#grief journey

[his-kiss-the-riot-starts]

Web weave on breaking up.

[nieidic]

Friday, some more half-hearted revision for Diagnostics... honestly, I usually enjoy studying for any subject related to Psychology, but it's just hard for me to concentrate on uni work right now. I got this dot grid ring binder and the pastel markers at a lovely tiny stationary shop in the town centre where my parents live and they helped a little.

I try to remind myself that even if I only manage to revise a litte each day, it still will benefit me and my degree. That sometimes, this is the only thing we can do. Small steps every day.

[bl00dfroma-fairy]

[samxcamargo]

Book: The Pain of Healing by Samantha Camargo on amazon 💛

[theaddictspoetry]

Grief is weird I think of you every day, Some days I smile. some days I cry. some days I just drown, drown in the could have beens, should have beens, the unknown. the unknown- is what truly kills us. this wasn't supposed to be this way, i'll spend forever trying to find out why you're not here anymore.

@theaddictspoetry

[egosdelirium]

On Losing James Potter

And on feeling his absence like an amputated limb - By Sirius Black.

("Stag", by Edwin Henry Landseer)

Nowadays, one single thought of James is a death sentence. Every stray memory of the way his glasses used to sit a little crookedly on his tanned face, every deconstructed image of his toothy smile feels like what Sirius thinks being shot through the head must be like.

At the slightest mention of his name, Sirius' brain starts to stutter, stumble, trip.

It shakes around his cranium aimlessly, trying to regain a semblance of balance after taking the hit. The sound echoes in his eardrums with a murderous roar and it defeans anything around him.

Once, a fleeting thought of James would've brought Sirius comfort on the darkest of nights.

Now, it's mutilation.

Since Sirius watched James die,

(No, he was already DEAD, you were late!)

his eyes have not registered any other image. In fact, neither Lily's corpse nor Harry's desperate crying frown come back to haunt him during day and night alike, because Sirius simply didn't see them.

It's just James

On the wooden pavement

With his brown eyes wide open,

And a pool of drying blood around him that sticks underneath Black boots,

And a hole underneath his sternum that was once leaking but not anymore,

And no glasses on his face.

There are no glasses on his face, no glasses... where are the glasses?

... And a pair of round spectacles with a shattered lense a couple of feet away from him.

Sirius had picked them up with shaking fingers and gently placed them on his unusally pale face.

For the first time, those damned glasses had seemed to sit straight on James' nose, maybe because of how his head leaned limply to the side.

Sirius had then kneeled in front of him, in death just like he would've in life, and gently placed James' head on his own lap.

He'd caressed his cold skin once, twice, before the tears had come to blur his sight.

Sirius had sobbed, retched, gasped for breath, and choked on it when he couldn’t get any air inside his lungs. Screamed into the blood-soaked pavement.

Sirius had dried the teardrops that had fallen on James' face - most beloved face - with the backs of his hands, as the palms were too dirty and bloodied.

He'd tried to fix the glasses again, then tucked a couple of stray locks of hair behind his ears.

Sirius had placed a trembling kiss on James' forehead, and that had been it.

Afterward, he hasn't been able to see anything at all.

[realm-of-tas]

Trivarna Hariharan, Can Grief be a Good Teacher?

[poeteunoia]

"grief is just love with no place to go"

(jamie anderson)

"i this hope grief stays with me because it's all the unexpressed love that i never got to tell her..."

(andrew garfield)

Credits: Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie: Notes on Grief / C.S Lewis: A Grief Observed / Shannon Barry quote via @academia-aesthetics / Fleabag 2016 / Jamie Anderson quote / One Day 2024 / Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, Half of a Yellow Sun / Little Women 2019 / Amanda Gorman, Call Us What We Carry / WandaVision 2021 / Andrew Garfield quote / Ocean Vuong quote, source / Up 2009 / Lang Leav: September Love via @academia-aesthetics / "the grief is never ending but so is the love" monkey meme / commemorative bench plaque in Central Park, New York, photo:© Neva Micheva / Valarie Kaur, See No Stranger: A Memoir and Manifesto of Revolutionary Love / Glennon Doyle Leyton: Love warrior / Hotel Del Luna 2019 / Heidi Priebe: As Long As There Is Love, There Will Be Grief

[starlet-sky]

[es-al]

Saw this on Pinterest and wanted to share it here bcos it’s amazing. Perhaps I will cry today.

[thewildfreckledgirl]

I’d like to think since losing you when my grief hits the hardest the sky always erupts into the most beautiful colors. I always hope to find a sign or hint of you near. But when I look up at moments like these I swear I feel you reminding me everything is okay. It could be my silly brain making it all up. Or my eyes showing my heart what it wants. I’ll always keep searching for you even through the littlest things.

[his-kiss-the-riot-starts]

web weave of processing heartbreak

[moonlight-s0nata]

//Used Canva for the first time and I think I like it :) 🍊 //

[bl00dfroma-fairy]

[samxcamargo]

Book: The Pain of Healing by Samantha Camargo on amazon 💛

[maddy-faggfisc]

How could you treat someone like that?

...yeah