weren’t so quick to bicker. Learning to share was an experience.”
“And now your companionship is sturdier than stone!” Skully applauds.
“So you’ll find someone to connect with one day. Maybe you already know them.” You nudge him encouragingly. “When I moved here, I thought this town was filled with nothing but losers and conservative assholes. I thought I’d never find my crowd. But after meeting you and the rest of the guys at the shop…” You shake your head before you can get too sentimental. “My point is that there are lots of people who see you as a friend. I’m definitely one of them.”
A look of surprise passes over his face and then it mellows out into a soft sort of acceptance. There’s pure happiness in his smile, brimming in the gloss that glistens in his orange hues.
“I’m honored to be held in such a lofty regard! You have my gratitude, my dear. No, not just my dear. You’re my very own Angel of Music!”
Beneath your clothes, you feel your skin warming considerably. It’s as if someone’s just bundled you in blankets, and now that same tingly warmth is spreading through your body from your head down to your toes. You have the strangest urge to stuff your face in a pillow, roll around on your bed until the sheets are properly tangled, and giggle like a fool. A reaction you haven’t had since you were an awkward, pimpled teenager.
“Does that make you my Christine?” you tease, winking at him.
“‘And do I dream again? For now, I find the Phantom of the Opera is there, inside my mind,’” he sings, a hand splayed across his chest. The dramatic pose prompts a sudden laugh from you. “I’m so pleased you know of it! Very few are openly appreciative of the classics like you. That, or they know nothing.”
“Are you kidding? Who doesn’t know Phantom? Studied it once for a class and never complained about another reading assignment again. It’s too good to blindly hate.”
He chuckles. “I assume you’ll be purchasing this little slice of literature then?”
“Absolutely.” You hold it up to the light, proud as a peacock. Its weathered cover and dog-eared pages are the closest thing to treasure. “I’ve always wanted a copy for myself.”
“’Twas fate you’d find it here.”
The both of you travel up and down the aisles, picking books and flipping through the pages for random passages. Skully reads from Edgar Allan Poe’s “The Raven,” citing each line in a bold, deep timbre. Or as deep as he can manage in between his laughter. You huddle close in the corner of the bookstore and giggle like children concealing a secret.
It’s a little over an hour by the time you step out into the sunshine, side by side and brimming with satisfaction. Most of the leaves have shriveled and fallen from the trees, punctuating every step of your path with a musical, multicolored crunch.
“So opera, yeah? Tell me more about that,” you say, swinging your bag in time with your casual stride.
“It’s a curiosity I explore every now and then. I’m especially fond of classical music, you see, and opera is just so magnificent. The entertaining ensemble, the emotions, the orchestra, the beautiful stage, the variety of intonations! Aah, there are so many elements to opera that make my heart skip in exultation.”
You watch him gesticulate as he praises each part and can’t stop the laughter from slipping out. Skully hesitates around his words, suddenly self-conscious.
“Forgive me. My propensity for verbosity gets the best of me at times…”
“I don’t mind. I think it’s sweet when you talk about your interests with so much passion.” Smiling, you nudge him with kittenish intent. “And a little verbosity never hurt me.”
“I’m pleased you think so. Truthfully, my classmates… They just couldn’t hope to understand.” He breathes a wistful sigh. “Which is why I’m forever grateful to be acquainted with you. Oh, and Mr. Honest, dear Gidel, and Mr. Rollo as well!”
“Your classmates are missing out.”
“On what, if I may ask?”
“On you.”
Struck speechless, he blinks at you.
“You’re amazing, Skulls. One of the coolest guys I’ve ever met. Maybe I’m stating the obvious, but it’s the truth. I don’t know anyone who’s as earnest about Halloween as you are, and I definitely don’t know anyone who can turn a solo into a duet. And in the freezing rain—are you kidding?! You’re talented, passionate, respectful, and always authentic. And your poetry’s award-worthy. Those qualities are hard to find in people nowadays. Last time a girl wrote me a poem, she rhymed nice with lice. Like, thanks for saying my kindness is like an insect. A parasitic insect.” With a scoff, you stuff your hands in the pockets of your oversized varsity jacket. It was a parting gift from a not-boyfriend. You’ve only held onto it for so long because it’s warm and comfortable…and because you feel bad for forgetting his name. “Romance is dead and I hate illiteracy.”
Skully stares at you, soaking in your ardent adulation. It colors his cheeks a very pleasant salmon-pink, and a shy smile plays on his lips. He fixes his eyes on the path ahead.
“If I may amend her comparison… You deserve to be recognized for more than just your kindness, and it is not at all parasitic.” Having gathered the words, he clears his throat. “Your laughter is soft as sugar mice, your brave, brutal honesty renders all to ribbons with its slice, and it would humble me honorably to admit you warm my thoughts like the sweetest spice. Or that’s how I would write it, if I was that girl and I wanted to use simple words that rhyme with nice.” He coughs and pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose.
A breeze rustles through the square. You inhale deeply.
Holy shit. He improvised that like it was nothing and it’s actually kinda good.
You want to ask him if he means it, but you dread the answer and what might lie beneath.
“How are you not married already?” you blurt, lacking the decorum to speak in complicated codes.
Skully sputters. “M-M-Married?!”
“Hey, look—there’s the place you told me about the other day. Let’s go!” Seizing his hand, you pull him along towards the storefront.
Ew, ew, ew! Why did I say that? Maybe being cringe and free isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.
It’s as if you’ve entered an old-fashioned world primed for Halloween when you step inside the cozy café. The fragrance of fresh coffee beans and sugary pastries hangs heavy in the air. Friendly spooks smile back at you from where they drape in paper chains. You marvel at the glass case near the register, covered in faux cobwebs and stretching the length of a table for six. A large assortment of delectable desserts are positioned within, and for a minute you think you’ve drifted right into the best dream.
“I’d buy them all if I could,” you whisper, pressing your palm against the cool, reflective surface as if you expect the treats to reach for you like in The Shape of Water. Turning to Skully, you point at a generously-sized slice of pumpkin pie. “Wanna share?”
“I desire nothing more.”
You place your orders. Skully settles on spiced cider and you choose vanilla chai, two ideal beverages to combat the chilly bite in the air. Before Skully can be a gentleman, you shove your card at the lady. He looks like he wants to protest, but a sly wink from you has him clamming up.
“You didn’t have to,” he says once he finds his voice.
“But I did.”
A handful of crumpled cash is held out to you next. “Please allow me to remunerate you!”
“What? No way. This is my thanks to you. I won’t accept refunds!” You push his arm away, and eventually he pockets the money.
“Then… Thank you! I will treasure your goodwill forever and always.”
You and Skully find a table near the window. It’s when you set the plate down beside your drinks that you realize the single fork.
“Looks like we’re sharing a fork, too.”
Skully’s face explodes with color. “But that’s much too scandalous! I couldn’t—I shouldn’t!”
“Why not? It’s just a fork.”
You cut a tiny portion for yourself and lift it to your lips. The pumpkin pie is soft and carries with it subtle hints of cinnamon and nutmeg. Your hum of satisfaction draws Skully out of his trance, and it’s when you offer him a bite that he begins to fluster.
“F-From the same fork… Oh, that’s much too intimate,” he murmurs hastily, his hands on his cheeks. He looks at the pumpkin pie with a doleful pout.
“C’mon, it’s not the pie of perpetual woe.” Giggling, you wiggle the fork. You’re partially aware of the effect this has on him, so you’re ready to take the blame if he bursts from the embarrassment. It’s too tempting. “Only fair if you get to enjoy it with me. Now say ‘aah’.”
Orange eyes flick from your hand to the piece and then past it all to your grinning face. He swallows thickly and leans in to meet the fork halfway. He chews mindfully.
“Oh, this is scrumptious! A fine slice of pie indeed.”
“Isn’t it? Here, have more.” You’re in the process of securing another bite when he stops you.
“M-Maybe I could…use the fork this time—for the rest of the time, actually?”
“Be my guest.”
After surrendering the utensil for Skully to peacefully eat his fill, you sample your vanilla chai. Silky tendrils curl up from the rich, redolent beverage, reminding you of little ghosts. The sip burns the tip of your tongue, but that doesn’t deter you from drinking more.
Vanilla chai is the best. Definitely a sacred gift from the gods. No exaggeration, you think, comforted by the blend of warm spices. I bet their café au lait is just as good, too. I should see if Rollo’s been here before.
You’re so caught up in your internal monologue that you fail to notice Skully’s admiring you. When he began, you can’t say. But suddenly the pumpkin pie slice is down to the crust and the fork is stained black from your lipstick. Skully rests his elbows on the table, his chin propped in his palms, and he watches you with a dreamy smile. It softens his already gentle features to angelic levels. He’s not wearing makeup today, so it’s much easier to spot the rouge that colors his cheeks. Now that you’re analyzing him and the events of the day up to this point, he’s done a lot of blushing. More than he normally does.
Shit.
You know that look. So does the Rollo in your head.
He’s going to fall for you if he hasn’t already.
“What do you wanna do after this? Rollo decided to be lame and make it a study day, so he’s not around. I was thinking we could go back to my place and play video games, but I’m down for anything.”
“A spot of video gaming sounds delightful! Um… How does one ‘video game’?”
“You’ve never played video games before? Like never, ever?”
“I can’t say I’ve had the pleasure, no. I don’t have anything like that at my house. We have board games, though! I assume it’s something similar?”
“Seriously? You’re missing out! We’ve gotta play something then. I think you’ll love Layers of Fear and Little Nightmares. There’s Dead by Daylight, too.”
“If it’s by your recommendation, I’d be foolish to turn a blind eye.”
Platonic. It’s just platonic. There’s nothing happening here. Like I said, platonic vibes only.
Repeat that mantra you may, something still gnaws at you—the need to prove that it’s not a lie. To force a fact from the cruel chrysalis of truth. To make Rollo choke on his words.
And when I’m right he’ll have to dress in costume to make up for his idiocy.
Supremely satisfied, worries temporarily shelved, you slip into simple conversation about games. While Skully recounts his favorite childhood games, the names of each make you wonder whether he really is a Victorian lad stuck in the wrong time. You suppose marbles, jump rope, and dolls aren’t antique. Despite being on the precipice of obsoletion, sought after only by collectors, they’re still somewhat prevalent today.
Even so, there’s something endearing about a sheltered Skully scribbling in notebooks and enacting complex plots with porcelain dolls and toy soldiers.
“How about you, my dear? What did you do for fun in your youth?”
“Mm, I’m not sure… My dad owned a console and had a few computer games, but I was never allowed to play them. So instead I drew a lot. Loved listening to music and doing puzzles. I never could solve any of them, though. The colored cubes were the hardest, but they were fun to mull over. It helped pass the time.”
“I listened to music, too! Raindrops on the windows, the tip-tap of nails against all types of surfaces, the wind whistling through glass chimes… Aah, the nostalgia of a natural symphony is wondrous.”
Somehow, knowing what Skulls is like, that information isn’t very surprising.
“Any other music?”
“Lots! My parents have a gramophone that’s been in our family for generations.”
“Whoa! That’s awesome! I bet it plays all sortsa stuff.”
“Mostly records. Just records, actually. I would love to show you someday. I think you’ll find classical pieces are quite compelling. They’re brilliant sources for inspiration.”
“Ooh, I’ll have to take you up on that invitation. We can listen to classical music and do some writing.”
Skully smiles, enamored with the suggestion. “I’m grateful if you even give it a smidge of consideration. It would be an honor to host you.”
With your cups now empty and the pie reduced to crumbs, you and Skully drop the dishes in the to-wash bin on your way out. Determined to do one act of gentlemanly service, he holds the door for you. He’s the picture of confidence, oozing eager smiles, so you walk through.
“Why, thank you, Mr. Graves.”
“Anything for my lady,” he replies with exaggerated aplomb, lowering into a dignified bow.
