#i still have nightmares where i am 16 and i failed in french for the first time and the whole class looks at me mockingly

[aquiescentmoon]

I am haunted by a memory from my high school, on this fine Wednesday afternoon 😮‍💨 ( Ig, I have to schedule a crying session in my jam packed day)

The day when I am no longer the french teacher's pet. He asked us to fill a questionnaire and he thought I would have written the correct answer (as I was his trusted A+ student) and looks at my answer and goes "There is no word like in this french" in a deadbeat tone, aloud in the middle of the classroom, it was so embarrassing. He didn't stop there and to add more salt to the injury, he goes, "You literally made up a french-looking word, but it's not a french word" bro 😭 stop, I am already crying internally. He looked at me so disappointed, from then he stopped asking me for answers.

The word was 'qont' and it was a questionnaire to file que and its branches. He was one of the good things I looked forward to in hs, after my best friend. He always encouraged me to score more marks in other subjects too, so that i could be a valedictorian but i only know how to disappoint others.

[wordsinwinters]

Then Again, Part 26 (Peter Parker x Reader)

Masterlist (with AO3 links)

Total word count: 50,293

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12, Part 13, Part 14, Part 15, Part 16, Part 17, Part 18, Part 19, Part 20, Part 21, Part 22, Part 23, Part 24, Part 25,

Summary: After an intense argument and a forced-to-share-the-bed situation during their junior year decathlon trip, Peter and the Reader examine their faults and failings. As they attempt to fix their mistakes and improve their friendship, that friendship quickly begins to evolve into something else.

Slow burn fic in which all characters are included and their dynamics explored; multiple character POVs.

Betas: @girl-tips-from-satan and @fanboyswhereare-you

A/N: This isn’t my favorite chapter, but it’s been sitting in my drafts for over a year and I figured if I don’t post it now, I’ll never move on to the next. Additionally, as always, I live for feedback. 😉

Without further ado,

Then Again Part 26:

(Words: 2,825)

The bus ride will probably get boring soon, or at least as long as the girls stay asleep, but even as quiet as it is, it’s almost a perfect morning. Being early (around 6:00, I think?), there’s barely any light except street lamps and car lights, but some of the clouds on the right have caught a pretty bluish purple tinge. It reminds me of that Rainbow Fish book Aunt May used to read to me as a kid. To make it better, the morning air is chilly enough that the driver turned the heaters on low so it’s wrapped-in-a-blanket-while-it-snows warm in here. Although that also might be why, apart from general dirt and old gum, the strongest smell on the bus is salty grease— since the nearest heater is under the seat Flash spilled french fries and chicken nuggets in yesterday. It could be worse, though. I mean, it’s not necessarily a bad smell and the traffic isn’t horrible. It’s not the best, but it could definitely be louder and a lot slower. The field of flowing red tail lights ahead of us is oddly comforting, like a snail-slow pasture of mechanical color. 

All in all, it’s a pretty cozy start for a dreaded five hour bus ride. It’s giving me quiet time to think. So that’s where I’m at. Or should be. I got some stuff organized in my head last night even if I keep getting distracted now. Well, it was more like a couple hours ago, since I wasn’t able to get to sleep for so long after we said goodnight. But anyway, I’m trying to focus. It’s just hard, even with both of them sleeping.

From my and Ned’s spot behind them, watching the girls’ heads gently shake and bump against each other as the bus shudders through potholes is kind of calming. They seem so peaceful from this angle, like two people who’ve never pranked me and Ned to the point we were nearly suspended, or kept us awake and annoyed by asking paradoxical hypothetical questions because they know how Ned and I will argue for days if we don’t agree on an answer, or anything else like that. It’s like finding two mischievous cats sleeping, curled up on a chair. It’s easier to appreciate them when they aren’t causing chaos. But it’s not that hard to appreciate them when they are anyway.

Though Ned and I won’t admit it when they’re fully awake, seeing their heads smack into the seat in front of them each time the bus lurched to a halt at stoplights (during the first ten minutes after they’d fallen asleep) was funnier than it should’ve been. Even knowing then that we wouldn’t mention it later didn’t stop us from exchanging silent laughs when they leaned back up, muttering unintelligible complaints before settling their heads back onto one another. For the last couple stoplights before the highway, at least, we decided to be better friends. We both stood up with one leg on the floor and one knee on our own seat so we could easily hold their foreheads back each time it happened. Again, I wouldn’t admit this out loud, even to Ned, but it’s a little bit funny that Ned was a split second slower than me, so while I kept catching MJ’s head before the stop, he half-smacked Y/N’s forehead, like a really-close-to-the-floor basketball dribble, and made a wincing face each time. A lot of times. But it did stop her from colliding with the seat, and she didn’t wake up or complain. 

As nice as it is with them and almost everyone else sleeping through the dark, quiet first hour of the bus trek back to New York, I am excited for her and MJ to wake up. Whenever that is. I’ve missed them. 

But anyway, I really need to focus. God. I’m not doing a great job of that this morning. Apparently. So I’m focusing now. It’s like Ned said. I need to be honest with myself. 

Okay. 

Alright. 

No distractions. 

I’m going to set myself straight now, before we get back, so I can make a game plan and be more decisive and make less mistakes. Fewer? Yeah, fewer mistakes. She’s told me that half a dozen times this since she read that grammar book last summer. But that’s not important.

If I’m being honest... I think I’ve avoided the real possibility that things could work out between us because it felt too risky. And I make some dumb, impulsive choices. So that’s saying a lot. If she said no, what’s the worst that could happen? May and Ned have been asking me that for months, and it’s been so frustrating. The answer should be obvious. The worst thing wouldn’t be the rejection, it’d be if it made her uncomfortable and she broke off our friendship. Or, even if she stuck around, if our friendship changed and I had to watch her get more and more distant, knowing it was my fault and nothing would ever go back to normal. 

Those were the worst — and, I thought, most probable — possibilities. For months I’ve been certain that if anything changed, everything would, and it’d all go to shit. So I kept dodging it. And dodging her before the trip. But, then, things did change this weekend. Things are changing. We fought, and it was super shitty and awful and a total nightmare fiasco, but we made up. And she seemed almost as relieved as me when we did. Now we even have this pact about spending more time together. I know it’s officially only in the name of friendship, but something’s… different. I feel it, and I think she does too. And it doesn’t seem bad. That’s the craziest part. I mean, she even kissed me last night. On the cheek, but still. “Keep it.” Maybe May’s not ridiculous: she really might feel the same way. 

I’ve been texting her this morning, actually. Aunt May. I had to admit that I’m happy she forced me to do the forehead kiss thing last night. As annoyed as I was that she and Ned ganged up on me like that, I can’t dispute the results. She kissed me! Kind of. (To be fair, she did hit my mouth a little bit even if it was an accident.) At first it made me wonder if she heard any of Ned’s shout-comments before I could turn the t.v. up to cover what he was saying. But I doubt it. Even if she felt the same way, I know her too well to think she wouldn’t freak out more and enough that it’d be noticable. Yeah, no, I’d definitely have been able to tell if she’d heard him saying things like, “Nobody’s saying you have to tell her that you googled the probability of high school sweethearts getting married that time she saved your ass on that Bronte essay, but yeah, Aunt May’s right! Just ask her to come over and either talk to her or do the hair/forehead thing!” Anyway, May’s on board with her coming over a lot this week and next week and giving us some space. So are Ned and MJ. Ned said they agreed on giving us two weeks (starting tomorrow) without them hanging out after school. And who knows, if the dance goes really well, maybe it’ll be normal for us to hang out, just us, without the whole group. Because… well, I don’t want to get too far ahead of myself. 

I’ll admit, they’re the best friends I could ever have. All three of them. 

And it’s nice to have them all here now, Ned to my left and the girls in front of us. It’s even nicer to be outside of class or the city or crazy study sessions and have had a short breather from all that (despite the shitshow before we smoothed things over and could enjoy it). To be somewhere chill together. Yesterday and today probably feel even better because the last few days, or even weeks… no— months, if I’m being honest— have had me in a kind of less than happy place. But that’s over now. We’re all here and things are finally good. I just wish the girls would wake up, especially since Ned’s back on his phone. Again. 

Yesterday, everybody hung out for most of the afternoon, but being in the whole decathlon group isn’t the same as just being the four of us. Or two. 

Speaking of two— Ned being away during this next week or two is going to make everything so… unfiltered. New. Without his interference and being able to talk to him as often as normal, it’ll mostly just be her and me. Nobody to distract attention or blame stuff on or help me out when I’m doing something dumb (which is often). Like, for example, last night when I maybe let my excitement get the better of me and I might’ve jumped on the bed and thrown a pillow that accidentally broke the lamp on the nightstand. While I don’t really think writing that “Bill Mr. Harrington” note with the school’s address was Ned’s best idea, it helped me not care too much, enough that I didn’t do something dumber like actually tell Mr. Harrington. It might come back to bite us, though. Still, he was genuinely helpful this morning when Flash showed up too. 

While we were hanging out in the girls’ room waiting for them to finish packing, there was a knock on the door. I figured it was Mr. Harrington about to yell at me and Ned for the broken lamp, so I motioned to Ned to shut up and move closer to the head of the bed we were already sitting on where, courtesy of the wall between the bedroom and bathroom, he wouldn’t be able to see us as long as he stayed by the doorway. MJ gave us an odd glance before she got up to answer it. Her annoyed, “What are you doing here?” didn’t immediately disqualify Mr. Harrington, but the sound of Flash’s voice saying, “I, uh, brought you guys some muffins,” made me tense at the first syllable.

“The free muffins they give us for breakfast?”

MJ’s dripping sarcasm nearly made me laugh even though I couldn’t see her, but Y/N turning from her suitcase and walking over to join them killed it still in my throat. 

“Nope,” he said. “They’re fancy muffins from a bakery a few miles away.”

I wanted to roll my eyes out of my skull.

She may not like him, but that doesn’t mean I was wrong about him being into her. What a dumb way to impress someone. “Fancy muffins.”

“Expensive?” MJ asked. Even without seeing her face, I could tell she was giving him the squint death stare. It’s scary to have to respond to that face if you don’t know what the right answer is.

