#Sorry if this doesn't make sense

[omorinovaau]

repeat it with me :

ROMANCE-AVERSE AND ROMANCE-REPULSED AROMANTICS ARE NOT BAD PEOPLE BECAUSE OF THEIR AVERSION/REPULSION!

ROMANCE-INDIFFERENT AROMANTICS ARE NOT OBLIGATED TO CARE ABOUT ROMANCE!

ROMANCE-FAVOURABLE AND ROMANCE-AMBIVALENT AROMANTICS ARE NOT LESS AROMANTIC FOR ENJOYING ROMANCE IN SOME WAYS!

FEMALE AROMANTICS ARE NOT 'QUIRKY' PICK-MES OR OLD MAIDS!

MALE AROMANTICS ARE NOT INCELS OR MISOGYNISTS!

NON-BINARY AROMANTICS ARE VALID AND SHOULD BE SUPORTED AND ARE NOT FADDISH!

ALLOSEXUAL AROMANTICS ARE NOT WHORES OR PROSTITUTES FOR HAVING SEXUAL ATTRACTION AND NOT ROMANTIC ATTRACTION!

ASEXUAL AROMANTICS ARE NOT INCOMPLETE OR MISSING SOMETHING!

AROMANTICS DON'T OWE YOU A RELATIONSHIP!

AROMANTICS DON'T OWE YOU LOVE OF ANY KIND!

[christronomy]

i had an insane chan thought few days ago but unfortunately (or thankfully?) i forgot what it was and i am forever upset.

though i have an equal one i guess if u don't mind me sending this to you;;

my brain has been severely corrupted by chan wanting to pull out before he cums because no protection(maybe like first time going raw) but instead what he doesn't expect is you wrapping your legs tightly around him and giving him no chance and he just stares widely with big puppy eyes while streams of 'sorry's and 'please let me go' escape his mouth and you just, hazily say "it feels like a waste[if he lets his load out anywhere else but you]" while rubbing your own tummy

as he empties out his load while lustfully staring at your fucked out expression, hes determined to fill you to the brim with his cum every time you fuck. in every position possible. he deserves it..you deserve it. a quick way to chan's breeding kink awakening.

sorry this got so long fjskdhshdj he makes me want to eat glass in the most affectionate way ever

i have actually passed away and am typing this from my grave rn. holy shit anon you're so big brain for this. i agree 1000%.

i love the idea of it being the first time he goes in raw bc it's bc you begged him to do it. "just this one time, please? it'll feel so good, promise." and he can't help but just say yes, cause the way you ask is just so sweet and cute and he'd do anything to please his favorite girl ever. he just didn't expect you to do that—the way you wrapped your legs around him tightly to stop him from pulling out. he swears he's never cum that hard in his life, and you just look and sound so pretty when he fills you up that now he's hopelessly addicted to it. best believe he's never gonna use protection with you ever again.

[sideblogfornothing]

You know what, it's so fucking weird to be a rich stereotype, while being broke.

Like in Israel ppl immediately assume me to be rich cause I'm American, but outside of Israel ppl assume me to be rich cause I'm Jewish 😭😭😭

God, I fucking wish.

[raccoon-smiles]

Edel dying and becoming Uzura is one of the most powerful things to me in Princess Tutu to me. She is a great parallel to Mytho. Mytho loses his emotions. He lives without them, and he has to learn how to deal with them again when he get's them back. Edel never had feelings. She never got to learn. She had to be reborn to properly learn her emotions. Some day I want to do a breakdown of this because Edel and Uzura are the same but different. I think Uzura joining Drosselmeyer at the end is also really important. She fulfills the same job as Edel, but now she is her own person. Unlike Edel who was always told she is a puppet without emotions and had come to "pretend" to have emotions, Uzura is a girl with emotions first and informed she's a puppet second. I truly believe Edel had emotions because she has no logical reason to do what she did if she didn't care for the main cast. She even died expressing a want to see Mytho and Princess Tutu dance together. Wanting something is an emotion even if Edel says it is all pretend. I believe Edel was compartmentalizing her feelings because of her identity as "just a puppet." Uzura is a second chance. Uzura gets to feel freely. Being a puppet isn't something to hold her back. She loves. She's curious. She's a person.

As someone who has highly compartmentalized their emotions to the point where they have trouble identifying that they have emotions, Edel and Uzura are so special to me. When I have tried to start feeling again, I often get called childish and told I'm overreacting. This has led me to stop trying to feel and go back to compartmentalizing. I think this is why Edel had to die for Uzura to get to feel. Because only a child is allowed to deconstruct emotion like that. I love the little wooden dolls. They are everything to me.

