#Ready for it to hurt. But it didn't

[mactiir]

The very funny thing about having finally recovered from depression after being depressed for literally decades is. Even though I'm no longer depressed. My kneejerk initial reaction when I get overwhelmed is like "fuck it time to die" and then, because I have spent a lot of time and intention and money on therapy, my IMMEDIATE next thought is "no you won't babe, eat some broccoli. Go for a run. Go see ur friends" and the moment I've done any combination of those things I'm like singing showtunes about how good life is. Like ok brain i understand you spent the last fifteen years in a critical state but maybe we can do the broccoli first next time. Vegetables before defaulting to Habitual Symptoms please.

[letsplaythermalnuclearwar]

hey you know what would be like. the WORST possible thing? if no time had passed for mortals during God Games. if the entire time, Odysseus had just been frozen on that ledge. and at the start of the Vengeance Saga, Ody's still on the ledge. he looks to the skies, to the trees, out over the ocean. he looks for an owl with knowing eyes and strains to hear her voice over the waves, because surely, surely she'd come for him. the haven't spoken in nine years and he ruined whatever relationship they had when he stupidly, foolishly let the cyclops live, but she has to still care, right? she was his mentor. she was his patron. he meant something to her. he's sure of it

but she's not there. he waits, but she's not there. he closes his eyes, sparing himself the view, and steps off the ledge

and is saved by Hermes. and Odysseus briefly thinks that he has died, since Hermes escorts souls to the underworld. but Hermes assures him that, no, he's alive, Athena heard him, she bargained with Zeus, he can go home now. he can finally go home

his friend came through

[lazylittledragon]

ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:

i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???

[bayofwolves]

Yeah I am mad about how the authors treated their sweet angel Abeke actually.

Bad things that happened to Abeke:

Mom, only person to understand her, died pre-series

Dad and sister are emotionally abusive

Tricked by her enemies and roped onto the wrong side

Distrusted by the rest of the Four and believed to be a spy

Targeted by Meilin in particular

Kidnapped by obnoxious pre-teen boys

Gets frostbite

Gets concussed

Gets stabbed

Gets captured

Gets beaten up by Meilin

Lied to and betrayed by her dearest friend

Meanwhile dad DISOWNS her

Understandable depressive episode

Makes up with dad because he apparently decided he wanted to keep treating his daughter like shit

Mauled by cougars

Loses Uraza to arch-nemesis Zerif

Another extremely understandable depressive episode

Nicknamed "hollow-girl" which tells you a lot

Almost killed by Uraza on two separate occasions

Friend* killed by Uraza

Denied proper resolution with said friend

Doesn't get to kill arch-nemesis Zerif

Doesn't get to use her Rain Dancer powers a single time

Attacked by ants

Mid bond token

Can't even keep her cat

Justice for Abeke.

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm 33 now 🥳🥳

[stasyalovem]

just want to talk about that moment in episode 7 when Edwin in Despair's realm, doesn't understand where he is and he said "i do not have my books…", so these words made me think that all those books about magic and other dimensions were needed for more than just their cases and investigations. it seems that Edwin began to study Hell in detail as soon as he escaped, looking for information about all its possible levels and corners that he had not been to, so that he would be ready in case demons found him and he had to escape again. because for the first time he had to spend decades full of constant torture to finally find a way back. but what hurts the most is the realization that he started learning magic and spells so that he wouldn't let anyone drag him into hell again. he hoped that with his little magic he probably might wouldn't be able to defeat the demons, but he could probably buy some time to escape before they found him again. poor boy, he's lived all these 30+ years in constant fear of Death who can make him and Charles apart, and the creatures from Hell who could come for him at any moment. and while Charles was trying to teach Edwin how to box so he could defend himself against other ghosts and whatever they might encounter in the course of their cases, Edwin was learning to defend himself against far worse and scarier things. and it makes me so sad

[my-pjo-stuff]

