#SIT DOWN AND HEAR ME OUT
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It was dark down there, man. There’s no way you could have known. No, man. I messed up. Don’t do that. I didn’t have a visual. Steve, listen to me: It was an accident. The guy was trained, he should have identified himself as a cop — Lou. I didn’t have a visual.
#Hawaii Five-0#h50edit#Steve McGarrett#Mine#mygifs#SIT DOWN AND HEAR ME OUT#I was SO excited about this storyline and I can't let it go#I'm kinda furious that they just 'oh nevermind'ed it in the same episode man#Imagine just imagine how incredible this could have been if it had been legit#Steve killed a police officer#The weight of that guilt is almost unbearable#He starts to distance himself from his friends because they desperately want to help justify it#but Steve won't hear of it#The blame is his and his alone as far as he can see it#A police officer is dead and it was Steve's bullet#A police officer's family and friends are mourning his loss and it was Steve's fault#not a terrorist or a robber or a murderer but Steve's#He can't sleep without seeing that cop's face so he barely sleeps#When Steve works a case he can't focus#He can't bear to be around HPD because he knows what they're thinking#He becomes trigger shy and unwilling to pull the trigger until he has a full visual#This puts his life in danger more than once and endangers his team#Once he spots a suspect before anyone else but freezes#The suspect shoots Junior#It's not fatal by any means but this just adds to Steve's guilt#He stops coming to work#He no longer trusts himself and refuses to put any more lives at risk because of his failings#*slams my fists on the desk* I WANTED TO SEE THIS#Ugh I'm mad there was so bloody much potential and I ache for it#8x07
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the thing is. juno & nureyev's relationship has been such a major guiding thread throughout the podcast and the major drive of season 5, and the fandom has built itself so much (as fandoms often do) around shipping the two of them.
and yet nureyev doesn't show up at all in the last episode! or, he does, but it's only implied (for all we know it could be like. alessandra strong)(i know it's not but it would be really funny) and we don't hear his voice.
and it's so important to me that despite the room that their romance has taken in the plot and in our hearts, his absence reinforces that the point of juno steel's story wasn't a lady getting his man, it was about learning to grow as person for himself and for his friends (and not just his love interest), and it was about finding his footing in life and being at peace with himself and his place in the world. and he did! his growth and relative serenity is so apparent and just. a balm to the soul
and the fact that his man is back is just a nice add-on, not a necessity for his happiness
#juno steel#my aro ass has been sitting still and staring at a wall thinking about this ever since listening to this episode#mannnn i'm just. so completely floored about how good this finale was#juno's been all over the place and his growth has been up and down throughout but like.#it's so nice to hear just how. serene he was this episode#he's doing alright guysss#juno steel is fine#he's accepting affection and expressing it back#i Will be reading massive amounts of fanfiction about juno and nureyev'#s reunion when it comes out but i am super happy it wasn't a part of the episode#i was a bit bummed out for sure cos like. hearing his voice is always a good time#but there's a different between what i kinda want to hear and what i actually want out of the episode#and i got allll i wanted outta this one#also i'm super into urban planning (starting a masters in urban governance in september hihi) so the new town description had me 😈 meow#🤌🤌#juno steel spoilers#tpp#tpp spoilers#the penumbra podcast#i am soo excited to find out which mildly unpleasant to outwardly despicable characters the writers will make us love next as they grow#mannnn now im thinking about caroline again#back to staring at a wall bye
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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I FORGOT TO THROW OUT AFTER THE EPISODE RELEASED NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