[solaarneet]

i see a bunch of people debating on Scar, Martyn and Joel's Celestial Sybolism so i've come to offer my own thoughts.

Joel = Mars

Reason: Mars is often associated with war and destruction. Joel in Wild Life, while tame for most of the series, in the finale got a majority of the kills in the final session (correct me if i'm wrong). i know a lot of people see Scar as Mars, but with his role throughout the seasobs, Mars doesn't seem to fit Scar at all. Joel fits this role best, especially if we pay attention to the pervious seasons.

he's always prone to violence first, and is quick to try and get the final kill. Joel may not have been successful for the most part, but his blood-thirsty nature aligns more with Mars than Scar does.

Martyn = Uranus

Reason: Uranus is often seen as a very indepent planet, being associated with indiviuality and carving it's own path. like Martyn in a lot of the Life Series, but mainly Limited Life and his final monolouge at the end. he carved his own path, even if it was for a mintue of two, in the final moments Martyn didn't care for alliance or even playing fair in the last moment.

looking back at the other seasons, he's a very indepent guy. even with a majority, not all, of his alliances Martyn mostly keeps to himself. Uranus is also considered to be ever changing and unperdictable, like how Martyn is within the Life Series. he's constantly changing and rarely sticking to one role.

Scar = Jupiter

Reason: Jupiter's associated with luck, influence and occasionally wealth. with Scar, he's constantly trying to get influence on the server (sand monoply, dark oak monoply, etc.) this with his extordinarly stupid amount of luck makes him a perfect candidate for Jupiter. his role in Secret Life only expands upon this, as he never has any friends, sabatogges his alliances because of the secrets, people only go to him for goods. and he won the series by pure luck after Pearl fell into the chasm.

paired with his previous seasons, Scar holds more traits with Jupiter than he does Mars. he's blood-thirsty, but not to the same extent as Joel is. his strength lies in his charisma, luck and his need to make a monoply. Scar is always looking to expand, either himself or his buisness, which is one of Jupiter's core traits.

[realaxing-tea-lover]

Is it doomed yaoi because it’s Jayce and Viktor? Or is it because it’s Jayce and Viktor it’s doomed yaoi?

[luna-the-cretar]

I imagine Marius, since turning, has been stalked by roses. Like, if he’s able to sleep in a bed alone, he finds a deep blood red rose on his pillowcase (which smells like some odd combination of roses, blood, and sex). If he finds himself sleeping in a room, but not by himself, then he finds a rose in a vase on a table in the room, the color and scent changing based on who he’s sharing the room with.

However, if he’s unable to sleep in a bed, then he’ll find a random rose along the path, or will stumble upon a whole garden of them (even if there shouldn’t be one there). If he enters a building, he’ll see a rose on the mantle, on a table, etc. Whenever he brings it up, the owner will be confused. They’ve never had a rose to display, especially not a fresh one.

The roses are always fresh, always vibrant, and always pungent, even when they shouldn’t be. How on earth is there a fresh rose on the mantle in a dilapidated tavern, that has been abandoned for decades?

Deep down, he knows where the roses keep coming from. And the rest of the party knows too, even if they don’t bring it up.

[jukebox-wait]

the more i draw them the more disheveled they become

[drowningparty]

I have some thoughts re: Kayne / godhood (spoilers for intermezzo)

I don't think Kayne respects any of the other gods. He definitely doesn't respect the King in Yellow, he knocked him over the head w/ an oversized mallet to give him amnesia and stuck him in Arthur's head and reduced the Dreamlands to "a lawless waste" for a laugh. He also destroyed his city for the hell of it. He doesn't fucking care. He's rude to John, ignores him, says 'Arthur' when referring to both of them. I thought I noticed this undercurrent of quiet animosity, but felt vindicated during 40 + Intermezzo b/c he was suddenly soooooo loud! Ignoring & talking over John? Check. Telling him he's not special like Arthur? Check. Saying he'll torture him worse than Arthur just because he can? Check. My theory is it's b/c John's still a god, technically. Like the whole, choosing your own name + path... you'd think would be something Kayne could sympathize with (as much as Kayne can feel sympathy), but...........no. He knows John is easier to manipulate w/ fear (he can send him back to the Dark World w/ a snap of his fingers), and saves his faux sympathy for Arthur.

