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“Stop isolating yourself from reality” well tell reality to stop sucking

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Out of all the bad people in the story, i dislike Director Ma the most. Reading about krs sitting quietly in his chair trying to get a day off to see cjs & lsh hurt alot. Why do you think krs didnt do anything to get revenge on Ma?

Oh, I absolutely agree. Director Ma is THE WORST. The kind of emotional manipulation this man did to KRS? Disgusting. Utterly repulsive.

I was honestly so glad that it was OG Cale in the side-story and not KRS who heard him say... that, but unfortunately, the fact that Director Ma DARED to try guilt-trip OG Cale!KRS for taking a VACATION of all things, to his face, when we all know that OG KRS was a workaholic who rarely ever took days off? It means this sort of thing wasn't new. For all we know, this could have been a regular occurrence in the office. Not this line specifically, but this… general dismissal of KRS's feelings, while simultaneously taking advantage of his emotions and sense of responsibility. It's the "He's not even crying during a funeral" all over again. Those freaking monsters at the Company, how freaking dare they. Just thinking about it makes me angry.

Now, about your question. Why do you think KRS didn't do anything to get revenge on Director Ma?

I actually considered it in the past. We know Cale is someone perfectly capable of taking revenge and getting even. So why would he let this jerk get away with such behavior when clearly he had enough power in the Company to make a difference?

Here are some of my theories.

One, it could be that Director Ma was useful. You might remember, during the Sealed God's Test arc, Cale mentioned knowing the leaders of the shelters and remembering how he was used to asking them for help and cooperation in the past, with much struggle. Director Ma might have been one of many, many individuals that KRS tolerated "for the greater good". As long as he was only a jerk to KRS as a Team Leader and left his teammates alone, I imagine KRS did not think much about his own hurt. He was too practical. If Director Ma was evil like, let's say, Adin, and was planning harm to other people, Cale certainly would never let it go. But a common… jerk, for the lack of a better word? He could have shrugged it off easily.

Two, maybe it was because Director Ma was a senior. Cale is actually really, really Korean in that aspect. Multiple times in the story Cale had a habit of considering how he should treat his seniors. He even remarked about the White Star that "I don't care if he is a total senior, that guy is a crazy bastard from now on". So, the simple cultural habit of respecting his seniors could be at play here. Yes, Director Ma was way out of line with his words, but those were the words of a senior. So even if Cale understood that it wasn't fair to be treated like this, he might have felt obligated to accept it because of the traditional Korean values of social hierarchy.

Three, maybe it was a sense of helplessness. One of the moments that struck me really hard in the flashback when LSH & CJS died, was the fact that "no one told KRS to wipe his nosebleed". Once KRS lost all his friend, he felt isolated. Without anyone to defend him. Director Ma wasn't the only a**hole he had to deal with on a regular basis in the Company. Perhaps, due to his depression, KRS simply grew used to such disrespectful treatment until he accepted it as a norm. Which is really freaking sad, but I could see it happening. I really do think that transmigration snapped Cale out of a 10-year-long streak of depression and workaholism. …Well, maybe not the second part, heh.

Four, there could be complexities to his relationship with Director Ma. KRS worked over a decade in the Company, after all. Perhaps there was something in their history that made KRS unable to act against him. Blackmail, for example? I don't know what kind of blackmail would work on KRS of all people, but. Perhaps it was simply emotional blackmail. Maybe KRS felt guilty over being Team Leader, because the spot was meant to be inherited by CJS. Maybe Director Ma helped him in the past and KRS felt like he owed him. Who knows? 10 years is a long time.

Here, there's my answer. None of those reasons make Director Ma's treatment of KRS justifiable, of course. But it would explain how such a dumb person avoided getting utterly annihilated... Because we all know Cale could have done it with ease. But relationships between co-workers can be complicated, so.

...Let's all be glad OG Cale got to avenge KRS by simply being himself 😂

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Kim rok soo spent at least 10 years as team leader

He didn't take a single break until he got korea back on it's feet

And when he finally felt like he somewhat completed the responsibility LSH and CJS left him with after their death, he took a day off to visit their graves

And then he got shunted into another world and was given more tasks to save it (letting krs in on a problem is the same thing as giving it to him, he ends up fixing things because of his self destructive levels of responsibility anyway)

This fact bothers me a lot, i wish krs gave himself more room to grieve over his friends :c he drowned out his sorrows with more work because he can't let anyone else carry his baggage

Imo the more time cale spends working, the deeper in his own grief he is. He'll only be able to achieve his slacker life once he lets go of everything he's bottled up for so long

I mean yeah he can talk about his issues sometimes but that's not the same as letting go of the baggage and relaxing

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Recently I’ve been thinking about the different types of love languages in Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint, The S-Classes That I Raised, and Lout of the Count’s Family…

Not to say that each of the stories describes only one single kind of love language; they are, after all, all novels that focus on Found Family, with many different types of relationships between characters that express their love for each other in as many different ways.