“Yes, especially with the delivery fee,” he said, sounding prepared for the question, “but they’re from a small local place, not a chain, which I figured you guys would appreciate. Actually, I think you’d like the woman who owns it, she was super grouchy and hard to convince.”

“Convince?”

“They don’t normally deliver at 5 in the morning.”

“Oh, so you thought you could just—”

“What kind did you get?” 

That’s one of the things I like about Y/N. She knows how to manage tempers and when to jump in; she has Flash and MJ down to a science. In that moment, though, I wanted MJ to fire her most confrontational questions at him with no mercy.

“Well, they’re all apology muffins—” I heard MJ scoff. Exactly. She gets it. “But I got blueberry, chocolate, obviously, coffee, cranberry orange, maple, I think that one has chicken in it or something, and banana nut.”

Ned and I turned towards each other with silent smirks at the last one. It’s a dumb joke, but under normal circumstances we’d never resist—

“Cool. Since you’ve brought so many, you can come in.”

Sometimes MJ drives me up the wall. This was one of those times. 

I mentally took back my agreement with her scoff.

The three of them came into the room, and for a couple seconds, Flash didn’t see us. The girls were closer to the window than they were to the wall and the bed Ned and I were sitting on, and he didn’t look behind him. Until MJ pointed us out directly.

“You can give them some too,” she said, her expression bordering on smug. “Apology muffins, right?”

Flash froze for a second. I straightened my back. Neither Ned or I said anything.

“Yeah, yeah,” he nodded. “Of course.”

Surprisingly, he shook his shoulders like a bug just buzzed by his head and walked over, opening a giant rectangle of a box up to us. 

“Take however many you guys want.”

I stared at him, not moving. Nobody flinched. Then I realized he was tapping the side of the box with his thumb. Not in an asshole come on, hurry up way, but in an anxious way. Just as I started to reach toward the box, Y/N asked:

“Why’d you get so many of the coffee ones?”

Flash looked away at just the right second. 

Did I technically cave first by reaching into the box? Yes. But did anyone see? No.

Although, I guess he technically caved by offering us the muffins in the first place. Ha. All the same, I took a blueberry one. 

“They’re my dad’s favorite. I wanted to surprise him, you know? But I can’t even get a hold of.... Um, are your guys’ parents going to pick you up when we get there, or are you actually staying for school?”

“Staying.”

“All of you?” 

He looked around to ask all of us, even me and Ned. We all nodded. When he looked at me, though, his eyes twitched. It’s a face I’ve gotten a lot before. He realized he said parents. 

“You said these are orange cranberry?” Ned asked, pointing. 

Flash nodded. 

“They’re solid, though the banana nut ones are probably the best.”

As I said, under normal circumstances, like if one of the girls had said it, I would’ve laughed right then, but I’m not used to laughing around Flash. Ned, who usually follows that same rule, shook his head and grinned, if a little bit... nervously?

“Hell no!” he said, pretending to be mildly outraged. “I’m not eating banana-bust-a-nut muffins.”

A second surprise: Flash tilted his head and paused, clearly as stunned to be told a joke by Ned as the rest of us were to witness it— and laughed. So did everyone else. It was only for a few seconds, like literally three quick seconds, but for the first time for as long as I can remember, all of us were laughing with Flash. It stopped almost as soon as it started. 

Tension crept back in soon so he left pretty quickly after that with an awkward, “See you guys in a few.” Thank god. 

The girls finished tidying their room and going over the homework that’s due today (which we did last week since we knew we’d never get it done on the trip), before forcing me and Ned into the hallway so Mr. Harrington wouldn’t need to check our room for us and potentially find the broken lamp. 

And then, pretty soon, we ended up on the warm bus, loaded in with everyone else. It seemed like everybody but Ned and I were too quiet and sleepy and squinty to be able to talk much before dozing off or staring blankly out the window or scrolling social media on their phones, the latter two options leading to the first in most cases. At this point, I think Ned, Flash, and I are the only ones still awake. 

I’m going to work at tolerating him. As long as he doesn’t cross any lines with anybody from now on, I won’t bait him either. (Admittedly, I’ve been guilty of that, especially recently.) I mean, his comment about his dad was hard to miss. And even when he said it, it wasn’t a shock. Everyone in our grade at some point has had to listen to Flash’s rambling excuses for his parents ignoring or forgetting to show up for school events. Maybe being a dick is just hereditary for him. Or a family tradition. 

I don’t remember how I got so off track. Where was I before? Oh yeah. Risk. Possibilities. The almost-worst case scenario that turned out not so bad. It’s been a messy weekend with plenty of re-evaluating, but the point is simple: I think I’ve got to give a few new things a try, and I’m excited to have a chance over the next couple weeks.

Next update: God only knows.

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[bitchbrisket]

First Lines Tag

Tagged by @slightlyintimidating

Rules: List the first lines of your last 20 stories (if you have less than 20, just list them all!). See if there are any patterns. Choose your favourite opening line. Then tag 10 authors!

As all my mutuals have been tagged already, I’ll just tag a couple of people, @tara-stofse and @rapidashpatronus

I’m also going to cheat and give you a favourite line from each one, simply because the first line is rarely the best and why not be a big fat show off where your writing is concerned? Didn’t link because I am a lazy cow but my AO3 profile is at the top of my page.

1.       (The Worst Witch 2017) A friend like you – 'Get in loser, we're going shopping!'

Sometimes I come up with good titles and sometimes I desperately flail around and this was the best I could do. Most people should know what the opening line is a reference to and it was the first thing I thought of when the idea of this fic materialised.

  ·         'I know you think you're hot stuff, but Dimity can run rings around you. You have the acting skills of a potato' she icily informed a miffed Arabella.’

  2.       (Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries) An education - 'I confess, I fail to understand the point of most of them.'

Again, another crappy title but for some reason, no song lyric or poem came to me on the subject of policemen raiding a Chinese brothel in the 1920s and confiscating vibrators because they look like suspicious instruments. I did lift the first line from the script because that is partly what I based the fic on. 0/10 for originality there.

  ·         ‘The benefit of having so many deities, Lin reflected, was that there was always someone in, should you knock on the door of their shrines.’

  3.       (The Worst Witch 2017) Poker – ‘Miss Bat scuttled along to the staffroom after her date and walked in, only to halt in surprise.’

Good Lord, I’m really not selling it to you with these boring titles am I? I’ve done the strip poker storyline with the hairpins in another fandom and couldn’t think up a clever title for that either.

  ·         ‘Clothes were strewn everywhere but in front of Hecate, there was a small pile of hairpins and nothing else.’

  4.       (The Worst Witch 2017) Which witch is which? – ‘Wychwood forest was a mysterious place, full of wrackspurts and helipoaths and blibbering humdingers. Sometimes you'd even see a crumple horned snorcack galloping along.’

Yes, alright I borrowed something off the world of Harry Potter. A fic based off a post off of a popular post on Tumblr and title borrowed off Dianna Wynne Jones I think.

  ·         'Watch out for the blibbering humdingers!' she shouted vengefully after the troublesome tourists.’

  5.       (The Worst Witch 2017) They do it with mirrors - 'I've missed you.'

Very general, basic bitch kind of starter. Dial up the smut o’metre because witches are having the equivalent of webcam sex. Written for the Hackle Lemonade Challenge, prompt kink. Wasn’t one of my favourites to write but it does have one of my favourite paragraphs in a smutty fic. Beats the first line anyway.

  ·         ‘She groaned and panted as her climax finally overtook her, glad of the extra support from the solid oak furniture. None of this modern rubbish that couldn't withstand a good hard fuck. There was a time and a place for IKEA but this was not it.’

  6.       (The Worst Witch 2017) Every inch of you – ‘Ada loved it when Hecate lightly raked her nails down her back.’

Diving straight into the smut for this other Hackle Lemonade Challenge, prompt kink fic. Title entirely appropriate.

  ·         ‘While many people over the years could make it happen, it was a secret delight to know that nobody did it better than her.’

  7.       (The Worst Witch 2017) The hum of your desire – ‘Ada woke up to an empty bed.’

At least it’s promising. The story can go anywhere when you start off with an empty bed. The bed is irrelevant anyway. They end up on the sofa.

  ·         ‘Hecate Hardbroom was nothing but a meticulous over achiever.’

  8.       (The Worst Witch 2017) You’re the night sky, trying to make me see your stars – ‘Hecate had been afraid to touch.’

Throws you right into the scene and lets you know there’s going to be a bit of angst in there. I love the song I took the title from (night sky – Leonell Cassio & Julia Mihevc) and I waited for a fic idea to materialise so I could use it.

  ·         ‘Ada could feel her breathing, steady and true, vibrating through to her heart.’

  9.       (Ghosts) Hide & seek – ‘Giggling madly, she galloped up the stairs to seek out the best hiding place ever.’

With several of the ghosts with backstories we have yet to uncover, the possibilities are endless. Poor Kitty had to die young so I gave her a death loosely based on an English ghost story, using all the unsavoury incidents involving her sister. Title needs no explanation.

  ·         ‘And shimmering obliquely in the corner of the landing, was the answer. The wooden chest. The one from the latest sailing ship that had brought back all that sugar and tea and rum.’

  10.   (The Worst Witch 2017) When breathing sounds like your song – ‘She hadn't let herself enjoy it at first.’

Luckily the only way from there is forward. For the Hackle Lemonade Challenge 2021, prompt firsts. Not sure where I got the title from, it’s possible I melded a couple of song lyrics together for it.

  ·         ‘I always feel thirsty after a pleasurable experience' she said cheerfully.’

  11.   (Holby City) There is no goat that foolish – ‘Serena patted down her wide brimmed hat and set off for a walk.’

It’s an ok start to the fic. The title is terrible but honestly, its just hard to find references to goats in general.

  ·         ‘She only just realised that they were conversing in English, not French. The other woman had a London accent. Good. She could shout at her more expressively in English.’

  12.   (The Worst Witch 2017) Sugar mouse – ‘What is it?’

So many possibilities here. The title does give it away, but still.

  ·         ‘In her nightmares, her grandfather had chased her around with an eyeball on a fork.’

