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jewishcissiekj · 1 year

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Started Mando season 1 today. Finishing it rn.

#I DID DO THING TODAY OKAY #Still unhealthy but at least that #wait technically i wouldn't have watched the entire season in one day #cause i started this afternoon and i have one more ep to go and it's 11:57 pm rn #still #for the record i HAVE watched mando season 3 and some of 2 #(every episode bo was in for gay reasons)#but like #never season 1 and most of 2 #it's interesting alright #tomorrow i'll get to season 2 then we'll see about bobf #other than that tv show-wise i have tbb and visions to go #right?#yeah i think that's right

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mrs-gauche · 1 year

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Alas, so long as the music plays, we dance.

(Cole's cryptic comments + The Song)

#dragon age #dai gifs #flemeth #solas #cole #my gifs #you know.. isn't it interesting how DA4 seems to be going for a purple color scheme now?#....and if you mix blue and red you get WHAT?? 👀👀#EXACTLY #coincidence?? I think NOT lmao #if the ''song is sundered''... then what'll happen when everything sings the same again? 👀#then there's that one line from Solas in Haven..#''harmonizing with new magic in an unending symphony'' that's also a very interesting way of phrasing #there's that musical connotation again #but let me tell you..#listening to super eerie soundtracks while making this was certainly an experience 😶#I'm just happy I managed to make a gif set after 84 years....#and it only took me [insert unhealthy amount of hours]#hahaha 💀#at least I still remember how the flycam works lol

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saremina · 9 months

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ngl I really like the idea of ascended Astarion saying 'I love you' and it always sounds like he doesn't quite mean it. but not because he doesn't love his consort, he does, it's just that he considers love to be too small a word to describe the depth of his emotion so saying this thing he knows his consort wants to hear (because it's everyone's favorite) feels like a lie. like he's diminishing the importance of them, somehow.

but you're supposed to tell your partner you love them, and those are the only words he has, so he uses them because how is he supposed to say love pales in comparison to what he feels? he tries to show the true depth of his feelings in other ways, of course, with actions and protection and gifts, but he can never figure out how to express it with words because he doesn't think there are words that accurately cover how he feels.

because how is he, after 200 years of being a vampire and suddenly having the width and depth of mortal emotion and experience thrust upon him, supposed to adequately express something like love and not have it feel like it's too little? everyone is saying 'I love you' to someone, surely they can't all be feeling it the same depth and passion he is, after all. so he thinks love is too small a word, but he says it anyways because it's all he has.

#also he's still a vampire so he obviously skews to the unhealthy obsession side of love a little bit #as a treat #it's still a dark romance after all (to me at least let me have this pls)#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #ascended astarion #astarion x tav #astarion x dark urge

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skz-miroh · 10 months

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science side of tumblr please explain why I am unable to consume and process media like a normal human being

#and instead why it always turns into an unhealthy obsession i hyperfixate on for at least a month #honestly feel like i need to consume more content to scratch that brain itch #BUT THERES NO MORE CONTENT #devastated #and just like every other piece of media i consume i become not normal about it #is science side of tumblr still a thing??#good omens #good omens 2 #ofmd #our flag means death #the raven cycle #trc #the foxhole court #gilmore girls #six of crows #crooked kingdom #shadow and bone #arcane #the sandman #vld #voltron #the old guard #supernatural #pride and prejudice #the way i have never been normal about this book it shaped me at 11 years old lmao #the urge to just make every piece of media i consume into my entire personality ugh #any piece of historical fiction i have ever read or watched because i lived and breathed historical fiction from ages 8 to 19 #science side of tumblr

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outlanderalien · 3 months

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In season 1 when Alicent is separated from Otto, they exchange a tearful goodbye and hold each other So Tightly.

In season 2 when Alicent has learned of her granddaughters death and her voice is shaking, Otto cautiously approaches her and only offers the lightest touch- which she walks away from.

And when she seeks to confess guilt to him, he declines to listen.

Yes they cannot comfort each other, this is the central tragedy, but what makes it worse is that at one point they could.