Yet, I’ve noticed how at the core of each of these three stories there is one specific act of love that recurs more than others, and that becomes the true Theme each novel revolves around.

In Lout of the Count’s Family, the main love language is providing food and a home.

“Home” is such an important concept in LCF that Cale collects houses like they were pokemon cards. The source of his trauma when he was a child as Kim Roksu was that he was not given sufficient food, and that where he lived was not truly a shelter where he could feel safe, just a place he was trapped in.

And I don’t think there are ever more than 2 chapters in a row without a character offering food to others, or asking if they’re hungry, if they’ve eaten, why haven’t you eaten, here have some apple pie!!

Cale uses his newfound money and power to make sure his loved ones are provided for. That’s how he adopts bonds with most of his new family.

The first thing Raon does after he’s freed from the prison he’s been trapped in all his life, is to leave food for this hopelessly weak human.

Choi Han, who has lived alone in a dangerous forest for decades, would do anything to protect his home.

The Crown Prince, who has been isolated and untrusting of everyone ever since his mother died, makes sure to always have cookies in his bedroom in case guests “break in” for a visit at any time of the day or the night.

I love you, you’ll never be hungry again. I love you, my home is your home.

In The S-Classes That I Raised, the main love language is words.

Yoojin’s powers are literally activated by telling people “I love you”. Because all he ever wanted was to say “I love you” to his brother one last time.

Because the tragedy that starts the story happens because Yoohyun loved and protected his hyung in secret for years. Silence creates misunderstandings, it creates distance, it leads to loss.

Loving someone isn’t enough, tell them! Reassure them. Remember what they say, because their words are important!!

Ever since the regression, Yoojin always let people know when he loves them and appreciates them. “You’re perfect, you’re cute, you’re so talented, you’re so handsome, you are loved.”

And as the novel progresses, whenever Yoojin is in pain, or doesn’t know what to do, he turns to Sung Hyunje because he needs to be reassured, he needs to know he did well, he needs to hear he is still important to the people he loves.

I love you, please know that I love you! I love you, please tell me you love me back.

And finally, in Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint, the main love language is time.

Time is one of the greatest sources of horrors in ORV. Eternities upon eternities of suffering, being trapped for ages in the same, hopeless loop, wishing for everything to just stop.

And yet, time is also the greatest gift characters give to each other.

Because the wounds Dokja suffered as a child, and then again and again through his whole life…. They need time to heal. They need so much time. They will probably take forever.

So let them take forever.

Despite how much pain and worry he causes his companions by giving up on himself over and over again, his companions never give up on him. And he doesn’t understand why!! He doesn’t think he’s worth it. But it’s not his choice, it’s theirs. And they will go through as many tries, as much pain, as much time as it takes, before they can finally save him.

I love you, so I will wait fifty years for you. I love you, so I will live through thousands of lifetimes to find you. I love you, so I will read and reread your story for the rest of time, just to keep you alive.

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King maker

It's funny how at the beginning Cale was like "nah, I don't want to mess with him" and after a few hundred chapters he's now his sworn brother

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had to show you guys. he looks so unbelievably bad. for context he always gets shit crusted in his fur because he doesn’t maintain it so my mom decided to give him a haircut and wanted to even it out

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If you're re-reading TCF from the start, my advice to you would be to read with a slightly different perspective. Instead of taking the dialogues as conversation between two characters, take it as advice to yourself. Whether it's the Henituse family motto of Living for peace and happiness, or Cale's words to Alver Your existence is natural, or Lee Soo Hyuk's advice to Kim Roksoo Being alive is the best. All of these are words that have given me newfound hope in life. We often lose ourselves to the fast-paced world's competitiveness. A single failure makes us hopeless and we feel worthless because of it. TCF has always been a beacon of hope for me in times of darkness. The other name of TCF is healing. It's a story that heals not just Kim Roksoo but all of us readers as well. And I'm so thankful to Yoo Ryeo Han-nim for creating such a story.

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"The gods may throw a dice

Their minds as cold as ice"

The god of death making that deal with sherrit

The god of despair making that deal with cale barrow

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"And someone way down here

Loses someone dear"

The people who had to live with the white stars curse after WS took their body in order to reincarnate, including KRS

The god of death made that curse knowing that would've happened and so many people would've had to suffer

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"The winner takes it all (takes it all)

The loser has to fall (has to fall)"

The white star achieving eternal life, taking another step towards his goal

Krs spending his entire life in despair, being left completely alone time and time again

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"It's simple and it's plain

Why should I complain"

Cale accepts his past as it is and continues to live despite it

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One of my favorite genres of post

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In my mind i keep assuming krs spent his entire life alone and surviving on his own

But that isn't the case, there's clearly proof that he was at some level helped by other people

He mentions it often

He was saved by social workers from his uncle when he was a kid

LSH saved his life

Grandma kim always looked after him like her own son while LSH was gone

CJS and LSH died for him

And so many other incidents

But why does it feel like he's still all alone?