  13.   (Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries) Stitch up - ‘I’d like to see you operate my sewing machine, Hugh Collins.’

Another shameless ripping off from the script. But nothing else can sum up this fic so perfectly. Title self-explanatory.

  ·         ‘Were sewing machines like dogs? He wondered. Did they take on the personalities of their owners?’

    14.   (Pushing Daisies) Girls don’t want boys, girls want damn respect – ‘Her boy always had an eye for the ladies.’

What a ridiculously clunky title. But apparently I couldn’t think of anything better. The opening line is much better.

  ·         ‘Calista was reminded of the principal at school that Emerson had crushed on so hard that he'd broken every fire alarm in the school over the course of several months just to get her attention. Some things never changed.’

  15.   (Holby City) Tell us the tale of a goat – ‘Did I ever tell you about how Serena and I met?’

A solid opening there, full of potential. The title is a bit crap. No, I have no idea why or how Serena would be working on the Italian railway either.

  ·         ‘You dressed one up in a poncho and called it aunt Gertrude?’ Fleur asked eventually. She really couldn’t think of anything better to say.’

  16.   (Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries) In the gracious light – ‘Jack tried not to let their questioning stares get to him.’

Based partly on the MFMM books, I’m happy with the opening line, it sets the tone. The title comes from Shakespeare’s Sonnet VII. ‘Lo! in the orient when the gracious light.’ With that, it ties in Jack and Lin quite nicely.

  ·         ‘After all, grandmama had warned him enough about the distraction of white girls. She had said nothing about white boys.’

    17.   (Holby City) Not yet – ‘Bernie wouldn't describe herself as an avid reader these days.’

Title taken from a line in the book Wicked. Opening line is pretty generic. I basically wrote this fic because Elphaba reminds me of Bernie in some respects. Also, premonition, sorry about that.

  ·         ‘In her mind, it was Serena in that cell, stretching out her hand to Bernie and chiding her affectionately for her delay.’

    18.   (Ghosts) Filth – ‘The Captain paid no attention to Lady Button's shrewish tone two rooms away.’

Simple title, simple opening line. Very direct. It’s the ‘why didn’t the Captain and Lady Button bond over the hot gardener in Lady Chatterly’s Lover together’ fic.

  ·         ‘The Captain sighed. That husband of hers had a lot to answer for. Bastard. He couldn't have killed her by poison or anything, no, he had to push her out of the damn window.’

  19.   (Ghosts & Holby City crossover) Over the top we go – ‘He couldn't believe it.’

So many things one couldn’t believe, a pretty generic opening. The title is a WW1 reference so not the correct war for the Captain but I used it anyway. Bernie is Haver’s niece.

  ·         ‘The Captain looked pleased but there was an expression in his eyes that Alison thought hid a sob in his heart.’

    20.   (Holby City) Boobs – ‘Arthur Digby was having a terrible day.’

Title, utterly crap, I know you’ll agree. Opening line, sums it up really. I like it.

  ·         'Well, call me Da Vinci and I'll paint you like one of those French girls.'

Art wasn't Fleur's strong point.’

So what did I learn about my opening lines? It does reflect my writing style, snappy and concise. I rarely ramble for long. Are they thrilling opening lines? Not usually. Do they set the scene or the tone? Much of the time. They are certainly not the best ones I’ve ever written. Considering that I don’t love most of these last lot of opening lines, I’m going to go with which witch is which? It’s the best one of the bunch, I think. 

[purplesurveys]

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1. What previews did you see at the last movie you saw in theaters? I don’t even remember dude. I do remember the last movie I saw in the cinema was Knives Out, but we were too late to see the previews and arrived exactly when the movie started. The movie I saw before that wasssssss Portrait of a Lady on Fire, but that was so long ago I definitely don’t remember the previews that showed beforehand – or if there were any, at all. 2. Have you ever washed your hair with mayonnaise? Ok I love mayonnaise, but that shit goes in my mouth and not anywhere else in my body lmao. 3. How many things are you a fan of on Facebook? I stupidly liked so many pages when I was 14 and new to Facebook...it must be in the hundreds. I think I still like most of them, but I’m just too lazy to unlike each of them. 4. Do you have more friends on Myspace or Facebook? Facebook is a sure winner here because I don’t even have a Myspace.

5. What generation iPod do you have? I don’t know...it’s an iPod from 2008, though. The really thin one that comes with games, and the screen is already colored. 

6. What celebrities share your birthday? James McAvoy and Queen Elizabeth II are the biggest names I think. I Googled to confirm anyway and it turns out I share a birthday with Iggy Pop too. Pretty diverse group lmao. 7. What's your first and last name spelled backwards? Nybor, and that’s all you’re getting now. 8. What song is playing at the moment? No song, just two electric fans whirring loudly here in the first floor, and my sister watching a playthrough of some game she’s into on YouTube. 9. Do you clench your teeth when you're angry? Ugh no. I hate the feeling/texture/sound of grinding my teeth. I find it a little disturbing and I wince when I hear someone doing it in their sleep :/ 10. Have you ever been to a movie that sold out? Yeah, Killing of A Sacred Deer was surprisingly sold out when we watched it. Then again we were in the part of the city where people are more likely to watch films like that, so maybe it’s not that surprising after all. Other movies I remember being sold out was the entire Twilight Saga HAHAHA. I went to 4/5 midnight screenings and the cinema was packed every time.

11. Have you ever been to a midnight movie? ^ Just mentioned it. 12. It's 2010; are you gonna say oh-ten, twenty ten, or two thousand ten? I always say twenty-ten. 13. How many of your classes change next quarter? Next semester? I graduate next semester...hopefully. This virus is really ruining my life plans for 2020, especially as a graduating student who was expecting to graduate by June and get a job by like, September. 14. Do you believe in the paranormal? Only ghosts. 15. How old are the shoes you're wearing? I’m barefoot at the moment. I haven’t been outside in a WHILE, so I haven’t had to wear shoes in a while as well. 16. What's your state's weather usually like this time of year? The Philippines is a relatively tiny country so our weather from the northernmost to southernmost tips are uniform. That being said, March to June is our summer season so the *country’s weather is very humid and excruciatingly hot for now. Temperature usually plays around 34-37C, but the heat index can reach 42C. 17. Do you get those leg cramps in the middle of the night? I used to get them quite often as a kid - it would wake me up at 4 AM and I’d usually be crying by the end; I couldn’t scream because I never wanted to wake everyone up, so I’d just cry until it was over. 18. What movie last made you too scared to go to sleep? Midsommar didn’t make me too scared to sleep, but for a short time it made me terrified of flowers and the color white. 19. Do you have a Twitter account? Sure. 20. Did Obama deserve the Nobel Peace Prize he was awarded? Oh he won it? That’s pretty cool. I dunno enough about his presidency other than he seems to be ~hipper than all the other US presidents and is generally more well-loved, but I don’t want to make a stand so hastily. 21. Is your cell phone a qwerty (full keyboard) or no? Yeah, touchscreen qwerty. 22. What was the last website you logged onto (besides the one you're on)? WWE Network!!! Just today they announced that they were gonna give free access to the Network, which means thousands of hours’ worth of pay-per-views, shows, and documentaries. I made a WWE account just for it and I’ve already downed two documentaries this morning. 23. What's your home page? It’s a Google Chrome extension called Momentum. I’m too lazy to describe the features so I’ll just show you what it looks like when I open Chrome/a new tab.

24. Put a line from the song you're listening to right now: I’m not listening to a song rn but I do have everything i wanted by Billie Eilish stuck in my head for a few minutes now. A lyric goes: I had a dream / I got everything I wanted / Not what you’d think / And if I’m being honest, it might’ve been a nightmare / To anyone who might care.

25. Music artists you listen to: Are they a little or a lot older than you? They’re typically close to my age, like maybe 4-10 years older than me. The oldest artist I listen to is probably Beyoncé? 26. What always has to be in the refrigerator? For us, eggs. 27. What was your favorite movie of 2009? The Proposal. 28. What do you want for Christmas? That’s sort of a long way from now, dude. By that time I’d have grown a bit and will probably ask for a vacuum cleaner lmaaaaao. 29. If you could go to three places in the world right now: UPTC, Feliz, and a Starbucks. I just want to be out of my actual village – I don’t even want to go anywhere far after this. 30. How many days until your birthday? I was too lazy to do math but Google says it’s 28 days away. 31. Who are you crushing on right now? (Famous or not, it's your call.) Gabie, Kristen Stewart, and Lee Joo Youngggggg. 32. Do you squish bugs or put them in a glass and let them outside? I squish them especially if they’re being annoying, soz. 33. Do you have split ends? I recently got my hair done, so no.

34. Isn't it ridiculous that movie theaters sell hot dogs and nachos? It is pretty stupid considering they’re messy food and you’ll have to eat them in a really dark room. Where I’m from they allow any kind of food in the theatres, so we aren’t restricted to hotdogs and nachos. My go-to food is Potato Corner french fries, since they’re easy to pick up and would never have a strong smell, or make a noise or a mess. 35. What school subject do you absolutely fail at? I don’t think I ever got past an 85 in chemistry in high school. 36. When you're on a laptop, do you hook up a mouse or use the touchpad? I have a touchpad. I’ve never owned a mouse. 37. When's the next day(s) off you'll get at school? Literally right now until April 14th. It’s a lockdown, dude. 38. If you're learning a language, what year are you in? I’m not. My curriculum doesn’t require me to take language electives. I did take Spanish and Korean in Duolingo in the past out of boredom/curiosity, though. I lasted a few levels into Spanish because of its similarities with Filipino, but they have like a million verb tenses and that’s when it got too much for me. Korean was pretty difficult right from the start. 39. Do you think you're done growing or will you grow a couple more inches? Nah, this is it I think. 40. What's your mom's mom's name? Agnes. 41. Do you replace "and" with an ampersand (&)? No, it looks so informal to me. 42. What do you usually get at school for lunch? I don’t have a usual lunch; it depends on what we have at home, because I typically just bring food from home to school. 43. Have you ever encountered a creepy neighbor? I don’t think so. If I did, my brain probably blocked the memory already. 44. How many texts can your phone's inbox hold before it's too full? As far as I know it doesn’t have a limit and just depends on my phone’s overall capacity.   45. Do you like the foam soap or the liquidy soap? I use a liquidy one, so I’ll go with that. 46. Do you like the automatic sinks or the ones with hot and cold handles? Lmao, first of all our country’s not even rich enough for this question. We just have a basic sink. We get whatever temperature is available and we need to turn a knob to have the water running. 47. What day did/does your birthday fall on this year? It’ll fall on a Tuesday, which suckssss because it’s a weekday and I have weekly Tuesday meetings for this semester. It’s also the first week out of the coronavirus lockdown, and I doubt people will even be paying attention to birthdays by then. 48. Do you tend to lean towards bright colors or more subtle colors? Subtle ones. 49. Do you use British spelling even though you're not British? No. 50. Name the farthest/weirdest/most unique place you've ever been: Farthest: Bali, Indonesia Weirdest: There was this park in Palawan that just didn’t fit with the city’s atmosphere at all lmao. Let me look it up... Baker’s Hill. It had tons of vibrantly-colored figurines, decorations peppered with cheesy pick-up lines, and Valentine’s decor (hearts, streamers, etc) spread all over the place. I couldn’t understand what it was supposed to be and it was a surreal experience overall lol. Most unique: Sagada. It didn’t feel like I was in the Philippines for the 3 days I was there.