#hotd #house of the dragon #hotd season 2 #house of the dragon season 2 #otto hightower #alicent hightower #They were soooo much closer in S1. Like. It was still an unhealthy dynamic but at least there was affection and comfort.#Everything is so cold now

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byfulcrums · 9 months

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People should stop writing the Olympians as family who hate each other and more like family who love each other so so so much (less, more, depends on the person. Maybe their love is the “I would do anything for you” and maybe it is “I will do anything to you”. Maybe it's kind maybe it's harmful. It's love. And sometimes — maybe, not all of them, but sometimes — they hate it) but are also toxic and unable to show it properly, which results in some very bad but fun dynamics where they hurt each other, knowingly or unknowingly, and don't know how/can't bear to apologize

#also for the “zeus hates apollo” people #I really don't think he does. at least not HATE #[pjo version] it's a weird and twisted kind of love that is more harmful than loving. but it's still love #and apollo might hate/love him for it #listen these are Gods. they are people yes and they have emotions and they are flawed and they are Human in the rawest way #but. they're gods. all powerful and knowing. they're immortal. they see things differently #they might not even realize that what they're doing is Wrong™#“the gods are bad and they know they are bad and refuse to change” Not All Of Them #pjo #percy jackson #toa #trials of apollo #the apollo brainrot is real #rick riordan #riordanverse #rrverse #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackon and the olympians #avis' post #unhealthy relationships #gods of olympus #no hate to the ppl who write them as ✨uncaring✨ in the “i genuinely do not care about/hate you”#i am eating up those fanfics like they're tiramisu #keep going. i love you

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spop-romanticizes-abuse · 8 months

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(not all of these are blood-related siblings but they have a sibling dynamic due to being raised together/sharing the same parent)

#spop #she ra and the princesses of power #avatar the last airbender #atla #toh #the owl house #tdp #the dragon prince #arcane #tangled #tangled the series #soren and claudia is probably the least toxic out of these #because they still seem to care for each other #but their relationship is still definitely unhealthy #same with eda and lilith #was not fond of lilith's redemption arc honestly

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satans-knitwear · 2 years

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U cant hurt me, im wearing armour. 😎

Treat me ~ Tip me

#I have absolutely used a similar caption before but its very relevant. Again.#My mental is unhealthy rn!!!!! Pls excuse any unfortunate posting.#Lost my volunteering position bc im too unreliable and thats totally reasonable of them but wow it makes me not like myself lots!!!!!!#I cant rely on myself either so i really do see why they cant keep me on. But still!!!!! I need to go back to the gp again if its this bad #Anywhore. Lets find some fun lil reasons to live despite that. Plus I can be useful in other ways.#Sorry for my mini therapy session in the tags. I am not thriving.#Satans knitwear #At least this shoot i did with my various mando looks was entertaining #Alt pinup #Pinup girl #Mandalorian seduction techniques #Tassles #Pasties #Body chain #Thigh garters #thigh harness #Stockings and suspenders

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sillyfreakx5 · 6 days

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hmm i may potentially start IDing with transinsomnia

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seawitchkaraoke · 2 months

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sooo loving the shift in women's gymnastics that with every olympics you get more and more adult women and less and less 16 year olds competing bc I always thought that ''you peak at 16-18 it's just how it works'' was bullshit. Still think that's also bullshit in sports like figure skating and such. If you take care of your body properly you can keep going through your twenties and into your thirties, if they peak at 16 it's bc their bodies got fucked up at way too young an age

#olympics #womens gymnastics #just. i love seeing confident adult women killing it #just don't find a lot of joy in seeing 16 year olds at the olympics bc i never trust that they're being taken care of properly #bc like.... as a teenager you're far more likely to take unhealthy risks without being fully aware of the consequences #like i do cheerleading and i see the stupid shit our juniors do at far lower stakes y'know. like they'll train and compete with injuries #that they absolutely should not train or compete on #and i won't say i don't still do that kinda shit in my late twenties. i do #but i know what the consequences are. i'll push it to a certain point but not past it #and these kids? man some of them would compete on broken legs if their parents let them #and that's like. regional or maybe german championships not the olympics #and with an environment of coaches and parents that isn't perfect but that will at least not push them into these unhealthy patterns