I think his tendency to self isolate is why i keep assuming he survived on his own, when he very much didn't.

Everyone fails him or leaves him eventually, he ends up all alone so often that it's hard for me to think about krs as someone who's had support.

He's had the rug pulled out from underneath him so many times, that it no longer shocks him anymore (take chapter 1-3 for example, he was so chill about waking up in another world and stated he didn't have anyone who he'd miss

But that isn't true either, krs spent 10-ish years of his life as team leader and protected his coworkers time and time again, of course people would miss him. In elisehns illusion, Kim Min Ah and Bae Puh Rum came to check up on krs who hadn't returned to work.

While he mentions the physical support and companionship he's received from other people, his mental wounds run too deep.

He keeps a very clinical count of who he owes and who owes him in return, support is not a familial thing to him, it's transactional

The biggest reason grandma Kims death affected him so much was that he owed her A LOT, she was always quick to have his back and support him, Willing to treat his bruises over and over again despite her ability being limited.

Same with CJS and LSH, they supported him more than his own family ever did (parents dead and an abusive uncle), he was devastated that he couldn't spend the rest of his life with them in order to "pay back" all of their kindness so far.

He doesn't feel responsible for their deaths, but he feels responsible for every opportunity he lost to care about them in return. He mourns the future he could've had with them and the happiness krs could've brought to CJS and LSH.

"you can't smooth things over with the dead" is something he said in the novel, around the time choi han figures out who he is and krs is ready for CH to be extremely upset with him.

Krs!Cale feels responsible for everyone who shows kindness to him, a part of it is because whenever someone has cared about him, his heart always cared about them in return. And krs caring about people caused them to get hurt, that's why he feels the need to protect them so that they don't fall victim to krs' affection, and he actually has enough time with them for their "kindness" to be evened out.

This is why he's annoyed when his group grows larger and larger because of his subconscious altruism, there's so many opportunities for all of them to get hurt before he's done caring about them to the amount he thinks is acceptable, it worries his emotionally stunted heart.

Anywho, i think he feels alone to me because of how little he opens up to other people. He is a self isolating king and manages to be the most famous man ever.

I want him to open up that scarred heart of his and finally allow himself to be loved beyond transactions.

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I wanna make more analysis of tcf on my 3rd read but I'm so emotionally overwhelmed by every scene i can't form coherent thoughts

Looks like I'm gonna have to read it a 4th time

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More tcf memes i made after reading part 1:

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I want him to talk to his 7 year old self so badly

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Kid!krs: why is he so mean to me

Krs: *sighs with a bittersweet expression*

Kid!krs: *tearing up* why can't he like me like mom and dad did???

Krs: it's not your fault, he was a terrible person.

Kid!krs: *sobbing atp* what if he's right about me

Krs: absolutely not, don't believe anything that scumbag says. He ruined his own life and is now poisoning yours, don't let him. You will be safe soon, I'm sure.

Kid!krs: *nods and wipes his tears and snot on cales shirt while he's embracing him*

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Choi han, who saw all of this: ...why do you call yourself trash if you know you're not supposed to believe that piece of shit?

Krs: I never believed him, me being trash was because of my own failures. It has nothing to do with him.

Choi han: please stop doing that

Krs: doing what.

Choi han: you've never failed anybody, that sort of thing has always happened in situations outside of your control! Please open your eyes for one fucking sec-

Krs: i know

Choi han: then why-

Krs: because i failed myself, that little kid spends the rest of his life mourning his dignity because I didn't have the will to confront that piece of shit. And when i did, it was too late.

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hey guys </3 guess who got fired. emergency commissions are open from here on out until i can find another job :,)

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I could be doing okay and then i remember what cale told the god of despair temple during the wrath test

The temple: "what makes you angry?"

Cale, realizing something ain't right: working, having to eat my favourite foods, and the kids complaining about the side dishes

*the test is around everything he told the temple js now*

Cale, casually breaking the readers hearts: I'm glad the kids are complaining about the side dishes. Complaining is a luxury i want them to have, when i was a kid i never complained about my food because i knew what it was like to starve. These children are the same, and that makes me upset. They deserve nothing less than the best and i hope they become a little bit more spoiled in the future. I want them to be carefree the way children as supposed to be.

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I was curled up in a fetal position sobbing a good 3 days after reading that

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I'm so glad tcf isn't over

Idk what I would do with myself if i knew i wouldn't be able to (canonicaly) see more of my blorbos