Even though the clouds obscure the sun, thus adding another unnecessary layer of cold to an already nippy day, the walk back to your apartment is all comfy conversation and lighthearted laughter. You find yourself grinning so much that your cheeks have started to ache, but it isn’t unpleasant or burdensome. It’s just the diversion your body needs to ignore the chill seeping through to your marrow. You regret wearing a skirt, even if your leg warmers provide a modicum of protection against the encroaching frost, but in the presence of Skully you’ve never felt warmer.
You can’t shake it—this growing fondness. It’s always been there; you’ve just never paid it any mind. Maybe it’s become so prominent because you’ve never been privy to this side of Skully—one that’s so shy and reserved, a quiet contrast to the boisterous character you work with at Fellow’s shop—and you find yourself charmed by that. He’s like a scarf or a hug or your favorite plush, carrying with him the comforts of inviting, dependable softness.
And he’s weird, but that’s his most lovable trait next to everything else.
“Hey, you’re not wearing your crown!” You reach up to touch his hair and he jerks away in a flash.
“W-Well, yes… Um. Is that a bad thing?”
“No. Just different.” You skip ahead towards your building, twirling your keys. They jingle in time with the rhythm of your footsteps. “I like Skully with and without the crown because either way he’s still himself, and that’s perfect to me.”
He has to collect himself, for when your back is turned to him he shakes with merriment. It’s at your calling of, “You coming, Skulls?” that he hurries along.
Once at your front door, the key turned in the lock, you realize something.
“We’re kinda like Jack and Sally, aren’t we?”
“W-We are?! Is it because we’re simply meant to be?” Hope is sewn into each hasty syllable.
“What? No. It’s because you’re tall and I’m wearing patchwork fishnets.” You stick your leg out so he can view the various patterns sewn together. A spiderweb, hearts, roses, spirals, zigzags, polka dots. “Just like Jack and Sally!”
“Ah, right… That’s what you were implying. Please ignore my wishful connection.”
What the fuck! What the fuck! What. The. Fuck was that?!
You push the door open in your haste to shake off whatever all of that just was. It’s a reference to his favorite film—you know that much. But the implications in it—in what Jack and Sally are… You give yourself a mental kick and file inside the apartment. It smells like apples and cardamom and is filled to bursting with houseplants. Most of them are Rollo’s. Actually, who are you kidding? They’re all Rollo’s. Your thumb is about as green as the radioactive waste you see in cartoons.
We’re like Jack and Sally? Am I dumb as dirt? Why would I say that without thinking? They’re love interests! Lovers! And Skulls and I are…not.
Shrugging your jacket off, you trudge deeper inside and drop it on the nearby sofa. Skully, having left his shoes at the door, trots after you.
It wouldn’t be an issue if I knew where he stood, but I don’t and so this is basically like me edging him over the course of however-many-months he’s been feeling this—if he even has feelings at all. Uuugh. Skulls, why can’t I read your mind? If I could, all of this would be so much easier… Maybe.
“Welcome to home, sweet home. Make yourself comfortable. My room’s this way.” With a surprising amount of balance, you manage to tug your sneakers off as you wobble-walk down the hall.
It’ll be fine. We’re gonna play some games and it’ll be totally chill. Nothing weird. You glance over your shoulder to find a starry-eyed Skully gazing at the autumn decorations strewn smartly about the kitchenette and sitting room. Damn it, Rollo! Why did you have to put that nonsense in my head? Now I’m overanalyzing every one of Skulls’s behaviors like some stalker just to prove your stupid ass wrong.
Your room is exactly how you left it: a mess. But you’re just shameless enough to not care about appearances. Skully watches you push all of your potential outfits onto the floor, looking away when his gaze happens to fall on a stray bra.
He has such a vintage heart… Fuck, Skulls, you’re way too polite for your own good, you think, swiping the remote from beneath the wrinkled sheets.
“Your bedroom is resplendent, my dear.” He glances at the many lights strung along the bed frame and fastened to the walls. To make up for your abysmal botanical brilliance, you’ve filled strangely-shaped jars and vases with plastic flowers and paper stars, and you’ve even hung strands of faux ivy in empty corners. In his scan of your chaotic decorations, he notices the pumpkin-shaped fairy lights situated above the headboard of your bed. “Truly spectacular!”
“Don’t you think you’re laying it on too thick?”
“Not at all! This place has a warm and welcoming feeling. It’s very alluring.”
You set your copy of The Phantom of the Opera on the ledge beneath the window, a gem you’ll pry open later tonight. Various trinkets greet you with painted faces and mirror reflections when you peer at them, all set in a line like misfit soldiers.
“Alluring, huh?” You sit on the edge of your bed and fold one leg over the other. “Okaaay. Tell me, then—what makes it seem so?”
“You.”
“Me…” And then you look at him sharply. “Me?”
“This entire room is very you.” Skully gestures to each section while he speaks. “The decorations, the lingering fragrances from candles and perfumes, the charming clutter that gives this space its character—it’s all part of who you are. Tiny tidbits of (Name), revealing unto me a beauty I’ve only just scratched the surface of.”
I’m not sure you can find beauty in a mess.
“Well, this is a first. Rollo usually tells me I’d make good friends with the rats in their nests, so thanks for the optimistic review.”
Skully shakes his head, but the motion slithers down to his hands as well. He waves them in front of you in objection. “You misunderstand! It isn’t just mindless optimism. These are pieces of my heart—the truth—shared freely with you! I really do admire your room.”
Pieces of your heart?
“Huh.”
Falling backwards, you lie on your back like a turtle overturned. The ceiling is the easiest thing to comprehend here. Nothing to dissect amidst the cracking drywall and smears of long-dead insects, all of which were subjected to the brutal thwacking from your slipper.
No one’s that nice. Even Fellow has his limits. But then you cringe at that. Maybe he’s not the standard I should be comparing Skulls to. They’re on completely different levels.
“Um… Is something the matter?”
You lift your head only slightly to view Skully, who stands awkwardly at the end of your bed.
“Yeah. I’m struggling.”
“Oh! Is—well, is there anything I can do to be of service? I’m sorry if I did something o-or if I crossed a boundary at all! It wasn’t my intention. Aah, I’m a vile reprobate—a soul most wretched! To make my lady uncomfortable when I only meant to commend her lovely room…”
“Whoa, hey! It’s not your fault. I’m debating something and can’t seem to decide.”
Skully’s eyes, which were starting to gleam with tears, light up. “A debate?”
“Mhm.” You sit up and level him with a grin. “Are we feeling a movie or video games today? What’re the vibes?”
You can feel the charged energy in the room disperse at once, and Skully visibly slackens in relief.
“If it’s a movie it has to be The Nightmare Before Christmas, of course! What better way to welcome October than with Lord Jack!”
A giggle rises in your chest. “Sure. We can do that.”
Finding the remote buried beneath the covers, you click the old TV on and scroll through your watchlist until you locate it. It’s been a few weeks since you’ve seen it, having rewatched it with Rollo to acquaint him with the references Skully would undoubtedly make during shifts. That, and it’s an enjoyable watch. If there’s one thing you know about Skully J. Graves, it’s that he has impeccable taste.
You shift on your bed until you’re cozied up against the wall of pillows lining the headboard. And then you turn towards him and pat the space beside you.
He hesitates, fidgeting on his feet, before stiffly seating himself on the edge.
“Here.” You toss him an oversized goat plush—a souvenir from Rollo’s home city. “Get comfy and veg out properly. There’s plenty of room.” To prove it, you relax against the pillows and stretch your legs.
Skully’s gaze climbs up the length of your legs before quickly snapping up to your face. “Is this really okay?”
“Why wouldn’t it be? I don’t care if you chill on my bed.”
You wouldn’t be the first guy to do so.
His apprehension made obvious, you heave a sympathetic sigh and sit up. “Do I make you uncomfortable? You can be honest. It won’t offend me.”
It’ll just hurt. A little. A lot.
“N-Not at all!” You’re almost certain that’s a lie. “It’s just… Well… To be perfectly transparent, I’ve never been inside a lady’s room before…” He hugs the plush close to his chest as if hiding behind the fluffy veil it provides. “That is to say, it feels wrong to trespass in this sacred space when you haven’t even met my parents. Isn’t this the sort of meeting meant for wedding nights? It’s too special!”
Meeting his parents? Wedding nights? What is he on about?
You lift yourself from the sheets and shuffle closer to where he’s anchored at the very edge. He’s a bundle of stress and anxiety, scrunched up like he’s hoping to shrink out of sight. The connection doesn’t occur to you at first. You were so busy refuting it that it struggled to slip through your defenses, but with that now compromised the realization finally rears its head.
“That Spider Queen you wrote about—she’s supposed to be me.”
Skully angles his body towards you. He opens his mouth like he’s about to confess the many secrets sewn into his soul, but all he can manage is a nervous noise. His face flares up, treacherously lambent. The silence is confirmation enough.
Now you’re left with a scary thought: Is the Spider Queen a comparison birthed from libidinous attraction or romantic affection? If it’s meaningless lust, you can work with that. You deal in the casual sway of physical and emotional desire like it’s second nature.
But romance is craggy, unstable terrain—all steep, jagged, perilous curves and drops. You can’t maneuver around something so high-stakes.
“Jack’s Lament” reaches your ears then. Your gaze pans over to the TV, where the melancholic Pumpkin King climbs the infamous Spiral Hill.
Deep down, you had an inkling there was some connection between you and the Spider Queen. You just didn’t want to trust in Rollo’s shrewdness. Annoyingly, he’s usually right with these things. His ability to see everything in objective scope will forever chew at you. You who is almost always caught in the cobwebs of everything but what rests within reality.
“Please forgive my transgression.” Skully’s kneeling in front of you now, his head bowed as if in anticipation of admonishment. “I meant no harm! I only meant to convey my thoughts and feelings, and I did so through the Great and Glorious Spider Queen. I understand if you find it improper. I… I’m willing to burn every poem I’ve ever written. As long as it will bring you peace, I’ll do anything.”
“I’m not upset. I’m, like, insanely flattered to be your muse. That’s what it’s called, right?”
His head snaps up to look at you, and he manages a shy nod. You notice the tears gathered at the corners of his eyes, and this time he can’t hide behind his sunglasses. “So… So you still wish to see me at work?”
“Are you kidding? Hell yeah I wanna see you! You’re the best part of those boring shifts. You make work feel like we’re getting paid to have fun.” You tilt your head at him and lightly bat his shoulder. “So don’t worry. I’m totally cool being part of your writerly inspiration if it means you’ll continue producing some kick-ass poetry.”
He straightens up and tries a shaky smile. “My dear, have I neglected to mention you’re an affable angel? I’m forever beholden to you.”
“They call me Miss Affable for a reason.” No one has ever done that before, but you’re glad his anxious expression is finally shifting into one of amusement. Because you’re you and can’t help it, you add, “So how’d I become the Spider Queen?”
“Well, you always have such beautifully sharp nails. It reminds me of a spider: dexterous and strong, yet gentle in their artistry. They must be if they’re to weave such meticulous patterns into their webs. Like you.”
You give an impressed whistle and flash your acrylics proudly. “Thank you, thank you.”
“And…female spiders are often in charge of s-sexual encounters. They’re more dominant than the males. S-Sometimes…” He rubs his arm nervously. “Sometimes the male will t-tie the female up just to avoid being cannibalized at the end of copulation.” And then he ducks his head in shame, a fierce blush sweeping over his face. “I apologize most heartily. It’s strange, I’m aware. Please pay no heed to it.”
I get it now. He has the hots for me. That’s all this is.
You’d punch the air in celebration, but you don’t want to scare Skully off. This situation requires tact and patience. Gentle, you remind yourself. Don’t chase him away.
“You’re saying those aspects of spider sex remind you of…me?”
Am I really that frightening?!
“Oh, that wasn’t my intention! I didn’t mean to offend. I-I only meant to draw attention to your many strengths as they align with that of spiders.”
“Aah, all right.” You click your tongue and eye him like a predator would prey. “So if I’m the Spider Queen, does that make you the Spider King?”
“I could never flatter myself with that title.” He shakes his head. “Rather, I’m just an ordinary fly.”
“Hey, you deserve to be praised, too. I can’t be all-powerful and perfect in your poems.”
“You could be. You are.” He shrinks back when you creep in, pushing himself against your wall.