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cowboy-robooty · 2 months

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not going to name names bc thats messed up but omfg i was tryna find records of old heta fandom shit to show inu right and i found a hetalia iceberg and I SAW MY 2019 OPP ON THERE. IT WAS SO FUCKING FUNNY LIKE MY EYES BULGED OUT OF MY SKULL BECAUSE IM NOT EVEN JOKING I HATED THIS BITCH SO MUCH WHEN I WAS 14 AND NGL I STILL HATE HER. I DIDNT SAY NOTHING AND KEPT CURTIOUS AND NORMAL OBVIOUSLY BUT ON THE INSIDE I WANTED HER ASS DEAD EVERYDAY AND WELL... you all know im never in the loop with things and had no fucking clue that she was just the antichrist for an entire group of people lol. SHE WAS MY ANTICHRIST THO. I HATED HER AND SHE HATED ME OKAY AND IM LIKE RODF SEEING HOW SHES ON THE FUCKING HETALIA ICEBERG I WAS LIKE OMG.... I THOUGHT ONLY I FUCKING DESPISED HER

#i hated her to an unhealthy amount imma be so real #bc ive never done an internet sin of like shittalking outside of priv accs/dms #or interacting anonymously with people i hate etc etc #but there are things that are like corruptions for your own soul from how sour hatred can get #and she did that to me. and i only hated her enough to do that #i have only ever in my life actively hatestalked her blog when i was 14 bc she made me so fucking mad everyday #ive only ever in my life hatestalked her like shes the only reason i can comprehend why people are compelled to hatestalk #this was all back when i was like 14 tho lol and #ugh... im sorry. as you can tell the hatred i feel towards her is like soul corrupting level #i want to say im sure she has grown up to be a fine person and logically i know this is true #but also part of me is like there is no fucking way this bitch grew up to be a fine person like the lobotomy part of my brain is saying that #i will not tell you who she is btw so dont send me an ask begging for the user #and if for some reason you have a hunch who it is. you never know you could be wrong and even if youre not i dont condone harassment towards #her or like yknow just any association like leave her tf alone #i dont have fans who love me enough or are crazy parasocial to harass someone i personally hate/hated #but still just in case #shes not an actual bad person. i just hate her so much that it makes ME a bad person on the inside #its why im so glad that i turned 15 and went i need to stop looking at her forever or else i will reincarnate as a mosquito #ill only talk to u abt her if we are at least acquatiances with eachother #and i dont think anybody will be able to figure out who she is actually bc i never once was mean to her outside of telling my close friends #i wanted her dead. me when i dont act like a beast online despite the vietnamese devil inside me

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dawdlecentric · 6 months

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Man, this doujin isn't fucking around

Meanwhile, Seikuri in the background...

Doujin: Flashbackers by Totobe

#my ramblings #bocchi the rock #no fr tho. please read flashbackers!! it's so good!#it's a ryokita doujin made by one of my fave artist and everything about it is just...so great. I can't express it enough #whether you ship ryokita or not it's still a good read! like really it's well articulated and goes in depth about ryo & kita's relationship #and acknowledges how unhealthy it is but the realization of this makes the both of them understand each other more clearly without-#-seeing through rose colored glasses. I just- ughhh! I'm not good with words and I can't stress it enough so once again please read this!#you can really tell how much this artist is passionate and dedicated about the ship #not only that but how they color the cover page (and their art in general) is JUST SO CATCHING! LITERAL EYE CANDY!#and the pacing and panelling of the story is well thought out plus the equal balance of humor and angst is so entertaining & heart wrenchin #and their art style... fricking adorable and expressive and striking!! Just grrr!! I LOVE THIS ARTIST'S WORK SO MUCH!!!#I'm not that particularly crazy about ryokita but they are very interesting to explore and could have some potential if they worked out-#-their own flaws. I've been meaning to draw them sometime (if only I could start posting decent bnj art-#-tfw hyper fixation so strong it overwhelms you and in turn can't make fanart of it even if you most definitely WANT TO)#ehem. anyways I think it's quite criminal that ryokita was one of the least popular btr ships #in other story. I was woken up by my cat way to early today so I ended up reading this in a half awake state XD #I just found out last night that this doujin was already translated so what better time to read this other than first thing in the morning-#-running on three hours of sleep 😃👍