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Bad Things Happen Bingo! The event where you send me I give myself self-indulgent requests according to this marvelous card!

Really glad of myself for not giving into the shitty pun I could have made about the Healing Touch and Derek losing it in Trauma Center UTK2. Instead, you get a neat little Marissonshipping fic! It’s fluffy and all, to counterbalance how edgy Red-Dyed Diamond was and how overly edgy and dark “Knife to the Throat” is gonna be next (if not it, then it’s gonna be “Stabbing”, and it’s gonna be really edgy too).

(also they’re older there, like Alan’s 16 and Manon’s 14-15 because 1. headcanons 2. my ship my story my town)

Foyer

Summary: (Foyer: substantive. From the French "foyer", meaning "household" or "fire") Spending most of his time alone has made Alan responsible for himself despite his age, yet there is one need he cannot find the solution to. The answer is obvious to the outside eye, but you'd never know, if you had spent so much time on your own, right?

Fandom: Pokémon (anime, post-XYZ series canon) Ships: Marissonshipping (Alan/Alain x Mairin/Manon, light, implied)

Wordcount: 1.5K words

Event hosted by @badthingshappenbingo

AO3 version available here.

Alan realized there was one need he had failed to fulfil for a long time when Manon’s hand brushed against his.

 Despite being no older than sixteen, he had learnt how to sustain himself and his team by himself. He knew where to find drinkable water, how to gather and cook food properly, how to make himself a good spot to sleep, had memorized the most convenient spots to rest in a city, had taught himself how to handle money and a tight budget. There was no need of his he couldn’t fail at handling.

Except one, a tiny little one he had tried to ignore for a while, but which he couldn’t fulfil alone, much to his chagrin. It seemed like the most benign thing at first, something he should have gotten over when he had stopped being a child; but everyone remains a child all their life, in a way, and he wasn’t grown up yet. That was bothersome, to say the least.

 It wasn’t even like Alan had spent all his time on his own. He had Charizard with him, she had always been there for him and would have never let him down for anything in the world. He had his other Pokémon always with him, a handful away from him at best, buckled around his waist. He had been joined by Manon and Chespie anyway, so loneliness was out of the question. He was fine, he had to be fine, nothing could have been wrong and there wasn’t anything that he could have thought of that could have gone wrong with him.

It wasn’t too surprising, though, that there was something that had gone rotten.

 It was an odd, unfamiliar feeling. His skin felt feverish despite his body temperature being plainly normal, his blood keeping its natural coldness, overly sensitive to the touch. Every time something brushed even the slightest against it, even a calm and otherwise soothing breeze, it acted up. For someone so composed, collected and cold-blooded, he was suddenly very sensitive, as if starving for something he didn’t know about.

And, truly, what was he starving for? Food? Health? Company? No, all of these were fulfilled. Even in his nightmares he wasn’t alone: Charizard, if she was out of her ball, would shelter him with her wing if he started thrashing in his sleep, Manon would tell him it was going to be fine and show him she cared for his well-being, that insisting about his shoulder all these months ago was a sign of affection and not just a selfish want to see him stick around with her. Everything was fine, as good as it could be at least, so…

Why was something missing? What was the piece of the puzzle he couldn’t find, and where was he supposed to search for it?

 Sitting in front of the campfire on one night, everyone asleep around him, Alan is kept awaken by that question: what is it that I am missing? No answer to that, obviously, or he’d otherwise have found a solution and have fixed the problem already. Knees against his chest, arms wrapped around his forelegs, skin heated and shivering to the dwindling heat of the flames gently lightning his face, he was left pondering upon the question. Alone.

He did feel somewhat lonely, during these moments of temporary solitude. There was nobody to talk to, nobody to distract himself from the dark thoughts still festering in the back of his mind and constantly trying to make it to the front of his brain, nobody to enjoy life with, in a sense. He knew this only lasted for a night – it always only lasted for a night –, yet the idea still stuck around, the impression never left: he felt alone, infected with an uncurable loneliness that would, seemingly never leave him alone.

 Closing his eyes, focusing on the soft crackling of the campfire, he had a distant memory of his childhood. It was on a day where he didn’t leave his bed, let alone his house, kept in the vicinity of his parents’ attention. It was vague, the sound as if he was underwater as he tried to remember the words he had exchanged with his mother on that day. He, however, remembered the touch of his mother’s arms wrapped against him, the warmth of being lodged against her chest, the soothing aura she was draping him in with.

Still in a remembering trance, he almost hadn’t noticed the soft brushing of Manon’s hand against his, as she slept right next to where he was. He had insisted on saying he was fine, aware of how fake it had to have sounded to her but nonetheless hoping Manon would blindly trust him on that one (despite how much he must have had disappointed and hurt her before), even if there was no convincing himself that he was fine anymore. He simply wasn’t, as he contemplated the starry night sky with a spirit filled with insomnia and unanswerable questions.

 “…hey, Alan…”

Manon’s drowsy voice made him jump as she stirred in her sleep… only to open her eyes. There must have been some kind of a twisted, embarrassed, awkward “smile” creeping up on his face while he watched her do so, he was sure of it.

“M-Manon?! I thought you were asleep!”

“Could ask you that back, y’know…”

She rubbed her eyes as she sat up, their faces aligning as he had turned his in her direction.

“Well, huh… I couldn’t sleep, that’s it.”

 Despite her undeniable clumsiness and her forgetful appearances, Manon was always quick to wake up, a natural early bird. Seconds after he had seemed to wake her up, she was fully awake, staring at him with doubtful eyes when someone other than her would have still been left half-awake and unable to give him that stinky stare she was clearly giving him. Awkward.

“And why couldn’t you sleep? You’ve had nightmares again, Alan? I told you to tell me if you did!”

She lightly punched his shoulder as a way to enforce her message. As he had feared, it made his skin act up again, leaving him with a strange impulse coursing through his arms. He refrained himself from letting them go wild with what self-persuasion strength he had left.

“I’m not sure. It’s nothing big, though. You should go back to sleep, Manon.”

He thought he had made the emphasis on her name sharp and strong, just how he liked them, but it failed its purpose rather epically.

“I’m sure that’s a big lie! Tell me what’s wrong, I’m not a little kid who can’t handle a friend’s problems!”

 It was a tempting offer, it really was. He was tempted to tell her about the weird fever in his skin, the constant need for something akin to attention but still not fulfilled by the friends he was surrounded with, the weird obsession his mind had to always fixate itself on memories of his distant childhood, all the little things he felt that he couldn’t understand, even after thinking about them for hours. It was tiring, to be left with so many unanswered questions without a single answer, to have a need he didn’t know how to get rid of.

Something did tell him the surge that pulsed through his body when she brushed her fingers against his hand had a link to it all, but he wasn’t sure how, or why. The enigma was exhausting to try and solving, he had never been that big on puzzles and unsolved mysteries.

 “I… really don’t know, Manon. That’s the problem there.”

“Mind telling me, then? Friends are here to listen to each other’s rambling and problems.”

She sat right next to him, causing his right side to send that now-familiar pulse through his limbs again. Compelled by his growing impatience and her insistence, knowing her stubbornness barely knew any limit, he told her about most of what he could, excluding the daze of his blurry memories from times long gone. He wasn’t ready to see her smile so widely, so gleefully. Had she already found an answer to his questions? It seemed like so.

“Ah, I see! You just need a big hug, you dummy!”

“You… You’re not making fun of me, right?”

To that doubtful question, she seemed offended.

“What, you don’t believe me?! I’ll show you then!”

 Without missing a single moment, Manon threw herself on him, pulling her against her in an embrace far stronger than he would have sworn she was capable of. Yet, despite the unexpected nature of the event and her reaction to what he thought was a normal question, it did what it was striving to do: fulfil a need, answer his questions.

This what he had wanted all along. And, as it was the one thing to quench the intelligible thirst, he simply let himself indulge in the physical affection his closest friend, if not more, was giving him.

 When they pulled out of the embrace, she was still holding his hand and looking into his eyes, sheepish smile never leaving her face. In the light of the fire, she seemed even more luminous than ever.

“See? I told you I wasn’t lying! You’re just in need of affection!”

He let silently himself nod in response before they’d inevitably have to go back to sleep.

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99 Question Tag

okay okay I know i got tagged to do this like a month ago on my main blog by @santonicababy iM SORRY LIN ILY BUT THIS WAS SO DAMN LONG

1) DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED

I sleep in the room where everybodies closets are and they all gotta be closed goddamn do you know how spooky it is to even have one open during the night

2) DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS

my parents do, but alas I don't use them in case they have silicones or sulphates in them because I got a whole lotta curls to protect

3)DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT?

if this refers to the sheet protecting the mattress, then my answer is in because how the fuck would you be able to sleep with that moving around???

4) HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE

NO SORRY IM BORING

5)DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST IT NOTES

heck yeah, but for random shit

6) DO YOU EVER CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM

nee my parents are fancy fuckers who use the coupons on their phone (our local supermarket has a damn app skskksksk)

7) WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES

a bear because its one giant son of a bitch and not millions of tiny motherfuckers and also I've never been stung by a bee and intend to keep it that way because majority of my family seem to be allergic

8) DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES

nope! I have a couple beauty spots on my hands and face but thats kinda it

9) DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES

not really but if I've been told to smile then its 200% dead inside

10) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE

i find many things annoying

11)DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK

only when i go up and down stairs, but i also try to make sure i step with each foot equally (if that makes sense) and i step on only certain colour tiles when im bored

12) HAVE YOU EVER PEED IN THE WOODS

the real question is have i ever been in the woods? both answers are no

13) HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS

refer to question 12

14)ummmm idk what this question is meant to be curse you Lin

15)DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS

nope, the idea weirds me out

16) HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK

none, this week and in general

17) WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED

one person and a long yet smol doggo size

18) WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK

Eddie from the Rocky Horror Picture Show has been stuck in my head for the whole week so yeah i guess that

19)IS IT OKAY FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK

HeLL YEAH DUDE HAVE YOU SEEN RAMI MALEK IN PINK

SKSKSKSKS END MY LIFE

but yeah, anyone can wear anything they want to wear (although a suit made out of meat might not be wise)

20) DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS

dudeeeee scooby doo and tom and jerry are my jam I watch them on the regular (among other things)

21)WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE MOVIE

uhhm idkkkkk I tend to repress bad movies sksksk

22)WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME

idk shove it in the closet ig at least it will be hidden behind my sexuality

23)WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER

I usually only drink before or after but ig water??? cooldrink if I'm in a restaurant

24)WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN

depends on the nug

25)WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD

How dare you assume i only have one favourite

tbh it depends cos i love pizza and pasta and stuff but then i cannot live with my granny's curries ksksmks

26) WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE

borhap, sing street, rhps, the natm movies, the harry potter movies, any mcu movies

27)LAST PERSON YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU

ahhahahahahahha bold of you to assume anyone wants to do that

28) WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT

nope but I was a catrobat which is basically my preschools acrobatics team that was actually really terrible

29)WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE

nahh m8

30) WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER

this week for a transactional task at school (It was in Afrikaans and I got a C skskskks)

31)CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL IN A CAR

omg no

32)EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET

not old enough to drive!

33)EVER RAN OUT OF GAS

my parents never have for as long as i can remember

34)WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE KINDA SANDWHICH

cheese because I am actually John Deacon

35)BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST

MUFFINS!!!!

36)WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME

school nights its 11pm otherwise i dont have one lol

37)ARE YOU LAZY

YES BUT MY LAZINESS MAKES ME ANXIOUS OOF

38)WHEN YOU WERE A KID WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN

we dont celebrate that here but i rly want to it seems fun!

39)WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN

Ram, which is really cool because im an Aries, so I'm sheep squared

40)HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK

English, Afrikaans (at a basic highschool level), I could speak very vERY basic isiZulu when I was younger but I'm not sure about now, I know a bit of French and Telugu, and I'm gonna start learning Hindi soon!!

41) DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS

nee

42) WHICH ARE BETTER, LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS

i didn't play much with legos and i have no idea what the second one is rip

43)ARE YOU STUBBORN

to an extent

44)WHO IS BETTER, LENO OR LETTERMAN

I kept reading Leno as Lenin ffs

45)EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS

I watch them occasionally with my granny, but I don't keep up with them very well (Kasamh Se is my shit tho)

46)ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS

no, im afraid of falling in general tho

47) DO YOU SING IN THE CAR

My dad and I bop frequently to Never Gonna Give You Up in the car, and also classic bollywood songs (we have even learnt the choreography for some)

48)DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER

i perform

49) DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR

well theres not exactly much space

50)EVER USED A GUN

nope

51)LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER

not sure

52)DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY

most are but thats why i like them

53) IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL

we don't celebrate because we're not Christian (we still eat a lot and exchange presents tho), but it can get stressful if we have to visit extended family, mostly because my extended family loves to insult everything about me so thats great!

54)EVER EAT A PIEROGI

not i good sir

55) FAVOURITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE

never had one, it doesnt appeal to me

56) OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID

a vet

57)DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS

i am a ghost

58)EVER HAD A DEJA-VU FEELING

not that i remember

59)DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY

yes, I take a multi vitamin, a vitamin D pill because I'm vitamin D deficient, and im not sure if this is a vitamin or not but i take evening primrose oil so that im not outwardly a bitch due to pms

60)DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS

i wear slipper socks, because my doggo got jealous of my doggie slippers and murdered them in cold blood

61)DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE

i have one and rarely use it because i forget it exists

62)WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED

a random shirt and pants, though ive been known to kick pants off (ive been doing that since birth), occasionally i manage to get the matching pj set

63)WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT

ive unfortunately never been to a concert before

64)WALMART TARGET OR KMART

ive never seen any of these stores in my country

65)NIKE OR ADIDAS

i own neither

66) CHEETOS OR FRITOS

neither

67)PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS

Peanuts because thats my doggos name!

68) EVER HEARD OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN

no sorry

69)EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS

i went to a bhangra class for about a year, and we performed for our parents at the end of that year (i was in one of the few groups that didnt have to dance in lehengas thank goodness)

70)IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE

YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING

probably something creative, but I don't mind as long as they're happy with what they're doing and its not harming others!

71)CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE

yep

72)EVER WON A SPELLING BEE

never entered one, having to spell out loud makes me anxious

73)HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY

i think so

74)OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS

nope

75)OWN A RECORD PLAYER

i wish

76)DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE

my granny burns incense while I'm at school because my mom and i both get really sick when its just been lit and the smell is strong. Going to the temple is a damn nightmare because of it

77)EVER BEEN IN LOVE

no, too busy fangirling

78)WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT

oof a long list

Queen, Twenty One Pilots, Waterparks, Frank Iero and the Future Violents (ffs fronk stop changin the name), Panic! at the Disco...to name a few

79)WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW

refer to question 63

80)HOT TEA OR COLD TEA

both

81)TEA OR COFFEE

coffee

82)SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES

sugar cookies

83)CAN YOU SWIM WELL

i wouldn't drown, but im no professional either

84)CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE

im doing it right now

85)ARE YOU PATIENT

eh

86)DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING

I've only ever been to Hindi,Tamil and Telugu weddings and lemme tell you 90% of the time bands flop at those weddings because they can't sing the classics without failing miserably, so DJs are generally better. However, in that case, if a band can perform those songs, then I'd prefer a band ig

87)EVER WON A CONTEST

yep, a couple of reading contests

88)HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY

nope, not planning on it

89)WHICH ARE BETTER, BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES

dont like olives rip

90)CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET

i can knit!

in fact, my friends and i are so cool that we're in our schools knitting club (which besides myself, @grandfunnyemopainter and @imjustabruh , only has 2 other members)

91)BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE

lounge or study/library

92)DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED

i guess, its not on my goal list tho

93)IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED

no

94)WHO WAS YOUR HIGHSCHOOL CRUSH

currently in highschool, and in love with the borhap cast, sebastian stan, stephanie beatriz and band members (theres more but yeah)

95)DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY

nope, i have only two ways to deal, be a total pushover or a total bitch

96)DO YOU HAVE KIDS

nope

97)DO YOU WANT KIDS

kind of undecided, but i do want more pets

98)WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOUR

Dark Blue

99)DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW

my dog, shes been ignoring me for about four hours now because I stayed at school for an extra hour (for knitting club!)

@softspaceboibrian @roger-taylor-owns-my-wigg @im-inlovewithmycar do it cowards

[rysonbran]

Asks Challenge: Late night 🌙 Tea ☕️ and Spring Awakening 🌸

Spring Awakening Lyrics ask meme

Mama who bore me- What’s your relationship with your parents like?

I have a gr8 relationship with my parents, they’re divorced so I do most general stuff with my mom and then most cooking stuff I’ll do with my dad because we’re both food nerds

No sleep in Heaven- Are you currently worried about something?

nah

Thought is suspect- Do you have any unpopular opinions?

I mean not that I know of?

All will know- what are your plans for the future?

Idk man whatever happens happens

Her silver call- What gives you hope?

The future

The bitch of living- What do you dislike most about your life?

Ummmm highschool lmao

This mess of a life- Do you find it important to feel in control?

Fuck yeah but it doesn’t always happen

It’s so where I live- Do you or your family have any unique traditions?

We do family dinners every Sunday and Christmas competitions every year

To shore- What’s your “happy place”?

At home with my doge and a blanket and some tea

All is forgiven- Is there anything you can’t forgive yourself for?

I mean my anxiety says yes but

Just too unreal- Did you ever get in a situation that felt too good to be true??

Not that I can remember

Grasping at pearls- Do you tend to jump to conclusions too quickly? 

yessssss oh my god

I don’t scream- Are you more likely to protest something that you don’t agree with, or keep it to yourself?

Protest lmao I’m stubborn

Just like she never saw me- Have you ever felt like your problems were getting ignored?

Yeahhh

Well, fine- do you often lie? what do you typically lie about?

I have a lot of little white lies lmao

You tell your soul - What do you do feel better when you’re down?

Text my best friend and cry into food lmao

Flip on a switch- What never fails to brighten up your day?

My doge!

The whispers of fear- What’s your biggest fear?

Spiders, the death of everyone I know, my dog dying, morbid stuff lmao

I believe- What is an important belief of yours?

My belief in equality probably

Peace and joy be with them - What’s the best thing someone said to you?

Probably that I’m pretty

the season for dreaming - What’s your dream?

To be able to travel the world and see stuff

This brave new you that you are - What’s something that changed for the better about you?

I don’t think anything’s really changed but I’ve been attempting to be more open, not that it’s worked

Floating high and blue- What would you consider to be the ideal life for you?

Living somewhere other than the states, working a creative job with intelligent people and having a dog

Beneath the rising moon- What’s your favourite thing about night time?