“And you’re more than an ‘ordinary fly’ to me.” Playfully, you place your index beneath his chin and lift his gaze to yours. “As Queen, I hereby decree that you, Skulls, are to be my Spider King for the rest of today.”
“Just today?”
“Mhm. And then you can decide if you still want to be a fly.”
“If I still want to be a fly…” he echoes, searching your face for any indication of a blague. You notice the way he lingers on your mouth, caught in a web of his own making, and suddenly your mind’s made up.
“Tell me what you want.”
He chokes on his reply. “W-What I want? Uh… Um. I…” He turns to look helplessly at the TV, as if Jack Skellington can poke his skull out of the screen and offer a satisfactory answer in his stead.
You think you might be cornering him, so you back off. “Sorry! I didn’t mean to pressure you. Maybe we’re not on the same wavelength like I initially thought…”
“No, we are! At least, I’m hopeful we are because I—” He inhales deeply and rushes through the rest of his sentence. “B-Because it’s not what I desire but, rather, who. You, my dear. It’s you whom my heart longs for like that of a parched plant.”
His hands twitch towards the beginning of a protective barrier, but he catches himself and twists them together instead.
“Well then, shall we, my Spider King?”
His hasty nod isn’t good enough. You need to hear him say it—need the confirmation that this is just sex and nothing more.
“If at any point you wish to stop—”
“I won’t.” Conviction hardens his wobbling tone. “I want to do this.”
You wink. “Then I hope I live up to the legend.”
Unceremoniously, you lift your shirt up and over your head and toss it aside. Your skirt goes next. Skully marvels at the sight of you, transfixed by your black, lacy bra and matching panties. An exquisite garter belt hugs your waist, its hooks attached to your thigh-high fishnets. In every sense of the word, you’re ravishing.
“Oh,” he breathes, taking you in like one does a portrait of incredible renown. He reaches for you next, his fingers curling through the air, and stops himself. In a quieter voice you think you’re not supposed to hear, he says, “I’m spellbound, hopelessly so. No. No, I shouldn’t. Aah, but if only I could…”
“You can touch me. No need to be shy.” You creep towards him on the bed. Your acrylics drum a teasing rhythm along his arm, and he flinches in surprise when you lean closer to whisper in his ear. “I won’t bite…unless you want me to.”
His face explodes with color and he slaps his hands over his cheeks. “W-Would you?”
“Do you want me to?”
“Only—” Skully swallows thickly, his throat bobbing. “O-Only if it won’t b-bother you…”
“Not at all.” You take hold of his hand and guide it to your chest. “So you’re into biting, hmm? What other scandalous mischief does my Spider King like to get off to?”
“I shouldn’t say.”
“Why not?”
“It’s…shameful.”
“Try me.”
Skully looks between his hand cupped around your breast and your challenging smirk. Somewhat shyly, he cradles your other unattended breast and squeezes curiously. And then he slides both hands beneath your bra to explore without the pesky barrier of fabric.
“Mm. Well. I… I wish to hear your voice when we…” He clears his throat and gazes at you, shy and sincere. “And I want you to talk to me. I want you to tell me I’m doing it properly—that it’s pleasing.”
“I can do that. Anything else?”
His stare lingers on your lips, but he’s quick to center his attention on your face. “I want to make you happy. More than anything. I hope… I hope I can be the one to add light to the bewitching depths of your beautiful eyes. There’s a distinct melancholy in them—your eyes, I mean. I’ve always noticed it.”
Way to put me under a microscope, Skulls.
“That doesn’t sound shameful at all.” Looping your arms around his neck, you coax him closer. You sink into the pillows and Skully melts against you. “It’s all very sweet.”
“But I’m selfish,” he admits, his mouth at your neck. “I want to give you the world and everything in it even if that takes away from others. When that ghoulish brute showed up and treated you so callously, I wanted nothing more than to slam his head into the wall… Just so he’d stop hurting you.”
Strangely, your heart flutters. That’s…new.
“I want to protect your smile, your happiness, your heart… All of it. All of you. I want to take all of your pain and sadness away—cloak your fear in warmth so that you’ll only know comfort. If I could, I’d do it in a blink.” In a softer voice, he adds, “I… I hope I can. I’ll try.”
“Why? There’s no need to go that far.”
My pussy cannot be that good.
You force a brittle laugh and then giggle when he presses another peck into your jugular, as if he’s trying to leave an invisible mark of affection.
“You’re worth it.”
“Am I?”
“Indubitably.”
The kisses trail up your throat to your jaw. His hips rut uselessly against yours, his dick straining against his slacks. You catch his face in your hands and admire his pale skin burning bright beneath your palms, shimmering with sweat.
“You’re cute, Skulls.”
He chokes on a hitched breath. “Y-You think so? I think you’re much cuter.”
“Whaaat? No way.”
You kiss his cheek, leaving a dark print in the wake of your lips, and revel in the way he proves your point when he stumbles over his retort. Slyly, you shift your hands to his shoulders, down, down, down until they’re sliding beneath his sweater. He squeaks when your warm palms rest over his chest to map out the feel of him. You trace his skeleton in your exploration, internally naming off various bones when your fingertips press down on them. He whimpers when you settle on his hips.
“You can kiss me, you know.”
“May I truly?”
“What’s stopping you?”
“Well…” He inhales sharply when you palm at his erection. His brows crease together, and he nuzzles into the crook of your neck. “I’ve never kissed anyone before.”
“And you want your first kiss to be with me?” You say it like it’s something he ought to rethink, but his next admission indicates that he is not on the same humorous page as you.
“Just you. Only you. I wouldn’t dare dream of it with anyone else.”
You grasp his chin to hold him still. Orange meets (eye color). “Then follow my lead. Don’t think too much. Just feel.”
You’re the safety net who catches him when he falls—the sticky strands of web that ensnare the fly. You fit your lips against his. They’re chapped and cracked, but they’re honest and reveal an inexperience you were expecting. He’s paralyzed, his hands frozen at your sides, caging you in against the pillows, and so you smooth his paranoia with comforting strokes along his back and up his shoulders. He sucks on your lip in an attempt to keep pace with you, hotly molding his mouth to yours. You’re reminded of a dog slobbering all over its owner when it’s excited, and the image of Skully with a wagging tail and floppy ears bleeds vividly into your wild imagination.
“I’m sorry,” he pants once you’ve broken away. “I’ve much to learn. I just—I don’t want you to be displeased.”
“It’s fine. No one’s an expert their first time. I wasn’t.” You kiss his cheek consolingly, tilting your head to meet him halfway for another saccharine smooch. He whines appreciatively. You break to speak. “And it is pleasing. Very much so.”
You seize his wrist and drag it towards your sopping panties, allowing him to feel liquid proof of your arousal. Skully stares at you in awe. He presses against the wet patch and you suck in a shivery breath. When he drags his hand back, his fingertips are moistened with your slick.
“All of this…from me?”
“Mhm. Most don’t get it like this.”
“This wet?”
“I’m not easy,” you lie because you’ve been nothing but easy today. A peculiarity you’ve decided to ignore for the time being.
“No. No, of course not,” he babbles, shaking his head rapidly. “It’s beautiful. You—” He cups your face. “You’re…beautiful.”
“Thanks, Skulls.”
He runs his thumb over your cheek, smiling.
A minute ticks by. Neither of you says anything, and Skully makes no effort to break this silent spell. You’ve never truly looked at him before. A real, punctilious look, one of assessment. He has such a kind, handsome face. You’re not sure why he hides behind his sunglasses. If it was your choice, you’d have him wear his glasses. They’re nerdy but in an attractive way. The look suits him.
Eventually, though there’s something flattering about being pinned under his adoring stare, you can’t bear it any longer. You place your hand over his and clear your throat.
“So…”
“Oh! Right. Yes, that’s right!” He scrambles away, hurrying to pull his sweater over his head. “Sorry, my darling. I was so caught up in you I almost forgot what I was doing. It’s like when you see something so exquisite that it roots you in place and all you can do is simply stop and admire. Do you know the feeling?”
“I do.”
You giggle at his muffled rambling and lift the sweater to hear him clearly. He blinks back at you, his glasses sitting tilted on the slope of his nose. You’ve been told all sorts of things in bed, each of your partners choosing their own salacious nicknames for you. You’ve never been very partial to any of them. They’re all flimsy words at the end of the day, buoyant and ephemeral, never sticking no matter how much you secretly want them to.
None of them ever do. They never feel right or real, more of a placeholder for bedroom pornography. You want to be lavished so much you drown in the praise and blarney.
You reach for his glasses, fold them up, and place them aside. “You’re a natural charmer, aren’t you, Skulls?”
“I mean it.”
“Everyone does in the heat of the moment.”
“But I—” He stops short, chewing his lip, and softens the admission to a dejected, near-inaudible murmur. “I mean it always…”
You peer into his face and conveniently choose to ignore it.
“Which way do you want me?”
“Every way,” he blurts. “Or whichever way you wish to be had in.”
You laugh. “I feel bad. Like you’re doing most of the work and I’m neglecting your pleasure.”
“Oh, please don’t! You’re not. This is everything I could’ve ever imagined and more.”
You poke at his bare chest with a manicured finger. Dark lips twist into a convincing puppy-pout. “Come on, Skulls. You can be greedy with me. What do you want? I’ll do it.”
Skully withdraws enough for you to sit up properly. He allows himself to fall when you push. His hands fly to his face. A crooked part of you is satisfied to see him wriggling beneath you, his legs bent up awkwardly, as if he really is strung up in your web. You pull them apart easily, slotting yourself there. Peeking at you through the cracks in his fingers, he watches your hands dance along the waistband of his slacks.
“You wanted me to bite you, didn’t you?”
He nods weakly, the words clogged in his throat.
“I think you’re holding back. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to. I won’t pry, but I am curious.”
You undo the button and zip on his pants and slide them down. You’re not sure what you were expecting, but your stomach somersaults at the sight of his hefty erection straining against the fabric. His boxers are comically patterned with expressive cartoon pumpkins. He’s nothing if not loyal to the brand.
“I… I-I…” he stammers from behind his hand-shield, forcing the syllables out. “I… I really want your phone number!”
“My…phone number?”
That’s a first. Most guys usually want a blowjob or anal from me. Did I hear him right?
“I really, really long to talk to you. O-Outside of the shop, I mean. But I… I didn’t want to impose. I saw how much it bothered you when customers pestered you for it and I thought maybe you might not want mine. A-And it’s very fine if you don’t! But…I would like to talk to you, if you’ll allow it. I want to know you—all of you, every precious side—if you’ll allow it.”
The request is so stunning it temporarily blanks your brain. You come to with a mechanical nod, your palm hovering over his dick print.
“Yeah… Yeah, of course you can have it.”
That’s it? Is it really that simple?
You realize it’s been four years since you and Skully met. Has he always wanted your number, or is this new?
Does it matter?
Social anxiety exists. He’s probably shy. And I guess I’m kinda to blame for scaring him into thinking he couldn’t have it.
Again, you decide it’s not worth the deliberation. With your mind now successfully emptied of those mood killers, you focus on peeling his boxers away to reveal what’s waiting beneath. It springs up to meet your hand, pathetically weeping pre-cum, and he goes stock-still when you wrap your fingers around the tip and thumb at his slit.
“O-Oh—if you do that—” A gasp shudders through him. “(Name)—”
“I’ve got you. Just relax.”
Skully tries to, but he throws his head back the moment you drag your hand down his length. His skin prickles with a shiver, and he gazes blearily at the ceiling and then at you. It’s almost too much, adorable and titillating at the same time. You want to see how far you can take your teasing, how much more until he’s sobbing.
You care about your coworker and want him to experience only the best slivers of seventh heaven, but you also want to see him shift through a range of emotions, to make his back arch up against the sheets while you stroke him to climax, and feel satisfied knowing it was you who got him there. Maybe it’s this cruelty and the spark of electric lust that are intrinsic to your nature—to that of the famed Spider Queen.
“Do you wanna cum inside?”