#hand jumper#webtoon#sayeon lee#heron#ig??? BRUH..................#these fireworks are going to SET ME ON FIRE!!!!#but that's alr i guess!!!!!!!!!#because charcoal grilled prawn literally solves all my problems#before thinking about killing people i need everyone to sit down and think of their favourite food#and manifest the version of them that has it!!!!!!!!#maybe then all compulsions and intrusions of the mind can just go away#what if we all just pictured better versions of ourselves and just did it!!!#if we all stretched out our hands and tried we can at least live in the world knowing we did try!!#and it's better than not trying!!!!! AND BEING USELESS PIECES OF ROTTING GARBAGE!!!!!!#idk i've had a shit three years man i don't think i can take this any longer#IGNORE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#AND INSTEAD NOW LET'S THINK OF THE GOODIES YOU'RE GONNA GET IN TWO WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#or now if you offer up your wallet to OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR sleepacross#and for the SMALL price of 5USD that's right 5USD!!!! this is to the people with credit/debit cards ofc#YOU CAN ACCESS THE GOATACROSS QNA BECAUSE IT IS PEAK!!!!!!#but just because the juninators[on here in case they aren't in the server] need to hear this so we can all sing happy birthday to her#INSTEAD OF MISSING IT FOR TWO YEARS#AND HAVING A WHOLE WINTER/CHRISTMAS COMPETITION IN DISCORD WITH MEMES AND ALL WITHOUT THIS CRUCIAL INFORMATION!!!!!!!#I THINK BECAUSE I KEEP THESE IN TAGS IT'S SAFE TO SAY THAT HER BIRTHDAY IS DEC 24TH AND WE SHOULD ALL SAY HAPPY LATE/HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY#TO OUR BELOVED QUEEN JUNI CHANG#BECAUSE NOW I JUST SHAFTED A 40K WIP I NEVER FINISHED FOR LAST YEAR'S WINTER SEASON FOR THE CHRISTMAS EPISODE OF 2024 IN THE RECYCLE BIN!!#BUT NOW WE CAN GIVE HER QUINTICE THE AMOUNT OF GIFTS THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! SO LET'S DO THAT INSTEAD!!!!#ONE FOR HER BIRTHDAY!!!! ONE FOR CHRISLER!!! ONE FOR CIVIL SERVICE APPRECIATION DAY!!!!!#ANOTHER FOR BEING PEAK MENTOR!!!!! AND ANOTHER ONE FOR BEING GOD'S SILLIEST SOLDIER!!!![in our hearts!!]#APOLOGIES AS ALWAYS IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR HERE!!!! AND A GOOD EVENING TO YOU ALL!!!!
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'now you. you're different. you fight like something's trying to get out of you.' read for filth?????????? possibly read for filth by the mark?????????? Eliot?????????
#tv: leverage#leverage#leverage s2#the tap out job#the tap-out job#local gay watches Leverage (or their first American series in f*cking years and gets a shiny new OT3 to show for it).txt#i tapped out (pun not intended) after that sorry i had to get up and walk around quietly in the dark so no one hears me and sit back#down with my sh*tty backup computer since now my tablet keeps going in and out of maintanence and hey. who gave him the right#to say that. who told him that was even remotely ok to consider i'm not normal about this
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Like as a self-proclaimed fan of romance in video games (including dating sims my beloved), it really feels odd when I hear people say a game isn't worth it because it lacks romantic options. The first Pillars of Eternity game doesn't feel empty when it doesn't allow the Watcher to smooch someone, bc that's not the focus of the game and the depth of the character writing and world building are so rich even with the absence of romance. As a Kaidanmancer ME2 is my favorite Mass Effect even without romancing anyone because the characters are wonderful regardless and the atmosphere is immaculate. Is Fire Emblem Echoes a lesser FE game bc I can't choose who Alm loves? Or are they trying to tell a story of two bound souls connected across a continent?
In my mind when it comes to RPGs, romance options are and always have been a luxury. Role Playing Games have a story to tell, first and foremost, and sometimes romance doesn't always fit with that story. Again, I love romance options in RPGs, but the absence of them shouldn't devalue a game. And trying to force games that aren't focusing on romance to do so, while there are many many dating sim-type games out there explicitly CENTERED on exploring romantic options, is a losing battle with a lesser end.
#idk it's late and i'm pretty sure this is a non-issue#but sometimes it's frustrating to hear people dismiss games like Avowed bc they have no romance before they've even played them#and like with some people i just want to sit them down and be like. You're looking for a Harvest Moon game#the games that have what you want exist and are out there#and it'd be way more productive to just play those than try to bludgeon every game you play into being them#anyway if ur someone who feels like they're missing some lovey-dovey games#i got some great recs! ask me sometime!#anyway idk what this is#marie speaks
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how did u learn to paint?? like i just cant wrap my head around it
<3 I love answering asks like this!