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eggmeralda · 4 months

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do you ever feel casually suicidal? like you're not depressed or anything you're doing fine but also it feels like a convenient option

#if you can't make connections with people or be seen by anyone then like. at least you can feel like you're helping a better cause #to like charities and gfms and anyone else #but you have to tone that down bc you're slowly losing money bc you still can't get a job #and bc you don't have a job it means you're just stuck in the house all day. which gives Way Too Much opportunity to Think about everything #and also so like. i still share a room with my sister but it was fine bc she'd stay at her bf's a few nights a week #but he's got a job that's a bit further away and basically she can't go round his as much. so now it's maybe like once a week #the room is getting messier so it gives me less energy to do anything #you can get really into an unhealthy weight loss obsession bc at least it feels like you're getting towards something #but idek is set weight theory real? bc once i get down to a certain point it suddenly resets #like honestly counting calories and donating money to every gfm i saw and writing a film script was what kept me going #but first one isn't working and second i need some sort of income and third is finished and i have no way of actually creating it #and then there's the whole lack of stable hyperfixation and ability to find new music i enjoy #and realistically what would fix me is having a good job that i enjoy and somewhere to live on my own #but until i get a job that's currently impossible. and even then it probably won't feel like enough #my entire life is lived on my phone i need more physical objects but i don't have enough space #bc i share a room with my sister. it's like all my problems are connected #and i have enough optimism that i still think it'll get better in the next few weeks. maybe i'll be able to get a job and that'll #get everything going again #but at the same time i could easily just die #I've graduated from uni. I've seen the who live 3 times. I've crashed my car twice. I've watched 30 years of corrie. I've met various dogs #what else is there to do with my life honestly #(<- joking)#but yeah like. in summer 2021 i almost got suicidal (it was just letting the occasional thought linger in my mind etc)#but that was bc i was so depressed #but now it feels like i could just kill myself. but more just out of convenience #idek. i'm not gonna kill myself. bc i have a job interview on tuesday. and just in general i won't #but there is this casual feeling of like. well i might as well. i can't describe it #ramble #suicide tw #weight loss mention

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monomoss · 6 months

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listening to casual by chappell roan on the train to uni after you’ve hooked up with your ex back home is a spiritual experience

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bikerboyfriend · 6 months

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another dump cos i sorta kinda like these...friends and family

#dino.png #cyberpunk 2077 #myV: léo-vincent valentine #that name so annoying to type out #random léo-vin infodump of the day: he (and...only he😭) doesnt see the way hes cuddling up w panam as romantic. if they ever were to #i mean...he sortakinda romanced her. didnt get to basilisk yet. but he didnt do any of the romance options until she made a move #and even then...léo-vin is...🗿. he just goes along w whatever ppl want sometimes.#this is sometimes. also in general...terrible at romance he has no healthy perception of it soo...!#he genuinely cares for panam a deeply but like. his borderline unhealthy attachment to johnny is not helping anything #he often lets ppl decide their relationship with him bc he doesnt make any efforts to like maintain relationships w ppl that much #mama welles knows this well but he always stumbles into el coyoté at least....once every few months #if she calls he will come tho lol #in canon timeline (so dying) he would completely distance himself in hopes that his death doesnt sadden her (this is stupid) (it still will #so johnny being physically incapable of leaving him...tho it was invoulantarily he weasled his way in like jackie did #nd V ultimately does not want to be alone. so....ya!#AND SCENE #anyways. i have so much lore written for him its so fun. highly recommended.

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copiawife · 8 months

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you know i think i need to take a break from here. i really need to double down and focus on my schoolwork this term and i can feel my compulsive need to scroll endlessly start to affect me so i'm going to try to take a break :) you can get in touch with me on discord @/silenthorrorfilm and i might pop back on for copiablair anniversary on 3/5, but yeah. i need to go on a little break i hope you can understand :)

#tumblr is definitely the least bad but it is still social media and social media is really unhealthy for me just on the whole #so i have to take periodic breaks!#what do you have to say doll?

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