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your insides are so pretty. [♡]
#sorry i am so very unwell abt them#indulging in my delusions is therapy 2 me#ngl rendering intestines n stuff is super satisfying#esp adding the highlightsss its wwwawiee#also rendering when theres a specific color palette is so much easier...... i cant do it right when theres too many colors to choose from..#i think i need 2 practice that orz#tw gore#tw guro#tw guts#tw gut spill#tw blood#tw injury#uhhhhhhhhhhhhh#my art#frayocs#sadie#macy
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Something about Sephiroth having heal and revival materia is so trivial yet does a weird thing for me... those hands used to be capable of good
#ff7#final fantasy 7#final fantasy vii#ffvii#sephiroth#i know it is the most useless detail ever but it means everything to me#he is responsible for so much death and destruction#but before that he could heal. he could save. he was good#good lord sorry i dont mean to spill my tears all over your salad
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when we were happy
#anthro#furry#angel#dog#lion#oc: jibril#oc: mikail#i realise i have not drawn the brothers together and had to fix that#they look like Sam so much bc they were literally made from his own flayed skin and spilled blood#sorry not sorry for ruining the vibes B)
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am i gonna put you in the book acknowledgements am i gonna be able to say your name without flinching am i ever gonna get a word in edgewise am i ever gonna recover the time i spent with you. computer virus kid; i arrived in your life already begging to be let in. somehow insecure i could even be your friend. like you had a line outside the door and we were all shifting our weight, begging.
you're so fucking good at that - at making people feel like they need to earn you, like you're a commodity none of us can afford. no kindness or careful communication could work on you - you were so good at just going-ghost, about deciding someone just wasn't cool-enough. something about that is super ironic. even the parts of it that weren't romantic felt like a romance book. i wanted you to like me so badly i scrubbed myself clean just so you'd spare me - what. your favor? a look?
okay okay okay. it's just a friendship - if it was even true that we were friends, if you even saw me as someone you trusted. on reddit someone would tell me girl literally just cut her out of your life, it's not that difficult. even i was aware of how fucked up the whole situation was. like, why the fuck do i even care about your approval? you're like, not even that fun to be around. you are often a little bit cruel.
but for almost four years of my life, i thought i had found someone like me. somebody who liked the same things i do. someone who liked to read and who liked making jokes with esoteric references and who spent maybe too much time on the internet and who was absolutely a little bit pretentious. i don't know, something about that was powerful and addictive.
i keep thinking about our last conversation. about how i said - okay, enough is enough. you pushed me too far, you really hurt my feelings.
and how you laughed and said - you think you're the victim?
#spilled ink#warm up#writeblr#she physically assaulted me and then screamed in my face#but not before sh'ing first and blaming it on me#while she was locked in my bathroom. at 1 in the morning#while i begged her to please just calm down and to try taking a deep breath and to go to sleep#and then she was like - ur just like my abuser#bc she had screamed in my face which was triggering to me and i froze like a deer in the headlights#and since i had shut down at that point evidently i was the problem child#i know she is out there telling our mutual friends i abandoned her and it makes me SO pissed off#like dude you spent so much fucking time forgiving & forgetting that your decrepit asshole of a boyfriend#pushed me down in the fucking hallway#but noooo hes <3 troubled <3 at 43 and divorced#bc according to you it's important that u don't '''see anyone as a monster''#but god forbid i not handle you SCREAMING IN MY FACE#i couldnt even get you to say sorry for crossing my original and only boundary you were like ''what did you want me to do''#babe i said 'the bf is not allowed around here he scares me and u said ur broken up with him'#that was the thing i wanted you to do: not fucking invite him to WHERE I LIVED#godddd typing this shit out and knowing it's only 2% of what actually happened makes me feel pathetic#i can't believe i let you treat me like that. you were a TERRIBLE friend.