He lowers his hands, looking like you’ve just asked for marriage. Orange eyes glimmer brighter than the fairy lights strung around your bed frame.
“My lovely darling, your benevolence is inspiring.”
A laugh rattles in your chest. Not because it’s funny but because he really does mean it, and perhaps it’s this virginal authenticity that encourages the sound. Like it’s been tickled out of you, a delightful noise that pairs well with his rosy cheeks. You move to straddle him next, and he props himself on his elbows to observe. There’s a soft stutter in his breath when you tug your panties aside and, holding him still, position yourself. The soft head of his cock kisses your slick folds, and you can almost hear the flowery poetry lurking on his tongue.
But he keeps his mouth shut, absolutely enamored with the erotica brought to life before his very eyes. You’re about to sink down when he squeaks.
You pause. “What’s up?”
“I’d like to hold you when we… Is that all right with you?”
“That’s fine. Come here.”
Skully sits with his feet tucked under his rear, kneeling very patiently. You move to straddle him once more and reach between your bodies to spread yourself open. His hands find your waist. This time, you lower yourself without issue. The stretch has both of you hissing through your teeth. It’s delicious.
You’ve only taken half of him and you think he’s about to pass out from the pleasure, but then he grips your hips and tips you over. Gasping, you fall back against the sheets and scramble for purchase. He steadies you, dragging your hips up to meet his, and it occurs to you, now arranged in missionary, that he’s leaning in to savor the warmth of your bodies pressed close.
Like a spider, you think, impressed. Look at you, Skulls.
You’d give him the euphoria of a bite—canines in his shoulder—but it’s hard to think when he’s so set on rutting into you with reckless abandon.
“Inside you… I’m inside you. Our bodies—” he grunts and bows his head— “are kissing! So sweetly. So wonderful…”
You cling to him, digging your fingers into his shoulders. Your nails will have to take the place of teeth for now. That’s romantic, you manage to think in between the thoughtless daze. A sharp gasp tumbles from your lips.
“Does it hurt?” he whispers, pressing his forehead to yours next.
“It’s fine. Are you okay?”
Skully peers at you, orange eyes alight in the dimness of your room. With his dazed expression and the blush dusting his cheeks, he looks pure and cherubic. Sweet and shy. An exact opposite of the eccentric gentleman he normally masquerades as at work. There’s a certain vulnerability to this Skully, whose layers have been rendered bare here.
“Mhm,” he hums, pushing in deeper. You deflate against the many pillows propped behind you and sigh dreamily. His mouth ghosts over yours. “I’ve dreamt a moment just like this on countless nights.”
Before either of you realize it, you’re kissing again. Despite his awkward non-technique, Skully’s movements are gentle. He kisses the corner of your mouth, your chin, your cheek, your lips—every inch of your face.
“I love you,” he admits suddenly, panting, and places his hands on either side of you. “Oh, I love you so much. I’ve always—a-always loved you. You’re my everything.”
You halt your physical reciprocations, for the emotions don’t match up.
Oh, you think worriedly. Oh, no. No, no, nooooo.
“Skulls—”
“And I want to continue loving you for as long as I’m alive.” He thrusts aimlessly, his breath caught in his throat. “And… Aah… I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. (Name)… My darling, my lovely, you mean so much to me—more than I can ever hope to describe.”
No, no, no! Don’t say that!
“Skully, wait.”
His hips stutter to a stop then, and he pulls back from the column of your throat to look at you. “Is… Is something wrong, my dear?”
You realize now that the my dear and every other hypocorism he uses for you holds a special weight when contrasted with the rest.
“I…” Exhaling a rattled breath, you try and fail to meet his concerned stare. “I can’t do this.”
In your peripheral, Skully opens his mouth to speak and then promptly shuts it. A shadow flickers on his countenance. You can’t tell if it’s betrayal or sadness or something worse.
“I understand,” he mumbles after a long moment.
No further words are exchanged. He slides out, climbs off of you, and quietly dresses himself. You turn over on your back, hug a pillow to your chest, and drown in the tidal wave of regret that washes over you.
He’s going to fall for you if he hasn’t already, Rollo told you, but you didn’t believe him. And why should you? You’ve had plenty of people lust after you to varying degrees, but they’ve never loved you.
Not like Skully does, that is. He loves you in every conceivable way and never expects anything in return. He loves you with everything he has, heart and soul, and you could feel the sugar crystallizing in his confession. He loves the unlovable you. The you who is vulgar and impatient. The you who has a temper. The you who is awkward and strange. The you who is broken. The you who is sometimes semi-whole.
He loves everything about you—the good and the bad. He loves you for you.
You weren’t ready to battle that monster today.
You feel the soft caress of the duvet and realize Skully’s draped it over you. In a panic, you turn around to confront him.
“Skulls, I’m—”
But he’s already gone. Minutes later, you hear the front door shut behind him.
“Sorry…”
Immediately, you slap your hands over your face and groan.
What am I doing?
You pull the blanket up to your chin and lie there, gazing at the plastic star-spotted ceiling. They don’t glow as brightly in the dark as they used to.
“I fucked up, Rollo. I fucked up big time. But what was I supposed to do? The guy likes me—actually likes me—and I—”
“He loves you.”
You purse your lips in a tight line. Thanks for that oh-so-helpful correction.
“Well, what do you feel for him?” he asks in a you’re-making-this-more-complicated-than-it-needs-to-be tone.
“I don’t wanna hurt him with loveless sex. I mean, come on, that’s kinda my whole thing. I don’t date because it never works out, and Skulls is…not like me.” Sighing, you drum your acrylics against the counter. “He’s a really nice guy. He isn’t faking it because he wants to sleep with me.”
Scanning the items of the next customer in line, Rollo hums his acknowledgement. In desperate need of a mindless task, you begin to bag them as they come.
“You should tell him that, then.”
You worry your lip between your teeth. “I… I was scared, Rollo.”
He remains quiet, allowing that revelation to soak into the air. You think he understands. You’re not afraid of Skully. You could never be afraid of the guy who makes you smile and laugh, who loves so tenderly, who puts himself in front of a bully all for your sake.
“Scared of him?” he finally asks, just to clarify, and there’s a dangerous edge to his voice that wasn’t there before.
“No, not him. Just… He was so sweet and gentle. With past partners, we’ve always…fucked. No decorum. Maybe a little foreplay to set the mood. Nothing too cheesy. That’s all there is to it. Usually. But with him it wasn’t just sex. That was, like, I don’t know! Valentine’s Day or some shit. Like, I felt so cherished, Rollo. Or maybe it’s better to describe it like worship? Like I really was his Spider Queen… A-Anyway, that’s never happened before! I was caught completely off guard. My heart wasn’t ready.”
Rollo hums like he’s putting thought into your confession, but he’s more focused on the next customer.
“I feel bad. He’s obviously inexperienced. I mean… He said he’s never felt that way about anyone before, Rollo.”
“So he’s infatuated.”
“It’s just a crush. It’ll pass.”
“I wouldn’t be so sure.”
You frown at a grinning pumpkin plush and then stuff it in a paper bag. “Everyone goes through the honeymoon phase when they’re in love.”
“So you recognize that what he feels for you is love.”
“No.” You hold your finger up and wave it in front of him. “Not love. It’s a weather forecast, okay? Completely unreliable. I’m sure it’ll change the minute the season’s over. Seasonal romances are a real thing, you know. Same for situational stuff, too.”
“What can you call his actions if they aren’t motivated by love?”
You drag your finger along the spotless countertop. What indeed?
“Like I said, he’s a nice guy. Affection comes to him naturally.”
“Does it?” Rollo punches numbers on the register and swaps cash for change. “You can like someone, but it takes effort to love someone. Truly and authentically.”
A line from Skully’s diary pops into your mind: I’m not so sure I like (Name). He wrote that about you. About how sour his first impression of you was and how he was certain he wouldn’t get along with you because, as he put it, the both of you were too different.
Rollo is steadfast in this opinion, and you know he’s willing to debate it into the grave with you. So you curb your opposition and instead take his side. Purely for entertainment purposes, of course. Devil’s advocate.
“So he loves me. What about it?”
“Do you love him?”
You scowl at him and stuff a witch hat into a bag with other decorations.
“You really don’t sugarcoat anything, do you?”
“Perhaps that’s a difficult question lacking a clear answer. Allow me to amend it. Rather, do you enjoy his company?”
“He’s fun, yeah. I enjoyed what we did. Who wouldn’t? It’s sex.” You give Rollo a not-so-amused side-eye when he quirks his brow. “And I like being called pretty. Is that so bad?”
“You like the person who calls you pretty,” he suggests, but it doesn’t sound accusatory or questioning.
Like is a safe word. It can imply everything and nothing at the same time. A pleasant middle ground between love and not-love. Between absolute detestation and tolerance. Between platonic and romantic. It’s almost like the word fine. No one worries when you say you’re doing fine, just as no one wonders anything more when you say you like someone.
“I liked the chemistry.”
“Do you hate Skully?”
You groan. “Until you break this circular conversation, I’m not talking to you anymore.”
“So be it. You’ll have to tell him something, though. He deserves closure, at least.”
“I’m not gonna break his heart.”
“I’m not saying you should.”
You recall Salad Fingers’s insult from before: I dunno why you’re defending her like you’re her boyfriend. Wait, is that it? Do you like her? Well, tough fuckin’ luck, dude. She’ll eat your heart if you aren’t careful. Leave it in complete shambles. Save yourself while you can.
“I’m not gonna break his heart,” you repeat firmly, but more for yourself.
“When exactly does this ‘I’m not talking to you anymore’ come into play?”
“Right now.”
And so you shut your mouth.
A familiar face approaches the register next. She places a Jack Skellington doll on the counter and Rollo rings her up.
“Sorry to interrupt, but is your other coworker in? Skully, was it?” She shifts from foot to foot, embarrassed. “I’d like to introduce myself. I didn’t get the chance last time.”
You narrow your eyes at her. She’s that girl from before. The one crushing on Skulls.
You swipe the doll and hand it to her, all business. The scathing comments that leave your mouth are the exact opposite.
“Back off, bitch. It’s never gonna happen. You’re not his type.”
I don’t see him writing poems about you or info-dumping about obscure Jack lore. Are you his muse? Did he fuck you like you’re his cherished Spider Queen? Didn’t think so.
She backs away as if you’ve just hissed and bared your fangs at her. You might as well have with your tone. Rollo is quick to defuse the sizzling tension by offering her the receipt as some sort of balm. “Have a spooky day,” he recites the workplace catchphrase in perfect monotone, which doesn’t do anything to improve her shattered mood.
The poor girl hugs the doll to her chest, tears brimming in her eyes, and hurries off. Rollo doesn’t need to voice his opinion this time, for the hand that claps down on your shoulder is searing in its disappointment. You almost wish it was just a disembodied limb and not your boss, who ushers you away from the front with a beaming grin that’s strained for show.
“Walk with me.”
It’s not a suggestion. You’ve been in waist-deep water with Fellow plenty of times before. Judging by his unsmiling tone, the water’s way past your head.
Luckily, you know when to keep your mouth shut. Advantageous as that is, it doesn’t save you from the trip to the back room. The curtains have never felt more like the bars in a prison cell when he parts them for you to step through.
“What’s the first rule all employees must follow when working at this store?”
You drop down into the electric chair—an old stool that stands tall in this make-believe interrogation chamber. It’s very reminiscent of stand-up comedy. A shame you fail to demonstrate an iota of comedic relief when you give your answer to your executioner.
“The first rule? Let’s see…” You count all the possibilities on your fingers. “Don’t accept donations from rich brats. Never entertain lengthy conversation with cops, or else they’ll start doing their job. Send all annoying customers to Rollo because he doesn’t care enough to let them get under his skin. Send the chatty ones to Skulls. Love and cherish (Name) always. Yeah, that just about sums it up.”
Fellow gives you an unamused frown. You squirm under the oppressive weight of silence blanketing the air. That’s more threatening than Gidel with his squeaky hammer.
“Am I forgetting something?”