You will have to bare with me, I don't save many of my studies, and my files aren't that organized so I don't have as many images as I would like.
The studies I've found most helpful for myself personally with painting are various master studies. (This is also, as always, alongside study of fundamentals.) And always follow a study with self-critique (and, if you can get it, outside critique!)
"Master" in this sense means anyone who you want to learn something from.
One way you can do this is by copying an artist's work directly. This is to try and understand some of their stylistic techniques. Leyendecker, Andrew Loomis, and John Singer Sargent are personal favorites of mine! I try to keep these quick, I'm not trying to get an exact copy.
I also get a lot out of copying photos. In this case, I'm not trying to glean some technique, rather, I'm trying to interpret the photo and explore my own stylizations.
(photo credit mountain men of alaska )
I also really enjoy taking a painting or piece that already exists, and making it "mine" by putting my characters in it haha, which is sort of a combination of master studies and photo studies!
(William Bruce Ellis - Covent Garden (1930)) (Barberini Faun)
And then, in my work that's not a study at all, I'm informed by all of these!
What master studies do is help me refine my style and practice my technique, but also I'm communicating with artists of the past through my art! They're teaching me! And I have so much to learn.
And of course... most importantly... I paint.
a lot.
I don't do as much study anymore, not because I feel I've learned all I need to, but because for work I draw 50+ drawings a week. 'Drawing for work' and 'study' occupy the same space in my brain and I need some fun drawing time!
So to sum up, draw a lot, reference constantly, and copy the people you want to draw more like!
(and, of course, when doing a study off of someone else's work, always give them credit. If it's your photos there's no need.)
#I really tried to pare this one down cause it got LONG#as always I am more than happy to delve deeper into any of these particular points!#I'm always always always happy to explain as much of my process as possible#and I'd love to pass off some of my knowledge to others!#I love to see people creating art and want to do anything I can to help empower people to do so more#I love you mwa mwa mwa#asks#edsheerankinnie#art tips#painting tips#I pretty much wear my influences on my sleeve#like I don't care#I honestly get so so so excited about art I'm like shaking a little#like oh my god#we get to MAKE Things#we get to sit down and through the power of our own hands we get to CREATE#and I get to access the knowledge of humanity. throughout history#I get to reach my hand out and have people who are long gone pass their knowledge on to me.#like come on. that's unreal...#at some point you will unlock this feeling if you let yourself#the feeling of connection over centuries#when you hear michelangelo was so shocked by the lifelike nature of his own sculpture he threw his chisel at it to see if it would move#when you see rockwell's love for simple moments between normal people#when you see cave paintings of a woman and you know she was loved.#you get to fucking connect#and feel human#and it's really special#and it's why I think everyone should draw. everyone should draw a LITTLE#music too#augh I'm emotional
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Okay hear me out-
(Just a note i dont know how common this "hc" is cus I haven't roperly interacted with a fandom since I was like 13 I have no idea wtf you guys are doin up in there)
(And no, writing fanfiction on ao3 and occassionally talking to commenters doesn't technucally count.)
#hear me out#red son x mk#kai is a spicynoodles love child#Consider#I will make a venn diagram later#point is#propaganda#Im spreading propaganda#my art#traditional art#family tree#I'll make a better version later#yeah idk#Im a fandom hermit#Meaning I sit on top of the mountain and occassional send shut down but haven't talked to other fandom goers#Like wyf ya'll doin?#lego monkie kid#lego ninjago#lavashipping#kai x cole
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ON THE SUBJECT OF A MARCH 1ST UPDATE LIVESTREAM.
so due to newly-employed circumstances, i most likely won't be able to stream my exploration of the update until the Sunday after it drops - March 3rd, likely around 10 am pst.