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Pages from trying to keep a little sketchbook-scrapbook type thing going for two weeks lol. I gave myself specific rules in hopes they might all end up more cohesive/consistent seeming, but alas, scribbly chaos reigns, it seems
#sketchbook#scrapbook#Actually I feel like these are kind of incomprehensible in photo form like.. In person holding the book its easy to look at#but as images on this scale I feel like there's so much tiny little text and small scribles and stuff you'd have to 'right click > open#image in new browser tab > zoom in' just to actually really see the thing. which for 7 images is excessive lol.. so. probably not the best#medium for sharing really but. I suppose I thought they might look cooler lined up next to each other. The whole part of using a#limited color palette is so that maybe they kind of seem to have more consistent color schemes or something throughout. but I dont#know if they look all that 'related' or not. I think these types of challenges I have always sucked at because I am a being of clutter and#excess. I can't just do like one little simple nice looking design and have that Crisp Neat calligraphy with evenhanded perfect lines#and perfect symmetical composition and etc. etc. Like some poeple post very aesthetically clean and cohesive looking sketch#pages or something but I simply cannot hold back the brain impulse to add more. more. more. Fill every single blank space with color#or a little drawing or a sticker or something. I take away 500 things and there are still a million there. Even when I thik I'm being#'simplistic' I'm still usually being 2x more complicated and cluttered than the standard or whatever lol. I guess thats clear from my#outfits/costumes though too. Like whatever that saying is from that person about something like 'before you leave the house take off one#more accessory. you dont need it' for me is like.. 'before you leave the house. add 10 more accessories. and 6 more layers. and another'#AAANyway. I wonder if also maybe some people would try to plan theirs in a way to look good or something or like.. plot things on the page#before placing them. I did sometimes have a theme for a day kind of (like day 10 I ended up finding a few gold and green things and then#was like.. hey... what if I looked for a few other things and only used these colors today') but aside from that I was just slapping down#stickers randomly and working around them to fill the page. Maybe a lot of neat minimalistic asthetic design is about planning and#having a Vision set ahead of time. instead of just complete random whatever. doodling whilst watching youtube videos or eating lunch. It's#a miracle actually I've managed to not spill any food on the book the whole time. anyway.. I do wish the highlighter really showed up. the#scanner kind of makes the colors look VERY different to irl. But also it got much clearer images than just camera pictures of pages. alas..#..Still oddly enjoy the phrase 'Salisbury Steak gently kissed with industrial pollutants'#probably my favorite section of 'gluing random papers and things onto the page' lol#Also I wonder if it's super obvious that I literally never ever use references when I draw (save for the few freakish looking youtube#face sketches) since everyone is always in the same positions and looking very similar ghhb. This could have been a good opportunity to#work on not solely drawing from my mind and try to do more Dynamic Experimental scribbles. NO. Same exact eye for the 90th time#be upon ye. But I guess it was meant to be casual 'daily doodles'. True 'practice' would make it seem too effortful like a full project. hm#(lol the one decimated pencil in the set... never hand me a writing utensil. i will passively destroy it somehow. shaving the sides of a#pencil off with a knife or snapping a pen in half as a nervous fidget without even realizing i've done it. sorry to the drawing implements)
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"grief is just love with no place to go"
(jamie anderson)
"i this hope grief stays with me because it's all the unexpressed love that i never got to tell her..."
(andrew garfield)
Credits: Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie: Notes on Grief / C.S Lewis: A Grief Observed / Shannon Barry quote via @academia-aesthetics / Fleabag 2016 / Jamie Anderson quote / One Day 2024 / Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, Half of a Yellow Sun / Little Women 2019 / Amanda Gorman, Call Us What We Carry / WandaVision 2021 / Andrew Garfield quote / Ocean Vuong quote, source / Up 2009 / Lang Leav: September Love via @academia-aesthetics / "the grief is never ending but so is the love" monkey meme / commemorative bench plaque in Central Park, New York, photo:© Neva Micheva / Valarie Kaur, See No Stranger: A Memoir and Manifesto of Revolutionary Love / Glennon Doyle Leyton: Love warrior / Hotel Del Luna 2019 / Heidi Priebe: As Long As There Is Love, There Will Be Grief
#y'all this is my first ever webweave pls be nice#if anyone seeing this post is grieving a loved one im so so so sorry and im sending you so much love#its such a hard thing to deal with but making this helped me cope a little hopefully it helps others too#crediting was a lot of work man#but still feel free to tell me if anything is missing im very new to making webs lol#web weave#web weaving#webweaving#grief#web weavings#grief is love#poetry#parallels#words words words#poems and quotes#poeteunoia#mine#spilled ink#spilled poetry#mourning#tw grief#dealing with grief#grief poetry#grief journey#loss#grieving#sad quotes#sad poetry#heartbreak#tw death
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HOLY. SHIT.
I don’t even wanna separate these?? TAKE THE WHOLE SHEET I’M SO PROUD OF IT WHAT????
I was playing around with expressions and OMG, I think I unlocked something???