“Respect. I don’t care how much it pains you to lick the boots of that sorry lot, but when you’re working under this roof the customer is always right.” He lifts his hand before you can object. “Even when they’re wrong. Laugh at their idiocy all you want, but refrain from doing so in public. So, Miss (Name), I expect you to uphold a shred of courtesy to even the most troublesome customers. Loath as I am to admit it, it pays in spades to be mindlessly kind and subservient. I should know. This is a business, and a successful business model dictates that we lavish the customer with enough appreciation to ensure they’ll come running back year after year.”
“Not like they have a choice when this is the only Halloween store in the middle of the mountains.” You fold your arms over your chest and huff. “I was only saying what everyone was thinking. Skulls already told me he wasn’t into her. I saved her from the inevitable heartbreak.”
“By tearing her heart apart before he could?” He raises a bushy brow. “A lie would’ve eased that burden.”
“Oh, so the rules just don’t apply when it’s you? Not very fair or courteous if you ask me.”
Fellow shrugs off the stiffness in his shoulders and pulls up a chair. He points his cane at you. “You’re a scholar, are you not? Full of brains and bursting with brilliance.” It takes all of your restraint to nod instead of giving him the spiel he isn’t asking for. “So what’s this really about?”
Wait, he makes a point. Why did I say that? Who cares if some rando likes Skulls? It’s not my business.
“It’s nothing—” you start to say, but it’s Gidel’s insistent prodding that draws Fellow’s eye.
“Hmm? What’s this?”
He plucks the notebook from Gidel’s sleeved hands and skims through the pages. He’s humming like he’s about to stumble upon another one of his useless diagnoses. If he calls you lovestruck, you’ll have no choice but to knock him out and diagnose him concussed. Fellow snaps his fingers.
“What? What is it?” You lean forward, expecting something terrifying.
Fellow flips the notebook to reveal a shakily drawn heart. It’s scribbled halfway in with pink crayon. On the next page, amidst Gidel’s handwriting practice, are doodles that could only come from Skully.
“I don’t get it. What am I looking at?”
“An affection chart, would you call it?” He glances at Gidel, who points to the page and nods. “An estimation of affection earned over the course of this work season. He’s more diligent than I thought.”
Gone is his chastising tone. The interrogation room quickly shifts into that of a not-so-clinical doctor’s office.
Oh, great. Dr. Malpractice is in. Just my luck.
“What’s that, Gidel? You also think he isn’t one to give up so easily? Well, that’s our skeleton!” Fellow hums and strokes his chin. “It’s as we all assumed, really. If we’d placed bets, we’d all be receiving the payout.”
“How comforting to know my boss and coworkers were ready to bet on—what?—utter nonsense?”
“It’s certainly not nonsense to him.”
The notebook now in your hands, you flick to the next page and find an assortment of poetic lines amidst Gidel’s own practiced handwriting. Was he…anticipating a change in dynamic this season?
Upon closer inspection it becomes clear that these lines are all the start to something you’ve been hiding from: I wish to share with you the secrets in my heart… Your loveliness outshines even the sun. There is no competition If I could have just one moment of your time to myself, you might finally know of my bittersweet affliction affections.
There are dozens of lines scribbled in swooping cursive and scratched out. All work-in-progress variations of what was to be a patchwork love confession.
“No surprises there,” Fellow says, taking the notebook from your limp hands. “We’ve all had a thought that he might fancy you.”
There’s a punchline to latch onto somewhere in his words, but you can’t seem to find it. You don’t want to if it means you’ll have to wade through the waters of Skully’s love—a love you’ve never been on the receiving end of before.
This is messy. Of course it is. Love is always messy. This is why I don’t do it.
That’s a lie, isn’t it? At least, it’s not the full truth.
You suck in breath through your teeth and release it with a low, agonized hiss. “I need a smoke.”
“Gidel, would you be a dear and assist Mr. Rollo at the front?”
Armed with his hammer and resolute determination, Gidel sees both of you off with a salute. Under the veil of a fifteen-minute break, you and Fellow slip out the back door.
With the grey clouds bunched in the sky, the frosty air grabs at your face like little pinpricks from a needle. You shake off the shiver that threatens to roll through your body and instead focus on popping your casket open. A cigarette poised at your lips, you cup your hands to cover the flame as Fellow takes care to light it. You do the same for him, and within no time you’re standing with your backs to the brick, smoke slithering up to disperse in a frigid zephyr.
You pull the cigarette away from your mouth to speak. “What do you think about love?”
His nose scrunches up as if it’s a particularly odious question. “Love, huh? On a commercial scale, it sells lots of chocolates and teddy bears to the brats foolish enough to believe in sappy stories of true love. Speaking of which, I’m considering opening the shop for other holidays. What say you about taking up work here during the season of Cupid?”
“Oh, now that’d be a right laugh. And our uniforms will be wings and halos. Rollo’ll have no choice but to follow his true calling and become an angel.”
He barks out a laugh. “Quite the angelic ingenuity you have!”
“Ha. Yeah. Awfully angelic, isn’t it?”
He notices your bitter smile then and clears his throat. Smoke comes trailing out.
“You’re moping about something that’s out of your control, dearie.”
Momentarily stunned, you snap your head up to give him a bewildered look. He offers you a smile and it’s the first time you’ve ever seen your normally insincere boss appear so…not insincere.
“When you’re in the business long enough, you learn to pick up on tells.”
“Tells?”
“A little somethin’ that gives you insights into a person’s thoughts and feelings. Think of it like a magnifying glass that zooms in on the tiny details of a big picture. You, Miss (Name), are fixing me with plenty of confusion! But you’re leaning closer; you expect to be told something that may sway you, and you know I, masterful salesman—ahem! Masterful empath—yes, that’s right—that I am, I shall provide just that.”
“That’s less of a tell, though. It’s just my curiosity getting the best of me.”
“Ah, but you’ve always done this whenever something or someone piques your interest.”
You roll your eyes, suddenly freed from the immersion. “Don’t sell me a lie, Fellow.”
“’Tis only a lie if the liar is the first to believe it.”
“And do you?”
“Not at all, for this is a truth that comes right from my heart!” He wraps his arm around you and gestures with his cane, spelling out a vision you can’t yet see in sparkling lights. “Picture it—a life with that dear someone! Who is it you see?”
You gaze past the flourish at his fingertips and picture dozens of people all at once, each one flashing into your mind and then dissolving like short-lived fireworks.
“Well, Rollo and I aren’t gonna stop living together anytime soon.”
“Then perhaps that is love.”
“And Skully and I are…something.”
“Even that, too, is love.”
You turn your head to stare at him, unimpressed. He hums and returns the cigarette to his lips. “You have no concept of love, do you, Fellow?”
“You and I…” His chuckling grows more sheepish by the second, and he drops his arm to his side. You read the gesture as a submissive defeat. “We’re on the same sinking ship.”
“How nice,” you mutter, sarcastic. “I’m not sharing my door with you when that ship finally goes down. But whatever—I’ll bite. If my ‘tell’ is leaning in close, what’s yours?”
“That’s a trade secret.”
“So evasion via flowery speech. Got it.”
Fellow laughs. Even though it wasn’t your intention to joke, you feel yourself cracking a smile.
“Then what about Skully?”
“That boy…” Fellow rubs his chin in thought. “I’d say he looks at you like you’re the only one in the world.”
“That’s not a tell. That’s an assumption. A baseless one, at that.”
“His pupils dilate more for you than they do for any one of us.”
“Ew. These observations feel so stalkerish.”
“I don’t need the full story to know what’s in that lover boy’s heart.” Before you can provide context, he shakes his head. “In fact, I don’t want the full story. Keep those smutty details to yourself.”
“And here I thought you were one of the girls, Fellow.” You smirk at him. “Don’t wanna hear how Skulls and I went at it like rabbits?”
Fellow pulls a face. “Your ability to be so shamelessly candid is…a skill. Whether it’s impressive or even remotely useful leaves much open for debate. But, no, I think you’d benefit from the increase in reading comprehension after reconsidering that exchange.”
The sardonic laugh sticks in your throat. You’d take offense at that backhanded comment if he wasn’t right. Technically.
“So what do you recommend I do? I don’t wanna break his heart.”
I care about him.
“Therein lies your answer. If you’re so keen to shatter the hearts of every other twerp, what’s preventing you from doing the same to Skully?”
“Because he’s Skulls, duh. What the fuck is this, Fellow? An elementary-grade brain teaser?”
“You’re the scholar,” he says like it’s common sense. “Use that beautiful brain of yours to work out a solution.”
“Gee. Thanks a bunch, Professor.”
“If you want my advice,” he adds, puffing out smoke, cigarette balanced between his fingers, “you should start being honest with yourself and what you want. No more lying. It’s all you brats do nowadays…” He clicks his tongue, only half-disappointed.
You elbow him harshly. “Your age is showing, Gramps.”
“I resent that! I’m still plenty young. Moreover, it wounds me to be demoted to a nursing home in the span of seconds.”
Gazing out at the gravel road, you recall the day you and Skully spun around in waltz. It was a dance meant to shake loose the nerves that had gripped you from the first clap of thunder. It’s only been a few weeks since that magical evening, yet the memory feels even more distant. It’s as if the world has split in two, placing you and Skully on opposite sides.
The silence seeps into your skin, invading your brain like a parasite. You think back on yesterday and realize it’s taken on the dewy quality of a dream. When you close your eyes, you can still see Skully hunched over you, the look in his eyes so full of devotion. As if laying with you was something religious—as if you were a deity in need of a disciple.
What I want… Huh.
“Well, I believe that just about does it!” Fellow announces, stubbing out his cigarette. “Quite the chat we’ve had, but there’s much to be done inside. Come along now.”
Comforted by the whoosh-whooshing of the wind, you follow his lead and drive your cigarette into the dirt. Your voice is almost swallowed in the breeze. “Thanks, Fellow.”
“Is this what I think it is?” He takes hold of your arm, lifting it up to view the gaping, coin-sized hole in the sleeve.
“Another one? It’s never-ending with this sweater!” you lament, shaking your head. “I really should throw it out. It’s way past its expiration.”
Each multi-patterned patch has been carefully sewn into the rips and tears, emptiness mended via Fellow’s nurturing hand. His needlework was sloppy in the beginning—when this sweater was a size too big and you’d just started at the shop—but now you’ve grown into it and so, too, has the love worn into the wool.
“Not real wool,” Fellow would say while you sat patiently and he worked his magic, “but then no one asks the worth of fool’s gold when they’re too blinded by its shine.”
“We’ll have to get that patched up,” he says instead, brushing off your previous remark. You won’t mention it, but something tells you he’s grown attached to this relic of a sweater. It’s been through a lot, battered frequently and now boasting conflicting colors and wild repairs. “No employee of mine will go around in tatters.”
You lift your hands and laugh. “You gotta admit. I did a damn good job taking care of it for so many years.”
“I’m surprised you even held onto it. It’s not worth much.”
“Maybe not to you with its fake wool.” You grab at the hem to admire the pilling. “But, believe it or not, this has become my comfort sweater.”
Fellow huffs out a disbelieving breath. “Feeling sentimental is about as valuable as a rock.”
“And when you split that rock open, there’s a possibility you’ll find jade. Don’t judge a book and all that, remember?”
“Yes, yes. Enough with the antique wisdom. Now in you go.” Rolling his eyes at the heavens above, Fellow prods you through the doorway with his cane.
You miss the affection that fights for a place on his face, softening all of his rough edges. Edges that have eroded and sharpened in the name of survival.
That, too, is love.
“Whatcha writing?”
As soon as your voice invades his ears, Skully angles his body away out of protective instinct. His arms shift to cover the open pages of a leather-bound journal. Dry lips set in a thin line, he narrows his eyes at you.
“Ooh, is it a secret? Maybe something dirty? It’s gotta be if you’re so intent on hiding it. You can tell me. I won’t snitch.”
Just then, a thick packet of student council paperwork comes down upon your head. The assailant? Rollo Flamme—your new roommate and recurring headache.
“Fellow, can you please exercise your power as boss and fire her?” he asks, readying his arm for another punishing thwap.
His noncommittal response floats over from between the shelves. “Unfortunately, no.”