I think this is b/c he likes humans. Sure, he also likes killing them, but I don't think those impulses are mutually exclusive. Kayne's the most "human" of the gods we've met. He talks like a human, makes pop culture references, looks passingly human, etc. I think he envies them, in a way? They have a freedom I think he lacks as a god, even though they are confined to one timeline. We still don't fully understand how gods work, but from his description alone it sounds like he thinks of them as limited. They have incredible power compared to mortals, they exist outside the piano... but are confined to a single key. Which sounds to me like their path is predetermined and they're not intended to develop free will. Kayne's an anomaly b/c he does, or tries to.

He wants to put humans in an antfarm, perhaps as a demonstration of his free will. That's all Carcosa was, right? An antfarm. He wanted to play godzilla, smash the ants. Arthur's another ant in a different farm, and he watched his entire life play out across several verses to try to figure him out. What makes him unique is he dies in every other verse. Kayne can't figure out what makes this Arthur so special that he survives when all the others don't, but it implies he did something right with his free will, that this version is an "anomaly" like Kayne. He respects that, b/c it means this version of Arthur has done the same thing he has: taken control of their narrative. Even Kayne choosing his own name is an example of that. Becoming Kayne, rejecting the title Nyarlathotep and all the baggage that comes with it, the expectation to be what his father wants, a messenger for the outer gods (although he may still want that, I expect whatever his intentions are re: the Black Stone, they're his, not Azathoth's).

Arthur is usually a mirror for character's to see their humanity reflected, but instead of seeing his humanity (b/c he has none), Kayne looks at Arthur and sees himself. Which... surprised me? He seems so confident in his godhood, I thought he just viewed Arthur as his fave toy or human, like even in the S4 finale I found it hilarious how he kept going: "why can't you all just be more like Arthur???" apropo of.....nothing, but he didn't treat him like someone he identified with, so it caught me off-guard when he compared himself to Arthur, but that's big for a god! and I think it supports my thesis he envies humans for their freedom. Their roles aren't as "established" as a god's. Humans have free will, something he had to kill every other version of himself to gain. Even then, I think absorbing his alts (???) or whatever he did after killing them to become more powerful fucked him up, may have driven him mad if he wasn't already when he started this exercise in defending-himself-from-ever-getting-deleted, like he doesn't sound okay when he's talking to himself.

TLDR: Kayne thinks Arthur's special b/c he lived, when all the other Arthur's in Kayne's Arthur-Killing-Experiment died! (: Kayne can't figure out why, but he likes not knowing why. He likes humanity b/c of their freedom, b/c he's a chaos god who wants as much freedom as possible. And he's aware gods are fallible, they can be deleted, which takes all the romance out of godhood. Kayne's the most powerful god we've met b/c he's taken steps to emulate humanity's free will, the thing that makes Arthur "special," but what makes Arthur "hard to see" is probably his humanity. As much as Kayne likes humanity, I don't think it's something he can truly understand, which is why he enjoys sticking humans full of pins and trying.

I think it's neat Malevolent prizes humanity over godhood. Even gods seem to value humanity over godhood. John wants to become human. Yellow wants acceptance from a human. I think Kayne holds humans in higher esteem than gods. Those who look down on humans or try to 'ascend' and leave behind their humanity, like Larson, are clearly in the wrong. It's not seen as a weakness to be human, and even the parts of humanity that are usually written off as a weakness (our rage, grief, violence, desperation, etc...) are viewed as strengths in Malevolent, and I fucking love that about this show.

Anyway, I'll, uhh, shut up now.

[theodysseyofhomer]

Tbh just looking through your blog it seemed like you had things to say about Athena and Odysseus and idk why I've never really focused in on them before but I am. Intrigued! Are there instances in the odyssey you wish were explored more in epic or discussed more in general?

Or do you have any recommended reading?

i don't know that i have an athena/odysseus manifesto or anything but i do enjoy them! obviously athena works behind the scenes throughout the odyssey to help him, but he doesn't know that; when they finally interact in person and she reveals herself to him, he reacts with both distrust and a lot of freedom—that man is saying things to his patron goddess that i wouldn't say to my department supervisor. and she's fine with it! she's even like, oh you, this is why i like you ♥️ and then for the rest of the poem he obeys her implicitly while she eggs on the suitors to throw shit at him. which is how i treat my favorite little guys as well.

epic the musical is a pretty different beast; the athena duets with odysseus and telemakhos are by far my favorite songs, but i can't take them too seriously lol. i'd love for penelope and athena to have a duet, i guess! no one adapting the odyssey ever seems to include the scene where athena comes to penelope in a dream (disguised as her sister) and penelope, still dreaming, logics her way into realizing what must be going on and asks if odysseus is still alive. failing bechdel, but still very dear to me

my recommended reading is, as usual, the odyssey itself

[snakes-of-the-undercity]

Arcane Rant -

Rewatching arcane and I realized something; first scenes of episode 3 are a turning point. Not just in the whole ‘establishing Silco’ business, but because if Vander had truly ended up in Stillwater there’s a good chance Vi would have been the one taken in by Silco.