It was mostly from yesterday’s post, I liked the way I drew Pizza Head so I decided to try drawing him again (since it’s been a while) AND GOD I LOVE THESE‼️‼️‼️ Seriously started out rough but then I just kind rolled with it! I like it! I like it a lot‼️ 😆😆
Also since I drew Brick yesterday as well, I decided to change the way I draw him, just a bit 🤏
Today was so fun AAAHHH!!!! 💞💞💞💞💞💞
#Pizza Tower#Looking at these so proud 😌😌#I was on the coach for what- 3 hours? It was worth it- 💀#I think the way I’ll draw Brick for now on is what he looks like in game but the legs look just a TINY bit like baggy pants#Like have you ever seen animated animals have those legs that look baggy and the feet underneath#I’ve seen it somewhere I know I have but I don’t have a good example…Still I tried to make it look sorta like that-#And I like it! I think he’s looks adorable!! 😄😄💕💕#For Pizza Head I wanted to give more life in his expressions and poses#I think I did it well enough before hand but I want to express MORE of it#Like the better parts of it- Him looking smug him looking angry him looking annoyed etc#I like the one I colored and the one where he’s singing to himself- THAT one I had fun with he looks great 😂#I also like the one where he’s doing a raspberry#I did that one without a sketch!!#I’m basically trying to focus more on the expressions I think. I had the most fun with them and that’s the thing that made me realize I#need to put more life into him. He needs to be flexible#Sorry if I rambled to much- 😅 Just spilling my ideas. Hope you don’t mind 😂#Doodles#Pizza Head#Brick#Gustavo#Gustavo and Brick
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Is it a coincidence that Ryan is interacting with weird Christian/trad wife/men and women are different yet need each other/right wing content as buddie canon is seemingly imminent?
anon genuinely. don't do this to yourself friend. you'll never know what's going on in his life and how he feels about it and whether he's in a good place right now, or a bad one. you can only hope for the best, but you'll never have a say in it, and i'd recommend largely ignoring the celebrities' real lives
#truly have no other comment than this#sucks to see it but if the grindr scandal had shaken him too much or turn out to be too difficult to navigate with friends/family#*turned#then this isn't necessarily surprising and might have nothing to do with canon buddie#might just have everything to do with what his closest cycle believes in and wanting to protect himself#or maybe that's just how it is!!!!! like i don't think so but i'll never claim to Know So for sure#and i'm simply not gonna speculate. trust me i did rpf fandom for far too long that shit rots your brain if you take it seriously. sorry to#be blunt.#but one will never get anywhere with analyzing celebs' public moves.#could be pr could be genuine and unless they spill confession style you'll literally never know for sure#i hope this doesn't sound dismissive btw. just trying to give you some advice ♥️#ryan guzman#911#anonymous#a response#*closest circle *just how he is#sorry too lazy to retype all of this
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Cale henituse taking an edible and forgetting he no longer lives in the 21st century
In the year of our lord 783 of the felix calendar (wait is felix the jesus of the raon kingdom??? Why'd the year count start w that guy)
This is krs!cale by the way
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Cale, lowkey woozy: bro...
Ron: yes, young master-nim?
Cale: did you put weed in my brownies?
Ron: no? Why would i put invasive plants in your snacks? *Confused benign chuckle*
Cale: why.. *smacks lips* why is the world so topsy turny ron? Hm?
Ron: ah, it must be the sleeping herbs.
Cale: no, you just gave me an edible.
Ron: ...is it not supposed to be edible?
Cale: *snort* that's something a boomer would say
Ron: a what?
Cale: *waves hand* whatever, you wouldn't understand internet culture anyway.
Ron: *is honestly just confused*
Cale: *already forgot about the subject at hand* i remember this one time i was in highschool *snort*
Ron:....?
Cale: i was with a bunch of kids, theatre kids, and we all did *snort* edibles and thought it would be fun to play truth or dare
Ron: young mas-
Cale: *talking over him* and well, I didn't think it was a good idea cuz we were probably gonna do something stupid and like *wheeze* we made this one guy dress up as eric cartman *absolutely losing it, smacking his knee and laughing*
Ron: *honestly thinks cale is hallucinating at this point and is debating on calling a priest*
Cale: and we fuckin made him sing an entire lady gaga album, can you immaaagiineeee?? *Wheeeeze*
Cale: and oml what he did after was insane! So we didn't get off very well so he thought it would be sooo funny to like... *He looked up at the ceiling, completely losing the plot again* hehsh did i ever tell you this ceiling lowkey looks European
Cale: *starts mumble singing* gay or europeeaann,, it's hard to guaranteeee,,, is he gay or europeeeann???