“What?! Hey!” You round on Rollo, matching his glower with equal ferocity. “Not my fault we applied to the same place. Why don’t you quit instead? That option ever occur to you, brainiac?”
“To think I have the misfortune of sharing a living space and now a job with a bad-tempered nuisance such as yourself…”
“I hope you know I’m so not gonna vote for you when you run for president.”
“I won’t need your measly vote.” Pride flashes in his eyes. “But I thank you for making your stance clear.”
Having caught wind of this incessant bickering, Gidel wanders over to you and, taking hold of your hand, forces you to lock fingers with Rollo. You remain trapped in a silent staring match with him until, eventually, you break away with a huff. Rollo cleans his hand with his handkerchief.
“We won’t fight anymore in the store, Gidel.”
“It’s (Name) who carelessly picks fights.”
“What was that, Snow Fright?!”
“You! Have you no respect?!”
Gidel frowns at both of you, and that’s your cue to hush up and feign friendship.
“Sorry, sorry.” Hoping to placate him, you wrap your arm around Rollo and lean most of your weight on him. He shrivels at the contact. “Starting today, we’re besties!”
He peers between you, assessing the validity of this claim, before an approving smile perks on his lips. As soon as he’s turned his back, though, you’re distancing yourself from Rollo. He returns to reviewing his paperwork, prim as ever, and soon your attention falls on a very gloomy Skully.
You rest your elbows on the counter. “Are you keeping a diary?”
It seems like he won’t answer you—he’s the silent, brooding type you’ve noticed—but then he snaps his journal shut and addresses you.
“I’m detailing my plans for Halloween.”
“Ooh. Nice, nice.” He doesn’t reply, so you take the initiative even though it’s obvious he isn’t interested in conversation. “So what do these plans of yours entail?”
Again, he levels you with an uncertain frown. “I’m going to spend Halloween in desolate solitude, enshrouded in darkness with naught but a singular pumpkin lantern.”
“Uh…huh.” You nod like you understand, but it sounds patently absurd. “That’s it? Sounds…historic.”
“Naturally. This is a town-honored tradition.”
Your nose wrinkles. “And that’s it?”
“I beg your pardon?” He tilts his head at you like a spider trying to make sense of the creature wound in its web.
“You’re not going to throw a party? You must decorate for Halloween at least, right? Or what about candy? That’s practically a staple for any holiday. Halloween without candy is like an addict without their fix.”
Appalled, Skully stares at you. You’re unprepared to face the brunt of his uncompromising attitude, and the subsequent harangue almost knocks you off your feet.
“How could you say such things? Halloween is a time meant for reflection and contemplations of mortality. It’s to be celebrated with absolute simplicity: in silence, in darkness, and alone. There will be no games or other fatuous nonsense like candy and decorations. It’s a solemn occasion! Absolutely no parties. It would be a disservice to such a sacred occasion by even entertaining thoughts of those noisy, disrespectful displays. It’s about fear, nightmares, and tradition.”
“Right.” You give a conciliatory nod. It’s obvious his opinion isn’t going to be swayed, but you’re nothing if not the most persistent of pains. “Well, once you’re done with that, how about you join Rollo and me for a good, old-fashioned party in the woods? It’ll be my first Halloween in this sleepy town. I’ve gotta do something to make it memorable!”
Skully blinks at you. “Did you not just hear me? Halloween is—”
“And where do you get the confidence to lump me in with your plans?” Rollo interjects, peering at you from over the top of his files.
“Because I know your socially inept ass has nothing better to do.” You slink over to him and pluck the paperwork out of his hands, which earns you an indignant shout of, “Hey!” from him. “Consider it a roommate-coworker bonding exercise. We’re a team—at least as far as splitting rent goes—so we’ve gotta stick together. From now on, it’s peace and love.” To illustrate this point, you form a heart with your hands and wink at the unsmiling Rollo.
His repugnance is palpable, but that isn’t going to deter you from a good time.
“So how about it, Skulls? Can I call you that?”
He hesitates and then opens his mouth. Three consecutive knocks tumble out instead. Pulled from the pupa of a vivid dream, a slimy insect spreading its wings, you blink your eyes open against the harsh shine of morning’s light. There’s another set of knocks on the door and you sink under the blankets, hoping to block the noise out.
Rollo’s voice sails into your room from next door. “It’s your turn to greet the mystery visitor.”
“That’s bullshit,” you grumble into your pillows, hugging one of them to your chest. “You do it! I’m not wearing pants.”
“Then put some on! I answered the door last time.”
You groan loud enough so Rollo will hear and know what a hassle this is for you before sliding out of bed. Your initial reluctance is replaced with annoyance as soon as more knocking resounds, this time a touch impatient. Stepping into your shorts, you yank them up and slide your feet into a pair of fuzzy slippers. You catch sight of the time and sigh.
It’s way too early. Don’t people enjoy sleeping in on their weekends anymore?
“I’m coming, I’m coming! Hold on!”
You pull a sweater over your head on your way through the hall and then, smoothing the very wrinkled front down, rip the door open to meet a finely dressed Skully. He must be on his way to work, for his bicycle is propped against a tree. You peer past him at the backpack and Jack Skellington-themed helmet hanging from the handlebars. And then you look back at him. His arms are twisted behind his back, hiding something unwieldy.
“Oh. Uh, hey.”
“G-Greetings! Did I wake you? My apologies if I did.”
“Not at all. I was already up.” You spare a glance at the hall and, sensing Rollo’s going to spend a few more minutes tucked in his room, you step out onto the stoop and shut the door. “I’m glad you’re here. I think we should talk if you have time.”
“Yes, of course! That’s actually why I’ve come.” He produces a heart-shaped wreath of flowers and holds it out to you. Half-concealed by the autumnal blooms, he attempts a shy smile. “I’m very sorry for that day. I crossed a boundary and it wasn’t my intention to make you uncomfortable. I do hope you’ll forgive me. I’ve made this for you in hopes of conveying my sincerity.”
You take it from him and admire the imperfect heart. “You…made this? It’s beautiful.”
He nods, bashful. “It took me a few days to gather and prepare the flowers. I would’ve come much sooner. Alas.”
You turn it over for a perfunctory inspection. He took the time to make this by hand and then deliver it to me in person.
“Skulls, it’s not your fault. None of this is. It’s mine.” Before he can object, you shake your head at him. “I should’ve known better. I thought we were on the same page and because of that I was willing to fool around, but your feelings don’t align with mine. I didn’t mean to hurt you. It was a misunderstanding on my end. So I’m the one who’s sorry.”
You cringe at the thorny apology. Most of that sounded better in your head.
“I’m not hurt. I… I could never be. Not when you’ve treated me with so much kindness.” He averts his gaze and speaks in a softer tone. “Not when you understand me. So…um. I wouldn’t mind continuing this. Like what you did with Salad Fingers.”
Anyone with a shred of common sense would balk at his suggestion of casual sex after learning the context, which is precisely why you’re quick to shut that notion down.
“Friends with benefits doesn’t work like that.”
“But… But it does. Am I misunderstanding something? Forgive me. I’ve never done this before.”
“The whole point of friends with benefits is that it’s completely loveless. No romance. No strings attached. No expectations for anything outside of the bedroom. But you’re in love, Skulls. It’s not gonna work. If anything, it’ll only hurt you more.”
“But I’m not hurt,” he insists. “I won’t get hurt. I can do it. Please, (Name), believe in me. I love you. I’d do anything for you.”
Your stomach lining curdles, and amidst the internal unrest Fellow’s words only serve to gut you further: You should start being honest with yourself and what you want.
How can you do that when you don’t even know the first thing about honesty?
“That’s exactly why it’s a recipe for disaster. You…love me—” you choke around that sentence— “and I… Listen, Skulls, I’m flattered. I really appreciate you and everything you’ve done, but I’m not going to sleep with you again when I know it’s just gonna make things worse.”
“Why? What’s so wrong with it?”
“Because it’ll complicate things.”
“Then… So then we can compromise and avoid that! Surely that’s a possibility? It won’t change our friendship.”
“I’m sorry, but my answer is no. I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You’re not. I promise you.”
“I am. I might.”
Skully drags his hands through his hair. “I don’t understand what’s so difficult. If you love someone, you should be willing to do anything for them—”
“Not at the cost of your own happiness and well-being.”
“That doesn’t matter!” he shouts, and you flinch back. Skully winces and tries again. “My… My happiness… You’re my happiness. I was all alone before you moved here—nothing more than a quiet, transparent existence. I thought my peers were foolish and thick-headed. They could never understand me. Not like you do. You were my first friend. You mean so much to me. That’s why I want to do this.”
It feels like you won’t get anywhere with him, going back and forth like this, and if you raise your voice to match his the neighbors might poke their heads out. You don’t want to cause a scene. You don’t want to break his heart. You don’t want to do any of this.
But you have to.
“You wanna know why this won’t work? You want a clear example?” You shake the wreath at him and a few petals flutter loose. “This. This is done out of love. Your poems about me were written out of love. Everything you’ve just said is love. That defeats the whole point of casual! If we repeat what we did, it will hurt because I don’t love you. And if we do it again and again, you’re going to fall harder and it’ll end terribly when I can’t give you the things you want or need from me.”
The scowl brewing on his face freezes. You realize your delivery was far from gentle. It shows in the tears that have started to gather in the corners of his eyes. He looks like a kicked puppy. Regret swells in your chest.
“Wait, hold on. I didn’t mean—fuck. Skulls, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean… I like you. It’s just that—”
I can’t love you. I’m terrified.
“No, I understood quite well,” he manages over a voice crack. “Even you…”
You don’t hear the rest of that sentence. In an effort to soften the verbal blow, you try a lighthearted tone. “If it makes you feel any better, a girl came by looking for you a few days ago.”
A girl I chased off for some reason.
Skully doesn’t reply. On rusted hinges, he turns away from you and carries on down the row of doors. You hesitate. Should you say something? What else can you say that won’t dig the knife even deeper into his heart? Devastation chomps its jaws around your jugular. It’s a feeling you’ve never felt before. You’re used to breaking off spiraling situationships and cutting ties with obsessed bed partners.
This feels more like the end to a cherished friendship.
The door creaks open before the tidal wave of tragedy can wash over and drown you completely. “I heard yelling. Is everything all right?” Rollo spies Skully pulling his bike along the path. His attention lands on the wreath next. “Ah.”
“That…didn’t go how I wanted it to.”
“I don’t suspect it would even if the circumstances were different.”
“I shouldn’t have fucked around like that.”
“I’m certain he would’ve told you eventually. Either way, this is a conversation you needed to have.”
“Felt more like a breakup.” You wilt against the doorframe. “Fuuuck. I ruined everything. I was so mean. I told him I didn’t love him.”
“Well, you don’t.” When you don’t add further support to his claim, he stares at you. “You don’t, right? Or am I mistaken?”
What does it mean to be in love? How do I know that’s what this is? What even is love?
“Yeah. No, yeah. He’s just a friend. That’s all.”
“It’s unfortunate. Hopefully things will sort themselves out.” Neither of you are particularly skilled in the art of comfort, but you’re grateful Rollo’s making an effort to extend an olive branch. “You must be hungry. I’ll start on breakfast.”
That snaps you out of your head. “Absolutely not!” You push through the door to beat him to the kitchen. “I need way more than your twelve grapes and two croissants.”
“I’ll have you know it’s sixteen, and I only eat that for lunch!”
“You eat like it’s wartime. No one’s flying overhead, soldier.”
He scoffs, but an amused smile pricks on his lips. “Forgive me for trying to offer you something to ease your distress.”
Sun cuts in through the curtains, and yet you can’t seem to shake the cold.
What do I want? Am I allowed to want something—to want someone—when I’m so…me?
You can replace that pronoun with a dozen self-loathing adjectives. Through the jumbled fusion your heart garners yet another chip.
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Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Halstead Sister Reader (Nicknamed Dizzy)
You and Greg decide you want each other regardless but can you manage to keep it a secret from Jay?
