#Please don't be mean to me I'll cry

[themaskednin]

(N̶o̶) Progress Update 11/02/2023

Hello everyone,

Firstly I would like to apologize for not updating and for disappearing and coming back and then disappearing again and then coming back without any mentions of progress. I really do appreciate all the asks and support despite my absence and lack of updates so I thought I'd write this to at least explain why, I feel shitty leaving people who want to read the story in the dark. I hope this offers some sort of explanation. More below the cut if you're willing to listen to a strangers feelings, it's kinda long so you don't need to read it if you don't want to😅

(Another thing, please forgive me if I come off as rude and annoying, social interaction is definitely not my strong suit)

The reason I haven't been making progress is because I can't write, I'll open my laptop or book, sit down and just stare at it. No thoughts, just emptiness in my head. I think it mostly comes from this fear I have, of not being good enough or that I'll write something that will disappoint people. So I procrastinate and put it off, distracting myself by playing games and doing anything except the one thing I need to do. Honestly don't even read much because it reminds me off writing.

I'm afraid that I will not be able to grasp the personalities of all the Canon characters and end up messing up and writing dialogue is something I'm afraid of too, I do not interact with people much and the kind of person who keeps quiet during conversations due to not knowing what to say and anxiety so I struggle with writing dialogue (Hope that makes sense😭). There's alot of elements to Naruto and I'm afraid I won't be able to manage it and as a huge Naruto fan I don't want to write something that will cause a disservice to such a well-written story.

To sum it all up: I am afraid of writing, and not being good enough, (I'm also a very lazy person I think). When people (in my case that is) are afraid of something they'll likely want to avoid it all they can, and that's what I've been doing. However I'm trying to overcome this fear and maybe setting goals will help. This story is something I do not want to abandon because Naruto is very dear to me, it sits in a special place in my heart, being able to be part of it is something I want and need (kinda cheesy lol😶). I also don't want to abandon readers and everyone who is waiting on this story so please, wait a while longer (If you want that is).

This is not a guarantee that I will update soon but it will update one day (unless I die or something beyond my control happens). I think this all I have to say, damn it's almost been an hour since I started writing this😆.

I hope all of you reading have a lovely weekend...and week...and month and year and-

Thank you all :)

[triglycercule]

horror being very specific with table manners and he berates people (dust and killer) for eating like fucking pigs

i think it'd be morbidly funny that because there was no food in horrortale but the cutlery and stuff was all there that maybe he would pretend to eat with no food on the plate. it was in a satirical way that he would joke maybe around horror paps or alone where he would pretend to eat and have really good table manners but then the satire joke became REAL and now horror is incredibly specific about how to eat food

you MUST hold the fork in the left and knife in right says horror. no killer you can't duel wield the fucking knives this is a table not a slaughterhouse. dust pick up your elbows off the table. actually how about you get your entire upper body off the table tf why are you SLEEPING ON THE FOOD??? killer's sitting fetal position in the chair because of course he wouldn't sit normally like the idiot he is. dust is forced to put his hood down and reveal his face no more mysterious shadow style because it puts horror at ease. they cannot have a single peaceful meal because once they get past the table manners phase it then becomes a completion to see who can eat the least (because they suck at everything including eating)

[mythology-void]

guys. guys both Poseidon and hermes think they're terrible fathers but they were both willing to make unimaginable sacrifices to make sure their sons were safe. guys. guys pay attention

[lynettethemadscientist]

I'm scared

[youremyonlyhope]

why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

[stellacadente]

i realized how much it scares me that my mind will convince itself of even the ugliest things if i start thinking them often enough and it's... yeah. like i had a good session with my psychiatric rehabilitation therapist i think it was very useful but then at the end i got hit by this feeling of fear... like i'm so scared of myself and how low i can get

[tardytothepardy]

🍊✨

I wanted to draw her (transparent version and reference under the cut)

[sensitivegoblin]

Ramble/update/vent

[filet-o-feelings]

I forgot getting into this bed at my parents' house is basically an Olympic sport for someone of my height.

My parents got an alarm so I'm now locked in and can't even open a window. It's hot in here and nice outside and I just want to open a window 😭

[triglycercule]

Murder trio

i actually cried seeing this in my inbox i will not lie. like actually fucking cried tears of joy /srs absolutely no words can express just how absolutely thralled i am that you drew this. i'm actually ACTUALLY so so overjoyed and flattered and so happy that someone could manage to encapsulate just how much i love the jk!trio and just how silly they are and how you put your own spin on this and made them just as cute and silly and amazing as i've always wanted to see I'M ACTUALLY CRYING THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR DRAWING THE JK!MTT 😭😭😭

im so sorry for the late answer i have literally had no time to draw but TYSM FOR THIS I DREW MORE JK AU 4 YOU TO THANK YOU❤️❤️💜💜💙💙 ‼️‼️

they just got out of an extreme gaming session at the boardwalk arcade and now the suns setting and killer wants to get ice cream before it sets so they can watch the sunset but as usual she's a bit too excited for horror and dust to keep up and dust is absolutely dying (she gets ZERO excercise and killer is FAST) and horror just wants to take her time and also spare dust from killer's wrathful running speed. its ok though they manage to eat the icecream while watching the sunset even while slowed down (the vibes in this one are immaculate this is what jk fashion au stands for. silly fluffy important friendship bonding memories. i love. it's not full effort because i wanted to get this done quickly so i wouldnt respond late but im UNFORTUNATELY busy and now its been a day,,,,, I STILL LOVE THE ART YOU SENT ME THANM YKJ SO MUCH)

[inlovewithifsvns]

Did I make this blog just so I can post a wallpaper I made for my MC for @infamous-if? Maybe

Phoenix Cadence: he/they

(The large quote is from the Given movie, just adjusted to be related to Phoenix!)

(More stuff in the tags)

[professor-brain-juniper]

(@icetypelover) Floof? Floof.

Yes I'm fluffy. You can't touch me, though. I don't like it.

[outlying-hyppocrate]

imagine being like. human. i'm just a silly little creature. happy cryptid. occasionally a very sad cryptid who ponders its own existence and questions his sanity but. that's mostly during the winter months. we do not speak of the winter months. except for the fact that we are in them and. fuck never mind. i just need some tea and a bit of will wood to ensure my serotonin levels go back to normal and i can be. happy cryptid

[ducksbuttocks]

sorry i keep talking about this but genuine question am i crazy for thinking that this holiday he's on is borderline unacceptable when i didn't have too much of a problem with the one he took last year? bc last year they went camping in some town in tuscany which is like. okay fine i'm not missing some big experience i'm just missing the campsite pool lol who cares plus that's such a friend holiday. but this year he's touring a whole fucking country and sending me amazing pictures of all the landscapes and shit and that's like. something he should wanna do with me if he loves me otherwise why the fuck are we even together. this man wants to design a whole apartment with me but doesn't care enough to allow me to go on a holiday in croatia, especially knowing that me not going means i won't go anywhere at all for a very long time? i'm sorry but my brain can't even begin to understand let alone accept that

[gamebunny-advance]

You know what it is?

The people doing that don't follow this blog, so they're probably just liking/reblogging the old mix because it gets recommended when you like the other posts.

But still, that would imply that these people are coming from the tags, where the new version should still be showing up, so I still don't get it ;w;

[thatrandombystander]

For the most part I'm content with my job. I'm not passionate about my work but I don't hate it and am not too bad at it. I like most of my team members, even.

But then sometimes it starts really stressing me out, such as today where I spent half the day trying not to have an anxiety attack.