Ron: *has already left the room in order to get someone to help cale*
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*cale has migrated into the library*
Priest: young master-nim pleas-
Cale: whyyyy did you get an entire squad of exorcists in here ron????
Ron: young master, you're not yourself *he actually looks concerned*
Cale: *wheeze* what are you? Y/n???? My coworker wasn't crazy after all,,,
Ron: ...??
Cale: No because drinking games are crazy
Cale: anyway i miss mmorpgs man *sigh* i miss my wife tails
Ron: wife???
Cale: *ignoring him* pink fluffy uniiicorns dancing on rainbooows *knows this song from the one time he had to babysit the neighbors kid*
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The day after
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Ron: young master-nim
Cale: *jumps out of his skin because of rons sudden appearance* what????
Ron: what is a boomer? You were saying a lot of funny things yesterday.
Cale: *sweating bullets* I've been having weird dreams lately???
Ron: uhuh *it's obvious he doesn't believe cale but just leaves it alone for now*
#ooc#probably completely out of character#I'm writing this at 5 am not sorry#too lazy to think about a real plot#i just want to see cale take an edible#can you tell I've never had an edible#whoever has taken an edible pls add onto this or correct me#i need krs letting it loose and spilling tea#he's the kinda guy everyone rants to cuz they know he wouldn't tell anyone cuz he doesn't care#live laugh krs#i love krs#krs!cale henituse ily#if this was an au fic og!cale would probably be the one to give him an edible and take one too#giggling#idk man#tcff!!!#i think he had weird coworkers at his part time job#there's no way the quiet guy archetype wouldn't attract an ao3 freak#he's probably had to listen to so much weird gen z stuff cuz of the crazy ppl he attracts#and yes i believe in babysitter krs#i love the idea of babysitter krs
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Mytho fans id like to issue a formal apology. I realized I, too, know how it feels to have your special little guy mischaracterized and trampled over by his own damn media and now everyone hates him but YOU understand you understand him and they’re wrong they’re all wrong and also there’s this other guy everyone insists is better like it’s a competition and it’s really annoying and you just want everyone to see your pookie bear the way you see him. I understand. I’ve always understood. I am a better man now.
#this is abt me being insane about lotr again#frodo baby get behind me Elijah wood Peter Jackson DNI#insane 2 me when the writers are like this is the special boy he’s the most important guy in this piece of media#and then everything they write shows how much they vehemently hate him#I’m sorry mythoheads im sorry they ravened him in season 2 and then married him off to rue#my boy had every redeeming and charming quality taken away#AND they made him break up with his boyfriend because they knew the rotk scenes were too gay for cinema#and now everyone is like lol frodo sucks so bad he didn’t even DO anything#and I have to sit there like do you guys remember how his defining trait is his kindness and love of peace#and he is the only hobbit who refuses to take part in the battle to take back the shire because he won’t spill blood on the shores soil#DO YOU GUYS REMEMBER#you don’t because fuck the scouring of the shire that can’t go in the movies#and fuck the scenes where he takes no shit from Gollum#my guy just wanted to eat mushrooms and flirt with his poolboy and now look where we are#lea talks
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Serious chaos one-shot snippet
“Hey, Dami?”
Boy hadn’t looked up from kittens he was bottle feeding but let out hum indicating he listened.
“I think about trying out more girlish style. Do you think it would suit me?”
Well, Damian had no idea but if Dani wished to give it a chance, then, well, the only appropriate course of action was to offer his aid.
Also features: Dani and Damian working at an animal shelter, Steph being fashionable, and Batman's rouge gallery and no, it's not a spelling mistake :)
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dc x dp#dcxdp#serious chaos#dani/damians#fanfic snippet#batman's rouge gallery#idk i have kinda shitty day and need a validation#i hate timed tests#i know all answers but how the fuck do you expect me to answer all this broad questions in 45 minutes#I would write an an answer for one of them in this time#i would like to infodump about it. give me chance to infodump about it not punish me for knowing too much#really history is only subject i actually still care about#so failing it majorly sucks#and now i have to learn something totally else also for history for tomorrow#i'm not mad about it#i have kinda special treatment because i'll write exam at the end of the high school and I have to study harder than my classmates#still I'm frustrated#sorry for spilling my guts like that#I lowkey want to scream rn#anyway how do you like this snippet?#have a nice day dear stranger who got to this part
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ode to winston, 12/7/23
winston, for reference:
#poetry#original poetry#spilled ink#poems#writing#writeblr#cats#theories.txt#sorry i have been so so Gone#so much stuff to do#and now i like to edit poems forever and ever
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https://x.com/vikingzfanpage/status/1867748114540433549?s=61
ummm excuse you justin, that is your best friend
lol really though!!