Warnings: cursing, sex mentioned
This could not be happening. It couldn’t. D, the gorgeous guitarist Mouse had taken home the night before, the one he’d spent hours wrapped around was sitting next to Jay in the booth. Her eyes wide as they met his. Jay luckily hadn’t clocked it because he motioned to the empty seat next to Will “Sit down man, this is Y/N. Our little sister” “Everyone calls her Dizzy, it’s short for Dizzy Diva” Will added with a grin towards D.
D finally tore her eyes away from him to look at Will, her shock wearing off as she forced a smile on her face “Been going by D the last few months there William just because it gets confusing backstage hearing Dizzy and Izzy getting called out”
She was explaining to him without actually explaining to him. Fuck why hadn’t he asked for her last night? Why hadn’t he offered his? She had to have heard it before. The waitress came over and put coffee down in front of everyone along with menus then walked away.
Mouse fixed his coffee, trying to keep his mind on the task at hand. Not on the woman sitting across from him, his best friend’s younger sister. The woman that he’d explored every inch of hours before. The woman that flashes of her body, her sounds, her taste kept flashing through his mind. What the fuck was he supposed to do?
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Your eyes were glued to the menu. Your raging appetite had skittered across the table and down to hit the floor the moment you realized you’d gone home with Jay’s best friend. Jay usually just called him Mouse, you had heard him call him Greg a time or two but the connection hadn’t been easy to make? Plus you and him hadn’t traded last names in the heat of the moment or being rushed when Jess called before she got there.
You took a chance to look up at him and his eyes were glued to the coffee in his hand, his long fingers tracing the rim of the cup and you felt yourself clench when memories of those fingers flashed through your mind. The most gorgeous man you’d ever met, the best sex you’d ever had and it was Jay’s best friend. He would more than likely want nothing more to do with you now.
Jay bumped your shoulder “Dizzy, I’m used to Mouse being quiet but what’s up with you? Still tired from the tour?” you let a smile slip onto your face “Well I gotta say Halestorm, Dorothy and Reckless Kelly does know how to party” Mouse finally cut his eyes up and a grin slipped onto his face “You were touring with some pretty big names”
You shrugged “We were Halestorm’s opener. The others we bumped into a couple nights” he grinned “Your band must be pretty awesome” Jay slung an arm around your shoulder “Oh they are. Izzy Hale and her brother happened into a bar they were playing and heard them and approached them about the tour” your smile turned more genuine at hearing Jay’s bragging.
“It’s not that big of a deal Jay” he raised an eyebrow “Bull. My little sister played in front of tens of thousands over the last year. That’s a big deal”
You cut your eyes at Mouse “He likes to brag if you haven’t noticed” Mouse laughed “He’s proud sweetheart. Nothing wrong with that but I gotta say he needs to update pictures of you. The last one I saw you had pink and teal hair” Your eyes widened oh god, that was from junior year of high school. “Jay” you scolded and he grimaced “I’m sorry Diz” and you shook your head “I’ll get you some of the promo shots from the tour. I look good and they’re recent” he grinned “Thank you, though Kevin and Adam are probably going to want signed ones”
You shook your head “Kevin can have one but tell Adam he’ll only get one if I sign it to Kim. I’m not even the singer of the band. No one pays attention to the guitarist” “You’re talented as hell Dizzy, plus they like bragging” Will laughed and you shook your head “You’re all insane”
Mouse was finally looking at you by then and a slight smile was on his face “Nothing wrong with your brothers and their friends supporting you” Jay nodded “Thank you man! I need to drag you to a gig soon” you cut your eyes at him “You mean when you aren’t ditching for a date” and he grinned “I said I’m sorry!”
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You almost got back to your apartment after breakfast before Mouse called you. You knew this was coming. Didn’t mean it didn’t hurt a little. You already liked him. “Hello?” “Why didn’t you tell me you’re a Halstead?” you laughed lightly “You weren’t exactly asking there Mouse”
He laughed then “Guess I could’ve offered my last name too huh?” “Exactly” you sighed as you turned onto your road and pulled up in front of your place and parked. “I guess this is the part where you tell me it was a good time but you don’t want to see me again?” “Now who the hell said that Dizzy?” he asked and a grin slipped onto your face “You’re my brother’s best friend. Jay’s gonna kill you if he finds out you’re sleeping with me”
“If being with you is what takes me out then consider me having died a happy man. Dizzy Halstead, I want to be with you. Last night was amazing. You’re amazing. Jay or no Jay, can we try this thing?” “He can’t find out Greg” you all but whispered and after a moment he said “If that’s what it takes to be with you, I’ll lie to him” “I don’t want to ask that of you” you replied and he groaned “Baby please”
You closed your eyes at the way his voice made you feel “That’s not fair” he chuckled “I’ll come over tonight. I’ll even get an uber so Jay won’t see my truck. We can get takeout, watch a movie, talk or not talk. I just want to get to know you better” you knew it was a bad idea but you couldn’t resist it “Around eight?” you asked and could damn near see his dimples in his voice when he replied “I’ll see you then Ms Halstead”
The hardest part of having a boyfriend that you were trying to keep your brothers from knowing you had? When one of your brothers was that boyfriends best friend. You had been gone for a while so whenever Jay was off he wanted to spend time with you, you fucking loved your brothers and you and Jay were always slightly closer than you and Will anyways so hanging with Jay wasn’t the issue. The issue was he always wanted Mouse to join the two of you. “Mouse is my best friend Dizzy. I want two of the most important people to me to get along”
He was forcing you and Mouse into close quarters and it was proving to be harder than either of you thought to keep up a front. Sitting next to each other at a Blackhawks game, hanging out at Jay’s. Things that shouldn’t have been awkward were because you craved his touch and he craved to touch you. You just didn’t want to risk their friendship should Jay find out because you knew what would happen.
“Fuck, Greg” he had one of your legs hooked around his waist, hips slamming into yours as he worked you closer and closer to that edge. Your nails bit into his shoulders as that building pressure threatened to burst just as you heard the door of his apartment open followed by Jay’s voice “Yo Mouse”
You scrambled for a pillow to pull over your head as your orgasm hit. Fuck why was this happening? Your legs shook around Mouse as a mixture of pleasure and fear rushed through you. He folded his body over yours, blocking you further. You heard Jay’s footsteps then him say “Oh shit, my bad” followed by Mouse saying “Get the fuck out Man!”
You felt Mouse pull out of you and throw a blanket over your bare body. A few minutes passed before he was to your side, gently pulling the pillow out of your hand “He’s gone baby” you glared at him “Why was he here Greg” A blush graced his cheeks “I forgot I was supposed to meet him at seven” you groaned “My brother was just in the room as I orgasmed Greg! Jay was at the foot of the fucking bed while you were inside of me!”
“I know this beautiful. I was inside of you” you covered your face with both hands “I gotta get to work” he cut his eyes at the clock “Yeah, shit. I’m sorry” you shrugged “Not like I was complaining. I’ll tell Stella I had an issue with my washer or something” he grinned “Didn’t mean to distract you” you shook your head “My brother was in the room with you inside me. Dear god if he would’ve heard my voice Greg. He would’ve killed you”
Your hands were shaking but he took them both in one of his, “It’s ok baby. I can handle Jay” you shook your hand “That was too damn close. We’re using chain locks from here on out” he grinned “Ok sweetheart”
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You were behind the bar with Stella, fixing drinks and handing them out. Jay and Mouse were at the end of the bar and your eyes kept finding them.
Jay waved you over after a minute so you walked over “If you two are just wanting to talk” but Jay shook his head “Get Mouse a drink on my tab” you raised an eyebrow as you opened the two longnecks “What’s the occasion?” you asked and Jay cut his eyes at Mouse “I interrupted him and a lady friend before we came out tonight” you saw the chance so you took it. “Greg Gerwitz, you dawg. Been hanging out with my brother too long?” you teased as you handed him the beer and saw a blush works its way onto his cheeks as he held your eyes. That unspoke challenge in his eyes.
Someone waved you down from the other side of the bar so you tapped between them “Talk to you two later” and you walked away.
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“She’s got a gig next week, you in?” Jay asked Mouse as the two of them talked. Mouse cut his eyes up “Huh?” “Dizzy? Her band has a gig next week. Do you want to come with me to check em out?” he needed to talk to you but if he didn't answer now Jay would think something was off and well “Yeah, sure” he could apologize to you later anyways
You grabbed Jessica and pulled her to the side “No one saw me leave with Greg that gig right?” she grinned “Oh you like him like him? It’s been, what, six weeks?” you nodded “And I’d prefer Jay not kill him”
“I got you babe. It’s good to see you happy. No worries no one is gonna bust you out” you let out a breath “Thank you” she grinned “But is Jay single?” and you rolled your eyes “I’ll introduce you two after the show”
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Mouse stood with Jay, next to the stage as your band took the stage. Your eyes landed on him and it took everything in him to not grin. You looked so damn natural on that stage. He heard someone make a comment about “the sexy guitarist” and spun around but luckily Jay did too. The man was clearly half in the bottle already “Ease up and let em play man” Jay told him and the two of them turned back to the stage.
Jay shook his head “Fucking asshole” Mouse had half a mind to break the drunk’s jaw. When the first song started his attention was firmly on you. He loved how relaxed you looked while you played. The music was just as amazing even if Jess looked at you and winked after she looked at him and Jay.
“Gonna buy her a beer, bet I can get some of that” the drunk said, clearly about you and Mouse saw when hell hit Jay. His friend spun around “Yo asshole. I’m her big brother. This is her boyfriend. Anyone else wanna talk about the guitarist?” Jay turned in a half circle to look at the crowd before turning back to him and he knew his eyes were wide.
Jay leaned in and lowered his voice “Sorry about that but nothing makes assholes back off faster than a boyfriend. Do you mind just until we leave here?” Mouse shook his head “Naw, I’ll keep these assholes off D” Jay grinned “Thanks man” then they turned to watch the rest of the set.
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When you walked off the stage Jay met you first and pulled you into a hug before whispering in your ear “Mouse is your boyfriend the rest of the night. Some drunks were saying some foul shit” you pulled back and your eyes were probably the size of dinner plates. If only he knew. “Ok” you whispered with a smile then waved Jess over “Jay, you remember Jessica Grovner?” he grinned at her “You grew up good”
The two of them struck up a conversation so you walked over to Mouse who slipped an arm around your shoulders and tucked you into his side “Guess I’m your boyfriend?” he asked and you shrugged “You’re enjoying this” he nodded “I get to have my arm around you in public without you worrying Jay is gonna try to kill me. I am enjoying the hell out of it”
You shook your head and he directed you back over towards Jay and Jess. Your heart flipped when Jay looked up to see Mouse’s arm around you but then you remembered oh yeah. “Drink?” you asked and Jay nodded “Let’s hit the bar”
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You were sitting next to Mouse, talking to Ty and Callian when some sloppy drunk stumbled up. You trusted Ty and Callian to handle it. They did every other time but the moment the drunk even reached for your arm, Mouse’s hand shot out and wrapped around his wrist “Don’t touch women without asking man or I’ll break your damn hand”
Ty and Callian both raised an eyebrow as the man uttered an apology then scampered away once Mouse released his hand. Jay laughed “Damn Mouse, you’re not actually her boyfriend. Could’ve let her boys handle it” Mouse shrugged “They handled it on tour for her. Didn’t hurt me handling it, besides drunks need to keep their hands to themselves”
Luckily Jay didn’t think anything about it and just shook his head with a laugh “Don’t think he’ll try it again” then turned his attention back to Jess. Ty and Callian on the other hand were eyeing the hell out of you. They seemed way too amused. You shook your head and Ty grinned “We’re gonna get going. See you two ladies in the studio” you winked at him “See ya there”
Jay cut his eyes at Mouse “Can you make sure Dizzy gets home” you looked at Jess and gasped “My brother! You slut” she grinned “What can I say? You Halsteads just do something for me” you shook your head as the two of them left the bar.
Mouse looked back at you and a grin slipped onto his face “Just me and you, out in public with a reason for my hands to be on you” he pulled you over into his lap and you shook your head “You’re insane” he grinned “About you” and crashed his lips against your.