It’s quiet

Through the open books on the grass- What’s your favourite pastime?

Reading or drawing or being on this blue hellscape

Winter wind sings and it cries- Do you consider yourself an optimist or a pessimist?

hahahaha pessimist  All things he never did- What’s something you always wanted to do, and didn’t (or didn’t yet)?

I’ve always wanted to go to London, which I did, and not I want to go to Ireland so that I guess

It whistles through the ghosts still left behind- What’s a memory you often think about?

The time I wasn’t allowed to wear a bowtie with a uniform but I didn’t fight it

There’s a moment you know you’re fucked- What was your biggest fuck up?

I made someone faceplant at work lmao

Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah - What’s something stupid you remember you or some one else saying?

Something about D.C. being in Virginia

Travel the world within my lips- Ahat was your first kiss like?

Cramped and hot- temperature wise but good

You’re gonna be wounded - Did you ever do something risky that ended up being worth it?

Ummm no I’m not a risk taker lmao

So let that be my story- What’s the biggest lie you ever told?

That I was going to hang out with friends but instead drove 45 minutes away

Something beautiful, a new chance- What are you looking forward to?

Currently? Dinner lmao

You’ve left them far behind- What’s something you decided to leave in the past?

Idk man

And I’ll see their thoughts are known- What are some ideas you feel are important to spread?

Equality, comprehensive sex ed, kindness

The butterfly sings - What makes you feel free?

Nature despite the fact that I hate bugs

Tea ask meme

1: Golden mornings or peachy sunsets?

Peachy sunsets

2: Sugar cones or waffle cones?

Sugar cones

3: Do you wear scarves often? do you have a favorite?

No but I love my mom’s cowl neck infinity scarf it’s so soft

4: How long do you lay in bed before you finally get up?

Like half a goddamn hour lmao

5: Is there a food you’ve never had but always wanted to try?

Macarons, I’ve only had them once and I tried making them and I failed

6: What does your umbrella look like?

It has crowns all over it from the tower of london

7: Do you listen to ASMR?

No

8: Rain storms or a light drizzle?

Rain storms

9: What’s a little thing in life that you love? 

Little acts of kindness that happen in public, like someone paying for someone else’s coffee or something

10: Favorite color aesthetic?

Blue and mint green, pastels, pink and orange

11: Wobbly lines or using a ruler?

Wobbly lines

12:  Bright colorful living room or neutral cozy living room?

Both

13: Do you have any candles? what scents are they?

Yeas pumpkin spice

14: Have you ever rode a horse?

Yesss multiple times it’s fun until you get a tick

15: Do you have glasses? 

Yeah but I wear contacts most of the time

16: What’s a language you’d like to speak?

Sign language or French

17: What’s your favorite season and favorite month in that season?

I love spring, probably like may

18: Do you have a favorite pair of socks?

I have a thick pair of wool socks I got from a gun show and I love them

19: Favorite Ghibli and/or disney movie

Oh my god uhhhh moana?

20: Disney, Dreamworks, or Pixar?

UHHHHHH

21: What snacks do you usually get at the theater?

Gummies or popcorn

22: What’s an underrated video game/ movie/ show you love and think it needs more recognition?

Best in Show

23: Would you fill your house with plants if you had a green thumb?

YEAS

24; All plants are great but do you have a favorite?

I like succulents

25: Do you have a favorite type of art style? (eg: soft looking, no to little color, sketches, crisp and clean, minimalist, pixel art etc.)

Nah man it’s art I like all art

26: What would you do if someone gave you flowers? 

Kiss them probably

27: Do you like nicknames? 

Depends on the nickname

28: Do you still watch shows you watched when you were a kid? even from time to time?

Yeas

29: Do you still like old memes? (tell the truth)

Yeas

30: Favorite Halloween costume you dressed up as? (if you don’t celebrate halloween have you ever cosplayed or would you like to? who did you cosplay as?) 

My 11th doctor costume was lit, I want to cosplay newt Scamander

31:  Are you a fashionable person? 

I like to think I am

32: Do you like watching holiday movies? 

Yeaaasss

33:  Cookies or brownies?

Brownies

34: Do you blow in the cold air just to see your breath?

Yes lmao

35: Do you find the crickets chirping outside your window relaxing? 

Sometimes

36: Do you like cobblestone streets? 

Yes they’re adorable

37:  How often do you doodle? 

A lot

38: When was the last time you blew bubbles?

Idk at least 6 months ago

39: What’s your favorite random piece of decor in your house and room?

I have a mannequin head in my room lmao

40: Do you bite your fingernails off or clip them more often?

I pick at my nails

41: Any birthmarks?

Nah

42: Thoughts on freckles?

Love em

43: First video game you ever played?

Probably mariokart on the DS Lite

44: what type of bird do you hear most often outside your door?

Idk

45: Do you use gifs/ memes a lot when replying to people?

Yes lmao

46: Thoughts on spring? 

I love it

47: Ideal temperature outside?

Like 65 or 70 where it’s warm but not hot… sweater weather

48: Cloudy, partly cloudy, or clear skies?

Partly cloudy but cloudy makes for the best lighting

49: How often do you hear airplanes outside?

I don’t hear them but I see them, i live like 30 mins away from an airport

50: Do you enjoy windy days?

Ehhhhh

Late night ask meme

cosmos: what’s one thing you wish you could say to someone you are no longer friends with? 

 Bye bitch lmaogalaxies: what are three things you want to do before you die?Travel the world, meet brendon urie, and perform with niall horan or ed sheeran lmao 

 waxing: what is your proudest accomplishment?

 I got pictures accepted into a local arts fiesta

 waning: what is your biggest regret? 

 I probably have a lot but I can’t remember them atm 

 full moon: what type of person do you hope to be?

 A humble famous person

 contemplation: if you could wake up one morning and everything in your life was perfect, what would that look like? 

 No deadlines, I’d have a doge and a big house and a huge kitchen somewhere European 

 night light: who/what makes you feel safe?My doge

 ponder: what do you want to do with your life? 

 Something great, I’d like to be able to help people

 sunset: who is someone you thought would be in your life forever, but you no longer talk to? 

 My best friend from elementary school 

 midnight: are you a different person late at night than in the early morning?

 Early morning do not speak to me lmao late at night I’m more chill

 Candle light: are you an indecisive person? 

 Yes oh my god lmao

 reflection: have you ever changed something you liked about yourself to satisfy someone else?

 I’d hope not

 sweet dreams: are you happy?

 Are you bo burnham? I mean for the most part 

 nightmare: what are you most afraid of? 

 See the one above 

 constellations: who is someone you could talk to for hours and never stop?

 My best friend probably 

 reminder: who is someone you will never forget? 

 My sister’s dog Corona who passed away last year 

 11-11: what’s something you want, but feel like you will never have?

I don’t feel like I’ll be completely satisfied with my life ever, which isn’t completely bad but at the same time it is.

shooting star: who is someone you trust to help you make the right decisions?

My best friend or my fam I love my fam

earth: where do you feel most at home?

.... my home...

soothe: what’s one thing that always makes you feel better when you’re upset?

My doge! 

slumber: what’s one thing that helps you fall asleep when it feels impossible?

I have this silky pajama shirt thing I sleep with, so probably that or like the little stuffed giraffe I got as an early christmas gift

[chaoticlesbiansoyeon]

answer questions 1 through 100 pls

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

my mom’s the last person i texted so if i’m sleeping in her bed i probably had a nightmare n i dont take clothes off unless it’s too hot so i think im fine lmao

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

NEVER KISSED  

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

yes… it affects health and i dont want them to suffer health problems bc of an addiction

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

nope

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

NEVER KISSED

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

idk what want to have means in this situation but im terribly shy n antisocial n fucks things up constantly so probably

7. What does your last received text say?

they should leave it behind.

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

NEVER KISSED

9. Where was your last kiss at?

NEVER KISSED

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

i have half-sisters but ive never met them i dont rlly talk abt them tbh

11. What do you drink in the morning?

like emergen-c most times (its a vitamin c supplement)

12. Where did you sleep last night?

my big bed

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

never been in one but if u make the right accoodations they should be okay to handle i gues idk im inexperienced

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

yes. i would’ve dyed my hair already RIP

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

THERE’S NO ONE W ME

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

i like sunny days if im going out. rainy if im staying in bc i can observe them. 

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

nah fam

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

im wearing a onesie so technically pajama pants i guess

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

i honestly have no clue

20. Does anyone like you?

HA

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

NEVER KISSED

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

NEVER KISSED

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

THIS FUCKWAD IN MY FRENCH CLASS IS SO RACIST AND DUMB AND WONT SHUT THE HELL UP DEAR LORD 

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

yes!!!! i rlly want one tbh!!!

25. In the past week have you cried?

…………..i dont think so no

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

coton de tulear 

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

in the shower most days 

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

NEVER KISSED

29. Do you think you’re old?

my hair is grey n my joints crack. yes.

30. Do you like text messaging?

yes its way more convenient

31. What type of day are you having?

todays been kinda lazy i like it

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

yes!! idk if i wanna….

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

WARM I DIE DURING THE WINTER

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

im gonna talk abt friends bc i love my male family members they spoil me n give me good advice. but i have male friends but i dont know them that well and want to get to know them more but im a shy fuckass

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

……………………i dont know 

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

both bc im a mess

37. What song are you listening to?

i had the 7th sense on for a while im gonna listen to dance w me by vav now!

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

i say sorry as a reflex now so half the time no im just saying it bc im used to 39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

maybe my mom….. maybe 2 friends idk40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

idk feelings are hard i could have a crush on this rlly cute girl but i could also have a crush in this rlly funny n extra guy. anyways the girl is rlly nice n helps me w singing stuff n just looks good whether shes in a sweatshirt or like a fancy outfit. the guy is rlly funny and extra and super nice n his smile is cute41. When did you last receive a text message?

this morning at 10:38 AM42. What is wrong with you right now?

idk nothing’s rlly wrong rn43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

its my mom i know her pretty well 44. Does anyone disgust you?