but nah, i touched on this in my tags of a rb of this tweet. like to me it isn't a huge deal or anything. they're obviously still close, they just don't talk in season (which they've both said before). but they spent time in france together this offseason and have also said that they love each other and are always gonna have that connection so i'm not too worried! friendships go through stages sometimes, and adult friendships are just kind of like that, even for football players i guess! (some of my absolute best friends in the world, my favorite people, i only talk to once a month if that. and like a real deep catch up session happens only a few times a year. it's just hard! and i can say for sure that me and my friends do not have nearly as much going on as these two guys lol)
but anyway i'm also gonna take this opportunity to ramble about some more ja'marr character analysis lol. so like, it's becoming pretty clear that ja'marr is deadset on keeping tee and joe with him as long as possible (not gonna get into contract details or likelihood at the moment because that's all still in the air of course. but like, ja'marr's intentions at least are clear at the moment). and it's also obvious how much ja'marr treasures his friendships! he loves his guys and thrives off of being around them! i wonder if like, the evolution of his relationship with justin has to do with how extreme he, tee, and joe are being about contract stuff right now???
like justin and ja'marr were SO close for awhile there. from the hyper competitive but clearly loving friendship they had going on in college. the way they were always together on the sideline and always doing their dances and making up ridiculous elaborate handshakes <3 the way all of their joint interviews involved so much laugher and loving glances. and even after joining the league still talking about each other in the media and how much they love and support each other even as they're still super competitive. hell, when i first became a fan in 2022, ja'marr would still be streaming with justin almost every week lol. (i think justin has stopped streaming and maybe doesn't even do much gaming-wise anymore, which may have been the main way they kept in touch tbh. like, many such cases for the men i know in my life lol)
and now they're at the point where they have so much else going on, that even though they love each other, the constant conversation and all that isn't as present. (and ja'marr has kind of made it clear that that started on justin's end. like, ohhh he doesn't text me back blah blah blah, however true that is 🤔). and i feel like, even though ja'marr probably understands, that had to have hurt. again he values his friends so much and is at his best mentally, emotionally, and athletically when he's around them!!! i wonder if that taught him something about like, "if i want to keep these people i love in my life as much as possible, i need them to stay on my team. justin went to a different team and something that was so beautiful and important to me changed. i can't have that for tee. i can't have that for joe. we need to figure something out" which like, could absolutely be me digging depth into something that isn't there but at the same time it makes sense motivationally for me!!! like did he sob on his agent's shoulder one night about how much he missed justin and how he couldn't stand the thought of that happening with tee (I WANT TO PLAY WITH HIM FOR ETERNITY!!!) and the agent was like, hey, we can do something about this actually! send me his info!
#sorry sorry tldr: a bunch of projection#personal note that transitioning from living basically on top of my college friends and talking SO MUCH every day#(to the point that we were getting sick of each other lol)#to like. adulthood. in separate states. different kinds of jobs. different friends and family...#yeah that shit is hard!#but you always love each other#and ja'marr and justin clearly still do even if it's not quite the same#ON A DIFFERENT NOTE#holy shit those comments#i know i should never read football twitter#but like damn#do vikings fans hate ja'marr that much??#surely y'all can't be THAT insecure about justin?? like sorry that this one year (also ja'marr's rookie year)#people are saying that ja'marr could be better than him#like regardless of whetehr or not you believe that#it's hard to say there ISN'T an argument for it. like triple crown wise#i'm not sure where i fall on it#but like damn. why are you guys so bitter about ja'marr??#also acting like ja'marr has actually insulted justin??#when these two have IN A FRIENDLY LOVING WAY shit talk each other since day 1 at LSU#like??? the competition is one of the main bases of their friendship lol#each other of them has always and will always say that they're the one that's better#jesus christ#stop pitting two bad bitches against each other etc etc#anyway sorry anon i just used this ask to spill some Thoughts before bed lol#ja'marr chase#justin jefferson#(i'm also NOT sober so i doubt much of this makes sense)
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do we think maybe a vegetable would cause less despair
#slow damage#the opening changed!!!! my longest yea boy ever!#i love it when stuff like that happens#even how the title screen changes with each completed route i wonder how it’ll look in the end#anyway i’m sorry for posting so much about this game#(actually i’m not. i could post way more lolol)#oh towa my sad boi who spills his bodily fluids on a complete stranger’s bed and just leaves#poor ikuina had to deal with all that lmaooo actually nvm he probably loved imagining what happened there#it’s a win-win#michi yaps
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sorry for posting art of the Cuphead rarepair I invented do you guys still think I'm cool 😔 for anyone wondering their ship name is Spill the Tea :3
This is a ship that's been brewing in my mind for a while but I kept getting too anxious to post it. But I do not care anymore! It's cute and it makes me happy! And isn't that the point of everything!