Vi would have blamed herself for his imprisonment, leaving her vulnerable in a similar way to how powder was, but she would have also become something different; greater.

She would have had to maintain some level of sanity in order to be a parent to Powder and a leader to the rest of the kids. Silco’s attack on Vander actually cost him more than he gained in the end, he could have had Vi and Jinx, maybe even Ekko, but he lost all that because of his vengeance and I think that’s the great thing about his character; his failure, flaw, is that he is too opportunistic, too much of an idealist.

That’s why he’s the perfect foil to another character I lowkey hate; Heimerdinger. Heimerdinger is not opportunistic, and that costs him so much; he’s not idealistic, rather he’s cynical and that leads him to believe that there’s only one option for progress.

Silco and Heimerdinger are each others parallel, instead of Heimerdinger and Singed/Silco and Jayce as I originally thought

Back to my original thing though -

Basically the first scene of episode 3 changes the whole narrative. Silco originally wanted to take Vi rather than Powder and he only took Powder because he had no other option. The original plan was for Vi to become ‘Jinx’, for her to become the next iteration of Vander leadership but with Silco’s ideals; instead we got Jinx the unwitting revolutionary, the embodiment of a weapon.

Silco doomed the undercity through his own quest for revenge and I think that’s super fitting and might be a bit of foreshadowing for the coming season (Vi & the underground theory truther right here)

[oklotea]

What’s your opinion on Apple as a Character and Person?

AS A CHARACTER

I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING ADORE APPLE WHITE OH MY GOD I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. It's easy for so many people to focus on all the shit apple gets up to and how many mistakes she makes and how many people she ends up hurting, but oh my fucking god if they ever sat down and thoroughly thought about WHY she does the things she does, how she was raised to become this person who is so hellbent in a cause/belief that hurts more people than it helps, or the myriad of ways she is like, an actual teenage girl who is being groomed and emotionally manipulated by EVERY SINGLE ADULT FIGURE IN HER LIFE--

Maybe they could learn that she is one of the best written characters in the show, and she solos all your faves /JOKE THIS IS A JOKE

AS A PERSON.....

I'm a firm believer that Apple doesn't want to hurt anyone. Look at her. She never had any intention to hurt anyone. OF COURSE NOT! SHE DOESN'T WAKE UP EVERYDAY TO LOOK FOR A REASON TO HURT PEOPLE.

But the thing is, she does. She does she does she does, and it's all because she's genuinely, GENUINELY WORRIED that something horrible will happen to the people she loves and cares about. If they do not follow their destinies. But let's be real it's also partially because she's extremely attached to the destiny system. And she believes that living by it, is the only way to live your life fulfilled. It's a safety net in her eyes. She thinks it's good because of how well the system treats her. BUT JUST WAIT WHEN SHE REALIZES THATTTTTT everything she ever believed about destiny is a lie, darling is her prince Charming, everything is a lie. She's a comphet lesbian. She has never truly liked herself for who she is, if she even KNOWS who she is outside of her destiny.

But back to the matter at hand, I can see that Apple never has the intention to hurt Raven or any of her friends, but she's also so deeply loyal to the destiny system, she makes stupid decisions and she hurts them.

She is a teenage girl who is doomed from the start I mean come on I still love her

[buddyhollyscurls]

Yk what fucks me up the most about Geto? How bc we only see him through Gojo's POV and in the Hidden Inventory arcs (least in the anime I haven't started the manga YET so idk if we get more info of him) we don't particularly.... know him that well. Like yes we see through Gojo that he's not eating/sleeping well, we see that he's depressed but there's still so many unanswered questions that we'll never know and things we only get bits and pieces of.

When he died, he said he was never able to live life with a proper smile. Does that mean even when he was working on his cult, he wasn't satisfied? If that's the case, do you think he ever regretted what he did? Do u think there were ever times he lied awake at night wishing he could see his parents again? We dont even know the relationship he had with them. Did he kill them more out of vengeance than "principles?" We can't even feasibly say how long he's been depressed for from that statement. Was his whole adolescence just him hiding his feelings? We know by how much Nanako and Mimiko loved him that he must've been a great guardian to them. But were there things he struggled with raising them? He clearly allowed them to be regular young girls, so did he put them in school? Do u think he actually believed that he could kill all non sorcerers or did he actually not even believe in his own ideology and plan?