……….no45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

depends on who honestly46. Are you in a good mood right now?

kinda neutral leaning towards good47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

my mom 48. What color shirt are you wearing?

black49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

YES THIS FUCKASS SINGING DIRECTOR BC I WANTED TO SING BASS FOR THE MUSICAL BC TENOR IS FUCKING W MY VOICE TOO MUCH AND SO I ASKED HER AND SHE SAID NO BC I WAS A FEMALE N WOULD DO BETTER W TENORS BC THESE BOYS ARE SUFFERING N THEN TALKED ABT WHATS IN MY PANTS SHE ANGERED ME S O M U C H (i have a short haircut now so i look more masculine i guess but i still have a babyface idk so she assumed i was a girl which like i guess i am bc gender is hard but DONT TALK ABT WHATS IN MY PANTS U FUCKING BITCH ASS HOE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA)50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

not yet i dont think51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

………………idk man idk love well enough to recognize it

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

probably myself tbh lmao53. Do you like rain?

i like to watch n listen to it it’s calming 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

if it’s not excessive or alcoholism i think they’ll be fine55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

yes……… i never talk abt feelings lmao56. Do you like to cuddle?

yes57. Are you shy?

very58. Do you get along with girls?

maybe sure59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

no60. What do you carry with you at all times?

my inhaler, some lip balm, glasses cleaner, earbuds, phone charger61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

bitch of course the fuck62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

if im ready for a relationship probably63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

no64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

i like forehead kisses tbh but idk if they would do it65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

YES OUR HIPHOP TEAM PERFORMED AT THIS ELEMENTARY SCHOOL AND THIS LITTLE BLACK BOY CAME UP AFTERWARDS AND TOLD ME WE DANCED WELL WHILE GRINNING I POSTED ABT IT ON MY FINSTA

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

NEVER KISSED

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?  

i dont do my nails tbh so id just like trim them myself but go to a salon every once in a while   68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?    

leopard print69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    

nope70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?    

lil wayne 71. Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?    

i have an android72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    

a long ass time ago i mainly order domino’s now73. Do you like diet soda?   

not really 74. What color are the walls in your room?    

we never painted them75. Are you 16 or older?    

16!!!76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    

i watched a couple of episodes n most of season 677. Do you have a job?    

no i cant juggle work n homework n after school activities it cause me stress just to think abt it i’d fail my classes  78. What are your initials?    

ldw79. Did you ever have braces?    

no. i was supposed to get some bc i have a little spacing between my teeth (its barely noticeable but bc of the way i talk n position my tongue the space will get bigger so idk if im supposed to get braces or just go to a speech therapist80. Are you from the south?    

nah

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    

dont go on facebook much82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    

NEVER KISSED83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

my mom raised me single handedly so…… yeah84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?   

no i wish i could do gymnastics tho 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    

idk its been a while im sorry86. Do you smoke?    

no it’d hurt my lungs even more than they already are87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? 

heels. i dont like flip flops   88. Is your phone touch screen?    

yep!89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?   

i have a mini fro rn so curly i guess 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    

not really 91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    

probably a river, pools are too overcrowded, n i cant go far in lakes92. Have you ever made out in a car?    

NEVER KISSED93. …Had sex in a car?    

NO94. Are you single or in a relationship?    

single95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    

sleeping96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    

idek man probably 4th of july lmao97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    

yeah its fine98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    

nope99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

nope100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?    

not really no

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #43

“i’m gonna pop your bubblegum heart.”

what do you order on your pizza?   jalapenos if it's from domino's, pepperoni everywhere else. what the kind of soda you drink most often?   mountain dew what do you think of girls sixteen and younger going on birth control?   it could be because of her menstrual cycle, in which case there's nothing wrong with that.  but if you're 16 and having sex, i have a problem with that, not that my opinion should mean much to you.  at least you're using protection, i guess. are you borrowing books from anybody at the moment?   well i still have "arthas: rise of the lich king" from jason, but i think it's pretty clear he won't get it back by now. would you ever want another sibling? older or younger? gender?   having a younger brother would be cool, but i don't want one now.  my parents are divorced and my mom's already gone through menopause. grilled cheese or peanut butter & jelly?   pb&j do you take vitamins?   no ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?   yes, even though it was a lie???  like he had a problem with me, it wasn't the other way around. will you get married?   i want to, but i don't see it happening.  if jason couldn't handle my depression, no one can. did you have a new year’s kiss?   lmao no how would you describe someone that is your type of guy/girl?   i've found more than anything, i like geeky people.  people that are passionate.  guys that will show their feelings.  i like imaginative guys, the ones that are creative and fun-loving. are you still friends with any of your exes? do you still communicate with any of them at all?   if you consider aaron and juan exes, they're both my friends on facebook, but i only ever talk to juan. do you live on your own or with your parents/a roommate? do you think you’d like to live alone?   i live with my mom (though rn i'm living with dad, long story), and no, i physically could not live alone.  depression would destroy me. how often do you typically change your bra?   ha, let's be realistic, it depends on if i'm even wearing a bra, because i'm like... always at home in my pj's.  but let's say i actually do get dressed, again, it depends on how long i'm dressed.  once i'm back home and know i'm not doing anything more, i get back into my pajamas.  other times, but rarely, i'm dressed all day.  but let's just say in the typical situation: i'll change my bra every other day or so, also depending on if i sweat or not. what is the last online purchase you made?   cheshire cat flip-flips and a "i'm just a poe boy, nobody loves me; he's just a poe boy, from a poe family" edgar allan poe shirt, both from hottopic.  ashley gave me a $40 gift card for it. is there anyone you have to see on a daily/weekly basis that you really dislike?   thank god, no. is your hair thick or thin? would you say it’s easy to manage?   anyone who touches my hair will tell you, it's thick AS FUCK.  like, to an annoying degree.  brushing it can be a nightmare just because it's so thick, and FORGET about putting it up in a ponytail.  it's mostly easy to manage just because i don't do anything special to it. have you ever had to deal with any type of long distance relationship, whether it be a romantic relationship or a friendship?   many friendships, but nothing romantic.  as someone who's been around the Internet since what, '06, i've made many friends that i'll never actually meet. do you have a place you go to a lot that you may be considered “a regular” at?   no when growing up, did your family always eat at the dinner table together?   nope. what is the greatest source of happiness in your life?   my memories of jason.  i just miss him so much.  that won't change. could you tolerate being in a relationship with someone who treated you wonderfully, but was sometimes rude and unkind to others?   let's be realistic, EVERYONE is sometimes rude and unkind...?   could you tolerate being in a relationship with someone who was lazy?   yeah, so long that trait doesn't dictate his life.  most people are lazy, anyway. did your parents read bedtime stories to you when you were little?   yeah what is something you know very little about?   politics have any of your worst fears ever come true?   oh, you mean jason leaving?   has anyone in your family gotten pregnant as a teenager?   yeah, my mom. to you, is sex just about physical pleasure, or do you see it as an expression of love and commitment?   it can be both do you change your type of music regularly?   no.  i've been a metalhead since 6th grade. ever met somebody who seem like they hated life?   oh, you mean me?  well... i guess i should correct that.  i don't hate life, i just hate my life. do you value your life?   yes and no.  like, if a bullet was coming at me, i'd move out of the way, but as i just mentioned, i also hate how my life is going. ever been called a low-life?   i think so, 'cuz i am one. do most of your friends have a significant other?   most do, yes.  a few are even married. who has made the biggest sacrifice for you?   my mama. do you think you could handle a day in jail?   maybe, seeing as i've been in a mental hospital four times, and it's comparable as far as permissions and schedules go.  it's the people i'm concerned about. do you believe that your first true love can be your only love in life?  i don't... know.  i'm not the person to ask.  i've only ever loved one man and am convinced i won't love another, sooo... what brings out the worst in you?   mentioning jason.  blaming me for what happened. do you know how many people your best friend has had sex with?   not that i've ever asked, but yes.  she tells me everything. are your boobs real?   yes.  implants have too many risks anyways. would you take your ex-significant other back?   in a fucking heartbeat. have you ever had sex on the beach?   no and i wouldn't want to because sand... everywhere...? have any of your friends died of an overdose?   it's possible.  i had an online friend disappear years ago, and i'm STILL worried about her... how many different colleges have you gone to?   two how much stress can you handle?   none what is one thing you thought you’d never do but have done or are doing?   survive without jason do you ever feel like your life is too boring or predictable?   i know damned well it is do you have to take medication for any mental illness?   yes are tongue piercings slutty?   no...? are you embarrassed to buy condoms?   i've never had to, but i don't think i'd be. have you discovered your passion?   yeeeaaars ago... meerkats. (: what’s your favorite cereal?   double chocolate krave do you read reddit? if so, how often and what subreddits do you like?   nah. what’s the weather like today? is it nice enough to go outside?   it's sleeting and snowing.  if it wasn't for the sleet, it'd be gorgeous. have you ever eaten at a restaurant and left without paying?   no how old were you when you first became sexually active?   uh, like 16-17?  still haven't had actual sex tho what's your favorite kind of bread?   pumpernickel have you ever been to a stadium concert?   no.  the alice cooper concert was outdoors. think of the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a bed?   plenty of times. have you done illegal things with your parents nearby?   download music is all. are you taller then 5 foot 7 inches?   nah son. who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?   i texted my mom. why aren’t you with the person you first fell in love with?   he doesn't like me anymore. last time you were told you’re cute?   probably months upon months ago by juan. next time you will eat?   like 30 minutes who will be the next person you kiss?   probably no one. ever. last time you were in trouble?   few days back when i talked back to my mom do you have a fish tank?   no last place you took a plane to?   ohio what is your preferred method of birth control?   abstinence.  hasn't failed me yet. do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong?   not at all.  i always think i'm wrong anyway. have you ever made out in a bathroom?   i don't think so. would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?   i don't currently want a dog, but a miniature poodle i guess. have you ever made out in a park?   nah. is it colder than usual outside today?   yeah.  there's snow out. what do you normally order on your burger?   cheese, mustard, ketchup, pickles... have you ever dipped french fries in a frosty?   yes, and it's gross. what is the biggest flaw in your spouse/crush?   he's obviously not very supportive.  if he was, he'd still be with me. do you prefer writing with mechanical pencils or normal #2 pencils?   mechanical are you planning on dressing up for halloween?   if we have the money, i'd like to. do you ever have days where you just don’t do anything?   oh, every day? who was (or is) the teacher that gave you the hardest time in school?   none of them did.  just be a good student and most teachers are great. how do you feel when you meet someone with the same music taste as you?   I GET SO EXCITED OMG OMG OMG do you ever feel self-conscious when you eat around other people?   not really.  i love food too much lol what is the worst thunderstorm you’ve experienced?   hurricane floyd how often do you take the train to go places?   never are you in love?   should be obvious. are you an affectionate person?   very have you ever had a valentine?   jason was the best. what is you favorite type of lunch meat?   ham are both of you biological parents currently alive?   yeah do you like mustard?   yeah do you wash your hair everyday?   no, that's bad for you. if you were a zoo animal (i.e. lion, tiger, warthog) what would you be?   meerkat any cheesy bands that you love?   lol ludo if you could go nuts and dye your hair any color, what would it be?   gray.  mom won't let me. when was the last time someone saw you naked?   probably mom after i got out of the shower and came into my room? what is the greatest loss you’ve endured?   jason where do you like to be kissed?   lips, neck... and i think brief kisses on the hand from a guy are very romantic. do you know a hoarder?   yup. can you do a split?   nope. is anyone in your family in the army?   nah. did your mother go to college?   she dropped out when she was younger, but she's back in it now. are your grandparents still married?   no, on both sides, a spouse is dead. do you spell the color as grey or gray?   "gray," 'cuz that's the american spelling is your father bald?   nah do you know triplets?   no do you prefer titanic or the notebook?   oh GOD.  the notebook, i guess. how many times have you been to the hospital?  er: seven times, actual hospital admission: three times what religion will you raise your children to practice?   christianity have you ever stayed in a stranger's house before? if yes, why?   no do you believe in the idea of taking from the rich and giving to the poor? why or why not?   no, honestly.  the rich earn their money just as the poor earn their money.  while i understand (BELIEVE ME) it's hard to live being poor, that's no excuse to take from those better off. if you were a god or goddess, what would your powers include?   communing with animals.  maybe be a shape-shifter, that'd be cool as fuck. what are your opinions on gendered products?   explain?  like, do you mean how some toys are "meant" for certain genders, not the other?  if so, then it's ridiculous.  if your child wants to play with a certain toy, let him/her.  for example, i played with dinosaurs in opposition to barbies, and i grew up fine in general. do you believe that animals are capable of “human” emotion?   absofuckinglutely. have you ever changed your views because you were in the wrong?   yeah who do you consider “family?”   my mother, father, two immediate sisters, one half-brother, two half-sisters, my pets, and my best friend colleen.  i guess jason, sometimes. could you sacrifice yourself for someone you barely knew?   no what’s your favorite video game?   "silent hill 2"!!! have you ever experienced discrimination first-hand?   yeah, bc of mental illness. what holiday is closest to your birthday?   valentine's day are you biracial?   nah. are you afraid of shots? like injections?   shots that draw blood, no.  shots that inject medication?  fuck yes, they're agonizing. do you know your blood type?   yeah, it's a. how many times did you have to take the driving test before you passed?   i haven't taken a driving test yet bc i'm fucking lame. what do you think when a band/artist “sells out”?   i think it's rarely even a thing.  like, i'll use metallica as an example.  everyone always says they sold out, when they didn't.  are you suddenly reaching a broader audience?  good for you.  congratulations.  did you change your look?  good for you, tastes change.  now, did you change just for fame?  you're foolish. what do you think of fans and fandoms?  it's absolutely marvelous that people can come together over a common interest.  some are just... oh my GOD, so entitled (i'm looking at you, mythical beasts).  but in general, the idea of fandoms are great. should parents be their child’s friends?   ... duh? what do you think of doctor-assisted suicide?   i'm not sure on this, but i think i disagree with it. in the case of prevention of overpopulation, should some people be prohibited from reproducing?   just flat-out stupid/cruel people, but that'll never happen. you discover that because of a mix-up at the hospital, your wonderful one-year-old child is not yours. would you want to exchange the child to try to correct the mistake?   yes, BUT i'd want to keep up with the child i'd raised that year. do you trust anyone to protect you? who, and why?   my parents, because they're my parents. if you had a death note (like the anime), would you use it?   ... fuck me, yeah, i would. when did you start discovering your own music taste? what was it?   middle school.  heavy metal. describe the ultimate hell.   hearing jason say he didn't love me anymore one more fucking time. are you able to kill animals? under what circumstances do you find killing to be acceptable or unacceptable?   i couldn't, i don't think.  i find killing fine if you're hunting for food, but not for pleasure. would you be willing to have horrible nightmares for a year if you would be rewarded with extraordinary wealth?   yeah. if you could influence people like a celebrity does, how would you use it for the benefit of the planet?   definitely spread Christianity how and when are abortions okay?   only when it's that type of pregnancy where despite growing, the baby is never alive.  shit, what's it called... ummm... entopic pregnancy, that's it!  the cells are only going to keep growing, so they obviously need to come out.  otherwise, i don't care if you're raped or whatever, you have that damn child and give it up for adoption. if you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?   ANYONE can hurt you, even the unexpected. would you save an extremely talented musician who has the influence to promote good values for the world or a pregnant woman in a situation where it is certain you must choose one over the other?   ugh... the pregnant woman, i guess.