Plus I got sad that there was no content of them and desperate times call for desperate measures.
#my art#cuphead#newsie#spill the tea#spill the tea ship#i love them so much theyre so silly#also side note sorry for not posting much art recently#been drawing other things that arent cuphead or fandom related and i Do Not Think anyone wanted to see that#so i didnt have much to post#but i am back !! probably#and i think my art has improved too so that's a plus
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Hello! I love Lionheart (literally started four days ago and have read continuously since and am, in a word, Obsessed).
One thing I've noticed that is a common theme among Dramoine fics is how Draco gets away with his pureblood ideology and essentially has no consequences (besides Hermoine's anger/disgust) until his eventual redemption arc through their romance. However, I've noticed that your fic is unique in the way that Draco is constantly held accountable, especially backlash from Ron (btw, love the way you characterized Ron, my boy deserves some justice) and Harry, but especially through Hermoine, who fights back in any way she knows how. So my question is: what are your thoughts on this common trope within the Dramoine fandom? Do you think that Draco's eventual love for Hermoine negates the harm that he's done in the past?
I absolutely believe that love can be redemptive, but that doesn't mean you redeem yourself by loving. It's not about how you feel, it's about what you do. You can love someone a whole lot, but if you don't treat them well, and make a real effort to be good to them, well — I mean, I'm not saying it doesn't "matter," because everything always matters, but I wouldn't say that love has really changed you. Which is to say, I don't know that it's really love at all.
Draco can't be made better by the fact of loving Hermione, but he can make himself better because of it. Reasoning past, getting over, and making amends for his past wrongdoing should — ideally — be part of that development. Now, this is assuming that you want to do a real, honest-to-God, "I'm going to drag this horrible little wet blorbo kicking and screaming into Heroism" redemption arc. Maybe you don't! Maybe you want to write a story about two fucked-up people who fuck each other up more. Maybe you want to write about a bad man who isn't held accountable, and the kind of person that produces. Draco Malfoy can be many people, depending on where you take him, and many of them are interesting without being particularly nice or good. And you can still do great fiction about that! Romances with and between horrible characters can be totally delicious. I'm a big fan of 'em. But the kind of love I personally prize the most — the kind that makes us, if anything can earn this word, really, truly holy — is a love that's so selfless you are willing to be changed by it, and to change for it, and to constantly reforge yourself in order to do justice to the object of your love. It's veneration. It's finding in each other a reason for goodness. That's what I think real humans should look for, and so I guess I can't help trying to write about it when it comes to fake humans.
So when we talk about love as the catalyst for a redemption arc, I think what we mean is: love can awaken you to the personhood of others and ignite latent capacities for empathy that might not have existed otherwise. It opens you up to new ways of seeing, of being — James Baldwin in The Price of the Ticket has a brilliant quotation that captures it perfectly:
"If your lover lives in Hong Kong and cannot get to Chicago, it will be necessary for you to go to Hong Kong. Perhaps you will spend your life there, and never see Chicago again. And you will, I assure you, as long as space and time divide you from anyone you love, discover a great deal about shipping routes, airlines, earth quake, famine, disease, and war. And you will always know what time it is in Hong Kong, for you love someone who lives there. And love will simply have no choice but to go into battle with space and time and, furthermore, to win."
#thesis statement of my personality and all writing ever probably. so. guess i'll casually drop that on a friday afternoon#thank you for prompting this incredible long spill of rambling. I'm sorry. I love you. thanks very much. <3
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