Luke is one of those "protagonists with every right to turn villain" who ACTUALLY turned villain. No wish fulfillment bad guy, no "cool" aesthetic change, no "oh well they aren't really bad". Just straight up off-the-rail villainy. He's a kid who's been mistreated for all his life, who lost almost everything and everyone he ever cared about. A kid who broke under the pressure and snapped at everyone around him. Those who harmed him aswell as those who loved him. Luke's arc is ugly and broken and realistic. He's the protagonist who broke. The reason you hate him is simply because he didn't break in that cool wish-fulfillment power fantasy way you want your protagonists to break. But the fandom ain't ready to have that convo yet.

[jackietaylorsghost]

YELLOWJACKETS: 105. Blood Hive ➙ 110. Sic Transit Gloria Mundi

insp @scaryorganmusic:

[iguessitsjustme]

No because Sun does not understand what "no" means.

Ongsa said that she didn't want to do the scholarship program with her and Sun took it the worst possible way:

Then Ongsa was upset that Sun just outed not just their relationship but also that she is not straight to her parents, Sun was immediately defensive and made it about her:

But let's also look at not their literally just started relationship.

Sun decided that Aylin gets hugged because "that's what friends do" even though it's very clearly not what Aylin does.

When Ongsa was still "Earth" and Sun asked Earth to meet up she always said it was fine if he couldn't but would become bitter when Earth never showed up.

Sun is so lost in her own self that she should not be in any relationship. She needs to learn to be a partner and listen when her partner expresses a concern or a hurt. Sun doesn't get to decide that someone's reaction to her actions are more painful and worse. She doesn't get to unilaterally decide things about her relationships with people and be upset when people disagree. She loves Ongsa but she sure doesn't like her enough to actually learn anything about her. Like...oh I don't know...how comfortable Ongsa is with being out. Or anything about her relationship with her parents.

It is okay to be ready for different things at different times. It is not okay to decide someone else's readiness for them and be upset when they're not actually there yet.

[supranatra]

HUMANITY CHECK JUMPSCARE!!

[vaguely-concerned]

I really can't say enough good things about the expression work they did with rook in this scene, the way you can see it all dawn for them and all the little nuances along the way. I've had some trouble at points to get rye's more distinct features to play nice with whatever the facial animation setup is (still always tweaking. every day in every way we get closer and closer etc., getting the mouth to move just right is such a struggle for many scenes lol), but in this it really worked out. perfectly. yeah, that is exactly how he would emote and I would DIE for him. just. look at him. his hard tight little mouth like a child furiously holding back tears. the shifts between vulnerability and anger, the swell of fury rising through that angry option. the way you can see his eyes go wide at hearing the companion's voices and how he immediately realizes that joining them means leaving varric behind. the warring emotions at 'you're not alone' -- confusion, wanting to protest, knowing varric is right but maybe not quite how yet. so much of the arc I'd envisioned for Rye going in hinged on this scene, and I'm so glad that when I got there it worked out so well. yeah. that's how it happened.

(I also like that you can see how tough it is for varric to be faced with 'I can't do this alone' and having to let rook down, in a way. it's the one time he glances away from rook not contemplatively but reflexively. looking up at the path they're going to have to walk -- without him. having to send them off with nothing but words and hope and your faith in them, because you can't be there with them anymore. and he only lets himself look sad when rook turns their back to him for a moment. the parent feelings in that. ouch aou aough I'm. fhsdjkfhas. ow. considering how little time rook and (plausibly real) varric actually spend on screen together, they really pack the animation so full of information and meaning when you look closely.)

also a true blink and you miss it moment but uh

yeah. sure solas wants to be a hero deep down. sure he deserves a second -- third?? fucking millionth????? -- chance to redeem himself. and I'll totally be the person to give it to him. don't you worry about it varric. you just rest now. I'll be taking it from here fhdsakj

extra heartbreak detail for the road: when varric tells rook not to get misty-eyed on him...

it's because they are actually visibly tearing up. so fuck me I guess

(also I know I'm always saying this lol allow me my broken record moment, but big shoutout to Jeff Berg for his voice acting as American masc Rook, this performance really has become so incredibly dear to me so quickly)

[tea-cat-arts]

Why am I seeing people come out of round 7 thinking Ivan meant nothing to Till??? Did we watch the same round??? Did you not see Ivan haunting Till's memories??? Have you never had one of those days so bad you have to cling to any good news to keep yourself sane???