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Food friends I have been streeeessssseeedddd out recently, not anything major just an accumulation of various things, things that I want to do even, things that I asked to do every even! But still the pile of things inside the old brainpan was starting to get very high! So I turned to my old friend POTATO, the least stressful foodstuff in the world. POTATO is like the warmth of a fire in a fireplace that is not too hot and you don't have to argue with someone about how many logs to put on it. POTATO can be cooked pretty much anyway and almost unfudgupable. POTATO, the perfect vehicle for salt and also cool for vegetarians. POTATO, the culinary equivalent of a sleeping bag that you can use inside because camping sucks. I'm not proud of just making a potato thing and then eating that potato thing and then going to bed because that is not a healthy choice but sometime you have to sacrifice the health of the body for the health of the mind, SO I DID. I made Scalloped Potatoes with Meat Stock and Cheese or as the french put it Gratin Savoyard! Once again the shopping for this was simple, it is a dish that's pretty much just potatoes, swiss cheese, and beef stock. There are many Scalloped Potatoes variations in Mastering the Art of French Cooking by Julia Child but I chose this one because we already had beef stock in the house and I wanted to use it rather than throw it away two months from now. So I checked that one off the list toot sweet. I had to go to the grocery store that renovated to make it look fancier in our gentrifying neighborhood but is pretty much exactly the same grocery store because the grocery store that is a block from our house has nightmare cheese. I also got a head of garlic and some butter and the requisite two pounds of heaven's food, potatoes (the book called for "boiling potatoes" which, yes, I did google image search. There was not a definitive potato image that persuaded me but it was made plain that small, red, or purple potatoes were out) . I stuffed it all in my backpack and left the unnecessarily spruced up supermarket and made my way home. When you're stressed you don't want anything with too many moving parts so this recipe that is pretty much cut things up and then bake them till they are cooked to hell was perfect. I sliced my 2 pounds of potatoes with an attempt at making the slices 1/8 inch thick but I didn't get out a tape measure or anything and I'm for sure not willing to spend like $400 on a "knife skills" class (if you spend $400 on a knife skills class and you are not a professional kitchen worker you should be forced to tell people, though I'm sure you already have). I dropped my somewhat uniform potato slices into a bowl full of cold water and let that sit for a bit. In the meantime I rubbed my baking dish with half a clove of garlic which frankly was a reallllllll bulshit amouth of garlic, what am I supposed to do with the other half of a ding dang clove of garlic? It may have been the stress but this made me VERY angry. Then I rubbed that same baking dish with 1 tablespoon of butter and it was alternatingly gross and satisfying as it always is. Then I dried my potato discs to a somewhat limited degree, that is to say not enough. If you want to have a potato dish that is hot and kind of mushy on the bottom but then crispy on top, which is what you want in this dish, you need some very dried out potatoes and I failed, I FAILED! After that I just stacked half the potatoes with half of the 1 cup of swiss cheese I grated, half of a teaspoon of salt, 1/8 a teaspoon of pepper (the recipe calls for 1/8 total of pepper but I'm not going to measure out 1/16 tablespoon of pepper), and 2 1/2 of butter cut up into bits. Then I put the rest of the not dry enough potatoes and then rest of that other stuff on top. I boiled a cup of that not going to be thrown away this time beef stock and poured that in there. Then I brought that whole mess to a nice simmer and threw it all into an oven heated to 425 degress. I was supposed to cook these wonderful chill the fudge out potatoes for "20 to 30 minutes or until the potatoes are tender, the beef stock has been absorbed, and the top is nicely browned". This is where my immense potato drying failure came home to roost because the top was never nicely browned. I cooked them for 30 minutes and then for another ten minutes AND THEN FOR ANOTHER TEN MINUTES AND THE TOP WAS NEVER NICELY BROWNED! This was a bit of a bummer and did not help my stress. You know what did though? EATING THESE POTATOES! They were good and mushy and salty and cheesy and sure the top wasn't nicely browned or the level of crispness that I pictured in my head but sometimes life gives you potatoes that you don't dry thoroughly and then they come out less crispy than desired! Still, I was able to forget about my stresses (also, hey everybody, I'm not as stressed now, so like don't call the stress police to come visit my house) and float away on a cloud of eating only potatoes and cheese for dinner! However I did not feel great the next day! So don't actually do this unless you are cool with having your next day stomach feel kind of not great. But I will say that you should make this and serve with other things to other people as well as yourself! So do it my ipals! Make Scalloped Potatoes with Meat Stock and Cheese aka Gratin Savoyard! Just do it as a side dish with some like vegetables at least! See you next week! #tdandjulia #scalllopedpotatoeswithmeatstockandcheese #gratinsavoyard #iknowhowitfeelstobestressedoutstressedout #comfortfood #potatofoodofheaven #campingsucks #IFAILED #stresspolice #eatitwithotherthings