im not gonna ask anyone to wait because that's unreasonable and absurd, However! I am curious:
#im asking instead of cancelling it outright#because i know how fun it can be to see someone explore/discover/watch something youve already enjoyed#plus. if i may so bold as to say!#who knows! maybe some of you actually Want to hear me speculate and go bonkers On Mic <3#absolutely unprompted#marked for deletion#welcome home#Why Am I Waiting Until The Third?#it will most likely be my first day off!#i dont wanna explore the update when im exhausted after a 9 hour shift lmfao#and i don't want to explore it in the morning before work when im on a crunch#i want Time! i want Energy! im gonna need all the brainpower i can cobble together!#oh man the upcoming full day of Active Avoidance#i might actually turn off my phone lmfao#bc muscle memory is gonna take me to tumblr & That has burned me so many times...#im not gonna use tumblr im not gonna use discord#im gonna queue up youtube videos so that i dont risk seeing anything on the homepage#babey im Hunkering Down!#i will simply spend my free time after work with myself. crochet. doodle. sit and stare at a wall#sob viciously bc im missing out#its interesting. so much of my life has been Being Late To The Proverbial Party & Missing Out On Experiences.#and by interesting i mean it makes me violent. sigh. but we deal! what else is there to do!
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there must be more than blood by car seat headrest is a touya song btw. nervous like a wild dog waiting for the attack. you go back to the old house but you've been locked out and it wasn't for love that you went back home. they had all of your life to get it right they had all of that time just to change their minds. how could they treat you like a forgotten card? dear dad, I'm sorry thank you very much. what difference does it make when they throw you away?
this is like 9/11 to me
#GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FUCKING INBOX. THIS SONG????? i know i reblogged the art but THIS SONG AIAIA. REALLY#you cant say the words car seat headrest around me. and then touya as well why would you actually even start#I SAW YOU ON THE MAGAZINE COVER WITH YOUR BLUE WIDE EYES READ IT FROM COVER TO COVER LOOKING FOR YOU BUT THESE ARE NOT MY PEOPLE HERE#I THINK YOU KNOW THAT NERVOUS LIKE A WILD DOG WAITING FOR THE ATTACK#I WAS LIVING IN THE DELTA WASTING MOST OF MY TIME YOU KNOW IF I COULD CLOSE THE BLINDS RIGHT I COULD SLEEP ALL THROUGH THE NIGHT#BUT IVE SEEN THE TIDES RISING WHERE ONCE THERE WAS A SHORE#I CAN STILL REMEMBER HOUSES STRIPPED TO THE FLOOR THERE MUST BE MORE THAN BLOOD THAT HOLDS US TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THERE MUST BE MORE THAN WIND THAT TAKES US AWAY THERE MUST BE MORE THAN TEARS WHEN THEY PULL BACK THE CURTAIN#OF THIS MUCH I AM CERTAIN!!!!!!!!!! WHEN YOU'RE DOWN FOR A WHILE TRYING TO GET DRIED OUT YOU FEEL TIME PASS BY BUT YOU DONT LOOK AROUND#YOU WERE PLAYING YOUR MUSIC BUT YOU GOT DROWNED OUT YOU GO BACK TO THE OLD HOUSE BUT YOUVE BEEN LOCKED OUT!!!#AND IT WASNT FOR LOVE THAT YOU WENT BACK HOME!!!! IT WAS THE GUILT IN YOUR THROAT LIKE YOU SWALLOWED A BONE!!!#THEY HAD ALL OF YOUR LIFE TO GET IT RIGHT!!! THEY HAD ALL OF THAT TIME JUST TO CHANGE THEIR MINDS!!!#AND YOURE GRATEFUL FOR THE BUS ITS A PLACE TO SIT DOWN LIKE A SPIDER IN THE WINTER TRYING NOT TO BE FOUND#NO USE TRYING TO HEAL WHEN YOURE GETTING STEPPED ON NO USE SELLING YOUR SOUL WHEN YOURE GETTING PASSED ON#HOW COULD THEY TREAT YOU LIKE A FORGOTTEN CARD?? DEAR DAD IM SORRY! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!#WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE WHEN THEY THROW YOU AWAY IS ANYBODY EVER GONNA HEAR WHAT YOU HAD TO SAY I WAS FLYING ON A REDEYE#MY HAND DROPPED TO THE AISLE I COULD SEE MYSELF CLEARLY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A WHILE THERE WAS NOTHING BUT LINES#NOTHING BUT OUTLINES MY GUT SANK LIKE A STONE BUT I HEARD ANOTHER VOICE SAY WE ALL WALK ALONE! THERE MUST BE MORE THAN BLOOD!!!!!#ask#touya todoroki
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PARALLELS? IN MY PODCAST? IT'S MORE LIKELY THAN YOU THINK!