Also why am I seeing people act like the series is done round 7 ended with basically a "to be continued"???

[moonspirit]

As a armin arlert lover, thoughts on floch?

Ooohh Floch.

Objectively speaking, he's a good character in the respect that he truly embodies what he represents in the world of AoT. Aside from coming from the camp of people who believed Erwin should've lived, I also feel he worked as a vehicle to represent the walled-in Eldians in Paradis (ie the civilians, whose opinions we really didn't see much of). The role Floch played in AoT was basically that of the other side; the side fighting against the Alliance, the side fighting for the "lesser good" if we take the overall picture.

Floch connects with a lot of other characters. Ideologically, he's closest to Jean, imo. Both of them are selfish, driven to uphold the causes that best protect themselves, but while Jean ends up seeing the value of human life, Floch doesn't, and that fundamental difference is where they both split away from each other.

With Armin, Floch comes with a profound lack of respect and a lot of hatred, because he sees Armin as the wrong choice, unflinching in his pointing out of all of the latter's flaws. However, here, Floch has a narrow-minded view of the world and lacks empathy while Armin's is wide open and full of empathy.

With Eren, Floch sees in him what he saw in Erwin. A devil who can get rid of other devils. Reminder here that the difference between Erwin and Armin is what drives Floch to idolize Erwin so much. He's told that no matter what, the SC must keep pushing forward, whereas what he actually sees once Erwin is dead, is chaos and confusion and the unwillingness of the main SC members (our 104th) to condemn the whole world for their hatred. So Eren's determination and new power ignites a spark of hope for him. For what he believes in, Eren is a god bringing them to life. Nevermind the fact that Eren never really tells Floch the end result of his plans (that Mikasa would be the one to decide what happens, etc), Floch takes Eren's "motivation" and runs with it, fueled by vengeance turning into brute confidence and little consideration for anything else.

As for the rest, Floch is the visual representation of someone seeking power to rid themselves of fear and cowardice; and of the opinions of the masses in Paradis, a lot of whom we see agree with the Jaegerist ideology.

So Floch as a character has good character development, imo, and he presents himself as the foil to what the Alliance stand for. If not for the fact that he gathered himself an army and fought against the very same people he once fought with, he really would've lasted until the end, which is what makes his death in Odiha very sad for the Alliance who watched him die.

What Floch wanted (and by extension, Paradis) was not wrong in itself. Nobody wants to be annihilated. But Floch and the Jaegerists believed in a race of people, while the Alliance believed in humankind as a whole.

[soft-cryptids]

Mr. Pascal why you so good????? 

[hard--headed--woman]

today it's been one year since my """"lesbian"""" ex girlfriend broke up with me to download a dating app in order to meet a man and have kids with him and pretend she's never dated me at all. this post doesn't have any point at all i just wanted to share the fact that i once dated a woman who called herself a lesbian and who broke up with me to download a dating app, meet a man and have kids with him

[llycaons]

me and a beloved mewtual going LITERALLY and EXACTLYY to each other as we reaffirm a core part of the story being wwx's overall journey in his social dynamics to stability and security as he goes, not without tragedy and loss, but from a contentious and unsupportive main relationship in a hostile social setting that degenerates quickly into dysfunction and instability and violence to end up with a supportive and healthy and happy life partnership with someone whose main life goals involve taking care of him