I'm asking all these questions because it shows how hard the point of his character drives. That it's so hard to actually see him as a full fleged person bc we don't actually have much to go on and we know more of his powers than anything else.

[the-girl-with-too-many-ideas]

I've been playing Alan Wake 2, and boy, has it been a trip so far (I don't think I'll ever be over that entire musical segment, lol).

Anyway, while playing, I had a thought. What about a crossover with SVSSS where the reason PIDW ended up as it did was actually due to the interference of the dark presence. It manipulated Airplane in an effort to create its own little world made in such a way that it can be easily invaded. That way, it can essentially use the PIDW-verse as a focal point to invade other small little worlds. Allowing it to slowly and steadily grow strong enough to finally invade the Alan Wake world.

The only reason the SVSSS-verse exists is in an effort to rewrite PIDW to prevent such a thing or, in the worst-case scenario, have another world in between to weaken it or at the very least slow it down. Airplane isn't just trying to survive. He is quite literally trying to save multiple worlds by undoing all the mistakes he made in his writing. The system is an outside entity trying to stop the dark presence. Shen Yuan is brought into the narrative not just by the system but by Airplane as well. His brought in for the sole purpose of being a conduit and catalyst to change the story for the better.

Essentially, Airplane and the system are playing 4D chess with the forces of darkness for the sake of multiple universes, and Shen Yuan is an unfortunate bystander dragged into it to serve as a narrative tool and nothing else.

[edwardsissyhandsthtdanceslikeabb]

❝you are a fuckin piece of shit, but i got you.❞

✧ Tom + Greg x Paths of Courtship

[the-great-papyru]

yk i think flowey's whole thing where he's convinced he can't feel isn't just him believing he can't feel, he NEEDS to be unable to feel. sorry for the random creepypasta reference but it's like the creepypasta called "I Need To Believe In Ghosts". basically the plot of it is this guy has a horrific encounter with a monster as they're making their way to the elevator. why do they need to believe in ghosts? because they can't accept the gravity of what actually happened. that they were the reason that woman died, she had been just inches from the door. they can't accept that. so they have to believe in ghosts. the story itself does a better job so hehe.. https://www.reddit.com/r/shortscarystories/comments/2s2739/i_need_to_believe_in_ghosts/

anyways... how does this relate back to flowey needing to be unable to feel? because he too cannot accept the full gravity of the things he's done. this is why he dehumanizes (demonsterizes?) everyone. they must be toys. they can't be people. things to play with. they can't be people. if they're people then he hurt people. he hurt them. but if he hurt toys then it's just a game. it's all ok if it's just a game. it doesn't matter if it's just a game. if they aren't real then their feelings don't matter do they? he needs to be unable to feel too because part of him knows the truth. they are people. he's hurting them. but if he can't feel then it's ok. it's not his fault if he can't feel. he doesn't want to hurt them, he just has to. it's the only thing he can do. if he could CHOOSE not to hurt people then he's horrible. unlovable. disgusting. but if he can't... then it doesn't matter. if he CAN'T care about them it doesn't matter what he does to them. they're not real. it's just a game. he's not a bad person.

it's not his fault. it's all his fault. he's horrible. he's just playing. it's not real. it's not real. it's not.

i hope this makes sense papyru!!!

YEAH this is awesome!! it’s sort of in the same vein as The Vitamin. there’s something wrong with him. he’s missing a soul. if only he had a soul, he could feel. he could be normal. he could behave the way he’s supposed to.

monster culture is… honestly, i think it’s also big part of flowey’s ideas regarding feelings. the whole “monsters have love, hope, and compassion in their souls” thing seems pretty popular. popular enough to be common knowledge. and that’s… not very good for flowey. because he doesn’t have a soul. and he doesn’t give love easy the way he used to. the way he’s supposed to. he’s placed in this “other” category because he can’t live up to the standards of monster culture.

not only that, but there’s this sort of toxic positivity in monster culture. “king asgore will set us free. king asgore will give us hope. king asgore will free us all.” i do understand where this culture comes from. it’s a genuine matter of health; monsters cannot live without positivity and hope. but… that doesn’t change the effect it had on flowey. he couldn’t match that positivity he was supposed to have. he was broken. soulless. so he couldn’t feel anything, could he? or he’d be the person he was supposed to. the person he used to be.

and the separation of monsters from humans inadvertently leaded to this depersonalization of flowey. “humans don’t need to have love and hope and compassion, us monsters are so much kinder! we didn’t attack, they struck first without any warning.” there’s this sort of moral superiority. this division. and flowey, who doesn’t even have a soul, who doesn’t even have the potential for love?

what does that say about him?