Part 13 vs. Part 26 analysis.
In Part 13 and Part 26, both Arthur and John sustain an injury which they procure in their attempt to seek penance. John is trying to accept and move on from all the pain he caused as the King in Yellow. This moment serves the character as the starting point to form his own identity. On the other hand Arthur is trying to deal with the grief and self-loathing that came with the reminder of his daughter's death. This moment is essential, as it showed Arthur being given space to let go of his anger (and his suicidal tendencies) and have someone understand the source of his deep-rooted pain and self-loathing:
Both John and Arthur get injured and they need to cauterise the wound. When it came to John's finger, Arthur was ready to gently provide comfort (it drives me insane how, both in mannerism and tone, Arthur sounded like a parent consoling/ reassuring his child who is crying about their scraped knee). On the other hand, this warmth and comfort was completely absent when it came to removing the splinters from Arthur's shoulder:
In either case, John’s hand still has dark wood embedded in it, while only some splinters are removed from Arthur’s shoulder. The wound is not completely healed and will definitely leave a scar or visual reminder of the experience both characters had to endure:
And of course, finally, there is a reference of a specific literature piece to accompany both experiences:
I’m unfortunately not a person who knows much about literature or poetry, so I can only give a very bare and surface level opinion on both pieces… however, here's what I have so far:
John’s experience is accompanied with a fable, something that is usually told to children to teach them something about the world or about themselves (or about how to properly behave). On the other hand, Arthur’s literature piece is a poem, which is something that requires a lot of knowledge to dissect and understand fully;
Aesop's fable suggests the handle of the axe is familiar with and knows the woods intimately, because it was carved out of a tree that was once part of the woods. Frost's poem also alludes to the traveller being familiar with the woods... but more in a metaphorical sense, as the poem is about persisting through hardship by keep on moving and not losing hope. The woods are dark and deep and the traveller travels frequently through them, but his house is outside of the forest and he must return to it.
The woodcutter does not own the woods, but he still decides to cut the trees, almost carelessly and heartlessly, as if the forest is his property and he decides how to use the wood he gathers. On the other hand, the traveller is merely passing through the snow-covered forest but still refers to the woods as "his", possessively, almost as if he own them.
The woodcutter is going through the forest by destroying it tree by tree, while the traveller of the poem is going through the forest slowly, he lingers and takes moments to look and admire the snow-covered trees. It's interesting how the behaviour of the characters presented by these pieces of literature contrast quite starkly how John and Arthur are behaving in their respective situations.
#I need to stop obsessing over this podcast! it's dangerous for me! there are parallels and themes in there!!! all very compelling too!!!#malevolent#malevolent part 13#malevolent part 26#i am not well versed in poetry and literature... i just like to recognise patterns and themes#i am sure there are way smarter and cooler people than me out there who can add a much more interesting and in-depth analysis on this#and i'd be more than happy to hear their opinion btw!!! i am sitting down and shutting upppp!!! i am willing to listennnn!!!#i always love to learn things that are outside my interests and area of study!
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the way literally every fucking person has been REPULSIVE about euthanasia lately.