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With as focused on Eddie as he was, he clocked the amused look and it immediately made him smile even before the reply came. Still, Buck scoffed quietly even though he knew he couldn't quite school his expression into seriousness. "Yeah, but I think I would've broken you down to telling me waay sooner if I had been paying the right amount of attention. Even if it was just to make me stop pestering you about it. Didn't Chim say some quote like that? I have ways of making you talk." It was a second hand quote, so the accent only touched on vaguely European. Regardless, he felt in that moment lighter, even if maybe he wasn't the one he'd been aiming to make lighter. Hopefully he could at least be contagious.
Some of that lightness did go away when he looked at his phone, though. A pit began to form in his stomach, as he was not remotely prepared to deal with that fallout. Hell, he didn't even know how he wanted to deal with it, yet. Would he allow himself to be swept back up in all of it, to apologize to Tommy? Plead for his forgiveness? The thought made him queasy, but he could see a scenario where he might go down that path... as soon as he got the idea that Eddie needed him as a best friend and didn't want him for more than that, he was certain he'd fold, take what he was given with minimal complaint. It was in that dark pit he was metaphorically staring into when Eddie replied to his insecurities that Buck might be making him think of Shannon, dipping like he did.
He stared, feeling a bit out of breath, and something swooped through his stomach, a good feeling for once. Eddie... didn't think... Tommy deserved him? It put a flush in his cheeks, but then the realistic part of his brain reminded himself that Eddie had said something ridiculous just before it. How could he possibly be so wrong about Shannon and at all right about Buck? With that skewed perspective? How badly Buck wanted to verbally eviscerate her, to encourage Eddie to hate her too, as much as Buck did... but then, why was he feeling joy at her leaving? When it had done nothing but hurt two of the most precious people in his life? "I dunno, Eddie, just kind of sounds like you have something against Doms." He tried to make it sound light, since he couldn't afford to let either his hope or his anger out.
Finally, Eddie was turning into his driveway and Buck breathed a quiet sigh of relief, since he had felt rather desperate to have Eddie looking at him for more than a couple seconds here and there. He reached his free hand to the door handle and had tugged enough for the lights in the cab to come on when he felt the warm weight of Eddie's hand on his thigh. It might not even have been the first time, he suddenly couldn't remember, but it was maybe only an hour ago that Buck had been blindingly hard thanks to the man who owned that hand, and being only inches away from where his body had been burning to be touched made feel a bit manic. Did Eddie even know what he was doing to Buck? God, probably not. "Y-yeah, sounds good." He drew his hand back from Eddie and hurried out of the truck, almost impatiently rushing up to the steps.
With Buck's next statement, Eddie finally took his eyes off the road and looked over at his passenger, and he couldn't stop the amused look that appeared on his face. With how well he knew Buck, Eddie was not surprised in the slightest when the other man made Eddie's issues about himself. Eddie also knew that Buck didn't do that in a selfish way or to try to make himself the center of attention. Instead, due to Buck's constant need to fix things, it meant that he usually tried to shoulder all the burden of blame upon himself to try and ease the other person's load.
There was no way to lighten Eddie's load though since he knew full well that he was fully to blame for his current situation. "Which you would have know had I told you about it... You know me, Buck. Even if you did notice that something was up, you know that I'm stubborn enough that if I don't want to talk about something, I won't. I just haven't wanted to talk about it yet, so there wasn't anything you could have done until now." He wondered if Buck knew just how much he was already doing for Eddie in the few minutes since he had told him the truth... Buck's hand on his shoulder had been calming, but feeling Buck's head lean against him was reassuring. That maybe, just maybe, Shannon leaving didn't cause Buck to see Eddie the complete failure that he felt like.
From out of the corner of his eye, Eddie saw Buck take out his phone. He could just picture the missed calls and ignored text from Tommy that made up the majority of Buck's recent activity. The fact that Buck was ignoring them made Eddie happier than it should, and then his eyebrows shot up with what Buck said next. Through all the pain, sadness, and confusion Eddie had felt the past six months, there was now a little spark of hope underneath it all. Usually Eddie would immediately try to snuff it out, smother it under feelings of self-loathing and doubt, but for now he decided to let it burn just a bit longer since it felt so nice. "I might not have deserved Shannon, but I for sure know that Tommy doesn't deserve you, so even if it did somehow remind me, it doesn't bother me."
The feeling of Buck's fingers idly rubbing the back of his neck almost relaxed Eddie too much as he could feel his eyes getting heavy. He so wanted to just shut them completely and lean back into Buck touch. He forced himself to keep them open and on the road though. Luckily, he was pulling onto his street soon enough and parked the truck in the driveway. Eddie turned off the engine but before he reached for the car door, he placed his hand on Buck's thigh to try and reciprocate the comfort that Buck's touch had been giving him. "How about he continue this convo inside?"
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If you don't vote Democrat in November, you'll regret it... IMMEDIATELY.
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#snap chats#charles#so funny i thought of drawing him today but then i remembered i have things i have to draw now#another time then… maybe sunday….#wait unrelated ramble time Guys i ddint know my school’s library had a Free Books section#like Deadass Free Books just take what you want and leave !!! i robbed my library yall !!!!!#since my computer exploded ive been having to use my school’s library for their computers so thats why i only know about this Now#there was a table a few months ago where one of the librarians was giving out free books and i robbed her then fjAosjsj#But i didnt know that was perpetual and i can do that whenever i want….#for some reason theres. SO many books about the welsch at my school i have no idea what this fixation on The Welsch is SkEOSJAJA#all i know is that i will be paying special attention to the free books shelf here on out !!!#not. for the welsch books. just yk in general… theres some excellent stuff there…
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Tom and Jack are brothers - mainly DPxMLB (can be DPxDCxMLB)
It was clear from the moment Jack was born that he was Gina’s son, no one could doubt that overzealous nature, and while Tom didn't have the same level of entustatsum as his mother and brother it didn't mean he wasn't an excitable person either. Truly Roland had no idea how he didn't die living with them, the man didn't realize how much he was like them nor really saw how much Jack would go on to be like him in some ways.
One thing was for certain the boys loved their parents, the Fenton luck and sanguine as well as the Dupain passion and vigor were ever-present in the household growing up. Gina loved her boys very much, they were the only reason she stuck in one place for so long. However, she was able to convince Roland to take them all over the U.S. and Europe.
Jack went on to have a passion for inventing and ghosts, both of which Roland looked down upon but Gina was his biggest supporter followed by Tom. Tom ended up enjoying baking with his father. (Jack tended to forget a meal or two when he got too into his work. So it worked out.)
Jack would move out (taking his mother’s maiden name) and go to college in Wisconsin and meet Vlad and Maddie and fall in love and all that! Tom though opens a bakery a few years of baking for some personal events and such, and meets Sabine who moved to Paris to go to school, they fall in love and she takes business courses to help better run the bakery. Roland does his…thing and he never approved of Jack’s hobbies either, “that's not what job a family man takes on” or something, he of course doesn't try to contact him. He gets to be a grumpy old man in (guilty) peace.
Tom and Jack have never missed anything, they're best friends and each other’s biggest supporters. Best man, holiday’s, etc. So of course they make sure their kids have plenty of meetings despite being an ocean away. They couldn't have been happier that their kids were so close in age, which meant they wouldn't struggle to connect.
It was quick to be seen none of the kids showed signs of the Dupain shape, oh well maybe they’d still get the strength? Or perhaps the Fenton luck would just be much stronger. To say where the kids got their size from was an understatement, and to say very amusing to their wives and mother.
Marinette loved her cousins and didn't like how it was only every so often she got to see them. And her aunt and uncle were very cool, and reminded her of Nonna Gina. It was fun to see Uncle Jack lift her papa up, he was the only person she’d ever seen who could pick up her papa.
Jazz and Danny loved the Dupain-Chengs, they seemed to help level their parents out and they actually set aside their ghost obsession to just be a family. Not to mention they made the best food, going to their home was the best, you never got attacked by the food!
Jazz, Marinette, and Danny were as thick as thieves as their dads were, they were a unit. Which meant Marinette had called Jazz and Danny after she had taken the earrings off, and Danny had called Marinette to tell her about how he was dealing with his powers after dying.
And the next time the Fenton’s came to the Dupain-Cheng’s maybe Marinette and Danny hugged a little longer and a little tighter than usual, and Jazz spent her time glued to the younger girl’s side.
#jack and tom are brothers#danny and jazz are practically marinette’s siblings#dp x mlb#this could totally also be a dp x dc x mlb#danny and marinette totally comforted each other through their bb#blond bullies#jazz tries to help Marinette through her crush ptsd. especially after socquline goes and can't be there for her#jazz definitely went and threatened chloé and kim after that. NO ONE hurts her baby cousin#that's why chloé wasn't so hands on the next year of school. she was scared of it getting back to jazz#in my head it’s marinette was born between jazz and danny#which means danny dies the year following ladybug becoming a thing#i haven't seen a single jack and tom being related and that is a crime. like ITS RIGHT THERE PEOPLE!!!#gina dupain’s madian name is fenton#like the similarities between the dupain’s and the fenton’s make my brain go brrrrr#blue eyed dark haired child who ends up being a hero because it’s needed and have parents that don't really pay attention to them so#it makes it easier to be a hero and has a very clear crush and has an older but close-in-age figure who will kick ass for them#also danny and marinette like getting the greatest responsibilities in the universe (if you ghostking danny route)#also let all three of these scrawny kids the dupain strength!!#it would be so funny#dp x mlb prompt#dp x mlb crossover
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love when this is referred to as the gifted kid website. shockingly my mental disorders made me mentally disordered and school never really vibed with that so. couldn’t be me
#ppl always talking about their whatever grade reading level and how many books they’d read as kids and im just over here like🧍🏽#I’ve never been actually bad at english or reading but I couldn’t focus on reading books to save my fucking life#I hated those sheets where you had to read like a certain number of books or whatever over the course of a semester or the year or whatever#my GATE test scores for english were super high but my math was bad enough that I never qualified#and adhd made me not even perform well in English half the time because I couldn’t pay attention I couldn’t read long books I couldn’t turn#in my assignments or if I did they were late and etc etc etc#don’t get me started with math#I was the worst in my class in third grade at minute math and never made it to the levels of minute math my classmates did#(they posted results on the wall for everyone to see)#and in 6th grade I was put into an additional remedial math class#throughout middle-high school I was at the level of most classmates in terms of the classes I took but that’s only because I was not allowe#to fail and was put through absolute fucking hell with a billion tutors and grueling hours of extra work from them and blah blah blah#like I remember how I felt in those tutoring sessions and half the time I actually wanted to cry.#I didn’t start doing solidly genuinely Good in school until senior year of high school.#not coincidentally around the same time I started taking adderall I think#I had accommodations by 9th grade but they didn’t do that much except for the function that let me turn in assignments up to 2 days late#without penalty. which i had teachers question sometimes and i had to pull the Yeah it’s Literally Against The Law to not allow me this car#anyway. point is. i was never in the gate program and most of my friends were and it was mostly adhd related#adhd is considered such a quirky nothing disorder nowadays that I don’t even like mentioning I have it really. because what people think of#when I say the term is Not what i actually dealt with and made school torturous and made my parents lash out at me for things and etc etc#depression and dysphoria did not help either. but I digress#I’m not sure why im making this post#kibumblabs
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This is interesting
This show honestly has such a great attention to detail. Like, I know they've obviously got the books there to guide them creatively across the board, but they've really done such a great job of folding these longer term plot points in.
#i also though just like - -#i don't want to be mean or rude but#the person who they're replying to#why do you THINK they have the scene with lestat defending claudia?#like if a scene like that is introduced as a contradictory point maybe....that's on purpose.......and you should pay attention to it......#media literacy and honestly basic story comprehension is truly at an all time low#like#this is a deep show yes but the plot itself is actually pretty straightforward#and like i love the pinstripe suit but even i was like 'oh a bit on the nose carol' lol#but apparently people also need that pointed out to them so i guess not#the film art: an introduction book should honestly be on the curriculum in schools#iwtv 2.07#iwtv asks
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