#they just crawl out of the woodwork#'oh spiralingbackto is grieving? time to get all the way on my bullshit and make her life literally horrible'#i cant count on one hand the maount of people who have sneered and said gross when i said im putting my mouse down.#i cant count how many people told me to just give them rat poison; to drown them; or to give them antifreeze.#'im not trying to be rude but why not just give them rat poison' ok well youre being extremely fucking rude. shut your goddamn mouth.#'im not trying to be rude but have you considered giving your infant with pneumonia bleach? yknow.. just end it?' that's what you sound lik#i cant count how many people have laughed.#even at the fucking vets office i could hear through the door a bunch of vet techs go up and say 'oh ew! even looking at it is grossing me#out! oh my god is that a mouse! gross!'#and my personal favorite i heard while i was sitting there crying over my mouse dying was 'im so sick of this seriously this is my third#today. im so about to just say screw it and not taking anyone else in today. had two#euths before lunch and now this? im so over it'#while literally laughing.#which was incredible to know that was the people surrounding my mouse as she died.#those are the people she was with in her last minutes.#and then they handed her to me wrapped in a fucking puppy pad.#(im already looking into different exotic vets to go to next time bc im not going back there)#but it isnt even just about my mice because when i put my cat down suddenly#one of my roommates was saying such dsgusting things.#i dont even remmeber what exactly because it was too distressing#most ive gotten is a 'ohhh how sad' this entire time !! :)#or people telling me about how they put their animals down and how im being a burden by causing them to remember it#:)#it would be nice to have even a single person in my real life who gives half a shit about me
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good morning from my room in my rents' house where i relocated to after 11pm with the help of my sister because i absolutely flipped my shit when i heard something scurrying across the floor of my room last night.
#around 10pm i freaked out because something tried to get under the bathroom door and then disappeared when i yelled in suprise#it looked like a big beetle or roach but i didn't see it long enough to know either way#spent an hour stressed af sitting on my bed because the floor was lava#i think partly because i was nervous about being jumpscared by whatever this was#eventually managed to sort out the lights and the bathroom and decided to go to sleep#and i think i could have dealt with the knowledge that this thing was somewhere in the apartment if i couldn't HEAR IT#suddenly#loudly#in the room#immediately panicked#could not have prevented that reaction in myself#definitely couldn't bring myself down#jammed my fingers in my ears so i couldn't hear it anymore and had to wait for my sister to come and get me#except of course i couldn't get up to open the door so she had to get the spare from my aunt#i'm certain my yelling/screaming scared whatever it was because it wasn't in the room by the time anyone got there#it was not dignified in any way and today i'm going to have to go back to my place#and try to work out how it got in#and try to block every fucking space there is between skirting and floor board#which is basically the entire flat#bugs can exist and i will not be happy about it but i can accept it#but they CANNOT be loud enough that you can HEAR THEM SCURRY#idk what it was!#i thought it was a big roach#i have never seen one in the houses here before#deeply deeply unhappy
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watching cdramas with french subtitles is the best idea i ever had. if the show is in a language i don't speak i'm already going to have to be closely reading the subtitles, so why not also use it as language practice? the subs go by so fast i don't have time to translate them internally into english, i just have to absorb the meaning without doing that (which is how it's supposed to work but i've never been fully able to do that before). AND the best part is that when i'm going about my day i'm finding that some of my internal monologue is just in french now?? i think it's because subs are almost entirely dialogue...i'm getting hours of dialogue practice without actually having to converse. it's also fun with cdramas specifically because i have by now picked up some chinese vocabulary from watching tv and i get to see how that vocabulary is translated into french. idk man i'm just having a great time.
#i used to watch stuff in english with french subtitles but it's just not the same#maybe it would be more interesting now that i'm better at french but idk it didn't really do much for me#because i'd mostly be understanding via the english i was hearing and didn't have to rely on the french for much#but with chinese there are only like. 20 sentences you could say that i wouldn't need a translation for#anything other than that and i have to rely on the subtitles#so i have to comprehend the french or i won't know what's happening at all#the other great thing about this method of improving comprehension is you can rewind!!!#you can pause. you can repeat it if necessary. you can theoretically do that in real conversations but watch out#so like. when i'm just reading a novel i can read at any old pace. and in fact since i always read aloud i can only read at#the speed at which i can speak french. which is faster than it used to be but still not as fast as i can read silently#but reading subs forces you to read pretty fast. which is good practice. and then whenever you miss something you still have#the option to back up#my posts#french#subtitles#i always have subtitles on even when it's english subs for oral english#but in that case the subs are an aid and i'm mostly comprehending by listening#auditory processing is easier with hints lol#so it's usually possible for me to say chop vegetables or something while watching english-language media#because i'll just look up when i need help understanding something. but i'm not reading all the subs#not the case for a show in any other language. if i'm going to watch a show in chinese i have to sit down and concentrate#if i'm already concentrating and reading all the subs might as well make some progress
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Before I had Sunny, I had a rabbit... His official name was Eddy, but he went through many names in my friend group
The names were: Kirishima, Springtrap and lastly Springkiri
Some pictures of him and a funny pic of Sunny
(A sad thing from here on)
So Eddy sadly passed away on 16th May 2022 while I held him. I bawled my eyes out when I realized he passed and literally couldn't go to school the next day because I was grieving so much. He was my childhood pet. He was 12 years old! Also he decided to pass before my birthday (21st May). I miss him very much
Now let me tell you, in February, the year (2022), he decided to jump from my arm because he was not happy about him getting his nails trimmed and fell on his side! He broke his fucking leg and was too old for operation because he wouldn't handle the amnesia. His leg was fully healed in April. You know he ran around, had fun with his toy, and played as if he was young again... Just to pass in May.
Now, to cheer you up, Sunny has the SAME sleeping spots as Eddy did. She also has similar running habits and such things as Eddy did. Now I think here Eddy's ghost was like 'Let me teach you cat' when she arrived at home and I like that!
Sorry for the kind of sad ask :(
AWWW eddy has such a lovely pelt pattern 🥺 and no worries about this being a Sad Ask: it'd be even more sad if you werent willing to share memories of him- he was still a little darling in your life, so i'm happy to hear bout both the good and bad bout him! so sorry to hear he passed right before your birthday tho.. 😭 at the very least, im sure he passed knowing how loved he was- and still is :]
ANND that's so cute sunny sleeps in his old spot now 🥺
#snap chats#we can celebrate eddy even if he's gone that's what love is about !!!#if it's anything i lost my childhood dog- zakk- about two years ago in february#he was only really close with my mom so he waited for her to come home before going up to her room#didnt take long for us to hear her scream and find him dying in her arms#whats darkly funny is that he's never really liked me and bit me a lot#we were hanging out on the couch when he signaled he was trying to get down and yk. Hes Old so i went to pick him up#but the jackass BIT ME and now i got a scar on my hand#funny enough i was trying to get close to him and my mom while he was passing and he tried to bite me AGAIN He Did Not Like Me#maybe he was just trying to make sure he was with my mom til the end tho idk ... all i know is that i love telling the story bout my scar#its a small one but so was he so. fittin innit#in any case ! dont worry bout feelin bad or melancholy sharin the memory of your lovely: its important to keep them alive that way#even if theyre sad and the sort#to end this tag ramble on a lighter note. sunny sit PROPER young lady im CRYING why she sit like that ... i love when cats cant sit normal.
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In my solo survival world in Minecraft, I have three roommates. Two zombie piglins, Fred and Bob, and a swamp villager named Craig. Craig has a pet chicken who I've named "Craig's Cock."
Oh yeah and Bob's boyfriend, an enderman named steve. But he hates me so I don't count him as my roommate. I don't like him.
#steve just appeared one day in the boat that bob sits in hence why he's his boyfriend#craig doesn't like me because i accidentally threw an egg at him and i had to get him out of fred and bobs room w/out getting hit by steve#it was an adventure#also Craig's room has an iron door bc i dont want him just walking willy nilly around my house#he's probably less of a roommate and more a guy renting a room in my basement#this feels like the beginnings of some weird oc scenario but it's legit just mobs in my fuckin survival world 😭#anyway steve always screams at me when i pass by their door and seeing as their room is near the basement entrance i hear it a lot#not my fault my storage is all near there#steve has a perfect view of my bee sanctuary he should calm the fuck down#minecraft#mineblr
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